Living w/ Borderline Personality Disorder...Finally Opening Up
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My story with BPD, self harm and more. Thank you guys for giving me a safe space to talk about this. On Monday, May 3rd, Bloom will be donating 5% of all sales made to the Brain & Behavior Research Foundation. We're excited to be making a difference as a community!
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I am a DBT therapist and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this video! You are normalizing and destigmatizing this diagnosis and discussions of mental health. Beaitiful work!
@PursuitOfWellnessPodcast
3 жыл бұрын
🥺💕🙏🏻
@Jayev110
3 жыл бұрын
@Erin Peterson how can I get help from you or someone else in your profession? I also struggle with bpd
@altafmalik2843
3 жыл бұрын
Is this disorder a mental illness or its just a personality disorder?
@elleirenex3
3 жыл бұрын
@@altafmalik2843 personality disorders are mental illness
@keithbennett9262
3 жыл бұрын
@@altafmalik2843 bpd is brain damage. If you look up 'bpd brain abnormalities mri scans ' you will see from various good studies that many parts of the brain have been affected, usually in childhood. Most drs still believe that it's psychological and family, friends and society have been duped into believing the bpd person isn't trying hard enough or its their fault if any treatment doesn't work. Mental and sexual abuse as a child is devastating. Most diagnoses are done over the age of 16, (mostly 18). The diagnosis process radically needs to change. Maybe mri scans of the brain at 10 years old could identify problems and help to diminish lifelong severe problems. Very complicated but 99% don't get any treatment. 10% of bpd folk alive now will kill themselves.
Another bpd girl here. "my upset was different to theirs, like I felt like my world was ending" is the sentence that sums it up for me. It has been like that for me. For years. I keep hearing "it's not the end of the world!" or "that's just a minor inconvenience!", when for me everything feels **amplified**. You got me crying throughout the video. I see myself in many of the stories you're telling in this video. Thank you for sharing :)
I was diagnosed with BPD 20 years ago. I have had many ups and downs, but I wouldn’t change a thing about my life. I am a rocket engineer with a wonderful husband and 2 healthy bright little kids. Thank you for sharing your story. 🙏🏻
@jaehoyt2834
3 жыл бұрын
Heck yeah!!!
@johazelisvelezagosto4074
2 жыл бұрын
Amazing!!!!!
@zz-ic6vy
2 жыл бұрын
Can i ask how you manage your mental health? Medicine, therapy? I was diagnosed 6months ago and i got meds that were working for me but i had very bad setback and now i feel just devastated. I had huge stress for couple months and my meds stopped working. Now i taking break off everything and trying to figure out what to do now.
As someone who suffers from bpd, I can imagine how freaking hard it must have been to speak about your experience on such an intimate level as those with bpd would prefer to suffer in the shadows. But the message is clear: it is possible for anyone suffering from mental illness to have a beautiful and full life. It is within reach so don't ever give up and make sure to use all the community resources possible in the fight. 💙
On my husband's account but thank you. Just figuring this out about myself after living with these symptoms for 35 years😢
I haven’t worked out in months because of my depression but after watching this you’ve really motivated me to wake up tomorrow and just get back into it, for myself and my mental health 💗
@kellyturner4571
3 жыл бұрын
You can do it 👏🏻
@lulukallinen3057
4 ай бұрын
Hope you are better now ❤️
Mari - thank you. Thank you. I am a music therapist working in a mental health hospital and I have struggled with my own trauma and mental illness since I was in middle school. It’s time we talk about this as a society and stop sweeping it under the rug. I’m so happy you are a part of my life and fitness journey 💕
This made me really emotional. Felt like I was having a deep conversation with a friend. Thank you for your vulnerability. It resonates more than you know. 🧡
Mari, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for discussing your life and journey of living with BPD. I lost my best friend to suicide in 2019 who was diagnosed with BPD shortly before, and I never truly understood the severe effects it has on a person. Living with anxiety and depression myself, I will continue to teach and educate others about the importance of mental health and taking care of yourself!
@PursuitOfWellnessPodcast
3 жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry to hear girl. Thinking of you and sending so much love
Mari, thank you for always ALWAYS advocating for mental illnesses. You are such an inspiration!! 🤍🤍🤍
@PursuitOfWellnessPodcast
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you for the encouragement love - always will!!! 💖
I HAVE SAID THIS A MILLION TIMES AND I WILL KEEP SAYING IT, EVERYONE DESERVES A PARTNER LIKE GREG OMG *UGLY CRY* MARI YOU ARE AMAZING AMAZING AMAZING. LOVE YOU.
What a brave woman this woman is. I'm just blown away. This video can help so many people,. Borderline is so stigmatized and misunderstood and to see someone share their inspiring journey so honestly and helpfully is just a tremendous gift to those who suffer with BPD and there loved ones. I am also amazed at the devotion and kindness of her partner That what real partnership is about.
Thank you SO much for this video. I’m 46 & was diagnosed with BPD 5 years ago. I’ve always struggled, people don’t understand how painful it is. This was perfect timing ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Can I just say I freakin love you! My mom died after committing suicide in 2011 after we got in a fight. I struggle with my mental health and exercise had changed me and is MY a therapy, thank you for your honesty
@tessapfeifer2087
Жыл бұрын
hello im kinda in he same situation as you, do you have any advice or help with a bdp person who lost my DAD in 2011 on his way to pick me up it was a fatal head on accident
@sophineo
Жыл бұрын
@@tessapfeifer2087 hey girlie I know u commented this awhile ago but I hope you're doing well, I've gone through similar and what helped me get through it is leaning on others, therapy, and reminding myself that it wasn't my fault. Take your time to grieve ❤
Thank you for sharing your story and working towards dismantling the stigma around mental illness ❤️ I would love to hear from Greg’s perspective what it’s like supporting someone with bpd, if he’s willing to share. So grateful for you!
@mirandarobles5739
3 жыл бұрын
I thought the same thing! They’ve been together through it all, it would be cool to hear his perspective and tips for supporting someone with a mental illness.
@d26s10
3 жыл бұрын
Agree... the maturity and love Greg had to stick by Mari throughout her worst moments is commendable. Especially whilst still being a teenager. I’m so inspired by their daily reality now compared to the harsh times Mari discussed. Amazing.
This video was so incredibly articulated. I’ve never seen something so raw & real on this platform. When you started to tear up, so did I! It’s incredible how you talked about wanting to be a strong person without even realizing just how strong you have always been especially for pulling yourself out of your mental illness & facing it head-on. I’ve struggled with anxiety & my weight for years but you personally helped me lose over 55lbs over a year ago & I’ve become obsessed with fitness ever since & you don’t even know me. You changed my life so I can only imagine the number of people you’ve inspired & impacted just with your openness about your illness alone. The world needs more people like you.. & Greg❤️ I’m so happy you’re here. Thank you for sharing your story & helping others feel more open about sharing theirs 🙌🏻
Mari- as an RN working in NYC during this COVID19 global pandemic I have seen such a dramatic increase in mental health conditions. Thank you for having the courage to use your platform to shine light on the importance of mental health and encouraging people to seek help when needed! Thank you for opening up and inspiring others to do the same.
Your brave journey is SUCH a testament to the power of love, belief in self-worth, getting off of the toxic influence of sugar and alcohol, eating pure foods and returning your body to the healthy and active way we evolved to be thousands of years ago. I have begun to think of the food industry as criminals in their pursuit of wealth over compassion and correct advertising. Think about it. There's no money to be made in advertising broccoli or apples because there's no middle man to make the profits all the way from harvest through processing through packaging and being out onto supermarket shelves!!! Mari, you and Greg are helping thousands discover, or rediscover, their true inner beings. Kudos to him for seeing and loving the beautiful girl shining in the darkness and helping you through this journey. Now you are paying all that love and support forward. Thank you!
Thank you! I'm a therapist and have been working with a young woman w/ bpd who has been wanting to find more bpd psychoeducation.. I think she will find this video helpful and relatable!
My youtube must be worried about my mental health because ive been getting bpd notifs all week (i have bpd and add). Thank you for sharing your story 💖 bpd is hard but you’re amazing and im so proud of your honesty! Mental illness doesn’t mean we can’t be successful 💖
@PursuitOfWellnessPodcast
3 жыл бұрын
Facts girl!!!
I just got diagnosed with this & thought all hope was lost! It’s awesome to see someone else that knows & relates!!!!
Needed this today, thank you SO much for this video and for sharing your story 💖 So proud of you!
You hit the spot for me. Thank you! You don’t know how much I needed this.
Fitness has done wonders for my BPD, it’s basically my new medication. Your experiences and videos are so inspiring ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I was recently diagnosed a couple months ago and it’s definitely hard. You have been an absolute inspiration from the start!
Thank you so much for posting this video- mental health is so important. You’re so inspiring!
Ya got me choked up girl ❤️ thank you for being so open. My story is super similar. I feel so much less alone in this battle to get better
Thank you for sharing this. You describing the pain from the emotions was spot on. It literally feels like your heart wants to rip itself out of your chest.
You’re so real! Thank you for sharing! I can listen to you all day!
This was incredible Mari! So well spoken and delivered 💗
You've come so far! And we are so proud of you and your voice! thank you!!
Thank you queen for being so real and sharing your story! 💓
Thank you so much for sharing this with us. I can’t imagine how hard it was. You’re so inspiring! Thank you ♥️
Thank you for this Mari, you have no idea what this means to me that you shared your story ❤️
Have been watching your nutrition videos but this has helped me and opened up my mind tremendously. So happy you have overcome sooooo many trials!! You’re an inspiration for many, myself included!!
Thank you so much for sharing, you are inspiring and I am so proud of you for standing up for those that have mental health disorders 💓
I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you. Thank you for sharing.
I’m so incredibly proud of you for sharing and being so vulnerable with us 💕 and you are a freaking badass for persevering and thriving! Thank you for always being so open about mental health. Much love ❤️
Wow, you’re so inspiring!! Thank you so much for sharing, thank you so much for having the courage to share your story! ♥️♥️
"felt like wanting to rip your soul out" resonated a lot. I used to say it would hurt less if I would stab myself in the heart. I've only recently been diagnosed although all the signs were there. Thank you for this clip
I found you on Instagram several months ago and found you and your posts so captivating and educational...I really appreciated how you delivered your information. I just found out that you had a KZread channel, from your post about this video. WOW- you are an incredible young woman. Despite our age difference (I am 55) I could relate SOO much to your incredibly courageous story. I have suffered with mental health issues my entire life, but unfortunately, given the timeframe I was born in - these topics were never discussed, so I didn't know for a majority of my life that my struggles were about mental health... and was left feeling broken and bad. What a gift you have put out into the world, that will help so many.
So elegantly articulated & raw. Thank you for sharing 💕
Thank you for being so open and honest!! Fitness has also changed my life and improved my mental health. You are so brave for sharing your personal struggles and I hope so many people watch this to see that they can change their lives as well 💕💕
I just want to thank you for sharing this video! I’ve suffered from anxiety/depression since I was 16 and constantly going back and forth with different antidepressants. I have been researching diet/exercise and came across your page and you are an inspiration and a voice to those that struggle with mental health. Thank you again for sharing your story.
I couldn’t love this video more or thank you enough for making it. I needed this so much. 💗
Thank you for sharing your mental health story. Your so brave and amazing for sharing. I’m still battling major depression and anxiety. Typically talk to my therapist 2 times a week. It helps so much and gone through DBT group therapy twice over the past year. Never even heard of it until last summer. But has changed my life for better! Living with my parents at 36 years old but doing so much better. Have so many learned coping skills that I’m still working with and trying to figure out what best works. Love your inspiration and do want to get in better physical shape since the bad part or side effect of some meds was weight gain. Anyway sorry for long message just wanted to say thank you 🙏
Thanks so much for sharing this ❤️ It’s hard but it’s impactful for others to hear and just see others journeys. Thank you.
Such a great watch, thank you for sharing and congrats on everything you have accomplished!!
Thank you so much for sharing - your openness is helping so many people!
Thank you for sharing your struggles... definitely makes people who deal with mental illness like me feel less alone. You are so strong and I feel inspired! Love you Mari ❤️
Been here since the beginning girl 💕💗 your glowing!! I’m happy for you! Keep flourishing beautiful 🙏🏼
Love this video so much Mari! rooting for you everyday! You truly are such a positive inspiration to us all especially to those who are struggling and don't know where to start so thanks for sharing! Love you girl
I freaken love you!! I'm sitting here in tears listening to you and I can so relate to all the stuff you experienced and still going through. I'm still struggling and want to be as strong as you :). thank you for talking about it, I appreciate you sooooooooooo much!
You're truly an inspiration in so many ways. Thanks for opening up to us!
Thank you for sharing your story! You’re such an inspiration! When you mentioned that you weight train to be stronger on the inside - I felt that! That’s why I’ve been weight training for about 5 years. It’s been so hard to not have the gym for a year but your summer slay home program is helping me immensely!
SO thankful you took the time and courage to film this. It makes us relate to you so much. We love you!!!
I'm so happy for you! Thank you for sharing this. It is so encouraging. I started a fitness journey do better my mental health and health in general. I wish you continued strength and joy!
We love you so much Mari!! Thank you for being such an amazing person and sharing with us 💜💜
Literally in tears rn 😭❤️ that really moved me. You are just so wonderful Mari. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m sure it will help many people. I am in awe of how strong you are. ❤️ Love you!!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this super brave and honest video❣️It came at the right time to me🙏🏽
Thank you for sharing this and doing so in a way that humanizes such a stigmatized disorder. You have come so far and you are so strong
Mari that's is so important you did this step. Telling your story. 💓 sending lots of love and hugs.
This is really encouraging and I'm so so happy for ur strong ass foundation u built for ur self. Thanks for sharing ❤️🥺❤️
Beautiful. I relate to your story so much
thank you for sharing and bringing an understanding to the diagnosis of bpd. it's so important for people, especially those suffering with mental illness, to know they aren't alone. you and your story are such an inspiration 💚
I suffer with BPD and I have never been able to explain it in a way that makes sense. I can’t thank you enough for making this video and brining awareness! So much love to you 💕
I’ve gotten more comfortable talking about my mental health over the last two years and have made some great friends who also have bpd. Its really nice having people who understand where I’m at and me where they’re at/dealing with
Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable side with your platform. It was inspiring and real, thank you 💕
You are SO inspirational!! Thanks so much for sharing this part of your life with us
I can't even tell you how much I needed to hear this. Thank you for sharing this story. I am so happy you found a way to be happy and use this as a driver for you. I wish you so much happiness.
So glad things are better thanks for sharing you are a strong lady !! I’m sure you are helping so many good job at being so honest
Thank you Mari for sharing your story its so inspirational and could help others in their journey
This video is amazing!!!!! I appreciate you being so honest and vulnerable. You are really inspirational and the message at the end was beautiful. So happy to support you and you’ve changed a lot of lives thank you for everything and this video!
Love you. I look forward to your insta stories and videos every day. Ultimate mind/body/health goals ❤️
Mari, Thank you so much. I’ve suffered my entire like with anxiety and depression. This video has given me HOPE. Thank you!! God bless you.
I absolutely love you Mari!! You are a role model for so many people!!
Sending you so much love just for showing up ❤️
So real and honest of you, the way all mental health discussions should be. Thanks as always for shining your light! Much love. 💗
I am so proud of how far you've come. You are an inspiration to all of us! I love you Mari
Thank you for sharing your journey and about your mental health. I have struggled with ED and depression since I was 9 and when I discovered your page 3 years ago it really helped to hear all about your experiences. Thank you so much for your honesty ❤️
You told my story. Thank you SO much. I needed to hear this.
Hi Mari I am so so grateful that you shared your experience. I resonate with so many of the things you described. Junior year in college was my rock bottom as well, on new medication that made me so numb I describe it as my “lost year”. The hyper sensitivity you described is something I feel too, the pain and anger we feel as a response to being hurt just consumes me and it feels like I have to do anything I can, either lashing out at others or hurting myself to process it. I have struggled so much with the person untreated BPD turned me into and I also see her as a separate version of myself. I just really appreciate you being open about this and you truly make me feel less alone in this illness. I am doing your 6 week slay challenge right now and already feeling the joy and hope fitness is bringing back to my life. Thank you again Mari I love you!
Thank you for this video. I really needed to hear how much my fitness journey is changing me from the inside, which is the most important. Wishing you all the happiness you wish for 🤗
Mari, this brought me to tears. i suffer from almost all the same things you mentioned you suffer from and ive been diagnosed with just severe depression and anxiety but i think there is something deeper going on. you are such an inspiration to me and i truly look up to you. you are amazing ❤️💖
I am so happy that you are talking more about this. You really are my inspiration/role model!
You are so brave and strong! Thank you for using your platform to help others and spread awareness for mental health. It is everything. XO Mari keep fighting
I am so proud of you and how strong you are for sharing this. It is not easy to talk about this and really appreciate it. I am here for you if you ever need a shoulder.
my history is so similar to yours, adhd and bpd also had drinking problems and self harm. Thank you for sharing this, we´re not alone
Thank you so much for sharing❤️ The fact that you said you feel like “prior you” was a different person reallllly shows how hard it must be for you to talk to us about this. So thank you, thank you, thank you. You’re helping so many people ❤️❤️❤️
thank you so much for posting this video. It was so helpful to watch, I really related to a lot of what you talked about. You're amazing!
Mari, much love to you. So glad you decided to share this with us. Stay strong ❤️❤️
Thank you for sharing, I definitely shed some tears...we all have struggles but I can now understand a bit better when someone tells me about their bpd.
Mari, thank you for sharing this incredibly personal and difficult story with the world. These conversations are so so important and seeing someone at your level of success and influence come out and not gloss over the facts is just incredible. Thank you for taking the time out of your day to be so vulnerable with strangers and fans on the internet. What’s even more impressive is realizing that you are not only putting yourself out there but also volunteering to take feedback from anyone watching this (and leaving the comments open) which could affect your own mental health shows what a phenomenally caring person you are and how dedicated you are to helping your followers to improve their own lives. I’ve been a supporter for years and will continue to be one and I hope others feel the same! You are truly an inspiration!
Thank you with tears. I really needed to hear this. One foot in front of the other… this is an endless journey
Your journey is super encouraging and I appreciate your honesty. Thank you!❤️
Thank you so much for sharing Mari
I am so glad you shared your journey with BPD. My sister has been struggling with this illness for many, many years and you have helped me understand her better. We struggle in our relationship but I will never give up on her or stop loving her. Thank you.
Thank you 🙏 so much for sharing! I know this video is going to help so many people for years to come. 🥰🥰🥰
Oh my gosh! This was by the best video I have watched from a KZreadr discussing mental health. As someone learning to navigate life with BPD I want to thank you so much for sharing your story. You are so inspiring to watch because of how strong you look and for your incredible physical transformation. I honestly cried throughout your video because I could not believe someone who looks likes you could have something in common with someone like me who feels as broken as I do by BPD. You are proof that this horrid illness does not have to steal a person's joy. We can conquer this. Mari, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
your level of introspection is amazing! It's so wonderful how open and authentic you are and are able to be so vulnerable with strangers. You are one inspiring lady (: