I definitely relate to the workaholism thing and then getting upset when my body fails me. How I cope with everything is just WORKING and honestly sometimes it absolutely kills my body, just to ruin. I’ve found for me that watching anime for some reason really works? It’s only recently that I’ve done it, but for some reason focusing on another story, specially since it’s animated let’s me relax and feel productive somehow. Also, blue light glasses help a little as well - makes me feel less wired somehow. Anyway, loving VEDIF so far!

@writerofscribbles

3 жыл бұрын

YESS! being a workaholic is both a good thing (because yay, stuff gets done!) and bad because we physically can't be productive every day and all the time. that's really cool that anime helps you relax and feel productive! I might have to try that! I do love my blue light glasses! (if I could find them...where _ did_ they go?) also thank you! I'm glad you're enjoying and thank you for sharing your insight and thoughts! 💖

oh I know how you feel with the migraines, I've had them ever since I was a kid (since they run on both sides of the family I really didn't have a chance lol). I also have some undiagnosed autoimmune disorder that causes severe joint pain and sometimes makes it so my joints can't hold any weight, basically making me immobile. it really sucks being so young and "in the prime of our youth" as they say and having to deal with all this. the whole turning to creativity to feel better but then things like computers making you feel worse is a big mood. I'm glad you've figured out how to handle your illness, that's always good. one thing I've noticed is that a lot of writers and artists that I know are mentally and/or physically ill, and I wonder if there's a relationship there.

@writerofscribbles

3 жыл бұрын

yesss! for a society so obsessed with youth and health, it really does put us on the outside! I think there might be a relationship, especially since the tortured artist trope is sooooo prevalent with noncreatives. maybe there is a relationship because stories give people a window into other people and then, we, as artists can be understood on an emotional level? just a theory! thank you for sharing your story and experience, Danni! 💖💖💖

I think the only time I've ever looked back and regretted past decisions were the times I made certain choices because of my mental illnesses. Hearing about what writing is to you is incredible. I hope one day I can find some kind of confidence with my creative endeavours instead of it fueling me negatively lol. I don't know if it's a coping mechanism or my go to distraction (possibly the same thing?) But getting things done whether it's working, cleaning etc. Is how I deal, which can be a good or bad thing. That way I'm not in my head 24/7. I'm hoping one day I can turn that into not having to medicate for the rest of my life but who knows 🤷🏾‍♀️

@writerofscribbles

3 жыл бұрын

I understand. and it definitely takes time to develop a confidence. It ebbs and flows and I certainly don't have it all the time! (thanks clinical depression!) and I definitely know what you mean about working, cleaning etc. being a coping mechanism to stay out of your head. it is a slippery slope between distraction and coping mechanism! (I've fallen many times lmao) but yeah, who knows? life is a wild ride.

this was...highly validating. Thank you **kisskiss**

@writerofscribbles

3 жыл бұрын

aww, thank you Lindsay!! 💖💖💖

Have you tried dictation for days you can't look at the screen but still want to get words out? Also, that raises the question if simply telling the story be enough to satisfy you or is it the physical act of writing that does it ? 🤔🤔

@writerofscribbles

3 жыл бұрын

I haven't tried dictation simply because I don't know if I would be able to speak the story in the same way I write it? I kind of visualize and write from there if that makes sense? but you're right, I think it might be the physical act of writing the story rather than telling the story. There is definitely my perfectionism rooted in this, though, because I ramble, stutter, and pause a lot when speaking.