Sorry for the mute. UMG asked me to mute it, then they demonetized the video anyway. Classy stuff, I know.

As a frontline COVID nurse, this song breaks me apart and puts me back together. The last two years have been absolutely traumatizing and this song makes me sob but it makes me feel heard

to me..this is perhaps the ONLY song in Folklore that better listen with the recording version..it actual version very cinematic, the music is worthy of any blocbuster film.. I always shed tears whenever i listen to this song..coz i think most of us has seen someone suffering / or had lost someone we knew to this covid pandemic..

@clansome

2 жыл бұрын

Totally agree. I think LongPond "might" have been better served without Epiphany. Or just using the album version as an outro track. I always think of "Saving Private Ryan" when listening to this track and like Marjorie on evermore, this can bring me to tears listening to it.

@Anna13Tonks

2 жыл бұрын

The studio version is so magically haunting, I don't think I've ever heard a song that haunted me this kind of way

@ZATennisFan

10 ай бұрын

Listen to it through a top notch pair of noise cancelling headphones and it’s truly a different experience

I really appreciated the care you took with this reaction (though you may want to edit the title for this video). As someone with cPTSD, I wholeheartedly agree with you regarding the efficiency of EMDR and a good therapist -- and knowing you're not alone. That helps so much. The second verse of this song is specifically about the frontline (and lastline) workers in the face of the COVID19 pandemic, and how what they're experiencing may be similar to what wartime medics went through; the horrors and helplessness, and the need to try and find some level of understanding or hope, whilst wishing for a miracle. I love how, on the studio version of this track, the percussion elements echo the sounds of bombs dropping and heart-rate monitors. It's very evocative, and it's a song I loved from the start, even though its subject matter is challenging. Thank you for reacting to this and for sharing your thoughts and your journey. Take good care and Happy Holidays. ❤

@mamab4720

2 жыл бұрын

I'm going through EMDR for (cPTSD) and it has worked well to sort through some terrible trauma.

I think all of the songs on folklore translate very well to acoustic and they sound similar to the recorded version, however I feel like epiphany - specially - is worth checking out the recorded version bc the strings, the background vocals and over all eerie vibe of the production makes it even better/sadder imo

2nd part is not specifically about ER, it's about doctors and nurses who were working in hospitals during covid last year. But great vd ,

I was also in a car accident where my mother died when I was 5 Then I was in the hospital for a couple of weeks after so when I arrived home life for everyone around me was already moving again almost like my mother had been erased from the timeline in a sci-fi way. It's been decades now since and I only have a single traumatic memory of waking up in a ditch in the aftermath and no real memories of my mother prior to that at this point. It took me well into adulthood to understand how much that was at the root of things for me compared to more recent events. It's not something I ever really talk about either, but I appreciate your willingness to share and making me think about it today.

@AndrewFriedberg

2 жыл бұрын

Wow, thank YOU for sharing too.

your channel is my comfort corner of the internet. I love your vibe and enthusiasm. Also, I believe she refers to the situation that doctors are having with Covid where they watch hundreds of people pass away each day. I really hope you continue on to evermore (Folklore's sister album) after finishing folklore.

@AndrewFriedberg

2 жыл бұрын

Wow, thank you!

Your KZread channel is a dream, the mix of you picking a song to play for the intro, your music knowledge and how you share your thoughts and perspectives with so much heart and openness, it all makes for a very safe and cosy space to hang out. Thank you. I recently started therapy for ptsd and really appreciated your thoughts in this video. I'm very sorry to hear about your mother. Take care.

@AndrewFriedberg

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you!

Yes the second verse is about the Covid nurses and situation. Yes I have experience with PTSD with my younger sister passed away at 30 yrs old of they say cancer. She went to the hospital in December and passed away on January 20th. I will never be over it either. She was the closest one to me.

sir, you don't have to, but thank you for opening up to us. another great commentary video yet again. I wish you and your family well.

The way Taylor weaves these two threads together is sheer genius. Epiphany is the greatest song on the album by a some margin as a piece of art and empathy....Is it easy to listen to? No but it deserves to be listened far more than it is and be far more appreciated......

@kesmiley1

2 жыл бұрын

i completely agree with that - it always comes at me hard when i hear it. the most powerful art and the most potent lessons are the most uncomfortable to experience.

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your trauma with us. I’m sorry you had to go through that. Sending you love.

Its about war and Covid.

wow, sorry to hear about your mom

i love the sort of haunting, soft kind of soothing quality to her voice in this song, and i especially love all the layers and harmonies in the studio version. she really knows how to set a scene and capture the emotion of it

The title has the wrong song name

@AndrewFriedberg

2 жыл бұрын

Yup, thanks!

Hi Andrew!! I love your discussions. This song was referring to hospital work at the beginning of covid when the death count and conditions were insane. In NYC for example, we had semi truck containers just holding all the bodies. And we knew nothing about covid so it was a really difficult time. Epiphany isn't everyone's favorite but as I listened to Folklore, when I got to Epiphany, I played it 4 times in a row, just on my bed crying harder and harder each time. 😅 It's a gorgeous and heartbreaking tribute and from my standpoint, deeply appreciated. Off camera I recommend you listen to the album version, it hits really hard imo - the string composition is beautifully haunting. Thanks for the reactions buddy!! ❤👌

I appreciate your words about "getting over it." Mt father died in my arms from a heart attack when I was 15 years old. An event like that becomes part of you, sometimes for the better and sometimes for worse but it's never completely gone. It's good to be able to accept that I think.

I also have PTSD and went through EMDR this last year and it was surprisingly helpful. Thank you for sharing!

this is so devastating,i'm so sorry 💔

Man I hadn't heard The Only Living Boy In New York in years, loved your short cover. Also want to say that I admire you talking about your experiences with trauma and taking that chance to help people watching this video, your empathy and compassion shine through in everything you do. I have friends that served and friends that are medical personnel (and the trauma came from working during Covid), both cried while hearing this song and really love it. And her music has helped during some of my worse depressions, last year hearing This Is Me Trying was one of the things that motivated me to go back to therapy (just lke you said therapy DOES work). The holidays are quite though for me, this video gave me another lift to get through the day, thank you.

it is about the pandemic she uses the trauma of soldiers in war as a starting point and compares it to what doctors saw and experienced during the pandemic

This version is beautiful but doesn’t do justice to the album version. The musicality and the emotion and layers in the studio version is beyond anything I could have ever expected from her. My nephew is a Covid nurse and I’ve seen him crumble and be defeated because they’ve lost 4 people in one hour and it affects our entire family because there’s only so much we can ask and so much he’s willing to share because the pain is very real and raw. It will take a lifetime for all the medical community to recover and cope from what they’re going through right now. Thank you for sharing your story; it’s baffling yet understandable why we can’t always share our traumas. I appreciate how much you encourage therapy and your appreciation for music that makes us feel as if though we’re not alone and are connected in our humanity.

I'm so sorry you had to witness your mother like that and because of it you have these images that will never go away. I have something similar. It isn't as traumatic and tragic as yours but it's just sad. In April 2021, my mom passed away and I was right beside her and watched her die. I'll not go into details because people don't like to hear it. I'm fine telling it. It doesn't bring me to tears. But out of respect for others I won't. So you know how people are just curious about death? Cuz no one really knows or sees it in person. And I had no idea what it could look like. But I watched how her body shut down, step by step. What does make me cry is when I'll hear a certain artist or song playing on the radio or on TV or in a movie scene. It was a song we used to hear on the radio as we drove around city to city just for fun. Those times we spent together were the best and it sucks that we can't go drive around anymore and stop by a random parking lot and just sit and eat as we listen to the radio. That's how I used to spend most of my time with mom. Plus she was the one I would go to talk to about anything even if we disagreed. To be able to have someone just listen to you is very rare. I don't have friends and I don't talk to my sisters about my thoughts, views or ideas because I get criticized instead of just listening to me. It's not like I was looking to have an answer. Just someone to talk to, is all. I don't have that even now. That's when I then think of my mom and my grandma. I miss talking to them very much. Anyways, thank you Andrew for sharing something so personal and tragic. Thank you for this upload. And in case you take a Christmas break, happy holidays! 🎁 🎄 ☃️🎅

@paulasacilottovalentemorei454

2 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing. So brave of you. Please know you can always look for help and support

Happy holidays Andrew!love this song!

I’m really sorry for your lost, I hope you’ve gotten the help you needed to get better and move on in a healthy way, much love ❤️.

Thank you for sharing with us, sorry for your loss. Enjoyed the video once again!

I’ve also had very good experiences with EMDR with trauma work. Thank you for sharing your experience and for all the Taylor content💗

@AndrewFriedberg

2 жыл бұрын

You are so welcome!

love this video thanks for sharing your story ❤

Thank you very much for the care you put into explaining your thoughts on this subject. As someone with cPTSD myself, I agree completely with how you put things, especially the part about searching for an epiphany. Also the memories coming back in blurbs, that's what struck me about this song, the quick impactful images sung in between beautiful instrumentals. To me, that feels like how it is to live with flashbacks

Hey Andrew, I loved your reaction. I am glad you seem to be enjoying Folklore so far, I can't wait to see what you think of Evermore, which in my opinion is even better. I wanted to thank you for sharing you experiences with PTSD and with losing your Mom. I know it's hard to talk about. When I was 8, my Mom also died in a car accident. I wasn't in the car with her, (she had been out on a supposed final date with a guy she was seeing and he was drunk and hit a telephone pole with her side of the car) but it has fucked with me every day of my life since it happened, so I can only imagine how horrible it must have been for you, with you being in the car. My heart goes out to you. My trauma was different, she died and that was horrible, I was in shock, but then almost immediately everything in her apartment was thrown away or donated and within 3 days I was living 1500 miles away with my Dad in a completely new life. Almost all trace of her had been eradicated. And then, no one showed up at the vehicular homicide trial for the guy who was driving, it was like no one cared about her. It was almost like she never existed, no one talked about her. And I loved her so much. She was only 38, 2 years younger than I am now. Anyway, I have gotten carried away, I just wanted to say I know what it's like, to some extent, and I know it takes years for it to really sink in and for you to begin to process what has happened and what you have lost. In a way it's almost like a continuous loss that goes on for years, every birthday, every milestone, every part of your life that they miss. Thank you for sharing. I hope you don't mind me sharing my experience with you. I was thinking about my Mom already cause of the holidays and because her birthday is coming up, Dec. 30th. It's nice to be able to talk about her for a minute. BTW, Taylor has a song called Marjorie on Evermore that deals with this topic, losing someone when you are too young realize what you have lost. Also, I wanted to say, thanks for reacting to Miss Americana! I saw my comment was one of the ones that popped up on the screen when you were talking about people wanting you to watch it. I watched it twice, great reaction :) Happy Holidays!

Thank you for opening up (even though you didn't need to) and for talking about EMDR. I usually come for the music and your banter but today I feel like you helped me a lot with your words regarding some stuff I'm struggling with. I'll definitely look into EMDR now that I know it exists. Therapy does help a lot, it's the reason my life is what it is right now and it's helped so many people.

I'm so sorry that you lost your Mom and went through such a horrible tragedy! I'm actually going through EMDR therapy for narcissistic abuse and some other traumas. Most recently, my dog died suddenly and unexpectedly right in front of me, and before EMDR recalling what I witnessed would cripple me, no matter where I was or what I was doing. My Grandad was in the Korean War and all we knew was that he saw his best friend die in front of him having been shot through the head. He carried a bullet in his body, the same bullet that killed his friend. He never told his grandkids or children where the bullet landed. THEN came the second tragedy. He was driving his truck, my sister was in the passenger seat and she opened the truck door, fell out, and was killed instantly. He rarely spoke after that. He just couldn't speak about it. It was just too painful.

So sorry to hear about what happened to you. Sending love and peace on your healing journey

I'm so sorry for what happened to you. I've lost my mom a few months ago and it's been such a crushing experience that I can only imagine how difficult it must have been for you as a child and witness. Thank you for sharing this with us, I'm glad you found the strength and help you needed.

thank you for sharing❤️

Andrew thank-you for sharing a portion of your story. I share your comfort in beautiful music.

Really enjoy listening to your analysts of both lyrics and the music in songs and sharing your personal perspective on things. Thanks and keep it up. One suggestion is to improve the sound coming from your microphone. When I listen with headphones on, there is a clear background hiss that goes away when you mute your mic.

I was in a car wreck at 16, we were in a ditch for 6hrs. 3 of my friends died. I'm 43 now and that trauma has never left me. I'm sorry you had to go through that at such a young age. I live on a small island and during the pandemic Folklore/Evermore stopped me from... going down the rabbit-hole or whatever. Since I found your channel my husband has started playing his guitar again with a bit of your coaching. You have a great singing voice and of course you play very well, have you ever thought of doing the Caribbean circuit? We usually get pianists (I'm one) for three months at time at the big hotels during high season witch starts in November.

i love the musical intros

So sorry this happened to you!

Listen. I'm just giving a huuuge virtual hug to u. And to all those who have went through rough time or are going through it rn.

I had an epiphany watching your reaction. Thank you for sharing your story. I will take it with me.

I did not learn how to drive until I was 36 due to a car accident that occurred when I was a kid. No one in our car, my parents and brothers and sisters, but the lady in front of us went through the windshield. She wasn't wearing a seat belt. I was 5 years old. My parents told me not to look, but what does a 5 yr old do when they are told not to do something? I looked and that image still haunts me today, but it no longer causes me to completely freeze up and not be able to drive. It took 2 1/2 years of therapy to overcome it.

The plastic is a reference to co-vid deaths, unable to directly touch your dying loved ones. This album was made at the height of the pandemic. Thank you for your respectful treatment of this topic. I'm in treatment for PTSD. All love and respect for you for sharing.

I’m so sorry that happened to you Andrew.

I dropped out of nursing school after taking care of and watching my relatives die of Covid. This song feels different after that happened. Also, I send you my condolences and wish you very well.

❤

My grandparents were teens living in the Netherlands along the German border during the war and they NEVER liked to talk about the war or what they went through. They would talk a little about the bombs and having black out curtains. My grandmother told a few stories when she was deep in dementia so I’m not sure how real those are. My dads parents didn’t talk much about it either to him or his 7 siblings. I wish I knew more about their experiences.

During covid, you literally had to "hold hands" through plastic barriers (not just gloves) because of how contagious it was.

I love the intro XD

Nurses who worked through covid are not okay. In particular, nurses who worked in covid ICUs. They had to listen to people, young people, beg not to die. FaceTime family, because they couldn’t come hold their hands through plastic…just the nurses and doctors, so they could say they loved them one more time before they were intubated. And so many didn’t come off the ventilator. Nurses and doctors having to mass casualty triage who got a ventilator or who didn’t…because they ran out of them. It was so horrible.

she was talking about doctors fighting with covid

ER she’s talking about Covid specifically…

Er in general is not that traumatizing coz we're trained for it but COVID definitely was traumatizing coz we felt helpless

Why does the title say mad woman tho😂

What a strange coincidence! Taylor's Grandad was a doctor as well, in WW2. Really appreciated this reaction!

Wrong tittle😂