Please take some time to read this before commenting. I made this video in an attempt to visualise how I experience depersonalising and derealising. It will never capture what it's actually like. And it only really captured a glimpse of MY experience. This video does not represent how it is for everyone. I keep on getting messages that it isn't accurate. I know. This video was never meant to be educational. I made this during a project week. We had one week to learn to film, edit, pick our subject and to finish the video. I never planned anything with this video and I had no time to perfect it. We were literally told the first day to just go into town and film random stuff and we weren't allowed to come up with an actual script or any subjects until the day after. It was just a school project that took an interesting turn for me and I never thought people would actually watch it. I'm sorry if this video does not represent what you're going through. I'm afraid I can't quite capture something psychological in a video when the only way to actually understand it is to experience it, and even then it is different for everyone so there's no way I could make a perfect simulation for this. It's also quite painful how some people seem to think I don't know what I'm talking about simply because it's different for you. You can't judge what someone is going through. I don't have DPD, but I experience this every day and I have for many years and I really don't think anyone has the right to just discard anyone else's feelings like that. I hope all of you stay strong and will feel better soon! I know it may seem hopeless but there is a light at the end of the tunnel, believe me! I appreciate all of the kind comments and I feel for everyone who feels trapped and alone. I wish there was something I could do to help but quite frankly I'm still dealing with this myself and I'm not sure how to recover from it completely. I do know however that you're not alone and you deserve to get better! You're all very strong! Please get well soon!

@midnightsky3782

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing your experience. I hope it gets better for you. I’d like to know your updates.

@ChaoticNeutralElf

3 жыл бұрын

@@midnightsky3782 thank you! To be fair I haven't been dealing with this at all lately. Maybe I'll make a video on it at some point!

@midnightsky3782

3 жыл бұрын

@@ChaoticNeutralElf Good to know that you’re feeling better. I’m completely new to this, so it was quite educational for me!

@rubenaalexander5007

3 жыл бұрын

I have mostly gotten over that phase in my life but your video seemed pretty realistic to me. The only thing is that the colours are grey, which they never were to me. Things were strangely bright and colourful but it still overall bland. It's like seeing a beautiful cake that in the end, only tasted like sand, but I had to keep chewing, because it was reality and I couldn't just up and stop existing. I think you are pretty right about it feeling different for everyone, but for me personally, it was very relatable.

@lilreckless4206

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much it is incredibly hard to explain this to someone

It's a bit like that. Coupled with extreme anxiety and some of the strangest philosophical thoughts you'll ever have in your life.

@mrgalaxy8339

7 жыл бұрын

Yess like weird thoughts and things feel strange

@pjosullivan5163

7 жыл бұрын

Sarah Brewer like feeling that life is totally pointless

@leland9913

7 жыл бұрын

Sarah Brewer yes exactly thinking way to hard it hurts

@omarrwilliams9209

7 жыл бұрын

Sarah Brewer weird thoughts about universe :-(((((

@pjosullivan5163

7 жыл бұрын

Totally

Best way I can describe de realization is not visual but completely mental. You could be in the same room as five people and they can be talking to each other and you'll feel like there is a glass wall between you and them and communication to them can't be made. You want to talk but you're so caught up in your thoughts and replay your thoughts over and over so much that you never have the time to speak. You feel like the world around you is present, visually, but physically it is in a different dimension. Like a ghost walking around

@e.t.464

8 жыл бұрын

I had a weird mind trick occur one night. It was strange, I was a little freaked out, but I thought, just go with it. Its like your mind stops thinking, and your more in your body. So I just went with it and actually enjoyed whatever it was that was going on. I felt like I didn't need to be satisfied with life anymore, I didn't need to achieve anything, I didn't need to impress anyone, I just enjoyed whatever I was doing at that moment. So I felt actually un-comfortable in the clothes I was wearing and threw a robe on. I then thought: 'I don't want to wear jeans, t-shirts, jackets, ever again'. I searched that very night for clothing in the world that was loos-fitting, I kept thinking about the robes the traditional Japanese used to wear, they looked so comfortable. I couldnt find much, almost everything modern is jeans, t-shirt, suit, the usual. I then thought about the Jedi lol. I mean, imagine a modern look to them, I imagine it would be very comfortable. Anyway, whatever happened that night I can only explain in a short sentence: Loss of self, completely in every way. Im guessing it was achieved by my mind somehow ceasing to conjure up thoughts willy nilly. As if, If I wanted to think, I could, if I didn't, it was the easiest thing in the world. Which is strange because I am normally a worried person, with anxiety and racing thoughts. I would love to be back in that state of mind. edit: I only enjoyed what was going on when I accepted it, if I were to be weirded out by this strange mind trick that was going on, I would probably freak out.

@bookymydoor

8 жыл бұрын

+aicMadSeason A ghost walking around in a human world, that's one of the greatest ways to explain it that I've heard so far.

@mrgalaxy8339

7 жыл бұрын

Yes holy fuck i hate it

@paulmiller7709

7 жыл бұрын

aicMadSeason I agree visual can't really describe the feeling

@paulmiller7709

7 жыл бұрын

It likening you are living but your dead like you can see but you are blind like you are awake but your asleep like you can feel but you are numb like you can smell bud you are nose blind like you exist but don't exist that's how I can describe it and sometimes especially at the point I'm at right know in my recovery I just feel like I'm trap in a glass box and I can't do anything about it

Mine is like this. But instead of things being blurry everything is super real looking. Like everythings in super high definiton. Everything still looks kinda 2d and i feel like im a pair of floating eyes.

@lukewatson5356

6 жыл бұрын

Milad Latif i’m like that too but i can’t concentrate on anything because it’s all too much and then i end up doing really weird and impulsive loud things to cover it up

@stephaniegray7615

5 жыл бұрын

Mine is were my head feels blank and my body isn’t mine and the world doesn’t feel real it feels very fake there’s no thoughts

@stephaniegray7615

5 жыл бұрын

And I can see a flys face and I’m numb

@vibechecked1512

5 жыл бұрын

I don't know if I have depersonalization disorder, but, yes it feels like everything is wayyy too real, and for some reason I keep looking at my hands and they feel small and I keep thinking that for some reason life isn't real and im in a simulation, or it feels like im wasting my life away.

@ulitmatedakotafan

5 жыл бұрын

the floating eyes, yes, and I always get an urge to cut my body parts off hands or feet because they dont feel like mine. I start at them and its surreal.

The sensation is the hardest thing to describe. If youre a lucid dreamer it would be easier to describe. Like imagine knowing you're in a dream and the sensation you have of not being really there and everything around you is false. Thats sort of what its like

@hermesthegod33

6 жыл бұрын

this is a gift, the individual just needs to learn how to master it

@BeingTheNerdIAm

5 жыл бұрын

perfect description

@isabellesymes7122

5 жыл бұрын

Yeah that’s true I’ve had it since I was little it’s just not fair

@VintageAntler

5 жыл бұрын

As a lucid dreamer I can confirm

@user-lp7tx1fe6t

4 жыл бұрын

@@hermesthegod33 its not a gift, its an anxiety related mental disturbance, stop romanticizing mental illness for christ's sake

It feels like your soul is not in your body but also like your stuck inside this body. Like you can't believe you're actually real

@gdsyth3r574

2 жыл бұрын

It feels like you are disconnected from the body and only witnessing everything as a soul

@xo._.kel0699

2 жыл бұрын

Yes exactly

@ririruri2794

2 жыл бұрын

This.

@lilith54754

2 жыл бұрын

how do you stop it i’m genuinely scared

@matildabangs73

2 жыл бұрын

You put what I cannot descibe into words

When you’re sat around the table with close family and friends but feel like a stranger is when it hits home the most .

@terrinstewartt

2 жыл бұрын

the crazy thing is with me i never get it at home

@seantwine5117

2 жыл бұрын

Yeh it’s terrifying

@vihoe

2 жыл бұрын

yep.

@alezanee

2 жыл бұрын

God I thought i'm the only one with that

@jojo1865

Жыл бұрын

That was to terrible for me

my heart's beating so fast from all the comments, I didn't know so many people felt the same way as me, that comforts me a bit at least…

@BLUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

3 жыл бұрын

Me too

@lisawallgren3332

3 жыл бұрын

do you still feel like this?

@ecstacy_angel

3 жыл бұрын

ur never alone. i’ve dealt with this since i was like 5 years old and always struggled to figure out what it was. it wasn’t until i was 14 that it got rly bad. i’m 17 now and it still hasn’t gotten any better nor have i gotten a professional diagnosis but regardless, i know how it felt to feel out of place and crazy and alone.

@carjay7

3 жыл бұрын

I thought I was alone, reality though still feels fake. I feel like I'm trapped im my damn. Are you guys even real? :(

@mentalhealth4408

3 жыл бұрын

@@carjay7 same here..

It honestly just feels like being high all the time. The thoughts that get way too deep and intense, the sounds being crisp, the vision being all fucked up.. the OBE... just feels like a life long, bad trip.

@flamuremerllahu3450

7 жыл бұрын

i have dp since 2 months how are u now

@nenagalvan

6 жыл бұрын

Flamur Emerllahu OH MY GOSH! seeing all of you guys in the comments having it for so long is so scary. I had it only for a week and thought my brain was fucked up. Drinking triggered it for me. How do you cope for having it for so long? Have you been to or considered going to a doctor?

@redlotus3125

6 жыл бұрын

That’s exactly how i explain it. It feels like your high at a buzz level 24/7. Its annoying af. I can live with it, but it would feel great to be able to feel normal again.

@Benjavaz

6 жыл бұрын

Alygalv it’s very temporary. It’s your brain’s reaction to severe anxiety. Most people have had it at least once in their life. It’s not a disorder, it’s your brain taking a step back to prevent trauma. You have to look at it that way if you want to recover. Looking up stories about people’s experiences is a bad idea. You’ll start believing misconceptions about DPDR. Accept it and accept that it will take a little while to recover. I say this to everyone who has had it for more than a year. You may think that you are anxiety free, but DP is a numbing tactic that your brain uses, so you are probably full of anxiety. You have to realize what those anxieties are and talk to someone about them or write them out.

@Benjavaz

6 жыл бұрын

It is not life long. You should accept the DPDR, but never accept the idea that it is lifelong. It is very temporary.

its like you dont feel anything and you are in autopilot, i had no idea what was happening to me until it went away and i heard someone talk about Depersonalisation

@danchoiordanov6740

4 жыл бұрын

How time you strugeled from this

@_p-

4 жыл бұрын

@@danchoiordanov6740 do you have it?

@_p-

4 жыл бұрын

@Niclas no I fully recovered already

@_p-

4 жыл бұрын

@Niclas just meditate and stop doing drugs

@_p-

4 жыл бұрын

@Niclas took me like 9 months

Seeing random things like the sink and touching it to see if it or anything is real. Know it all too well.

@tobikms1709

4 жыл бұрын

I have the opposite where my body doesn't feel real. Everything else is but me. Took my a while to realize my coworker was disassociating because she couldn't tell the walls were real and kept having to touch and knock on them to double check

@Donikin

3 жыл бұрын

I look at myself in the mirror and wonder if anything that I’m looking at is real

@shirinsendur4066

3 жыл бұрын

@@tobikms1709 I look in the mirror and don't know if this is my face or someone else's. I think I am trapped there. That I died already and now got trapped in this body. Do I even exist. I even doubt that this comment is real. What if nothing is real.

@almiradivayani7151

3 жыл бұрын

@@shirinsendur4066 when i was 17, i have a thought like that while i look in the mirror, and i thought it was normal thoughts. until i asked my friends if they felt the same way, and they said no..

@lemonlizard1

Ай бұрын

When I was dissociated very often, I would pinch myself pretty hard to feel... something real, if that makes sense. I wanted that feeling so bad. I'm glad it's so much better now and wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy

The best way I can describe it is it’s a complete flatness to everything. It’s like opening a stale beer or soda. You wake up and see the wall or ceiling and feel nothing. You see it but nothing arises inside you just rampant thoughts on why you can’t feel the ceiling or wall. Its exhausting and really sad.

@rorowhy9702

3 жыл бұрын

i have it but could never put it into words like you do. but youre dead on accurate.

@anprat86

3 жыл бұрын

Yes!!!

@rigenmehilli5864

3 жыл бұрын

Hope you’re feeling better brother

@thefear420

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah for me when my OCD triggers this it often feels like I'm seeing 3D objects in 2D and my vision gets upgraded to 1080p.

@qi6303

3 жыл бұрын

It is like constant thinking, sometimes I have to close my eyes cause of how intense it feels

It’s so crazy how it can go from being so euphoric to anxiety inducing in a matter of seconds

this is what happens to me if I push myself socially. I feel awful for those who deal with it regularly

@raylion2477

3 жыл бұрын

How are you now?

@ghoul328

3 жыл бұрын

Everyday n it only seems to get worse

@callherfoofoo

2 жыл бұрын

It’s like oh shit they gone notice I’m fake. Just act right and respond. Hurry leave now

@nohugzforya

2 жыл бұрын

@@callherfoofoo honestly. I always fear others might notice im fake and so i try my hardest to be normal and respond correctly. i hate it when I can't connect to people like i used to, and nobody really understands the feeling except those who have had a similar experience, but that is around 1-2% of the population and idk if i should be thankful that there's not many people who experience it or if it makes me feel worse because i feel kinda alone irl

@Asnee420

2 жыл бұрын

its everyday tings

I have this, its nothing like what you just saw. Its kind of like being in between the dream world and real life or kind of like having two consciouses. You feel like you are a different person and everything looks and feels so weird, you feel completely disconnected from your body kind of like your watching your life through a screen. When i first got it i had no idea what it was and i thought i was having psychotic episodes.

@danielcabrera1985

7 жыл бұрын

I think this seems like derealisation rather than depersonalisation

@Kimberlyelayyne

7 жыл бұрын

MrTboneKG I have been getting these...im so scared

@momo_mom

7 жыл бұрын

I have it very extreme. To me, the moment when everything "bubbles out", that's what I call it, it's weird and even scary to me. I can count on one hand the number of times I've had "the veil" lifted, another term of mine, so this is my reality. I don't remembering it being any different. For me, this is a perfect example of what I experience on a bad day. Especially the talking bit, that really hit home. Everyone has different levels of trauma, so if you don't relate, that's ok. Call yourself blessed. Because this is what I live with everyday, and honestly if one day I got rid of the derealization completely and THAT became my constant reality, I think I'd lose my mind.

@jessi14ef

7 жыл бұрын

I agree with Daniel. That's because we experience both DP/DR.... it's like you're been kidnapped by your own brain and it's broken you to the point of forgetting who you are. I can't accept that life is real anymore. Even this message seems pointless

@abeabe9000

7 жыл бұрын

I've had his shit for 10 days now. It's making me go crazy

Scarily accurate - I had this for 2 years as a teen, after taking shrooms abroad. It was the scariest period of my life - nothing feels real. Thank you for sharing and I hope it spreads awareness.

@Daddyangel603

3 жыл бұрын

I ate 3.5 of mushrooms all at once my first time, on top of smoking weed everyday.. I still haven’t been the same since

@staynegativevro6943

3 жыл бұрын

Heyyyyyyy finally i found a comment that similar to my situation 😭 Mine all started after a highdoze of psychedelic mushrooms

@Daddyangel603

3 жыл бұрын

Zak Dwyer I got depersonalization but around the year 2017 It stopped for a second when I was on my way to school and then bang I had it again

@grizzlee2147

3 жыл бұрын

@@Daddyangel603 how you holding up now man, sorry to hear

@danieldidario6691

3 жыл бұрын

Yea I toon shrooms and I remembered a dream where I took them and then I started wondering if this was even real or if I was in a dream and ever since I’ve had a bit of that

I like how you made the view darker on the edges and lighter in the middle because it really depicts the tunnel vision I have when in an episode

@Penguinstudios123

5 жыл бұрын

Camryn Argenziano it’s the vignette effect

@Marchclouds

2 жыл бұрын

Its called a vignette

For me it's more like living in a dream (nightmare) you feel a disconnect from everything and everyone around you, it's not always super intense and echoey but when it is, you just feel a strong disconnect. It's trippy (not in a good way). Most of the time my anxiety is really bad so it just kinda adds on. Definitely not a good feeling.

@ryanaguirre9907

6 жыл бұрын

Morgan Nelson same with me like I feel like nothing is real but my senses are fine but I just feel really off and that there's sort of a pressure on my head and like it's super hard to explain but it's like ur in a dream

@mentalhealth4408

3 жыл бұрын

@@ryanaguirre9907 same here

@qi6303

3 жыл бұрын

If every sense was dialed at normal volume before, your vision and sound go higher, while your common sense gets cranked down

I had to stop watching, this is a perfect example of how I feel when it's really bad, unfortunately it's triggering. Thankfully I'm not as bad as I used to be... But there are many times a day I feel just like this. I am shocked how accurate your video is. Thank you for sharing!

@TomiShow

5 жыл бұрын

did it stops till now?

@gixerson8212

3 жыл бұрын

@@TomiShow PLEASE ANSWER! I actually want to know if it went away bro

@TomiShow

3 жыл бұрын

@@gixerson8212 no.. sorry to inform you that, but at least in my case ive been lowkey stuck in that shit for long time and dont know when it will went away.. but keep your hopes up, many people get cured fast

@gixerson8212

3 жыл бұрын

@@TomiShow I just started driving and it’s making it so hard to learn. I hate this shit, it’s all from being a dumb ass and smoking weed bro

@maddiettude

2 жыл бұрын

5 years late but watching this immediately made me dissociate because it’s my body’s go-to base point. i hate it more than anything.

I'm not sure if I have Derpersionalisation/derealization but this is how I feel: it feels like everything around you isn't real and that I don't feel alive either. I feel like everything I see or hear is fake like just my imagination sometimes I question myself if this world is real or if I just made it up. it's a weird feeling and I feel like I lost the connection to reality. it's kinda scary when I think about that (I hope you understood what I'm saying and sorry for my bad English ^.^)

@irisernst5240

5 жыл бұрын

Your Boi i have the same problems

@nandinisharma9040

4 жыл бұрын

Same

@Samuel-bj9cd

4 жыл бұрын

I'm on the same page...

@Haunting_Shadow

4 жыл бұрын

2 years later, but same here guys

@preppysunnys

3 жыл бұрын

Same ...

It feels like your in auto pilot. Crippled with heart racing, zoomed in on your thoughts so much you are thinking about every single thing that comes out of your mouth. Brain fog can't focus everything seems fuzzy. Grounding meditation helps me and adult colouring to focus or read a book. Also mindfulness is a great practice I find. The more you focus on this the less it gets. In my case anyways it comes and goes. Feeling your not connected to your body and mind as 1 . There is hope and tomorrow is a new day. Keep pushing forward and stay motivated it will eventually pass . Brighter days are coming 🥰

this gave me an anxiety attack

@3798penisholder

6 жыл бұрын

Im sorry

@violetlucy

6 жыл бұрын

Same it really freaked me out

@becky4841

6 жыл бұрын

hater I have it 😪

@mialite7959

6 жыл бұрын

hater Me too!!! I have ptsd and c-ptsd and i started flashbacking. Wow! Good depiction.

@foundmyself259

6 жыл бұрын

Same 🙁

You’re real and everything around you is 100% reality. It’s your world, your body, your memories, it’s all yours.

@cherrypython666

3 жыл бұрын

I needed this right now. Thank you so much.

@irecyclechildrenandthisism5944

Жыл бұрын

Doesn't help me to recover from DP/DR by readinh your comment but ty

@RDRJJ

Жыл бұрын

thats exactly what a fake person would say! nah im kidding lol this helped a lot

@evildeed90s

Жыл бұрын

@@cherrypython666 you aint real stop trying to act like your a normal human being

@cherrypython666

Жыл бұрын

@@evildeed90s this was a comment I left nearly 2 years ago 💀 bfr

The sink moment is so real

I thought I was going crazy trying to explain this to people and this so sums it up. In fact I thought I was going crazy experiencing it. I had no idea what it was and now I feel I have something I can try to get some sort of help. Thank you for the insight.

@fleyedd1479

9 жыл бұрын

I had this after I quit smoking weed, and I had my first Panic attack. Just remember mind over matter. Don't think to much about your disorder, and focus on trying to get back to normal, and staying positive! If you focus on it to much you will just become more anxious, and depressed.

I'll describe it the best way I can. It can come and go in episodes or it can be continuous all throughout the day for weeks and months. I had both Derealization and Depersonalization disorder and it was 24/7. It feels like nothing is "real". Just imagine looking at a person and genuinely not being able to convince yourself that that is a real person. Watching people communicate seems so foreign almost as if you are watching animals the zoo. It is very scary. You feel... spaced out and just numb. I have issues with anxiety and I remember being GLAD at the fact that I was feeling actual anxiety when I went to the doctor's office because at least I was feeling something. In this video... it is very much like what you see. You don't feel apart of your body and you don't feel apart of your life. You feel as if you are watching your life like you would watch a movie instead of actually living what you are seeing. All of your actions don't feel like actions that you are doing. Everything seems cloudy and hazy. You feel like you are just a soul that is floating around observing everything. I know this is all choppy in how I described it but I was just typing as thoughts came to me. If you have this PLEASE GET HELP. This is no joke. By far the scariest thing I have ever dealt with. And if you are a minor TELL YOUR PARENTS. Tell somebody please. I have considered suicide way too many times over this and I consider myself a strong person. I know many of you aren't as strong as I am and THATS OKAY but PLEASE get help.

@xkimixzeex

8 жыл бұрын

What you're describing is exactly how I have felt for almost a year now, and I feel like there is no way I can be cured of this. What helped you to recover in the end?

@kaitlyncarter8773

8 жыл бұрын

+xkimixzeex I haven't fully recovered... It still happens quite often to me, but it isn't nearly as bad before when I dealt with it 24/7. I personally think that people deal with it and recover different ways. When it was continous for me, I would always see people say "oh I recovered by just living my life and occupying myself and that's all you have to do to recover" but that just seemed so stupid to me because I was trying my very hardest to occupy myself and my mind but it is very hard when all I could think about is how horrible I felt. Pretty much the first step for me was realizing that I wasn't the only one who dealt with this, so getting better is possible. At first, I had no knowledge on this disorder and I thought that I was completely crazy... that even if I went to a psychologist they wouldn't know what was wrong with me. But once I found out that it was a genuine problem that people dealt with, it made me hopeful that one day I can get better instead of feeling like I will forever be like this. Then I would just try my absolute hardest to find things that made me "happy". At the time I felt like nothing made me happy but I would go to school and talk to other people about their lives instead of being so focused on how mine is. I watched KZread videos on the disorder and I saw that you can see a psychiatrist and there is medication that can be prescribed (ideally that is what I would've done instead of all of the extra suffering but I was too afraid to tell anyone about it and to ask for help). Also at the time I was moving so I put all of my time and effort towards moving and spending time with friends. Before I knew it, I started realize that slowly (very slowly) I was not thinking about the disorder and I was returning to how I felt before I was trapped in this hell. Another thing that was important to me is music. I have always loved music because it does feel like an escape. One of the worst times for me was night because that was when I was alone with my thoughts. I would hardly ever sleep at night because I kept occupying myself with other things instead of sleeping because I was too afraid of my own thoughts and what kind of mental breakdown I might have because of this horrible thing I was dealing with. Music always helped me because I would listen to it as I went to bed and before I knew I was asleep. My personal recommendation for you, if it's possible, is to see a psychiatrist. If it isn't possible you can try the things that I suggested and I truly hope it helps. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this and that you've had to deal with it for so long. Trust me, I know how horrible it is. Like I said before, I'm not fully cured and I still deal with it but I have for the most part learned to cope. Sorry that this is so long lol. (Also sorry for any typos I hope I at least somewhat answered your question). ☺

@xkimixzeex

8 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for your reply! Honestly the hardest part is feeling like there is no hope, like there is no way I can possibly recover. But reading how you are slowly improving, restores some of that hope. My doctor has referred me to a psychiatrist and although I was reluctant to go, after your advice I think it may be a good idea. Sorry to ask you another question but would you say you vision, or the way everything looks flat, 2D or like a movie, would you say that improves slightly, because that for me is one of the hardest things to deal with atm. Thank you so much again

@kaitlyncarter8773

8 жыл бұрын

+xkimixzeex oh it is totally okay... ask as many questions as you want! And um yes the vision part has improved. Don't worry I know what you mean... that was the hardest part for me too. I don't know exactly how to describe how it changed and got better.... but it just did, without me realizing it. Don't get me wrong... some days I do still have it completely bad but I am also dealing with this 100% on my own, you know without seeing a psychiatrist or even really talking to people about it. So I have faith that it will get better- and stay better for you. I'm happy to see that you are considering seeing a psychiatrist. From what I've heard, it really helps.

@xkimixzeex

8 жыл бұрын

+Kaitlyn Carter thanks so much for your help. I'm sorry you're still going through this. Is there anyway I could email you? I'd love to pass on the advice I get when I see a psychiatrist

Derealization kind of feels like being high on marijuana.

@postrares

8 жыл бұрын

True

@kayilla6413

8 жыл бұрын

it is but its never ending

@rockking05

8 жыл бұрын

Except when your high , you usually feel happy instead of just feelings zone out.

@turbo6780

8 жыл бұрын

Yes, because DP/DR is an effect of marijuana. This also happens when you're high on dissociatives.

@Olivetree80

7 жыл бұрын

Without the enjoyable, euphoric aspects. It's also a lot less enlightening, and more emptying.

I’ve had this for about three years now. I just want to feel here, and not have to convince myself that I’m alive. I don’t feel alive

@samiullahghilzaisocialwork5457

3 жыл бұрын

What medications are you taking

For me, it's just being constantly zoned out with tiny periods, usually lasting a couple of seconds, of being able to see the world clearly, but at the same time everything feels 2d and everything "Moves like a youtube video". I often don't consciously perceive anything so I'm basically sensory deprived most of the day.

It’s like a bad trip that never goes away. Nothing feels real. That’s how I’d describe it

@astroarts713

2 жыл бұрын

Have you cured yours?

@dacoolmilkshake4917

2 жыл бұрын

@@astroarts713 sadly not yet no hopefully I can eventually. I’ve had it about 6 months now but I’m working on it hoping for the best with you aswell

@astroarts713

2 жыл бұрын

@@dacoolmilkshake4917 idk but having a depersonalization i think change your perception i n world

@astroarts713

Жыл бұрын

@Legend Music What do you think triggered it for you though?

I've been feeling this so much lately that sometimes when I have conversations with people I feel like I don't need to reply because those people and conversations are not real anyways

@callherfoofoo

2 жыл бұрын

Everything everybody feels fake. So when I actually open up and have interaction with someone that feels genuine I just talk talk talk about everything because I don’t wonna forget the point of the conversation. I slowly feel my self sliding back like naw you don’t really get I ain’t gon bother you no more. I’m constantly thinking what am I supposed to do and if I did it right then I’m like fuck it next😭😭😭😭

I always love coming to the comments section on these types of videos. Knowing I’m not alone in experiencing this helps me calm down so much.

Accurate accurate accurate! The noise effects demonstrates how stuck inside your head you are and how unreal everything feels. Gosh, it sucks to experience this.

@audrinamoon7032

6 жыл бұрын

the bluriness is literally how it feels too. the feels of this video did a great job at portraying the feelings of derealization/depersonalization

@tonymccarthy5624

2 жыл бұрын

How are you doing now I need some hope please I’m absolutely destroyed by this 😢

Everytime it happens I feel like I'm living in a simulation and I just wanna die

I had derealization for five years. Never knew I had it. My condition was always diagnosed as depression. I started taking a medication called Lamotrigine. Slowly but surly, I woke up. That's the only way I can describe it. I was like that for so long I forgot how it feels to be normal. To be alive.

i started freaking out while watching this. i didn't know about this disorder until a few hours ago and literally thought i was the only person in the world dealing with this. this video is so accurate..

@tonymccarthy5624

2 жыл бұрын

How are you feeling now I’m going through this the past few months just hoping for a miracle it sucks i miss the old me my old life I don’t even recognise who I am anymore 😢

@swisscheese-ss8ov

9 ай бұрын

I’ve had it for 6.1/2 months it’s gotten better the anxiety isn’t bad I forget I have it but do you still have it

@frailstateofminds

9 ай бұрын

@@swisscheese-ss8ov i still struggle with it

@frailstateofminds

8 ай бұрын

@@swisscheese-ss8ov i still have it yea. but i do indeed also sometimes just completely forget i have it because it’s like my constant state of mind.

A way I would describe it would be as if it’s a lucid dream. You know when you are asleep and you realize you’re in a dream, but you know it’s not real and everything looks off and wayward? That’s pretty accurate. The weird part is nothing seems to fit... the grass looks too much like grass, the color black is too black, blue is too blue, the water looks too much like water. Everything is heightened to the point where it almost drives you insane.

Do I have this? It feels like my perception is delayed, like when something is moving i feel hazy, my eyes also feel sleepy. I'm also way more observant, or I'm also way more confused. And as I'm typing it, it feels like my perception is not matching my movement even though it is,

@tayyy2k757

5 жыл бұрын

no

@cubanpothead

2 жыл бұрын

@@tayyy2k757 yes

I read a lot of the comments below, and they sum up how I usually feel pretty well. Throughout my daily life it’s hard to feel any kind of regular emotions. It feels like I’m living in a fake world where people just put on acts all the time. When I’m around other people I try to understand where they get their emotions and sense of self from. The deep complex thoughts that I have don’t make any sense and make me question myself and life in all. The scariest part is when I think about how random life really is, and what it actually is. The thoughts just won’t stop, criticizing myself about every little thing, my mind constantly beats me down not allowing me to be a normal person. It’s weird looking in the mirror staring at myself and thinking that I’m inside a body. I find it interesting that not many people go through derealization/depersonalization. It feels like I’m high when I’m not. Having depersonalization makes you feel like you’re in your dream world that you can’t awake from. Dreams feel more real then real life because I’m less conscious of what’s going on and I’m also not perceiving myself from outside my body like in reality. In real life I watch myself from a distance and it feels so weird fake. Life is so strange when your reality doesn’t allow you to be blissfully ignorant to the unsureness of the universe and life.

@tonymccarthy5624

2 жыл бұрын

How are you feeling now I see this is a from a year ago ?

Mate, this totally what I have. Had this non-stop for 6 years. Have felt suicidal and lost hope that I'll ever get better. Xx

@paris3331

Жыл бұрын

Hi love. How are you doing? Genuinely concerned. I'm here to talk.

@user-xp9jx6dh8p

4 ай бұрын

In the same boat. At least it can suck for us together. Talking and shit is so difficult though, and existing without a single memory or no thoughts, my minds completely blank 2, wanna end my life cos I aint even recognise my face in the mirror, know it ain't ever gon change but what can u do innit

with me it’s everything looks clearer like im looking through a high definition camera

@mediwise2474

3 жыл бұрын

Can we talk about this on insta or fb or ...

@boujeeamiah8033

3 жыл бұрын

Same ! But when I’m driving it looks like the video

@boujeeamiah8033

2 жыл бұрын

@devious no unfortunately:(

(Personal experience) For the people frustrated that are currently suffering from DPR. Just remember you are alone. It may seem like you’re going crazy but you’re not. Far from it. Your brain is currently stuck in fight or flight mode. You may ask yourself. “How did I get this curse?” “How can I get rid of it??” Derealization/depersonalization can be triggered from multiple things; such as smoking pot (having a major panic attack during this.) high anxiety levels, post trauma, and etc. The best way to sum this up is you are over aware of your body. DPR can be terrifying at first, because everything feels fake. You can feel numb, emotionless, anxious, and even experience brain fog. (Which was the first symptom for me) All your senses could feel funny; for example you could pick up an object and it would feel like you’re not actually holding anything until you really dwell on what’s going on. Now the real reason you’re reading this because you want to know how to beat this. Well, what I can say is that this won’t be fixed over night because it’s mental not physical. You can’t just put a bandaid on this one. SORRY! It can take weeks, months, and even years to overcome this monsters. The best advice I can give you is invite it into your life when it pops up. Let it feel welcomed into your life. The worst thing you could possibly do is ignore it. Ignoring this can create a behavioral pattern with ignoring everything mentally wrong. Which is never good. People may disagree with me but like I mentioned at the beginning. (This is my personal experience with dealing with DPR. ) Another way of overcoming DPR is staying away from any mind altering substances. This includes pot, molly, LSD, coke, crack, meth, and etc. Alcohol can also be a substance that can alter your mind. So just stay away from everything like that. In most cases this can trigger your DPR way worse, and cause really bad trips. (Which usually ends up in extreme anxiety) Now your back at square one all over again. Depending on the group of friends you hang out with you might get called very rude things; such as a pussy, lame, chicken, and etc. ignore all of this and hang out with better friends. Because your Metal Health is WAY More Important than trying to show off. Remember that!! I hope you start treating your mental health with the respect it deserves!!❤️ Have an amazing day♥️ If you ever need someone to talk to about DPR just message me on Snapchat. I’m open to talk to anyone that is seeking advice, help, or just someone to talk to. My snapchats: kenzie_turtle

@justagrassblock2293

3 жыл бұрын

Hi Kenzie, I just added you on snap. This helped me understand DPR a lot more, my brother and I both have DPR- he struggles with it most likely because of drugs; I’m not sure why I am depersonalised I believe it’s from some kind of stress. I have a pretty good life, I still struggle mentally just like any human. Thank you for your words! - Ari

@kenzielynncx216

3 жыл бұрын

@@justagrassblock2293 hey hun. whats your username so i can be sure to add you back

@Obito_17-52

2 жыл бұрын

Hi Kenzie I just added you on Snapchat

@user-xp9jx6dh8p

4 ай бұрын

I think I meant to say Ur not alone😂

In my experience I’ll only get this while feeling anxiety (not a panic attack),stressed and uneasy, I can still talk and do most things but it just becomes a lot harder, like when I’m a conversation it feels like my eyes can’t focus properly or like I can’t concentrate on talking and my facial expressions at the same time, it’s really strange

My experience with derealization is quite like this. You almost feel like you’re high, your social anxiety is spiking. I get I️t really bad if I forget to take my depression medication, as like it’s a withdrawal symptom. I️t helps to know I️m not the only one who deals with this. At times I give myself a panic attack thinking I️m going insane!

Did anybody else get this after smoking cannabis?

@sarah-gu6vw

7 жыл бұрын

Bailey Johns I know cannabis is different that alcohol but also a drug and I got it from alcohol

@baileyjohns8900

7 жыл бұрын

WinchestersWinterSoldier it sucks but it went away after about 4-5 weeks

@pjosullivan5163

7 жыл бұрын

Bailey Johns yup

@paulakramig6057

7 жыл бұрын

i suffered it for one year after smoking cannabis and then it disappeared but i'm so scared to smoke again

@TouchNGo99

7 жыл бұрын

Yeah. I remember the day I realized I had it. I was just sitting in my old classroom and I felt like I was going insane tbh

wow the people when they were talking just summed it up for me honestly same

I’ve had chronic derealisation/depersonalisation as long as I can remember. Was officially diagnosed at 14 due to trauma. I have undiagnosed DID too (undiagnosed due to being too young to get a diagnosis yet) and this makes life pretty unreal. It’s like I’m always on autopilot and never in control. I’m typing this message now, but I don’t feel real and actually here. I feel nothing, just a thinking observer of a strangers life. I do not feel like I’m here - but can speak, think and function normally. Plus, with dissociative alters, I always question what is reality, because reality shifts from day to day. But through all of this, I have a relatively healthy lifestyle and even though I’m not 100% happy, I can live, cope and be who I am. I have a lot of issues, but It shouldn’t ruin my only ‘life’ - whatever that is.

Is it weird that i see and feel the world like this everyday?

My best friend suffers from DP and I've been researching about it. I feel SO sorry for everyone going through this. The sucky part about it is that society can't SEE it like a broken leg or cut on your face, so they assume you just need to meditate, run, or eat healthier. What a scary way to live!! She is healing now but she says it's a VERY slow process. She also explained to me that at the worst, she woke up and the world went black and white almost. I'm hoping she gets better ASAP.

@serenityedits1857

2 жыл бұрын

had it on and off through childhood and to this day. She'll be okay, once she comes out of it, encourage her to be proactive in stress management and avoid illegal psychoactive drug. Let her know that she's not the only person to expirence it.

Thank gosh other people understand what I’m going through. I feel like I’m going to end up in a ward like I’m full on losing it, and it’s making me depressed.

@yazminevogler9990

2 жыл бұрын

@Cartisbae same haha I think it’s something to do with anxiety. I’ve spoken to a few people about it and who have gone through it also and they’ve said it must be something to do with anxiety

for anyone curious, this isn't what all depersonalization/derealization looks like. derealization (what ill be calling it) for me is the world moving in slow motion, or extremely fast. it feels like a fever dream, and it feels like theres a glass wall in front of me that is stopping me from getting through. it feels like I'm dead. like nobody can see me. sometimes I'm so dissociated it's too hard to even focus on what's going on I just have to put my head down. my glasses don't help, because i have glasses it makes me even more disconnected with the world, as if im not seeing anything that's going on real. i can't physically comprehend how people think they're genuinely alive all the time. i have constant thoughts im in a coma, or im about to wake up from a dream, and even im dead. so if you think you have this disorder please get help, it's not plesant and you deserve happiness

i really felt that last frame in all seriousness that felt like depersonalization, of course it is psychological, but i personally feel you portrayed it perfectly in this video

man this is too accurate other then the audio lol

@slapahoe69

6 жыл бұрын

whateverdawg ya asf

@mysteriouscaravan4107

5 жыл бұрын

wtvrdwg the audio is accurate lol, when I’m high out of my mind I start to become def in Breif moments

@emmanem13.7

3 жыл бұрын

i hope you are okay now wtf

The best way I could describe it for me personally was doing ur normal day tasks and taking them into recognition then falling into the loop of forgetfulness and anxiety while wondering if I’m real

Thank you so much for producing this. It is exactly how I experience the audio-visual side of this horrible condition. As others have said it's not possible to reproduce the internal emotional and philosophical unreality stuff in a video, but the sensory stuff is spot on from my own experience. I'm going to show this to friends so they can better understand what's going on for me. Thanks again and hope your recovery is going well

i felt like i was going to throw up in any second.

I used to get this feeling all the time as a kid. Mostly whenever I went to family parties. I remember I would be playing with all my cousins and out of nowhere I felt like this and tried telling them how I was feeling. I kinda still feel this way but it’s gotten way easier to control

I used this video as visual tool in explaining an unexplainable symptom to my loved one's and has helped exponentially! I was diagnosed with PTSD after I started having DPDR episodes throughout the day and sought help. Thank you so much for the upload!

This is such I I great video! Ive decided to not be ashamed of my disorder, so this is how I experience, Everything looks real. But I feel fake. You know when your in a dream that's super real, but you know your dreaming? That's what I feel. Its constant. I've learned to ignore it, but the voice in my head just keeps screaming at me, "You're not real. Nothing is real. It's a game. You just haven't found the quit button" it haunts me. This video is really good at explaining DDD (Depersonalization-derealization disorder) in some people's experiences...I might send to my friend to try and get them to understand.

ive depersonalized once after overdosing on weed and it was one of the most nightmarish moments of my life. i have nothing but prayers for those who have to deal with this feeling constantly. it was like my senses werent lined up. my body would move seconds after i told it too, and then i would relive a moment a few times. my pupils couldnt focus and it felt like my view was zooming in and getting blurry, but then it would zoom out and everything looked way too real and detailed. thankfully the people i was with got me some water, and i focussed on breathing and came back to reality. it was not a fun high to come down from. im just glad i came down from it.

Lmao I don’t know if I have it but sometimes it looks like my hands are in a video game and it looks like everything is fake and things look warped, are those signs?

@sheila7369

6 жыл бұрын

Viral Mayhem Official pretty much

When i had it, i felt like i was being robbed of genuine experiences. Because i am not my self with drdp. My mind was in a constant loop replaying events that just happened in my mind and i could never live in the moment because of it. I didnt experience emotions directly, but i knew i was experiencing them. It makes life feel unreal, too real blurry, too focused, and pointless

As much as it may trigger me a bit because of its accuracy, these comments + the video explain it perfectly

Bro I've had this type of experience 3 times in my life. Once when I was born, second when I popped a wheelie for the first time, and three when I took LSD for the first time.

Great job on this! I think the visuals convey it really well, and your movements mimic really well. There is only one thing that I think could be different, and of course this is just personal opinion since everyone is different. For the scene being with two other people as they talk, having their voices muffled. For me I can grasp what others are saying, but I have to really tune in and focus on it. Thus, it's like they are muffled.

@laurenemond1968

6 жыл бұрын

Kitiara Howard same for me like I can understand it or atleast hear it but I don't know if they're really saying anything or if I'm just imagining it same thing for when I talk I have to say it like 5 times to even know if it might be real but most of the time I still feel like I'm imagining what I said

@aloalo3727

2 жыл бұрын

I can understand what they are saying but It is like the previous poster said, watching animals at the zoo

Pretty damn good job capturing what it can feel like for me at times. The opening the door was so spot on.

I've been looking for a long time to find a video that accurately depicts DP/DR and this is the first video I've ever seen that I feel does that. So thanks. It makes it a lot easier to explain it to people when they ask me about it

For the longest time. I had no idea what was going on with me. I am also diagnosed PTSD. and I go days or weeks sometimes where everything just feels like its not real. Like i walk in to my house but it didn't feel like it was my house. Like I could recognize everything but everything just felt so surreal. best way to describe it. its like when your playing football and you get the hardest hit youve ever felt and your so dazed you recognize things but its like your not apart of it like its happening outside of you and your just watching it through a screen. Some days get so bad I dont even know if I'm dreaming or really awake. Like I'm afraid to move around and walk because I literally cant tell if I'm awake or dreaming.

Thankyou for making this because I've had this since middle school (I'm now going into college) and I've just now realized it.

@ChaoticNeutralElf

7 жыл бұрын

I am glad I could help even the slightest bit. I hope you will feel better soon!

Sometimes I go into my head but I don’t even realize it and then I zoom back into reality and have no idea what was actually going on or what I was thinking

This is me constantly in a social situation, friends or family. It is scary, but it comforts me that I am not alone who feels this 1:49

@evildeed90s

Жыл бұрын

you have friends best lie ive heard all day lol

You can't "show" what Depersonalisation "looks like." It doesn't look any different, it changes how you feel and experience things.

@stacimarie3

3 жыл бұрын

It definitely changes how things look. But showing it to someone who already has it doesn’t really have an effect because it already looks like we’re watching a film in 2D.

It honestly feels like your high on weed and your in a virtual reality

The part where your sitting at work and the people are talking is spot on for me.

You can't really put it into a video, you can only really experience it for youself or try your best to explain it. The best way I can explain it is through a example, I remember talking to my friend about this sort of thing and how it happens to me, and in that moment it happened. It just felt like I was talking and I was just slowly zooming out, it just felt like I wasnt there and I was just watching a video or something through the eyes of someone, objects lacked meaning, it just felt like objects around me werent real, almost like a item in a game. Talking also felt like I wasnt the one talking it was really out of body, like a passenger. Another instance is I was having a conversation and I realized I zoned out mid conversation, I just though to myself: "Damn, I am not here right now" and it just felt like it was a glass wall between me and reality. Its a very strange experience, Im glad im not alone in these experiences

I feel like everyone everything is a dream is 24/7 is that derealization???

@jeremygalloway3921

4 жыл бұрын

I get it from the second i open my eyes in the morning to when i fall asleep at night, Fucking sucks man. wouldn't wish it on anyone.

@dumbokiddo3943

4 жыл бұрын

rAge Gamer I have the same question man and sometimes I even feel like I can’t move, or speak, or do normal human behaviour. I can’t do the smallest things. I can’t focus and do the things I enjoy,It’s an odd feeling, as if I don’t belong here. Everything and everyone seems unreal. Even the memories I had seem fake. Also my body feels heavy

@budzy1341

3 жыл бұрын

Hey is is gone now ?

At around 1:39 is so accurate for me. people talking and gesturing but not really being able to hear/understand or reply. Sometimes I hear the words but they don't make sense. And the thing that sucks is sometimes it happens from nowhere and I don't know how to fix it. If someone is watching who doesn't dissociate often, Image that you are the camera, and those are your coworkers or friends and you know them, but you can't think of their names and they look kinda weird. but you know you know them. Welcome to dissociation. Sometimes I forgot who my partner is and who I am.

The only way I can describe mine is exactly like having a go pro on your head and your just watching through it. I look at everything and just feel alone and I just can’t bring myself to think I’m real.

I'm reading all these comments and I'm just amazed by everyone's bravery and their compassion for one another. Although I can't relate to you all bc I don't suffer from DPD/DRD, I love what I'm seeing here. I am a psychology student wanting to understand more about this mental disorder and I find it easier to understand by reading comments from people who experience the disorder rather than reading about it in a textbook. So I just want to say thank you, to all of you, for sharing your stories. I'm so glad there's peer support out there for those who need it. Mental health is not talked about enough and it's about time we make a change to that. I just hope I can help people like all of you one day bc there clearly isn't enough research or medical professionals who are knowledgeable about this mental disorder.

Any1 else get this feeling off and on, rather than all the time?

@noviceunicorn6504

6 жыл бұрын

Haven't been diagnosed, but yes. One moment I'll be doing something, the next, I'm just gone. I feel it also changes in intensity during the recovery period after an episode.

@BenBerr

4 жыл бұрын

Novice Unicorn it hits harder at night

I feel like people are out to get me, I can’t make eye contact or else I start to get scared. The only way I can describe it is like a panic attack muscle with a bad lsd trip

Imagine your computer glitching, changing colour and repeating stuff. Now imagine that glitching in real life. It really messes you up.

"What do I care? I'm not really here...But..I might come back, and when I do come back, I want to be happy, so I need to maintain as best I can so when I do come back, I will want to stay." That's pretty much where I am at.

Sometimes when I get really high I feel like this

How do I tell people I try and explain it but they don’t get it and then it’ll last for days and days and I’ll feel like I’m going crazy but there’s nothing I can do about it

This is such a well made video down to the last detail. I would love to see someone make the same video with someone screaming at you/calling names/anger. I stupidly tried to convey to the narcissist I am married to how his non-stop screaming/insults are filtered as though under water and that if he wants me to "hear" him, he needs to stop the screaming/anger.

@ChaoticNeutralElf

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for the compliment! And I'm sorry to hear you're in a situation like that. I hope the two of you can work it out, or that you can get away from there if needed. If you want to make a video like that, you can use this one and edit it so long as you don't post it anywhere.

@KarenDUlrich

4 жыл бұрын

@@ChaoticNeutralElf I wish I had talent to create videos and edit but I would not know where or how to start. I have such bad disassociation from being screamed at all the time. I have audio of my husband's verbal, mental, and emotional abuse if you ever want to dub it into the background of a video like this one. Laws are so disheartening for those in abusive situations. Laws do nothing to help abused nor hold abusers accountable.

@KarenDUlrich

3 жыл бұрын

@@ChaoticNeutralElf I just finished an Abnormal Psychology class in school and cited your KZread video in my paper on DID. Many people watched the video and said that it provided clarity for what the experience is actually like!!!!!!! Thank you again for an excellent video that should be seen by anyone entering the mental health field who wishes to actually help people instead of treating them as problems.

You totally hit the nail on the head. Thank you for providing a video that I can show my loved ones to express how alienated I can feel in a situation where I should feel sober and happy... Panic is no joke.

I just rewatched this after years and realised that shot of my friend making a weird sound at the end was still in there. And how no one has commented on it. Haha. If I'd known this many people would watch it I wouldn't have added it as a joke haha.

@Davotheledge

3 жыл бұрын

I noticed it and was scrolling the comments to see if anyone else had lol

i had this when I got too high, felt like my arms were animated and my vision felt like it was focused through a circle . It felt like I was looking through really clear glass it was unusual 😶

@mare03

6 жыл бұрын

Me too!

This was so accurate for me I got scared. When I'm like that, I can't help but feel alone, so this, knowing now that what I experience so often isn't just me, it helps give me something concrete to work with. Thank you.

So many of these comments have put it so perfectly. I'd also like to add, though, that most of mine are mostly non-thoughts. Just kind of vague ideas like "am I real?" or "am I watching my life happen through someone else's eyes?" or "is any of this real?" Most of the time it comes when I'm sitting/standing still, like waiting for someone or sitting on the toilet. It immobilizes me, and I feel like I'm losing my grip on reality. Everything around me is both too real and completely fake. Nothing's distorted visually, it's just a feeling. My face in the mirror doesn't look familiar, stuff like that.

do you know that when you have this derealisation and there is like a loud noise and it could make you cry? like it stresses you out so much?

I feel sometimes like I'm in a room with people but they're all above the surface and I'm underwater. Everything is echoey and strange and suddenly it's all clear and they're looking at me strangely and I have to apologise and ask them to repeat what they said

@ambam1155

5 жыл бұрын

ive not been diagnosed ive just now discovered others feel the same as me. today at work i kept spacing out coz of this, id say huh sorry to peop'le talking to me and ask them to repeat themselves coz its like my brain couldnt focus on their words...

@kamarisinclair6941

3 жыл бұрын

YOOOO SAMEEEE!

@kamarisinclair6941

3 жыл бұрын

@@ambam1155 FRRR

imagine you feel like you're sleep walking and you've done everything that's new to you an infinite amount of times, so you try something that's new and truly amazing, and for a few moments it works, until it gets worse than before. you start freaking out going into a psychosic breakdown because it's never going to be normal again, in fact normal never existed it seems, actually, nothing has ever existed. sometimes it's all in my head, sometimes I'm not real either.

@milkandblue

3 жыл бұрын

Wow this is so accurate!! Especially about things getting better triggering it to become even worse 😩

holy hell, so this is what has been happening to me. It's like you're meditating all the time and literally can't see/think clearly/experience the real world for all it has to offer because it feels like you're moving through slow motion in a dream.

In general, I believe we all share the same experience. Although, some of us are experiencing it a bit different than others. For me, I basically always feel high. I’m constantly zoning out and getting caught up in my thoughts. One minute I’ll be sitting there, deeply thinking, the next I’ll be questioning what just happened. Did that actually just happen to me? Did I actually just say that? Did I just see that? In simpler terms it’s like always looking through glass, or a shield when seeing everything. Everything I say is being replayed in my head and my words almost lag.

@tonymccarthy5624

2 жыл бұрын

How are you doing a a year later I feel the exact same way as you everything you said I’m ruined by these keeping strong

I feel lost, in better terms out of place when I'm out in the world. Well 24/7 I feel like this, somebody let me know if I have this disorder.

@jorgeanibal8834

7 жыл бұрын

how did this begin? when?

@pjosullivan5163

7 жыл бұрын

Kinto Solidor I smoked aload of weed and got this disorder for like 3 months😨

@jorgeanibal8834

7 жыл бұрын

Martin O Sullivan I felt like being outside still felt like being indoors. triggered episodes of confusion and sheer terror. ongoing. felt like i was seeing life from a screen, like from outside of miself. my body felt alien to me, i no longer recognized. And everything felt fake, synthetic. Life was a dream and i couldn't tell the difference. If you feel any of these things, then yes Martin. The same thing happened to me bud. How do you feel?

@pjosullivan5163

7 жыл бұрын

Exactly that, best way to describe it is being on a bad trip from weed, total paranoia, thought i'd never get back 100% in the mind

@jorgeanibal8834

7 жыл бұрын

Martin O Sullivan it's an involuntary reflex in the body, a natural state of shock caused by stress. Triggered by memory and circular reasoning of guilt and fear. Telling yourself you deserve it, or you're foolish, or wondering if you'll ever be better causes you to slip and then it happens over and over. best thing you can do is just calm yourself and let it pass knowing it will pass and accepting the moment. Three months is not much so that's wonderful. Anti anxiety meds could help in conditioning yourself not to accept this fear and guilt, negativity and there are some supplements even that can help. B vitamins, ashwaghanda, rohdiola, and something very effective called phenibut. People like us have a lot of stress and denial bottled up and we explode one day so practice taking responsibility for your faults or life events by talking about it to someone you trust. Are you all better now?

Had this for years super bad, still dealing with it now but a lot less strong now that I’m completely sober. Tried looking for a video to try to show my mom what it felt/feels like, this is most accurate one I’ve come across for me personally. It even sounded like English wasn’t English, like everything was farther away than they were, like viewing life from a rear view mirror. Everything was fuzzier and blurrier, meanwhile the colors are so vibrant at the same time. Like living underwater and no one else can tell but me. Also, something really specific I’ve noticed is it’s almost like my peripheral vision has expanded to being MOST of what I see rather than just surrounding most of what I see. It’s like my vision picks one very very small pinpoint to look at with some focus and absolutely everything around that is a fuzz. It’s accompanied by a lot of blinking to try to get my vision in focus but it’s all in vain. The same feeling of staring at a light for too long and blinking like crazy to get your sight back, but practically for months on end

I get anxiety watching this because this is actually the exact feeling of experiencing this kind of disorder

Fuck dude I remember when I looked at my arm randomly and just said to myself “it’s me” then dropped everything I was doing and ran to the mirror to look at myself and I just felt like I was in 3rd person I just wasn’t all there. Scared the shit out of me.

@saidbachlil2612

2 ай бұрын

Same shit happens to me like you are not you yourself like your body is not yours your thoughts feel 3 person is bad to