i was on antidepressants for a year... my *honest* experience going on, during, and going off SSRIs

thanks for watching ✨ this was not an easy video for me to film, nor upload (hence all the delays...). nevertheless, I hope it can be helpful to anyone struggling or considering antidepressant medication. This is my unfiltered story dealing with depression and anxiety, what prompted me to try medication, my year of being on the meds, and my experience going off.
I am not a doctor, nurse, or medical professional. Nothing in this video is meant to be taken as advice. I am only sharing my personal experience.
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  • @ZoePritchard
    @ZoePritchard2 ай бұрын

    thanks for watching 💖

  • @joeyparra3937

    @joeyparra3937

    2 ай бұрын

    Thanks for sharing Zoe.

  • @jaytee419

    @jaytee419

    2 ай бұрын

    thanks for sharing!

  • @nene8120
    @nene81202 ай бұрын

    Prozac saved my life. It’s definitely important to see which SSRI works best. Different ones work for different people. This is my second time on them and the only reason I weaned off them before is because my boyfriend didn’t want me to (very dumb of me). I truly hate the stigma around it but I was on them because I’ve struggled with suicidal ideation, anxiety and depression since I was young. It was a godsend to me and it’s nice to hear about different experiences

  • @soalive389
    @soalive3892 ай бұрын

    Ive been on SSRIs and a mood stabilizer for about 4 years, and i appreciate hearing others talk about their experience 💙

  • @victoriasantos6472
    @victoriasantos64722 ай бұрын

    I've been on and off antidepressants for the last decade. It's about finding the right one for you (sometimes it takes a bit of trial and readjusting) and having constant medical supervision and support to get on and off it. I'm so sorry this was your experience, it shouldn't have been. I've always had careful and great doctors and the process of getting on and then getting off the meds has always been (almost) seamless.

  • @Alice-kz9wo
    @Alice-kz9wo2 ай бұрын

    I've been feeling extremely depressed lately going on several months now. It always surprises me to see other people also going through the same thing that we would never expect. I'm still working on my depression and I'm trying to combat it by making achievable goals. Thank you for speaking about this. There's something about the way you talk and the way you can be so vulnerable and express your experiences in such a raw and real way that just pulls me in. Sometimes I watch your videos multiple times, because it's like having a heart to heart with somebody.

  • @shaileyd4846
    @shaileyd48462 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story Zoey❤️

  • @amberk7515
    @amberk75152 ай бұрын

    I appreciate yoy sharing all this! It takes so much courage to be this vulnerable

  • @MollyMoll-bh6oc
    @MollyMoll-bh6oc2 ай бұрын

    I know it took courage to make this video and I think most people can relate in some form or another. Thank you for sharing 💗

  • @ZoePritchard

    @ZoePritchard

    2 ай бұрын

    thank you Molly 💖

  • @carolrossi5183
    @carolrossi51832 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story Zoey, very informative 💙

  • @kateismostlygoodwmoney
    @kateismostlygoodwmoney2 ай бұрын

    Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this part of your life with us 💗you are helping people more than you know.

  • @dinagalall
    @dinagalall27 күн бұрын

    Seeing you sad makes me sad. I wish you all the happiness in the world Zoe ❤

  • @poppycalliope
    @poppycalliope2 ай бұрын

    I admire your courage to open up and share something so personal dear Zoe ❤ I know this video will help so many other people feel seen and not alone!

  • @ZoePritchard

    @ZoePritchard

    2 ай бұрын

    thank you so much for the kind words 💖

  • @reneecatrine
    @reneecatrineАй бұрын

    I appreciate you sharing your experience with this and your honesty about the highs and lows. 💗

  • @dde716
    @dde7162 ай бұрын

    Thanks for being so brave to share it out. Yep here in the USA is as quickly and easy to get it as well. I was offered to take Zoloft after a miscarriage because I was sad about it (obviously). And during pregnancy again, offered and saw so many ladies taking it. I think that there should be needed more talk and investigation before just prescribing it like you said. In my case, I only did therapy but I agree with you in everything you said here.

  • @gerrikim8545
    @gerrikim85452 ай бұрын

    Thank you for this video. You are brave. You are strong. You are beautiful. Truly ❤

  • @soyAdri__
    @soyAdri__2 ай бұрын

    Thanks for sharing your experience Zoe 💛

  • @angelicabrewer3711
    @angelicabrewer37112 ай бұрын

    Wow Zoe. You may not know it now but this video could save someone's life. It could give them the courage to try somrthing that will change the trajectory of their mental health. I understand and relate to this video. Something that strikes me is how responsible you are with yourself and how you take care of yourself through boundaries and care. You went on this retreat to film some deeper videos and it iust shows how mature you are. I am so proud of you and can't wait to see how you continue to reflect through life. Lots of love and most of all, thank you.

  • @mizz.livinglife4448
    @mizz.livinglife44482 ай бұрын

    Hi Zoe, I’ve been a silent watcher of yours for a very long time. I def remember you being let go from your job and kinda be a little lost afterwards. From millions of miles away I would of never known you were struggling so much mentally at that time. I remember watching your videos and thinking to myself your life is perfect and kinda wanting that same stability in my life… so glad u were able to come off the meds and get into a much better mental space❤❤ thank you so much for sharing your story❤❤

  • @tran0822
    @tran08222 ай бұрын

    Zoe this is very helpful, thank you so much for doing this video. what helped for me was hypnotherapy, it was what changed my life!

  • @candace3493
    @candace34932 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing these parts of your experience Zoe. I had an adverse reaction to antidepressants. I found out it was because I’m autistic and have bipolar disorder. It’s nice to hear other people as unfortunate as it is when meds don’t work for folks. It helps me feel less alone.

  • @Lina22Z
    @Lina22Z2 ай бұрын

    Thank you so so much for sharing your journey. This video and all of your other videos make me feel a lot less alone and hopeful about the future. I’m currently a consultant who is experiencing many of the feelings you described in the video such as being very hard on oneself and being stressed and anxious. Thank you for your openness and honesty. You are really making a difference by having these conversations.

  • @p0keDAmo0seyXD
    @p0keDAmo0seyXD2 ай бұрын

    Thank you for your courage to share all of this 🧡 I’m sorry you were failed by your providers, you deserved better. I am currently on 2 medications, one an SSRI. It took a few tries to get me here, but it takes proper support. And you are now equipped with the tools to ask and advocate for yourself, if you should ever need to in the future.

  • @Bornraisedfloridian
    @Bornraisedfloridian2 ай бұрын

    I started watching you for financial advice and this morning I was going through it emotionally and I can back everything you are saying. I was Neglect by parents and parentified at the age of 5 years old. I reinstated with the movie Matilda so much when I was younger and looked up to my teachers because of Ms.Honey and my grandparents. You are amazing and thank you for sharing. Got me crying, you are not alone.

  • @Reindeers-Money
    @Reindeers-Money2 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing ❤ I have anxiety and depression somethimes and this video helped a lot.

  • @jusme2888
    @jusme28882 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story ❤️

  • @amyp.8848
    @amyp.88482 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much for your post abd being vulnerable!! You have helped more people than you may even know by posting this. You are an inspiration and a blessing to us all. Thank you for giving people hope with their finances and mental health!!

  • @ZoePritchard

    @ZoePritchard

    2 ай бұрын

    thank you for the kind words 💖

  • @kshane105
    @kshane1052 ай бұрын

    I found you based on budget content, and I want to thank you for posting this content also. Anger is such a difficult emotion to contend with, there can be so much righteousness and so much guilt. I heard you talk about your experience at the right time today.

  • @teresascafasci7027
    @teresascafasci70272 ай бұрын

    Great video Zoe! Im on w antidepressants and i cant live without them. Ive struggled for a long time

  • @kaileemckenzie
    @kaileemckenzie2 ай бұрын

    Totally agree about the torture of going off! I ended up going back on SSRIs about 6 months after going off because I was so depressed again - but at least I know what I'm signing up for now and have no plans of going off unless absolutely necessary!

  • @debbiewinsatlife4799
    @debbiewinsatlife47992 ай бұрын

    i took different SSRI's for a couple decades...very few side effects and they were very mild. had to change scripts every year or two to keep realizing all the good effects. it was not a fix for my anxiety. after several decades i felt like my life situation was so much better i slowly, very slowly weaned off under doctors care. been 15 years or so and managed without so far.

  • @GoldenKay19
    @GoldenKay196 күн бұрын

    Thanks you so much for sharing I watched the entire video. Thank for sharing it is comforting me in my thinking 💖

  • @nicolefaith9972
    @nicolefaith99722 ай бұрын

    I'm sorry you had such a challenging experience with your meds. Meds for me have been a game changer. I would like to wean off them someday but I am glad I don't feel numb.

  • @nicolefaith9972

    @nicolefaith9972

    2 ай бұрын

    I should come back and say there was some trial and error in type and dose of meds plus lots of therapy and work so definitely not an overnight change.

  • @giovannabuono4436
    @giovannabuono4436Ай бұрын

    omg thank you so much for sharing your experience! i've been on antidepressants for almost a year and a half. it's not an easy journey and sometimes i feel like it isn't working but i still have hope that i will come out of this numb feeling and start to feel like a human again. therapy is so important and helpful in our lives. pls if you're struggling with life, feelings, depression, anxiety or just need help, you should reach out for help! pls don't neglect your mental health and always remember that you are not alone!

  • @rosamondhazell2149
    @rosamondhazell21492 ай бұрын

    Lots of love Zoe, I’m so impressed with you. Someone out there needed to hear this ❤️I know it must have been difficult to post it.

  • @angelicabrewer3711

    @angelicabrewer3711

    2 ай бұрын

    So impressed!!!!

  • @Tamiwatching
    @Tamiwatching2 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story❤

  • @0bsidianeyes
    @0bsidianeyes2 ай бұрын

    Thanks for sharing your story. It’s helpful to hear your personal experience. I’ve been on similar medication and also experienced it affecting my dreams. I don’t know if it’s considered an ‘official’ side effect, but I’ve heard of it affecting other people and my psychiatrist asked me about my dreams, so she must have heard about it too. I’ve also heard about 30% of people can experience “emotional blunting” after a few months. That might have been what you experienced. Not a doctor, just someone who had done a lot of research.

  • @shanelwillemse7912
    @shanelwillemse79122 ай бұрын

    I knew something was up for very long time with you moment i watch our channel since lost my job same time as u and lost my dad in one year your videos inspired me to look after myself and keepmy head up, i am from South Africa....THANK YOU

  • @Jibril_Abdulkadir
    @Jibril_Abdulkadir2 ай бұрын

    You have a heart of gold 💛 Zoe so strong to post about your struggles and be vulnerable with your viewers to a lot of courage always sending 🤍🤍

  • @janicerobertson2213
    @janicerobertson22132 ай бұрын

    I love ❤️ u and u don't even know me I'm so glad your ok when I started my budgeting journey I learned so much from you I called you the girl with the little egg on her sweater...I felt every inch of this thank you ❤

  • @MannerofMagi007
    @MannerofMagi0072 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your experience!

  • @davisamills597
    @davisamills5972 ай бұрын

    Sooo glad you decided to post this video!!!!! You are sooo relatable Zoe!! And we love you!!!! Thanks so much for sharing your story!!! ❤❤❤ PS. Having a partner stick by you during your worst life experiences is gold!! JS sounds like an amazing guy and I'm so happy you had someone like him by your side as you were going through this.

  • @ZoePritchard

    @ZoePritchard

    2 ай бұрын

    thank you so much Davisa 💖💖 means a lot 🥹

  • @Vxruxxss
    @Vxruxxss2 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing this Zoe. I’ve been on it for 2 years and just got off it. It’s been a challenge and I am considering getting back on it but I want to wait it out

  • @ZoePritchard

    @ZoePritchard

    2 ай бұрын

    💖💖 stay strong, no matter the decision you make!

  • @Billy33753
    @Billy337532 ай бұрын

    I been on an antidepressant / mood stabilizers since November what’s helped for me is a mix of medication and cognitive behavioral therapy. Thanks for sharing

  • @genevieveleduc2208
    @genevieveleduc22082 ай бұрын

    Hello all, adding my Canadian 2 cents here. And thank you Zoe for this video. In Canada (at least in Quebec) private insurance pays for a bit of “recognized” therapists. There is a long wait for a psychiatrist, which is free. If you are in distress, it is suggested to show up at a hospital emergency room and insist on talking to someone immediately. I would hope that they would do a proper evaluation and be followed closely so that meds can no longer be required. There is a huge need for more good mental health professionals. To all of you - THE WORLD IS A BETTER PLACE WITH YOU IN IT ❤

  • @ZoePritchard

    @ZoePritchard

    2 ай бұрын

    yes!! thank you for adding this 💖

  • @NikolaMusilova
    @NikolaMusilova2 ай бұрын

    Zoe, wasnt that around the time that you worked at Big4? Thats how I found your channel. Because when I worked there (Deloitte), I was seriously depressed. Quit in Nov 20, which was SUCH a relief!!!! 💗

  • @ZoePritchard

    @ZoePritchard

    2 ай бұрын

    hi!! this was after the Big 4 days (about 2 years after) but I was deff depressed while working there LOL

  • @monikakamila
    @monikakamila2 ай бұрын

    I’ve been on antidepressants for much longer and I’m still on them. I can’t live without my antidepressants and antipsychotics

  • @ZoePritchard

    @ZoePritchard

    2 ай бұрын

    no shame in that! 💖

  • @notmisa
    @notmisa2 ай бұрын

    Thanks for sharing your experience Zoe! Might I humbly suggest a lav mic to reduce reverb and ringing noises :)

  • @lynntetteh
    @lynntetteh2 ай бұрын

    lots of love and hugs Zoe ❤❤ glad you are managing well, please keep taking care of yourself intentionally

  • @nataly4097
    @nataly40972 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing this! ☺️❤ I have been on antidepressants for 3 years now and I also experienced those horrible dreams at the beginning. I really want to stop taking them but as soon as I do, I start feeling awful and have to keep taking them. Idk if I would have taken them if I knew what withdrawal was!! Xx

  • @daysy409
    @daysy4092 ай бұрын

    Hi Zoe! I am currently on anti anxiety meds. I reached out to a psychiatrist because I wanted to treat depression and anxiety. After a long conversation my doctor felt that my depression was caused by my anxiety. It is upsetting that your doctor did not ask more questions about your conditions. My psych has been so helpful and continues to ask about side affects and any changes at all of our check ins. In addition I am also see a therapist weekly. I think going on meds can be really beneficial. I don’t think therapy would be helpful for me without it but I completely understand having a bad experience especially when you’re not getting adequate medical and therapeutic support.

  • @blackstripened
    @blackstripened2 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much for talking about such an important topic, I'm sure it helps a lot of people ❤ Side note: I've been listening to Dr. Andrew Huberman's podcasts here on KZread, where he talks with Dr. Matt Walker about sleep. According to Dr. Walker, REM sleep is associated with dreaming, and its purpose is to provide us kind of an "overnight therapy" or an "emotional detox". Only during REM sleep, the levels of Noradrenaline (Norepinephrine) are completely shut off in our brain, and serotonin goes (naturally) down too.. So I wonder, how SSRI medication affects our REM sleep on a biochemical level! I'm surprised your doctor didn't recognize the side effect of vivid dreams, although SSRI drugs are so popular in this day and age and the nightmares are a fairly common side effect. There's actually an episode of "The science of dreams, nightmares & lucid dreaming" on Huberman's channel but I haven't had the time to listen to it yet. Maybe there would be an answer to this question? (I have nothing to do with Dr. Huberman's podcasts, I just find them very interesting). I myself have been on two different antidepressants years ago but stopped taking them as I didn't find any use in them. The third med I tried was a SSRI drug but I only took it for 3 days before I decided to screw the meds and heal my own way 🙈 After ONLY 3 DAYS I had such horrible withdrawals of SSRI's that I can't imagine ever going back to them (but absolutely don't judge people who do!). After stopping the medications years ago, my life situation got slowly better, and I slowly got better, too. Now after a recent divorce I'm feeling depressed again but I don't think it's a problem that any drug can fix. I'm sending hugs and hope to anyone struggling right now. Even though we walk through the darkest valley, we shall have no fear. Everything's going to be allright with all of us - someday, someway. ❤

  • @snoozealongsnail
    @snoozealongsnail2 ай бұрын

    Thank you for posting this, Zoe. Videos like this are an invaluable resource for people thinking about going on these medications. Unfortunately, your experience of easily being prescribed meds and not being adequately informed on tapering is not unique. It sounds all too familiar, and I live in another country. The impression I get is that, despite their best intentions, not all doctors fully understand how these drugs work or what people’s lived experiences are. That combined with a patient who is already in a fragile mental state can make for a dangerous situation. The burden should not be on the patient to fully research these meds. I’m sorry to hear about your traumatic tapering experience, and the impact it had on the relationship with your mom. Sending you love and support ❤

  • @MannerofMagi007
    @MannerofMagi0072 ай бұрын

    16:49 that part. The magic pill though really is knowing who you are and building your life according to what feels best for you. Know thyself and persist.

  • @ohmyrainingducks
    @ohmyrainingducks2 ай бұрын

    you got on anti depressants hastily and got off just as hastily. it’s a good message to have out there so people really give it thought before they do something that could be forever.

  • @MannerofMagi007

    @MannerofMagi007

    2 ай бұрын

    She did nothing hastily. She thought and discussed the possibility of becoming medicated with people she trusted and a certified doctor. WHO was hasty? The medical provider who prescribed her meds after knowing her for 7 minutes. She was prescribed the drug hastily by a medical provider who failed to prep her for withdrawal. She clearly spent months on the script. And she cut her dose in half for a week because her doctor failed to inform her. Starting AND Exit information should be given before a script. And it should require a longer assessment before serious medications are given. But this is America… people are not aware of how serious these drugs are.

  • @11227denis
    @11227denis2 ай бұрын

    Thanks for sharing Zoe.

  • @ZoePritchard

    @ZoePritchard

    2 ай бұрын

    thanks for watching!

  • @laurita8793
    @laurita8793Ай бұрын

    I'm only on minute 3:47, but I want to say thank you for sharing. You are a brave soul

  • @laris9292
    @laris92922 ай бұрын

    ❤❤❤ thanks for sharing!

  • @luckystar225
    @luckystar225Ай бұрын

    As I am going through my unemployment phase after a layoff, I’ve been feeling really depressed to the point of mopping and having a really difficult time getting out of bed almost every morning. I was literally thinking about going on anti depressants the other day… watching this makes me give it a second thought… thank you for sharing your experience ❤

  • @iloveguavajuice2126

    @iloveguavajuice2126

    Ай бұрын

    wishing you all the best 🩷🩷

  • @raquelaraujo8790
    @raquelaraujo87902 ай бұрын

    The dreams are real!!! I have experienced this too although mine are not violent, just crazy and always related to what happens in that day

  • @ZoePritchard

    @ZoePritchard

    2 ай бұрын

    so rough!! and if I watch TV before bed, guarantee something from the show will be in the dream 😂🙃

  • @BeyonceStan95
    @BeyonceStan952 ай бұрын

    I’m so sorry to hear that happened to you. I also took SSRIs and they helped me a lot but I also think it’s difficult because I’ve found you need to be in charge of your health a lot in the Canadian health care system. I’ve found that if I’m having any issues with medication (ie side effects that I can’t handle) I have to follow up with my doctor and let them know and ask for a solution - is there another medication? Is there another dose I can try? There’s so many medications that can do the same thing and sometimes you need to try a few before you find what works for you. It’s a lot of self advocacy but I’ve found that’s the only way I can be okay. I’m currently also trying my third adhd medication because I had side effects on the last one

  • @mansoor3159
    @mansoor31592 ай бұрын

    Zoeee I am your biggest biggest fan and I really really obsessed with your vlogs so so much and I wish you have a blessed week ahead😭🥹💕💕🫶🏻

  • @teresascafasci7027
    @teresascafasci70272 ай бұрын

    I only get a few months of refills but after that i have to see in my dr for her to resubcribe them

  • @debrafirestone861
    @debrafirestone8612 ай бұрын

    Your right about mental health Here in the States I think It’s bad I think it has a lot to do with Covid The lockdowns we’re not a good thing I think even young people under 21 also has alot of issues But here we don’t spend enough on mental health it’s crazy

  • @totojojororopopototo
    @totojojororopopototo2 ай бұрын

    ❤️

  • @christiecaplinger5242
    @christiecaplinger52422 ай бұрын

    ❤❤❤❤

  • @ZoePritchard

    @ZoePritchard

    2 ай бұрын

    💖💖

  • @MathildeG
    @MathildeG2 ай бұрын

    I was on antidepressants (cipralex) for 7 years. Getting off was a journey 😅

  • @ZoePritchard

    @ZoePritchard

    2 ай бұрын

    i feel you!! 💖

  • @MannerofMagi007
    @MannerofMagi0072 ай бұрын

    3:17 pharmaceutical gaslighting. No support or warnings given about withdrawals. That was your issues x10 due to withdrawal. People end up on this roller coaster for years between scripts due to shortages, changes, job situation changes, etc. each time believing that their withdrawal “self” is them.

  • @manddex3
    @manddex32 ай бұрын

    I take antidepressants to sleep, I have weird dreams too. At this point I just laugh at them.

  • @teresascafasci7027
    @teresascafasci70272 ай бұрын

    You have to wein yourself off them and not do it cold turkey..drs should tell pts that

  • @MissSeaworld8
    @MissSeaworld82 ай бұрын

    Absolutely no shame in taking meds for som time in your life. Some need it to get better. What ever works to make you feel good again. Just curious.. Did you meet your boyfriend during the time you took the pills? Don't remember you mentioned excately when you met him. But did the pills made you feel any different about falling in love with him? I mean from what you would feel if you did not take them.

  • @debrafirestone861
    @debrafirestone8612 ай бұрын

    We hsve a lot of crime

  • @brendanp1981
    @brendanp19812 ай бұрын

    You are appreciated & so valued!🫂

  • @taliadatingclub
    @taliadatingclub2 ай бұрын

    Montreal KZreadrs unite

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