Thank you...

@RippleAffect

2 жыл бұрын

Sorry to hear about your brother, he's with Jesus and the way you can meet with him again is repent and be baptized in Jesus name Acts 2:37-39 God bless you

@Will_Smith_Slapping_Xi_Jinping

2 жыл бұрын

I moved my family out of Chicago, after the military; it's just not safe. Nearly 666 homicides a year, just due to one gang.

@jeffreylebowski2440

2 жыл бұрын

❤️🇸🇰🇪🇺

@crittybitty1353

2 жыл бұрын

@@RippleAffect ummmm... i know your hearts in the right place but you are assuming your way is the only way. I urge you to not put your higher power in a box

@xixi560

2 жыл бұрын

Thank YOU brother, genuinely

I’m so sorry 😢. My son died when he was 13. Even though it’s been many years, I still can’t talk about it without breaking down. My heart reaches out to you. By the way, it’s not self pity, it’s grief.

@martinlastname8548

Жыл бұрын

Might be worth talking to someone only once. They do not have to reply.

@arthurtan2938

Жыл бұрын

losing a child is by far the most painful thing any parent has to go through. we also lost our child over a decade ago & every time i look back at it or be reminded about it, really can't help but get quite emotional and had to really restrain myself if i'm not alone.

@nateg9770

Жыл бұрын

My older brother and only brother died at 19 I was 14 at the time 1998. It destroyed my parents and myself, 25 years later and it still feels like it was yesterday. I watched him suffer for a month in the hospital before he died. Fucking motorcycle. I'm very sorry for your loss🙏😥

@phabebarcelona863

Жыл бұрын

Yes so true Greif bereft is not self pity..Nd one grief in silently in the Heart for life You don't get over you just get on n if you faith God brings you peace in your circumstances

@BrownEyePinch

Жыл бұрын

The pain never goes away, it just becomes easier to manage over time

My older brother, whom I idolized, died in an accident while I was in my 20's. I did not handle it well at all. I self medicated for years as I had no help to process. There is absolutely no pain like that of losing a sibling. I'm glad you are remembering him, he was adorable. And I do indeed believe you felt that when he died. My 5 year old stopped dead in her tracks on a school field trip and randomly said "I don't want to be left alone." Us parents kind of laughed as kids are weird. Wound up her father was killed at that moment. 1000 miles away. I think kids are more open to that kind of stuff. Again, thanks for sharing.

My little brother is fighting leukemia right now. He hasn't had chemo in 2 weeks, he's still is throwing up. It dawned to me tonight he might not beat it. I kept that thought to myself and drove home after he finally passed out. Thanks for the talk on the way home You tube algorithm can almost guess what your thinking about.

@serpentza

Жыл бұрын

Stay strong brother, regardless of the outcome your bro needs your support

@domasbajorunas4514

Жыл бұрын

Give him chemo treatment as fast possible

@megannoe2057

Жыл бұрын

I lost a childhood friend last week to cancer. She knew she had lost her fight about 4 months ago and like a hero looked death in the eyes and showed nothing but grace. She has 5 little girls 15 and under and was only 35. I hate cancer and I hate even more that the likelihood that cancer cures are out there but financial gains are to great for the 1% er's of the world to loose . I pray your brother kicks leukemia in the ass like a boss.

@obamasteeth

Жыл бұрын

How's he doing?

@Detroittruckdoctor55

Жыл бұрын

@Obamas Teeth things have gotten alot better from that dark winter. Me and him took a charter out in lake Michigan for brown trout. He still has 2 years of chemo to go, though. That night *i commented the original comment*was really bad and i had back road ride home, i was looking for music on my algorithm and YT recommended Winston's video,it helped make me a little stronger by listening to his speech and motivated me to stay strong during them rough winter months.

Thanks for sharing about Miles, Winston. You’re not wrong about that feeling you got before he passed… I’m sure we do have “connections” like that with people that we can’t explain. Thank you again for talking about this difficult topic 🙏

@BillHicks420

2 жыл бұрын

The simpler explanation is that it is normal to have certain feelings when loved ones go through such operations, and then you assign more value or importance to it when the operation go bad, afterwards, and especially as you grow older and think back.

@MaouHoi

2 жыл бұрын

@@pana1657 You sound like those people who deny the realities indian face when they watch slumdog millionaire, karl isnt that kinda guy

@clickallnight

2 жыл бұрын

Hey Karl, love your vidos. Cool you follow Winston too!. I'm very sceptical, but I have my own unexplainable connection story like his, so it's hard to discount...

@marcelkruger5187

2 жыл бұрын

Had no idea you watched ADV. Hope to see you make a new video on your channel going on another adventure soon.

@KarlRock

2 жыл бұрын

@@clickallnight thanks 🙏

Holy shit doing this live is really brave. Big ups for being this real, this is such a valuable video.

@sofeckingtiredofwokepeople

10 ай бұрын

Ive been watching this I guess a year after this video was posted, and i so relate to this guy. I grew up with an ex-military father who was working with a diplomatic department (thats all Im allowed to tell about his job) but i grew up all over the world, had to have self defense training many times as a child and teen, carried a weapon from the age of 15, saw many deaths and crimes in the places i was at. Our house was grenaded, we had to have a military evacuation, brought back as necessary personnel, and grew up seeing things i should never have seen. I understand why he blocked out the memories. Ive done it too.

My husband died at 50, it took me around 5yrs to accept his death, you're right it does damage you. My daughters and I talk about him often, sometimes we cry, sometimes we laugh, we keep him alive by talking about our memories with him. My health declined too and I put on weight but I'm getting better and have lost nearly all the weight I put on. Time doesn't heal our loss, time allows us to learn to live with our loss 🙏

@catharperfect7036

Жыл бұрын

Not long after my uncle shot himself in the head my cousin awoke to him sitting at the end of the bed smiling down at her. She could tell he was communicating (just like in Winston's case) that 'it was alright, not to worry'.

@MrDedvalson

Жыл бұрын

I love that, learn to live with our loss.

@Jack_Redview

3 ай бұрын

@@Blanco1967sometimes, it’s important to understand when to make a comment , and when to have a thought. This was a thought moment as it contributed absolutely nothing to the person sharing their grief other than an uncomfortable feeling

@Blanco1967

3 ай бұрын

@@Jack_Redview Yeah I could not have been thinking right when I made that comment. Nice pfp

Oh my goodness, I feel you deep grief and sadness! My 2 1/2 year old son died 8 years ago in a drowning accident in South Africa. Its the most traumatic thing that’s ever happened in my life. I was 10 weeks pregnant when it happened. Never feel weird when you get emotional, it’s so good for your heart. Jesus was my saving grace, when I was weak, He was my strength, still is. I can not imagine getting through such a loss without God, must’ve been so tough especially as a teenager. 😔

@nadogrl

8 ай бұрын

So sorry for your loss. ✝️❤️

We like hearing your stories man. Don't ever feel bad about sharing important times from your life.

Thanks for sharing too. My wife sadly just died last week in hospital, we have been together for 25 years. We used to watch you're Chinese vids and doco together a lot. Losing someone does suck.

@Aethereality

2 жыл бұрын

Sorry for your loss

@taniagudka1966

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry Raul. 25 years together is so special ❤️❤️❤️❤️

@TheHekateris

2 жыл бұрын

💕💕

@giacintaah

2 жыл бұрын

Im sorry about your wife, I hope you find peace eventually ❤

@dac8939

2 жыл бұрын

Sorry for loss. However, remember the 25 great years

As a doctor I have witnessed many times similar situations when people have suffered similar losses and are "damaged". Especially fathers losing sons - they never get over it, and cope by not talking about it, because it is just as too hard and emotional to talk about, so they block it out as you did. But talking about helps you to cope - well done.

Cherish your memories!!! I lost my Mom when I was 6 and a 1/2 and I only have abt 3 memories of her. I'm watching this again. I feel the love you have for your brother. He was blessed to have an older brother like you!!!

@karenmancina8679

Жыл бұрын

So sad

It's not self-pity, Winston. You have the right to feel the way you do, given the tragic circumstances. Don't resist your emotions and don't resist sides of your personality - What you resist makes stronger. If you resist being angry, sad, mourning, and things like that, it will continue to get stronger until you could find yourself in a vicious cycle.

@aoeu256

2 жыл бұрын

Holy crap Serpentenza has a very eventful life, like his mother got shot, his brother died, he got his ass kicked several times in China, he got a wife who is a doctor, he was became the enemy of tons of pro-CCP people.

@lindseylagasse3319

2 жыл бұрын

Are you concerned if your daughter goes to the hospital for any reason

@mookfaru835

2 жыл бұрын

I think it's the other way around, it's complicated, but the more you DO a behavior the stronger it becomes. The more you get angry, the more often you are angry; sometimes you get angrier. Same with any emotion.

My father died at work of a heart attack one morning in 1975, I was just 15 years old, my sister also died 27 years ago, aged 38 years of ovarian cancer in Toronto, my adopted native Australian brother died of heart problems at the age of 52, he won Australia's very first Stolen Generation case & was awarded 750k but died 1 year later, life is hard when it is constantly on your mind, I am 63 & glad to be here with all the memories of our lives together

@malibu64

2 жыл бұрын

So sorry for all the loss you’ve experienced… wishing you as much peace and healing as is possible.

@kilburn1313

2 жыл бұрын

@@malibu64 Thank you

@marlak4203

2 жыл бұрын

Wow. That is a lot of loss. Sad it something you have maybe to be "used" to. Hearing about your adoptive brother is interesting. I hope it wasn't any funny stuff that happened to him after he won that case.

@ScarlettRoseOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

@@kilburn1313 Our condolences from the other side of the world ❤️

@kilburn1313

2 жыл бұрын

@@marlak4203 Thanks for your words, my brother, Bruce Trevorrow was in my family before I was born & the government told my parents he was an abandoned baby by his family which was a total lie, there are 3 books written about him, life is good & you are off to a good start each day if you can put your feet on the floor in the morning, as my mum used to say

I lost my sister when I was 14 due to a genetic disease and watched her deteriorate over 5 years. It's rough losing someone that young and it does change you. Thank you for sharing and putting into words how I've been feeling for 12 years.

I haven't talked to my little brother in over three years, he disowned me. If he passed I would still be heartbroken worse than the loss of any other family member.

@nadogrl

8 ай бұрын

Perhaps you can reach out?❤

@TacoSallust

8 ай бұрын

@@nadogrl Thank you for your feedback. I tried 2 months ago, the call went very poorly and I have not heard from him since.

Serpentza , when my mother died, many years ago, too soon at the age of 47, I dreamt she came into my bedroom, looking younger and healthier than before, she said " I didn't want to go but I'm alright now" I take this as a visitation and I think you could also take your experience of your brother as such....and...like my mother, he wanted you to know he was ok. Very brave of you to speak about this.

@roxannekeomaka4754

2 жыл бұрын

I also had a visit from my deceased husband the day I was going to his fathers funeral. In his visit he was all and healthy and smiling. I was so happy to see him smile because cancer ate him up and he was miserable at such a young age. But when I saw him in the dream, I said,” Joel you are all well and happy” and he replied, “ yes, Dad is coming today.” I was so relieved that he was no longer one and was finally able to put my pain and loss in a better place. I’m so thankful for that dream. I still say I’m an atheist but that was a gift I will not toss aside or question.

@allanshpeley4284

Жыл бұрын

@@roxannekeomaka4754 Maybe it's time to toss aside atheism for "I'mnotsureism".

Winston, Real MEN do cry, don't ever be upset about showing emotion over something so touching. You are still being a great big brother, Miles is probably very proud.

@luke144

2 жыл бұрын

Crying should carry no shame!! It's like farting. Everyone does it and if you choose not to you are going to get sick. There's a time and a place for it but it a very human thing to do. It's how you know your alive, it hurts. My grandpa was the toughest man alive and he cried every Christmas. He did it in front of us all. I would ask him why he was crying and he told me he was crying for a lot of reasons. You don't even need a reason to cry, sometimes it just happens. It's something real people do. He also told me you can't cry too much and watch out for people that don't cry. This video is making me cry god damnit, but I'm proud of my soul, I can hurt for others. I have respect for people that can cry. We're all human and this $#!+ Isn't easy!!!! +77 respect points!

@stephenbrickwood1602

2 жыл бұрын

@@luke144 yep.

@borninthewrongtime6449

2 жыл бұрын

@@luke144 Totally agree, Luke..Sounds like Grandpa was awesome !!

@timwilkinson2797

2 жыл бұрын

@@luke144 Great post !!

@belstar1128

2 жыл бұрын

Well when things get really bad at least i only cry when someone i know well dies or when i am in extreme pain.

My daughter would have been 48....gone for 46 years but I think of her every day......I am sure everytime you see someone that looked like your brother the last time you saw him it will slam you in your heart.

@jimbeam7160

7 ай бұрын

You'll see her again in heaven.

@detective2221

6 ай бұрын

@@jimbeam7160 Or he won't go to heaven.

“Grief is the price we pay for love.” These words were said by Queen Elizabeth II during Princess Diana’s funeral (and also on 9/11). Having gone through grief, there are waves of emotions. I still grieve for losing our unborn child. I’ll pray for you bro.

@lot6129

Жыл бұрын

No, it was during the 9/11 attacks

@kellyprice1024

Жыл бұрын

That is how I describe grief. Waves, that wash over you and then fades.

I lost my younger brother 9 years ago. I'm still dealing with it too. The best advice I've ever gotten on dealing with the lost of a loved one is treat it like an amputation. You will never heal or recover from it, you just have to adapt, adjust, and learn to live with it. RIP Myles.

@Doo_Doo_Patrol

2 жыл бұрын

I agree. Brother amputated, and must move on.

Your brother really did hug you…being “callous” is more accurately blocking your own process with grief. Grief is natural and demands it’s due eventually. You are among good company. Miles looks like a beautiful little brother and we are honoured you shared his memory with us. ❤️

I recently lost a brother before Christmas. He was 30years old. He had covid and was getting better and one day he didn’t wake up. By the time my dad and sister went into his room, he was already gone in the middle of the night. Strange thing was he was very functional the day before and was cooking, cleaning and talking for hours on the phone to his best friend. It was so tragic and we still can’t believe he had left us to this day. Thank you for sharing your story.

@user-nr5rc3sw3r

10 ай бұрын

In covid they killed many pipl it was greatest hospis since wwii

@GospodinJean

6 ай бұрын

Im really Sorry for ur lost. May I ask if he was vaccined and if he had any comorbities?

@annavoong8229

6 ай бұрын

Unfortunately he wasn’t vaccinated. The night before no one saw him struggled and he was very active. No health conditions either.

@GospodinJean

6 ай бұрын

@@annavoong8229 I'm sorry. Really

@Jack_Redview

3 ай бұрын

@@GospodinJeanmay I ask what was the point of your question ?

I am 22 years old, my brother is 11 years younger. When he was born I felt I now had a reason to live. If he passed I could not imagine any sort of healthy recovery. I am so sorry for your loss

My 16 year old nephew was killed on his birthday by a drunk driver last August. My brother and his wife, in their pain, grief and anger, have become quite mean and nasty. This tragedy has torn my family apart. You are right when you say it damages you. None of us will ever be the same. xx

@col.cottonhill6655

2 жыл бұрын

Wow. I wonder if their marriage will survive. Many don't after a tragedy like that

@kaedee13

2 жыл бұрын

@@col.cottonhill6655 Good question. They have isolated themselves from half of the family (me included) and have dropped many friends for things that were done and not done. Even things from the past, which have nothing to do with their son's death, they have brought up to castigate people. It's a very sad situation.

@lydiamalone1859

2 жыл бұрын

It's the whole cruel Injustice of it. And you are right, none of you will be the same.

@glennoc8585

2 жыл бұрын

Sorry to read of your loss. I'm sure time will make things easier for your family

@kaedee13

2 жыл бұрын

@@glennoc8585 Thankyou. I hope so.

My oldest daughter died in 2006. My children don't talk about her, but I think about her all the time. It's my feeling that you have to talk about and think about your brother in order to honor him. And one more thing.. just remember that your dear brother would not want you to be sad. As I told my other children, our time on this Earth is predestined, and not everyone will live a long full life. It's always been that way and always will be. But you were lucky to have the gift of your brother for as long as you did. I feel for you...

@MysteriousFella

2 жыл бұрын

Your kids probably do that talk about her for your own sake… I would hate for others to talk about my dead relatives.

@Ken-no5ip

2 жыл бұрын

My grandma died today and this helped me much. Thank you for this

@billallen4793

Жыл бұрын

@@Ken-no5ip I'm sorry for your loss!...from Wyoming USA 🇺🇸 🤠

Great video. Miles's loss definitely affected your personality. Sometimes losing composure can be a good thing. This was a good way of processing it.

You should write a letter to your brother. It is very cathartic and you will be amazed with what you write for him. It helps process, and it helps celebrate his life. It sucks when people die, and theres no way to be prepared for it. After a person you love dies; you are forever changed. It is what it is. Very awesome video, it is not easy to share this sort of content. I tip my hat to you Winston. Stay awesome!

We live in a society where we avoid reminders of death. Thank you for sharing and helping.

@adrianafamilymember6427

2 жыл бұрын

We can not forget the past and future is always ahead of us and the present is always here Sorry for the hammy saying

@scintillam_dei

2 жыл бұрын

For one of my sister's birthdays once, I said: "You are one year closer to your death."

When I was young I found my dearly loved brother dead in his car. 25 years later I found my second son dead in his bed.Yes, it damages you. The brutal reality of permanent loss hits like a sledge hammer. The second time is much worse because you know what you are about to endure. .Everything you thought you you knew about life and love turns to dust. It's nothing like you may have imagined. I took to alcohol for years when my son died and now I find myself working full time well past retirement to try and recoup what I lost. It's a brutal world.

@LilyGazou

2 жыл бұрын

🌺 I can’t imagine that pain.

@angiemynia8004

Жыл бұрын

May you find peace my Luv.

@skip9827

Жыл бұрын

The Amount of pain is surreal

@User-718_

Жыл бұрын

Stay away from drugs kids

Since I'm a pastor (passport American, born and raised in Japan and living in Nagasaki prefecture now) I am obviously looking at this from a different perspective than you. At the very least, I admire your courage in doing this video, and believe it was probably good for you. In terms of Miles dying during heart surgery, my father did the same, but at age 64. However, I too have seen a lot of death, including finding one of our church members who had died in his home. The police were a bit shocked at my matter-of-fact response to it all. Death is very much a part of life, but I have a very strong conviction that death isn't the end of the story. My wife's heart stopped when we were in our 20s and she saw heaven, but was mercifully sent back, since we had two young daughters at the time. Know that I care, regardless of how tenuous our connection, and I do and will pray for you.

@mansendwish

Жыл бұрын

I hope you're right but I know you're not

@Blanco1967

Жыл бұрын

@@mansendwish for certain?

@ze_kangz932

Жыл бұрын

​@@Blanco1967After death its either eternal life(literally or just through reincarnation) or eternal darkness

@Blanco1967

Жыл бұрын

@@ze_kangz932 but can you be certain. Not just of your point but anything having to do with the supernatural, God, or lack of?

@ze_kangz932

Жыл бұрын

@@Blanco1967 No we can't. At least for now. Or maybe never. But you can find comfort in religion, or in the fact that if you've been dead before your birth, you can be dead after your death till the end of times.

Winston, thank you for your vulnerability. This video helped many people (myself included) feel a little less alone- especially those of us who are still trying to figure out how to "correctly" process the death of a loved one/important person in our lives. We appreciate you dude.

I found my mom on the floor only minutes after she'd passed away, but as she was cold to the touch, I knew it was too late to save her. My father passed away literally in my arms as I was trying to get him to the hospital. It's critical to, not only deal with death in a healthy way so that we're less "damaged" over our lives, but with healthy healing we can celebrate and embrace their memory. We miss them dearly, but with reverence and fondness rather than only pain and suffering. I believe that it's also important realize that we are fragile. People we love can be taken in an instant. l try to tell people that they are important to me, I appreciate them and care about them. It's awkward, but they only have to hear it on their birthdays.

@LieutenantBonk

2 жыл бұрын

@@SatanenPerkele Thank you, that's very kind. It is something truly catastrophic. I can only say that any detail that is pre-planned is a blessing. Of course a Will that is understandable, End of Life directives in a known location with telephone numbers, but also even down to headstone design, casket, songs at funeral. Literally anything. Let people help, and be helpful, etc. Something that saved me mentally was to recognize something each day that I was deeply grateful for. That might sound weird but it was an antidote to pain, suffering, and nihilism. -Thanks again. Wish you well.

You don't give yourself enough credit dude. Hearing your experiences and stories on YT, it seems like you've been through hell and back. You and your family seem incredibly strong, you're an inspiration Winston.

I think I believe like you do. I also had an experience when my mother passed. She came to me in a dream a few days later. She comforted me and it gave me peace and help me move forward. She was older so it was easier to accept her passing; but, that experience truly helped me move forward and accept the loss of my mother. I believe your brother's spirit came to you, as well. Losing a younger sibling is incredibly difficult. You were at a challenging time in your life being a teenager and trying to figure out your identity and who you are in becoming an adult. Also, being an older brother and his protector to some degree had a big impact because in this instance; you couldn't protect him. I am sure that had an impact, as well, even though it was in no way your fault. You sharing with your community here was a good idea; you went through grieving this day that you didn't maybe deal with properly as a young man. My heart goes out to you; as you deal with this incredibly sad memory.

Winston, this is one of the bravest things I've ever seen anyone do on social media. You're being honest with yourself finally and doing the right thing. We cannot ignore grief. There's only one way out and that is through. I will say this, once you've experienced your grief fully those memories that are painful now will become joyful to you again. It might not feel like that now but, grieving does pass. Trying to shove it away or push it down just makes the experience of feeling the loss last longer. Lastly, I'll just say this. Your brother had he lived would not have wanted you to always feel sad about his life. He would want you to process this grief properly and then be able to experience happiness and comfort in your memories. I wish you nothing but, a peaceful soul in this journey.

Jamie Anderson said, “Grief, I've learned, is really just love. It's all the love you want to give, but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in the hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go.”

@FlynLatif

2 жыл бұрын

Some say grief is as important, as beautiful, if not moreso, than the love we experience while connected. That something greater than what we would usually attribute to love arises in its wake which is the ultimate love, and that love without loss isn't yet love. We lose loved ones through more than just death and I try my hardest to appreciate the perspective loss affords for the true knowing and experiencing of that love supposedly lost. The temptation is to forget but I believe to truly "let go" and to "move on" is to become able to carry that love with you... and thus to affect; is to have "moved on" so far that you've come full circle.

@Sindrijo

2 жыл бұрын

@@FlynLatif Grief is love. The people we grieve would not want us to be sad and mope, they loved us too, so we must accept their love. We keep receiving their love after they are gone whenever we remember the happy times we had together with them.

My best friend died in his sleep when he was 16, he also was born with a similar heart condition and had no treatment. The odd thing was a few weeks before he passed he told me to not spend so much time with him and to find other friends, not in a mean way but in a matter of fact way.

@theeggtimertictic1136

2 жыл бұрын

That's very interesting. I know a man whose wife died of a brain haemorrhage and he said during the week before he felt a distance developing between himself and his wife ... almost as if she was pushing him away. Strange.

@angryalbertan9353

2 жыл бұрын

I can shed some light on my experience dying from cancer. If you two are interested. But it may not be what you want to hear.

@pangaute

2 жыл бұрын

@@angryalbertan9353 Spoiler alert, we're all going to die 🙂 I don't take anything for granted. Like you and millions of others I've also beaten a life threatening disease nearly 10 years ago now. I wouldn't trade that experience for anything, it's been a blessing

I'm glad you posted this video. I lost my brother, too. You're right when you say that "it doesn't change you - it damages you". I've certainly never been the same since his death. I have often thought "If the damage done to me was external instead of internal, I would look like someone who was hit by a cannonball at point blank range". I say that without exaggeration. But, since it's inside of us and because the death of a brother is not something that others can see, the experience and pain remains somewhat of an enigma to most people - even to our closest friends. This realization alone can be a very isolating experience. However, I have found that it is helpful to talk about it, even with people who have a little or no understanding. I'm essentially talking for myself, I guess. So, I try to just keep in mind that people do care, but they are uncomfortable because they don't know what to say or how to say it. But, it does help to talk and our friends want to know what we are really feeling inside because that is who they are actually friends with, whether they know it or not. So, I'm glad you are talking about it. There's no schedule, so whenever and however much you feel comfortable with is going to be just right for your needs in the end. It takes a while, but it does get more manageable over time. Trust me, please.

I sensed the exact moment my grandmother died. 3 minutes later my dad came and told me as he had just recieved the phone call. I don't believe in the supernatural, but there are so many similar stories regarding losing loved ones and there is no rational explanation for such intuitions. Anyhow, I'm sorry for your loss.

@liviuperianu5499

Жыл бұрын

I sensed the exact moment my mother collapsed in the street ( and later died ), and I tried to call her for a day until the rest of the family located her in a hospital. No rational explanation for that.

@drowningin

Жыл бұрын

My dad always told me a story. He was spending the night at his friends house when he was kids and he got up to use the restroom at 12. The big grandfather clock caught his eye and he saw his grandmother walking across the face of the clock. It creeped him out and he told his friend when he got back to his room. The next morning his mom called and told him she was coming to pick him up that his grandmother passed at midnight last night. He told me the story many times and it never changed which is why I remember it so well

@gokaren420

Жыл бұрын

When my grandmother died I felt a cold chill. I knew before I got the phone call.

@user-nr5rc3sw3r

10 ай бұрын

Its very often pipl can fill each other

My younger brother left us while he was in my arms literally seconds after telling me he was going to die. At the moment of passing, he looked as if he saw a window open and his eyes stayed open until I closed them. I feel like I have lost a limb. It will never be the same again but I'm going on with my life, experiencing new joys and new sorrows. I take comfort from the Gita (ch 2, vr 27): For one who is born, death is certain; for one who dies, rebirth is certain. Do not lament over what is inevitable.

@BigBodyBiggolo

2 жыл бұрын

May i ask what the cause of your younger brothers death was?

@User-718_

Жыл бұрын

@@BigBodyBiggolo drugs buddy, drugs

I lost my older brother when I was a teen in a large family. There was that loss, which was devastating, and then there was also the pain of watching those around you suffer with the grief and not being able to do a thing about it. Those were dark days that left scars.

One day, when I was 15, I wake up at the morning, everybody was sleeping, I went to living room and start doing morning exercise, after couple of minutes my dad walked out of his bedroom, we briefly chatted, at the end he said "I go get car from the garage" put leather jacket on and walked off, I proceeded with the exercise, after 10 minutes, or so, he poped out of the bedroom again, which totally surprised me, I asked how did he managed to get car so fast, his response shoked me, he said that he just got out of the bed and do not know what I am talking about. On the next day, he died in a car accident, wearing his leather jacket.

@serpentza

2 жыл бұрын

Sorry to hear that mate… but seems you’ve experienced something similar to me

@dmitriykropachev2560

Жыл бұрын

@@serpentza btw, blocking memories and feelings is natural reaction, and it works, but I believe it is better to reprocess it in regards of accepting that we all can die any moment, and we get to choose when we die through our actions. I believe that there is something in us already know outcome, before it happens, and need to listen it is the lesson we get to learn. Also, every other day, I wake up and imagine what it would be like if I die, or my kid or wife die, what I would be thinking at the last moment, what they would be thinking of time they spent with me. It helps me a lot to keep moving and become a better me. I hope it helped, wish you get it settled, overcome it and use it to make your self better, kinder.

The pictures of your brother are adorable, seems like a sweet little guy. Don't be hard on yourself, you were a child when he died, and you could not handle the pain at that age. You are allowing the pain to be felt now, in bits and pieces, and that is a good way to do it. I've had some experiences which I cannot explain, but these have led me to have strong religious beliefs. I do believe your brother, who left this life with a pure and sweet soul, did stop by to give you a hug, and his love for you endures as does your love for him. When all is said and done, the love we share with others is all we can we take with us after this life. He still loves you and you still love him. Nothing else matters.

I was eleven when my sister, age sixteen, died in an auto accident with her two best friends. I got no help, and it fundamentally changed my outlook and stance on life as well as my relationship with my parents.

@sparklesparklesparkle6318

2 жыл бұрын

Sorry for your loss what a terrible tragedy take care God bless.

@tamaraheater9695

2 жыл бұрын

I am sorry to hear that, the death of my father affected my relationship with my mother, so I understand.

@karinaemelie1665

2 жыл бұрын

🙏🙏🙏 sadley

@toneabet6252

2 жыл бұрын

What changed about your outlook and your relationship with parents?

@caymanwarrior6359

2 жыл бұрын

God bless you all. 🙏

Sorry to hear Winston. All the best to you and RIP to your brother.

@dsoule4902

2 жыл бұрын

Idt they "rest". They can help us from the other plane. Energy transforms. Doesn't cease.

Thank you for sharing your brother Miles story.. Again my deepest and sincere condolences, Winston. 😪🌷RIP Miles.

Thank you for sharing little brothers story, reminded me when i lost my nephew who drowned in a pool 2 years ago. Anyone would has dealt with loss could attest to this it feels like a unfillable empty hole in your heart that you carry with you for the rest of your life.

Crying when sharing this with us is the first step ... I feel honored.

I have been following this channel from many years but now i understand the name. I cannot imagine life without my younger brother, we talk once in say 2 week's ❤️ I am in Mechanical & he is in IT. We both know how much we love each other more than parents.

I don't believe in ghosts either, but there are some events that we can't explain. I have felt that feeling a few times, so I can relate. You don't get over it; you have to just let it fade away. Eight years ago, on November 3rd, 2015, when I was 43 years old, I woke up cuddling my wife's corpse. It destroyed me. I was on what I call autopilot for around six years. I went through the motions like shopping and eating, just trying to block it out, but it only got worse from there. You see, it all started in September 2015. My eight-year-old dog(Rotty) passed away in her sleep on a Friday night. Early Saturday morning, my father came and helped me take her down my stairs. We buried her, and then he died on Sunday night or early Monday morning. After that, a wave of deaths hit my family. My grandfather, uncles, aunts, sister-in-law, father-in-law, mother-in-law, so including my wife, dog and father- I'd say 12 to 15 family members- passed away in their sleep during 2015-2016. I attended funeral after funeral, losing all of my closest family members. I don't know why any of them died. The coroner here only does an autopsy if it seems suspicious or is clearly a murder or suicide. He declared my 44-year-old wife dead by natural causes, without even touching her. He stood around 10 feet away. They left me there with her body. My mother came and did some things, and someone took her away. She was cremated a few days after that. There is no known way past these things; you just have to keep moving forward and suppress the memory while working or whatever it is you are doing and only let yourself remember things before bed and as you get up but the impact of the memory will slowly fade over time. When I started coming to my senses a couple of years ago, I weighed an unbelievable 370 lbs. I'm now down to 270 lbs. My autopilot must have included a whole lot of eating. 🙂

Hey, Win... wow.. That was amazing. You really put yourself out there and it really means a lot to everyone here, I'm sure... We love you, man. I know this is an old video, but it is powerful.. Anyways, thanks again for being so open and raw with this. Be well, my friend.

I was in the ICU with my dad when he died. All of a sudden, I felt a rush of "wind" going through my body and I, instantly, knew that my dad had left. I choose to believe that that was his spirit going through me. It took me years to go visit him at the cemetery and even longer to cry...and when it hit me, I let it all out. Hope that time comes for you and you can feel lighter and more healed after it.

@uhuhuhv5407

2 жыл бұрын

I felt the same thing! I was there when both my parents died on seperate occasions and i get the feeling you describe.

@10Sambo01

2 жыл бұрын

I also felt this when my grandfather died; I was hundreds of miles away, but I felt that rushing 'wind' feeling and I actually said "WOW" out loud, it was that much of an impact. I didn't know what it was at that time, but I felt that it was a spiritual thing. Later I learned that my grandfather had died about the same time as I felt that feeling. In hindsight I think he was saying goodbye. It was actually pretty cool.

@lawrencefrost9063

2 жыл бұрын

See that's funny. My dad died and there was no spirit wind.....maybe...just maybe there are no spirits. There is no Chi or Ki or Chakra or Magic, no Ghosts, ectoplasm, demons, spirit creatures, trolls, ogres, fairies, lepcrechauns, werewolfs, witches, magi, afterlife or an astral realm, oni, kami, gods or a supreme being. But it doesn't matter. This universe and all the things in it is itself way more magical than any of the supernatural nonsense people believe in. The most important thing is that we exist here and now and we must make the best of the time we have because when you die, it's game over forever. There is no round 2, no level 2, no restart or reincarnation, no second attempt, retry, start again option. This is all we've got so apply yourself, memento mori. Superstitious nonsense aside, i respect the dead and always visit the graves of my loved ones who are gone, not because i think they can hear me but to remember their impression on me and the world they left behind.

@10Sambo01

2 жыл бұрын

@@lawrencefrost9063no one can know for sure, but I know what I vivedly experienced and it wasn't my imagination.

@lawrencefrost9063

2 жыл бұрын

@@10Sambo01 How do you know tho?

I have a little brother and god the thought of losing that little annoying and lovable bugger terrifies me. I don't know if I could even continue living if he were to disappear. I love him beyond anything else and he's been there for me through so much. He always brings me a smile with his antics everyday. That bond is something if lost would render me locked into a mental facility. I'm so sorry Sepentza you're a stronger man than I previously thought

The loss of a loved one is never easy. I still haven't been able to do what you've done here in this video w/ the loss of my mom. After watching this, you've inspired me to come to grips with it and overcome my emotional fears of facing it. Thanks for making this and putting yourself out there Winston.

Yea it makes perfect sense! you felt him giving you a hug, your body is just a mechanical tent, the you is inside. He went out and embrazed you, and you felt that. Accept it my friend.

I would encourage you to talk more about Miles to those closest to you and when you feel the emotion, don't shy away from it. Clearly you have never properly grieved for your brother. This weight on your shoulders has finally started to be lifted.

Winston, my respect for you, which was already high, is 1000X greater. You have honoured your brother by telling his story and meaning to you. This is a powerful testimony and I'm grateful that you made this. I hope you now feel free to tell his story and how his tragic early death has affected you whenever it feels right to do so. Sending you my thanks for all that you do on your channel. Patrick

@TheOceanLoader

Жыл бұрын

Hmm simping at an unemotional guy doesn't make them feel good imho friend. I agree though 🙂

Thank you for sharing! And if I can give you and anyone else advice: don't keep your feelings to yourself, don't try to extinguish emotions. If you need to cry? Do that, your body literally needs it to release the stress it's going through. Yes, you might never recover from loosing a loved one, but you should not keep emotions locked inside of you. No shame in having emotions.

@LilyGazou

2 жыл бұрын

True. If you suppress grief, it suppresses joy too. Learned that the hard way.

I’ve always loved your shows. Your heartfelt sorrow breaks my heart for you. You are a fine man Winston!

Losing a family member is heartbreaking. You be strong, I have lost both my parents. Dad when I was 6. Mom died on 2018.

@jeanwetherbee5039

2 жыл бұрын

Sorry for your loss

@anomitas

2 жыл бұрын

Hope you're doing better

I've been a fan for what feels like 10 years now, and this is my new favorite video of all time from you. I know it wasn't easy so I commend you for that. I lost my sister 2 years ago, and to hear this story and advice from you specifically helps more than just hearing it in general. Our outlook on spirituality is almost identical, and I have handled it similarly to how you did, so this hits home more than you can imagine. Thank you...Even though we may never meet, im glad we can be your youtube family.

It’s really is a tough one, I myself had just lost my older brother very recently!!😢😢

My second oldest brother was born with his main arteries around the wrong way. So instead of the oxygenated blood being pumped to the heart it was the opposite, because of this he was born blue due to the lack of oxygen. He was constantly told he wouldn't live past 25 but this year he will be 41. I'm very sorry for your loss man, my dad and I watch a tone of your content. Just thought I'd share a happy brotherly story :) God bless you my friend.

For me, it was my big brother. Still, all these years later I get the occasional spontaneous urge to ask him something, about a plane passing by or big brother advice... (he was a Captain in the Air Force). Just anything that garnered his input . But, It reminds me he isn’t here any more. He had gone on an training flight overseeing a student pilot, and never came back. It felt like he was still out there, flying... somewhere. just not reporting in or touching down. The news footage of the wreck just wasn’t acceptable and couldn’t have contained him and the crew. For the first while, some of the best photos of him seemed 3 or 4 dimensional. Like they were alive with his essence, to the point it was a bit unnerving. Sadly or otherwise, this faded away eventually... it just became a two dimensional flat paper image, like he went away, and in time it seems the memories had flattened just as much. I’m not sure if looking on photos and vids are a good thing or not, when they seem to remain and define all you recall, but all the rest of the precious small moments of memories fade out or take distant last place to “the archives” All the raw overpowering memories and things at first, that kind of seem torturous and too close, eventually turn around to feeling like more loss as the years go by and they become less of a powerful burn... He had a laugh that was unique which i probably had picked up from him unconsciously when we were kids, i sure didn’t intentionally mimic him... it came out in me a few times long after when I could laugh again. It startled me at first, was pointed out by the parent who overheard it who said that sounded like his laugh, and then i felt sad right away... a quick sudden happening, that disappeared right away after. Almost like a real visit, that turns out to have not happened. Disappointing...sad All the whole thing seemed to teach me is, I don’t have a helpful thing I can say to any one else in such a same place.... it would come out a mess and not helpful. And that time doesn’t heal (for me), it just scars things over. That can sometimes rip open again from a sudden startling thing that crops up, like hearing his laugh/voice come out of me for a second. As time passes, too much time, things feel so far away.

@roxannekeomaka4754

2 жыл бұрын

Hang on to his laugh. That is his spirit and the love you share. It suppose to give you comfort that all is well.💜💜💜

Thank you for sharing this. I lost my younger sister earlier this year. Always good to have others to relate to. Also, I had a similar feeling to the experience you had, about 12 minutes in. Thank you for sharing this.

@sparklesparklesparkle6318

2 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry for your loss that's so terrible. I wish you all the best God bless.

@fowchiiiliedpuppiesdied

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry. Grief is an mf. You just walk through it, keep walking, eventually, there is a bit of light….keep walking. Sending my love to you.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING ABOUT YOUR BROTHER. WE FEEL VERY CLOSE TO YOU IN SHARING THIS!!! ONE OF MY SPECIAL POEMS GOES LIKE THIS, I WALKED A MILE WITH PLEASURE, SHE CHATTERED ALL THE WAY. BUT NONE WAS I THE WISER, FOR ALL SHE HAD TO SAY. AND THEN I WALKED A MILE WITH SORROW, AND NE'ER A WORD SAID SHE. BUT OH THE LESSONS LEARNED, WHEN SORROW WALKED WITH ME!!!

Sorry for your loss. An incredibly hard thing to deal with... and the truth is that you will always miss him. I lost my brother who drowned in 1986. Very hard ...one day they're here, and the next they're gone. 😢

I've also lost loved ones Winston it's incredibly difficult especially for a young person. Thank you for sharing this with us it helps. Good luck to you and your family.

@sparklesparklesparkle6318

2 жыл бұрын

sorry for your loss I'm sure they loved you lots and lots

You are a real man, brave man, kind man, honest man. Love your channel.

Total respect for sharing the loss of your bro at a young age Winston. Better to have loved and lost than never loved at all.

Wow bro you have my condolences! What a wonderful, insightful video. I lost my little brother a while back. An I'm still learning how to deal with it. This video helped me feel less alone. Thanks Sir!

Thanks for sharing :) Same thing happened to my dad during a surgery 2 years ago so I could relate.

I'm very sorry for your loss . Just know that you're never alone . In 2018, all in a 1 months timespan, I lost first my little brother, then my dad and then my own son. All 3 gone in 1 month. We must tell our loved ones , we love ❤️ them today. Tomorrow isn't promised to anyone.

@borninthewrongtime6449

2 жыл бұрын

That's something I say to almost everyone I know..Tomorrow is NEVER Promised.

@sparklesparklesparkle6318

2 жыл бұрын

that's awful Starla sorry for your loss life is precious God bless take care

Thank you for sharing. I think it really was his spirit saying goodbye to you. I’m so sorry for your loss.

Thank you Winston. Thanks for sharing this with me. My mother died totally unexpectedly during an operation to take care of some bad teeth. I never got to say thank you, goodbye or to even tell her i love her. I am inspired by your courage to discuss such a personal heartbreak especially during a livestream. I am in awe by the way you faced such pain head on and handled it. All the while keeping your emotions in check. I wanted you to know that you are a good man and a fine example of a human being. No doubt you make the world a better place.

Thank you for sharing with us Winston. Traumas and death is one one of those things that when kept inside for too long not being shared or talked about it starts eating at you from the inside and damages more. This is good and helpful for you but also us. It made me confront some feelings and memories of lost people in my life.

Thanks for sharing your story. I can’t help but think that losing a sibling at a young age is one of the worst, most difficult of ordeals. Blocking out horrible experiences is a powerful coping mechanism and you just showed how strong these deeply buried feelings are. I’m glad you got this past trauma off your chest. Well done, God Bless.

I lost my grandmother today to medical negligence. She was 70 ~ odd, suffered with dementia and schizophrenia. I haven't cried yet. I don't feel anything to tell the truth. I think mainly because I never had a strong relationship with her: her mental illnesses & growing up abroad definitely played into this. Strange how this video is recommended to me right now. I differ to you where I am religious but if I'm honest, I feel spiritually dead. I don't live a life of virtue right now, I wish I could quit my habits immediately and do it. Best wishes my friend.

I really appreciate your openness in sharing what is a deep and emotional part of your life. I was really moved by the story of your life. I think only good can come from opening up about deep pain. Your brother sounded like a wonderful person.

If you believe in the hereafter, you can live in the hope of meeting him again and hugging him back.

Very relatable, blocking out the feelings is a way I cope as well. And just like when you began talking about that time and the memories and feelings hit, they do overwhelm. It's uncomfortable to feel that loss of control over yourself. I do believe so long as you remember someone they aren't truly dead, so you are keeping him going by talking here. Thanks for talking about it Winston and I hope you and your family have great years ahead of you.

That was amazing to talk about this publicly. It took a lot of courage from you, I am sure your brother would have (and has) appreciated it.

Winston, I watched this video because I had a younger brother that also died. In my case it was when we were both old men and it came as a total surprise as he died when he crashed into a deer on his motorcycle. I think your situation is much worse than mine due to the potential that was lost. Now I too will remember Miles as the younger brother of a man I have learned to respect and care about through this crazy medium of KZread. Thank you for sharing this very personal event and also thank you for giving me a view into China that is, I think, unique and powerful.

Thanks for sharing, Winston. My mum died suddenly (drink) just over 18 years ago when I was in my early 20s. 3 years later my older sister also died of a heart attack (we never got on). Coming from a small family, that doesn't leave me with many direct relatives. I can't imagine how awful it must be to lose such a young child but the memories are one thing you must cherish. I loved that comment at the end about the fox being called Miles. I bet he wanted to play him because of the name. Very sweet 😊♥️

I normally study in China but couldn't go back due to covid. I spent a year in Korea and found a really nice friend group. A few days before leaving, one of my good friends killed himself. Very bizarre, you spent a year with a person going to language school every day and then suddenly he's nothing else but ashes. Thanks for making this video

@EmLy420

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry - it is very jarring to know they are here one day and gone the next. A girl I know who was due to do study abroad where I was killed herself. We were speaking a week or so before about what a great time she’d have and how excited she was. No one knows why she did it. Fucked with me that did. Take care of yourself

Thank you for talking about your brother Winston. This video has really offered me massive inspirations in deal with losses. My step-mother just passed away today due to a car accident. Although she wasn't my biological mom, I had lived with her for over 10 years and we do share tons of memories with each other (good and bad ofc). She was a responsible and considerate lady who vastly cared about my education even though I wasn't her own child. I wish her a great afterlife - R.I.P.

I lost my son last year,it still feels like yesterday to me,the pain never goes away,as well as the love you have for each other ! Everyday I am in pain,see him here in his room,in our house,...can smell him still in his blanket. I feel not fair,cause I am still here,and hes not. I am sorry for your loss Winston. He will always stay a part of your live.

As men, we like to fix things. We try to find solutions, but it's always the things we cannot fix... The things we have to let go and accept as reality. In the end, it breaks us but we can always fix our perspective, cherish the good times until we too pass on the other side. Stay strong brother.

@Celisar1

Жыл бұрын

As HUMANS we like to do that. Really, don’t think in stereotypes….

@Kyle-pj2vc

Жыл бұрын

@@Celisar1Not stereotypes, it's the truth.

Dear Winston, thank you for sharing this. The fact that avoided talking about this for so long and tried to block it shows that you haven't processed it yet. You need healing. I would suggest you to try therapy, that big burden you are carrying around with you all the time can be smaller. Talking about loss and exprecing emotions is good, and needed. It's a weakness. You already taken the first step by sharing this with us, now it's time to take another step towards healing ❤

Hi Winston. It is not easy for you to share the personal sad story of your brother. I lost my mom when I was a teenager. For many years, I just tried to hide the fact and wouldn’t want to talk about it. I think it is maybe just a very honest human self protection. Lost someone is always very sad and very difficult to cope with it. We can only try to avoid the same tragedy happen again. We love them.

I feel your pain mate and it is good to talk. I lost my brother in 2009 and we were both adults but it still hurts now.

Winston I hope this reaches you: In 2000 I lost a close cousin who was like a brother. Very shortly after his death due to gun violence he visited me when I was in deep grief crying non stop. I don't know if this was a dream, vision, out of body experience etc. I was placed in an all white space. He was there in a very nice white suit and looked at me serious and said he was OK twice and we hugged. His last name was Miles.

Winston, your brother *did* come to give you a hug. Please own the experience as real. After my husband died and I, like you, did not believe in an afterlife, I continually 'explained away' remarkable synchronicities and events for several years, until finally my husband got through to me. I hope that you will come to accept that your little brother really did go to hug you after he left his body. Miles passed too soon and way too young. He is, though, alive in his spiritual form, continues to love you, and you will see him again when your time comes. Until then, you are the keeper of his flame.

My younger brother was killed by a taxi bus in Westville KZN when the driver drove against traffic. He was on his motorcycle and didn’t stand a chance. He was 44. This year it will be the 10th anniversary of his passing. I still miss him dearly. Peace my China. 💔❤️‍🩹❤️

The thing I like about your clips, is your pragmatic approach to almost everything. You don’t seem to dwell on individual things, but realise the importance of the things that need to be remembered. Happy for your successes, sad for your losses. Keep it up.

Hey Winston, my sister was 6 when she was in a horrifying school bus accident. She survived, it took a year to recover. Those events change everyone for life. Thank you for sharing this tender part of your life.

Thank you for opening up n sharing. It takes a lot of courage. May u n your loved ones be safe healthy n happy for all time❤

Sorry to hear . . . Blessings . . .

My little brother died 3 years ago on Feb. 7 2019. He was 31. I was 20 months older than him. I spent a week sleeping at the hospital until they took him off life support. It has been three years since it happened and I doubt I'll ever get past it. It has been made worse with these hellish last two years.

@matty6848

2 жыл бұрын

Joel that’s being a older brother you feel responsible. My older brother is exactly the same with me. Even now in our 40s my big brother feels like he needs too look out for me. But in all honesty it gives me comfort knowing my big bro looks over me. But I look out for him and would always be there for him if something went wrong..