I've literally been saying that exact description for 1/2 of my life - I have always said that I feel like life has a clear glass cup around me and I can't escape - I've also often said that I'm on the outside looking in to everyone - finding this page about a month ago - at 51 years old (unfortunately) has been the biggest lightbulb moment I've ever experienced. Anna, you've changed my life - God bless you

It's not only the wound, but the fact you don't know anything else, because haven't experienced anything else. And then can't experience anything else because you're in that sad place.

@edwardianspice1

6 ай бұрын

Yes

Hi Simone, I'm 49 years old and your story really resonates with me. My mum was controlling, angry and loved to give me the silent treatment. My dad was distant and eventually not present, and my older brother bullied me. I also feel that people don't listen to me, yet they get listened to. You wonder why you're different, why you can't be respected as others are.

@edwardianspice1

6 ай бұрын

Yep. Totally. Xxx

Hats off to Simone, a writer and musician. I'm a writer and visual artist, and grew up with similar family issues. I get really positive responses to what I write and publish, and for my visual arts as well, but at 70 years old I STILL struggle to promote my work and to decide its price. I know it's related to self esteem damage from childhood. I wish her all healing, growth and success, and mostly love. Lots of the real thing.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

6 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing your kindness toward the letter-writer. Nika@TeamFairy

i feel that way too, like there is a glass cube surrounding me, it makes me feel so distant from others, and even when I'm enjoying myself, i feel like its not real, like I'm not real

I have that glass wall feeling so, so often. I go to a therapy group and have brought it up there, and no one seems to know what I'm even talking about. So it's validating to hear Simone and others in the comments talk about it, too! I don't wish it on any of us, but here we are. Thanks, fairy Anna 💫

People talk over me too, often after they ask me a question and I’m answering them. I think there’s just a massive lack of manners in our culture in general, I don’t think this is unique to Simone. Rude people are doing this to lots of people. Manners need to be taught along with whatever academic lessons people are taking whether that be public schooling, homeschooling, etc.

@marseamarquis9111

6 ай бұрын

I agree 100%

@sandijohnson2216

6 ай бұрын

I believe CCF is correct. My daughter has CPTSD, mostly from massive trauma from bullying in school because of her debilitating ADD, partly because of my mistakes I made and made efforts to correct. I have noticed my daughter because she is withdrawn and speaks quietly and has wounded demeanor around others so everyone walks over her and do not give her a chance (at home she is more confident and speaks freely). It is also society as well- people are entitled and feel it’s ok to trample over others and not respect people who are not strong. It’s a harsh world we live in.

@monteblazilla7776

5 ай бұрын

My ma and my daughter talk over me… It can get annoying, most times my ma call she’s yelling in the phone about traffic or how someone at work got on her nerves…

@softsophisticate

5 ай бұрын

@@monteblazilla7776 yep, these people never ask how you are cos they are not interested. same as family who never visit, just rely on you visiting them.

I was diagnosed with PTSD at age 40 when I went for counseling after a divorce... but it was created during childhood as a result of having two parents who were Holocaust survivors. I'm not blaming them, of course! The diagnosis alone was enough to start a healing process. I soon realized I had lived my entire life inside an invisible "bubble" - I literally could not sense or connect with others in a deep or meaningful way. When I saw the thumbnail for this video I just had to watch! Thank you!

@johnfoster3089

6 ай бұрын

There is a book, children of the Holocaust. I am not of the Holocaust but l had a friend who was, she had read it. I read it also as most of our parents grew up with trauma. Ie the great depression. God loves us.😊

A classroom exercise really triggered feeling disconnected and as if I didn’t fit. She went from student to student and said she wanted to write something about who we were. When she got to me she paused and said, “I don’t know what to write. I don’t know who you are.” I remember it kind of jolting me. I felt so self-conscious and embarrassed. I never felt like I fit anywhere and when the teacher said this it confirmed my worst beliefs about myself. It was awful. Yet it shouldn’t have been. I hope this example applies to the description of the video. I froze and couldn’t even respond to the teacher. She didn’t get me when it’s what I so desperately wanted. I wanted to fit so badly - not be severely bullied and teased which made every day hell and traumatic.

I am so impressed by people who find that one thing they are good at and love to do and are able to make a living doing it, they find it despite all the pain. Im impressed and also feel sorry for myself 😅 cause I've got nothing. I get easily confused by things and cannot retain information...there is no skill that I have mastered, I've got nothing.

@giaw7867

6 ай бұрын

I feel the exact same way - exactly - I am good at lots of things but expert at none - Hang in there -you're not alone ox

@zizinnnn

6 ай бұрын

you've made it so far, you're pretty amazing

Hi Anna , I wonder if you could do a video on how CPTSD impacts our ability to have hopes and dreams or even contemplate the future at all… Thanks and blessings for all you do for so many of us

@devotedlotus8

6 ай бұрын

Yes, please!

@katiekittycat6140

6 ай бұрын

Yes, would love to see Anna do a video on this!

Oh, this was SO good. I was so validated when Simone said that someone ASKED HER about the experience with the good review and then stopped listening almost immediately as another person became the priority. I try not to talk because I knowmost people don't have an attention span big enough for me to finish a sentence, but if THEY ASK ME something and then simply ignore me in favor of the next distraction when I attempt to answer the question that THEY ASKED, I am so triggered that I immediately go into freeze/flight mode. Years of therapy, meditation, awareness, etc. have made me ever-so-slightly less sensitive but I almost feel like putting the glass wall around myself so as not to feel this triggering phenomenon.

My mom used to get mad at me for doing anything creative at home, some which could have helped me not have CPTSD as much. My actual job is creative and the moment I got a job and had 'made it' she acted the same way the letter writers mom did. Almost like bragging in public and using it as dismissal in private. As an adult, I think it was because we both looked alike and she wish she had what the younger generation did. She expressed sadness over it and tried to force me into it dance (which was her love she never pursued). Let's just say it didn’t go well. The rest that was said, I get. You can't crap-fit with people.

Oh same, I hate it when for once I speak in a group of a few people, and they stop listening because somebody interrups... While when someone is sharing a story that gets interrupted, i'm the one that keeps listening until the end. It's also unfair because while telling their story, they were looking at the others (the same ones that interrupted most probably), and finally turn towards me when they know i'm the only one left listening. People are exhaustingly inconsiderate 😔...

@lucialuciferion6720

6 ай бұрын

I'm at a point now in life where I will just stop talking when I notice people aren't interested/not listening. F them. People who care will listen , if they're not listening they don't care so why should I?

@fireflythinking1290

6 ай бұрын

@@lucialuciferion6720 I guess it's a good mindset if you're telling yourself "okay soooo they're not worth my effort"... For me it's the lack of basic politeness that I find infuriating 😅

You’re way more help then my therapist…she is clueless and doesn’t even believe in cpstd…I’m thinking of dropping her and just making this channel my therapy because you get it.

@dawnross2514

6 ай бұрын

Please don't waste your time & money on a therapist who doesn't get it, I've been there. It's SO important to find one who understands. Good luck ☺🙏

@justsomeguy-yd3yw

6 ай бұрын

These videos are good, maybe try to find a therapist with a brain in their skull?

@justsomeguy-yd3yw

6 ай бұрын

These videos are good, maybe try to find a therapist with a brain in their skull?

Please, can you talk more about “friendifying strangers and parentifying friends”? That’s a fascinating dynamic and a topic unto itself.

A few thoughts on this: I used to feel that glass wall around me when I first got to college. It was like I was behind this glass wall, watching everyone go through life healthy and happy and vibrant and free, but I'm stuck behind the wall and I can't break through, even though I'm desperate feel alive, too. I've since learned that this is a trauma symptom. I can relate to what it's like to be rejected by cousins. I'm an only child, but have faced "snubbing" by cousins. Some family relationships are just difficult, some kids are just difficult. It reminds me of the stories in the Bible about Isaac and Ishmael, Jacob and Esau, and Joseph and his brothers. If you study the Hebrew, it describes these relationship dynamics in ways we don't always see in the English. Some people even think that "laughing" or "teasing" could also mean sibling sexual abuse. The favored child, the one with special graces, got bullied. Sometimes, it's those sensitive, gifted kids that rub others the wrong way. Others in the family react negatively to you. In some ways, I can see these Bible stories as a type or paradigm for looking at relationship dynamics like that.

This analysis was right on point. I know that Anna calls herself a woman of God. Without any flattery I can say that this other world wisdom often snines through her videos. "Don't throw pearls before swine". The problem is that we often try to connect with people who have no interests in what we consider our highest values. I always felt that early trauma disables our navigational system in this world. This is why we oftem feel so lost in life.

I was about 12 years old when I heard Cat's In The Cradle by Harry Chapin. I'm nearly 62 years old now. First time I heard that song I cried because that was my life. I am always lonely, and I always feel alone, even when I'm with people, even when I'm with people I love.

I think when we’re wounded/carrying around a lot of pain - then when we share something to a group it can come with an intensity or emotional charge that is bewildering to people so then they can shut down, this can be heartbreaking - it can (unknowingly - by/from them!) - be so cruel, yet that is I think part of what can happen, I hear you Simone! - I send love to you 💛 and well done for what you are achieving creatively - that is so well done and I hope that you can also be proud of you!! 💕💜💚 (I also don’t like loud clapping!! - it feels alienating to me 🤪)

@daisyviluck7932

6 ай бұрын

I come up against this a lot, where I’m bubbling to share a moment or a story, I wait my turn, and when it comes, it’s such a relief that interruptions are physically painful and I have to put in a lot of effort to rein in my outward signs of disappointment 🫤

@5gx673

6 ай бұрын

Right on Sonya

Honestly, how good is Fairy?! Putting out so much solid and thoughtful content, full of wisdom and delivered with compassion, most of if free of charge. Happy New Year to you, Fairy Anna 🎉 We appreciate all your efforts and the way you change our lives - not by a quick magic wave of your wand, but by shaping our thinking over time. Your magic is the consistency with which you generously share your insights.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

6 ай бұрын

Wow, thank you!

@christinecamley

6 ай бұрын

It’s such a huge gift. I’m very grateful.

A wall. To me, it feels like a shoe box I'm stuck in.

I was abused as a young boy. Dad left at 8 years old. He was a sex maniac. So I became a rock star. A real one. A major record contract. A great place to hide. Now at almost 69 I am alone. 2 friends. AA for 24 years. I don't know how to make real friends. All my GFs I picked to fix them. I am not emotionally available anyway. I just feel gone. I watch tons of Narrccistic abuse vids. Dr Ramani etc. I just ended a 14 year abusive relationship. She cheated and blamed me 6 years ago. Why did I go back so many times? I am losing this battle. I am losing hope. I even called the help line. Healing doesn't seem realistic. 😢

@giaw7867

6 ай бұрын

sending love - I too am badly broken. We cannot absorb the responsibility for they way other people treat us - we go back bc we are getting some kind of payoff. You are not gone bc you being here shows that some part of you wants to heal. When my daughter was 12 years old she tried to overdose bc of the severe abuse from her father (who was also a severe sex addict in secret that we found out about when she was 11), which led her to choose peers who were abusive and bullies - after a lot of therapy and after she was stable I helped her get involved in a local Christian church - they had a bunch of ministries where she began volunteering once in a while to help those even worse off than her in various ways. This was extremely healing for her - she is still involved with a lot of their groups where they support homeless, a jail ministry, etc. She is almost 18 now and doing so much better. God loves you, he wants you to heal. It is possible. I am going to stop what I'm doing right now and pray for you. In Jesus name - amen

@dawnross2514

6 ай бұрын

I'm sending love too 🙏 I don't know exactly what you're going through but I've been in the pit of despair myself, many times. Perhaps look at doing some inner child rescue work & a game changer for me is to practice gratitude. Even hearing someone say 'practice gratitude,' used to annoy me but it actually worked because if you are feeling grateful, it elevates your spirits. It has to be something you really are grateful for or it doesn't work. I've been sleep deprived etc so I usually start with my bed - I'm so grateful for my warm cosy bed....imagine life without a bed! Also, maybe be careful of what kind of energy you allow into your life/field & become aware of how it affects you, like tv or a negative 'friend'. It sounds like music was your escape once, perhaps you have a gift there you can explore. Or maybe write your memoirs as a means of exorcising ghosts....I wish you all the best ☺🙏

@MamaMuses-vk6me

6 ай бұрын

Out of interest… do you make music or write music. Maybe getting your creative juices flowing expressing your emotions will release the pressure pot and maybe even spark something exciting. I write this knowing I need to take my own advice. I discovered I could digitally draw pieces to express complex feelings and times. It was very revealing. I haven’t done it now for nearly a year and I feel dead inside. I know it will help me but there’s resistance. I am so sorry for what has happened to you and I really do hope you can find some joy soon. All the best

Simone…I was always the weird one too. Somehow, I grew to not care if folks think I’m weird or not. I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone who’s actually “normal” anyway. Maybe the other people are a little bit jealous of you

@Unschmuck

6 ай бұрын

💯💕

@sandijohnson2216

6 ай бұрын

My daughter has the same problem of acting weird around others. But i believe she is weird because like the song from Counting Crows, Round Here, “She has trouble acting normal when she’s nervous.” I wish my daughter had your strength and courage. I tried everything to help her, but it’s easier to believe the negative than it is the positive. You may be still be in the battle, but clearly you’ve won the war. ❤

Friendify Strangers and parentify friends!!!!! OMG never realized that before❤

@5gx673

6 ай бұрын

Yes very helpful

Simone you are being heard. NAMASTE 🙏

I am also a female musician with similar issues, and it's so refreshing to see other people here who are so much like me in such a deep way. Not only do we hear you, we are thankful to you because through sharing your story, you're sharing ours as well. Hang in there and please take care

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

6 ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing this :) -Calista@TeamFairy

It amazing to hear that this is actually an experience for others. I often felt i was looking through a glass barrier watching "normal " people enjoy life. Recently, in prayer i went back to memories of when this first started about 10 years old...I asked God to break this wall and to release the connections He originally designed me to have with others.

I cannot WAIT to read your book, Fairy Godmother🧚‍♀️ ❤✨️ You are an incredible human being, a beacon of light, hope, understanding & strength. Thank you for the enormous healing you always bring, in your wisdom & experience. Sending so much love to you too, Simone - I completely hear you and I'm sending you a huge hug. Thank you for sharing your story so others can overcone their pain also. Massive congratulations on your accolades 🎉 Here's to many more! Bravo 👏☘️✨️

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

6 ай бұрын

Thank you for your kind words! -Calista@TeamFairy

Simone you’ve risen against all odds! All I gotta say is you go Girl!!!!! And l keep going! God bless you sis❤

I reasonate with this so much. That glass wall feeling is very real, ditto the frustration with feeling like you arent being respected in groups. I am so thankful for this channel and all the people who bravely share their stories.

The glass wall analogy is a new, but very familiar concept to me. I never really knew how to describe the feeling until now (thank you).

Anna - Thank you so much! This video really hits home and perfectly describes what happened to me in my own childhood. I send people to your KZread channel at least once a week. I will be first in line to buy your book when it comes out, I don't even care what it says. I just want to support what you're doing. It brings a wee tear to my eye to think about all the people who need your help and who are getting it from your content. Thank you thank you thank you.❤❤❤

I hear her because I felt like I wrote this I had almost the exact same scenario it feels horrible to ask for respect when you just don't get it the way everyone does it repeats that cycle of not being enough again but now i can have a better life thank you

I understand the glass wall, feeling like there's a barrier between you and other people. I struggle with that too. I've learned to break through one person at a time. I have a little tribe and when I count up the people I can really count on I feel very blessed.

Simone, I feel your pain. I was bullied by siblings too as a child. 😢 I am so sorry. 😢 Don’t wait until you are my age 50 to detach. ❤❤❤

@sandijohnson2216

6 ай бұрын

Same here. Still trying to learn what detachment entails. Can you elaborate what you do? Would really help. ❤❤

@rturney6376

6 ай бұрын

@@sandijohnson2216 think 💭 of yourself as an island 🏝️ with a moat with a draw bridge. You can lower the draw bridge or raise it whenever you want. You get to decide who has access to you and for how long. Alan on really helps even if there is no drinker in your life.

@sandijohnson2216

6 ай бұрын

@@rturney6376 thank you!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

It's amazing that you're using the term "glass wall" ...that's exactly the term I used to define myself until I came to understand the CPTSD diagnosis I was given. In my healing process the glass wall is no longer there, it seems to have "dissolved." I'm still healing and I'm much more encouraged than previously. 😊

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

5 ай бұрын

That's wonderful, thank you for sharing :) -Calista@TeamFairy

It only do I hear you, Simone, but I feel and relate to you. I don’t share anything with anyone anymore. The pain is crushing, and I would rather keep my life secret and see that as my super power.

Fairy, you always make me feel like I’m not alone in the world. Thank you for that.

Looking for love in all the wrong places just validates our story..🤷‍♀️

Yes, indeed. A glass wall is a very apt description. I can very much understand and relate to this, especially the shyness and the longing to be heard. This is something everyone craves and ought to experience. A big part of my struggle is that very thing, I write, too, but admit I have allowed my past to squelch full success in that arena. You have done some wonderful things, Simone. Don't let the past hold you back or steal your joy. Wishing you the very best.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

6 ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing this :) -Calista@TeamFairy

Good for you, Simone! Keep shining your light sister… I too have felt invisible and shy most of my life. I’m now 59 and it’s only within the last few years that I am letting my own unique authentic self free, regardless of what anybody thinks. I’ve had to reparent myself, I was one of the lucky ones that had two loving parents, but after adverse childhood events, I felt broken and flawed most of my life, it’s taken me until now to realize we all have to validate ourselves and not seek external sources. Hard to do, and lonely, I still isolate myself, and I’m a loner, because I’m afraid to connect to people because of the potential reality for hurt. Keep doing your thing you’ll find your tribe.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

6 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing your encouragement for the letter-writer! Nika@TeamFairy

Wow I totally relate to this woman!!!

how do you make friends in adulthood after covid when we've forgotten how to talk to people?😂

You’ve finally covered my childhood, one that I am still recovering from although I am a grandmother. The glass wall is always there for me. A bullying, jealous older sister who even tried to kill me when she was 13 - our family knows about this, but there’s no outrage. And there should be. Thinking that my giftedness brought on the bullying has haunted me. But you helped me realize the true reason - that my dad was a bully, and my mom is a mean person, and my sister was allowed to bully me so badly that I still have nightmares…it is outrageous. And I don’t care that people adore them and they are prominent citizens and I had a privileged upbringing. The bullying was an outrage, and even if no one cares but me, they should care. But I can stop thinking of what should be and move forward into a new story.

I've never identified so strongly with someone writing in. Simone, you have put into words what I could not for myself. Thank you for sharing! I needed this advice, and I'm just one more person you're impacting simply by being you. May your new year bring you the ability to see the goodness in you the way others so easily can. 🙏🏼

Thank you for this video!! I've always described my life as feeling like there is a glass wall between me and the rest of the world. A feeling like everyone boarded the ship and I got left behind. For anyone in this situation, there is hope. I worked really hard on my social anxiety, my self-confidence, learning to show interest in others, and letting go of people who didn't care about me. I have wonderful people in my life who are reciprocal and a social circle that is at the same place in life as me. I agree with Anna completely, develop your social skills and show interest in other people and really truly listen to them when they speak. The people who want to connect will reciprocate.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

5 ай бұрын

Thank you for watching and for your comment. Keep up the great work you do to! Nika@TeamFairy

I hear you Simone and I have had similar experience. Your parents were not present for you which was very wounding. You are not alone on this. Keep on growing and loving yourself. You are amazing!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

6 ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing these kind words :) -Calista@TeamFairy

We hear you Simone! I really identified with your letter.

Thank you, for what you do🙏🏼. KZread needs more people like you.

Simone, I hear you. Congratulations on Your Achievements!! So Proud of You, Simone🤗 I Have a Lot More to Learn, I will do what I can to inspire others from where I am Right Now.

@8:30 "Don't expect dancers to value your book." Your quotes belong in a book. **I'm a dancer, choreographer, researcher and prolific writer for over 50 years - so that quote really hit me.

I drew this imagery repeatedly in therapy. It’s the Little Matchstick Girl looking in from the outside.

THANK YOU, Crappy Childhood Fairy! 🙌 This is how I’ve felt most of my life. Little 8-year-old me would say I felt invisible. I used the phrase “glass box” to try and explain this to a very patient person when I was in college, but I still couldn’t help her fully understand. Also congratulations Simone! I’m currently working on getting my first book into the world and I can only imagine how much work and emotions you have put into your work.

Hi Simone, thank you for sharing your story. You are heard! Wishing you all the best.

I really like your demeanor; you're easy to listen to. And what you say helps me to make peace rather than to feel bitter. So I'm checking to make sure I'm subscribed. But I think I've already have and I'm glad I did.

I hear your accomplishments Simone ❤ Thank you for helping others.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing these kind words :) -Calista@TeamFairy

The download is easy to red, straight forward and helpful. Thank you for making available for free. ❤

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

6 ай бұрын

I'm so glad it was helpful! -Calista@TeamFairy

Anna you always know how to name my feelings and emotions that I knew nothing about

All the best to you, Simone: it sounds like you have survived a lot and accomplished a lot, which is worthy of respect.

I hear you! ❤ i have had the same kind of experiences of not being heard. It hurts

Bug in a jar 🫙 feeling. I totally understand these feelings. I too grew up in dysfunction and it distorted my perception of the world, and myself. It took years of work and then another layer would be exposed. You have done so so much creatively! WOW! Simone 🎉 phenomenal! That’s just Amazing that you could do all this despite the hostility of your childhood. So let go. Free yourself! Know that you are your best friend and that’s a pretty wonderful person. Best of love and life to you Simone.

Congrats my dear that is amazing. I know the feeling as I have a glass wall too especially in group conversations (hearing loss doesn't help either). Blessings, love and hugs.

@user-sn2kn9vf5n

6 ай бұрын

Hi, hearing loss - that's me too: it cuts you off. I feel so alone.

Congratulations on all your achievements Simone

I wished I had known all of this in my younger years. I still feel trapped in a glass cage. I see so many opportunities go by as am not able to act on it. I knew there was something wrong, but did not know why. I always felt the problem was me, because that is the way I was conditioned but it was not. Only now with internet as advanced as it is am I beginning to understand, but still fighting the effects.

Thank you so much , I am at the beginning again. No regulation yet that I can tell but trying to get the funds for the course. I actually would like to go in the bush in a cabin for 2 weeks at least, on a retreat with CPTSD people. A New Years alone, yes my choice but why do I feel left out of everything? All you beautiful people, I hope your New Year is filled with joy and self discovery, light and love. Anna you are a special human. Sorry for my self pity "help" comment, I wanted it all fixed in that moment and that came out.

hope you are able to value your achievements Simone. I have also achieved in art later in life, and though I try to hold validation, I'm so vigilante (my parents and brother hated my 'independence') that I destroy it quickly. I go back to the horrible place I was in as a child. Ironically that can help me reparent a very terrified little boy. It's very tough, but I didn't give myself my impossible childhood, but I am giving myself a better future. My greatest success has been to understand a young me, treat him with an an familiar tenderness and care to help change my world. It's impossible for most to understand, but this community helps as you realise you are not alone.

@adcap631

6 ай бұрын

whoops, unfamiliar!

For me it is just so hard to joke around and not be super intense around new people.

Thank you , I want to say more but I know you understand . You are amazing

It is such a relief to hear the writer of this letter talk about all of the above. I came from a similar family (minus the bullying sister) and am very creative but have always hesitated to try. I have a desire to be an artist and a writer and am around her same age. It is encouraging to hear that she actually became a writer. 🎉

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 ай бұрын

Sending you encouragement! -Frida@TeamFairy

@alisoncanty1894

2 ай бұрын

@CrappyChildhoodFairy Thank you! ❤️

Hi Fairy, you choose such unique & special names for the letterwriters. 🕊

I hear you Simone.

I was literally described like this by a friend once, but didn't think too much of it at the time. Now i know.

Exact description for me. Felt like this from childhood

Hey. Simone. Know what your dealing with and would leave any advice giving to the pro except for one point. The inner being coming from within you that she refers to is the Holy spirit. I had a very bad childhood experience and now at nearly 57, I can tell you the longest, thickest thread in my life has been the first bible passage that I ever learned. "God is a father to the fatherless" He is and He delivers. There are many distractions in life that are to pull you away from Him but you have to learn to recognize them and seek Him. The best way to do that is to read the word and hear it preached. And also to pray. You are not alone

We hear you, Simone:)

oh boy. stay weird ❤ I felt different my whole life. pets are life saving

I still find myself cautious around people. I find myself taking neutral ground in a lot of conversations because i don't align with them. I don't watch a lot of TV so when conversations are about Yellowstone and 90 Day Fiancee i have nothing to contribute. I have no kids. I do have 5 wonderful step grandboys that i love to talk about. How do you find a deeper way to connect when the superficial feels icky. There probably is a glass wall. I write books too. I think people are jealous of those who work in their spare time to get things others don't. Like i said if you sat on your butt stuffing your face in front of the TV you belong You hustle on improving yourself you get that look of "Oh you think you're better than us?" I was also a certified personal trainer. I was fit and hardly anyone would ask for advice but yet my co workers would go on these team "biggest loser" contests l, while working out ineffectively with dangerous diets.

@softsophisticate

5 ай бұрын

That is amazing that you are writing books. I have about 3 books I am currently working on, not finished yet though. My husband is also writing a book but slow going for him too. I looked up the % of people who actually finish writing a book - only 3%, so you can feel really proud of yourself. Of that 3%, not many actually get published. I'm going down the self publishing route. What kind of books do you write? Do you have a publisher or self publish. I have never fitted in to that superficial in-crowd either. And yes I have also recieved that - you think you are better than everyone else comment. No, I was just good at my job. People hey? Just get on your nerves.

Thank you. Very interesting. Funny - or sad - how I immediately thought about the mother as someone showing up for the successful daughter but not being there properly before that. As if she hoped to gain something from the daughter's success. I hope that Annas interpretation is closer to the truth.

A very instructive video. Thanks.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

18 күн бұрын

I'm so glad the video was helpful! -Calista@TeamFairy

Will define read your book Mam..for sure..youve been such a God send 🙏🏾 ❤

the glass wall feeling is like being in a bubble that you can't break through or penetrate. I think it's a form of disassociation

Oh, I can so relate ❤

What is one to do when you are experiencing current trauma that is Triggering your past traumas? I can’t even say “I’m scarred.”, because The wounds have no time to heal….. How can something heal when history keeps repeating itself… I feel nothing

@janec1489

4 ай бұрын

I can relate to this, if that helps

I feel so far away from everyone all of the time. It hurts

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

6 ай бұрын

Isolation is really hard, and it’s often a CPTSD symptom. If you’re interested, Anna has a course to help called Connection Bootcamp. bit.ly/CCF_Connection Nika@TeamFairy

When we walk in our gifts, walk in the fullness of that to which we're called, we are happy with ourselves. And yes, having to constantly translate for the parent is a form of parentification. But I also know it can't be helped in alot of families. I have a few friends from immigrant families, I don't see too much resentment in them about it, but the family dynamics are otherwise healthy. As far as I know.

YES

The mother maybe showing up for different reasons then to give support, as in trying to gain notoriety from being your mother or to pull strings in public knowing all your soft spots, embarrassing moments in your past. If she is truly supportive that's great but somehow I can't see unless she did some serious work on herself where her coming around is another accolade to herself, because if you weren't in a positive public image where would she be? Many times strangers are more caring than your family.

How do you differentiate between friends who fit you best and learning through getting to know a wider variety of types of people and seeing them all for the different things they have to offer (in realistic balance with their negative traits) after you've been socialized to only associate with a select type of person and see everyone in black and white terms? It feels like a weird push-pull to navigate between finding those you are similar and aligned with verses learning setting boundaries and better communication.

When the trauma is so severe a person can barely stand the next 10 seconds in their skin let alone surviving in some future scenario. It is brutal and guttural and its the illusions and propoganda of perfection that make me pay attention and understand this is pervasive and common.

Cannot wait for ur new book!!!👍👍

I gotta say, with a mother wound as a daughter and a mother and a sister wound, I am curious if she is genuinely incapable of garnering any self worth. That's where I'm at. I want to just put it in the past, but i just don't know how. I've been trying.

@softsophisticate

5 ай бұрын

I no longer care what anyone thinks of me. God loves me and if I am good enough for God, then I am good enough for everyone else, just as they are good enough too.

One thing I find off key here... All of these assessments made about this person's letter, the assessments made about the distant Mother, the bully sister, etc etc., those people were not part of the conversation. Do they even know about this letter where they are referenced? I just find it hard to make sound conclusions without considering all sides of the story, and we only have one individual's perspective given in the letter.

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This sounds like me

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

6 ай бұрын

You're in the right place :) -Calista@TeamFairy

I can see your sister, Simone, may have been jealous in a sense of your talent. But I agree with Anna, it is not your fault and mom amd dad should have disciplined her.

I feel the glass wall effect, and people have been cruel to me from the start.