Dead Poets Society IS LIFE CHANGING! | *First Time Watching* Movie Reaction & Commentary

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My first time watching Dead Poets Society (1989). This movie was SO INSPIRING. It left me devastated, but incredibly optimistic. Thank You Red Dwarf for selecting this one, it gave me so much to think about and reflect on. I hope you enjoyed my Dead Poets Society movie reaction & commentary
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  • @CasualNerdReactions
    @CasualNerdReactions2 жыл бұрын

    This film was so full of insight and inspirations wrapped in a heartbreaking and tragic story. What is your favorite part of the film?

  • @concertinamadrigals4058

    @concertinamadrigals4058

    2 жыл бұрын

    The part where Keating has Todd ad-lib a poem about Whitman makes me tear-up every time. This film has stuck with me since I saw it as a kid, and I have only to see certain clips, and my eyes get watery.

  • @cliffendicott7832

    @cliffendicott7832

    2 жыл бұрын

    I was a senior in high school when this came out and I was one of those kids that always had my nose in a book. Was always a teacher's pet of the English teachers I had. So I really connected with a lot of the characters in this. Everyone knows the "Oh captain, my captain" scene from this film (30+ years later) but when I saw it in theatre I had no idea what was about to happen. That was probably the closest I ever came to crying in public....

  • @nicolechakora2892

    @nicolechakora2892

    2 жыл бұрын

    The last scene of course! 🙃

  • @robertjewell9727

    @robertjewell9727

    2 жыл бұрын

    I have many favorite parts, but they all deal with Robin Williams quietly' compassionate performance and he motivates and articulates righteous creativity particularly when Todd comes to class without a poem and Keating seizes the moment to motivate expression. Now having said that i really want to recommend a book by Christian psychologist M. Scott Peck called PEOPLE OF THE LIE, an examination of human evil because Neil's father is an exemplar of that kind of evil. He's malignantly narcissistic and only sees Neil as an extension of his egoistic desire. Evil people in the real world are not sinister mustache twirlers with a sinister laugh, but people who demand that everyone and everything around only serve his needs and Dr. Peck's book explains this quality and its symptoms beautifully in his book. Just a recommendation for further insight, but keep in mind that some of the patient histories he relates are quite chilling. Great resction, Chris. 👍

  • @TetsuoVI

    @TetsuoVI

    2 жыл бұрын

    While I don't agree with everyone here (specifically regarding Neil's father being categorized as evil), I will say the the standout part for me was the exact moment you mentioned Robert Sean Leonard's serious acting chops when he was confiding in Dr. Keating his feelings about talking to his father. "I'm trapped." Just typing those words with respect to that scene is causing me to well up. The pain behind Neil's eyes is so visceral to me. To have been in that similar position too many times in my life now feeling like a lifetime ago only to portrayed so honestly, right in my face is almost too much to bear. This is why Neil's fate, while jarring, was not surprising to me. The quiet desperation of someone feverishly trying to get out of a no-win situation he put himself in (for the best of reasons and intentions) was made all the more unbearable at the reality many of us feel when we are an inch short of holding onto hope for a better and more fulfilling future and no other course of action feels like it is available to us. You said it perfectly, taking a permanent course of action for temporary conditions is just about never the best course of action. Thank you so much for reviewing this movie as you do with thoughtful words and wonderful perceptions. It's one of my favorites of all time.

  • @aquakid360
    @aquakid360 Жыл бұрын

    As someone who believes that Todd was in love with Neil, this is one of my favorite details: 26:25, when Todd runs into the snow, he finally finds his true “Barbaric Yawp”, screaming from the depths of his agony… and it’s Neil’s name. Heartbreaking.

  • @stuffwithsoph8264

    @stuffwithsoph8264

    10 ай бұрын

    I believe the writer of the novel the film is based on confirmed this on twitter. Neil and Todd ARE gay, it also isn't a coincidence Neil is scared to tell his dad he wants to act (a industry dominated by the queer community since it's conception).

  • @jub6973

    @jub6973

    10 ай бұрын

    Not to forget: Neils tender "no❤" as an answer to Todd's "I can take care of myself", the way Neil looks at Todd after doing his poem in front of the class, the moment when Knox calls Chris (Neil leans on Todd's shoulder and they change obvious looks)

  • @sadee1287

    @sadee1287

    8 ай бұрын

    Jeez not another person reading something into a movie that isn't there... No. Todd was NOT "in love" with Neil. He bonded with him. They were after all roommates. More importantly, Neil recognized in Todd the shy inarticulate timid young man _he_ used to be. Because of their friendship, and Neil's mentoring of Todd and telling him to stand up for what he believed in and not just go along to get along, Todd's whole life and point of view was opened up. Augmenting what Keating was trying to instill in all of them. Carpe diem. Seize the day. Don't let others expectations of you hold you back. Don't let fear rule your choices. And Todd learned from him and took those lessons to heart. Neil was the "big brother" Todd could look up to, esteem, and emulate. But, as we know, Neil's attempt at personal emancipation backfired. Try as he did to break away from his father's ironclad grip, it only served to tighten it further. And in desperation and hopelessness, he took his life as the only escape from that cage. So Todd's loss of Neil was more than just the loss of a brother, but a realization that even Neil couldn't escape the pressures of the family strictures he was fighting against. He screamed out his disbelief that ultimately Neil couldn't break free. But Todd was not cowed. In the end, he stood up -- figuratively and literally. For Neil, for Keating, for all the others, and for himself.

  • @jub6973

    @jub6973

    8 ай бұрын

    @@sadee1287 how would you think about it if one of them were a girl?

  • @stuffwithsoph8264

    @stuffwithsoph8264

    8 ай бұрын

    @@sadee1287 for somebody saying not to read too much into a film, you sure wrote a fucking essay reading into it.

  • @DarthChef
    @DarthChef2 жыл бұрын

    My personal connection to this move; I graduated high school in 1991 and this movie had a big influence on me and many of my classmates during our last few years of high school because we had an AP English teacher who was a lot like Mr. Keating. He always wanted us to find our voice and wanted to develop us not only as students, but as free thinking young adults. It just so happened that our senior year was also the year he was retiring. Our valedictorian also loved and respected him and she devised a tribute to him. At the end of her graduation speech she talked about Mr. Morton and how much of a great teacher he was and when she said "Oh Captain, my Captain" many of us stood up in our chairs.

  • @lieslmichelle4136

    @lieslmichelle4136

    24 күн бұрын

  • @hennakettunen8755

    @hennakettunen8755

    17 күн бұрын

    That must have been a moment for you all that you'll never forget! 💓

  • @scottstevens7639
    @scottstevens76392 жыл бұрын

    My dad was the same way. The only difference was that my passion was music, but my father opposed it with every fibre of his being. Like every parent, he wanted me to pursue a ‘real’ career, one that actually made money. Of course I rebelled and pursued my rock’n’roll dreams, albeit in my spare time. He only ever saw me perform once. I never even knew he had attended. I only found out about it years later from my mom. She said his only comment was “he’s actually pretty good…” I just wish I had heard that from him. So, as you can see, this film hit pretty close to home for me. It’s probably the reason why I only ever watched it once.

  • @concertinamadrigals4058

    @concertinamadrigals4058

    2 жыл бұрын

    My father was the same, though my passions were woodcarving, drawing and writing. Same expectation of my need to get a "real job," too. I love this film, because I identified with both Todd, as a natural introvert, afraid to speak with his own voice, and Neil, as a creative boy, pressured by his father to deny his impulse to create.

  • @ThreadBomb

    @ThreadBomb

    2 жыл бұрын

    Might it be worse to have parents who don't care what you do? That was my experience.

  • @sarah4hp

    @sarah4hp

    2 жыл бұрын

    @Thread Bomb It isn't a competition of who had it worse, both are a devastating experiences. You want your parents to care what you do, but you also want them to respect who you are and what you are passionate about. Being denied either will send the message that you don't matter. In one situation it is that you don't matter in the sense your parent can't be bothered caring about what you are doing. In the other situation it is that you don't matter in the sense that what YOU want doesn't matter, and how YOU feel isn't a consideration at all. Either way you are left feeling invisible and worthless in their eyes.

  • @THEvagabond29

    @THEvagabond29

    2 жыл бұрын

    My parents are Marine and Navy... and showing affection was never their thing. They so wanted me to be in football and enlist... i did baseball, track... and majored in Biochemistry... work in healthcare now. But still I never had real support from my parents.

  • @carlalussini

    @carlalussini

    2 жыл бұрын

    You need to see a medium so you can have your Toni Collette moment!

  • @dee_pendable1
    @dee_pendable12 жыл бұрын

    The last shot of the few who stood up is unforgettable. Wonderful film. Excellent acting.

  • @emilyfarfadet9131
    @emilyfarfadet91312 жыл бұрын

    I remember seeing this as a teen. It made a big impact. My highschool english teachers were shitty and abusive, so I decided to quit and complete my Highschool education at College. 16 years old getting Cs and Bs in highschool english- and just a month later that same 16 year old got As in advanced literature courses at the local community college. Changed my life, saved my life. We had a lot of teen suicide in my town- at my highschool especially. Too much pressure and neglect, by parents, the school system.

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    Wow! It’s amazing the difference between your high school experience and college.

  • @concertinamadrigals4058
    @concertinamadrigals40582 жыл бұрын

    This film has infinite re-watchability. I wish more people would react to it!

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    Hopefully this reaction will do well and inspire other reactors to do it as well!

  • @concertinamadrigals4058

    @concertinamadrigals4058

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@CasualNerdReactions Another film that runs along similar lines is "White Squall." If you can find it, there's a great Canadian film called "Brotherhood" that you might also enjoy.

  • @impishmisconception7762
    @impishmisconception776211 ай бұрын

    I cry whenever I watch this movie, not only because of what happened to Neil but because of Robin Williams passing away. I still remember where I was when I heard Robin Williams passed away, I was in my room and I was reading a book when I heard my Mom shout, "oh my god, Robin Williams passed away." ... I looked up to Robin Williams as a father figure and I wish I could have had the chance to meet him and to thank him for inspiring me, not just with this movie but with many of his movies and for also teaching me humour. I'm Autistic and I didnt always understand humour, then when I was about 8 or 9 I watched Disney's Aladdin for the first time. I remember first seeing the genie and I noticed that I was laughing and from the genie I learned humour. As I grew up I kept imitating Robin Williams from every movie I saw him in. After he passed away I stopped imitating him and I never have imitated him since then.

  • @hopelessromantic131
    @hopelessromantic131 Жыл бұрын

    This film breaks me to this day. It left an indelible mark on my soul. I decorated my graduation cap with quotes from this movie imposed over a typewriter. "Carpe Diem" and "What will your verse be?" People loved it. Especially because I was going on to college to study English Literature. Now I work in an independent bookstore. Although I didn't earn my degree, I left school because of family illness, and became a caregiver, I still followed my passion and my dream came true. Next step: own my own bookstore.

  • @Matacron
    @Matacron2 жыл бұрын

    I find it very unlikely that ANY of those boys who stood up on those desks were expelled. That headmaster may have been a tight ass, but he couldn't have been stupid. Those boys' minds had been freed. He would know that the first thing they would do if ANY of them were expelled would have been to go to the nearest newspaper with the real story and take that school and Neal's father down. Don't forget, Neal's father killed him. He didn't pull the trigger, but he killed him. This movie is the perfect example of why you should never try to live your child's life for them.

  • @ThreadBomb

    @ThreadBomb

    2 жыл бұрын

    Given the time the story is set, the 1950s, I'm pretty sure the boys would have been expelled and the papers wouldn't have given a damn.

  • @oliverbrownlow5615

    @oliverbrownlow5615

    11 ай бұрын

    I'm not so sure they would have been expelled, because it would have been easy for the administration to blame their outburst on the departing Keating's presence, and sweep it under the table, perhaps giving the boys some lesser punishment and/or a warning that any further disorderly conduct would be dealt with harshly. The simple fact is that a school doesn't make money by expelling students.

  • @hennakettunen8755

    @hennakettunen8755

    17 күн бұрын

    ​@@oliverbrownlow5615 Exactly. Money talks. There's the high principles and tradition of that school of pomp. 😐

  • @JordDraugr
    @JordDraugr Жыл бұрын

    The 'oh my son' and the frantic 'he's alright' was very real, frief can be strange. This was a very real portrayal

  • @oliverbrownlow5615

    @oliverbrownlow5615

    11 ай бұрын

    What's astonishing is that the actor who plays Neil's dad, Kurtwood Smith, is the same guy who plays Eric's dad on the sitcom *That 70s Show.*

  • @Amitabha108

    @Amitabha108

    5 ай бұрын

    ​@oliverbrownlow5615 Kurtwood has been in a ton of films. Some good, some not so great. A lot of Sci-fi. When he was cast on That 70's Show, I immediately got a creep factor due to his back catalog of rolls. Excellent actor.

  • @Christof742
    @Christof742 Жыл бұрын

    31:20 "When you're in those temporary circumstances they dont feel temporary". Well thought out words my friend, thank you.

  • @jackspry9736
    @jackspry97362 жыл бұрын

    RIP and long live Robin Williams (July 21, 1951 - August 11, 2014), aged 63 You will always be remembered as a legend.

  • @poolhall9632
    @poolhall96322 жыл бұрын

    My dad was overbearing (never violent) but was very similar to Neal’s dad. This movie spoke to me in a lot of ways. Have a degree in theatre ✊🏻

  • @THEvagabond29

    @THEvagabond29

    2 жыл бұрын

    My parents are military, and i had a very "structured" upbringing... expected to play football and enlist someday. I didnt do any of those things... i have a career in healthcare.

  • @Amitabha108

    @Amitabha108

    5 ай бұрын

    "Never violent" can mean not physically. But as you categorize him as "overbearing," I wonder if there wasn't verbal/emotional abuse happening. That is quite violent on the inside. Leaves wounds no one can see, but the harm is real, and lasting. 😢 I hope your experience was not as devastating as mine or some others.

  • @tree6787
    @tree67872 жыл бұрын

    There's so many amazing Robin William movies but this is one of my all-time favorite. It makes me cry everytime I watch it. The lines in this movie are absolutely incredible!❤

  • @GoBlue_yanks42

    @GoBlue_yanks42

    Жыл бұрын

    Easily imo his best and most passionate performance… my favorite of his as well…

  • @su1ly805
    @su1ly8056 ай бұрын

    When I was 14 years old, my english teacher taught us the Oh Captain, My Captain poem. Searching for it, the scene from the movie appeared. Later I saw the movie and 3 years later I was a Neil but my Mr. Keating saved me. So I decided to become a teacher so I can be the Mr. Keating of others. In my time studying education I have experienced mistreatment, loss and the heartbreak of lonely children. My passion is a laughable topic in my environment, bringing disappointment for the ones who expected "greater things" for me. But it saved me and can save others. Isn't the greatest also found in the most simple, visible, daily experiences and environments? Connection, knowledge, passion, growth, giving, changing. How unmeasurable and deep it can be for a mortal like me.

  • @TJMiton
    @TJMiton2 жыл бұрын

    The fact that anyone could come away from this movie on the school's/dad's side is completely unfathomable to me. It's such an amazing movie about the importance of accepting people for who they are and not blindly sticking to 'traditions' just for the sake of doing so.

  • @TTM9691
    @TTM96912 жыл бұрын

    ps: YOUR thoughts and remarks at the end of the video are inspiring and encouraging and profound unto themselves. Things are getting better and we can either be a part of it, or we can keep things crappy. I get it! Thanks, Chris!!!!

  • @mikesterling688
    @mikesterling6882 жыл бұрын

    The ending scene is one of the most iconic of any movie with the bagpipes playing as the boys choose to show their support for Mr. Keating knowing it could get them expelled.

  • @elizabeth981
    @elizabeth981 Жыл бұрын

    Little Trivia - the actor who portrays Gerard Pitts (James Waterston) is the the son of the actor Sam Waterston (Capricorn One, The Killing Fields, Law and Order, Newsroom and so on)

  • @davidfox5383
    @davidfox53832 жыл бұрын

    This is one of those rare movies that changed my life. I watched it with a few good friends sometime in the 90s. We were so inspired by it that we ended up having our own Dead Poets Society for a few months. I lived in apartment with a ladder climbing up to a little skylighted loft that used to be an attic. The group of us would climb up and sit on the carpeted floor, reading or singing our own work or reading passages of books or poems. It was such a joy and still is a joy to remember we had that time. It was beyond inspiring in my own art and Carpe Diem became my motto for life. It still is. I'm glad to see it affected you so deeply, and yes you are a force for good in this world, Chris -- and you do make it a better place.

  • @shainewhite2781
    @shainewhite27812 жыл бұрын

    RIP, Robin Williams. "Oh, Captain, my Captain." "Carpe Diem."

  • @geraldmcboingboing7401
    @geraldmcboingboing74012 жыл бұрын

    I was firmly rooted in my 40s when I first saw this film, but it skillfully took me back to an earlier period of my life. The message is timeless for young and old alike. Thanks, Chris, for doing a big service for the people, who watch your channel, by reacting to it.

  • @nathanfitzgerald6651
    @nathanfitzgerald66512 жыл бұрын

    I loved the Maurice Jarre music at the end. That really hammered that ending scene home emotionally.

  • @chris...9497
    @chris...94972 жыл бұрын

    "O Captain My Captain" was Walt Whitman's honorific for Abraham Lincoln, who freed the slaves; Mr Keating had hopes to free these boys' minds, and at the end they acknowledged that Keating was their Lincoln. I have to wonder if the 'slave name' borne by Neo in the Matrix franchise was a nod to this character: 'Mr Anderson'. A character who seemed so meek and unsure of himself, but who became the moral center and irresistible leader of this little group, who in the end stood to be counted and thought for himself. I can't hear the boy being warned by the head of the school, his name "Mr ANDERSON!" voiced almost as a threat, and not hear Agent Smith attempting to negate Neo's individuality. Also: I have a reply below to BigGator5 that addresses the culture of this film, something a lot of people seem to miss. This film is set in 1959; that impacts the events in this film TREMENDOUSLY and puts a lot into perspective. Please read that comment below.

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    I love the idea the the matrix might be referencing this film. It works so well.

  • @niravathu7353
    @niravathu73532 жыл бұрын

    "I've got to tell you what I feel!" ... "nothing..." That wasn't just him backing out. That was the truth, too.

  • @briannemurdock4183
    @briannemurdock41832 жыл бұрын

    I also recommend School Ties. Brendan Fraser is a Jewish man hiding in a WASP boarding school after he gets in for football. Has Affleck and Damon. The tagline was "Just because you're accepted doesn't mean you belong." I was a scholarship kid in private schools and it hit.

  • @marytreder8095
    @marytreder80952 жыл бұрын

    Chris, what a fabulous reaction to this movie! I wa born in 1942, and spent most of my life following society's demands, so this movie made me cry, and I cheered inside for those boys. You do bring sunshine - you're my favorite reactor.

  • @BadassVideos
    @BadassVideos Жыл бұрын

    I was a carpe diem guy most of my life. Funny, into my 40s and 50s I lost that. I forgot. This movie is a great reminder.

  • @zachharris3040
    @zachharris30402 жыл бұрын

    I feel like Neil had the air of desperation in his scenes, specifically how his voice would squeak during certain line deliveries. Made it feel very authentic. He said, "I don't give a damn about any of it." Neil and Charlie (aka Nuwanda are my faves). Also, Nuwanda is my bowling name whenever I'm playing. I feel like his character embodied the spirit of carpe diem and the lessons of Mr. Keating the most.

  • @deedeestardust2535
    @deedeestardust25352 жыл бұрын

    Awwww what a nice surprise!! The Dead Poets is a classic in my opinion, great story, great casting and Robin Williams is superb in this!! Great reaction and all I can say is: CARPE DIEEEEMM!!!

  • @rogermorris9696
    @rogermorris96962 жыл бұрын

    Every time I see Robin Williams i reel a little sad he no longer with us, that he gave so much joy but felt such pain,

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    Same.

  • @jenny_lee_87
    @jenny_lee_8710 ай бұрын

    My father wanted me to be a Marine and when i decided not to and went to college for business major instead, he was furious and told me i was going end up being a secretary sitting on my bosses lap. To appease him i told him i was just doing it to get some credits that were required for being a marine pilot. At college i met like 3 proffesors that where like the one at this movie that helped me a lot to be more open to my dad and truthful to myself as well, helping him see my point and accepting it.

  • @epicmage82
    @epicmage82 Жыл бұрын

    I absolutely love this movie. The lesson of thinking for yourself, and being your own unique person had a big impact on me growing up. I was seven when this first came out, and took that lesson to heart. I'm so glad I did.

  • @darkjedi447
    @darkjedi4472 жыл бұрын

    This movie is kinda like a hidden gem 💎. When you see it for the 1st time, you wonder how you never new about it before. What a classic! Keep smiling 🤘 🙂

  • @CathleenMJennings80
    @CathleenMJennings802 жыл бұрын

    Dr. Wilson was in Kenneth Brannaugh's adaptation of Much Ado About Nothing, along with Denzel Washington, Emma Thompson, and Keanu Reeves.

  • @ThreadBomb

    @ThreadBomb

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yes! I rewatched that film recently. I remember people being unkind about Keanu's performance, but I think he is decent. The real burr under the saddle is Michael Keaton's grotesque and unfunny performance in the chief "clown" role. The pity of it is that Ben Elton is relegated to playing his almost silent sidekick -- Elton is a serious Shakespearian, as shown by his writing of Upstart Crow.

  • @malissahyatt2425

    @malissahyatt2425

    8 ай бұрын

    One of my absolute favorite movies!!!!!

  • @chris...9497
    @chris...94972 жыл бұрын

    The Roman poet Horace used the phrase carpe diem to express the idea that one should enjoy life while one can. It is part of Horace's injunction “carpe diem quam minimum credula postero” (translation: "pluck the day, trusting as little as possible in the next one”), which appears in his Odes (23 BCE). Scale back your long hopes to a short period. While we speak, time is envious and is running away from us. Seize the day, trusting little in the future. -Horace

  • @tpwk.victoria
    @tpwk.victoria Жыл бұрын

    Mr. Keating told them that poetry, beauty, romance, and love is what they live for. Neil thought that all of those things got taken away from him when his dad made the decision to take away the things he loved.

  • @StarShipGray
    @StarShipGray2 жыл бұрын

    I have a difficult time watching this film since Robin Williams chose to end his life. It’s especially difficult as someone approaching middle age and grew up with him long before Aladdin made him a superstar children’s entertainer. He could have knocked on any door in America and found at least one person who’d have told him how much he was loved and how much he meant to all of us. I guess you just never know the struggles happening behind someone’s smiling eyes. I guarantee that if his funeral had been public there would have been literally millions of Gen X and Millennials who were brought up on Robin standing up as he was laid to rest and shouting “Oh Captain! My Captain!”

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    Very very true all around. Thank you for this comment.

  • @concertinamadrigals4058

    @concertinamadrigals4058

    2 жыл бұрын

    I still remember him as Mork from Ork. ("Nanoo, nanoo), such was my boyhood exposure to his comedic talent.

  • @daffodil852

    @daffodil852

    2 жыл бұрын

    No! After Robin Williams suicide, there was an autopsy. They discovered he had Lewy Body disease, a brain disease that is very hard to diagnose. It causes dementia, loss of smell, depression, hallucinations, cognitive problems, sleep disorders, severe anxiety. Robin Williams was experiencing a lot of these symptoms. Everyone thought he killed himself because he was depressed or because he thought he had Parkinson’s. It was this disease that twisted his brain. At that point he wasn’t even himself. I wouldn’t even consider that a normal suicide.

  • @chris...9497

    @chris...9497

    2 жыл бұрын

    Robin Williams had developed an illness that would have taken him out of acting, both in serious drama and in comedic roles. He was already suffering symptoms that obstructed his use of voice and body. Robin took the same route that the character of Neil Perry took; both were facing being shut out of the work that they loved so much and drew life and purpose from. Both chose death rather than life without what they viewed as necessary to their being. Sometimes art imitates life all too closely.

  • @deathwitheponine

    @deathwitheponine

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@chris...9497 This but also he was having a lot of paranoia and losing his mind quite literally. I think people judge him far too harshly for ending his life. There is also no way for us to really know how difficult his life was at the end.

  • @jellyrollnorton
    @jellyrollnorton5 ай бұрын

    The movie came out in 1989, but the plot took place 30 years earlier, thus more than 60 years ago. And times sure were different then.

  • @theflyingfisherman7829
    @theflyingfisherman78292 жыл бұрын

    1:19 Also, notice how tradition was the first flag displayed by the boarding school and excellence (being the "best you" you could be) was dead last. Great symbolism, subtext, direction and script!

  • @FeaturingRob
    @FeaturingRob2 жыл бұрын

    This came out between my junior and senior years of high school, and I was doing a lot of reading for my AP English class in my senior year. I was a drama kid already and one of my idols was Robin Williams. Hands down, this is my favorite Robin Williams film. The funny thing is my entire AP class decided to call ourselves the Dead Poets Society...we even listed it in our activities in the yearbook (Dead Poets Society 4 is how we listed it). I identified with most of the boys...Neal and acting, Todd an his shyness and creativity, Meeks and Pitts and their love of music, Knox and his romantic streak, and Charlie Nuwanda Dalton's rebellious spirit...even Cameron's studiousness. This is in my top 10 all time favorite films. I never attended college...but for the first 2 or 3 years after high school, I studied literature all alone....reading classics, Shakespeare, and lots and lots of poetry.Thanks for doing this gem. Robin should have won the Oscar...but it still won Best Screenplay...well deserved, too!

  • @JeffersonMills
    @JeffersonMills2 жыл бұрын

    Great reaction to an amazing film! I remember seeing it in the theater and thinking Robin Williams would have made a damn fine teacher.

  • @seeingthruyou
    @seeingthruyou16 күн бұрын

    John Keating : "But only in their dreams can men be truly free. 'Twas always thus, and always thus will be." This movie is filled with great lines, this is one of them that I've always enjoyed. Neils story is a sad one, and yes comes out of left field. What you have to remember is he has dealt with that his whole life. I'm also guessing the father treats his wife the same way, and people like that don't allow anyone to do their own thing. As long as they can keep you under their thumb they will.

  • @botz77
    @botz772 жыл бұрын

    Oh, this one is special. I saw this when I was in high school and suffering from extreme depression. It still makes me cry every time I watch it. Ethan Hawk is particularly great and I think it was only his first or second film, Explorers being the other film he did really early on that I also completely love.

  • @oliverbrownlow5615

    @oliverbrownlow5615

    11 ай бұрын

    *Explorers* (1985) featured the film debuts of both Ethan Hawke and River Phoenix.

  • @MyraJean1951
    @MyraJean19512 жыл бұрын

    This film brings me so many different thoughts and emotions. I felt for Neil and respected Todd for standing up at the end, and becoming a leader for probably the 1st time in his life (but likely not the last time). The class having to regress to that terrible way to "grade" poetry, is very sad. Thank you for bringing this movie back into our experiences.

  • @daffodil852
    @daffodil8522 жыл бұрын

    Some people don’t know this- After Robin Williams suicide, there was an autopsy. They discovered he had Lewy Body disease, a brain disease that is very hard to diagnose. It causes dementia, loss of smell, depression, hallucinations, cognitive problems, sleep disorders, severe anxiety. Robin Williams was experiencing a lot of these symptoms. Everyone thought he killed himself because he was depressed or because he thought he had Parkinson’s. It was this disease that twisted his brain. At that point he wasn’t even himself. There should be another name for suicide when the cause is such extreme mental duress.

  • @kschneyer
    @kschneyer Жыл бұрын

    The thing about this movie that is so strong is that you can actually see inside the minds of all the characters. Neil's father was wrong, yes. But he came from a very different starting place: he'd clawed his way from (I assume) working class to financial success without any advantages, and wanted to give those advantages to his son. But because of that life and background, he had a very particular vision of what "success" would mean for Neil, and the notion that he might want to become some kind of an artist instead of a doctor (a sturdy profession, highly respected and highly lucrative) must have seemed like an impossible threat. Neil, realistically, might have imagined a future in which he would be free of his father and able to do what he wanted, but that was at least five years in his future (nine, if he went to medical school), and to a 17-year-old, that must have seemed impossible. (And indeed, how warped by experience will you become in five years? Will you still even want the same things, or will they have been beaten out of you?) Neil's father will imagine that Keating corrupted his son and made this happen, which is more tolerable than understanding what he himself did.

  • @kschneyer

    @kschneyer

    Жыл бұрын

    The date is important. This is set in 1959, and Neil is the tail end of the Silent Generation -- that group who were born during the Depression or the War, who grew up learning that things were tough all over and that you didn't get what you wanted. They put their dreams on hold and became good corporate citizens, leading those lives of "quiet desperation" until it became too much for them and they had their mid-life crises in the 1970s -- or alcoholism, or extra-marital affairs, or early heart attacks. Neil's suicide is the cry of that generation.

  • @kaleyrose47
    @kaleyrose47 Жыл бұрын

    Love your content. Neal’s fate is even more painful when you remember Robin took his own life. I miss him dearly. For anyone else reading this who is contemplating suicide, please know you are not alone, you are loved deeply, and the world is better with you in it. ❤️

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    Жыл бұрын

    Beautiful comment.

  • @E_l_l_i_e
    @E_l_l_i_e2 жыл бұрын

    Reminds me of the school I went to as a kid. Everything went by the book: no talking or running along the corridors and stairs, skirt should be one inch below the knees, white socks two inches above the ankles, hair ribbons should only be black or white. No fancy notebook covers, bags should contain only certain things. My 6th grade language teacher showed us this movie. I bet that's not what's written on her lesson plan that day.

  • @domino427family
    @domino427family2 жыл бұрын

    well, you brought... joy into my evening tonight? *grabs more tissues* knew watching this would make me cry, but it's great to see that a movie some impactful to me impacted others. I've enjoyed your reaction videos and hope you have a lovely week :)

  • @StarryRoses
    @StarryRoses Жыл бұрын

    Paddling. It's still common practice in some US schools. When I enrolled my kids in a certain district I was given corporal punishment permission forms. One was a kindergartener, the other was in middle school. It applies for high school students as well. I denied permission, as did my dad when I was enrolled there, but other kids were paddled as punishment and it went as shown in the movie.

  • @etherealtb6021
    @etherealtb60212 жыл бұрын

    Does anyone remember lots of people posting videos standing on their desks after Williams' death? It was such a beautiful tribute and positive way to express their grief.

  • @louhillen8254
    @louhillen825411 ай бұрын

    Captain…..my Captain……RIP Robin Williams ❤

  • @juliell2139
    @juliell2139 Жыл бұрын

    You can't say the name Ethan Hawke without me thinking of the movie "The Explorers". Great film from the 80s. Goonies meets War Games

  • @Trip_Fontaine
    @Trip_Fontaine Жыл бұрын

    Once one of my mother's students and his mother were watching this movie. Afterwards the mother said "Wouldn't it be something to have a teacher like that?" And the son replied that he DID have a teacher like that, and it was my mother. You don't get a better compliment than that as a teacher. We had her funeral yesterday and I shared that story.

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    Жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing such a wonderful memory. I’m sure there are many who felt the same. Sorry for your loss.

  • @Trip_Fontaine

    @Trip_Fontaine

    Жыл бұрын

    @@CasualNerdReactions Thank you.

  • @pamelapasechnick6899
    @pamelapasechnick68992 жыл бұрын

    Great Reaction! The "lessons" and " messages of this movie are timeless and transcend all generations. However, I think it is very important to understand the time period in which the movie is set, which I believe is the 1950's. If there was EVER a time when conformity was important, it was the then. Fathers have always had the tendency to believe they know what is best for their children in general, and their sons in particular. But when you add to that, the fathers of the 1950's had experienced the Great Depression and THEN World War II, there was an even stronger desire to make sure that their sons had better opportunities for success than they themselves had experienced. Also, during that time period relatively few women worked outside the home and were expected to keep the house in good order and leave the important decisions to the husband. It was a different time, and it's good that a lot of those societal norms have evolved and changed over the past 70 years. I really enjoyed watching your reaction video and appreciated your thoughts and insights. I look forward to seeing more of your reactions.

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    Thanks Pamela! I definitely didn’t realize it took place in the 50s and that’s a very important detail to consider. Appreciate the perspective. ☺️

  • @reservoirdude92
    @reservoirdude922 жыл бұрын

    Peter Weir is such a great filmmaker, someone who specializes in mood and atmosphere. His early work is fascinating, as well. Picnic at Hanging Rock and The Last Wave are strongly recommended.

  • @thegorn68
    @thegorn68 Жыл бұрын

    Goose Bump Alert: Notice how it shows Neil in the shot at 4:14 on the line "...stop breathing, turn cold and die." I've seen this film numerous times and just now caught that. So subtle. The director of this film, Peter Weir, was always one of my favorites. He's a master painter except he uses film instead of paint.

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    Жыл бұрын

    That is a REALLY great detail!

  • @KorAsek453
    @KorAsek453 Жыл бұрын

    I don't think it's about finding your purpose, there's lots of people who find purpose and are still miserable. It's about finding your passion and making that your purpose.

  • @THEvagabond29
    @THEvagabond292 жыл бұрын

    I remember watching this on TV pay per view when i was in elementary school. Our uncle pirated cable TV for us and this movie was so instrumental to me... and I had my daughter watch it when I had a rare opportunity to send her to private school. School can be so formal and "solid", but you still have to feel free

  • @rustincohle2135
    @rustincohle21352 жыл бұрын

    One, thank you for this! You're the second channel to upload a reaction to this classic in the past 2 days. I hope this gets the ball rolling on this film. Far too few have tackled this one. 18:06 Perhaps, the film is a little too subtle about its setting. The film was made in the late 1980s but it's set in the 1950s. Note the cars in the parking lot (@ 22:12, 21:52, 21:58), and also why Mr. Keating does impressions of '50s movie stars like Marlon Brando and John Wayne at 8:50 and not impressions of '80s stars like Schwarzenegger or Tom Cruise. That would explain the headmaster's use of corporal punishment on Nuwanda and why Neil's mother can't speak up to her husband because women in the '50s had no say... in basically anything. And Todd's development really is the central arc/heartbeat of the film. As he says @11:00 ("You say things and people listen and... I'm not like that."), to which Neil replied "Don't you think you could be?". And we see that Keating's influence did indeed make the most impact in Todd's character as he ends up leading the cause at the end of the film in which most everyone else soon follows: If you rewatch the ending, you'll notice that the first few students are looking directly at Todd for inspiration RIGHT BEFORE they make the decision in their head to stand on their desks (specifically Knox Overstreet [@3:03], Pitts [@2:57] and Meeks [@3:23]): kzread.info/dash/bejne/p5OCmMezd66eiKg.html

  • @Nova-nc2hl
    @Nova-nc2hl Жыл бұрын

    The realization of "is that a gun?" HIT SO BAD

  • @alyzu4755
    @alyzu47552 жыл бұрын

    I think Neil's mother's actions (or lack thereof) need to be taken in the context of the time and the place in society she occupied. It never would have occurred to her to disagree with her husband in front of their child. Or even out loud, ever. It's been drilled into her head to obey, first her father and then her husband. Not excusing her, just putting things into some perspective.

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yes! I didn’t realize this film took place in the 50s, that really makes a difference and contextualizas her actions.

  • @howrued1500
    @howrued15002 жыл бұрын

    SUCH a great film. Williams drew from his own private school experiences. On a lighter note- Robin gives it a nod in Mrs Doubtfire in the restaurant scene w his ‘Carpe dentim’ 😝 Oh, how the world does miss you, Mr Williams. Nice reaction! Thank You! Stay safe & love much💖

  • @madeleinereads
    @madeleinereads11 ай бұрын

    My high school had a club called Living Poets Society, where we gathered together to write poetry. Sometimes we would send people’s work (if they wanted) to the literary magazine on campus.

  • @willcool713
    @willcool7132 жыл бұрын

    Robin Williams is a delight here. Can't believe he was the only Oscar nod among the actors (plus, he was nominated as the Lead Actor, which seems like it should have gone to Robert Sean Leonard). He did at least as well here as in Good Will Hunting, where he did win. Didn't win for The Fisher King or Awakenings, either. Really underrated as a dramatic actor, he is, Robin Williams. (Plugging The Fisher King once more, just for good measure.) I loved all the techniques for seeing things in new ways. I had an art class, pencil drawing, where we did much the same thing, learning to see what's really there, not what we think we're supposed to see. Really a fundamental exercise in getting over yourself. I don't want to talk about the suicide scene much -- been there. Spot on performances. Absolutely, crushingly, real. The hysterical, "He's okay! He's okay! He's okay!" wrenches at me, as I've heard it before. Trauma sucks.

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    The fisher king has been in a Patreon poll or two and will eventually find its way here. :)

  • @KeithDCanada
    @KeithDCanada2 жыл бұрын

    The practice of paddling, or the strap, was rare by the time I was starting elementary school in the late 70's. I believe this movie is set in the 50's when it was more accepted. I do remember in grade 5 being threatened with the strap when I had snuck into the school during recess to play around in the gym, but it never went to that. It's an eye opener for my kids when we are watching an old movie and there are things done to people that are no longer acceptable by today's standards.

  • @tree6787
    @tree67872 жыл бұрын

    If he would have just waited that's what's so tragic about this movie is when were kids everything seems so unbearable. And if we were just to wait until we move out and then we can do whatever we want it just seems like that's so hopeless and it's too far away that we can't see it. It truly does feel hopeless at the time but all we have to do is hold on.

  • @tahimwaicij
    @tahimwaicij Жыл бұрын

    1:50 watched this movie like 10 times. never noticed pastor guy has different coloured eyes.

  • @babs3241
    @babs3241 Жыл бұрын

    By the 80s, paddling was long over. Like, ancient. The movie takes place in the 50s, which was the very last gasp of that.

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    Жыл бұрын

    Oddly enough I went to a private school in the early 90s when I was very young and there was paddling at that school.

  • @kirkrelf1402
    @kirkrelf14022 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for a great and heart-felt reaction. I grew up in a town where the local university was the #1 suicide leader in the entire U.S. (including a childhood friend of my sister). I loved this film and haven't seen it for years and years. You didn't "ramble on". You shared your insights and emotions and it was a gift.

  • @RealTalkRyan87
    @RealTalkRyan872 жыл бұрын

    Also I would be down if my teacher started whistling the 1812 Overture as he walking into the classroom.

  • @obenohnebohne
    @obenohnebohne2 жыл бұрын

    This one is another great, inspiring film. I miss films like this. I enjoy your reactions, Chris. Thanks for sharing them with us.

  • @random-zz8ut
    @random-zz8ut4 ай бұрын

    we had the exact same thoughts at the end there! loved your reaction so much. subbed!!

  • @meropetied
    @meropetied Жыл бұрын

    As a gay actor in my 30s and a high school English teacher in my 20s, you can say this movie inspired the hell out of me. I was the perfect age to see it when it came out too -- 12 in 1989.

  • @RealTalkRyan87
    @RealTalkRyan872 жыл бұрын

    Kurtwood Smith, everyone's favorite hardass.

  • @eddietucker7005
    @eddietucker70052 жыл бұрын

    Some days you look behind and realize the sun is setting. What do you see in those oh, so many anemic moments? That you have been on a public bus all these many years, sitting and waiting for your end of the line. You recognize the journey is repetitive, futile and inevitable. And then it comes to you in your own revelation… you don’t have to ride this bus any longer all the way to it’s empty conclusion. You can stand up and ring that bell. You can choose to get off at any unfamiliar street that you have never dared to walk before. With the first step onto the pavement, you have made your decision that this strange, unknown neighborhood is now your new end of the line. And you gratefully do not have to ride any longer. Simply breath.

  • @jellyrollnorton
    @jellyrollnorton5 ай бұрын

    😊 the talk you had with yourself that morning. I’m going to start giving myself that advice - that I don’t want the day ahead to be affected by the crappy mood I’m in now. Hopefully it will have some effect on it.

  • @bobbrown200
    @bobbrown200 Жыл бұрын

    One thing to remember when watching this movie. The relationship between Neil and his father is very challenging. The time of the movie was a transitional time. In the past fathers would pave the way for their sons. Dad was a butcher because his father was a butch his son would be a butch too. Neil's father was at the end of a changing time that almost completely has become non-existent. More than likely Neil's father did exactly as his father had directed without question, it just didn't make sense that his son wouldn't be and do as he directed. He couldn't/wouldn't see the changing times.

  • @brandondean8060
    @brandondean8060 Жыл бұрын

    Hope is everything!! Your reactions are fantastic.

  • @dovegrey1
    @dovegrey12 жыл бұрын

    I love this movie but it breaks my heart. Such wonderful performances from such young men and Robin Williams, of course. My heart is always in my throat as the "boys" salute their teacher by standing UP on their own. Fantastic.

  • @motorcityhypnotist6512
    @motorcityhypnotist65122 жыл бұрын

    Great reaction. This is one of my favorite, inspirational movies of all time. I appreciate the insight and reaction!!

  • @thatpatrickguy3446
    @thatpatrickguy34462 жыл бұрын

    This movie was so intense, especially since I had a couple of friends, though not close friends, who committed suicide in high school. My uncle taught at the school where the events that this movie were loosely based on but only for a few years and he left several years before the events happened. On the subjective level, Todd was the hero though Mr. Keating's lessons were absolutely the inspiration for his growth and journey in the movie. I'd have loved to be in a class like Mr. Keating's. I would have showed up for that class, and I was an AWFUL student in H.S. 😀

  • @thatpatrickguy3446

    @thatpatrickguy3446

    2 жыл бұрын

    And yeah, keep fighting for the little ways day by day to make things better. Kindness, sincere compliments, making sure people know that you appreciate them, caring. Those are the things that bring improvement. I'm not much of a human being, but I do all I can to focus on those things so I'm not the worst. 🙂

  • @TTM9691
    @TTM96912 жыл бұрын

    Loved this reaction. Haven't seen this movie since the 80s, I never click on reactions for it, almost didn't for this one either, so happy I did! I got chills watching Robin Williams, takes on such a poignant meaning now. I think I took this movie for granted, thanks to your patron who had you do this one, and shine a light back on it, at least for me! Small thing, though: this movie doesn't take place in the late 80s! They weren't paddling people in prep schools in the late 80s! This takes place in the 1950s! Maybe I misunderstood you? / 16:50 I don't think I've ever seen you cringe so much as this kid tries to kiss the girl. :D Thanks, Chris!

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    I definitely missed the fact it was in the 50s or simply forgot. I definitely cringed there, but I think I cringed more (maybe cringe is the wrong word) during the upcoming the talented mr Ripley.

  • @TTM9691

    @TTM9691

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@CasualNerdReactions That's a good one! Yes!!! Looking forward to that! Love Philip Seymour Hoffman in that. Everyone is great in that movie! Dang, really looking forward to that one!

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    May 9th :)

  • @ThreadBomb

    @ThreadBomb

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@CasualNerdReactions Look forward to the Ripley video too! Such a brilliant movie that feels bigger than its small cast and few locations.

  • @patcurrie9888
    @patcurrie9888 Жыл бұрын

    Neil using his Dad's gun to kill himself, hmmm. One of my top 5 movies of all time.

  • @gamleskalle1
    @gamleskalle12 жыл бұрын

    The actor playing the strict principal died, at 105 years. Morale : be an asshole and live long. Be a comedian and die tragically. When i know RW commited suicide it makes the film more difficult to watch. I am a teacher and we watched this at school.

  • @sexysadie2901

    @sexysadie2901

    2 жыл бұрын

    But the actor wasn't an asshole.

  • @gamleskalle1

    @gamleskalle1

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@sexysadie2901 meant character in the film

  • @TheDetailsMatter

    @TheDetailsMatter

    2 жыл бұрын

    Norman Lloyd had another role, an ongoing TV show character, who was gentle and caring, the opposite of Mr. Nolan in every way. The show was St. Elsewhere, and the character was Dr. Auschlander, hospital administrator.

  • @trulybtd5396
    @trulybtd53962 жыл бұрын

    Now, this is a classic. I think I have to dive into my VHS box to find this in the collection

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    Definitely worth revisiting!

  • @thahn3419
    @thahn3419 Жыл бұрын

    It's a movie that makes a certain point. Learning how to think before what to think. It's set in the 50's so it's a critique of the way things were done in the past.

  • @ThreadBomb
    @ThreadBomb2 жыл бұрын

    Thanks for another fun and thoughtful video! I appreciate the way you look for the ethical messages that can be drawn from the film, a fresh approach to reaction videos that I don't think I've seen before. I confess that I wonder if your gift comes from the experience of writing sermons or magazine columns. Don't really know your background there! Not that it matters. I just wanted to say that I appreciate it. All the best.

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    Haha I was a youth pastor for much of the last decade so no doubt it shades my impressions and the things I’m interested in talking about from the film. Thanks for watching!

  • @jkhoover
    @jkhoover2 жыл бұрын

    It's so heartbreaking to watch someone watch this movie for the first time. They have no idea what's about to hit them.

  • @lucymisti
    @lucymisti10 ай бұрын

    80s?!?!?!!😂 This was “set” in the 50’s, very common boarding school times.

  • @gippywhite
    @gippywhite Жыл бұрын

    It took 34 years for me to realize the symbolism of the “o captain, my captain” reference. It was a poem by Walt Whitman about Abraham Lincoln, the man who freed the slaves. Keating took on that mantle because he was trying to free the boys’ minds. 🤯 Great reaction! 💙💙💙

  • @claegason2521
    @claegason25212 жыл бұрын

    What a cast

  • @christopherwaldrop5293
    @christopherwaldrop52932 жыл бұрын

    Your response inspired me. You didn't ramble on too long! If anything I could have listened to more insights from you. It's been a long time since I last watched this even though it's a film I really love, but I used to think Neil's suicide was too abrupt. Your thoughts really helped me put in context, and there's a lot to this film that leaves it to us, the audience, to draw our own conclusions. And it's great to have this shared experience of understanding together.

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    Thanks so much! I did shorten my end thoughts a bit, but I’m glad you enjoyed them. The film does a great job of allowing the audience to form its own conclusions and I’m so glad seeing as it was such a strong part of the films lesson.

  • @ThreadBomb

    @ThreadBomb

    2 жыл бұрын

    Suicide can seem abrupt to outsiders, but my understanding that people who commit suicide have been thinking of it as a possible option for some time, so it's not abrupt to them, even if they didn't give an obvious outward sign.

  • @DylansPen
    @DylansPen2 жыл бұрын

    'If we listened to our intellect, we'd never have a love affair. We'd never have a friendship. We'd never go into business, because we'd be cynical. Well, that's nonsense. You've got to jump off cliffs all the time and build your wings on the way down.' Ray Bradbury This is a great film.

  • @Koszmarsen
    @Koszmarsen Жыл бұрын

    One of my English teachers showed this to class once and I found it forever inspirational, and heartbreaking of course. If you are looking for another one of these movies -- one that I also was shown in school, however this time in Chemistry -- Lorenzo's Oil. It's inspirational and heartbreaking and based on a true story.

  • @Ona1979
    @Ona19792 жыл бұрын

    I tried to end my life 2 times that my family knows of. I think that it would have been from out of nowhere for most people. From the outside, it looked like I had a perfect blissful marriage, doting parents and a close family. From the inside...I had a father who was a violent pedophile and a tyrannical sadist who had romantic feelings for me. He tried to sabotage romantic relationships all of my life. He taught me that the only thing that gave me value was that he loved me and that I was lucky that he did, because I was unlovable and a burden to everyone around me. He confided in me, graphic details of his sexual history and his complaints about my mother. My mother is a psychopath who has Munchausen Syndrome by Proxy. She used to tortured small animals to death as a child. They were fond memories for her and she shared those stories with me from the time when I was little. I love animals and I hate to hear about them being made to suffer. It reminded me of what my father was doing to me when no one was looking. She shared thing that were just as ugly as her abuse of animals. Anytime she heard of something particularly heinous that had been done to an animal or human in history, she was excited to tell me about it. She had the same enjoyment of her children's suffering a lot of the time. When my sister sexually assaulted me with pain and force, I told my mother what had happened as soon as I could escape, but she thought that it was funny. I was 6 years old and I knew that my sister could do anything that she wanted to me and no one would ever stop her. My mother liked my father a lot more than my sister and there was no point in telling her about what he was doing. I thought that I had finally found my hero when I met my husband. He was doting, he bought a lot of jewelry for me and always told me how beautiful I was and how lucky he was to be with me. He also told me that if the police tried to pull him over that he was going to make a run for it and shoot it out, even if I was in the vehicle and he kept a huge loaded gun with in his reach at almost all times. He told me that if someone hit on me that he would kill the guy. He often told me that he wanted us to die together and that really scared me. I told him that I didn't want to wear form fitting clothing. He told me that it was his right as my husband to see me in form fitting, feminine clothing. With him, my life and body belonged to him and not myself. Anything that went against what he thought should happen, he would calmly tell me that what I thought was unreasonable. It was impossible to change his mind and he had completed power over my life. I couldn't tell my father about my husband, because my father had treated me far worse and found his own behavior reasonable. After almost a decade with my husband, I tried to tell him about the bearings and rape from my father. He didn't believe me and he told my parents what I'd said about my father. When I tried to kill myself, no one's behavior changed. I didn't want to be dead. I just wanted the pain to end. I think that being completely helpless to end your suffering with in this lifetime is worse than death. I understand the helplessness that the character in this movie is feeling. I escaped from my family and my marriage with my life intact, but if I had to go back, I would end my life and feel good about my decision.

  • @ThreadBomb

    @ThreadBomb

    2 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry you received this cruel and unjust treatment from people who should have cared for you, and I'm glad you got away. I wish you the best for the future.

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    I can’t begin to imagine what it was like dealing with all of that throughout your life. Thank you for sharing, and I hope you continue to find healing from the abuse and are able to find a community that genuinely show you the love you never had in your younger years.

  • @etherealtb6021

    @etherealtb6021

    2 жыл бұрын

    What a strong and powerful will you have to have survived both horrific situations and not accept them. Thanks for sharing your story.

  • @Ona1979

    @Ona1979

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@ThreadBomb Thank you. I am glad that I was able to escape, too 💚

  • @Ona1979

    @Ona1979

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@CasualNerdReactions Thank you. It is hard to believe that people will be kind to me, but I am slowly learning that the situation that I was in for so long, isn't typical and I am working on giving people a chance to be kind to me. Also, by rejecting the people who I was taught to view as normal, I can see recognize people who are similar and avoid them. Really enjoy your channel. Thank you for your reply 💚

  • @shallowgal462
    @shallowgal4622 жыл бұрын

    I loved the House reference!

  • @CasualNerdReactions

    @CasualNerdReactions

    2 жыл бұрын

    It’s been so long since I watched that show!

  • @peterwilliamskelhorn6675

    @peterwilliamskelhorn6675

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@CasualNerdReactions House is one of my favourite TV shows and Robert Sean Leonard(who played James Wilson) and looks young in this movie

  • @sydhamelin1265
    @sydhamelin1265 Жыл бұрын

    It's amazing how little choices, that may seem insignificant, can really make a huge difference in a scene. At the end, the kids standing on their desks. If they had all the kids stand up, it would've been like, over the top, and not with the tone of the movie. He clearly didn't reach every student, but reached a lot of them. So the kids he didn't reach wouldn't stand up. And realistically, he wouldn't have reached every kid. I was in an art class where one kid said 'art is a scam'. That kid would not have stood.

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