We all have setbacks starpuppy. It's ok. You'll bounce back. Edit: I didn't expect this tiny little comment to get such mixed responses, but I feel the need to clarify some things. It was never my intention to invalidate Danielle's feelings towards her hair loss. As someone who struggles with hair growth and loss themselves with 4C hair, I understand that exhaustion, exasperation, and overall pain can be felt by a setback like this. Her feelings are 110% valid and understood. I've been through it, but as someone who doesn't know her personally but has watched her from her channel's near inception until now and getting inspiration on how take care of my natural hair and facing all that comes with it, I've seen what she has allowed us to see. The damage, the hair loss, and the length checks. I always cheer her on because I see a lot of myself in her, including the bad times. So what do you say to someone in passing going on their journey, you encourage them towards the future. I'm sorry if it triggered alot of you.

@TheStarPuppy

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Thank you!! 🥰🥹

@Bellz972

Жыл бұрын

That's right ❤

@anonymous-zd1oj

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@Trinity M i agree 100%

@raj1117

Жыл бұрын

Set back for a greater come back ❤

@JahleeyahKalonji

Жыл бұрын

@@TheStarPuppy look into pumpkin seed oil for alopecia. also, essential oils that help with alopecia

The title got me STRESSED. Edit: you’re always so candid and honest with your audience (as much as you can be) and I respect it. Anxiety is no joke and I wish you well.

@TheStarPuppy

Жыл бұрын

Thank you!! I do my best to be upfront about my struggles AND my triumphs.

@liberiangirlamericanworld6526

Жыл бұрын

Right

@valerieneal2747

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@@TheStarPuppy WE LOVE YOU, STARPUPPY !🥰

@dianeross4522

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​@@TheStarPuppyThus happened to me years ago. 2 spots and had to wear a ponytail to hide them. I went to a dermatologist who pricked my scalp (not painful) with a needle that had a solution in it. I forget what it was. Not even a week later there was peach fuzz then in just a few months it was long enough in those spots to wear my hair out. Between trims and continued growth it became a distant memory within a year.

@jerrilynsinclair7887

Жыл бұрын

I love you Starr

Losing your hair is traumatic, especially when you consider how we in the Black community are criticized by their hair. More than anything, I want you to remember that it's JUST hair. Your life is not in jeopardy and hair grows back. Even if it doesn't, you are NOT your hair. Shave it all off can be liberating. Relaxing may include releasing yourself from preoccupation with hair. It may require you to focus on other things.

@Bellz972

Жыл бұрын

Don't shave it all off😱, I did that and yes it was great for some months then it took me a year to get back the same length, it wasn't a fun time waiting for it to grow back 😭 it takes time u know 😖

@d.r.robinson9599

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thank you so very much for this...Her health is not in jeopardy...I had to tell idiotic folks the same thing when Jada Pinkett Smith and her hair loss and when that whole slapping ish went down...she still has her health and still shopping on rodeo drive and living her best life...trade places with kids who won;t live to see the next day or their birthday then come back with your tears...Hair will grow back...

@cayennejh

Жыл бұрын

To all the black girl, (myself included) you are not your hair, India Arie said it best “I am not my hair I’m and not this skin, I am the soul that lives within” ❤

@devineinterventionneeeded

Жыл бұрын

I have had bra length hair at the most, headache. Bald was a level of freedom unimaginable to me ❤

@sadiexoxo275

Жыл бұрын

completely agree, recently cut my hair off, serving face and feeling free!

I’m so sad, she was doing so well with her hair and it grew so much since the last time I watched the channel, I deal with anxiety myself so I can only understand how much stress she feels right now :(

@ayemad

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@Trinity M I agree. But in this case I think it’s more complicated due to how/why she lost her hair. She’s not crying. She’s being stoic about it. I personally think hair is just hair, but the circumstances are sad for her.

@t3knosoulz

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@Trinity M please don’t say this to people. She very clearly cares about her hair very much. This was unnecessary to say.

@DoItWrightRo

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@@t3knosoulz I agree. My daughters stress level has caused her to lose some of her hair and hormone levels. She is not a superficial person but she has grown her hair to waist length with a lot of care and time. I pray that it gets better.

@Shyknit

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​@Trinity M there's a difference when you don't have a choice tho. That's like telling someone who wants to be pregnant but can't that they shouldn't place so much value in it. The difference is a desire for something and having the choice taken away. I cut my hair to a buzz cut when I was younger just because I wanted to but I can guarantee you if I was forced to do it I would feel much more differently

I’m so sorry Danielle. Sending sooo much love to you and fluffnugget, it will be ok 💗💗

@doreenbucheler2746

Жыл бұрын

Your words”it’ll be ok” comforts me so much it’s so good when women can stand up for each other even though we’ve never met personally … Hugs to all GIRLS ❤❤❤

Girl what NOOOOOOO; this is so real though, my pcos makes maintaining length so much more difficult… and stress anxiety and diet are the worst triggers for me. Found out I’m deficient in a few things from my Dr a few months ago and started taking supplements; it’s helping with my period so I’m optimistic it’ll help with skin and hair 🥲

@thecure3982

Жыл бұрын

Do you know what your deficient in? I have pcos and am deficient a lot of things too. Working on it. Rosemary like Danielle had shown is helping me. I included sublimed sulfur recently along with some other oils.

@maverickbull1909

Жыл бұрын

What?!

@Dahlia_Kaitlyn

Жыл бұрын

@@thecure3982 for me it was mainly vitamin D, calcium, and magnesium. I’m also using rosemary oil now too! And trying to eat more regularly and healthily… fingers crossed for us lol 🤞🏾

@TheZchristina97

Жыл бұрын

I started taking supplements (iron, omega 3, keratin) and they helped me tremendously in just a few months. Also drink plenty of water and too should see results!!

@marlak4203

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I wonder if it also has to do with her being her own guinea pig with hair products? Hair channels that use various products on themselves all the time to put out contact run into having issues later on. Like a product junky you can damage your hair from using so many various chemicals on it over time. And chemicals from synthetic hair too

Sending love. I’ve suffered trichotillomania since age 16 and im 41 now. Had been doing really well but having a little flare now. Definitely not alone! ❤️

@DSBaker95

Жыл бұрын

Same here

Thank you for trusting us to share all of this! I’d watch a “Girl, Calm Down!” series but I hope you do it whether you post it or not. Keep being kind to yourself!

You're such an amazing person. The fact you're worried about someone skipping and missing important info, causing them damage, before you even post speaks volumes. ❤❤❤ YOU'RE THE BEST!!! Now chill and finish recovering. FluffNugget will be back in no time❤❤❤ Sending MAJOR LOVE❤❤❤

Yes! Calm down series could be everything you’ve spoken about before! Art, cosplay, ect. I think that would be super adorable and stress free as long as you don’t take them too seriously. (As an artist I know how that can also become stressful so just have fun!!) rooting for you❤

@stereo-soulsoundsystem5070

Жыл бұрын

"Rooting" for you lol im sorry i couldnt help but notice

Oh how my heart skipped a beat at that clip of your hair loss. Totally felt it when you said "a section is gone... it's just gone." 😢 I've also experienced alopecia in the top middle of my head due to a particularly stressful time in my life. Lost sooo much hair. Carrying anxiety in your body is such a real thing. That experience eventually forced me to learn how to really take care of my myself and my hair... so the rest of it doesn't fall out. I've been following your channel for a few years now, but this episode compels me to say a big 'THANK YOU, DANIELLE!!!' for helping me through the process. You've been a true blessing! ❤ Praying you'll be healthy on the inside and on the outside. 🙏🏾

The unconscious body tension is super relatable!! I’ll literally start to ache and then realize that I’ve been sitting in a tight nervous position for probably 30 min straight. I got back into working out and started rereading all of the books/series that used to relax me as a kid. Finding ways to unwind are severely necessary. Glad to hear that you know what to do to heal and I wish you the best!!

Thank you for being so vulnerable. I am sorry you’re going through this. I hope that even after this you regain your confidence and strength. Remember your hair doesn’t make you. It’s just an accessory. You’re still just as beautiful.

Whew chile! Yes! Been there. My hair fell in 2016 and never came back. I am down for a stress free series. We love you, we support you.

I have a similar issue and went to see a trichologist who told me my hair was falling out true to stress and nutritional deficiency. My vitamin D and ferritin levels were lower than the pits of hell. So now I’m taking zinc, potassium, vitamin D, iron, zinc, pretty much the whole periodic table it seems. Hugs hang in there 🤗

@alego8072

Жыл бұрын

How has the change in add'l vitamins been for you? Im discovering I also suffer from v low levels of vit D

U are such a charismatic open relatable person. Don’t let this discourage you. U don’t have to do hair all the time. Do the things that enjoy u…and if u want to throw in some hair content ☺️☺️☺️

I'm so glad Gen Z is more open with talking about anxiety. As a Gen Xer I didn't know or understand what I was going through in my 20s and it would have been comforting to know others experience the same. There was such a stigma that is slowly lifting. I've been dealing with it all my life and am in my 40s now. My crown was also affected but slowly growing back as I heal. Thank you for sharing your story with us and all the best.

A calm down series would be amazing! You’re not on your own in this trust me, we love and support you- personally I’m excited for that ❤️👏🏿

Stress is just a killer period. I'm glad you are now on a path of wellness specific to you. Godspeed dear

Well I’ve never commented before but Danielle you became a huge part of my life. I discovered you during the beginning of the pandemic when I was losing my hearing.Your energy and honesty in your videos how you produced and scripted the jokes it took the focus of what I was having anxiety over. You kept me company through many sleepless night I spent listening to the loud ringing in my ears, and I listened to you talk about hair. And your humor and knowledge about hair became louder than the distracting sounds that kept me awake. I can’t thank you enough for that. I will be praying for you Danielle. Anxiety and stress is no joke and I hope you find great results with care/ of, I will support you on your new channel.

I'm here for thr "Ma'am Calm Down" series cause stress be stressing. One free thing, one cheap thing, one boogie thing sounds like a great plan babes. Sending an internet hug

Wow it took real guts to post this. Super proud of you. Honestly here for whatever you want to post. Bringing back the 20's series sounds like a good idea.

That’s a hard thing to experience, especially when you feel like things are going right, and then all of a sudden things change. That can be very stressful. All will be well girly! Don’t give up! Be encouraged as well. 💜

Trich needs to be talked about more. So many of us suffer from it. I did the big chop last July because I couldn’t stop tearing out my hair. I’ve always had a nice length and had been natural for 10 years.I lost my sister in 2019, then the pandemic hit and black hair stylist stopped wanting to wash hair. My hair is now around 4 inches and I’m starting up again in the same part of my scalp that I pull from. Planning to find therapy and rooting for you as well! We got this!!❤

@devoutmisanthrope5687

Жыл бұрын

same. I've been struggling with it since 2019... I've done two buzzcuts and am now trying to grow my afro back out but I cant stop pulling my hair around the temples. it sucks because it makes me seem like I have a receding hairline but I just can't seem to stop :(

@menak8870

Жыл бұрын

I had trich from infancy to age 11. I then switched to scratching scalp to the point of bleeding. I cut my hair off almost 15 years ago and have never gone back. Best thing I ever did! I got a cute head shape though 😅

@bigron8308

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This may begin to help: kzread.info/dash/bejne/n6yrt9uOn7uuhsY.html kzread.info/dash/bejne/i2SsyMiHhJPQhKg.html

Stay strong StarPuppy! Stress sucks but, when you get through it, you learn invaluable lessons! In addition to really close to being old and crusty, I have had enough nearly bald experiences myself. Loved this insightful video ! Hang in there girl.

I can only imagine, Mama... The body is amazingly obedient & resilient. It will honor where you are. When we conquer our minds, our worlds surrender. Show yourself grace and give yourself time to master your thoughts/feelings. You'll get there. 😉 (...You're getting there! 💞)

@heighfreequeensea

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PS: You and your hair look beautiful, regardless! I can tell you have naturally high density hair. Give it AND yourself time... You'll see. ☺💫🖤

We love you Danielle! We are here for you and Fluffnugget! At least you know where you went wrong and have a plan to get back on track! Please don't stress....I know that's easier said than done. I look forward to the new channel! Will keep you in my prayers!

I would love to see the relaxation series! The free could be like a packed lunch and library date or movie night and skincare at home. The bougie one could be one of those inflatable hot tub purchases and new bathing suit or something with expensive wine or fancy drink of choice.

Start Puppy, your transparency never ceases to amaze me. You’ve created a safe space for our community. Love you 🖤

I am so sorry that the hard work you’ve done has been taken away from you like that. I would watch anything you post even if it’s not about your hair journey. You are so much more than your hair. We can see you’re thoughtful, talented and kind, and I’m sure you’re so much more to the people in your life. So much love to you!!!

I enrolled in KZread University a couple of years ago. I am soooo late to the online natural hair content movement/game. You were my first favorite and still are two years later. You turned me on to Ayurveda and hair oils - changing my hair game from superficial to health focused. Your impact has been felt and appreciated. Evolve, Danielle! Make moves. Continue to be a blessing on whatever path you choose. Peace, joy and abundance to you!!

"Clink my Link" -Star Puppy 😂😂😂😂❤❤❤

@TheStarPuppy

Жыл бұрын

✨🤩✨

I also had Alopecia Areata. Dealt with it for about a year. I was like 2 years into my natural hair journey, so it hit me pretty hard. I felt like, "Just as I was starting to feel beautiful in my own hair, my body goes and decides to attack itself". Thank God I haven't had any flare ups since. Its tough because you feel like your body is working against you. It was really hard but I got threw it. I know you will too🫶🏾 I'm wishing you the best. 🤞🏽 P.S. I don't think Alopecia areata gets spoken about a lot in the natural hair space, so thanks for this video. I know I would have loved to see it when I went through my diagnosis.

@terriannaivey5551

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You said had, how did you get rid of it?

Absolutely a calm series. Rest well dear!

Stress is no joke and I would love to see you series on working relaxing and decreasing stress methods. Soooooo needed for all of us. Thank you for sharing your journe. You are a beautiful soul!

Hi Starpuppy! I was almost teared up seeing the fall out section because I'm also currently going through stress alopecia, also on top of my head...it's been two years now that I'm fighting it and I want to thank you for sharing this because I really felt alone and sad about it I wish you'll be able to relieve yourself from the stress and that your hair will be able to grow back Fighting!!

Bless you for sharing; you are not alone in this problem. Your candor helps others toward healing as well as I hope sharing helps you.

Thanks for sharing and being so open. We appreciate you 🙌

don't ever feel the need to hurt your hair for us!! id love to see any variety of content from you

"MA'AM CALM DOWN" is a very much needed series. I have to remind myself to breathe some days. Self care is the best and I've learned to not feel bad about it.

I just think you are so pretty PRETTY!!! YOUR SKIN TONE, YOUR SMILE, MOSTLY IMPORTANTLY JUST THE WAY YOU EXPRESS

Oh goodness. Anxiety puts takes me out. So I feel your pain. Positive vibes to you dear.

Aww. Love your transparency here as a fellow black woman with trich.

I feel you so much . I have trichotillomania and I have the same exact bald spot in the front of my head . This thing can be really exhausting to live with and it’s like an endless cycle. You pull out your hair , your hair is growing , and you pull it out again , and the cycle restarts. A lot of courage to you, with love !❤️

Your transparency is EVERYTHING💛 I feel seen and heard through you😌

Danielle! I promise you your hair will grow back even stronger than before! Sending you lots of love and hugs darling ❤️❤️ please take care of yourself

Im so sorry u had to go through this 😔. Ur positivity is so contageous, i hope the things giving you stress will be solved fast ❤️🥹

Thank you for being an example of giving ourselves grace! I can’t wait to see the calm down series and join your other channel. In all this, remember, progress not perfection. At the point you are guarding, we, your loyal followers want you well!

This is bittersweet because I just started engaging with you and was including my teenage daughter as well. I also suffer from TTM since a child and had about 14 bald spots. It gets better and I commend you for sharing and being brave to set boundaries. My anxiety medication caused my recent breakage so I’ll continue to support you and learn from you…along with my daughter. Thank you for making me feel like I’m not alone and to embrace my 4c hair sis. ❤

Praying for your full recovery beautiful lady. Thank you so much for sharing I know this couldn’t have been easy on you . Sending lots of love your way.♥️❤️♥️❤️♥️

I love how you are so open and transparent about your hair journey. 💜💜💜

I would really like a “Calm Series”. I think it would be nice for you, and would also allow for discussion in the comments which may help people find new things that they can try to relax a bit :)

As a person who deals with stress. I pray the best. You being honest and open about your mental state and anxiety has made me understand myself more. Thank you for sharing!

Title freaked me out. I was wondering where you have been; was missing you. Sorry to hear about your anxiety and hair situation. Glad that you are taking steps for your health (hair and mental). Take care. ❤

I'm so unbelievably sorry that you had to go through this, I cannot even begin to imagine what that was like :(( Also on another note, I'm really excited about that second channel as a white girl that follows you for your personality

Rooting for you, Danielle! You've done so much for the NHM. If you want/need to pivot or even retire, that's understandable. It's well deserved. And so is your future success. Can't say I wouldn't miss you in this sphere, or that I could follow as closely with commentary (we'll see) but I, like so many, will always support you. Liking, commenting, subbing, watching the adds, and running it on loop while I sleep to increase that watch time are all ways I intend to continue to support the wonderful, beautiful, kind, and lovely woman who helped me find the beauty in more than what I was first taught was beautiful. Thank you so much!

A series on relaxation would be amazing. Thank you for sharing your humanity with us. I can’t tell you how much it helps. Thank you for being here and encouraging us.

I’m so sorry. This is really sad. I feel like too many of us deal with this. Something has to give.

This is so kind and brave - thank you for sharing your story and your honesty.

Hope you continue to feel better, the struggle is real. You got this👊🏾🙏🏾🤗

We're rooting for you hun. You have such a wonderful, genuine spirit and I truly pray for you to attain the best of health and success that you need on your journey. Wishing you the best of the best and even though you're embarking on a new journey, I have a feeling you will return to this chapter as we truly enjoy your hair journey as well :)

Sorry to hear about this happening. I have started to get grey hairs due to my own trichotillomania and a massive amount of stress right now, so this video felt personal 😅 I hope whatever anxiety and guilt you have regarding this fades and you get that crown back!

So sorry about your hair loss. I know you work hard to keep fluffnugget happy. Wishing you healing from stress and hair growth.

Oh no 😢 I'm so sorry.

I've always loved your approach to creating art and content and just living life. I've lost interest in a lot of natural hair content recently, so I'm actually really glad to hear that you're starting a new channel! I love a video essays, especially on nerdy topics, and I think you'd be absolutely perfect at making them. I always wondered when the other elements of your intro would come into your videos, and here they are! Proud of you for prioritizing your wellbeing and allowing yourself to branch off in. Look forward to watching both channels.

Omg I ran into your video after not seeing you since you started sharing your hair journey, and I have to say I was shook by the hair growth! You’ve done a tremendous job of caring for your hair, and I know you’ll be able to keep her healthy in the long run

Thanks for sharing Star puppy! I appreciate the honesty and vulnerability

Sincerest love being sent to you Danielle. You certainly are not alone and your subscribers would love to see anything that supports your health.

Hey Danielle 👋🏾 (hey Sam 🐕) My hair fell over the last few weeks also. The top of my head and spreading toward my hair line is scalped. I have CCCA, a type of alopecia triggered for me thru poor blood circulation, hypothyroidism, menopause and whatnot. I have decided to buzz cut my hair with no fades and feminine line ups. Why fight to maintain long hair? My stress will never go away...i own it. But my hair will no longer suffer.

I love your comeback after hardship. You are inspiring so many young people. I have an autoimmune disorder and my hair is vulnerable to my stress levels. So I understand. Be encouraged Danielle.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Yes to the calm down series please! Sending well and calming vibes ✨

Take care of yourself. Sorry to hear about your hair falling out. Get better, love your videos. Your pup is gorgeous.

I have never clicked on a KZread Notification so fast. Sending love ❤😢

I wish you ALL the Best in your regrowth journey Sis! ❤

I’m two seconds into the video and I must say I’m just happy you’re back! I’m here for more than your hair. I love your personality and it’s refreshing 💕you’re beautiful.

I have loved your channel for years. I found it because you were talking about hair. But I came back because you were so curious and funny and lovely. I felt the same way about @nappyheadedjojoba when she stopped talking about hair. You are loved. You are lovely. You will be loved and lovely whatever happens. Sending you best wishes on this journey. 🙏🏽

Wishing you and fluff nugget a speedy recovery ND better health sending hugs

Sorry you are having to deal with this . Sending positive vibes . It will get better

Bless you. I'm sorry you're going through this and no, you are not alone. Take the steps to take care of you.

Yes ! « Mam calm down » series would be great! Sending you lots of love ❤

Giiiiiiiiirl, I completely feel your pain. When my Dad passed in 2019, my hair went on a shedding spree for 3yrs😩 I was about to just say "screw it" and do another big chop but decided on locs instead. I couldn't believe how much of a toll on your health suppressing your feelings takes...

I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this. I’m sending you a lot of love and praying for you 💜 You and your channel are a blessing. I would absolutely tune in for a “Girl, Calm Down” series!

Totally understand where you're coming from. I carry my stress on my scalp and tense is my body's natural state! Don't let the content stress you out further, do what works for you. And good luck with the new channel!

You’re doing a great job surviving life Danielle. I can only imagine how stressful it is, to lose your hair due to stress when it’s a large part of your career and income. You’re doing a great job taking care of yourself. We’re not perfect, be patient with yourself 🫶🏽

I’m praying for you sis, and I pray your hair journey gets better. Try and remember to relax,breathe and read positive words of encouragement

aw Danielle i feel your pain babes :( i’m also going through the same thing, just like i know you’ll make it through this 💕 so will i. It takes times and it’s so hard not to stress but i know we got this babes don’t you worry. our hair will come back and we will live peacefully 💖💖

I'm giving you the biggest hug that I can virtually muster! I'm dealing with the same thing and only got better (including my bald spots) after getting a psychiatrist. It's so hard to talk about mental health, but especially in our community. But please know that we're all here for you and will help you patch up those spots, don't you worry!

@Star_Puppy8

Жыл бұрын

*Congraulations 🎉I have a (Mystery Box) package for you; Gist the above username for acknowledgment*

Looking forward to the new content! Sometimes the thing we love can flourish best when we just leave it alone. Your hair has been through a lot and deserves a break from all the experiments. You also deserve the mental break . Sending much love ❤️

I am sooooo proud of you, pup-pup ❤️

Here I am the funny one in the crowd. As I enjoy creating a chuckle. I know I use humor as a coping mechanism. It’s OK because life is happening and therapy always brings reciprocity. Lots of love and light to you.

I have similar issues with stress wrecking my hair...and scalp. Sigh but Sam cheers me up. I live vicariously through you and other dog owners.

I love you and indeed am praying for you, Danielle. Anxiety and stress manifesting in the body is real. Thank you for sharing.

oh oh. Stress was one of the reasons I chopped mine all the way off and why braids are what's convenient for me at this point in my life. My anxiety has been through the roof since last year so luckily/or not being in braids minimized my breakage but in showed up in my skin. I do not want to go through re-growing my hair from scratch again because I cannot promise I will be as gentle this time around. I am so sorry for your patches though but glad to see you back. I try not to partition my hair the same way on those rare occasions my hair is out as well because that can thin those spots out

Love your honesty as usual sis!!!!! Can’t wait to cheer you on this next journey!

Danielle, you got this. I told myself I wouldn’t join any more Patreons but I’m going to go join yours. I adore you and I’ve been following you for so long. I’m all for you expanding your content, trying out relaxation (highly recommend slow living & casual magic) and I look forward to more nerdy content on your other channel! I adore you and it’s all gonna be okay ❤️

I am sorry to hear that. Stress will do that sometimes and cause your hair to come out along with other problems

I love the idea of a calm down series. I like having something I can do with you as I consider you a friend in my head. Relaxing together would be nice

Thank you for sharing your journey with us. It’s easy to share when things are going good but sharing the lows is super hard. Thank you for being brave and showing what really happens in life. I feel like if we talked/shared when real life happens it is helpful for others to learn. Most of us are out here living without any insight on just how to do it. I could say more but no pressure for ANYTHING…take your time, be gentle with yourself and do what nourishes you.

You are so pretty! Just glowing! It's all gonna work out. I hope you feel better soon ❤

I recently went through a similar thing (it's been a few months and I'm still working towards the tuft) and it's hard and disheartening to see that much growth that you worked so hard for just gone again. Your feelings and disappointment is beyond valid but you've gotten through it before and because you already know what works for you it shouldn't be too hard to bounce back. I believe in you!!! (Also if there's no hope for your there's no hope for me so that pls stay encouraged so we all can do the same, your videos are literally what kept me from snapping)