My Mental Illness (One Year Later)
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I figure it's about time to give an update on my mental illness and mental health/depression issues that have stemmed from my ptsd. I also forgot to mention that I haven't had a panic attack in over 6 months!
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Hope you get better man! Keep going!
You have 185 THOUSAND PEOPLE who enjoy your content and care about you... dont forget that man
@lollolson
6 жыл бұрын
Yikes dude, 3k views lul 185k btw lmao
@swashbuckler8717
6 жыл бұрын
Spum gets 185k views a video duh
@lollolson
6 жыл бұрын
Lul you just have to look at his 5 last uploads to see how bs that is, and the only video with a considerable amount of views is a clickbait title so that doesnt say much...
@RimaNari
6 жыл бұрын
So then it's 5000 people, allright. 5000 people is a lot. I can only imagine how comforting the thought must be that there is a considerable amount of strangers out there that care about you to some extend. Who can say that of themselves? Most people have their parents, friends and colleagues as people who care to varying degrees about them. Depending on ones situation, these groups can be small or not existent.
@lollolson
6 жыл бұрын
RimaNari for 6k views it has 700 likes and just over 100 comments, its safe to asume most people dont give a flying fuck that another person has mild depression... And 5k is alot, just not 185k which the OP was stating.
Good to hear from you again, glad you’re doing a bit better
Im glad you're feeling better :)
Super glad your still open to talking about it! Just know we all love you!
"The things I used to enjoy doing, I just don't enjoy doing anymore" Depressed effect. I got that one. I also have paranoia, night terrors, anger control issues, depression, lack of motivation to basically do anything, including eating and grooming like a normal person. I know what you're feeling (or not feeling, as it were.) and you got this man. I've been dealing with this damn thing for the last 15 years. If you can find a way to deal, a HEALTHY way to deal with it, stick with it. Alcohol doesn't help, trust me on that one. And to anyone else who reads this, if you have ANY kind of mental issue, GETTING HELP IS NOT A SIGN OF WEAKNESS. Spum, you got this, man. Find the thing that makes you feel better (and is healthy for you, let's not forget that part!) and stick with it. Keeping a journal, exercising, making silly videos, playing video games with friends, posting memes on Discord, talking with a therapist, even taking medication to help balance the brain back out (some side effects can be a bitch, tho.) all ways to deal. YOU got this, man. You need to find the dedication to keep at it, because you got the motivation down pat. Love ya, man. Keep at it. You got this. And I got your back.
@jurgenkuyper209
6 жыл бұрын
TheDarkPreacher I am in the same situation
@user-xs2yl7jg1i
5 жыл бұрын
I main mei
I am so sorry man I have been subbed for years to you I hope u heal also miss your mc and science content glad to see anything tho
Love you, bud!
Best of luck to you man. I hope things improve for you
I support you 100% man, I hope you will miraculously get fully better.
Glad to hear your doing better! That last part about dedication really rings with me, thank you for that :)
Good luck with your struggle brother, it'll get better don't let yourself give up.
We care. I hope you get through this. You are a great guy and I enjoy your content.
Hope you get better very soon.SOOOOO happy to see you again. Love your video’s bro
I’m sorry to hear that this so still happening to you. I am currently dealing with anxiety and OCD and I know sometimes it sucks and I want you to know we are all here for you.
Love you! I lost my sister a couple months before you said these things were happening to you so I’m here I guess! Happy to know you’re feeling better and I miss your content in my feed! Keep up the good work and I’ll be here whenever you decide to come back!!! Miss you lots but good thing you’re feeling better!
damn dude i needed those words of wisdom at the end, i wish you well!
Hope u can get through this man ur a great guy and u r an amazing youtube keep going man
Always gonna be here for ya spum, from the streams to the videos, we love you. I remember tuning into your streams almost everyday all summer last year, and I hope to see you return to that, you seemed to really enjoy it. Having JA always there too, and the grandma skits were hilarious lol. But we get it too, mental illness is a whole other beast that we have different experiences with. We're always here, I'm always be here. And thank you for sharing your life with us too. We do care ❤
Hope ya get better soon brother. We are with ya
Just as you said, keep pushing through by continuing your routine, that’s what made me survive since I was 15 now 21, also, I’ve changed prescriptions a lot, it’s important to take it for at least a month before you tell your Med that the secondary effects are too bad, unless you go weekly for check-ups, once you find one that you can keep up with, stick with it. P.S. love you ❤️
good to hear that it's getting better, hope that keeps up and that you can get out of this bad spell.
It's great to hear you're doing a bit better man. Same thing here, my PTSD's pretty much gone. Not completely, but it's dropped to rather manageable levels of depression/anxiety. Motivation is definetly a hard thing at times but I've found some things I enjoy. Glad to see we're both getting better though.
Love ya brother. Do what you gotta do. We all want what's best for you. Just try be the person that your dog thinks you are and you'll be fine!
We really do care man, and I am happy you're trying to push past it. As someone who has dealt with depression int the past, albeit not to an extreme degree, I can understand your situation nothing you used to enjoy is quite as enjoyable and it's hard to feel like you matter to anyone. The best advice I can give is keep going the way you are, you are doing everything right and you have a large community here supporting you every step of the way. I myself have been a fan since back in the days of your MC videos and I know I'll be around til the day you decide youtube isn't for you anymore. I believe I speak for many of us when I say we love you and we hope you know you're not alone!
Don't think that we don't care about you or that people don't care what we think about!! we care!! Also your part about motivation was really helpful to me. Thanks
Great to hear from you, man. And you're not alone. I've been dealing with my own demons for a long time, but things are getting better. Hang in there. I look forward to your content when you're ready to jump back in.
I appreciate the update man. Hearing what you were saying made me self reflect. I thought I had left depression behind, but I am having an issue like you described. Things I used to do I pretty much just can not do anymore. I also thought the complete lack of motivation was something else.
Hope you can get better!!! Big hug and wishes of a more healthy future :D btw been watching you since the chickenator 5000 … i think it was 5000, i dont know by heart, and this is to say that i love all your content… keep up with your good work :D
I have an employee who works for me they explains his own episodes like this too. It's tough and he chugged on as best he could. there are times he has to stop and go home, and there are times he's fine. the important thing is to remember that the people pushing you to keep going, including yourself, are doing it because they care. not because they're trying to ignore it. whether this helps or doesn't I don't know, just felt share-ey
I hope you feel better ❤
Stay strong man, seriously, you got this:)
im having a particularly bad day and am going through a lot of old youtube videos i used to love. hope ur doing well now spum. miss you lots.
Alright man, hope you feel better. You got over 185,000 people by your side
honestly it's good to hear something about this and it's awesome that you seem to be doing better I'm glad to hear it you know I was on the same boat as you like quite a few years ago but I know I still struggle today because a year and a half ago I got reminded of it all by a ex friend and I've been going through the stuff again i mean if I'm completely honest I never got the proper treatment because like hell am I going to tell my parents I have another medical problem that I need help fixing and another reason is that I believe I can get over it myself one thing that really helps me is hearing about it like you said so you talking about it is just nice because it's good to know I'm not the only one another thing is talking about it like actually going around and telling the story of what I have and retelling the memory which I know is the worst way to maybe go about it but for me telling the story helps me understand that it was in the past and that if I'm able to tell the story it shows that i survived it and I know I'm safe the reason I was shoved back into a worst mindset was because my ex friend when I telling the story got his gun and shot the blanks next to my ear when I wasn't expecting it and I got "triggered' and started beating the living shit out of him lucky my other friends were able to pull me off the guy because if they didn't it could have been way worst ever since then I dropped that guy out of my life because he's a fucking bastard and I found out he gave my current girlfriend PTSD because of some unwanted acts he commited on her which even worst he got away with it and it really horrible I'm getting off topic I'm sorry everyone reading this I do not need a pity party and I'm not asking for attention I'm just sharing my story kinda in hopes to help spumwack and others going through the comments dealing with this again sorry for being an attention whore I'll end my story hear but I do hope that everything gets better because it always does my dudes
Man youre an amazing content creator! I hate to see how a big channel like yours is only getting about 10k views now, I wish some other creators would just take you for inspiration because all of your videos have had thought and effort and hard work in them I strive to be as good as you one day. I hope you get better and hopefully can make more videos eventually :)
Keep fighting dude, we love u. And your minecraft vids comparing to the world are mindblowing
You have the same hair as your dog
@donutdefender2693
6 жыл бұрын
XchampionXFTW THANK YOU!
@lord_scrubington
6 жыл бұрын
Dogs always reflect their owners, my dude.
Happy to hear from you, hope you keep getting better. I always look forward to your videos, regardless of format. Also say hi to your dog for me.
Repeating a successful routine will help condition you into doing it everyday, your An awesome person Sean keep telling yourself that every day when you wake up its a new day a new chance to figure new things out. Take it a day at a time always remember you have people out here that wonder where you are. You are not alone I'm With you my friend.
hey! mccree just got a buff maybe this will make you better
@imrendered
6 жыл бұрын
The damage fall off (increase?) is just what he needed.
@alihantaspnar5068
6 жыл бұрын
Bu kanalda ow oynayan bi Türk !
@alihantaspnar5068
6 жыл бұрын
PS4’den oynuyorsan ekleyelim birbirimizi.
@Buuster1999
6 жыл бұрын
Olgun Ercan no not mccree fuck that guy
I'm so glad to hear that you've been getting better! I'm sure you won't (because why would you lol) but I'll always be available to talk to. You're pretty much a stranger to me, but I don't care. I love helping people because I know what it's like to feel trapped and have no one who wants to help.
@imrendered
6 жыл бұрын
Hey bud, I'm really sorry to hear you're dealing with depression, or rather that you have it. I hope you feel better when you're ready to. You're one of the few Overwatch content creators I don't find obnoxious, and I know I'm not alone in that. I'd love to see more stuff from you but you don't owe us anything and if finding your passion again means finding a *new* passion... so be it. I like you, so you do you m8 and I'll grate my teeth through YourOverwatch.
It is worth the time. I am happy to hear that you are working on feeling better. I hope to see you succeed in life. I'm sure I'm not the only fan that thinks this way either. You can be an inspiration to people with mental illness. (Sorry if this comment puts pressure on you in anyway.)
great video highlighting very important points good for you
This is actually really interesting and eye-opening from the viewpoint of someone who only feels bad when I'm hungry or I can't do as much as I'm motivated to do (which happens a lot, because I want to do so much and I just don't).
Just know that your viewers are here for you. Every single time you upload (even the update videos) I get excited. I hope you continue to enjoy making content and that you feel better soon.
Congrats on the lack of panic attacks :D that's awesome. Mine come in phases. Doing ok at the moment..stopping smoking helped I think
I can't begin to imagine what you've been through... We're with you.
I can relate, so all the good for you. Dont give up.
PTSD? Thank you for your service to our country.
Stay awesome man...Stay awesome...
hey spum. as someone who deals with depression myself, i feel what your going thru. just hang in there, buddy. the biggest thing i can say that helps me is to remember that no matter how dark the night, day will be just as bright. hope it helps
We do care! Keep on fighting, it does get better over time, you got this! Went through this myself, finally seem to have left behind most of it by now. And i agree, motovation is bullshit, dicipline is key to making continous progress.
Just found your channel man i love the shot you make its really funny, hang in there
Keep on keepin' on bro!!
Keep on moving forward, everything will get better :)
Hey Spum, (been here since musefarms, you're my fav youtuber actually) chill and be strong, you can always think of all your audience, we'll always be there!
Spumwack, you have made such good content that 185k people have actually subscribed to you. That is a huge number and every single one of those have subscribed because they value your content and therefore they value you, the creator of that content. So yes we definetly do care about you and we hope you get better man.
Incoming generic, but sincere comment: Hope you get to feeling better dude.
Missed you mate! Get better!
Had to deal with depression too, not ptsd though. Hope things keep going upwards for you!
I'm subbed to you, but I didnt watch much of your videos, i'll be honest on that part. But I clicked on this video, and watched the entire thing, that counts for something, right? Hope things get better man, more doggo plz.
you’ll get through it
I hope that you get better soon :D
For being brave enough to actually talk about this stuff, I salute you sir! The other 185k and I have got your back. I hope your muse inspires you to find whatever the hell works the best for you, screw everyone else, you take care of yourself and the rest will figure itself out. But not McCree, f*ck that guy
Hope you get better soon, or sooner than you expect
you're assuming that other people don't like hearing your voice. we do, and we really appreciate the update videos. thanks for being you
hey i understand how it is to go through these things, i may not have PTSD but i've been dealing with anxiety and depression for as long as i remember. it kills your ability to do most things and it makes you feel like large chunks of your life go missing. all i can say is make sure you're talking to someone, a therapist, a psychologist, a trusted friend, being able to get your feelings off of your chest often helps, and feeling like there's someone who is there and will listen and accept you no matter what helps even more. about the medication, you may have already been told this and if so i am sorry for repeating, but it often requires you to try multiple different medications before you find one that works. for me it took me three medications before i found an anti depressent that actually helped me. regardless of whats what, take care of yourself!
Hope ya feel better :)
You're hilarious! Not in this video but just saying you're talented in making my voice uncontrollably wallow in joy.
Get well soon!
We are out here for you my men ;)
You will get better you are the funniest person on KZread which speaks his mind
I really appreciate this. Some people close to me are experiencing similar mental health problems, do you (or anyone else) have any advice on how I can be a positive influence for them? Things to do and not to do?
I've been watching sence you joined the Hermetcraft server and i wan't say get better soon
Good luck my man
I feel you mate, you just gotta to talk to people more i struggle with that myself
I know how you feel man. I think I have depression because all the things I loved doing I no longer have the motivation to do them. My forgone hobbies are either replaced by nothing or by bad habits like just laying in bed a lot of the day and sleeping longer than usual.
Love ya, buddy.
Hey spum, I have Never gone tho the issues you have but it is honestly great to see you in a better place than previously and having the mind set to work towards your goals ... I hope a simple thank you and cyber hi 5 is a good way to finish this post:)
Thanks, man
I know how you feel, I'm suffering from the same thing. It gets better just hold on
God I fucking love this channel
I get that occasional anhedonia it lasts for like 2 weeks and I actually can't do anything because not only do I not enjoy the things I like, but they suck, and everything else sucks harder. recently, the thing that helped me the most is just talking to myself sort of like a self therapy session I guess I just sit in my car on my commute to and from work although you can just take 5 10 15 minutes out of your day and just talk to yourself just say whatever is on your mind and don't keep anything in your head. :)
Hope your ok bro
*We love you*
I don't genuinly comment on videos, or like them... This however... This is a special case. I've been part of your entourage (if you can call it that) since the Minecraft Muse and I really enjoyed all your videos. You have changed, and not a little bit, but quite a lot over the past few years. Change is good, and we need to embrace that. From series of minecraft videos to scientific videos on weird stuff, to Cynical Overwatch reviews (if you wanna call them that), all of your videos have entertained me. I've been in a depression for a while now, and all I can say is that people around me, especially those who don't know I'm depressed, help me get better. The ones that DO know either joke about it, or try too hard to help, so... Yeah... Just another quick thing: I hope you keep on doing what you do, for the fun of it. If you stop having fun, then what's the point in doing it? Have a good one
we will still.love u
i feel u on the lack of motivation bit. i get that all the time. try music, it helps me :] good luck brother.
The meds they tried to give me made me worse too bro. I found Sativa (cannabis) and it sorted me out for the most part - finding the right strain is key. Take it easy dude, dont feel pressured to make videos and remember you are not alone ✌❤
Maaaan. I need to make videos. Thank you man. For real.
I do care, mental illness is important to me, and expressing stuff like this is vital so it doesn't bottle up.
Messy room. Unkempt hair. Big bottle of lotion. You're not alone. And you totally don't look like your dog. Best!
mu dude, you should really go see a therapist or something of the sort, trust me. Maybe the one you saw was bad or something and that's normal because finding a good one can really be a hassle but me and my brother are going through depression for (3 years for me, 8years for him, you heard me 8 YEARS) Depression and PTSD are mental ILNESSES so you need to heal, one way or another. And most importantly don't feel bad if others are doing better than you. Everybody's differennt and reacts differently to things.Love u and I KNOW you'll get trough this good luck and stay strong!
@heliodorespecht6083
6 жыл бұрын
Hey No panic attakcs for 6 months !!!! that's so amazing keep it up homie
good luck :)
Love yo dude
You and your dog both rock that hairstyle btw.