I quit Benzodiazepenes cold turkey after 8 yrs then became Catatonic. My Doctor described Catatonia as me breathing in carbon and prescribed more Lorazepam. I ripped my prescription up in the parking lot and embraced myself for the fight of my life. Hours could go by when I was stuck and not conscious, days would go by where I was conscious but stuck staring at the wall. The thought or worry of time was never there just emotional pain from parental alienation and abuse. My children were boarded on a plane after their father text saying he was running late. I drove 4000 km then was in a double roll over. Although I am not against prescriptions I am happy to be five yrs free from them. Catatonia is painful emotionally and physically. The fear of experience catatonic episodes if I go some place far from home is always there.

@fragmentarybutterfly

3 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry

@taghreedrulia5168

3 жыл бұрын

Did you recover from catatonia? If you did, How?and how long did it take?

@FreeJulianAssange23

3 жыл бұрын

@@taghreedrulia5168 The worst episodes happened daily for a few weeks though it took a few years to fully recover . To be fair, this could be for not taking my prescription but bc I had such a difficult time getting off them in the first place. My doctor said the catatonia happens from inhaling too much carbon which than tightens tendons for hours at a time. I once thought during a meditation I could sense my breathing pattern change, but was also experiencing trauma and wasn’t all there, I never asked him where ones mind goes during the episodes or why it goes away. It is sort of like going to sleep with your eyes open in a weird position, not dreaming, than becoming conscious, like waking up, unsure what time it is. Not to mention feeling stiff. The catatonic episodes began with mini episodes where I remained conscious but couldn’t tear my knees apart, than progressed into roughly 8 hr episodes kneeling or crouched and wall watching, lost in space, than lessen in length of time and not being stuck.

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I have to say, that I don't know if it was the lorazepam or not, but after being admitted into the hospital, and literally talking myself into taking an injection (though extremely fearful and not comfortable... but agreeing in order to be well for my grandmother) within 15 minutes, I was more awake then I had been in years. My mom died but I had suffered with catatonia while she was alive- the last years of her life. She was the only one who really cared enough to get me help, and my grandmother honored her by continuing that care. It's very difficult, it's extremely exhausting and I have realized how much damage I have done to my body by staying in states where literally my limbs were in unnatural poses. Sleep was not normal, or really present majority of the time, it was just as if my brain was running... it was as if moving would cause some great harm to the people around me; the people I love so I would not move so that I could "save" them. I remember counting in my head, tapping on things to try and get out of it, or to try and "fix" things, holding my breath because something told me to. I still take lorazepam today- clonazepam literally ruined my life- I don't understand the differences but I'm glad that through therapy, psychiatric treatment, and having support- significantly and especially working with myself to understand and not demonize myself, I've been able to logically recognize the illogical in being frozen so therefore I'm not subjected to an episode as extreme as before; I have more control than before; more awareness.

@sunnydelight7252

3 жыл бұрын

Glad to hear you're feeling better! Have a nice day!

So from being fkd up by the catatonia to being fkd up by the lorazepam addition

I have experienced this. I took some amytriptamine and it caused me to have mild catatonia. I could just sit there and stare at my tv for hours. I didnt want to do that so I tool lorazepam and it woke me right up.

@ChristopherGray00

2 жыл бұрын

that's like saying a fat hit of meth helps you sleep!

If the test is negative you don't have it or the test doesn't work

Are myoclonic jerks or seizures a feature of catatonia?

@habsc8147

2 жыл бұрын

no, they're their own thing. Catatonia is an inability to move

@REGjr

Жыл бұрын

​@@habsc8147 not true. See echopraxia

@habsc8147

Жыл бұрын

@@REGjr Yeah im definitely corrected for sure, I've learned more from working in psych over the last year! my apologies for the misinformation

@REGjr

Жыл бұрын

@@habsc8147 I actually left a reply to the original post with some information about stereotypies and tics but maybe it didn't post because I included a link to an article offsite. Psychiatry is fascinating, isn't it? I think strictly speaking your answer was on its way to being correct but just not complete. Wanted to be sure the person asking didn't get the impression the appearance of something looking like myoclonic seizure is exclusionary for catatonia. Catatonia definitely is a distinct syndromic sequela of multiple pathologies, so varies in presentation. I had psychogenic non-epileptic seizures as a kid and ended up with malignant catatonia as an adult. All the result of abuse part of which was withholding my Asperger diagnosis from me. So forty years later even though I have a 130+ IQ (also withheld) would probably be mistaken for a hoarder with early dementia if I hadn't figured the shit out myself. So I'm just saying the genome's been sequenced for a dozen years. It's behavioral heritability within families that looks "genetic". For fucksake I don't understand why people can't figure out the reason schizophrenia appears around the age of leaving home is because decompensation is Stockholm syndrome in reverse. And the reason there are so many more male schizophrenics and autistics is maternal daddy issues. The mothers of autistic offspring all share the inability (ASD) or unwillingness (personality disorder, B-cluster) to take accountability. ASD females have a developmental delay that keeps them from making a better decision between inflicting unknown severity of risk upon their unborn children or avoiding motherhood when entering the dating pool. And Harry Harlow's unmothered autistic monkeys who didn't want to mate did kill their unwanted offspring. Postpartum psychosis. Pretty sure even if treated that perseverates under the stress of unwanted motherhood and turns some of them into borderline personality "dark empaths". Telling you all this because psychiatry needs people who haven't drunk the Kool-Aid of pretending autism's genetic and transgender delusion isn't an attachment strategy resorted to by children whose parents reject them on the basis of their physiological sex. When there was only room for one vajayjay at Sonny & Cher's Chaz Bono's mother named him CHASTITY. It's a survival threat to be rejected by a parent so hell yes she abandoned her femininity.

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Que flojera

Yeah, right Here in West Virginia you could be full blown Catatonic and the doctor would say....stop at go-mart get you some advil

i would walk 5000 miles just to have a script for benzodiazepines i would do anything

@lexhashim8671

4 жыл бұрын

Dude NOOOO !!! Please DO NOT GO DOWN THAT ROAD!!

@JillianNoelle

4 жыл бұрын

Yea definitely not worth it. It’s so addictive or habit forming. I became catatonic on it.

@nickjohn2051

3 жыл бұрын

Please dont brother. We love you.

@fuzzysox

2 жыл бұрын

It’s really not some euphoric cool high or anything especially if you’re prescribed to a normal dose and dispensed a certain amount.

@shetto

2 жыл бұрын

@@fuzzysox i don't use benzos in that way, I don't get much out of them recreationally,, unfortunately its one of the few classes of medications that work (work too well) for dealing with my panic and anxieties. I'm flagged for drug seeking so I have no hope of acquiring a script like that.