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  • @iamwearingsocks6103
    @iamwearingsocks6103 Жыл бұрын

    The realization of not loving someone you want to love is such an awful feeling

  • @lexie9616

    @lexie9616

    Жыл бұрын

    i agree :(

  • @rawss147

    @rawss147

    Жыл бұрын

    🍃🍃

  • @cufomocha8850

    @cufomocha8850

    Жыл бұрын

    And when being told they've stopped loving you even tho your madly in love is an awful feeling too

  • @rubym9107

    @rubym9107

    Жыл бұрын

    ​@@cufomocha8850 this kills

  • @wornishwasstolen

    @wornishwasstolen

    Жыл бұрын

    @@cufomocha8850THIS omg

  • @berzeliuskaioken3831
    @berzeliuskaioken38312 жыл бұрын

    "the coziness of a relationship makes it easy to forget the piercing sensation of solitude" - jesus

  • @add852

    @add852

    2 жыл бұрын

    I don't remember jesus saying this

  • @ingemorine

    @ingemorine

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@add852 underrated comment

  • @luce6172

    @luce6172

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@add852 Because it was written in baeble, not in bible.

  • @Zamurkai

    @Zamurkai

    2 жыл бұрын

    Damn jesus that hit different

  • @aybaws

    @aybaws

    2 жыл бұрын

    I don’t remember this in the Bible

  • @22arin22
    @22arin22 Жыл бұрын

    this feels like one of those voice memos you record at 3am out of angst and then forget the next day

  • @thenaughtytaurusboi

    @thenaughtytaurusboi

    Жыл бұрын

    Wow- this is so true

  • @piyushanand4764

    @piyushanand4764

    Жыл бұрын

    Except that you never forget it. It's always there. Not in you phone. But somewhere in the corner of your heart.

  • @39deflect83

    @39deflect83

    Жыл бұрын

    Out of angst? 😂 k begrijp je wel tho

  • @lindaaao4948

    @lindaaao4948

    Жыл бұрын

    @@39deflect83 wdym, angst is also an english word if you meant that

  • @Dominances

    @Dominances

    Жыл бұрын

    I walk into the another room and just forget..

  • @universal2057
    @universal2057 Жыл бұрын

    The painful part is he deleted it all, just to say a typical response, it’s so accurate and hurts so much that this is truly how it goes, there’s so much you wanna say but…you just feel like you can’t say it because you could cause problems, so you turn back on it

  • @zacharyh1407

    @zacharyh1407

    Жыл бұрын

    I hate how that works. I'm in a position where I just want to send it. Maybe I'll cause problems, but what do I have to lose? It's already bad :(

  • @walkingthroughthewoods1555

    @walkingthroughthewoods1555

    Жыл бұрын

    ​@@zacharyh1407 how are you doing

  • @mmefett5122

    @mmefett5122

    Жыл бұрын

    ​@@zacharyh1407 Hope it went well

  • @Codjy

    @Codjy

    9 ай бұрын

    I’m in this same situation. I feel stuck I want to break up with this girl but every time I start breaking up with her I second guess myslef and decide not to. I think I have an attachment issue of some sort but I don’t want to spend any time with them. How can I get out of this?

  • @totallyaprogamer

    @totallyaprogamer

    8 ай бұрын

    So fucking true that it pains me just reading this

  • @thatisthatoof
    @thatisthatoof2 жыл бұрын

    Really similar vibe to a Pablo Neruda poem I read once. "I loved her and sometimes, she loved me too"

  • @treyebillups8602

    @treyebillups8602

    2 жыл бұрын

    What's the poem called?

  • @uknownothing5128

    @uknownothing5128

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@treyebillups8602 "Tonight I can write"

  • @Fran-ku4vv

    @Fran-ku4vv

    2 жыл бұрын

    Pablo Neruda is a horrible human being. Just know that

  • @isidoraguardam.2452

    @isidoraguardam.2452

    2 жыл бұрын

    Neruda funeke

  • @sebaseduardo16

    @sebaseduardo16

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@treyebillups8602 "Poem 20" from 20 love poems and a desperate song by Pablo Neruda

  • @metrobrayd2035
    @metrobrayd20352 жыл бұрын

    The ending was beautiful, a lot of the times we don't say as much as we really want out of fear of what the other person will say..

  • @aviksblog8145

    @aviksblog8145

    2 жыл бұрын

    Or society. That ending pulled on the strings to my waterfall !

  • @abodghafir3582

    @abodghafir3582

    2 жыл бұрын

    Not to mention, I would never be able to let go of her sweater.

  • @zaidsada6841

    @zaidsada6841

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@aviksblog8145 Society. That goddamn collective ego who is constantly judging us. Or at least that we perceive is judging us. Should it matter? Maybe not.

  • @seatyourself7082

    @seatyourself7082

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@zaidsada6841 probably not, and yet it still does cause we are social animals

  • @slingzy7157

    @slingzy7157

    2 жыл бұрын

    i’d say it’s more out of fear of what the other person will think, and how it can affect how they will view and treat you...

  • @irvingpagan1144
    @irvingpagan1144 Жыл бұрын

    My girlfriend and I broke up a few weeks ago after 3 amazing years together. Idk why I’m typing this and putting it in a KZread comment but I am. I’m not one to talk about my problems unless it’s with someone close to me, but here I am. Crying as I type this , letting the internet know. Not once in those 3 years did we ever raise our voice at each other. Not once did we argue. Not once did we go to sleep angry at the other person. Not once. 3 beautiful years that I’ll always remember and cherish. Unfortunately, I always had this gut feeling that for some reason we weren’t meant to be for each other. I don’t know why, but it’d be in the back of my mind, I’d never let it affect the way I loved her and treated her though. I loved her passionately and gave her every part of me, and vice versa. Towards the tail end of things, for the past few months , I felt things begin to change. I kept trying and trying and trying , and doing new things to keep the excitement and get the sparkle back but I could slowly see it dwindling away. Our anniversary was 2 days after Christmas , and even then it felt like the last one we might share together. One of the worst feelings of all time is knowing you’re doing everything you can but it isn’t working. Fast forward to January and she tells me she wants a break for a month or so. I don’t believe in breaks but I loved her so I decided to give it a shot. At first I kept telling myself I would do whatever she wants, but as the time went on I realized that I kept denying what it is I felt was the best thing to do. Best thing for her, but also the best thing for myself. I tend to neglect myself and my happiness and feelings for other people and always put people before myself. There’s no worse feeling than knowing that what is the best for you , isn’t what you want. I felt us growing apart for a while, and I realized I was never going to be able to meet the expectations she wanted of me and fulfill the things she wants in life, especially if I couldn’t even do it for myself. It breaks my heart knowing that she’s crying because of me, that I hurt her. But it isn’t any easier for me. I want her to be happy, and that happiness might be with someone else, and that’s okay with me. Idk how long it’ll take me to figure myself out and for me to learn self love and value, but just like the video said. It sucks , but it’s for the better. I believe I made the right choice , even though neither one of us can see it now. It’s for the better. If you read this thank you, you definitely didn’t have to but it feels good to finally let this out. Thank you

  • @daniloh8113

    @daniloh8113

    Жыл бұрын

    I was on the receiving end of a devastating breakup several months ago and in case it's any consolation to you, it sounds like you're handling it beautifully. Reading your comment actually made me tear up a little. Seems to me that you're giving her empathy and appreciation at a distance, and I think that's the best gift you can give her now.

  • @mackinleycable2139

    @mackinleycable2139

    Жыл бұрын

    This is so beautiful, thank you for sharing ❤

  • @jonathan3372

    @jonathan3372

    Жыл бұрын

    "Not once in those 3 years did we ever raise our voice at each other. Not once did we argue. Not once did we go to sleep angry at the other person." As much as I would hope these three years were as amazing, I wonder if this might be exactly the reason why things went downhill... always putting up a smile and neglecting one's own emotions, in hope that the other is "happy", is the worst thing in a relationship, since even little nuances can grow into insurmountable unhappiness if no one is willing to speak up about them. Still, would like to give my best wish for you.

  • @wyntur_

    @wyntur_

    Жыл бұрын

    You are me. And I am you. The only difference is I feel I am nearing the receiving end of this. It’s scary and it may not actually even be about to happen. but right now it’s painful and hurt a lot. So thank you for being someone I know has gotten through my crisis

  • @floriankgold

    @floriankgold

    Жыл бұрын

    Thanks a lot for sharing. I can definitely relate with you and it's just painful. I learned that it's important to think about myself more and not put others first always and then talk about it. ❤ If you are not happy with who you are in the relationship, it won't work probably. All the best ✌️❤

  • @MD-kf4fw
    @MD-kf4fw10 ай бұрын

    there's something beautiful about being brutally and vulnerably honest. to be authentic, to be real, to be human. it feels very earthy and yet charming.

  • @Dogestronaut2.0

    @Dogestronaut2.0

    10 ай бұрын

    you are worth the blood of Jesus! More valuable than any silver or Gold! Jesus died for u! He died so we can be with him! And he came back!! He loves u! Come to Christ today❤ believe! And Recieve! For God so loved the world that he gave his only son that who so ever believes in him will not die but have eternal life-John 3:16 Today can your day of salvation ❤❤❤

  • @jonsnowsb_stard

    @jonsnowsb_stard

    4 ай бұрын

    true

  • @Tom_Het
    @Tom_Het2 жыл бұрын

    my takeaway: even the monotone philosophy youtuber still managed to have a relationship during the pandemic

  • @thatman6916

    @thatman6916

    2 жыл бұрын

    OOF

  • @Aww_som

    @Aww_som

    2 жыл бұрын

    😂😂 😭😭😭

  • @krsnadaassa5016

    @krsnadaassa5016

    2 жыл бұрын

    lmao

  • @Emoechaiti

    @Emoechaiti

    Жыл бұрын

    But you couldn't

  • @disposablealienbrains7010

    @disposablealienbrains7010

    Жыл бұрын

    I'm dead. Help me

  • @nicolephilippot6672
    @nicolephilippot66722 жыл бұрын

    The problem with romantic relationships is the way that media portrays it to be, it seems to always be “the honeymoon phase”, always with that butterfly feeling in your stomach, nervous and giggly. However a relationship is not linear, there’s the beginning, then after that is when it truly gets tested, how will you feel once the love has settled and it becomes your normal. Will it be enough? Are they enough? I realized that you don’t always have to feel this infatuated feeling, you can be in love with somebody that’s not necessarily extra ordinary to others. After the beginning, you’ll grow together and that is what is truly the most beautiful, supporting one another, making each other laugh but also being able to stand on your own. I’m glad I figured this out early on, love is different for everyone so don’t subject yourself and please don’t compare yourself, you’re amazing

  • @mnabdvy3180

    @mnabdvy3180

    2 жыл бұрын

    too true, said well

  • @ivanna7589

    @ivanna7589

    2 жыл бұрын

    I love this comment

  • @HuntsASMR

    @HuntsASMR

    2 жыл бұрын

    I think this is the best top comment there could be. I appreciate your words so much.

  • @lapetiteavocado7341

    @lapetiteavocado7341

    2 жыл бұрын

    well said 💙

  • @oneboss7648

    @oneboss7648

    2 жыл бұрын

    I think Lala Land handles this really well. It totally shows the ups and downs in any relationship

  • @Edge9897
    @Edge9897 Жыл бұрын

    The first love is always so explosive and dynamic and visceral. My wife is the true love of my life, but after 3 years of marriage the electricity and butterflies are only occaisonal. And that is perfectly fine. Love matures, it grows in depth. And that is a normal thing.

  • @flowegirl4512

    @flowegirl4512

    Жыл бұрын

    Stay happy brother!

  • @benjaminholt6640

    @benjaminholt6640

    Күн бұрын

    Good point. All these comments about the "feelings not being there anymore" sound so immature. Relationships grow and change just like life.

  • @maria-san
    @maria-san Жыл бұрын

    shit. one of my biggest fears is what if my boyfriend and i will come to this point. everything's perfect now. but it's so perfect it's suspicious. and i've always been an overthinker.

  • @hiihrmenschen5569

    @hiihrmenschen5569

    Жыл бұрын

    Good luck, but honestly I would talk to him about it may help:)

  • @heberthr.6978

    @heberthr.6978

    Жыл бұрын

    Update?

  • @kevinlow69420

    @kevinlow69420

    Жыл бұрын

    Enjoy it while it lasts

  • @supersteeze1269

    @supersteeze1269

    Жыл бұрын

    That’s the scary thing that keeps your love alive and exciting. You never know when the last day will be, or when your last date will be. So for now, you just have to cherish every moment.

  • @slumdutchess

    @slumdutchess

    Жыл бұрын

    better to love and lose than to never lose at all

  • @celinehosea
    @celinehosea2 жыл бұрын

    I just broke up from a relationship like this. He didn't say much apart from he doesn't know why he doesn't love me, and that he'd wish he does, but he just can't. He says I'm perfect for him, objectively speaking, but he doesn't know why the feeling isn't there. The problem is though, I loved him with all my heart. This video brought me the consolation he never did; it was as if you said the thoughts he had but was unable to formulate into words. Thank you.

  • @bloomnbury7387

    @bloomnbury7387

    2 жыл бұрын

    you know maybe he thought you were his aspiration. Like you were perfect and he thought he could be yours but it is a thought and not a reality.

  • @celinehosea

    @celinehosea

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@bloomnbury7387 Thank you for taking the time to read and reply, Rudranni. I'm still not sure what his thought process was like, but hopefully he is happy now.

  • @bloomnbury7387

    @bloomnbury7387

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@celinehosea oh yeah my pleasure ✨ but this is just my opinion. Okay peace✌️

  • @Hi-ub1gl

    @Hi-ub1gl

    2 жыл бұрын

    I read once that love for the first 13 months or so isn’t love It is the honeymoon phase Because your brain produces chemicals that make you feel in love and think that this person is “the one” for you After this phase your heart and mind think about the other and if you really love him/her Maybe he wasn’t in live with you, maybe his mind made him think so Sorry that you had to live that

  • @apolloniadear

    @apolloniadear

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@Hi-ub1gl did you mean 3 months or you meant to put 13?

  • @mistastealyogirlll
    @mistastealyogirlll2 жыл бұрын

    it’s insane how this resonates with so many people, or maybe it isn’t that insane. We’re all just living the same lives in different vessels. Whoever reads this, you’re really not that alone.

  • @justamanofculture12

    @justamanofculture12

    2 жыл бұрын

    Can confirm

  • @sergioacevedo9569

    @sergioacevedo9569

    2 жыл бұрын

    love u 2

  • @liamblondel76

    @liamblondel76

    2 жыл бұрын

    thank you

  • @quake9405

    @quake9405

    2 жыл бұрын

    Thanks, maybe most of us experience this at one point but for some reason we don't even tell friends about it

  • @Angela-vm3kc

    @Angela-vm3kc

    2 жыл бұрын

    i really do too

  • @nanalatiban2026
    @nanalatiban202610 ай бұрын

    i come back to this like a tradition every month. "i wanted to love you and i dont think I'll ever stop wanting to love you." hits home

  • @antonioiovinella8431
    @antonioiovinella843111 ай бұрын

    this is the second time i come back to this video. I had to end a 3-year relationship at the beginning of this year. I loved her with all of my heart, but i eventually realized she did not. It was a strange relationship, our first one too. We were young, we went trough so much together. But i fell in love with someone that wasnt actually ''real''. I realized i have been spending 3 years with a completely different person, someone that drained my life and energy bit by bit. When i realized what kind of a person she really was, and what she was doing to me, i had to end it all. It was the most difficult decision of my life. Then came some really difficult months. I thinked about her, i remembered our moments together, but none of that was real, and none of that could came back. I became frustrated, i hurt myself out of anger more than one time. I wasnt angry with her, but with myself. I still loved her, and that crushed me even more, day by day. Im better now (relatively), and i started to realize that, as sisyphus says, ''it's for the better''. Im not happy it ended, im happy it happened, and that those few, real, good, pure moments in our past will stay there, eternally. In both our memories they're there, and i hope other pure and good moments can be created in the future with someone else. This whole comment is probably gonna get buried under countless others under this video, but even so if someone's reading this i wish you the best of happiness and love in your life. And if she is reading this, i loved you sunshine. I really did

  • @walkingthroughthewoods1555

    @walkingthroughthewoods1555

    11 ай бұрын

    I'm wishing you peace homie

  • @izzyjp_

    @izzyjp_

    9 ай бұрын

    The ending broke me 😭

  • @Dewstend
    @Dewstend2 жыл бұрын

    "Especially in those nights where the silence becomes all too much." God, the dread.

  • @mistryinlife8783

    @mistryinlife8783

    Жыл бұрын

    @@murpledeer What song is this?

  • @skipscrop

    @skipscrop

    Жыл бұрын

    i HATE the dread so much, after breaking up I started dreading every single night so incredibly much for weeks straight, i never want to feel it again

  • @theprogrammer32
    @theprogrammer322 жыл бұрын

    for anyone reading this: If you think you're falling out of love with someone, don't panic! First off, you were already dating for a long time before you fell in love, so obviously loving someone isn't a requirement to date, and not loving someone (on it's own) is not a good enough reason to stop dating! A lack of love can be caused by many things including mental health! If you think you might be depressed, then yeah, no shit, there's gonna be periods where you don't love anybody, or anything! Love comes and goes, but it doesn't mean you should panic and cut things off. As long as you're still having fun with someone then there's no reason you should gatekeep yourself from a relationship with them! Obvious caveats: You start to find them unbearable. You love someone else (this is a bit tricky)? You don't like them at all and discovered the relationship was / is solely about something else like infatuation, evading loneliness, or just sex. You think they are abusive / manipulative These are valid reasons to break up with someone once you stop loving them. Losing "love" by itself is not a good enough reason to pull yourself away from a good friend!

  • @lysergidedaydream5970

    @lysergidedaydream5970

    2 жыл бұрын

    thank you I don't think I am, I'm just scared I will. and I'm still panicking. but thank you a lot

  • @anejaG55

    @anejaG55

    2 жыл бұрын

    Well said

  • @sagemedows95

    @sagemedows95

    2 жыл бұрын

    Heed these words fr, I made that mistake (5 years ago) and I'm still catching myself wanting to text her. Don't date your best friends, its too risky. One conversation and you'll never see them again

  • @lexichantel96

    @lexichantel96

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@lysergidedaydream5970 i feel this so much… i am so scared that i won’t want this anymore some day that i forget whether i want it now

  • @omnivale1803

    @omnivale1803

    2 жыл бұрын

    love is a daily choice, if you love based off how youre feeling then youre not ready for a ltr trust me!!!

  • @cheyannetull9391
    @cheyannetull939110 ай бұрын

    this is honestly beautiful. reminds me of “perks of being a wallflower” the way it’s written.

  • @izzyjp_

    @izzyjp_

    9 ай бұрын

    Is that a book or something

  • @dollphobicc1947

    @dollphobicc1947

    5 ай бұрын

    @@izzyjp_it’s a film I’m not sure if it was a book before though.

  • @HudsonRedder

    @HudsonRedder

    4 ай бұрын

    @@dollphobicc1947 it was originally a book, then it got turned into a film.

  • @tusarsarma5337
    @tusarsarma53376 ай бұрын

    stuck between wishing we were still together or whishing we had never met

  • @dawert2667
    @dawert2667 Жыл бұрын

    The love isn’t the passion, the love is the bond.

  • @PabIo290

    @PabIo290

    Жыл бұрын

    love has many names and should ultimately be used in all walks of form.

  • @jasperbaunee1405

    @jasperbaunee1405

    Жыл бұрын

    passion drives a person, both people having wonderful passion for each other is what makes them want each other and want to try.

  • @fathermahler1078

    @fathermahler1078

    Жыл бұрын

    I heavily agree with this. A relationship is not built on passion.

  • @Dogestronaut2.0

    @Dogestronaut2.0

    10 ай бұрын

    Jesus is love❤

  • @gwho

    @gwho

    9 ай бұрын

    Love is a lot of things. It's a big blob of a word of many different types that English I explicable refuses to have words for

  • @RefriedBaby
    @RefriedBaby2 жыл бұрын

    This video hits home. I needed to see this without knowing beforehand.

  • @chonofernandez730

    @chonofernandez730

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yes

  • @lemoanfr

    @lemoanfr

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yes

  • @Randomness-10901

    @Randomness-10901

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yes

  • @winterbugplays

    @winterbugplays

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yes

  • @animationnation7551

    @animationnation7551

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yes

  • @markydrawzz579
    @markydrawzz5796 ай бұрын

    "because i wanted to love you", "i dont know why i couldnt love you" "and i dont think ill ever stop wanting to" is the realest thing rver

  • @enchantedsmoke
    @enchantedsmoke8 ай бұрын

    "but i did it and you said it back" that hit hard... i miss you sana, you were something special.

  • @m-mori
    @m-mori2 жыл бұрын

    This has to be one of the most relatable videos I've ever watched. Not only does it make me feel better and reliefed of my daily struggles, it also reflects the oh so perfect times I once had and still wish I'd have to only then come to the conclusion that everything that I loved so much only made everything more problematic. I love this video.

  • @flinbrentwood9684

    @flinbrentwood9684

    2 жыл бұрын

    IS THERE SOMETHING BURNING HERE OR IS IT MEEEEEEE

  • @EgoAl

    @EgoAl

    2 жыл бұрын

    Seeing the Daughters album cover in your pfp under this video only a week after i discovered the band, hits differently. "The road is dark, the road is long, remember these are just the words to somebody else's song."

  • @mrmanz1778

    @mrmanz1778

    2 жыл бұрын

    This city is an empty glass

  • @limaromeo8745

    @limaromeo8745

    2 жыл бұрын

    I like your pfp

  • @flinbrentwood9684

    @flinbrentwood9684

    2 жыл бұрын

    Maybe the sun waits for you to be told what to do

  • @DylanHousego
    @DylanHousego2 жыл бұрын

    It’s absurd how personal heartbreak feels yet we can relate so deeply.

  • @feldmarschallvonbraunschwe4463

    @feldmarschallvonbraunschwe4463

    2 жыл бұрын

    I like to think the feeling is the same, but the circumstances surrounding it almost always seem to be so deeply personal it makes the feeling get applied to something personal.

  • @kaylahmph9975
    @kaylahmph99758 ай бұрын

    he kept the sweater 🥹

  • @aleksacirovic9719
    @aleksacirovic97196 ай бұрын

    Who came from instagram reel?

  • @EliteA46

    @EliteA46

    6 ай бұрын

    Wsp

  • @yellingfrog9351

    @yellingfrog9351

    6 ай бұрын

    not me, what instagram reel

  • @Orangesnake221

    @Orangesnake221

    6 ай бұрын

    Whats a instagram reel

  • @chaymaeelmaakouli9937

    @chaymaeelmaakouli9937

    6 ай бұрын

    Oops 🤡

  • @aaronholland112

    @aaronholland112

    6 ай бұрын

    Same

  • @archangeljegiudiel1494
    @archangeljegiudiel14942 жыл бұрын

    Anyone else legitimately write like this in a relationship trying to be deep in thought and articulate your emotions and your partner just sends back "ok"

  • @d2xr

    @d2xr

    2 жыл бұрын

    Same here bro you’re not alone

  • @UwU-ok2jr

    @UwU-ok2jr

    Жыл бұрын

    bro i say "ok" to my friends a lot now you're gonna make me not want to but i'll still have nothing else to say which is why i say "ok" in the first place

  • @christopherthompson5400

    @christopherthompson5400

    Жыл бұрын

    @@UwU-ok2jr ok

  • @maehemthrillaz8485

    @maehemthrillaz8485

    Жыл бұрын

    yep....

  • @spaghetto9836

    @spaghetto9836

    Жыл бұрын

    @@UwU-ok2jr "Okay, I understand" "Thank you for taking the time to tell me that" "I genuinely don't know what to say" "I need time to think this over" Are all way better options than just saying "ok". That can make you come off as disinterested. I'm an essay-texter myself, and to me length signifies effort. It's like you saw someone taking the time to expose their heart to you, and responded with no interest or emotion (bc of lack of emojis, signifiers or punctuation). Just showing that you've seen someone's text isn't enough, actually say something. We want to know how you feel. If you don't know how you feel, then say that. Anything other than a vague "ok".

  • @panduzi5367
    @panduzi53672 жыл бұрын

    This was beautifully heart wrenching, but I felt like we weren't supposed to see this.

  • @abbatrombonelol

    @abbatrombonelol

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yeah I was going to make a comment as well asking if it was suppose to be a private video. That being said he liked your comment so it's probably fine.

  • @leamubiu

    @leamubiu

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@abbatrombonelol imagine the headlines: "Dude takes the trouble of animating 7 minutes worth of scripted video, only to keep it private" XD

  • @alex.polychronopoulos4487

    @alex.polychronopoulos4487

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@leamubiu I mean, to be fair, many pieces of art have been made in private, with privacy and intimacy in mind. But I believe Sisyphus just wanted to make a video on looking back at the first love

  • @asu8570

    @asu8570

    2 жыл бұрын

    have you thought this about lovesongs?

  • @thelaurens1996

    @thelaurens1996

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@asu8570 this is WAY more relatable and deeply touching than any love song to be honest. (Or any commercial one at least)

  • @astrobee6278
    @astrobee62782 ай бұрын

    "I wanted to love you" hit me hard like way too hard. I always remind my self that I wanted to love her and the best thing I could do was to constantly do everything other lovers do, like send messages everyday, go out every week or at least once in a while,... It was fun at first, we didn't share many common hobbies or anything else but she was very understanding so it was easy to talk to her and she somehow felt the same toward me. She did a lot for me, like way too much and I always thought to myself that I didn't deserve this and I was not giving the same back. Doubting myself and my so called "love" was the worst feeling ever. The though of "texting her becoming a chore instead of a way to express, relieve my stresses and tell her stories about my day" always there at the back of my mind. I felt like I'm texting her because I had to, not because I wanted to or in a passionate way. Then the thought just became worst and there it is "the thought to end the relationship" but I was still lingering for some reasons, maybe because she had a anxiety problem and I was afraid she'd hurt herself in some kinda ways, but then again that's just forcing myself and I know I'm not a great actor. She noticed how weird I act sometimes, we had a few arguments and they was all about some mundane stuff and I still never understand. It had always been me vs myself, battling my own thoughts while putting up the best version of myself next to her, I always tried to justify my action and always felt horrible. I don't really understand her like I always thought to myself. She loved me a lot and I wanted to love her back the same way, but I can't. It's the painful truth. I'm still regret I couldn't be the better version of myself for her, for the relationship. Eventually the inevitable, of course, was inevitable.

  • @k.4i
    @k.4i6 ай бұрын

    Who’s here from that reel?

  • @rachitdev7915

    @rachitdev7915

    6 ай бұрын

    Yeah

  • @AdamCatto

    @AdamCatto

    5 ай бұрын

    Me

  • @elturky8630

    @elturky8630

    5 ай бұрын

    Yea

  • @mayanyadav4126

    @mayanyadav4126

    5 ай бұрын

    which reel ...I forgot the person's insta id ..

  • @anexpertonthematter1468

    @anexpertonthematter1468

    4 ай бұрын

    Your mom

  • @VibhorDubey99
    @VibhorDubey992 жыл бұрын

    Rarely, if ever, do I watch a video on KZread more than once. It's just been 9 hours since this was uploaded and I've watched it 6 times already. Hits too deep. Never take it down, man. This was incredibly beautiful.

  • @d3f_b4by79

    @d3f_b4by79

    2 жыл бұрын

    This is sweet

  • @masnoonbd5550

    @masnoonbd5550

    2 жыл бұрын

    It is beautiful

  • @benthamin

    @benthamin

    2 жыл бұрын

    fully agreed

  • @izzyjp_

    @izzyjp_

    9 ай бұрын

    Exactly how I feel

  • @ydiesel2214
    @ydiesel22142 жыл бұрын

    The ending made my heart sink, because I think it’s fair to say that we’ve ALL had that one moment where we deeply want to say something to the person we love(d), but in the last moment we doubt if it matters or if they will care, and say something generic or vague to seem less hurt from the fallout of a relationship that felt perfect but realistically was not. This video was great, and very relatable. Thank you for making this

  • @uumlaut-
    @uumlaut- Жыл бұрын

    My girlfriend, who has been in the military for the last half-year, recently left me after realizing that her feelings for me weren't there anymore. The distance that came with my time at uni and hers at "the edge of the world" in the military, became too much to handle -- and she fell out of love with me. I remember seeing this video previously, thinking it was cute and heartbreaking. But now, on a re-watch in my current state, I sit broken. It was never easy for her when it came to being apart, I'm not mad and I can't blame her for it either - because somehow I'm not surprised that it went this direction. I'm just sad that I didn't *know* before it was to late. She had known it for a few months, even the week where we got to meet up, but couldn't say it before we were again separated by a countrys worth of distance. I miss you, and I'm not sure I'll ever stop missing you either. You're on your journey where you must do what you must to be the person you want to be, and I'll be on mine trying to understand what went wrong and blaming myself because its easier to have something to get mad at. I loved you, even when you stopped saying it back, as much as I do now

  • @Academicallystressedout

    @Academicallystressedout

    Жыл бұрын

    I hope you heal❤

  • @anandpushkar7510

    @anandpushkar7510

    6 ай бұрын

    You will be alright brother , the pain will slowly fade away

  • @Twoonsie
    @Twoonsie Жыл бұрын

    “I didn’t love you, I loved the feeling of loving you.” sounds like the way to put it.

  • @Bruh-be9rp

    @Bruh-be9rp

    5 ай бұрын

    U don’t understand how precious your comment is to me. I’ve been searching every single day, I never knew what was that feeling, and your comment made me realize this is exactly how I felt. I broke up with my gf 1 week ago and there was this feeling that it hurted so much but I finally understand it, I love the feeling of loving her, of having someone to dish out all that love, but deep down I knew we weren’t gonna work

  • @PegasuTV
    @PegasuTV2 жыл бұрын

    wtf man I want my distant troubled greek dudes and european past century bohemians that had way too much time to think about life, I wasnt expecting a perfectly relatable modern day love struggle being lived right now by my man Sisiphus 55 :( shit hits too hard damn, hope we all get better and be happy somehow

  • @yourfriend3760

    @yourfriend3760

    2 жыл бұрын

    Underrated comment

  • @12_Bitcat

    @12_Bitcat

    2 жыл бұрын

    Like check

  • @justamanofculture12

    @justamanofculture12

    2 жыл бұрын

    Snap back to reality

  • @mizukiziz
    @mizukiziz Жыл бұрын

    you never will truly forget your first love. when that love is real, its so hard to let go.

  • @edgarleon3712
    @edgarleon37125 ай бұрын

    I like to revisit this every once in awhile. Every time it hurts less and less, and recently I've come to remember you with a smile rather than tears. I'd like to think that, in another life, in a different timeline we'd still be friends. I Hope wherever you are, you're safe and happy. I miss you, stranger.

  • @gumballasmr2857
    @gumballasmr28572 жыл бұрын

    It’s so painful being the person on the receiving end of this!! I can see him fading away and I know there’s absolutely nothing I can do and I keep searching for signs that he loves me even though I know they’re not there!!

  • @philashonmahung7582

    @philashonmahung7582

    2 жыл бұрын

    It is painful especially when you are confused if you want him or you want the idea of him. I started looking for signs even if it wasn't meant to be! Made it all more confusing. It's hard since you want him but also you don't want him to see you as the one liking him if it makes sense! I feel you PS hope you do well❤❤

  • @bora9491

    @bora9491

    2 жыл бұрын

    Same, i keep asking why? I just can’t stop thinking about texting her or meeting with her. I miss hugging her so much

  • @mr.underground5906

    @mr.underground5906

    2 жыл бұрын

    It's also really painful and difficult being on the initiating end. I felt like the biggest asshole in the world after breaking up. It was the first relationship for both of us and she really loved me but I somehow was never able to feel the same way about her.

  • @cozyvrc
    @cozyvrc2 жыл бұрын

    I’m in love with this girl, and as per usual, she doesn’t feel the same way, and the only thing that hurts more than knowing that she doesn’t feel the same way, is the fact that I know eventually I probably won’t feel the same way either, even though it hurts to love her, I never want to stop loving her

  • @Andrea-jx8hn

    @Andrea-jx8hn

    2 жыл бұрын

    Maybe she's not the one for u

  • @helloeveryone7864

    @helloeveryone7864

    2 жыл бұрын

    U gotta move on bro . That's the way it is sometimes !

  • @bloomnbury7387

    @bloomnbury7387

    2 жыл бұрын

    aww that's so sad. :'( I feel you. There's this girl and she is awesome and I like her very much. But she has her plans to go and eventually well lose contact and it hurts very much.

  • @bloomnbury7387

    @bloomnbury7387

    2 жыл бұрын

    @✧ Shroomi ✧frankly idk what love is. I think I fall on the aro spectrum but like maybe it's this care for a person and u want to be with them and you love their vibe maybe. That's that for ME.

  • @merlin2839

    @merlin2839

    2 жыл бұрын

    same here i dont think i can

  • @emeryfarnsworth7213
    @emeryfarnsworth72136 ай бұрын

    I feel just as hurt and healed after watching this. Hurt because it's exactly how it feels to miss her, but healed because at least I know someone out there understands the pain I could never put into words. Thank you

  • @fakeaccount2653
    @fakeaccount2653 Жыл бұрын

    6:37 when u have so much to say, but at the last moment u prefer not to say it. it is so relatable.

  • @RelicOfTheClassics
    @RelicOfTheClassics2 жыл бұрын

    I love the idea of you sysiphus. I may not ever know you or meet you, hell if we saw eachother on the street we may not get along, but the you that this video and the rest of your channel creates in me is wonderful, caring, and authentic. I don't and can't really love you over the internet, but the idea of you is something to behold

  • @empty_set_

    @empty_set_

    2 жыл бұрын

    Who needs therapy, when you have funny stickman on the Internet, amirite?

  • @Zarafin

    @Zarafin

    2 жыл бұрын

    @525 But I like Captain America :(

  • @oikawaisbbywbk2126

    @oikawaisbbywbk2126

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@empty_set_ exactly

  • @justamanofculture12

    @justamanofculture12

    2 жыл бұрын

    If i ever meet him in a street, our RESONANCE will break the road and destroy the city.

  • @peanutbutter3578
    @peanutbutter35782 жыл бұрын

    People don't realize that love is not a feeling. The feeling is simply infatuation with some other feelings sprinkled in. After about 6 months to a year sometimes longer that feeling starts to really dwindle. Sometimes things like the attention safety and pleasure of sex can even displace the infatuation. Love is choosing to stay with them. Love is when you choose someone even when you have negative feelings for them. Thats what marriage is all about. Going past feelings. The feelings can even return actually. Its just it takes literally no effort to make them in the beginning. They are just there. Literally the moment you see each other. You are flooded with infatuation for them and they are for you. That is not love. A common goal in life. A mission to reach. Loving that person better. Making a better life together. Having a vision that stretches to the grave. Those keep love strong. The feelings come back. They come and go. My wife and I have lost feelings but gained them back over and over. But the most powerful intimacy a person can give is shared when you make it through those moments and reunite the feelings you once had. Staying loyal despite the hardship. Fighting regardless of the feelings. These really show the mark of true love.

  • @retrolyzee

    @retrolyzee

    2 жыл бұрын

    Well said man

  • @jonbohn3854

    @jonbohn3854

    2 жыл бұрын

    TRUTH

  • @cursedwaffle

    @cursedwaffle

    2 жыл бұрын

    I've already cried watching the video where he said that he wants to love her, and reading your comment makes me in tears even more. I really appreciate that you write this all down and I wish for the best to both of you. I hope that I can keep these in mind and continue to mature in the relationship.

  • @mxxicangirl

    @mxxicangirl

    2 жыл бұрын

    thank you, peanut butter. i will remember this comment :)

  • @peanutbuttersandwich5735

    @peanutbuttersandwich5735

    2 жыл бұрын

    Peanut Butter... I've finally found you...

  • @Ermtude
    @Ermtude Жыл бұрын

    Holy shit this was literally the most relatable video I’ve ever seen everything was so accurate and it just explained so many feelings that I didn’t know how to comprehend

  • @sazidahmed1271
    @sazidahmed12714 ай бұрын

    I had watched this before, and I am watching it again. This feels so deeply personal, as if you are speaking my mind. The feelings, the texts at the end, the absence of closure from ones own self, even our perceptions about love,.. everything were the same. Thank you for creating this, Sisyphus ♥️.

  • @courtguerra2002
    @courtguerra20022 жыл бұрын

    he sent this video to me, before we broke up, and watching it made me start to think too hard about our relationship. he said he didn’t mean it as him feeling this way too, but why would he send this one to me if he didn’t? i slowly began to pull away. i’d force myself to not text him all day, and didn’t tell him things i wanted to tell him. i started to think i wasn’t enough, and like we weren’t meant for each other, even though before watching it, i thought we were soulmates. we haven’t spoken to each other at all in weeks. i’m sorry things ended that way. i hope you’re happy, and aren’t sad about it anymore. thanks for being so good to me, andre

  • @TheLightningpenguin

    @TheLightningpenguin

    2 жыл бұрын

    it's been another one of those silent nights, and maybe it's worse since we reopened the hurt between us. i find myself coming back to this video and thinking about everything that happened. i had told you i watched this channel before and when the video came out soon after i immediately shared it with you. there are many things here that resonated with me at the time. after i rewatched it with you, you asked if we were drifting apart and i promised i didn't feel that way. the distance didn't help and it gave you a reason to doubt that could have been avoided. we talked about infatuation and love and i couldn't explain the fears i had whether you would accept me as i was when it came down to it. yet being together you let me be the child i couldn't be when i was younger brought me so close to you, and these are the memories i hold most dear: reading picture books at the library on a sunny day, eating cinnamon pretzels with nacho cheese at the mall, making crazy scenarios of how many cats we could possibly have in the house, going to the park and being scared to fall off scooters and bikes, holding me close as we would take a nap. meeting you 8 years ago has been the best thing to happen, it took me away from things going on at home. i was amazed with the familiarity i felt with you, and i even began to trust you. trust was something new to me, maybe it was for you too. as we grew old enough, i knew i had to do everything i could to set up a life for ourselves, away from the past. it feels strange now being here without you. i truly wanted to get through our hardships and start a new chapter with you. i don't know where to go from here, i get too scared to move on and leave you behind. on these nights where things get too quiet and i'm left in my own head, i really do scream. scream every feeling that i can feel so i don't drown. we were so close we felt like we were the same person, we matched together perfectly. i don't know what to do without you, but maybe that's exactly what it is. you wanted to be your own person, and maybe i need to be my own person too. i can't say that i am happy, and that i'm not sad about it anymore, but i'm glad for the time we spent together, and for the opportunity to have you in my life. thank you for letting me be a part of yours, courtney

  • @courtguerra2002

    @courtguerra2002

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@TheLightningpenguin thank you for helping me be who i am today, for always being there for me, and for being the best person i know. i’m sorry for reopening things. i know it was wrong, but i just needed to know what would happen, if you would be there. i’m sorry. i’m sorry for hurting you. i know a comment apology isn’t enough, but it’s what i’ve got. i’m sorry. thank you for everything, andre

  • @natalienemiro4707

    @natalienemiro4707

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@courtguerra2002 don’t give up on each other :(

  • @kagome5063

    @kagome5063

    2 жыл бұрын

    🙁🙁

  • @remi5636

    @remi5636

    2 жыл бұрын

    you guys :((( !!!! i cried reading this thread of comment. i wish my ex was like this to me. I'll never know, I'll never know..

  • @titusjames4912
    @titusjames49122 жыл бұрын

    Exurb1a once said, "Nothing can ever ruin this." Edit: 4k likes in three weeks and an interesting discussion about rape. The best KZread comment I've ever posted. Not proud.

  • @preciousabang8233

    @preciousabang8233

    2 жыл бұрын

    DON'T REMIND USSSSS

  • @isaimtz-cmcho688

    @isaimtz-cmcho688

    2 жыл бұрын

    exurb1a’s a shitty person :/ i loved his old videos but nothing hits the same after hearing about the allegations against him

  • @sarahxu6305

    @sarahxu6305

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@isaimtz-cmcho688 what are the allegations against him/where can i find the source of them? just curious bc i watch a lot of his videos

  • @leonku6210

    @leonku6210

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@isaimtz-cmcho688 man he is not a shity perseon nonebody is perfect and all there is are alegations so nothing is proven and he is free until proven guilty

  • @sarahxu6305

    @sarahxu6305

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@tomparker2310 thank you! will be reading thru her site

  • @indeed9445
    @indeed9445 Жыл бұрын

    "You were perfect, compassionate, accepting, weird in a uniquely beautiful way. You were mycompanion to so many adventures and memories: moments that I'll revisit with a certain tinge of sweet and bitter." Hit me like a truck

  • @izzyjp_

    @izzyjp_

    9 ай бұрын

    Factss

  • @nazzerethh
    @nazzerethh Жыл бұрын

    funny how i felt so isolated and alone when i was in this exact situation, then just watching my favourite youtuber and finding out he also has gone through the same shit, this makes me feel a lot better, thank you sisyphus55

  • @BlandBoxOfBisquick
    @BlandBoxOfBisquick Жыл бұрын

    "And I don't think I'll ever stop wanting to love you." that hit hard. ima go cry now. Ps. I miss you Dani.

  • @maxd0898

    @maxd0898

    Жыл бұрын

    Wait for me!!

  • @BlandBoxOfBisquick

    @BlandBoxOfBisquick

    Жыл бұрын

    @@maxd0898 yay now im not alone :)

  • @nefelibata2555

    @nefelibata2555

    Жыл бұрын

    I literally started crying when he said that

  • @xinkun742

    @xinkun742

    Жыл бұрын

    ive really wanted to fall out of love from this person i love so much but no matter how much i try i cant

  • @colex1222

    @colex1222

    Жыл бұрын

    That really does hurt because I feel like we exchanged those words to each other, and now it feels like we're miles apart, it didn't take long for her words to mean nothing to her, yet I still about them from time to time, still wanting to love her.

  • @igormichetti
    @igormichetti2 жыл бұрын

    I feel like a lot of us been in the same situation, that "u deserve to be happy" really hurts like a bullet

  • @Sisizlive
    @Sisizlive Жыл бұрын

    I started watching this video a bit ago and had to pause it. I’ve come back to it after a few months of growing and have finally finished it. It’s honestly so beautiful and made me cry.

  • @dann7985
    @dann7985 Жыл бұрын

    This is very relatable and I am relieved to know that I am not the only one who feels this way. Days ago I ended a relationship just because of this situation and since then I have felt very bad because I didn't understand what was happening to me and I couldn't find the right words to express it. I'm glad the youtube algorithm showed me this, it's what I needed.

  • @briankeane9981
    @briankeane99812 жыл бұрын

    I caught myself in a state of idealizing a potential relationship recently. When I realized things weren't going to turn out the way I hoped I was devastated with the consequences of looking stupid or at least feeling I did. But more so I was frustrated with allowing myself back into that self sabatoging cycle of believing I can exert my perception of someone onto them and it will somehow not be selfish and ultimately beneficial for both of us. I was thankful I could catch myself being wrong soon enough to quell the hurt but your video came out just in time to fully affirm how I felt. Thank you so much, buddy. You always come to bat for us.

  • @simelstre

    @simelstre

    2 жыл бұрын

    I can’t describe how much I relate your comment, man. I’ve been in the exact same situation, idealizing a possibility. It’s ALL in my head yet it feels so bad

  • @Panzer731

    @Panzer731

    2 жыл бұрын

    Bro. I feel you. I have to constantly catch myself on this aswell.

  • @MrKajithecat
    @MrKajithecat2 жыл бұрын

    This hit me right in the heart. I'm trying not to weep in front of my family. This pretty much encapsulates my feelings right now. I'm trying to move on, seeing other people but I'd be lying if I didn't think about her during silent nights or when I pass our favorite hangout spots. We broke it off last July in the middle of the pandemic after three years of mostly good times, trips and experiences. Anyway, love the video, wasn't expecting to feel this hard today.

  • @Sisyphus55

    @Sisyphus55

    2 жыл бұрын

    it's ok to weep. this is now an official sisyphus 55 crying sesh :')

  • @bill8383

    @bill8383

    2 жыл бұрын

    kzread.info/dash/bejne/aKKux5tmZNzdoM4.html

  • @seatyourself7082

    @seatyourself7082

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@Sisyphus55 i'd say it's important to weep

  • @seatyourself7082

    @seatyourself7082

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@bill8383 beauty.

  • @bill8383

    @bill8383

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@seatyourself7082 I guess beauty is both momentary and forever in a sense ..

  • @amneenja5720
    @amneenja5720 Жыл бұрын

    I don't know how or why, but your videos are uncannily relatable it is heartwarming to know someone else has experienced something like I have.

  • @Lil_Devil
    @Lil_Devil6 ай бұрын

    This brought out emotion I didn’t think I had in me. Thank you for being venerable with us, and putting so many feelings into words.

  • @tatumtatum
    @tatumtatum2 жыл бұрын

    you can love someone and not end up with one another - it’s the kind of love story we rarely talk about, and also the one that i, too, am enduring

  • @zombiyh
    @zombiyh2 жыл бұрын

    I just had a mental breakdown and I was crying waterfalls and thinking about *it* every 2 minutes. When I finally stood up and checked youtube, this was the first video recommended by to me. I immediately clicked on it and half-way through watching this... It comforted me so much, I felt like someone was telling me their own story about their heartbreak and somehow felt some empathy coming from this guy. I don't know if this is just purely a coincidence, or some miracle type shit...but holy fuck, I was stunned. I haven't dated anyone, nor had a heartbreak. I have my own different issues but this video gave off the same feeling of comfort I needed to have. I was crying and biting onto the pillows so my parents wouldn't hear me for 2 hours straight...... Thank you, whoever you are.. Seriously.

  • @chickpea734

    @chickpea734

    2 жыл бұрын

    Everything will get better, i promise ❤️ stay strong

  • @mickelamanuel7330

    @mickelamanuel7330

    2 жыл бұрын

    yeah, your phone is listening to you. Not even a joke, same thing happened to me.

  • @idontgetlaidbut

    @idontgetlaidbut

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@mickelamanuel7330 agree completely on the phone eavesdropping part. It's funny how we've just taken this device, that is connected to the internet, literally spying on us for granted. Fuck cyberpunk, we're already goddamned androids man!

  • @murpledeer

    @murpledeer

    Жыл бұрын

    I hope you feel better eventually and I want to share some advice in case it might help you because it helped me somewhat: “Tell the people that you know care. If you know your parents or a good friend care then tell them. They will try and help you don’t hesitate on it or it might get worse”

  • @harshitrajsingh6842

    @harshitrajsingh6842

    Жыл бұрын

    This, shall pass too. It's time anyways

  • @denverlamb3456
    @denverlamb34565 ай бұрын

    this is so good i listen to it at least once every 2 weeks

  • @imran_hisham
    @imran_hisham Жыл бұрын

    i had a good, long relationship during the pandemic and this video speaks to me on such a personal level. it's been 2 years and i still feel like this. i always ask myself if it is, indeed, for the better. i dream of her sometimes, remembering those times when we were in bed together or cooking pasta or singing together really fuckin terribly. the nights i spent after we broke up were really painful and the silence does become too much. we split up because of personal issues and we ended up hurting each other so goddamn much. thank you for making this video. i hope we all get better and cherish the first love we've ever had.

  • @lojupitermoon
    @lojupitermoon2 жыл бұрын

    Could feel the love through the screen, thank you

  • @avagumieny9484
    @avagumieny9484 Жыл бұрын

    this was beautiful. i think i sometimes forget that love actually happens. theres so much representation of superficial infatuation and it's rare for me to see people who care about someone because they are the way they are rather than what they do for you. i hope one day i can have a connection like this with someone even if there isn't a "happily ever after"

  • @LoverIsaDayy

    @LoverIsaDayy

    Жыл бұрын

    It’s one of the worst pains, being so connected to someone and when it ends you think you’ll never be able to find someone like that again. It’s made me believe that marriage is a bit of a hoax too

  • @0ranger

    @0ranger

    Жыл бұрын

    well are you interviewing every couple you see? I would hope it's not too rare that would be sad

  • @triss9824

    @triss9824

    Жыл бұрын

    This video got me crying rn because my relationship screams so eerily alike with the only difference being I love this girl with everything, both of us having bad childhoods the word love holds no significant meaning to her other than a word used to express how she or I likes something more than usual, we’ve never exchanged the word but that’s just me not wanting to make her feel trapped or like saying it makes everything more serious from then on, I care for her more than anyone I’ve cared about in a way that makes me profound, of course she’s beautiful but I feel a human connection that I try to compare to other experiences I’ve had and none of them match up. I’ve thought about telling her honestly and dealing with the consequences or giving it with the preface that it can be a one-off thing that is solely for her to know how I feel and make of it what she will, but this girl is so meaningful to me without her even knowing it and whenever I look her in the eyes I say the words I love you and I don’t know what follows that besides her gaze and the fact nothing else seems more important to me at this moment like she’s building highways in my head that I’ll hopefully never see bare of cars driving through, although if I did I would understand it was of my own fault somehow because there’s no way her unknowing complexity could ever waver my thoughts about her, she’s perfect

  • @giantjupiter

    @giantjupiter

    Жыл бұрын

    you will have it, you will have it; but it will make you shallow if it doesn't last, you know?

  • @LeNoir2411

    @LeNoir2411

    Жыл бұрын

    It does happen.. i never believed in love and marriage scares me cuz of my childhood.. but what happened is that , once i decided that i no longer want to complicate life ,i just want a peaceful life doing what makes me happy,in fact I've never been in a relationship even though i want to cuz i know that i don't love them i just want to love them cuz of what they can offer me..then last years, out of nowhere, i fell in love , i was worried cuz it happens so quickly and it's a person i found online.. and for someone who have never been in love ,it was both magical and terrifying.. after a while, i noticed some changes in my thought patterns.. I don't think about what she can offer me, instead, i think about what i can do to support her dreams and passion, how I can make her smile , basically what i can do in order to make her feel loved and appreciated.. what makes it better is that, that's the first time i found someone who's similar to me but also the opposite of me .. we have similar passions and mindset, but unlike me , she's confident and fearless where I'm more timid and insecure..my 10yr friendship was over cuz one of us want to move on and be happy while the other one only feels more connected when we're miserable together,it was bonded out of shared painful experiences.. so the fact that me and my girl bond over those positive things instead of our negative sides does make a difference..

  • @tylerlomasney4060
    @tylerlomasney40606 ай бұрын

    When they leave it’s crazy to see how much they really left behind, the ideas that maybe even separated you is now the ideas you choose to believe in subconsciously.

  • @Lilacur
    @Lilacur Жыл бұрын

    This video seems to be the key I've been looking for to get over my last break up, it allowed me to kind of have an understanding on why he left- and literally everything thank u sm

  • @suicidebylightning
    @suicidebylightning Жыл бұрын

    "especially in those nights where the silence becomes too much. that's when i'll think of you and regret it all." i am sobbing.

  • @izzyjp_

    @izzyjp_

    9 ай бұрын

    Had to crying at 4 am 😭😭

  • @outorii4659
    @outorii46592 жыл бұрын

    The worst thing is when you feel like it’s a personal failure because someone else doesn’t love you. You know it’s not their fault or yours, it’s a combination of a million different factors out of your control, but you still can’t help but think you weren’t enough. Not enough to keep their attention, not enough to satisfy them, not deserving. On the flip side of the coin, if you’re the one falling out of love, things are just as painful, too real. I need to remember this feeling.

  • @MEGAN69420
    @MEGAN69420 Жыл бұрын

    This gave me chills throughout my whole body the second you started talking, I got the weird feeling in my gut and my chest felt just got ran over. From the visuals to the music to your voice and the title. Absolutely beautiful sadly I dont think I am going to be able to watch this whole video. I bet it's as beautiful the whole way through just as it is in the first 10 seconds.

  • @rubyparkman2289
    @rubyparkman2289 Жыл бұрын

    i’ve watched this at least 8 times and everytime i rewatch it’s a new feeling it’s beautiful and sad relatable though

  • @obcursus
    @obcursus2 жыл бұрын

    Wtf, I came here for philosophy videos and now I’m leaving crying

  • @horatioguevara7597

    @horatioguevara7597

    2 жыл бұрын

    If philosophy doesn’t make you weep, you’re doing it wrong

  • @gracy8806

    @gracy8806

    2 жыл бұрын

    Me too 😂😂

  • @Prez_Jimmy_Carter

    @Prez_Jimmy_Carter

    2 жыл бұрын

    I thought there was gonna be a meme

  • @kittybaby2410

    @kittybaby2410

    2 жыл бұрын

    Right

  • @Maldabxnd

    @Maldabxnd

    2 жыл бұрын

    😂😂

  • @martaleja9279
    @martaleja9279 Жыл бұрын

    That's why your romantic partner needs to be your best friend first A true friendship never fades, even when the romantic feelings do

  • @onemillionpercent

    @onemillionpercent

    Жыл бұрын

    for real.

  • @heyyxd8123

    @heyyxd8123

    11 ай бұрын

    Nah bruh you made me sad

  • @juanjosegalindocotano3340

    @juanjosegalindocotano3340

    11 ай бұрын

    Still is, and hope she will

  • @Luffy-su1ho

    @Luffy-su1ho

    10 ай бұрын

    This is so true. I've seen a lot of married couples who didn't really act too lovey dovey all the time and after being exposed to such both in real life and on TV far too much I came to a conclusion: the perfect romantic partner is just a best friend who you fuck with from time to time. It's kind of why the idea of having a "female best friend" while being married or my wife having a "male best friend" while married to me sounds off to me.

  • @ZeroSouthBall

    @ZeroSouthBall

    9 ай бұрын

    It fades as well, we were best friends, it didn’t stop her to leave me

  • @odhranmooney3636
    @odhranmooney3636 Жыл бұрын

    This seems like a scene from a fantastic mr fox scene. Especially the music and it’s pauses etc

  • @AllowMite
    @AllowMite Жыл бұрын

    There was a time when I showed this video to her talking about how beautifully made it was. She’s an animator. Fast forward and we’ve been broken up for over half a year. Revisiting this hurts because now I can feel it so much more now. I fooled myself thinking I was over her, met other people but like he said. She never fails to seep into my mind in the most intimate of moments. I end up comparing my current relationships to her and it goes to show I’m not ready and end up hurting others through it. I know it’ll take time. But I’m glad I have those memories with her.

  • @greenfrog2891

    @greenfrog2891

    Жыл бұрын

    if your name is andre, court left a message near the top

  • @zacharyh1407

    @zacharyh1407

    Жыл бұрын

    I'm going through that rn. It's been three months. I hurt so so so bad. I'm so angry with myself. I want to go back, I want to go back. I would give anything, absolutely anything

  • @AllowMite

    @AllowMite

    Жыл бұрын

    @@zacharyh1407 Forgot i commented here but hey man. It gets better. I met someone so amazing legitimately a few weeks after posting this. Idk what type of weird coincidence this was but I let go of a princess to get myself a queen. Work on yourself and be happy being in solitude. It'll come when you least expect it.

  • @izzyjp_

    @izzyjp_

    9 ай бұрын

    @@AllowMiteside note you lowkey devoured with that princess and queen line😭

  • @orestisagathagelou8205
    @orestisagathagelou82052 жыл бұрын

    damn the timing of this video with personal events is scary

  • @TheRichUnc

    @TheRichUnc

    2 жыл бұрын

    Thought I was the only one 😳

  • @HuntsASMR

    @HuntsASMR

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yep

  • @fennec9882

    @fennec9882

    2 жыл бұрын

    yeahhh this is so weird bc it got recommended to me at like… the perfect worst time

  • @user-ok6nt9qo2w

    @user-ok6nt9qo2w

    2 жыл бұрын

    you have no idea man

  • @victormuhia750

    @victormuhia750

    2 жыл бұрын

    The fact that so many people relate to this, and not in some "deep-fake" way, just shows you how humans are similar, no matter the race, and horoscopes are just B.S. no offence.

  • @nkopanelesedilebona9227
    @nkopanelesedilebona92272 жыл бұрын

    Wanting to love someone, to escape the emptiness and suffocating isolation, and to find pleasure in the possibility of liberating someone else from that too, that's just my experience. This video reminded me of such a continuing pattern in my mind. Hoping to find a feeling of being loved in trying to be someone who is that person for someone else. Thing is, nobody is bettered that way, and truthfully, no one wanted it to be that way.

  • @IndicatedGoodLife

    @IndicatedGoodLife

    2 жыл бұрын

    Just commit to love, don't question it and you will see that you are able to love anybody if they give their love back. The thing is if you live in denial and have clogged up feelings that will tranfer to your partner aswell. So just fuck your second thoughts and go for it.

  • @tobiasfischer7921

    @tobiasfischer7921

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@IndicatedGoodLife hell yea

  • @tasse0599

    @tasse0599

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@IndicatedGoodLife All hail our lord and saviour!

  • @heartstopped..
    @heartstopped.. Жыл бұрын

    This is so beautiful. Don’t feel bad because that love ended, just know it only ended because there was love in the first place.

  • @sp1du350
    @sp1du350 Жыл бұрын

    well thanks for reminding me that ill never fully get over it and all my best memories turned into some weird in between of pain and happiness

  • @katelynhanft602
    @katelynhanft6022 жыл бұрын

    this is so raw and really captures all the emotions of a breakup beautifully. it really brought me to the realization that we don’t fear being in pain, we fear being alone in pain (at least for me)

  • @bora9491
    @bora94912 жыл бұрын

    It feels weird to watch this after breaking up with my girlfriend, i don’t know anybody would even care to read this but i feel like my heart pierced and its for this exact reason. I think she just lost her love for me after not seeing eachother for 2 months. But how can one lose love? I may be saying these in sadness but i can’t stop loving her.

  • @Angela-vm3kc

    @Angela-vm3kc

    2 жыл бұрын

    its infatuation like fall out of love one day waking up u dont love the person

  • @WeebsArePathetic

    @WeebsArePathetic

    Жыл бұрын

    ​@Sakurr Because sometimes you find that person who sticks with you for life, and it's worth going through the pain to find that. Personally I had just one breakup in highschool which probably catalyzed a seemingly permanent depression in me. I haven't dated anyone 12 years since then as I felt every relationship wouldn't work out if I was even worth a relationship to begin with. So I'd avoid flirty situations. I even found someone who was a really great match for me around 5 years ago, got her number, and ghosted her like a moron thinking she deserved better and it wouldn't work out anyways. I got stuck in a cycle of learned helplessness, and also had this idea in my head that I shouldn't date anyone unless I was happy all the time. I would hear things online like if you cant make yourself happy, how can you make others? Well now I know all of that is stupid. While I can see the benefits of staying single, growing up, learning what you want, and avoiding potential relationships that would have caused heartbreak, it gets a lot harder to meet people when you get older. You also eventually might get to the point where you feel the heartbreaking loneliness which can be just as emotional as a breakup. So go out there and date, but be smart about it. There are plenty of people who are interesting in their own ways, and thinking other relationships are bound to go as sour as your previous one is a delusion.

  • @idiomatic444

    @idiomatic444

    Жыл бұрын

    ​@@Angela-vm3kc infatuation has always been so interesting to me. I've dated a total of 2 people, and the first one was absolutely infatuated with me. Until it turned out I was human, and my flaws were too much. Infatuation doesn't last, and isn't love and a lot of people don't know that I think. I'm worried the same thing might happen with the person I'm currently dating. I see love differently from my ex, and it takes more time to form for me. My current partner adores me but I'm afraid that when those rose-tinted glasses fall off he'll realize I'm not good enough anymore, like my ex did. I'm not actually, perfect. But, it's worth a try, isn't it? To find someone who can maybe see things the way you do, to find safety and comfort in someone. To change and to change someone, for better and for worse. Love is really just an interesting topic

  • @_Methhead_

    @_Methhead_

    Жыл бұрын

    This happened to me too. We broke up about a month ago, and we were going long distance. I was completely fine with it and I even felt like I grew closer to her, even if I saw her every 2 weeks at the most. We broke up and said that she lost the connection about a month before she brought it up. It hit hard because I know she suffered through being with me just because she didn’t want me to hurt, but all I wanted was for her to be happy even if it means hurt for me. Ive been in relationships before her, but nothing really hit harder than this break up. Idk why, she’s not the first person I loved, but all I think about is how she just hung up on me, saying “I’ll see ya when I see ya”. The last thing I ever heard her say. I hope you’re doing ok now man, I understand how it feel. But we get through it

  • @MariaClara-sn3ft
    @MariaClara-sn3ft Жыл бұрын

    it's one of those nights where the silence becomes too much. i miss her so much it's almost unbearable. i miss our conversations and how she'd comfort me during one of the darkest times of my life. now she's gone, not completely gone, but she's not really here anymore, living her own life and dealing with her own problems, and im also living my own life and dealing with my own stuff and having fun with other people, but when it's dark at night, i can't help but remember her and how talking to her used to be the most exciting part of my whole day, and i just miss her so much. i wish i could turn back time and enjoy everything again. it just hasn't hit me that we're not part of each other's daily routine anymore

  • @Bappos0708
    @Bappos0708 Жыл бұрын

    OMFG STOP. I was so invested and so involved and when the end hit. And all those sweet words and meaningful thoughts, got deleted to type a shorter less personal message. I FELT that in every way I think i ever could. This video explains so much strangely relatable stuff. It’s comforting almost.

  • @sanjanaphilips9277
    @sanjanaphilips92772 жыл бұрын

    This made me cry

  • @flwrden
    @flwrden Жыл бұрын

    this is why i’m afraid to be in a relationship with someone who already had their first love.

  • @ssychostella

    @ssychostella

    Жыл бұрын

    Hey, I wonder if you still feel the same way, but I'm assuming you think first love is the way to go since it's fresh and it seems like someone will really hold you close forever. One thing I can say is that in first love, people are stupid. Naive. Don't know much. They are more likely to make mistakes and honestly because of that the relationship wouldn't last long. That's because they're basing everything out of infatuation. First love is memorable because it's fresh, but first love is also the most painful because you only realize the things you should have done after it's over and you've matured.

  • @roseekske

    @roseekske

    Жыл бұрын

    @@ssychostella needed this

  • @mussy9387

    @mussy9387

    Жыл бұрын

    Real late, but that doesn't change anything of my message. People cope with solitude by dating someone, its always been that way, and it always will be that way. He doesn't love her, he's never had the passion to go and get back together, it's just you cannot forget someone like her. Eventually he'll get over it, just as everyone else, and eventually, this video will fit someone else. It's naive to expect someone to have their first love be you, but don't date someone if you can easily tell it's just to cope with a previous relationship.

  • @zacouey

    @zacouey

    Жыл бұрын

    @@ssychostella thanks for that.

  • @xerilaun

    @xerilaun

    Жыл бұрын

    @@ssychostella ty♡

  • @erikalutz8028
    @erikalutz8028 Жыл бұрын

    This is a beautiful, love is so beautiful, i feel like you summarized it even though no can could ever possibly summarize it, this is a work of art and I hope you both stay friends

  • @siliwangii1263
    @siliwangii1263 Жыл бұрын

    from the bottom of my heart: "I have to remind myself that everything is over that a part of me is forever gone and that it's for the better. I'll never stop wondering if it wasn't possible somehow. especially in those nights where the silence becomes all too much but it is for the better, right?. It is. I want it to be"

  • @soosoo9010
    @soosoo90102 жыл бұрын

    This is like a youtubers version of a breakup song. Fucking masterpiece.

  • @user-yz2ik1ix2r
    @user-yz2ik1ix2r5 ай бұрын

    i wish i would watch it at right time. i can feel everything what he said. i miss that boy , and i hope he really feel alright. ly d🫂

  • @rosed3023
    @rosed30232 жыл бұрын

    I have been ugly sobbing for way too long after watching this. This feels so similar to what my ex told me. “I loved you for as long as I could,” and “you know you deserve better, though.” It’s been seven months and it hurts as much as the day after he left. He thinks it’s for the better, and he might be right. I am still barely handle the loss

  • @e056x4

    @e056x4

    Жыл бұрын

    @Sakurr I’m so sorry for that, to you both. It will get better, I swear. This may not be the best advice.. But I will say this. You don’t have to jump up and try to re-discover what life truly is/means to you just yet. Take a resting period, as it’s okay to rest a little. Eventually however, bring yourself back whenever you feel ready to. Find your balance, your ground, and water those plants in your mind again. Things will be better! If you struggle to do so, seek professional help. I’m a she, and I had my first heartbreak in June of 2021, which things got a lot better for me eventually. Trust in the process, and I can really understand you. I hope you feel better soon. Good luck :)

  • @mustafaahli9615
    @mustafaahli96155 ай бұрын

    "The coziness of a relationship makes it so easy to forget the piercing sensation of solitude" now that hits different!!

  • @harshitawho257
    @harshitawho2574 ай бұрын

    I was somehow always put off watching your videos and somehow always they find me at the perfect time, completely aligning with what I need to hear, with what makes me feel seen. it makes me feel not wrong for feeling things the way I do

  • @LaytonObserves
    @LaytonObserves2 жыл бұрын

    Oh my god. This is so jarringly similar to a situation I'm currently in, and it only became eerily more similar as you expressed your internal monologue. From the idealism to the disheartenment and regret. Are our experiences uncannily similar, or are some aspects of love and our feelings surrounding it human universals? I suspect somewhere in-between... Anyway, video was a banger, lol

  • @carissawood1854

    @carissawood1854

    2 жыл бұрын

    Not just you! Me too! My guy moved far away temporarily. Loss of passion. There wasnt even anything wrong in the relationship. Hell things were perfect and maybe too perfect. That idealized relationship felt empty. the distance from covid dwindled that utopia into a dystopia.

  • @EggEnjoyer

    @EggEnjoyer

    2 жыл бұрын

    Most human experiences are shared by everyone around us. We get so wrapped up in our lives and stories, we forget that there are eons and eons of civilizations filled with people who have been through the same. We forget that there are people right next to us who share our pain and pleasures.

  • @leespire8871

    @leespire8871

    2 жыл бұрын

    me too

  • @_hi_pwr

    @_hi_pwr

    2 жыл бұрын

    HUMANITY

  • @woodandwandco

    @woodandwandco

    2 жыл бұрын

    M O R P H I C R E S O N A N C E

  • @viktormachus4587
    @viktormachus45872 жыл бұрын

    Broke up with my my gf two days ago. Relationship lasted two years and it was special. Feeling lost and anxious now. Vid didn't help with that but thanks for sharing.

  • @Zephyrus0

    @Zephyrus0

    2 жыл бұрын

    Take care of yourself

  • @mavvos

    @mavvos

    2 жыл бұрын

    Much love friend, we'll get out of this alive, cheers

  • @milenatrebjesanin8747

    @milenatrebjesanin8747

    2 жыл бұрын

    Things will get better eventually.

  • @N0VEMBYR

    @N0VEMBYR

    2 жыл бұрын

    When one door closes, another door opens.

  • @wolfgang5496

    @wolfgang5496

    2 жыл бұрын

    Stay strong bud, I believe in ya

  • @whynotkhoi
    @whynotkhoi10 ай бұрын

    I first came across this video not long after we started dating, and now im back here to watch it once again. i liked this video so much since it shows such genuiness and realism, so i shared it to her. even though our time together was short, i regret nothing. all the seconds, effort, and love i gave to our relationship, i regret none of them. at the start, i told her, she was either going to the person that saves me or break me. well it was the latter. our end was quite rough but despite that, i want nothing but the very best for her. i love her now and will still be loving her for a while. i know she doesnt feel the same. it really hurts rn. but its for the better. maybe she was right, we werent meant for each other. idk why or what the fck i wrote, but thx for reading it.

  • @salmashurrab
    @salmashurrab Жыл бұрын

    My exact words said in a random video i decided to click and ended up leaving me in tears, its so heartbreaking that we wish we didn’t have that thing in us that stops us from being brave and allows us to express our emotions to whom where the first people that we would run to for emotional support. Hopefully for the better

  • @brycemcpherson8408
    @brycemcpherson84082 жыл бұрын

    Hey, Sisyphus, idk if you'll ever see this message, but to sum up all that I want to say is... Thank you. This video was all too relatable to me and bought me some strange sort of closure. I've never thought someone else could feel the exact thing I was. This struck a place in my soul, and I'm so thankful that you created this masterpiece. Thank you. Never delete this chief.

  • @Yoyozo663
    @Yoyozo6632 жыл бұрын

    Hey man, just because you dont feel some fuzzy feeling in your belly after a couple months doesn’t mean you don’t love her. Love is about the ability to grow together. Not the romanticized idealistic shit you see on media that may be influencing you to think its about some kinda feeling. And that once you stop feeling that feeling you ‘don’t belong’ with this person anymore. That ain’t it imo.

  • @hero9402

    @hero9402

    2 жыл бұрын

    I think that he is smart enough to understand it. And I think he was talking about actually being able to love someone.

  • @Yoyozo663

    @Yoyozo663

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@hero9402 ok fair enough. He did also say she suffered from anxiety, and unfortunately sometimes these things can complicate relationships, if the other person isn’t getting the help and support they need as well. But i’m just making assumptions. The term “ just wasn’t feeling it anymore “ just sounds so vague to me. But it’s not for me to understand anyway.

  • @hero9402

    @hero9402

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@Yoyozo663 yeah I get it I thought the same thing as you too that maybe they have Idea that love is perfect and where expecting the impossible. But then I was like but He is too smart for that he does understand everything. And things would have been really bad (I mean like emotionally not connecting and things like that) between them and there wasn't any chance of it getting better. So yeah I understand what you mean.

  • @tasse0599

    @tasse0599

    2 жыл бұрын

    I think it's idealistic to think that you can just continue to love someone forever and that clinging to this thought will just end up damaging your relationship with the other person

  • @splumpy8469

    @splumpy8469

    2 жыл бұрын

    For real, I thought this video was bullshit and it’s what happens when you watch too much romance movies

  • @RicardoLopez-wq9re
    @RicardoLopez-wq9re Жыл бұрын

    I can't agree completely. Love is an action, sacrifice, patience, care, selflessness, everything that gets your out of your comfort for the comfort of someone else. I have loved but idk. I can't explain. It feels as if I have imagine a life w every girl I have loved and I would s

  • @imquala
    @imquala7 ай бұрын

    stumbled upon your channel due to chance, butit feels like i needed to see this. Its so hard to put my feelings into words but this video really helped me feel some closure, thank you & i hope if youre still struggling mentally its over sooner rather than later.

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