how I alchemize pain into love & appreciation

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  • @leiahmae
    @leiahmaeАй бұрын

    This is what youtube is missing. Dear algorithm, show this content to more people so this website can feel alive and real

  • @Hannah.Williams

    @Hannah.Williams

    Ай бұрын

    THIS. My alg has been great lately throwing me nothing but these videos ❤ makes a difference.

  • @ashleymedina6266
    @ashleymedina6266Ай бұрын

    My brain tries to take me back to the past whenever I feel sad, frustrated or triggered. So hearing you acknowledge any negative emotions and thanking them for wanting to keep you safe is so comforting to see and I’m going to start implementing those phrases because I want to rewrite my narrative, I’m tired of feeling sorry for myself thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences. I wish there was more genuine people like you , anyways have an amazing day 😊!

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    I feel that we tend to judge those “negative” emotions or try to get rid of them as soon as we notice them instead of being curious about why they’re showing up & really befriending them & giving them love which is what we most need in times of darkness & challenges . Thank you for being here & for watching I really appreciate it.🤎 have a beautiful day too!

  • @theoriginal7727

    @theoriginal7727

    Ай бұрын

    It’s so easy to fall into rumination, that’s what our brains tend to do when they’re trying to figure out solutions to the problems, usually that we didn’t even cost, but from childhood wounding and ancestral/generational trauma. Unfortunately, it doesn’t go anywhere because the things that need healing are way deeper than what are rational, conscious mind is even aware of! It can help for sure, but we really have to deep dive. The tooth is stored in our subconscious and our body, somatic treatment is a big piece of healing for most of us. Dancing has been massively healing for me! Until I got sick and couldn’t really move anymore. But since I’m on the healing path now, re-committing to that practice again. I’m just doing a little bit, as much as I can. I’m not beating up on myself in the meantime!

  • @Nicole-ub7uv

    @Nicole-ub7uv

    25 күн бұрын

    Love this ❤

  • @romemitch1250
    @romemitch1250Ай бұрын

    Your vibration brings me tears of joy we are all energy and electric I give thanks to the most high for this spirit brining forth excellence

  • @mentalcat9529
    @mentalcat9529Ай бұрын

    When i am in emotional states like anxiety, fear, sadness, i feel stuck there, unable to look around and appreciate the moment, what is around me, i think when this situation will finish then i will be able to enjoy myself and look around. I think maybe it is a trauma response bc i freeze until it is over

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Yes this happens when life gets too overwhelming, our nervous system shuts down & completely disconnects with everything around us. Sending you a hug & some love. Know that there’s a way out of this survival state, with patience & love

  • @deionna
    @deionnaАй бұрын

    going through this now too. detaching from the ego that's consumed so much of our brain for so long, and deciding to observe without judgement is so beautiful. there's a quote I love from Michael Singer - "The day you decide that you are more interested in being aware of your thoughts than you are in the thoughts themselves-that is the day you will find your way out"

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    I’ve never heard of this quote before but I LOVE it. Thank you for sharing 💚

  • @theoriginal7727

    @theoriginal7727

    Ай бұрын

    He is a phenomenal author, recommend his books, untethered soul, and the more recent one blanking out on the name. The body keeps the score, and trauma and recovery are great resources to begin. The deep dive in healing so many of us need.

  • @justinechaffino
    @justinechaffino22 күн бұрын

    I just wanna take a second to say thank you I haven’t been myself in such a long time and feeling the most depression and hopelessness I’ve ever felt my whole life… but watching your video has givin me light in a dark time for me

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    21 күн бұрын

    Im glad that it helped you recognize the light there is even when it all seems very dark. Sending you so much love!❤️

  • @sarahvandenheuvel121
    @sarahvandenheuvel121Ай бұрын

    I usually never comment but surprisingly I feel the need to. This is a beautiful video and really resonates with me. Throughout my journey I’ve always seemed to hit the same wall, where I’m so overwhelmed by the emotions I feel, even losing myself in them. Feelings of my past haunt me and take the ground from beneath my feet. Only recently I’ve discovered my pattern of pushing away the emotions and feelings I percieve as ‘negative’ or ‘unwelcome’ and realized that this is a way of coping I learned myself during my childhood, where I was emotionally and physically neglected. I, a child trying to survive, wasn’t able to feel these feelings because of the unsafe environment I was in. Pushing them away or even completely shutting down emotionally was my way of surviving the danger I was in. Years of therapy and trying to process things later, I once again broke down and fell apart. Hitting rock bottom again suddenly made everything clear. It made me realize that no emotion is bad, emotions exist to be experienced and approaching them from a place of judgement is ultimately blocking your own potential and growth. Even though I still have a way to go, trying to be curious and accepting towards my feelings through self-compassion has been so liberating and helpful. I feel that your words align with the idea of self-compassion a lot and I think it could be very helpful to anyone out there sharing these struggles. I really recommend Kristin Neffs website and books! @ the person reading this: you are so valuable, in all your aspects 💛

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I’m happy to hear that even through all your struggles & pain you were able to see the light in it. And love yourself through the process as well . So proud of you for doing this, it takes a lot of courage & strength. I haven’t heard of her books but I’ll look into it! Sounds resonating ❤️ thank you again!

  • @annoar9776

    @annoar9776

    Ай бұрын

    thank you.

  • @OleCreates
    @OleCreatesАй бұрын

    Just the other day, I had this thought that we actually have the power to use our pain and turn it into something beautiful like an alchemist. We are aligned. Thank you 🙏🏾

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    yess we are all alchemists

  • @calius3578
    @calius3578Ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing this video! A wonderful blend of thoughtful introspection and beautiful friendship. Good vibes all around 🌞

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    29 күн бұрын

    Of course!! Thank you for watching 🦋

  • @brianamariposa
    @brianamariposaАй бұрын

    beautiful video!! your commentary is so lovely to listen to. thank you for sharing your struggle with those dark moments. navigating your inner world all on your own can be one of the toughest battles.🦋 the reminder to talk ourselves through those low energies is us loving ourselves enough to come out of it. thank you :)

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    thank you sm

  • @destinyquiles3549
    @destinyquiles354924 күн бұрын

    beautiful video. I am currently on my own self discovery path right now and this really helped me sort some ideas out I myself was struggling to understand in my head. I wish you peace and happiness!

  • @OyasumieEdit
    @OyasumieEditАй бұрын

    It's our mechanism to keep us sane that's it. We have limits so our brain protect us from going insane!!!

  • @nikkiyevette
    @nikkiyevetteАй бұрын

    Very calming video. Loved it

  • @LISAtheNINJAA
    @LISAtheNINJAA28 күн бұрын

    Wow I needed this right now, and I wish I am where you are at right now!

  • @slaaaaay2536
    @slaaaaay2536Ай бұрын

    Your energy is so beautiful! I am glad I found this video 🌸💗

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    thank you sm love 🥹 so glad you’re here!

  • @svenjaschischi116
    @svenjaschischi11622 күн бұрын

    This video is such a blessing ❤️ thank you 🪻

  • @itsmerose1995
    @itsmerose1995Ай бұрын

    I Love the authenticity, Martha ♥️ thank you for reminding us to be authentic in a world that follows algorithms ❤❤❤ keep expressing yourself and your art to us ❤

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Thank you sm I appreciate this reassurance & reminder 🥰

  • @Ceecrystalclear
    @CeecrystalclearАй бұрын

    Thanks queen needed this sending you love from london ❤

  • @444kizzez
    @444kizzezАй бұрын

    thank you so much beautiful soul

  • @savannawhite104
    @savannawhite104Ай бұрын

    mmm so beautiful, thanks for sharing

  • @user-wi4nn3vd9l
    @user-wi4nn3vd9lАй бұрын

    Thank you for the video! All the love to you and all humanity!❤️☮️🙏🏻

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    29 күн бұрын

    Of course thank you too! 💚

  • @She_niyah.h
    @She_niyah.hАй бұрын

    Wow..beautiful🥰 It’s always d story you tell yourself 🙂

  • @sylvenstein
    @sylvensteinАй бұрын

    thank you for sharing such deep and loving truth, Martha. I woke up today with a kind of depressed sensation I haven't had in a while, just being completely disinterested in getting out of bed. But I got up and decided to try to do kind things for myself. Your video happened to show up, and while I still feel very heavy, I do notice a bit more lightness. thank you.

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    So proud of your for choosing to love yourself through the heaviness of it all 🩵

  • @theoriginal7727

    @theoriginal7727

    Ай бұрын

    That’s funny, I woke up, feeling good yesterday for the first time in a long time! And this morning, feeling pretty Credi, which has been normal for me for far too many years, navigating, severe, chronic illness and a series of abusive relationships to be in the middle of it. I need to remember to be my own advocate, and not beat up on myself, as I have done most of my life! The healing process is not Lynn here, it goes up and down and times in cycles. It’s just frustrating when good things happen, and then our energy drops back down again, seemingly out of nowhere! There’s a lot happening in the heavens right now, solar, flares, and other things, which are having some pretty big impact on all of our nervous system’s, and the magnetic field of the Earth, etc. A lot of times it’s those sort of things which we are not really even aware of, it’s important that we don’t start abusing ourselves to our internal voice. Thank you, Martha for this beautiful channel! Sending healing to both of you. And me!

  • @Kulia1of1
    @Kulia1of1Ай бұрын

    Thank you for this video ! Your energy is amazing. Your message resonates with what I’m currently dealing with and need guidance on. Thank you !! And you’re beautiful. I’m in love with your earrings ! I’ve been drawing spirals everywhere and i always think of spirals when I’m thinking about how nothings linear and things always come back up 🌀 Need those!😍

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    I’m glad that this resonated with you! Thank you for watching as well, I really appreciate it

  • @DancingLover2112
    @DancingLover2112Ай бұрын

    I love seeing more and more people connecting deeper to themselves. This is so inspiring ❤

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    I love witnessing this as well. We are all slowly realizing that it’s all within ❤️

  • @Dana18.
    @Dana18.Ай бұрын

    How like how just i saw this I needed this so much thank you for that honestly 💗💗💗

  • @Dana18.

    @Dana18.

    Ай бұрын

    6:30 but when if you dont want to here anymore.examples : the current or any state of mind - the physical place you are in - the life you do or live - the person who u r or not what should you do ?

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    @@Dana18. I’ve been in this head space before & continue to experience this as well, of really resisting where I’m at, who I am, etc. I think over time you start to see these experiences as a door to observe the resistance itself & to notice where it’s coming from. Whenever I am in this state of being I remind myself that, I’m not suffering because of what’s happening to me or where I am in life, I’m suffering because of what I’m THINKING about whats happening to me, a lot of our pain starts with our thoughts & what if we offered the space for it to be there but without judgement, without wanting it to change but to simply be there with love.

  • @leiahmae
    @leiahmaeАй бұрын

    This was amazing . Thank you

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Thank you 🥹💚

  • @elis9858
    @elis985829 күн бұрын

    Thank you! I definitely needed the video to change my perspective, it's a couple of weeks that I've been feeling off and my mind just continues to add more and more stuff to make me feel even worse. Really appreciated it 🫶

  • @laurat.4791
    @laurat.4791Ай бұрын

    great 🤍 as long as you dont abuse art as a way of slandering, gossiping or mocking other people like so many 'artists' sadly do nowadays. 🌼🌿 Art without depth or integrity will always be empty to me

  • @Zzzz_mops
    @Zzzz_mopsАй бұрын

    This is so beautiful and helpful I’m rlly glad I found your channel

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Thank you, I’m happy you’re here 🩵

  • @madhumuse
    @madhumuseАй бұрын

    i hope more people get to hear this beautiful wisdom

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    🩵

  • @mars8r
    @mars8rАй бұрын

    Thank you for this insight, many blessings

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    of course

  • @WokiesASMR
    @WokiesASMRАй бұрын

    awe, we have some of the same books. Thank you for this beautiful video. Sending you hugs 🤗🤗

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    I love that 🥰 thank you! Sending you hugs as well

  • @LaytonObserves
    @LaytonObservesАй бұрын

    Needed this today. Thank you for making and sharing

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    of course! Glad it crossed your path 💞

  • @wandering_ari
    @wandering_ariАй бұрын

    This is such a beautiful video. Lovely messages, been feeling low lately so it a nice reminder.

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    thank you love, sending you a hug & some love!🩵

  • @earthtoaracely
    @earthtoaracelyАй бұрын

    Absolutely loved this video ❤️

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Im glad you enjoyed it🩵

  • @miammajor
    @miammajor28 күн бұрын

    This was beautiful ❤

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    28 күн бұрын

    thank you love ❤️

  • @Miseducation8
    @Miseducation8Ай бұрын

    I love thisssss!

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    💖💖💖

  • @romemitch1250
    @romemitch1250Ай бұрын

    I appreciate this woman energy universe and GOD continue to guide us on the right journey

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Appreciate you 🕊️

  • @reshan543
    @reshan543Ай бұрын

    thank you so much

  • @isiahzion9365
    @isiahzion936529 күн бұрын

    How this site should be used 💚

  • @annoar9776
    @annoar9776Ай бұрын

    this is so true.

  • @LoraDiggs
    @LoraDiggsАй бұрын

    Beautiful video! 💘

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    thank you💖

  • @bestactress1281
    @bestactress1281Ай бұрын

    This was so great!

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    thank you sm 🥹💞

  • @jlmomo3285
    @jlmomo3285Ай бұрын

    thank you for this video ❤

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Of course thank you!💚

  • @rhiannalopez3805
    @rhiannalopez3805Ай бұрын

    I let go of my ego yesterday and there’s no saying that the limiting factors will come back for me to do more shadow work but since 11 years I’ve never felt so comfortable and safe in my own skin ❤ anxiety went away, fear and exhaustion. it’s like I’m a whole different person!

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Im so happy to for you ❤️

  • @Nicole-ub7uv
    @Nicole-ub7uv25 күн бұрын

    I love the tea cup to cute ❤

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    25 күн бұрын

    Its soo cutee & tiny haha thank you! 💞

  • @ASMRfleur
    @ASMRfleurАй бұрын

    I love this!!

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    🤍

  • @emmaromick
    @emmaromickАй бұрын

    oh i am so happy i found your page:)

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    🥹💞

  • @theoriginal7727
    @theoriginal7727Ай бұрын

    Self love team come on!! 🎉❤🎉❤🎉❤🎉❤❤❤🎉🎉❤❤❤🎉❤🎉❤🎉❤

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Yesss 💖💖💖

  • @theoriginal7727

    @theoriginal7727

    Ай бұрын

    @@marthaestradaz homie I can’t find you IG! Love to follow there too. But praying and pumping your channel here, I love YT and have found some of the best people on Earth in The comment section of great channels. Like yours! #GrowGrowGrow.

  • @Etherealez
    @EtherealezАй бұрын

    beautiful ✨

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Thank you💖

  • @viv2723
    @viv2723Ай бұрын

  • @Aguadelmar333
    @Aguadelmar333Ай бұрын

    angel energy

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    💚

  • @maggiehackenwerth8449
    @maggiehackenwerth8449Ай бұрын

    💗

  • @blessymessy
    @blessymessyАй бұрын

    I cried

  • @yesimoraaa
    @yesimoraaaАй бұрын

    This is everything I’ve been feeling lately you translated everything so well. Thank you for sharing! ✨🫶🏽

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Of course

  • @Zzzz_mops
    @Zzzz_mopsАй бұрын

    what camera do you use to film? this video is so good you have such a beautiful vibe btw

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    I use Sony Fx30 & Canon Rebel T7i

  • @balance733
    @balance733Ай бұрын

    pain into 💞...=16/12=28=TEñ alwayzzzzz'...🌟

  • @balance733

    @balance733

    Ай бұрын

    funfact, i call Self° "L💞VE Peace", whY...bc...i 💞 peace..."that pART"...✨🤍✨

  • @balance733

    @balance733

    Ай бұрын

    ⏳8:08⌛...i thouGht that was a biGGG aSS Roc', lolol laughOutLoudoRleaRn, i just lET myPrincess tuRtle We' call puRple roam today Out itS home/habitat, i noRmally dønt dø that, itS just funny/d🎨pe tô sëë a tuRtle in youR vide🎨, & aFew houRsz ago i did that, ONE of myFavorite sayinG iS, "Respect' whåt yøü dønt sëë"...✨🧘✨

  • @ArielleDestiny
    @ArielleDestinyАй бұрын

    thank you for this video. so happy i clicked on this video and found your channel!

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    thank you so much for watching & being here too!

  • @solindasol
    @solindasolАй бұрын

    Is this a sign I should keep going? Thank you.

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    Yes it is

  • @misslunaaaa
    @misslunaaaaАй бұрын

    I love the song at the end. What's the name of the song?

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Ай бұрын

    It’s called I’m Yours by Jason Mraz ✨

  • @tb22k
    @tb22kАй бұрын

    Ok

  • @theetravelhippie
    @theetravelhippieКүн бұрын

    new sub ❤

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    Күн бұрын

    ❤️

  • @suggercane3784
    @suggercane3784Ай бұрын

    Can we be friends?

  • @Yochanon
    @Yochanon19 күн бұрын

    Is there a community with people like you? Every religion has a place to meet at and community. Where and when do people like us meet? @Johnsurber_

  • @lia3111
    @lia311129 күн бұрын

    I’ve been sad on and off for the past few weeks which isn’t normal for me. This video came at the right time 🤍✨

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    29 күн бұрын

    Sending you love through whatever phase you’re going through 💞

  • @montceane
    @montceane17 күн бұрын

    I needed this advice so badly. My mind’s been spiralling again. So thank you 🤍

  • @marthaestradaz

    @marthaestradaz

    16 күн бұрын

    I’m glad it helped

  • @amar.vivian
    @amar.vivian18 күн бұрын