Childhood Trauma Corrupts Your Thinking and Pushes You Into Danger

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No matter how much you pull yourself together after a childhood full of abuse and neglect, the injury of trauma will TRY to suck you back into horrible dynamics of your childhood without you even realizing it. Your trauma-driven thinking will like to you that a clearly bad situation will be different "next time." In this video, I respond to a letter from a woman who is thinking about reconciling with an abusive husband, for all the wrong reasons.
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  • @Anonymas-di6zc
    @Anonymas-di6zc2 ай бұрын

    You used magic on me, Fairy magic 🧚🍀 It's not possible to change that much in half a year... And a over a month of the daily practice, Wow wow wow 😍 I feel it! Big big hug 🧚

  • @justb4116

    @justb4116

    Ай бұрын

    You must have applied a lot of what you've seen/heard for it to do the magic 🌻 Kudos for spreading the positive impact 💛

  • @Anonymas-di6zc

    @Anonymas-di6zc

    Ай бұрын

    @@justb4116 thank you, so sweet 🤩 and true, That's a complitement I like. Big hug Ib2

  • @SuperBjanka
    @SuperBjanka2 ай бұрын

    Please don't show your kids that abuse is acceptable behavior.

  • @user-xh6tr9fi2q

    @user-xh6tr9fi2q

    2 ай бұрын

    Even though you try not to you can't control the other person when she divorce you for sticking up for the children and myself and I'm not able to interact with them anymore, so much for standing up for the family.

  • @jmsander91
    @jmsander912 ай бұрын

    "Stay together for the kids" is probably why half of us are here listening to these videos. We had no guidance or ever shown what a healthy relationship or love should look like because we usually watched two fragile humans that had no idea what they were doing (super toxic relationships) be an example for children that only needed love and acceptance but had to tip toe around their parents mixed signals. Anyone reading this, my angels, you must learn to love yourself. I've been on this healing shit for 4 years and it's the hardest thing to do and most days I question if it's even possible but delve deep into yourself and be easy on yourself. Sending love to you all 💛

  • @CrappyChildhoodFairy

    @CrappyChildhoodFairy

    Ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your insight with us! Nika@TeamFairy

  • @emathecat
    @emathecat2 ай бұрын

    Very horrible...I find it interesting (in a disturbing way) that he said the exact same insult that her parents did...calling her "ugly" when her parents called her "too ugly to be seen in public" as a child. Often we find ourselves on the abusive end of the exact same treatment we had as a child, and in this case she received the exact same insult she did as a child.

  • @howardcohen6817

    @howardcohen6817

    2 ай бұрын

    Gina showed us absolutely nothing to prove to us that she WAS at all ugly. All of her story hurts me, badly, and I'm really sorry for Gina's painful childhood. But now is no time for her to return to the mishandling and gas-lighting of her youth. I hope she and her "children" enjoy one another.

  • @emathecat

    @emathecat

    2 ай бұрын

    @@howardcohen6817 I was going to say also that Gina probably isn't even "ugly"...but it doesn't matter because that is the core concept that has warped her inner self already...and predatory people have a sense of what our inner pain is and will weaponize this

  • @howardcohen6817

    @howardcohen6817

    2 ай бұрын

    @@emathecat That's the nature of gas-lighting and the effects this has on us.

  • @stephaniemaloney4324
    @stephaniemaloney43242 ай бұрын

    I recently left a 24 year marriage because I couldn't take it any more. Having a ton of responsibilities but no authority, no autonomy. My kids were 17 and 21 when I left. They were shocked and sad at 1st. It took about a year for them to make peace with it. Seeing me happy, relaxed, and confident helped them more than I dared hope for.

  • @lonniecoplen

    @lonniecoplen

    2 ай бұрын

    Good for you - I'm so happy for you.

  • @CrappyChildhoodFairy

    @CrappyChildhoodFairy

    Ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing this :) -Calista@TeamFairy

  • @LadyAurora10

    @LadyAurora10

    Ай бұрын

    ❤👏🏻✨

  • @suzannemeade6335
    @suzannemeade63352 ай бұрын

    He already showed you his real self. He deserves NOTHING from you.

  • @ethanmiller5487
    @ethanmiller54872 ай бұрын

    There is a huge difference between a genetic material donor and a parent. One is about 10 min of fun, and the other is a lifetime of fulfillment.

  • @julietteferrars3097

    @julietteferrars3097

    2 ай бұрын

    ❤️

  • @Mama.bear.
    @Mama.bear.2 ай бұрын

    So many of us want to do what’s best for our children, no matter the cost to us. And we’re told over and over that it’s better to stay together for the children. And we’re met with intense shaming and guilt for considering leaving. But every now adult child I’ve heard from whose parents stayed together, wished they hadn’t. I think that’s pretty powerful.

  • @christinelamb1167

    @christinelamb1167

    2 ай бұрын

    I think it depends on the situation. If there's active abuse and continuous arguing/violence going on between the parents, it is certainly better for the children for parents to split up (imo). But if it's just a matter of "falling out of love", or other marital difficulties without abuse, I think the parents should stay together, at least until the children graduate from high school, and/or have moved out on their own.

  • @sxwrtr918
    @sxwrtr9182 ай бұрын

    Your 'kids' are adults. Move on. Make a better life for yourself that you deserve, and that can be a positive example for them.

  • @punyashloka4946

    @punyashloka4946

    2 ай бұрын

    I am pretty sure her kids are also damaged from their Marriage.

  • @pearlygates_city
    @pearlygates_city2 ай бұрын

    Very important that we are truly honest with ourselves. We can find all the excuses we want to be with someone toxic, in the end, our only lie to ourselves.

  • @Crownd1_
    @Crownd1_2 ай бұрын

    This is crazy. This reads like a creepy movie script. It's very sad. 🙏🙏🙏✌️😎

  • @niinatakkula4851
    @niinatakkula4851Ай бұрын

    My father treated my mother in a similar way, different story but something very similar, and my opinion as a child is that no, you don't have to open any more connection just because of the children (or what that means at the deeper lever, maybe it's not about the children at all and about something else). I don't know your children and can't talk for them, but maybe you could discuss with them, what do they really feel about this? What do they think it's important and matters?

  • @jsmith7240
    @jsmith72402 ай бұрын

    I can empathise with the letter writer. I think she put good boundaries in like Anna said. I get that is the trauma speaking when she confused the boundary as the problem and not the abuse. I can still fall into this trap myself and I don't fully understand it, apart from knowing its the trauma. I think being in denial about trauma in adulthood needs more discussion bcs although cognitivly its obvious, emotionally is creeps in there like a trojan horse! For me I'm not sure kids even at twenty something understand abuse between parents bcs they want to love both of them even with abuse and so you don't want to tell them everything so it all gets messy and confusing. Keeping it simple now, having factual statements such as a healthy relationship doesn't include harmful behaviour and I need to set a healthy boundary is somewhat better than an emotional explanation of the individual abuses bcs in my experience the kids get sick and damaged, like Anna says, seeing and hearing the abuse. I agree with anna 100%. Let your kids heal by watching you look after yourself and heal. It's normal to have that desire to give your kids a happy family, but that can only start when your ex realises his behaviour threw a bomb into your lives and he heals his abusive ways, you can't do his work for him or pretend it doesn't exist I guess 😢 With your boundaries, Your vibes/nervous system will heal and you won't need the explanations. Keep yourself away from your ex, he's not changed. Good luck 🎉😊

  • @mindonthespirit1543
    @mindonthespirit15432 ай бұрын

    It can only be a positive and fresh beginning if he chooses to heal and stops the cycle. I am so sorry for your childhood and his ... but you deserve better than this and so do your children. You are not ugly. So, *for your children* stay away from him. Hugs and love sent your way.

  • @howardcohen6817

    @howardcohen6817

    2 ай бұрын

    Love.

  • @howardcohen6817
    @howardcohen68172 ай бұрын

    Thank you, Anna, for showing Gina the heartfelt sympathy I know that you honestly feel. I can well imagine that many here gratefully played the outburst of yours several times over - expressing our feelings, too.

  • @cheryldailing1294
    @cheryldailing1294Ай бұрын

    My bf and his ex stayed together " for their daughter." Worst decision

  • @Woodman-Spare-that-tree
    @Woodman-Spare-that-treeАй бұрын

    😂 I was blamed for the death of the dog too. I was literally only weeks old at the time.

  • @Michelle-06
    @Michelle-062 ай бұрын

    Thank for your videos The Body Keeps the score is a great book. After watching your videos help me a lot with past trauma.

  • @Woodman-Spare-that-tree
    @Woodman-Spare-that-treeАй бұрын

    Tell this writer , with regard to all her “it’s better for the children” rubbish, that there is an old saying, that goes like this:- It is better to come from a broken home than to live in one.

  • @CrappyChildhoodFairy

    @CrappyChildhoodFairy

    Ай бұрын

    Good one!

  • @maryrichardson6029
    @maryrichardson60292 ай бұрын

    This is very triggering for Me. NM would tell Me how ugly i was at birth, and why did i do that to her. As a little girl she would tell Me how ugly i was. I'm 73yo and still wonder what i look like

  • @justb4116

    @justb4116

    Ай бұрын

    Please let me know if I'll overstep by misreading your comment as invitation Is that your picture on profile? I really like your hair, very neat, very tidy, gorgeous colour 💛 I see your smile and eyes, they seem to be inviting and guarded at the same time, there's life experience in them🌻 I hope one day to look as graceful as you do 💛

  • @CrappyChildhoodFairy

    @CrappyChildhoodFairy

    Ай бұрын

    If that's you in your profile picture, you are beautiful. You have a delicate, noble face. Nika@TeamFairy

  • @storycharms
    @storycharmsАй бұрын

    I feel like the letter writer, God bless her and give her strength, could hear a collective scream of NOOO!! coming from KZread as CCF read the part where she's wondering about approaching her ex.

  • @user-js5dx5yy1p
    @user-js5dx5yy1pАй бұрын

    My awful mother was married twice, and in her mind, she was always the victim. And while I did not see her relationship with my bio father, he divorced her when I was one, I did see her marriage to my stepfather. She was loud, violently tempered and was constantly screaming at him for something, although she reserved the physical violence for me. The one thing that I have come to terms with, is that neither my stepfather and I were allowed to have personalities, hobbies or a sense of self as she would ruin them. Other children had hobbies and skills, I did not and was stunted socially for that. I am now thirty eight, and have just been diagnosed with ptsd and adhd. I cut her off over a decade ago, and I still have intense flashbacks to her abuse.

  • @reettaelina
    @reettaelinaАй бұрын

    I have the same but I don't trust anybody anymore...I wish I had even one trusted relationship but I don't

  • @TheLove1Makes
    @TheLove1MakesАй бұрын

    Anna videos help me save time finding myself with her wonderful videos. Thanks

  • @TheLove1Makes
    @TheLove1MakesАй бұрын

    Enjoying and I probably be going thru Anna's videos for years. There good for me.

  • @Anonymas-di6zc
    @Anonymas-di6zc2 ай бұрын

    Time for a practice, now ❤ Good night 🧚 love ya🙏😊🧚💕😁

  • @Anonymas-di6zc
    @Anonymas-di6zc2 ай бұрын

    Can't thank you enough for the daily practice 🧚🍀, get back too the bootcamp about desregulation and it feels good to work with your guidnes, thank you 💕 thank you 😊 You have Amazing Hair❤❤❤

  • @frappedelimon4351
    @frappedelimon43512 ай бұрын

    I hope Anna sees this. I just want to say thank you for your videos, speacially one, because with the very first 9 seconds of a video a key memory from my past unlocked and for the first time EVERYTHING in my life has sense. I am currently working on my symptoms. I felt so alone, so misundertood, but for the first time I feel TRULY seen with all the CPTSD symptoms and things that happen because of it. I'm not saying I am self diagnosing, I'm just saying that I relate with people with CPTSD symptoms. For years I tried multiple approaches, for adhd, depression, etc, but CPTSD is just 100% accurate with everything that happens to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

  • @frappedelimon4351

    @frappedelimon4351

    2 ай бұрын

    I'll share part of my life in case there's a possibility for someone out there who can feel less alone with this. Also sorry for bad english. I have an amazing mom, my dad was meh but not bad bad. I thought "oh maybe I'm exaggerating because there's people who have experienced worst things than me" but I am starting to think that what happened to me was a valid reason for trauma. I was bullied in kindergarden, the other kids were rude because "a girl shouldn't play with toy cars and have short hair with no ribbons or other accesories", so they avoided me as if I had some kind of virus. Since then I thought there was something inherently worng with me, something that I was unable to name but everyone could notice right away, so I supressed myself. At 8 my dad did NSFW things in front of me (many times, for years), we had to rent some rooms in my house so there was a lot of people and they were very rude. We had almost no money and food so we had to burn our wood chairs to cook whatever we could while the other people living there were eating well, I had to leave school at 15 because my father was very ill and couldn't afford anything but transportation for his hospital needs and food )almost everything for him) plus he was not kind, didn't take care of himself and was complaining a lot. At school I was still bullied because I couldn't bath so I actually smelled bad almost all the time and they called me nasty names (until this day I kinds believe that showering each day os for rich people and the best thing I can do is shower once each 3 days but now I'm starting to do it every day although it feels weird haha). Now I am 28 years old, I still have issues with food and struggle buying me nice things (because, if it's not for a basic need, why buy it?) I've never had a boyfriend or have had my first kiss and it still makes me feel like it's too late for me. Socialize is sooo hard, doing the basic things like brushing my teeth is exhausting (even thinking about doing it makes me feel tired), but I'm doing the Daily practice and omg IT WORKS, I feel way better now. The hardest part is to truly believe that I'm worthy of love, that I deserve friends and nice things like having flowers in my house. But I know I'll get there, and I hope for healing for the rest of the people who struggles with this. The reason why I want to heal is because I want to find my gifts, and use them to save people of suffering and time and help them in times of need with food and poverty. I want a better world, maybe I cannot cure the cancer, but I'll try to do something. Also I am an artist and I know that maybe some day my art will be needed in this world, I just need to keep trying and healing so I can help others.

  • @christinelamb1167

    @christinelamb1167

    2 ай бұрын

    @@frappedelimon4351 Thank you for sharing your story. What you described is extremely traumatic, and it's no wonder at all that you are suffering from C-PTSD! I am so sorry for the neglect , abuse, and bullying you experienced as a child. You didn't deserve that! You deserved to grow up in a home with parents who loved and protected you, and took care of your basic needs, and more. I am so happy for you that the Daily Practice has helped you and given you some relief from you symptoms. I have also had good results from doing the DP, even though I don't do it every day. I have learned so much from Anna about how to manage my dysregulation, and I am so grateful for what she teaches here! I wish you all the best on your healing journey, and I pray that you will always remember that you are worth of love and care, and you have a beautiful spirit! ❤

  • @howardcohen6817

    @howardcohen6817

    2 ай бұрын

    @@christinelamb1167 Thank you for being so lovingly supportive. Love.

  • @christinelamb1167

    @christinelamb1167

    2 ай бұрын

    @@howardcohen6817 😊

  • @frappedelimon4351

    @frappedelimon4351

    2 ай бұрын

    @@christinelamb1167 thank you very much! sending lots of hugs!

  • @Anonymas-di6zc
    @Anonymas-di6zc2 ай бұрын

    Wanted to share that I do leave, or the link for the daily practice or how to find it. I told friends about and there where very interestet, that's when I realized that I must have changed more that I'm aware of, but see their interest talk more than words 🎉❤😂😂 I'm so Happy 🎉🎉

  • @TheLove1Makes
    @TheLove1Makes2 ай бұрын

    Thanks Another good video.🎉

  • @CrappyChildhoodFairy

    @CrappyChildhoodFairy

    Ай бұрын

    Thanks for watching and taking the time to comment! -Calista@TeamFairy

  • @HumbertoSalinas-ys6ks
    @HumbertoSalinas-ys6ksАй бұрын

    Wow!

  • @user-qo2nc7ge1c
    @user-qo2nc7ge1cАй бұрын

    Im shocked, I thought I clicked a creamberryfairy vid. this was totally unexpected. Anyway, have a good day

  • @kenzieberr7263
    @kenzieberr7263Ай бұрын

    I’m going through a very complex relationship with my boyfriend. Is there a place you can send you the story of what I’m going through so you can help me? I don’t really want to write it out on the comment list here and have it open to the public.

  • @CrappyChildhoodFairy

    @CrappyChildhoodFairy

    Ай бұрын

    You can write in a letter for Anna to consider reading on her channel here: bit.ly/CCF_Letters You can also find our coaching options here if you're seeking more detailed, private support: courses.crappychildhoodfairy.com/coaching -Calista@TeamFairy

  • @RoquetSynce
    @RoquetSynce2 ай бұрын

    Are there any books you could recommend on CPTSD?

  • @tonyabraggs4721

    @tonyabraggs4721

    2 ай бұрын

    I started with Pete Walkers CPTSD and now I'm reading the body keeps the score.

  • @beahaven1642

    @beahaven1642

    2 ай бұрын

    The body keeps the score

  • @dougcoleman8972

    @dougcoleman8972

    2 ай бұрын

    From surving to thriving. "Drama of a gifted child." Two good reads

  • @RoquetSynce

    @RoquetSynce

    2 ай бұрын

    @@tonyabraggs4721 Thank you!

  • @RoquetSynce

    @RoquetSynce

    2 ай бұрын

    @@beahaven1642 Thank you!

  • @Jaybee6428
    @Jaybee6428Ай бұрын

    I am who I am, I AM sent me I AM the ONE who rescued you from the land of Egypt, the place of slavery You must put no other gods before who I AM You must not make for yourself an idol of any kind or an image of anything in the heavens or on the earth beneath in the sea You must not bow down to them or worship them, for I AM jealous and WILL NOT tolerate your affection for any other gods. I lay the sins of the parent onto the children, The entire family is affected You must not misuse my name. I will not let those who misuse my name go unpunished, You must not take who I AM in vain: Thou shalt not kill OR rape Thou shalt not steal Thou shalt not covet for thy neighbor's house Thou shall not commit adultery Thou shalt not bear false witness/Not Lie on others Thou shalt honor thy mother and father Keep your day of rest holy Thou SHALT NOT KILL, written AGAIN! unless for food purposes, or last resort self-defense/survival purposes Thou shalt be kind and respect others Thou shalt NOT ENSLAVE Thou shalt protect the child Thou shalt not consort sneakily in the dark to constrict, ensnare, manipulate into corruption, or cause harm to others even for monetary gain Thou shalt help the elderly and weak and orphans or else... Thou shalt not litter The rich SHALL, in the future meaning FROM THIS POINT ON, realize money is just paper from trees and will begin using their imaginary dendritic monopoly currency to help the hopeless, homeless, starving poor, and begin fixing the infrastructure of THE HUMAN RACE and or all living beings. Thou shalt not exalt thy racial culture to be esteemed higher than any others because of your subjective stupidity Thou shalt not create torment or cruel punishments on behalf of your judicial, justice system, military, or imaginary religious beliefs As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave thee nor forsake thee. Be strong and courageous "Love who I AM with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind; and, Love your neighbor as yourself." I AM love, and all who live in love live in me, and I in them. And as we live in who I AM, our love grows more perfect. So we will not be afraid on the day of judgment, but we can face him with confidence because we live like the lamb here in this world. Such love has no fear because perfect love casts out fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love. We love each other because he loved us first... I bless those who are poor and realize their need for who I AM, for the Kingdom of the Heart is theirs. I bless those who mourn, for they will be comforted. I bless those who are humble, for they will inherit the whole earth. I bless those who hunger and thirst for justice, for they will be satisfied. I bless those who are merciful, for they will be shown mercy. I bless those whose hearts are pure, for they will see who I AM I bless those who work for peace, for they will be called the children of who I AM. I bless those who are persecuted for doing right, for the Kingdom of the Heart is theirs. I bless you when people mock you and persecute you and lie about you and say all sorts of evil things against you because you are my followers. Be happy about it! Be very glad! For a great reward awaits you in the heart. And remember, the ancient prophets were persecuted in the same way.. 💀 🕊 |{I}\_💌 I/ \ /_ \_

  • @amberinthemist7912
    @amberinthemist7912Ай бұрын

    Stop playing other people's side of the court. Focus on your stuff.

  • @cheryldailing1294
    @cheryldailing1294Ай бұрын

    Besides, the kids aren't exactly kids...

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