surprised the redcoat didnt get unexisted by the unspeakable beasts

@xxp0siZlayr

Жыл бұрын

thx for the pin

@Just-A-Guy-TV

Жыл бұрын

Surprised no one told him about the copperheaded bluegills.

@joeydr1497

Жыл бұрын

Mate, have you ever met a northern mill town Brit? I once saw a guy headbutt a cow. We’re a strange and stupidly agressive when threatened/ drunk. The rest of the time we’re nice as anything.

@shealupkes

Жыл бұрын

@@joeydr1497 I would not advise headbutting a bison

@the5031

Жыл бұрын

THIS IS THE FUNNIEST COMMENT IBE READ IN YEARS

This guy just wants to save the woods for himself.

@owenmsyp

5 ай бұрын

@@drewrauch8929 he just wants to take down big oxygen

@cvspvr

5 ай бұрын

​@@owenmsypshoutout to viagra for growing more wood than any other company

@darkisdork4959

4 ай бұрын

LMAO@@owenmsyp

@genericjonathan4115

4 ай бұрын

This made me laugh pretty good

@stinkypete3640

4 ай бұрын

😂😂

„I can‘t write well“ he says and then proceeds to talk for 45 min straight not being boring for a single second of it

@JoshWedzinga

29 күн бұрын

Well, he did have years in the woods to come up with the script.

@beabeeadultstar1433

20 күн бұрын

He probably wrote it

@Manhfsgibdy21

2 күн бұрын

@@beabeeadultstar1433it’s almost like this is an “audio book”

so basically the real hut in the woods were the friends we made along the way... nice

For months, the youtube algorithm has been recommending this video. I ignored it probably 50 times. I guess the algorithm knows me better than I know myself because this video is incredible! So glad I finally clicked it. You are a gifted storyteller.

@minervagoswami9443

3 ай бұрын

I love your work damn, also same. I’m rewatching this all over bc this some epic stuff.

@joep_tr

3 ай бұрын

same for me! so happy i finaly took the time to watch this...

@oldcrow6990

3 ай бұрын

Scary how much it knows what we need. Loved this. Do you have a new channel? I hope so. McCandless affected me, too. I went off in a camper in my sixties. It was not for me...

@micro666ham3

2 ай бұрын

Same!

@kaiheaton4858

2 ай бұрын

I don't think he's just gifted, he's proof hard work pays off with enough ambition, dedication and insanity anybody can make their interests apart of their profession

"Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend." - Albert Camus

@donduckensen441

Жыл бұрын

I like this ! Ty

@wilfredcarin4691

Жыл бұрын

this is nice

@poiewhfopiewhf

Жыл бұрын

and together we will walk in the ways of hashem

@schishcobob

Жыл бұрын

Not actually a Camus quote, but still a great quote nonetheless. (I think it started at Jewish summer camps)

@poiewhfopiewhf

Жыл бұрын

@@schishcobob i learned it as a song in hebrew school.

The story about meeting people on the Appalachian Trail reminds me about how five year olds meet other kids in the park and immediately become best friends for the hour they're there, then leave and never see each other again. Thrown into a world we can't completely control, we act like children and become ourselves again.

@IceGoddessRukia

10 ай бұрын

This stupid comments section has gotten me all emotional. "we act like children and become ourselves again" made me tear up.

@Dovakium

10 ай бұрын

@@IceGoddessRukiasame… same 😢 we just need to stay true to ourselves and love the way we used to as kids sometimes… adults are just former children who are what they think an adult should be…at least that’s how I interpret it anyway :)

@Daelion164

10 ай бұрын

Very profound

@cassiustain6959

10 ай бұрын

This is so fucking beautiful, man

@Klemeron

10 ай бұрын

or travelling to a new city by yourself, suddenly knowing new somebodies, and they knowing you, more than your best friends... only to separate to your own corners of the world again, your tapestry of lives slightly richer for it. And who knows when your paths cross again.

As a guy that spends a lot of time watching short term videos on tiktok and instagram reels, I find it amusing that this man has managed to make a 46 minute story so interesting, that not in a single moment while watching this, did my brain consisting of fried dopamine recepters, think to wander my attention over to something else. truly an amazing storyteller

@markvel8605

2 ай бұрын

Can you recommend a similar channel with live stories and thoughts well narrated? I would be thankful

@mika500

2 ай бұрын

@@markvel8605 there is another called "exurb1a". Also pretty good

@guidomista6763

2 ай бұрын

if you'd like that but more about maths, physics and chemistry i really recommend veritasium @@markvel8605

@skidaddleskidoodle

2 ай бұрын

@@markvel8605 I really like Curious Archive's videos, "Sympathy for the Machine" video won me over

@calk2005

Ай бұрын

stop watching shorts. they make you get less interested in genuinly informative long videos. you just want to skip to something else. you probably know this but stop it before its too late. your attention span and patience will thank you 🙏 just giving advice

Completely stumbled upon this video by accident but holy moly did I need it.... I didn't even realize how much I needed it until you started talking about that desire, that need to be lost in the woods, alone... And maybe all of us at some point should say "fuck it" and go do something spontaneous that we aren't ready for, because that's the spice of life if you think about it... I've been - lets say - wallowing in my own depression, suffering from a lack of purpose and direction while simultaneously having everything I could ask for. A roof over my head, 3 square meals a day, a loving family that supports and cares for me, a career that pays my bills and lets me enjoy hobbies I've always wanted to pursue... Yet. There are still days that I cant get out of my own head, days where it feels like I can't do anything right and my whole life will come tumbling down around me. Days where I wish I could run off into the wilderness and never be heard from again. But I know that won't fix my problems, my own desire of self preservation would drive me back to the "real world" soon enough only to be met by all the things I selfishly abandoned, which have now grown to unfixable proportions and thus manifested in my greatest fear of ruining my own life over my own selfishness... Anyway. No one will read this but I guess what I'm trying to say is exactly the message this video is trying to convey, that I'm very lucky, and I should be thankful for the little things in my life and strive for bigger and better but running away off into the woods - as appealing as it sounds on shitty days at the office - will not magically fix my life or my mental health, only I can do that. I'm sure none of this made any sense but after 3 beers and a little self reflection, it feels good to get (whatever this is) off of my chest. Thank you.... From: A random American from Minnesota.

@noahthalmann9023

3 ай бұрын

What you said totally made sense.

@woolphallus

3 ай бұрын

I think the key message you didn't mention is that you shouldn't run away community. Friends and family were always the important things. Even when he ran away, connection with others is what mattered the most. Take time to yourself when needed, sure. But open yourself to others and you will feel more free. Cultivate relationships like plants in your garden and they will grow. I hope you find more inner peace, stranger.

@tjarbaugh3573

3 ай бұрын

you are not alone in this fight my friend

@harryazzole7814

3 ай бұрын

The men yearn for the cabin in the woods

@catherinecrawford2289

3 ай бұрын

Hey, I get it exactly. If it helps at all, As you get older some wisdom kicks in and you start to see yourself as part of the world, part of your place in it and that weirdly helps put some of our despair into perspective. Good luck, friend, from a person in Illinois. (these winters don't help!)

"You just have to sit tight and wait to feel human again." That hit harder than what I was ready to take

@420StonedToParallels

4 ай бұрын

I always hear that but the thought of waiting til death without anything changing for the better really worries me..

@kercees

3 ай бұрын

⁠@@420StonedToParallelswaiting, not waiting, it doesn’t matter what you do. But, you have to always be looking for it, at least. Truly, you just have to want to look.

@TheAgaskins

3 ай бұрын

I needed that

@RagnardtheGreat

3 ай бұрын

Yeah dude was very relatable. Wondering if homie is secretly my fbi agent or something lmfao

@MP-ky3hc

3 ай бұрын

@@RagnardtheGreat considering he's Bri'ish...it's possible. Our federal government does love to fund foreigners even though they're supposed to be all about the USA.

"10 years passed, in the way 10 years does" is an amazing phrase. Someone younger won't understand how that happens until it does.

@NekosForever

8 ай бұрын

Take me, someone younger Im only 17 10 years ago is over half my life I couldn’t imagine that going by like it’s nothing However, I do understand how it can happen Especially to someone older, to where life isn’t nearly as new or important or exciting, I’d imagine it’s easy to lose track of the days go by, just existing in the same patterns and feelings with only the occasional reminder like a birthday or holiday to give notion to the times passing. It’s a scary thought, one that I’ll try not to fall into but doubtful I’ll beat it

@georgeeliot2012

8 ай бұрын

@@NekosForever No one said anything about 10 years passing “like it’s nothing” You have to be at least 18 or maybe 80 to understand

@NekosForever

8 ай бұрын

@@georgeeliot2012 woah pal I’ll be 18 in 2 months I doubt I’ll have some surreal understanding of the world in that time But regardless the way I interpret “10 years pass in the way 10 years does” as meaning the years are going by quickly and like nothing almost as if it went by without even noticing

@josswheatley6929

8 ай бұрын

if you ever look back at your first reply in 10 years, then I think you'll understand it. I doubt I would have understood it at 17 either@@NekosForever

@Recrohin

8 ай бұрын

​@@NekosForeverat face value, yeah it sounds like that. but it's the personal experiences, thoughts, dreams, interactions and events that have unfolded or washed away that you really cant convey until you experienced it. you were so busy with your life that life kinda flew by. Not that you missed any of it, but a somber realization that time is slowly not on your side any more maybe.. at least that is how it is for me.

I am watching this while sitting in my cabin. In the woods. In the highlands of Hawaii. I didn't come here with any delusion that I'd automatically be happy, but the real revelation, is that there is no revelation.

As someone who took off on a very long hike too, the west coast version of the Appalachian trail, PCT. I was the most authentic and human version of myself out there , after 6 months when I finished it to my great surprise, I still didn’t want to return to the world. But when I came back I also found beauty being around others, to write with a pen, paint, read, decorate a space, land in the same place each night. I miss the wilderness everyday, but I know I am not for returning, the people are more beautiful to me now. It is my most cherished adventure. Thank you for this video, it helped me process that lingering yearning for the journey.

“10 years passed in the way the 10 years does” - love it, this line gave me chills for some reason.

@richiefletcher7377

Жыл бұрын

Came here to say this. Fuck.

@aceman0000099

Жыл бұрын

Because you're 10 years old

@bananbananowy3552

Жыл бұрын

Oh my Goodness, I just saw your comment when he said it. What a timing.

@magicmysticman

Жыл бұрын

​@@aceman0000099 😂

@BrainDent

Жыл бұрын

It was such an eerie feeling i couldnt help but give an awkward laugh

please don’t delete this one, I want to come back an listen again. :)

@jumbledfox2098

Жыл бұрын

Does he delete them? I'm kind of new here and really enjoyed this so far!

@kdot78

Жыл бұрын

@@jumbledfox2098 no

@nikolaisafronov3452

Жыл бұрын

​@@kdot78thank havens

@Emma-fq9pv

Жыл бұрын

Just freaked out thinking he deletes his videos 😭 can’t lose these gems

@nk-cn9sv

Жыл бұрын

@@Emma-fq9pv same, i would be so sad! really hope someone is archiving these just in case

I think you wrote something really profound here, and you're an excellent narrator. Thank you for speaking to the restlessness a lot of us feel, I'm just as guilty about fantasizing scenarios that would "fix me" and this story really is grounding!

Me literally in a cottage in the woods and living my best life. It was the answer for me.

@AppleOfThineEye

4 ай бұрын

Yeah, putting blanket statements on what is and isn't a remedy for everyone is silly. This video concept is foolish.

@6S2mVaR

9 күн бұрын

i just want to throw myself into woods after reaching a certain point in my life Wildlife must be really exciting:)

It's both comforting and saddening to know that I am not unique in my struggles, that everything I'm feeling has been felt before, it all has an answer

@GlitterGremlyn

11 ай бұрын

Most likely something similar to what you feel has been felt before. But it hasn't been felt by you. And you are the only person to be yourself, and maybe you'll find a new answer... Living really is the only sense to being alive.

@Lil_T420

11 ай бұрын

​@@GlitterGremlyn There's a million paths but only few with purpose

@vapx0075

11 ай бұрын

@@Lil_T420 You define your own purpose. Maybe you have to dig for it, but it's up to you to decide.

@uncletiggermclaren7592

10 ай бұрын

It DOES have an answer. "Everything is totally random, came from nothing, goes to nothing, so what you got to worry about, NOTHING ! . . . so Always Look on the Bright Side of Life".

@oniemployee3437

10 ай бұрын

"I can't even be unique in my struggles" - someone on the Internet somewhere.

"They hated eachother as new couples love eachother. It was an art to watch." Precise, like Hemingway, you say

@flamingaish

Жыл бұрын

they hated each other with the same passion new couples adored each other

Bro made the best argument for having a cabin in the woods by making this video. He would have never made these realizations if he never tried.

just wanted to say, this video actually helped me get through a really bad panic attack. your storytelling is incredibly immersive and allowed me to focus on the story and not my anxiety. amazing video! thank you!

It's incredible that so many people missed the message of into the wild. The answer is multiple huts in the woods with friends.

@circleinforthecube5170

10 ай бұрын

yeah or just live in a normal house in the woods and take frequent trips to the city, not huts but like houses

@arareanddifferenttune3130

8 ай бұрын

Love this

@MrKoalaburger

7 ай бұрын

My master plan is to rope my three closest friends into living off grid with me. I love the woods. I love hiking. Iove nature, even when it's rough. But I also love my friends.

@NamesZKP

2 ай бұрын

@@MrKoalaburger Tad bit twisted. Hope yall don't end up like that couple.

@jamesard5258

2 ай бұрын

I rather have my family and a farmhouse surrounded by both empty and fertile fields. An occasional BBQ and bonfire with a small group of people would be nice though.

As a man who’s contemplated buying land in another country several times in just the last week alone, this hit me hard. I’m not ashamed to admit that I had tears in my eyes at multiple moments

@mose3775

7 ай бұрын

I went through a very similar situation and experienced the same feelings as you did watching this video.

@bradmcguinness7

6 ай бұрын

Don't give up on your dream to buy land, from my experience traveling, integrating into new countries and groups and living a simpler life all benefit you a lot, it may not be as straight forward as you think it will, however

@coryshea856

5 ай бұрын

We still need to have a home and have a dwelling. Buying land is the same as buying a house, purpose wise. Buying land to escape all social problems isn’t smart but buying land to live on doesn’t really have much to do with this video to be honest.

@bo4793

5 ай бұрын

This is brilliant!

@user-tp3gs3nv1n

5 ай бұрын

@@coryshea856thanks I thought this was a cons of living in the woods video 😂

This had me in tears thinking about my own life and how young I am (21), to not stress about the things coming later and to just allow yourself to wait for good things to come. They can't be forced, like your first farming trip that couple had you in shambles, the universe gave you what you wanted and put a twist on it. You my friend are an ispiration to me and how I'm going to spend my life now, not looking for answers but allowing the answers I'm looking for to find me. I have a lot of passions in life, I have tried a lot of things, now I want to find the trousers that fit, if you will.

@storploin3860

2 ай бұрын

At 21, I was drifting through life. The world felt (and still feels) unreal - not in the sense of a psychosis, in the sense of dissociation. I fell into a college major, fell into housing, fell into graduating with a trash GPA, fell into a job. All the while thinking I'd figure out what I actually wanted to do "tomorrow". I am now 31, and I realized, there will never be something I "actually want to do". There are only things I want to do, and they need not be profound - in fact, they cannot be profound. I do things I want, I make progress towards those that will take time, and I do not fret about it any further. At your age, "drifting" was my curse. Now, "drifting" is my blessing. I relate to your, "I have a lot of passions in life ... now I want o find the trousers that fit". Don't be worried if it takes a while to figure out what fits; and don't be worried if they only fit sometimes. It's ok to have more passions than you can quite keep up with - taking breaks can actually be pretty helpful as returning to a hobby after a month break can lead to new insights! (It can also lead to letting the month turn into a year which is less great, but, yknow)

@asherjackvaglica

2 ай бұрын

this!! as a fellow 21 year old, i absolutely agree. may your search for the trousers that fit be a fruitful one.

Sounds like the answer is a hut in the woods

@jennydeaf9O9

3 ай бұрын

dude, right?!

21 year old here. Its nice to get reminded that I'm, in fact, an idiot, and not feel offended by it. I'm lost, but I'm hopeful, listening to you gives me even more hope, people always write about you being "depression turtle", but I ironically always end up with some newfound energy and optimism after listening to one of your videos. Thanks

@coltonhurley37

Жыл бұрын

Fellow idiot 21 year old standing by

@jonahgately3294

Жыл бұрын

I'd like to say the same as a fellow 21 year old

@noelle1030

Жыл бұрын

I'm 21 years old as well. Feeling so lost and sad more than ever but still alive 👍. Glad I found the video.

@dobarek4548

Жыл бұрын

I'm 20, currently hating myself for repeatedly not studying for University and wondering why I'm not getting anywhere. It's a bit calming to know that you're not the only one lost, but that most people are. And while you should try to get better, it's okay to not be completely fine and content and happy. I like to believe that I'm slowly coming out of a 2-3 year low in my life, maybe I'm not. Only time will tell.

@CausallyExplained

Жыл бұрын

97-year-old here, I concur.

Dude I don’t understand how you still think you’re a bad writer, your brand of emotionally honest intellect has been such an inspiration for me, the way you admit your human flaws and weaknesses while weaving beautiful landscapes made out of words soothes my soul. You put your heart into these scripts and that’s what great art is. Personally I don’t think It gets much better than an intellectual stream of consciousness. And I feel like your opinions of your writing are more a critique of your soul rather than a critique of your talent

@UltraIbuprofen

Жыл бұрын

Sad how so many artists in so many fields are their own biggest critic, This video is beautiful and I hope he knows that

@OliverBB.

Жыл бұрын

This ^

@cathalmcdonough5247

Жыл бұрын

Yes it reminds me of Ben lerner the American poet and his book leaving the Atocha station.

@lennymota8239

Жыл бұрын

I have read one of exurb1a's books, and was just amazing, what a writer.

@slax4884

Жыл бұрын

He is self ruthless because he's been ruthless and the self torture makes him feel better about his prior ruthlessness. You can't pain your way into getting better. You gotta fess up and ask for forgiveness from the ones you've wronged and actually make and take responsibility for it or do good things in the wake of it. He seemingly does neither so its self torture again. Everyone has a path back but it involves amend making and seeking forgiveness and idk if he's prepared for any of that still.

I've been seeing this on my feed for a while. I am at a very low point at the moment and this is everything I needed, uncanny, thank you.

@DarkDodgers

3 ай бұрын

The Lord works in mysterious ways brother.

@averagegoogasenjoyer1622

3 ай бұрын

same

This guy manages to touch people and permanently affect them without going to prison

Pre watching, you are wrong Post: in my stubbornness it is wrong, but I am yet to experience such events and I look forward to my learning.

@mihailmilev9909

Жыл бұрын

lol

@waterbird2686

Жыл бұрын

True

@pronglebeing8389

Жыл бұрын

Ily brother brogan

@rainmcmey

Жыл бұрын

came here to say this

@broganplayz153

Жыл бұрын

@@pronglebeing8389 love you too pring

i'm young introverted, and really starting to think the answer is a hut in the woods, even more now you've told me it isn't

@herolais781

6 күн бұрын

I believe most answers are just about perception of the individual. So, try to look at things differently and feel some other angles of the equation that leads you to the answer of "a hut in the woods". After experiencing and thinking from different angles, the new perspective you have will be the one which can give you more solid answers that you can act upon them without much doubt.

When my daughter climbs, i put my hand behind her, ready to catch, out of her sight because i want her to be confident. I wonder how many times in my life, did someone have their metaphorical hand ready to catch me, without my knowledge.

@plexlatoranimations4025

2 ай бұрын

kzread.info/dash/bejne/lZ6Wl9yFosWzhdo.html&ab_channel=IMBeggar

I thru-hiked the Appalachian trail in 2017. It took 133 days, 130 of which were full of rainstorms and inclement weather. Every day was a new heap of bodily pain and the hardships of nature, but they were the most peaceful and enjoyable few months of my life. It propelled me on to several more excursions into wildernesses across the world and I am now an avid outdoorsman. If removing ones self from society and eloping into nature is not the answer, I agree it is certainly a catalyst that will show you where your priorities lie.

@nuckels188

7 ай бұрын

I personally find that my mind needs to be fed a hearty diet of stimulus and context with which to build inner beauty before it is possible to enjoy sitting alone at home in dark room. I think the moral of this guy's story is that the journey IS necessary, but it hardly matters what exactly it is. It just requires that you lay eyes on (and at least partially comprehend) some of the absurd beauty and complexity this world has to offer, and never forget it. You do need inspiration, but not for any one purpose. If you run out, it's time to go find more

@dionysus3970

6 ай бұрын

Some trips both mentally and outwardly are meant to be had. Both propell us forward.

@michaelscott-joynt3215

5 ай бұрын

The unpleasant truth is that modern society is an exhausting, confusing, chaotic, needlessly stressful, uninspiring, bizarre, and often petty place to reside. Just consider the constant deluge of information thrown at the modern mind. How is it to cope? No surprise that excursions into the wild act as a reset button. The lone cabin in the woods is a fantasy. We're social and tribal creatures. Our roots have simply dried up through technological evolution. Maybe the answer is to occasionally go out and water yourself.

Well I almost cried at the end. Even if you don't end up writing some wildly popular novel, I hope you know that your thoughts are treasured by all of us and that I'm glad you're still here and still willing to share them with us.

@AragonaAlessandro

Жыл бұрын

They really are!!!

@Jact1999

Жыл бұрын

I did cry at the end lol. This was beautiful

@cooperreynolds5041

Жыл бұрын

I hate to ruin this for you but I think it's worse if you praise him without knowing. This guy is a r*pist and an overall bad dude, please look up the evidence for yourself as I can't link to anything in a youtube comments section.

@davidgalloway266

Жыл бұрын

What a beautiful thing to write.

@qwertydavid8070

Ай бұрын

Exurb1a is deadass one of the greatest video essayists out there. It sucks that he'll always compare his success to books, because in the land of video essays he is undoubtedly at the top of the top. He already achieved success, he already did that capital "G" great thing; his video essays. They are fantastic, life-changing, and just so compelling, and they are incredibly popular. I hope one day he'll realize it, and he'll finally be able to be happy with his accomplishments.

A cabin in the woods is the answer. Build a 500 sq ft cabin, on cheap land, big garden, root cellar. Cut overhead costs of food, water, rent, mortgage, etc and save to pay off offgrid land. Build your own utilities (but skip the outhouse and go straight to bathroom lol). Make a business. Do all this and you can live better than what we all do now. It just takes a few thousand saved. Rice and beans until you have the cabin supplies, land, basic utilities, generator, etc.

@victorygarden556

2 ай бұрын

This is also something to build a KZread with so make social media as soon as you start this and document it.

One of the best talks I've listened to in a while, exceptionally well spoken and really describes the struggles all of us go through as young adults.

You deadass cannot say you’re a bad writer when you’ve got me crying in the middle of the night while laughing at how silly my little human person problems are. You are one of the people I respect most in the world and I hope you recognized how loved you are.

@n0nst0per

Жыл бұрын

+1 don't know how this found me in the middle of the night, but it came up to me exactly when I needed. Love your writing and if you don't think your channel is already your great work of art, well then write that goddam novel, you'll never get it perfect, but in the end will realise how many people lives you've touched and how much they're thankful to you. Thank you.

@ayoubzahiri1918

Жыл бұрын

you're not a human , you are it, smoke a large dose of DMT for the plot twist of existence

@Scubadog_

Жыл бұрын

I've been putting off watching this for a while, but I'm glad I decided to watch it now of all times. Definitely had a lump in my throat at the end.

@chadrowe8452

Жыл бұрын

Dang I'm 1:49 in I love into the wild. Eddie Vedder did the soundtrack I think. I will listen to the end the comments are quite promising. I also suggest a movie called "into the void"

@raynajcarter

Жыл бұрын

this is exactly how i feel 😭

"Our internal lives aren't equasions to solve, there is no master theory of us, we don't arrange things right and forever live the rest of our lives in emotional utopia. It's more a succession of little fires one has to keep putting out hopefully learning to turn that into a dance." That and many other passages are simply poetry. I appreciate your work very, very much.

@eugenefanboy4478

3 ай бұрын

This is a very sad and closed minded quote. Almost inherently so. That's a 2D life without nuance or depth.

@harrychristenson4938

3 ай бұрын

This quote hit me harder than a train wreck. I almost started balling at my desk while I work on complicated pieces of machinery. I think it hits all of us so hard, not because we are all working hard to achieve something in our lives, but because it's a perfect way of putting into words something we have known. I wish someday his books will begin climbing the ranks of best sellers lists and he will be known for his writing before he dies, but sadly like so many others that perform art it might not happen. @Exurb2a, please know in your heart of hearts that you have done incredible work which will always be remembered, even if it's in the distant future, or tomorrow.

@Nateolison

3 ай бұрын

​​@@eugenefanboy4478On the contrary, it's an unflinching acknowledgment of nuance. It's Socratic in that the more you learn, the more aware you become of your own ignorance. There is no master plan. It's Stoic because to learn "the dance" of putting out the fires is to accept that pain and uncertainty are indisputable, non-negotiable parts of life while also appreciating the artfulness necessary to carve out a life worth living.

@eugenefanboy4478

3 ай бұрын

@Nateolison I still disagree. This quote is not stoic at all. It doesn't reflect any sort of depth within these dances. It just states that the dance itself is the importance of life. That's not stoic whatsoever. You aren't painting depth within these dances, you're just accepting them, and learning to embrace them. That's not really stoic. I don't agree with that. The goal of life, in my eyes, is to break the dance. To realize that there is no dance, the dance is an endless cycle of desire and pursuit. There is, per say, an "emotional utopia" to experience. But it's not really a utopia, more of just freedom from the binds of the dance. It's nihilistic to think that way, and it doesn't reflect the values of stoicism at all.

@janemars5225

3 ай бұрын

​@@eugenefanboy4478 Oh I don't know about that. It's human and generous to the grandiose pretensions we may have about what that's about. Someone walking their own path gently punctures the Redemptive Narrative he wrote beforehand and finds life more simple and richer for doing so, surely?

It has been a long day, one that felt like after I came home I would sink into my bed never to get up again, yet this video has rejuvenated me and given me the spirit to cry and be proud of it. Thank you for that, and please don't stop writing!

@DaveH-zk2ql

3 ай бұрын

I know the feeling you described quite well. I'm beginning to think it's exhaustion from trying to use logic and reason to cope with an irrational world. It cannot be done, similar to the fact that you cannot divide a number by zero. I have no remark to make that offers a solution. I simply identify with your comment, and want you to know you are not alone, and I hope you are feeling better.

this is unbelievably profound. its beautiful and relatable, funny, engaging and has a few suckerpunches of base truths you've forgotten, avoided or been unable to express quite right. thank you, this is an achievment and very well written.

“Imagination is limitless.. spinal vertebras are not”😂 I loved listening to this, thank you for sharing!

@ancientfuture9690

Жыл бұрын

😂

@svenmorgenstern9506

Жыл бұрын

My only question would be: are there any non-spinal vertebrae? 🤔

i personally think this whole monologue shows you’re actually really good at writing. really enjoyed this!!

@chrisandreas3142

9 ай бұрын

This is from Book

@sidsdabest2416

9 ай бұрын

​@@chrisandreas3142which one?

@DHunter_47

8 ай бұрын

John 3:16 King James Version 16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

@bigtombowski

7 ай бұрын

​@DHunter_47 haha. That was a fuckin amazing punchline.

This is one of the most fantastic things I’ve ever watched/ listened to. I’m in my mid 20s and there’s a lot to everything you’re saying that resonates. I’m really appreciative of you making this video, it’s spoken to parts of me that needed to hear it all.

I escaped to Yellowstone for a summer, one of those people who seemingly spawn in to work in the restaurants or general stores. I worked about five days a week but was constantly surrounded by the beauty of it all, finding myself becoming that of an extrovert in which I am not. It took me 20 years to realize that the problem I had with myself wasn't with myself, but rather those around me who traipsed and trampled any sense of identity in which I maybe had. This video had been reccommended to me shortly after my return to that same scenario, and I scoffed upon reading the title. I /had/ just successfully found several answers after escaping to the woods so, give me a little credit. After listening, I understand your points and would have to agree with you on them. It truly is amazing how quickly people can bond with one another when you're not faced with conflict of society or the burden of time. Thank you for verbalizing these concepts and adding more to think about.

@qwertydavid8070

Ай бұрын

One of the worst parts of being an introvert, neurodivergent, etc... is that you're simply not designed for generic society. As he said, you eventually learn to "fake an illusion of being outgoing". But that generic form of "socializing" will always feel insincere and unsatisfactory. We're just not made for it. I always come out of those types of interactions tired and annoyed. And I think part of it stems from the fact that you everything just feels so insincere and fake. It feels like some childish game where everyone pretends that they're better than the other person, or where everyone is just trying to impress the other person. But, as you mentioned, it seems like out in the wilderness people are just more real and honest. Those are the types of interactions I wish I had more often. It's difficult to explain. I just hate how the universal advice everyone gives introverts is always "go to parties" or "just make more small talk" and other superficial "advice" of the same sort. You don't need to pretend to be an extrovert. Hang out with other introverts and weirdos and nerds and weebs, that's your tribe, they'll understand you.

"Stories are just metaphysical investigations of reality with characters thrown in." I love this.

This man just explained life in 45 minutes whilst being funny and not too serious, and ending with a beautiful poem, a work or art.

@ronnocerman2

9 ай бұрын

And on his "side channel for things that don't fit the main channel".

@chandrikadaswani3696

7 ай бұрын

And your comment also sums the ratio to live a good life

Your words alone were enough to keep me hooked for 40 minutes. I listened to this in a moment in my life were I truly need it. This resounded a lot with me, thanks for this, great work.

About 22 minutes in and had to stop and comment that I'm sat here crying uncontrollably at how much I can relate to this. Allowing myself to cry and to feel my emotions and express who I am is currently a part of my healing journey. You've put into words exactly how I feel about life, art and passion, and hearing that truth and that it's not a unique experience has me extremely moved. Thank you.

As a silly and naive 21 yo, I want to thank you for this. As "simple" as this simple story is, I found myself lost in it. You are a great writer and storyteller, and most importantly for me, you do a fantastic job at making me reflect on situations I've never found myself in.

@phoenix3992

Жыл бұрын

Good luck 21. Be silly and curious, naive and humble. Stay as free as possible. Challenge yourself. Experience what you can. Read what you can. Try not to worry. Travel. Learn. Endure. And trust the process of growth. Sincerely, 34

@IAmNotYourProblem

Жыл бұрын

I’m 24. I feel like I’ve matured so much since 21, but I know in another 3 years, I’ll look back at myself today and think “wow what an absolute joke of a person”. Because that’s what life is about- constantly bettering yourself, getting wiser, reflecting on the idiocy you lived in before and (while you may miss it at times), be grateful you don’t live there anymore.

@elisamontrose-roback676

Жыл бұрын

​@@phoenix3992 Good luck 34. Be patient with yourself and make sure you take time to reflect on the journeys you've been on and plan for the ones yet to come. Let things go. Take nothing personal. Show your light. Keep growing and keep going. Sincerely, 47

@BlueBeeThemeMusic

Жыл бұрын

Hold up. Reflect? Look, you, NOBODY can REFLECT on an experience UNLESS they have it.

@phoenix3992

Жыл бұрын

@@elisamontrose-roback676 Thank you Ms. Montrose. I'm fully onto that and so much more! Cultivating that divine spark. Calling found. Walking the path.

This guy is a genius! Only a writer can hate himself but casually write a masterpiece. He talked about the artist that dabbles around but “paints the Moana Lisa”. This guy is the same way. Very well written and edited video.

@rhysab7874

9 ай бұрын

Too true

@MaxlevelEdgar

9 ай бұрын

Moana Lisa

@wiftxd

9 ай бұрын

Man lisa

@brandonlangfeldt9809

8 ай бұрын

He is a rapist

I'm uncertain as to why this captivating video resonates with me as it does. Until tonight, I hadn't expected to be stirred by a mere KZread video. Yet, within the initial quarter of your narrative, my empty living room transformed into an incredibly surreal space. I'm not entirely sure what you've set in motion, but I find myself filled with emotions that defy my understanding. I'm unsure whether expressing gratitude is appropriate, but this, without a doubt, stands as the most intense and utterly thought-provoking video I've exposed myself to. Congratulations on gaining a deeper self-understanding; I hope to reach that point one day.

Beautifully written. I’m a creative myself, and I found myself relating to so much of what you were saying. The feeling of guilt when you aren’t working constantly, the feeling of doubt when you experience the work of a pro. It all hit home. A few months ago I decided I would give up on my dream of becoming a musician. It was all proving to be extremely difficult and I started to hate putting myself out there to be judged and critiqued. I’m 23, and I’ve spent the last 7 years of my life trying so hard to reach this goal. I dropped out of school and started performing on the streets in London, and when I decided to give up, I felt like all of that hard work was for nothing. But at the same time, I felt that I didn’t have to censor my expression anymore. I didn’t have to worry about what people want to hear and dance to. I wrote some of my best songs during that short break, and last week I decided not to give up on music. It is how you say it is. Either I make it, or I spend my life trying. My girlfriend and I are about to head off on an adventure, she’s an amazing painter, and we are going to explore and create and enjoy for a few months :) Anyway, I’m not a story writer, I’m sure you can tell by the lack of continuity throughout this comment! Loved the video, thank you for sharing your experience and making feel less alone❤

The fact that you managed to keep me enthralled with a 40+ minutes story with a standing camera video in the year of our lord 2023, really tells a lot about your talent and the quality of your content. I'm so glad I found this

@briangroboski3429

6 ай бұрын

😂

@dunno-19

6 ай бұрын

well said

@3hutp

5 ай бұрын

Exactly.

@dipi0

5 ай бұрын

😂

@SotiCoto

5 ай бұрын

Isn't that more about you than about him? He couldn't keep me enthralled. I barely made it to halfway through the video wondering when he was going to get to the bloody point and then just gave up. Kinda like the trail, I guess.

“It’s more a succession of little fires one keeps putting out, hopefully learning to turn that into a dance”. That line was too damn good you should be proud af that was beautiful

@trustwithin7188

Жыл бұрын

Life is a dance not a race 💘

This is my favorite existential crisis channel on KZread no doubt. Love it! You're an amazing storyteller. I laughed few times, i teared up too.

Hell yes to 46min of exurb1a, you just made my day!

@yungrawi

Жыл бұрын

exurb2a 😡

@beans1897

Жыл бұрын

@@yungrawi llet us make babys

I've never seen your channel before and I clicked this video because I've always had a dream of living alone in the woods. I don't typically listen to podcasts or watch videos like this, I listened to this whole video and I loved it. Absolutely beautiful content.

@adamlowe1072

Жыл бұрын

Try his other channel too

@sandringscoaching

Жыл бұрын

Exactly same.

@leitm3912

Жыл бұрын

@@adamlowe1072 I didn't even know he had this channel, only ever saw the stuff on his other one. I feel like I just discovered a whole treasure trove with this new channel to dive into.

@niafilipova6763

Жыл бұрын

Literally same, listened to this in my lunch break from work and I am returning to work a changed woman! Beautiful! Sharing stories and experience like this makes me grateful for the internet bringing people with similar views/ideas together.

This is one of the most beautiful things I've experienced. Thank you for sharing.

40:36 That line about cats really hit me. My elderly cat turns 16 this year and she got into a fight with an extremely large bengal cat in December 2022 (she was a runt and is only a little larger than your average chihuahua). She, as you said, completely shut down and we were unaware why until we found the wounds on her neck. One got infected and after 2 vet visits and lots of sleeping on laps, she fully recovered and was full of life once more. I'm glad she has become so much more affectionate, not that she never was before, but she comes to find me after university and sleeps in my lap while I sit in my desk chair and use my computer. I think that bengal encounter has made her realise we are here to help her, and when her time comes, she'll pass in my lap instead of somewhere alone - at least thats what I hope.

@Xer0sama

Жыл бұрын

I think you're onto something. When my grandmother died, among other things, we inherited her cat. We brought it over to our house, and it immediately bolted to hide under a table in the basement. If you tried to reach in to pet it and reassure it, you'd get swiped at. I wanted to pet the damn cat. So I tucked in my fingers, reach in, and got swiped at. But when it got it's claws in my skin, I dragged it out by that and held it in my lap and petted it until it started purring and knew I wasn't there to hurt it. Repeat process until cat gets used to it's new surroundings. So when it got old and fat and started to die, it came into my room to lay down.

@feynman6756

Жыл бұрын

I listened to the entire video, surprised at myself for having somehow not cried, and this comment is what did it. Thank you.

@larrycheek3588

10 ай бұрын

thanks

@whatdoesthisthingdo

10 ай бұрын

Ah yes. Because if your cat doesn’t want your love, obviously the best choice is to just force it on them until they learn to appreciate it - the ol snuggle struggle technique.

somehow you always post when i need it most in my life, thank you for being who you are, love you man, keep yourself safe and i hope youre doing well

@germanafonin251

Жыл бұрын

Maybe you just need exurb1a all the time…

@Ttttyler_Ghidorah

Жыл бұрын

Couldn’t agree more

@nathanaelashnonmusic2615

Жыл бұрын

Brother has precog depression 💀

@BlueBeeThemeMusic

Жыл бұрын

How can he be anyone else? Would you buy a pie for him? Love! ?

This was absolutely beautiful. As an environmentalist, I can't help but think that a hike in the woods DID help you, though. Nature has a healing quality to it. It allows us to live in the moment, appreciate beauty, be grateful and fuel our childlike wonder. Perhaps subconsciously the woods, and the people, helped push you to self discovery. At least for me, whenever I'm lost I go for a hike in the woods.

thank you once again, depression turtle

"Imagination is limitless; spinal vertebrae are not." This is such a transferable piece of wisdom in life.

Guy gaslights us into thinking he can't write, but in the end he wrote this masterpiece 😂

@hla27b

11 ай бұрын

Yep. He deserves a kick in the butt for saying that. I too can sentences btw.

honestly this video is like… insanely reassuring in terms of making you feel like it's okay to be going through a crazy time and that you'll come out the other side. i really needed that-thank you.

I love how this is bringing so many people and their stories together. This is humanity. This is beautiful.

The way you describe your 20's rings true to to my own Also, as someone who works in hospice, I can tell you that when you spend a lot of time around people that are 99 years old it starts to put ones own age into perspective. 32 feels young when you are around a Centenarian

@SuLokify

Жыл бұрын

I just want to say, thank you for doing such an emotionally exhausting job. Please take care of yourself and don't get burned out.

@ThorPalsson

Жыл бұрын

@@SuLokify Thank you for such a kindhearted comment

@SuLokify

Жыл бұрын

@@ThorPalsson Hospice was great to some of my family members. They made them remain comfortable and the whole process as painless as it could be. How could I not say thanks to anyone doing such a difficult but necessary service?

@ThorPalsson

Жыл бұрын

@@SuLokify Glad to hear that your family members got quality care at the end

You know what's funny? You think you're not a good writer but you write scripts for your videos and they turn out to not only be stunning but fucking inspiring. You portray a lot of different feelings and hold the interest of the reader, (listener in this case) very well. Each one of your videos brings a different take and view on subjects. It's a roller coaster of emotions and ideas that create a truly beautiful cocktail of art. Thank you for everything you do. You're truly quite a special person, in your own way.

@faithsasser5679

Жыл бұрын

Truly. Exurb1a is already an established household name, at least in my family. My brother and I stay up to date on the latest stories, and often reflect together. I imagine, assuming a platform for it still exists by that time, that we will surely pass a love of these stories and thought experiments on to our own families one day, and so on and so forth. It's obvious enough that we will not be alone in that. As a writer, if that's not the ultimate goal, the most primordial urge (to have part of one's self carried atop the marching back of human memory even after the window of physiological existence has closed) I truly do not know what is.

@SmithWhite-pf9kq

Жыл бұрын

Agreed!!

@stahlkarsten9016

Жыл бұрын

While I have to agree with you on everything you said, starting the comment with "you know whats funny" only to then proceed to not tell anything of jolly fun is pretty disappointing.

@MorbiusBlueBalls

Жыл бұрын

his work is phenomenal but just a reminder that he's a convicted rapist. you can separate the art and artist, but can't call him special.

@commonconservative7551

Жыл бұрын

@@MorbiusBlueBalls per-never been convicted - guy

I cried so hard at the end. Thanks, I needed to hear this. Beautiful storytelling by the way!

This guy saying he can't write, but he can describe such visceral scenery and trigger such human emotion to enthrall over 3.5 million people in less than a year. And as someone natively from North Georgia, who has always wanted to hike the Appalachian, I am now even *more* inclined to make it a life goal. Beautiful storytelling, enthralling and smooth voice. Please write books and narrate them too.

So basically the only way to find out if a hut in the woods is the answer for you is to first try living in a hut in the woods

@nbome2733

4 ай бұрын

Essentially

@ltwig476

4 ай бұрын

I can live in a hut in the woods and never leave the chair I'm sitting in. We live in a matrix. Whatever you wish to imagine, you can make yours.

@Hobbitydobbity

3 ай бұрын

To begin to toboggan

@ltwig476

3 ай бұрын

@Sheaintartist Of coarse it doesn't work like that. Whatever is created within this socially created 3d matrix is always what we will observe within this socially created 3d matrix. Our minds can venture outside of that into other matrix. You can go as profound or mundane as you wish. While imagining the hut in the woods, you must go there with all possibilities of glorifications as well equally suppressions normally found in this 3d matrix.

@nxtvim2521

2 ай бұрын

​@@ltwig476idk bro just sounds like God's creation. Three Spatial dimensions and one time

I clicked this video on a whim and 40 minutes of hanging on to every word later I feel so moved. This felt so much like an audiobook that after I finished I had to double check it wasn’t a reading of a published novel! Thank you for your hard work and sharing your story, I feel like I have to watch this 8 times over until it’s imprinted in my brain!!

@mistakeoopsies6650

7 ай бұрын

I was literally searching in the comments to know if it wasnt an audiobook

@sinaritsu3836

5 ай бұрын

that is exactly how i feel, thank you for putting this into words

@cheeziteater

5 ай бұрын

Can confirm this is exactly how it went for me- though I didn't necessarily think it was a book already, I felt it should become one.

@ninsophy9798

4 ай бұрын

after the recent hbomberguy video i honestly considered multiple times if this was also ripped off somewhere. I figured not, I'd always enjoyed exurb1a's content

I never comment on KZread videos, but this was an exceptional listen and has come to me at a time in my life where I've been feeling a little lost. Thank you.

BRO you are such a good storyteller! I would 100 percent read a book about your experience in New Zealand. Listening to your story felt like an audio book don’t give up writing!

i dont know what to call you (parasocial relationships are weird), but i just wanted to say that the work you have published on your channels over the years has evoked emotions & introduced philosophies that are just as if not more powerful than almost any book, or movie, or documentary, or conversation ive ever had with anyone else. we all go through those cycles of sadness & anxiety, thinking we arent good enough or haven't done enough good to justify our lives, so id like to just say now for if you ever have future doubts: your work has changed me for the better, and im sure it has changed many others too. that is something you should be immensely proud of, and im not sure theres any greater goal you could look to achieve in your life

@Gabriel-d

Жыл бұрын

Same here. I still remember when "10,000 More Years of the Scientific Method" came out, as I was just starting university in the engineering field, it pumped me up and fed my hunger of wanting to understand how the world works. The "long" videos of condensed uncountable hours of thought, maybe intentional, maybe just because the ceiling was looking particularly nice that day. The humour, so on part with mine, love it. The constant cycle of existential crises that I also go through and that I usually want to share and bond over with other people in my physical space but can't because somehow everyone knows who they are and it's almost like only I ponder about this stuff. So yeah, parasocial relationships are weird man.

@Ttttyler_Ghidorah

Жыл бұрын

This is a perfect summary of my own thoughts. Thank you both. For a better mind now and tomorrow.

@CeliaTyree

Жыл бұрын

Just be aware that he manipulated and raped a girl. All the info is publicly online.

@mccullough3359

Жыл бұрын

I hold very similar sentiments

@Epsilonn

Жыл бұрын

@@CeliaTyree hi, so as far as i know, this sa case that you mentioned is just an accusation. its a very serious accusation, but i do believe its important to uphold "innocent until proven guilty". ive looked into the evidence & it seems like the victim, who was quite mentally unstable, accuses exurbia of conducting a prolonged experiment on her in which he makes things called "synchronisations" (which is the thing where 2 things that are connected happen closely together, leading you to think it was "fate". eg: when you think of a certain thing, a certain song starts playing on the radio, which is connected to the thing youre thinking about). the victim claims that in 2016, exurbia repeatedly fabricated synchronisations around her as some sort of experiment, to the point where she became extremely mentally unwell & delirious. she then took a large amount of medication, was sa'd by him & hospitalized, then sa'd again after exiting hospital. the only evidence behind this claim, afaik, is a voice mail in which exurbia mentions how synchronisations are very intruiging to him & might be explainable by science. but that is it. i couldnt find any actual evidence pertaining to the sa apart from accusations. the claim of sa was eventually filed 8 months after she exited hospital (allegedly as a result of poor police procedure), which was late 2017. 3 years later, a dutch journalist investigated the story & some dutch articles were written on the topic. then, around a year ago, a youtuber made a video on the topic discussing everything. since then, i couldnt find any new evidence that has been released or developments on the case. please feel free fill me in if ive missed anything important. but right now, i think it is much wiser to handle this situation as an accusation which has not been neither confirmed nor denied & nothing more, and let the authorities handle it if necessary

I'm a 33 year old artist and performer. My life just got shaken up in a major way following a pretty nasty breakup. I had all my presumed purpose ripped away from me in the span of a few days. This video came across my recommended feed right around the time I was thinking, "what if I just live in a hut in the woods?" I am incredibly grateful for you sharing your story here. It spoke to me in exactly the way I needed it to at exactly the time in which I needed to hear it. Truly profound insight here, thank you.

@masonkent9468

Жыл бұрын

I lost my fiance which was my whole purpose, it's been around 8 months and I don't know what to do. I'm only 21. I was with her since I was 14.

@BlueBeeThemeMusic

Жыл бұрын

Purpose? Was it? Does not sound like it.

@thomthornhill

Жыл бұрын

@@masonkent9468 I'm sure you get this a lot, I certainly did when I was your age. You're young. You bounce back, I promise. But you have to keep trying. Your options are to try to make every day a little better, or don't. If I could go back to being 21 again, I would seize every opportunity I could. And I certainly wouldn't have spent so much of my twenties moping around wishing things were different. Just get to living. Some days are easier, some days are harder. That's life. You either flow with it or let it wash you away. That's your call to make.

@djmc8505

Жыл бұрын

@@masonkent9468 Sorry to hear that... Your story continues. Best of luck! Stay patient and keep it moving. You're a character in the novel.

@masonkent9468

Жыл бұрын

@@thomthornhill it's hard where I live. There is under 3,000 people in my town. Covid ended high school early and college. I'm going to college next semester tho luckily. And all my old friends are gone bc my ex has bpd and she trash talks me and says I was the abusive one. She abused me for 6 years, so it's hard. Destroyed my mental health. I have bipolar, it was ok before I met her, but my mental health just kept declining while I was with her. Luckily it's getting better but it's hard. She also got me addicted to drugs and got me into drug dealing and I went to jail for a month and a half and that's when she left me, when at my lowest after all she did to me. I kept doing drugs with her because it made her less abusive and when she was abusive it made me not care.

I’ve been putting off watching this because I felt like it would tell me things I wouldn’t like to hear, but would be better for having heard. Today I finally gave it a listen. Thank you for making this video and sharing your thoughts and experiences, it felt like a balm to my soul.

I feel like this resonates with so many people in todays society. This is a masterpiece of a story as well as a gem of good advice all at once and I am all here for it. Beautiful video!

As someone who's hiked the Pacific Crest Trail and very much desires to live in a hut in the woods at times, this video is a great way to help get you into a better mindset about everything and not setting unreasonable expectations for mental health through the wilderness. You line about not using the trees for your own agenda really struck home with me.

@attackofthelumbie9029

Жыл бұрын

Fellow PCT hikers here. I've noticed since being home from the trail that the wilderness was amazing but it was really the people I was with while on trail that impacted me the most. The best part about a thru hiking for me wasn't necessarily the wilderness aspect but the vulnerability it forces everyone to have. Friendships were formed so easily and coming home I felt an immediate contrast to it.

@mg222.

Жыл бұрын

@@attackofthelumbie9029 For me it was more a combination of things. I had great interactions with so many people but am only in contact with 1 person after the trail, never building too much in the way of lasting friendships. A bad situation with another hiker kind of put a damper on a lot of it. Ultimately what kept me going was the sense of adventure, having a simple goal in mind every day, and joy that can come from relative depravity. I'm hoping to do more long distance hiking though and am keeping an open mind to forming stronger relationships with fellow hikers.

@mitchellclark2786

Жыл бұрын

I'm hiking the PCT in a little over a month; this is excellent perspective.

@apeugnius

Жыл бұрын

How long did it take to hike it?

@mg222.

Жыл бұрын

@@apeugnius a little over 5 months

I’m 22, just got rejected from grad school, and am realizing I’ll never live up to my dreams within my obsessive calling of choice. I think I really needed to hear this. Thanks

@dylankoltzhale8575

Жыл бұрын

hang in there ❤️

@christoskokolis83

Жыл бұрын

What are your dreams?

@aidandurkan15

Жыл бұрын

There is always next year. I just applied it was looking like I may not have made it into any of the schools I applied for but I squeezed one out. But even if I didn't, there is always next year. You should be proud of your self to be getting that far at 22, I'm 26 and I just applied. Things work themselves out. And the only person you need to prove anything to is yourself. Sometimes you need to prove to yourself that you fall short but that's ok. You got this.

@WiseOwl_1408

Жыл бұрын

Boo hoo

@aidandurkan15

Жыл бұрын

@@WiseOwl_1408 Bru why are you an ass. You clearly didn't listen to the video.

Your writing is beautiful and you have an incredibly soothing voice. Thank you for making my afternoon

This was beautiful. It came to me when I needed it most and it blew me away. Thank you.❤

Being depressed, it's really hard for me to stay focused on a single thing without doing anything ekse for a long time. But I clicked on this video, and started to listen... Then, 46:25 minutes later, I find myself writing this comment. You managed to hook me, and I'm not even a native English speaker. Your words did resonate deeply within me ! Reading the others comments, I guess we all agree that you're anything but a bad writer ! Your storytelling was so fluid and sincere, thanks for sharing it with us

@kobalt6927

Жыл бұрын

Non-native English speakers on their way to create the most coherent sentences in English:

@happierabroad

Жыл бұрын

I have a much better and real solution that doesn't involve useless new age claptrap. That is to GET OUT OF AMERICA. Go to a HAPPIER FREER country like the Philippines or Thailand or Cambodia or Latin America, etc. America is unfriendly, toxic, antisocial, misanthropic, etc. Everything there brings you down. When you leave America a huge burden is lifted off your shoulder. You feel freer, better, less isolated, no social anxiety etc. Because people abroad have REAL SOULS you can connect with and are not soulless like in America. There is no ice wall between strangers in most other countries too so you can connect with people and DATE as many women as you want. ZERO social anxiety or isolation. And LOWER cost of living. What more can you ask for?! In the Philippines I have unlimited dating, sex, girls, romance, fun, freedom, etc. And much lower cost of living too. What more could you ask for?! Going to SE Asia is a true paradise. When you experience all this you will kick yourself for not leaving America sooner! That's the REAL SOLUTION. No BS. But most people won't tell you about it because it's taboo to talk about this for some reason. If you see my podcasts you will learn more about why my solution WORKS and has no BS cliches that are useless like other KZread videos do.

@josslujano7615

Жыл бұрын

I relate to everything you said, and I'm not a native english speaker either, although I mostly consume content in english, this video is amazing, this is what I pay youtube premium for

@checkmate7777

Жыл бұрын

You got this, hang in there, thinks will always get better!

@meretriciousinsolent

Жыл бұрын

Is that really how long this was? I did the dishes, cleaned the kitchen and fed my plants some stinky compost water while I listened to it. I'm not usually that productive. It was a bit magical wasn't it?

I’m 20 currently, confused as fuck studying at uni. I’ve always loved your creative story telling but sometimes these quirky little stories mean more to mean than I could know. You seem to tackle the phenomenon of being lost quite a bit, but this story was very grounded and human. Something about listening to this while going to my part time in the morning made me feel some type of way. Your stories always stick with me, or at least some part of me, thank you :)

@masonsovamusic196

Жыл бұрын

looks like were in similar spots, this story was eye opening for me. hope all is well with you. lets all of us keep getting lost in the good ways.

@justincase3230

Жыл бұрын

Aye bro read a book called inventing Elliot by Graham Gardner. It's not going to give you any answers but it might get you asking useful questions. At 28 the best advice I can give you is don't get drunk about it. Especially if you're sad or pissed off and never alone. I wasted so much time on that and then I wasted more time being bummed out about the time I wasted. Get into something physical, boxing is always good even if you don't like fighting, it'll get/keep you fit and build confidence. Nobody has ever said "I wish I didn't learn how to block a punch" Messing with electronics is great too. I build my own electric skateboards and bikes. Scooters ain't worth the effort trust me. Fucks your back up and can't carry half as much as a bike or go as many places unless you wanna drop 2k. Also taught myself glassblowing at your age, gonna get back into that when I have a shed to put a kiln in. Airbrushing is fun and relatively cheap and you can make some real pretty stuff without much "talent" and some freaking amazing stuff if you put the work in. We don't have any more purpose in life than what we give ourselves. Look after yourself, look after your day ones but don't take shit from them either. Keep your head up and keep moving forward and you'll be alright man.

@aceman0000099

Жыл бұрын

This isn't me, I feel better knowing that my life is in better shape than his was at the same age

@pyropulseIXXI

Жыл бұрын

Why are you confused? You aren't doing what you want? I was lucky to realize everything was BS while a child, so I never fell for the lies of the 'system.' I only went to college when I knew exactly what I wanted to do; I act with absolute certainty in all my actions. If you are confused, take a step back and figure out what you actually want to do is, and then do it. No doubt, no hesitation

@adamafework2862

Жыл бұрын

​@@pyropulseIXXI are you trolling or is this your genuine advice?

People want to return to nature for the same reason they want to return to Eden: It's a metaphor for the womb.

This is one of the most revealing videos about life I've ever watched. And also one of the most entertaining!

Haven't finished the video yet, but i just wanted to say that Geometry for Ocelots was so unlike anything i've ever read and so incredibly impressive that after a year or two i still haven't fully processed it. Among other heavy feelings it awoke an emotion of spacey lonliness that i just cannot describe and i'm still building up the courage to reread it. Truly something special...

@hoegoebaboe

Жыл бұрын

this! same for the fifth science

@wedot1

Жыл бұрын

The three or four books of his that I own all fall into this category... Only author that I have bought all the book I could get in print. (I dont care for kindle).

@yungrawi

Жыл бұрын

is there a real story or is it more about the philosophical ideas?

@theomichel8405

Жыл бұрын

There is a story

@CreativeIsolation

Жыл бұрын

@@yungrawi there’s an unpredictable, vaste yet microscopic, emotional yet scientific, beautiful story that ties it all together.

when you started talking about how we don't desire things, we desire desire, and how friendships were really real and genuine really fast but without expectations, I just got tingles all over and I got filled with a feeling I haven't felt in a long time. I haven't done any long hikes like that, but I was homeless quite often in my teens. A lot of people think homelessness is the worst thing that could happen to you - for me it was one of the best. It was fucking heartwrenching and messy and tragic and dangerous lots of the time, sure. But dear god, I hope I never forget the joy of scavenging a handful of cigarettes and panhandling a plastic bag of three (!!!) oreos, coming back to the youth shelter and getting two friends so you can each have an oreo and a cigarette, because it was just too lucky not to share. When I went to sleep, in an alley or a shelter, I never knew if I'd wake up the next day. I was using hard drugs and had frequent lung infections, and if I was sleeping outdoors it was even more risky. And yet I have never slept so soundly. Maybe that's just from the exhaustion of carrying everything you own, but hey. Any bed was cloud nine. My relationships were so much more meaningful - the homeless people in my city were like a big family (not that they all liked each other, but so it is with most families), and those people cared for me more than most of my blood family had. But without a sense of owing or being owed. And my real, like, inner-circle "street family" - I've never had relationships like that before and sometimes I fear I never will again. Our world wasn't fair. Sometimes 14 year olds got killed or OD'd and died. You never knew who it'd be next - but someone would be next. And that's some really fucked up stress for teenagers to live under, but fuck, it totally changed me for the better. You realize what matters. You realize that death doesn't discriminate, and that alone means most differences are pretty inconsequential. You become more forgiving, you realize that most people's lives are fucked in ways you can't even imagine, and they're probably trying their best. But if you really do have a problem with something, you speak up more willingly. And most of all, a lesson I wished I hadn't learned the hard way, if you love someone, for fucks sake, just tell them. Yeah, maybe it is awkward, but tomorrow they might be dead, or you might be, and you might spend the rest of your life wishing you'd just said it. Anyway, yeah, it really is the simple things

@nicolehart4595

Жыл бұрын

I’m hoping you’re in a better place now. What a childhood to go through, wow. Thank you for sharing the wisdom you earned.

@alexpender6317

Жыл бұрын

@@nicolehart4595 ahah yeah it was a trip. I'm mostly alright these days xx thanks!

@danielvaega

Жыл бұрын

@@alexpender6317 I hope you truly are. I realised reading your comment that it doesn’t even matter to me how or why you were in that situation, but I felt I was there with you, and the how or why didn’t fucking matter at the end of the day when you had to lay down to sleep in the “civilised” outdoors. Bless you for taking the time to share. I learnt more from this comment than I have in many years of talking to … well, anyone really .

@alexpender6317

Жыл бұрын

@@danielvaega awh hey that means a lot to me honestly xx thanks man!

@phoebehebert1621

Жыл бұрын

Incredible. I hope you write

Thank you exurb1a. I've had my own Christopher McCandless fantasies for about as long as I have known your channel (about 10 years). I turned 18 yesterday, and I'm very excited about the rest of my life. There has been a few rough years in there, but the path ahead looks bright. Thank you for this video!

@akd.29

4 ай бұрын

Yo I also turned 18 recently! Happy late birthday 🎉🎉🎉🥳🥳

This video hit me at the perfect time, thank you

I turned 22 years old 2 hours ago. I was scared going into this video. From the title alone, I was sure I was about to have the shit called out of me. I was scared, but it felt so serendipitous that this message arrived to me in the first hours of my 22nd birthday that I had no choice but to listen. Of course, instead of the judgement I was offering myself, I got a beautiful insight into the human experience, growing up, and "purpose". I am not the biggest believer in fate, but I am deeply grateful for this coincidence nonetheless. Ps: Just yesterday, I recommended your channel to my younger sister (she is a lot like young you, an artist at heart, struggling to find her path and feeling like she could never amount to something Great. She is already Great in my eyes

@almarc

Жыл бұрын

I'm turning 22 years old in 9 hours and 50 minutes. And I feel much like you do. I think and hope that those "coincidences" of finding the straightforward answers where and when you least expect them never stop.

@d9ow355

Жыл бұрын

Happy birthday!!!💜

@d9ow355

Жыл бұрын

​@@almarc very happy day of birth 🗣️📢

@sharky32965

Жыл бұрын

you should try Wwoofing like he says at 3:00, I did it for 6 months last year it was great :)

@thingonathinginathing

Жыл бұрын

Come back on your 30th lol

I'm 18 and I feel very stressed about how my life will be when im 32, and this video helps with that a lot. I think exurb1a is a great author that doesn't know what he's doing.

@Psychobellic

Жыл бұрын

"depression is living in the past, anxiety is living in the future" I've read that somewhere

@AlexQuests

Жыл бұрын

I'm only 25 but if you haven't caught on yet it will soon become very apparent, literally no one knows what they are doing. Anyone who thinks or says they do are actually carving a new path founded on fooling themselves and others that they do know so they can have blind faith in what they do and others will to. If you truly think about it though there is never going to be any definitive wrong or right thing to do, ever, in any circumstance. Definitely work on learning yourself and how you respond to different life events, challenge things you have done you wish you did differently, make a decision to do something to change that and then for the most part forget about it and move on. If you focus too much on what is behind you or too much ahead you will eventually live with nothing but the regret of not focusing on what is right in front of you. Just take caution, focusing on what is in front of you is different to investing in it, you should be thinking whether you should invest in it, what they will give you in return and if you do plan to invest plan how your going to do it. There are no right answers and worrying too much will stop you moving forward at greater speeds to greater heights, god speed, big love

@richardluczi

Жыл бұрын

In fact, pretty much nobody knows what we are doing. I'm 28 and asked my father (60) recently, when will I ever feel like an adult? To which he replied: - Boy, never, you'll just have increasingly more bodyparts aching. When I was around 18 I imagined 30yo folks have their shit together. I couldn't have been more wrong. We are the same lost children with somewhat more history, bits of tales and experiences here and there but the feeling of being myself did not change at all. Maybe I'm more confident now and care less what others think of me. I wish I've started thinking like this sooner. I fell in love then onto my face, fell in love again, finished uni and then postgrad, learned the hard way that even all these will only get me some boring ass office job and now I'm studying again to become a pilot, but deep down I still feel like a teenager somehow stumbling upwards on the steps I take. If you care to listen to my advice: - There will be shitty periods so that you learn to cherish the good ones more. - A crisis here and there can change you for the better, just try to find something to enjoy in the process. - Do what scares the shit out of you (not physically) more often, you'll benefit from the experience. It's better to have a broken heart short-term than aching for someone/something for ages without progress - Say what you mean and do what you've promised to do, even if some people do not appreciate it. As cliché as it sounds, having your principles set, aka "staying true to yourself" will benefit in the long run. - If you can, try to do no harm and be kind. Most people are just as scared and clueless as you in any situation. - Git gud

@kshitizsrivastava9429

Жыл бұрын

​@@Psychobellic👀 Omg What a great analogy Hats off

@monolith_g

Жыл бұрын

Time folds in on itself so by the time you are 32, you will have justified everything one way or another just how your not thinking about breathing until you just read it. We don’t wake up from sleep consciously. Time passed and we are who we always have been. It’s all gonna be okay. None of us know what we are doing🎉

This is best thing I have stumbled onto in awhile. Thank you for this, I needed it.

Thanks for sharing your story man. Something I really needed to hear right now. Wherever you're at on your journey these days, hope life is well with you 🤗

My guy, this sounds like an audiobook. By that I mean to say this video is extremely well crafted, you're a true writer.

@TheMusicLauncher

9 ай бұрын

It lays in "a good writer knows he's a bad writer"

It's so surreal because I'm in my early 20's and want a similar sort of escapism in the wilderness. Over breaks in college, I would usually pack up my car and go drive far off and camp in the mountains somewhere for weeks on end. I've always felt at peace just walking up these mountains and far away from everyone. It would help clear my head about my career, expartner, drama, family, or whatever. I've felt this need to go on this grand adventure before I settle down with the degree I get when I graduate but I have no idea where to start. Some of my friends who have already graduated have been talking about buying a plot of land and living off of it for a year or so. Another part of me just wants to do my own thing. I still have no idea but we'll see where it goes. Thanks for the insight, space turtle

@SofaKingShit

Жыл бұрын

As someone who actually lives in a cabin the woods l feel l must give two words of warning. 1 chores. 2 country folk.

@blahbleh5671

Жыл бұрын

wat would you eat

@LightbulbTedbear2

Жыл бұрын

I'm in my last year of uni. I'm planning on disappearing into the wilderness of Spain for a few months after I graduate. Just walking, camping, vibing. The thought of doing this is the only thing keeping me going at this point.

@Sinistar123

Жыл бұрын

​@@blahbleh5671 What you forage and or catch.

@CarmiaSoluie

Жыл бұрын

​@@SofaKingShit What was with the County folk?

Takes a lot to get someone like myself to sit and listen to anything for 40+ minutes but something about your writing and narration captured my attention. Definitely hit home on some things I've been feeling and dealing with recently and it's very comforting to hear them echoed here. Glad the KZread algorithm gave me this little respite from the rest of its catalog. PS was stoked about the Joanna Newsom quote. She is, in my opinion, one of the all time greats.

Thank you for making this video. I am reaching my mid20s. The year has just began and this video feels like the pat on the back I needed for this phase in my life.

There has never been a better title more perfect and more eloquent than yours- “ the answer is not a hut in the woods” those few words reached out from the endless abyss of words and told me I must stop what I’m doing and listen to what this person has to say. I’m so glad they did, because that was exactly what I needed to hear and it found me exactly where I could be found. Thanks.

@blueliam

6 ай бұрын

I feel like when I saw this title it was from god directly to me

@accelerationquanta5816

4 ай бұрын

Meaningless bullshit unless the alternative answer you come up with is anything except "Violent revolution against capitalism"

@andrewstephens8790

3 ай бұрын

@@accelerationquanta5816 ding ding ding. somebody has read history!

@Geggo1611

3 ай бұрын

Pretentious

I’m 17 right now and terrified of the world ahead and about my “purpose” or my lack of one. I lost my dad around two years ago and he was a strange person, an amazing, kind, intelligent, but nevertheless strange individual. I don’t know why but your voice, even though sounds nothing like his, reminds me of him. I think it’s the way that you put your words together, or just how similar some of your phrases were. Thank you. (Edit: and to everyone replying to me just giving some of their story or sharing some wisdom, thank you so much it matters so much more than you might think

@dire-decadence

9 ай бұрын

I’m also seventeen and I can really relate to your initial statement deeply. Here’s some advice: Start doing mindfulness(or transcendental meditation) daily. Start doing the Wim Hof method with cold showers and then gradually implement ice baths. I suggest purchasing a steel(or stainless steel, or copper even) ‘sadhu board’. Start by doing the Wim hof method, and then start by standing on the board evenly with your entire bodyweight. Best held for around 15-20 minutes to begin with. After a period of time, I suggest doing push ups on said board. If it’s possible, eat a natural, healthy and organic diet; Bereft of anything artificial, processed or unhealthy. Start doing martial arts or combat training; I recommend Krav Maga above all, or alternatively a combination of Muay Thai and BJJ. Spend more time pursuing your own passions, I recommend reading much on: literature, philosophy and psychology. Furthermore, whatever interests you. If you are terrorised of the world ahead, I strongly recommend reading all of Robert Greene’s books. They gave me very useful skills(Albeit Machiavellian in nature; on which note I’m probably a high functioning factor one psychopath-not the kind that likes killing people for reference sake, and Machiavellian.) Read, read and read; Maybe write too. If not, make time for a different form of expression e.g a form of art like charcoal drawing, painting, poetry…whatever it may be. Develop immense discipline. It’s difficult when you’re uncertain about where you may be headed, but I suggest honing your knowledge, skills and abilities so that you can pursue whatever path you please when you know where it is that you seek to go. Lastly, this is probably a bit escoteric but become a prodigy in something, well-interesting. I used to think that seventeen was too late(due to much lost time because of being chronically ill etc). Then I realised that there’s no time pressure on anything beyond society which is just a large group of individuals who live like livestock but nonetheless. A bit oddly f*cking specific from me, however salvage what you will. I hope you find yourself and live a meaningful life(however you come to define it). Farewell.

@dimondhannes2090

9 ай бұрын

May not help but stop trying to find a purpose, it will find you. Me for example found a purpose just from watching a random recommended yt video after watching a restoration of a bread knife. A whole new world opened up to me in the form of watchmaking. I didn't find it, it found me. Basically get out there and explore otherwise it might never find you.

@shinda4591

9 ай бұрын

Same. I don't know why but the world just seems so big and so loud nowadays. My lack of purpose and indecisiveness in terms of what I'm supposed to do or know right now aren't helping either. I feel like there's something the rest of the world knows but I don't for some reason. I don't know. I didn't think being 17 would be this confusing.

@delicacies4362

9 ай бұрын

its gonna get worse before it gets better, u got this bro just keep going no matter what !

@mikenolan9440

9 ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing. I find your story very similar to my own. I'm a few years older than you, and if I may give you some unsolicited advice, it is; Keep good company, Put your oxygen mask on before you help anybody with their own, Always display the morals you believe in.