Do whatever helps get you through this chemical terror. This month is two years Ct from Kolonipin. Thanks for the great talk! Love your drawing ❤️ keep at it.

@windowsNwaves

Ай бұрын

Thank you so much Brenda

I had akathisia for 5 1/2 months during my withdrawal. I could not stop moving. I marched around for about 19 hours per day. I went to a lake house to get away from home and found myself marching up there as well. I heard my oldest daughter on the phone. She said, "He's doing it up here too. No change" So, pacing and of course the death thoughts of doom and gloom that come with the akathisia were present always. Like Jordan Pederson said, "Sometimes death was preferable to what I was experiencing." I understand that wholly. Then one day my symptoms started to subside. I could sit for a minute. Then 5 minutes. Then for a whole football game. Now, I sit for hours if I want to. I am one year and one day from zero medication. Still suffering. But not nearly as bad as I was. I was on valium 30 ml per day for 15-20 years. Nice drawing.

@windowsNwaves

28 күн бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing this, Jim. I am very glad to hear you have experienced some improvement. I hope it keeps moving in that direction.

@jimferrill1790

28 күн бұрын

@@windowsNwaves I was never alerted to the fact getting off these drugs was going to be like this. I never would have started. Now, when I get a prescription, I immediately go onto my phone and look at the side effects. Then I throw the scrip away. They wanted to give me trazadone when I was suicidal. I refused it as it causes suicide. What a bunch of morons. We're even more moronic for listening to them. Right now I am taking a thyroid med. That's it. That's forever. I will never take another habit forming drug. (although any drug or action repeated over days is habit forming and an addiction) I went to see a psychiatrist as I wanted to get on disability. I could not function and still can't for the most part. (hold a steady job) He denied I had akathisia at any time. I said I was not going to argue with him but tell him my symptoms and let him decide. After I explained my symptoms including inability to sit down, he denied I ever had akathisia. BS!! Haha! I told him I didn't care what he thought. I like the explanation that if you've never gone through withdrawal from benzos you can't comment on a cure, schedule, rate of recovery, what it's like, what we should do. You don't know squat if you've never done it and should keep your mouth shut. Even if you're a so called health professional. They stink. They're the ones putting people on this garbage. Jim

3 yrs constant akathisia for me. Im constantly su#$dal. My body and life is wrecked.

@windowsNwaves

13 күн бұрын

I'm so sorry. Did the akathisia start after getting off benzos or another psych drug?

I had this from gabapentin and Suboxone withdrawal. It was traumatizing and I tried explaining it as restless body syndrome on top of the other WD feelings. PTSD from this and now I am just stuck on the meds

@windowsNwaves

2 ай бұрын

honestly if I couldn't get out from akathisia I would be back on the meds too. Between meds and endless torture it's not a question.

@jimferrill1790

28 күн бұрын

@@windowsNwaves I myself resolved that if it was the choice between suicide and the meds, I would go back on. My family can't suffer that. It would change them for generations. I am over that. Well over.

@windowsNwaves

25 күн бұрын

@@jimferrill1790 I'm glad to hear that you are over that. I would also make the same choice if I was ever in the same situation for exactly the same reason. But that is clearly the choice. A life of forever akathisia is unfathomable to me.

Did you hear about akathisic behavior that wasn't from long-term meds or not certainly traceable to meds? I wanted to talk about that, but felt badly different with my different medicatedness than the people i hear talk. I try checking for new videos now and then, though. I wonder why new videos come out, or if whatever action happened awhile ago was exaggerated, because silence seems general?

@windowsNwaves

2 ай бұрын

I think akathisia is exclusively related to meds. I think Parkinson's can be associated with it, but that is not the same. Are you dealing with akathisia?

@jimferrill1790

28 күн бұрын

From what I have gleaned, akathisia is from a change in medication levels, introduction of meds, or withdrawal of meds. Nothing else. I have never heard of anyone pacing their house for 20 hours straight from nothing. Maybe mental illness? I don't know. What I do know is my caregiver would go to bed and arise in the morning and I would still be up, pacing. That was torture. Pure torture.

💜🙏🏻

@windowsNwaves

2 ай бұрын

Cheers Katrina