Gerby's channel feels more and more like a mirror with every video he makes

@muwwop.

Жыл бұрын

And that shit is fucked up…

@ButchyCantYouSee

Жыл бұрын

Yeh even the dodgy freestyle

@ButchyCantYouSee

Жыл бұрын

@@CollagenExpert 🥸

@ruslanhrybchad6832

Жыл бұрын

@@ha669g чувак, в тебе чудова англійська

@woldi8408

Жыл бұрын

hes litterally me

I feel this heavy dawg. Bullies, late blooming, distrust of people. Lovely video brodie.

@woodsnuth

Жыл бұрын

The goat watching another goat🙏🏼

@Hassan-zw9tb

Жыл бұрын

ok but wheres the grinder?

@mundomundo7722

Жыл бұрын

😮

@crdtsjby

Жыл бұрын

Whatchu doing here caps

@Qweenk23

Жыл бұрын

Aww knee cap

I wish I punched people who took advantage of me. I was such a pushover and so scared of getting in trouble so I’d hold back 100% of the time. I was a “good kid” in school. Good kid = a robot that follows orders without questioning if they’re reasonable actions to take. These days I know that a lot of rules are fucking stupid so I just don’t follow them.

@Jmoneyy365

Жыл бұрын

Relatable

@BrocksJellyFilledDoughnuts

Жыл бұрын

Schools teach children to be like this. Workers with no back bone who blindly listen to their boss and take disrespect. (EDIT) Please teach your future children to stand up for themselves, this current school system doesn’t care about you or them.

@BrocksJellyFilledDoughnuts

Жыл бұрын

@Will Rivers I’m well aware.

@daoyang223

Жыл бұрын

I feel your pain friend.

@Sibahem3

Жыл бұрын

I used to be in your situation when I was 6 years old. These two kids they were bigger at the time. One day they would do the same bullying and grabbing me by hair. One day in course of action I grabbed one of them and gave him quick kick in the groin but an effective one the other one left me alone on his own . His mother came to the school the day after regarding the matter of him getting kicked. I hated every day at that school.

Hearing your stories makes my blood boil because I can relate to being punished, yelled at, and bullied by adults, kids from school, and by my own family. I felt like no one protected me, so I became really aggressive and angry as an adult. I never took it out on innocent people, but if people fucked with me, I would lash out. I'm more controlled and tactful now that I'm older. I recently went to a family gathering and my family is full of immigrants with no filter. An uncle started talking shit about how I look without even saying hello, so I joked about how I would body his old ass. I would never harm my elders, but some people go through life thinking there are no consequences to their actions. Fortunately, my life is much better now, but I don't feel the need to brag about it or share it with anyone from my past. I'm more preoccupied with moving forward.

@prod.kidmizu

Жыл бұрын

The second paragraph had me dying, I’m gonna do this next time

@ClassicTurnOff

Жыл бұрын

sometimes you gotta stand up for yourself there's a saying "You teach others how to treat you"

@pokeman5000

Жыл бұрын

I feel that my man. I went through a good portion of life just having old boomers screaming in my face. From parents/family members to teachers to coaches to army officers to employers. Eventually I just started hating all of them from the get go. They really are rancid. I'm so happy I have money to not deal with them anymore. I've metaphorically taken a knee and just waiting out the clock so to speak. Live a healthy and successful life and laugh when they finally Miller Lite themselves to death around the 2030's

@predator.1035

Жыл бұрын

Bro's literally me

@predator.1035

Жыл бұрын

@@pokeman5000 for real

Honestly "if you dont personally experience it, it's just not real for you" is a really good quote. Gerby literally spitting facts as always

@ganibattlebeard

Жыл бұрын

Can quickly turn into derealization.

@FumblsTheSniper

Жыл бұрын

You gotta get blasted in the ass to confirm you aren’t gay

@jellebag

Жыл бұрын

isn't that what black people say when they cry racism for every inconvenience

@DEMiURGE455

Жыл бұрын

If I got mad bitches and Covid never happened in the middle of my high school, I would probably have very normie opinions about life

@hata6290

Жыл бұрын

false but okay

Man. Bullying and violence is so common in schools. Kids can be very sadistic and having a developing brain at the time is very over stimulating. That negative experience at that age can really impact your development forever.

@Joe-tk8bn

Жыл бұрын

My highschool was filled with sociopathic people. People don't realize how common mental illness is.

@blockaderunner

Жыл бұрын

Sort of and depends on what kind of school public or private? The problem with that early in life is that you don't see that there is plenty of time, so your best bet is to Read, read, read. I didn't, cause it was so time-consuming and I wanted quickness, sports, here n' now, living, but now or for the past 8 years, I've read 100s of books. It's given me depth I could have had early on for speaking with people about anything.

@CESTLAFDTJEUNEPD

Жыл бұрын

@@blockaderunner Any top picks ? I've read "No Mr. nice guy" recently and that's pretty much it

@end4567

Жыл бұрын

I think that's just life, not just school in general.

@kylekohler5228

Жыл бұрын

​@@CESTLAFDTJEUNEPD Atomic Habits, Stop over thinking, Six pillars of self esteem, and if your open to it. Practicing mindfulness, which covers basic meditations you can do daily.

People are psychos, and it doesn’t seem to get any better as you get older

@DampONion

Жыл бұрын

For sure

@blockaderunner

Жыл бұрын

Well, the masses still believe we landed on the moon 6 times flawlessly when it is so Obvious we didn't, see Bart Sibrel's work. THAT is scary when you realize how easily duped the masses can be, and they never snap out of it. So they drone on and get into wars and get slaughtered and the ball just rolls on, history keeps rolling on. You can't stop it. It just rolls. You can SEE the truth, and how to be in this life, aware, but and that can Still get you killed anyway, but being a normie and believing what the masses believe will more than likely bring you to an early grave. And it's not about saving yourself, but you get wrapped up when you start livin like the masses do, and you become one of Them, so then you are no longer on the outside observing reality, but being led by what's popular/fun/profitable even if it's detrimental to your health in all facets.

@alekwagner3884

Жыл бұрын

at least as an adult ur more prepared and better equipped to deal out the consequences.

@benbenben123ben

Жыл бұрын

@@alekwagner3884 You’d think that, right? Hahahah (maniacal laughter)

@beesmongeese2978

3 ай бұрын

​@@alekwagner3884 Not really.

8:24 my mom also told me not to defend myself in 2nd grade so i started to become a bitch boy and couldn't fix myself for like 7 years . moral of story always defend yourself the other people outside of your family are brutal and they would sniff weakness like how sharks sniff blood . even if you get beaten the crap out of they still will hesitate to pick on you because they don't want to get in trouble because they know you put out some resistance

@predator.1035

Жыл бұрын

Bro don't listen to your mom, this is directed at all young men just don't listen to your mom. Always take advice from your dad, the dad will most likely tell you to defend yourself, but if you don't have a reliable father or a father in general well in this case, you should find a couch, join a boxing gym, and train. You should always beat tf out of anybody who tries humilate you, YOU teach people how to treat YOU, even when it's the teacher who humilates you, you should defend yourself, if he hits you, hit him back, choke him.

@thetenthone

Жыл бұрын

some of the worst "advice" you could give someone, especially a child is telling them to endure disrespect.

@gormatrok5286

Жыл бұрын

typical of moms. people need a strong male role model in their lives. sad when people don't

@predator.1035

Жыл бұрын

@@gormatrok5286 facts

@kane-111

Жыл бұрын

Dude, all I had to do was get in a fight and start throwing hands, not only did nobody try to fk with me ever again, but I even became friends with those that did. So exactly as you said, even if you get beat up, standing up for yourself ONE time will make everybody twice.

This brutal shit happened to you when you were 13.. Now imagine me at 6-7, getting my potato chips I bought in school stolen, first day in elementary. Later that year, was running around in recess, and an older repeater kid points a pencil at my eye while running, getting left eye poked and going to the hospital for it. Got chocked in elementary by another year repeater kid, my jaw prolly broke. Got bullied a lot. Fought a lot. Started standing up for myself more. Got beaten up a lot, and sometimes, I beat up those who tried to get under my skin by throwing disparaging lables at me, or flat out hit. Then middle school came, things changed for the better a bit, still was shit... Highschool wasn't much better, still shit with my old psychopathic bullies being in the same school. Went to college. Got over what I had gone through. I still have memories from time to time till this day of what I could've said or done better back when I a kid. Learnt lessons, not traumatized or anything. Difficulties made me tougher and stronger, not living in trauma or none of that. Life is good. The past will just be there to push me into a better future. I do think that it's obviously gonna be different depending on the individual. Some bullies' victims get fucked up in the head and traumatized they go to therapy, or even off themselves in extreme cases. Bullies are un-eradicatable diseases that are in every corner in this world. I'm thankful to God for protecting me, thankful for not turning into a psycho like those bullies. And moving forward in my life. Funny enough, most of these bullies that I went to school with, are now in shitty positions in life. Karma ig.

@tengoodquestions

Жыл бұрын

What did you parents do

@smilodon92

Жыл бұрын

@@tengoodquestions they were so angry at what happened, idk what happned to the kid tho, forgot. It's been a long time, and I was small to understand a lot of stuff.

@jamesl5203

Жыл бұрын

You're lucky, most people who are bullied do not succeed in life unfortunately.

@Shoegazebasedgenre0.

Жыл бұрын

i live the best of my tweens at age 11-14. but my late teen years are fucking horrible before going to college.

@fpsbelarus5307

5 ай бұрын

lmao who asked

Not confronting people that shit on you during school is a most painful regret man. Even now, I wish people would try to do that again just so I can fucking clobber them, but now almost everyone I meet doesn't deserve that in the slightest.

@blondequijote

Жыл бұрын

As someone who did go the fight route which most avoided, ppl look at you differently even if they fully support u beating that person up. Less ppl fuck with you in the bullying way, but less ppl fuck with u in any kind of social way. Plus it’s frustrating when u grow up and all those “problem solving skills” that helped u survive the jungle of adolescence will get you assault charges as an adult. I guess I feel a bit more confident asserting myself because I’ve punched enough people to know that most aren’t prepared for the chaos of physical conflict and will be easily rattled while I ride the adrenaline high but I probably sound insane or like an internet tough guy talking this way. Ppl who didn’t know me but knew I beat up someone they didn’t like would mention it when we met and how they didn’t like that guy either or whatever. Most of these ppl had pissed off other ppl ( I’m sure we’ve all pissed off someone) but for whatever reason I was the vessel of this rage. It becomes hard to let go of that when it becomes a source of motivation and even identity. Now I have more kinds of emotions and less of those emotions have me. But it’s lonely when ppl see ur capacity for relatively spontaneous violence even when it’s not directed anywhere near them.

@thunderslug1066

Жыл бұрын

@@blondequijote I've found people look at you differently even if you just verbally challenge them. In my uni dorm there's a guy who gets very aggressive when he's drunk and a girl who has bullied and groped nearly every other girl in my dorm and one of the guys. Even though I am good friends with every else, I can't help but feel they see me differently after I properly lashed out at both of them, the guy when he threatened to glass me and the girl when she mocked someone for being uncomfortable around her. I've found many people have a strange aversion to confrontation and it's why these scumbags have been able to treat others the way they do, and why people are conflicted even if they totally agree with what you said to them

@jaskamattila4481

11 ай бұрын

​@@blondequijoteInsightful comment, thanks

The truth is, the bullying never stops. They just find another person who does not fit the standards. Even in adulthood, the same dynamic exists. But not the same actions. (Agression, for example. Adults just insult eachother behind their backs more) Its a good thing you left the hole, gerby. May you never fall down here again.

@Auren23

Жыл бұрын

Yep, high school is just a preview of what you'll see for the rest of your adult life, especially if nothing changes for you...

@an18yearoldmongolianguy

Жыл бұрын

At school it's who was the teacher's pet/bad at PE At adulthood it's who's unemployed/poor It doesn't really change

@botezsimp5808

Жыл бұрын

@@an18yearoldmongolianguy So true, about being poor/unemployed. You get no respect.

@yirawls

Жыл бұрын

Yep and if you show open dissatisfaction all of a sudden you're too aggressive or have anger issues.

@an18yearoldmongolianguy

Жыл бұрын

@@yirawls That’s why you should completely deafen out what the “haters” say, since they were the ones who made you angry in the first place Although, I will say that living with constant rage and edge is not a healthy lifestyle long-term You should also consider the possibility that the fact that you are angry might be partially your fault

The raps at the start always hit

Several years ago in high school I was standing in the lunch line. I turned around and said ‘hi’ to the girl behind me. She shook her head, said ‘No.’ and walked away. There’s no point to this comment, just wanted to throw it out into the void

@Kipplz

Жыл бұрын

Tuff

@cosmicdot.

Жыл бұрын

Brutal

@CheckURL

Жыл бұрын

It hurts

@bironjames9948

Жыл бұрын

once you understand its her right to reject you it wont be so bad and you have a lot more to get just stay improving and never be happy with where your at in life always strive for more

@porkerpete7722

Жыл бұрын

Some people are just wierd. Especially when your kids. That was a literal NPC reaction, don't think anything of it.

Hearing school stories like this makes me grateful to my parents for making sure I knew it’s ok to to hit back and defend yourself

@Jes1919

Жыл бұрын

I learned started learning ju jitsu a couple months before my 5th birthday. I was made fun of my hair for being long and that made me pissed off and decided to train. I broke a kids arm in 1st and told him to not mess with me again. I broke a kids hand at camp, and I broke a kids jaw and choked him out. I am 20 now and learned to control the monster inside me.

@brandnew3225

Жыл бұрын

@@Jes1919 epic

@porkerpete7722

Жыл бұрын

@@Jes1919 damn. Go in Dana Whites contender series

@Jes1919

Жыл бұрын

@@porkerpete7722I don’t have those skills. If I get you to the ground then you are done. I have a little bit of mma training.

@BrocksJellyFilledDoughnuts

Жыл бұрын

@@Jes1919 W. Also I’m sure your hair was beautiful ❤

people are usually disgusting, both men and women. i don’t like people, but i still manage to make new friends as a short introvert. college and working in restaurants really help and the friends you meet outside of hs and junior high are way better tbh.

@predator.1035

Жыл бұрын

True

@kingbaguette1843

Жыл бұрын

While it’s true that people’s cruelty can often be surprising I think you’ll find that people are also capable of a surprising amount of kindness if you put yourself out there and talk to people.

@ralph8408

Жыл бұрын

@@kingbaguette1843 yeah i totally agree, i've met quite a few kind people i'm very thankful for. on paper people would say i've had an unlucky hand, but in my opinion i think i'm very lucky to have had the experiences and met the people i have.

@ThomasFoolery8

Жыл бұрын

@@kingbaguette1843 they’re generally kind when they think they can get something from you. Humans in general are very opportunistic and shallow. I’ve gone through phases of my life where I was very social and popular, so it isn’t like I can’t play the game if I don’t want to, but now that dating has moving almost fully online, I see no reason to have a big social life, so I’m basically a recluse that only goes out to meet girls for dates and try to smash some new poon lol. People in general are awful and a waste of time.

@wtfimcrying

Жыл бұрын

@@ThomasFoolery8 "they’re generally kind when they think they can get something from you" yeah obviously, no one wants a time waster.

man hearing your stories makes me realize how many terrible things happened to me that i never payed attention to until seeing the effects of it now that im alot older

I can relate to all of these experiences, as a 5'4 ugly 16yr old guy from sweden, I really hope i will hit my growth burst soon. When you are shorter than even the female average, you take a lot of random disrespect that deteriorates self esteem.

@bowlasaurus742

Жыл бұрын

Random disrespect. The way you say it hits hard

@kylekohler5228

Жыл бұрын

Yeah, I know a guy at my work who is 5'4 and is in late sixties and people just dog on him sometimes, behind his back and lightly to his face. He told me when he was younger he had to fight to prove his worth back when he was in school.

@rrai-

Жыл бұрын

Bro I know its not magic but work on being a good communicator. Like gerby said he didnt do shit about anything he even made jokes in those times, that makes people do shit to u again. Act how u feel when something bothers u I know plenty of short dudes who get even more respect than everyone else just cause they communicate what they feel. Make it hard to fck with u make it unpleasant. I hate ti bring it up cause u gonna say oh its cause hes famous or has money or whatever but look at how fliyd mayweather conducts himself. He woulndt be takin shit if he was workin at mcdonalds lol. Im not saying be that sensitive im sayin when u dokt want people to play with u u need to be able to make that happen

@jerp5809

Жыл бұрын

Learn Brazillain jiu jitsu. Its the only way for the small guy to win.

@monk331

Жыл бұрын

Take mk677 and a low dose of oxandrolone(2.5mg) to make you grow taller. It's the only thing I can recommend to you.

Hey Gerby, i remember being picked on in school in a similar fashion to you, it made me into an annoying kid and it has it's consequences to this day. What made me accept that is the fact that just because of those things that happened to me i have insight and knowledge to prevent myself from doing evil things to people (and raising my kids NOT to do that). As Jordan Peterson said there is a cycle of evil that is more likely to be repeated by the victim of the evil. Abused child becomes abusive father etc.. Not only that but those situations have made me grow and helped me build my character but they shaped my view on life. I understand that you talking about this is the thing that saddens you and i get that as my trauma can often sadden me, but what is a good man without a tragic story. Be proud that you rose above what you were determined and that you looked at destiny and said "NO THIS WILL NOT BE MY FATE". Don't be sad for what happened to you, be proud with what you did with it. Live on your own terms, use the trauma as a measure of your life transformation (before the bullying/after the bullying) and make sure to be shocked when you remember you were that skinny kid and now you have a growing platform inspiring young men like me trying to make sense with this thing that is called life, you have potential and i can't be more excited to have stumbled upon your content because you represent the human side of self improvement. You represent us.

@ha669g

Жыл бұрын

Pls, rate my english in my last video, wanna some feedback from natives, im ukrainian and i dont have people around that can assess me

@hawkh20

Жыл бұрын

Use your trauma bro some of the best fighters and great men have terrible stories. Look at mike tyson or David goggins.

@predator.1035

Жыл бұрын

FACTS

@mountainhouse5447

Жыл бұрын

Yes man absolutely

@NS-nq3ki

Жыл бұрын

Average berserk enjoyer

Really feeling this shit. Grew up a very similar way. I was a late bloomer too. I was 5'3 and less than average looking. By the later years of highschool I was 6'2 and much better looking plus the gym. Even though I looked way better I still had a terrible time with girls. I was attractive, yes, but I still had a lot of emotional scarring and had and still have trouble trusting people. It's fucked up because most people don't ever bloom to begin with, some people never even have the chance. All they could do is workout and have their body look better and grow their personality but that's about it.

I remember in elementary school. Some kid tried to instigate a fight with me in the four square line. He got in my face and was just insulting me so I gently put my hands on his chest and backed away. That day at lunch I get called into the office and got reprimanded by a teacher for “shoving” that kid. Being punished for de escalating/sticking up for yourself does irreparable damage to a child’s psyche. I’m very lucky to have parents who supported me and gave me access to tools like therapy and had the resources to help me leave that school but I cannot imagine where I would be without them. Learning to express yourself, stick up for yourself, and trust people after experiencing severe bullying (I didn’t get the worst end of it but it’s more prevalent than people acknowledge) is really difficult. It teaches you coping mechanisms and creates beliefs about your world and your self that lead to sad, hurt, confused people who will only continue the cycle of violence.

I also was one of the shortest in Middle school, one time a guy tried to pick me up and throw me to the trash can a few seconds before he picked me up this voice in my head told me "if you let them step on you once they aren't going to stop" I don't know how but I punched the shit out of his stomach. I remember there were girls and other guys this Stacy just said " it wasn't necessary to hurt him so bad, you're a bad person" LOOOLLL Since that day no one messed up with me but at the same time they became more distant. It has been 5 years.

@phillipradulea1810

Жыл бұрын

It is preferable to be both loved and feared. If you can’t be both it is better to be feared.

@vlogcity1111

Жыл бұрын

Bro nice work! The first party I went to in grade 10 I got to liquored and was wrestling with a guy I picked him up over my head and threw him through a wooden fence and it broke. After that people stopped f’ing with me

@lioncolombo

Ай бұрын

this story is so brutal. human nature defends chad no matter what

If i ever have kids ill give them the opportunity to not go to public school its just too hysterical..

@Quazima115

Жыл бұрын

as a teacher, if I had a kid, I wouldn't want them in a public school either. shit's fucked beyond repair.

@realjohnjones

Жыл бұрын

@@Quazima115 Not suprisingly there was a lot of bullying in my finnish highschool and I could never focus because of the constant noise and I was socially anxious so I could not even talk much, so I just sat there like a fool for hours

@wtfimcrying

Жыл бұрын

definitely going to be a handicap on their social development, you should probably just teach your children how to deal with conflict rather than sheltering them. use your negative experience to help your child out.

@realjohnjones

Жыл бұрын

@FuckOuttaHere From other communities, hobbies etc

@blackwhite886_4

Жыл бұрын

@FuckOuttaHere Sport Clubs, Chess clubs etc whatever his interest is..

Kids are fucking cruel. I was a late bloomer also but the good news is, as you age you look younger than your peers

Kids can be so fucked up, I had girls flirt with me a few times because they were dared to. These were popular girls at the time and I didng really think much of it. Now that I look back I realised how messed up it is. At that time I was taller than everyone but I was quite fat and ugly . I dont get those things happening to me anymore but It causes me to stay on edge with people. Along with friends exposing you're secrets for a laugh and dont know how to respect privacy, it causes you to distance yourself from anyone. I cannot allow myself to get close with anyone

@yesss342

Жыл бұрын

@Steve L I very much doubt it, I think she liked flirting with people for fun. That happened 5 years ago, but also a year ago she was flirting with me when no one dared her, she'd ask me to pull the bobble from her hair(so I end up pulling her hair) would grab my hand and warm it, then would lock her fingers between them and move them back and forth as if we were s couple walking around. She would hug me everytime she saw me. But she wouldnt do these things unless she was around her friends. And I know she didnt like me because she used to talk about boys when they would all come and sit at my table. Tbh I didnt take any of it seriously, I didnt like her and I knew she didnt like me.

@occultsupport

Жыл бұрын

I fucking hate truth and dare with all my heart. I can never know if a girl is being friendly with me because she likes me or just because she was dared to.

Kids are people and people can be psychopaths. Yet no one teaches you that not all people are inherently good, you just have to learn that hard lesson yourself. This has made me an anxious person now I think. Sucks man

@Juan-qs6vy

Жыл бұрын

Used to have that attitude, what a brutal lesson.

This kind of gives me insight into a really weird story I never share with people because it’s kind of embarrassing in a weird way but i’ll tldr it quickly: I’m in year 7, on the bus home from school 5 years ago and hanging with one of my friends who’s a girl, her best friend comes and sits alongside me and after some chitchat she is essentially asking for my number and handing me her phone to put her number in. In the moment, I think I realised what she’s trying to do, but my subconscious self wouldn’t let me as I don’t trust people period. After nagging me and her being confused at why i’m saying no the whole confrontation ends awkwardly after I get to my stop and only nowadays after thinking about that do I realise that it’s crazy how obvious it was that even though they had extremely well intentions, my monkey brain looked straight past that & would only associate this clearly positive interaction with a past traumatic experience. Crazy how the human mind is shaped from a young age and how it impacts you later in life.

That monologue at the end was one of your best.

Sadistic outbursts, sociopathic behavior, and general hostility have all been a common theme within the people that I have met within my short time on earth. It seems like everyone has lost their humanity and empathy.

@eduardoktg8683

Жыл бұрын

Not everyone... But better safe than sorry I guess

@theycallmedoorway9913

Жыл бұрын

Damn, Gerbie is right about not knowing other people's perspectives until you've lived them. People have been nothing but respectful toward me all my life, with only a little bit of negative talking behind my back when I act like a psycho myself. Perks of being tall and attractive, I guess.

@oxydayz

Жыл бұрын

​@@theycallmedoorway9913 you're very likely neither

@Abumustard6364

Жыл бұрын

Gotten worse since the pandemic.

@ChefofWar33

10 ай бұрын

​@@oxydayzNobody that is short and ugly actually had the balls to lie through their fucking teeth and say they are actually the opposite. Maybe they have an inflated ego, but they very likely are tall and attractive.

Both my parents used to get into fights a lot when they were kids. It led to many problems later on in life for them. My mom barely got an education, and my dad was locked up for more than half of his lifetime collectively (not straight through). They always burned it into my brain that I was NEVER TO FIGHT. Or else I would get my ass whooped or my Xbox taken away. I was poor growing up and I lived in really bad areas, and just overall didn't have a good childhood. The Xbox was my only escape from all the shit I had to live through, so I didn't want to lose that. In 6th grade I started getting bullied by a fairly large group of kids in my class. A girl friend group and a guy friend group. All in all, I'd say they made up nearly half of the 30 kids that make a class. I don't really want to go into detail, but basically they bullied me for being fat (At least that's where it started). It got to a point where I couldn't focus on my schoolwork. I spent all day stressing over how I may look to other people. "does my fat show in this shirt?" "Do I smell weird?" "Does my breath smell bad?" "Is my hair too long? Does it looked fucked up?" My grades started to slip, despite being considered smart or a "gifted kid" and getting good grades my whole life. They never really recovered since that year. I go to a continuation school now. I might graduate, I might not. Those assholes had a very specific nickname for me, they would throw shit at me, and just talk shit about everything about me. Which wasn't that difficult. At this point in my life I was homeless, sleeping in a car with my whole family. I would get up in the morning and get ready for school in a gas station bathroom. So, needless to say, I looked fucking terrible. My clothes were dirty, I smelled, my breath smelled, my hair was long and hadn't been cut in at least a year. Just overall an easy target. But there was a silver lining. I had a crush. And despite my repulsiveness, she actually became friends with me. We had a lot in common surprisingly even though we came from totally different backgrounds. I only developed a crush for her after we were already friends. She was my best friend, at least I thought so. Eventually she just stopped talking to me, she didn't say anything or tell me what it was, but I knew. It was because I let those kids bully me. I never did or said anything. I just took it. I thought I could take it. I thought I could handle it and be okay when it was all said and done. Besides, I'd been through worse. Seen worse. Heard worse. But it took its toll on me worse than anything I'd been through up until that point. Which still kind of baffles me to this day. You wanna know the worst part? The teacher saw ALL OF IT. Everything. She didn't do a damn thing about it. Then she had the audacity to hang up anti bullying posters all over the classroom. Gerby was talking about how females are hard wired to not want the male who gets picked on, and that reminded me of this story. It was like I had an epiphany 😂

@frog6054

5 ай бұрын

Brutal. How are you doing now?

I can really feel the sadness behind every word you say. And it’s justified too. I can’t imagine someone going through just endless unprovoked cruelty and not having a bad impression of people at large. And what’s more angering isn’t that a small subset of people are evil to you, it’s that the vast majority of people around it and in power just shrug their shoulders and look away.

Dude thank you for sharing bro. I don’t think you realize how you telling this story makes so many men not feel alone in their suffering. A lot of men go through this. The world is a cruel place.

The hard truth I've just realized is that no one is going to avenge you for the wrongdoings people have done for you in the past. No one is going to save you. Don't be a victim and do what's right for you and get revenge that way.

I was an early bloomer. I was 6’ and above most of my high school life and still was a pushover who would be ridiculed and treated like shit by other people. I was and still am fairly good looking and built and yet I was mostly at the bottom of the food chain in school. It can happen to anyone no matter the physical appearance. It’s about how you carry yourself and stand up for yourself. During the last year of highschool which was last year-June of this year I started standing up for myself and only then I finally started getting respect and such. Was also never one to follow trends so I guess I got punished for being different.

@alrightsquinky7798

7 ай бұрын

Crazy how kids think that being over 6’ is an automatic ticket to happiness, a get-out-of-jail-free card for bullying. Guys, get real. I’m much older than most of you, and trust me when I say that line of thinking didn’t exist until about 8 years ago. No one when I was growing up thought that way, and yes, plenty of tall kids I knew who had zero confidence got bullied and had very little attention from girls. Sure, being tall helps your chances, but it guarantees nothing. You are still responsible for carrying yourself like a man, for being good to others, and for standing up for yourself when needed. You cannot, and I mean cannot assume that just because some arbitrary physical characteristics are present in an individual that they will be successful. Life doesn’t work that way. It’s far too complicated. Here’s some advice for all the teens out there: be good to people. I was popular in high school because I had a reputation for being a cool dude. I was kind to literally everyone, so people trusted me. Did I get taken advantage of from time to time? Sure, but it was still a net positive, and those experiences made me more discerning. If you can’t trust people then you can’t make friends, period. I also was an average height, average looking guy, so you can’t blame my popularity on me being exceptionally well off physically. I was also discerning: I could usually tell the genuinely cool kids from the bad ones, and I didn’t waste my time trying to be friends with people I knew would harm or take advantage of me. It’s not that hard. Stay away from psychos, male or female. Pay attention to how kids treat others, and avoid the ones who harm others. They’re not worth your time. Next, bros before hoes. Make lasting friendships and hold them dear. My biggest regrets in high school came from losing touch with some friends when I started dating a girl I liked. It’s never worth it to lose close friends over a girl. Most importantly, learn to forgive. If people wrong you, you cannot harbor anger towards them forever. It will eat you alive. Let go of the past. Compassion is not a weakness. Choosing mercy when you could punish others is the true test of a man. There was a kid who bullied everyone in high school. He was bigger, stronger, and more developed than just about everyone back then, and he was mean. He hurt anyone who gave him the opportunity, and I was no exception. He’s one of the few kids who I actually fought with back then, and he made life hell. Then, about 5 years after high school, this kid, who was now a grown and terribly maladjusted individual, drove drunk through my parents’ mailbox and into a tree. I happened to be home at the time, so I walked outside to see what happened. When I realized it was the kid from high school, I was seriously pissed. I threatened to call the cops on him, I laid into him for being such a POS, but then I paused. This guy was literally crying. He wasn’t the kid from school anymore, but a sad, broken person who just made a critical mistake, landing helplessly at my feet. I chose mercy. I drove him home, I dropped him off, and I told him to fix my parents’ mailbox. He looked at me and said, “And hey, anon: I’m really, really sorry. About everything.” He came back the next day, put in a new mailbox for my parents, and he and I have been cool with each other ever since. We all need mercy, so please be compassionate.

@czechio

5 ай бұрын

i was like 6 3 and got bullied bc of my height

@frog6054

5 ай бұрын

You sure you were actually good looking back in high school?

@eggleg2019

4 ай бұрын

@@alrightsquinky7798 CEO of Yappington

Brutal stories from low-IQ, low trust environment. I feel you. Great video as always. I've also found that jokes can be used as a flight mechanism from any situation you dislike.

@mikkriive2687

8 ай бұрын

yeah i remember just getting verbally abused and shit and i just took it, then later on walked home crying, regretting not doing something

I can relate to that. I was always short, so had that against me, and in high school i also had really bad acne. I used to feel sorry for myself and was very angry (also for family stuff), but later I started growing into myself, training and cultivating grateful thoughts. I very rarely got bullied in school (and when it happened i always fought back) and had a circle of close friends who helped me through a lot, but some stuff just stays with you, wether you like it or not it gets hardwired into your brain and your behaviour. It simply becomes part of who you are. I grew to be 5’9, so not tall but not short either, my acne sort of went away (i don’t have perfect skin but no terrible acne either) and been training boxing for up to 5 years now, meditating and favouring delayed gratification over instant. I have to say, I feel pretty good about myself and, even though I’m definitely not a chad, I’ve been told that I’m good looking and have a great sense of humour. All in all, I’m also grateful for all the suffering that I’ve endured, because it made me who I am today, and, while I’m still striving to be better, I’m proud of where I’m at. To finish this, I’d say that while the black pill concepts sure have a solid foundation, you can always learn to feel good about yourself and hustle to be better. Life is a journey and it’s all about learning and experiencing, so don’t let superficial problems keep you from enjoying it. Love.

Lol dude I can relate to this as a fellow late bloomer. I remember watching those movies, Spiderman and Superman respectively, thinking that a bullied person could have some hope. Real life is indeed...the opposite of that because power and dominance are zero sum games; when you push others down, you elevate yourself. Women are repulsed by and don't feel any sexual attraction to people that are trampled on by others. ..And in some ways, they feel a good amount of sexual attraction towards people who trample on and bully others. At least that has been my observation. Brutal indeed.

The good news: you get more accepting of people as you get older The bad news: a lot of the insecurities, trust issues, and confidence issues are a constant battle to maintain. If I didn’t have my successful business I’d still be very low confidence, very low self esteem. My business has proven to me I’m a beast, and even if it fails nothing can take that away from me.

man.. why are you so relatable in every single damn way gerb. makes me less feel alone in this world. thanks for existing

@skinnysnorlax1876

Жыл бұрын

Cause he is honest. Many, many human experiences are universal or close to it

@user-kc3un6qk2w

Жыл бұрын

@@skinnysnorlax1876 yes

@MrSandManGiveMeADream

Жыл бұрын

@@skinnysnorlax1876 so true. and it's not that hard really. just saying what you feel and what you see as your perspective

@skinnysnorlax1876

Жыл бұрын

@@MrSandManGiveMeADream also, yer not alone. Don't let the fake connections of the digital world blur the real meaningful connections people are making and have been making since humanity began.

@MrSandManGiveMeADream

Жыл бұрын

@@skinnysnorlax1876 i appreciate hearing that. even tho, i think we all had some brutal stories in our teen years, some of us really sheltered themselves inside the internet. at least thats me..

Thank you for sharing Gerby💖 I remember getting knocked backwards in the middle of the lunch room & my body going numb bc I hit the back of my head. I got up cried and sat down at my lunch table. I never get in the way when ppl are horse playing.

@ButchyCantYouSee

Жыл бұрын

😂

@ha669g

Жыл бұрын

Pls, rate my english in my last video, wanna some feedback from natives, im ukrainian and i dont have people around that can assess me

@BrocksJellyFilledDoughnuts

Жыл бұрын

@@ButchyCantYouSee ?

I was writing a long comment and then deleted it cause I realized you probably wouldn't care. Keep up the good work. I feel like these feelings you've been having for the past year or so are also going through a very large amount of men's minds too. I'm 21 and feel very very similar, also have friends (ok they're small-ish twitch streamers I follow) aged like 26 and 27 that are thinking and going through similar stuff. Also I'm writing this before watching the video so I'm referencing the theme of the channel, not this video in particular. Hey another long comment. Love the videos Gerbert. Gerb. Gerberooooons. Please notice me.

@simonvandijk5393

Жыл бұрын

Yeah i also feel like writing a long ass message every video and telling him how much I relate and stuff. But then I understood that he's not really any of our friends so just listen to what he has to say.

@julianrudert7779

Жыл бұрын

@@simonvandijk5393 to be honest i most of the times only watch the videos for the comments! I really like people putting themselves out there. Voicing your thoughts can help get stuff of your chest!

it's a whole process bro I can relate so much.. I slowly parted ways from my high-school friends and after that slowly began to trust people, the right friends will come to you as you get older

I was homeschooled growing up so kids in my church who went to regular school used to bully me over that a lot. It wasn’t until college that i met people who genuinely didn’t care about that and just treated me like i was normal. I didn’t want to have angry outbursts when they made fun of me because i didn’t want to seem like some guy with anger issues. It also helped that i became a little more attractive when i turned 20 so i was a very late bloomer.

It's good that you experienced what it was like to be on the wrong side of average. I think puberty was good for you and I can definitely see your potential. In that respect, I think you are the perfect candidate for the self improvement mindset because you stand to be able to get on the good side of average now. Training, therapy, professionalism, etc.. . and you may make a man out of yourself yet.

Your content makes me feel like I can actually talk with someone that really understands what I've been through

Bro your work is truly important and relatable.

Something about how raw, honest, and how open he gets while recording these vids are just awesome

Man i feel for you. I feel like such a blessed person listening to you pour out your heart like that. You are not alone, there are people with these issues and experiences and you CAN overcome them. Stay positive my guy.

Trusting people after those kinds of events is rough, and you’ve learnt some valuable lessons about not being too naïve. I hope you find a way to slowly rewire part of that skepticism and find the right ppl for you. Big love 👑

Most of the guys at the top of the high school hierarchy fell apart after graduating because they weren't prepared for a life without constant adulation. Some probably went to college where they turned into small fish in a big pond and were suddenly and unexpectedly humbled. Others just graduated HS and entered the "real world" and learned that their high school hierarchy didn't amount to a hill of crap when it came to paying bills and trying to prove oneself to an employer, who's only caring about making money. And then a small percentage parlayed their natural strengths and did really well for themselves. This small group were likely always decent people with good social skills.

Bro It's cool that you are open, i've experienced shit like this before too. But people will watch videos like this about you and use these things as a weakness against you. Be careful with the shit you say online that attaches you to you.

My looks have improved greatly. I started to be treated as a human being only at the age of 15. So socially speaking, I had no ideas what to do with people. I wasn't autistic or whatever kind of bs but I grew up so late because I was only in a fight or flight mode with people. After physical harrassment came verbal harassment and so on. Bullying was so severe that I could never enjoy people's company. Maintaining friends is hard work for me because I always feel used. I'm very confrontational and I'm really agressive now. The thing is, the more negative stuff you experience, the more negative things will happen in your life. The more happy things happen in your life, the more happy you'll be. Basically, the world forges you and people will punish for having being mistreated and gaslight you to always be your fault. It never stops. Trust me, I'm 28 y old now. I'm a full grown man, fit, muscular with style and good looking. I never had a girlfriend, I had sex just once in my life. Touching another human being was really a no go for me. I always get rage filled thoughts at the simple idea of people touching me. I'm just a vengeful and angry spirit nowadays. I tried so hard to get out of it but it's of no use. It always comes back. The moment I start being happy, people become scared and run away thus making me angry again. People being nice to me is only because I'm good looking and the more they know me, the more they don't like me. So basically, the most people I'm around know practically nothing about me. Socialization is a fake game. I have no one and never had anyone. I've made it this far in life without anyone to tell me they love me or to give me a sincere and well thought compliment. I just want to see the world burn now. That's how far I'm in. No amount of self-improvement or therapy will heal this trauma and people don't want to understand, they just don't care. People only want happy people in their lives if someone has suffered too much, people will avoid you. I can fake it. I learned it but it's exhausting. Now I don't care. I decided that war it is. That's the only state of mind I've ever known.

@bironjames9948

Жыл бұрын

trust the right girl will come and break you down like a baby n build you up again she will be your harness till the day you die also in terms of friends go to places you feel most relaxed and at ease n ill bet youll find someone like you

@sayidmartinez7347

Жыл бұрын

I could relate, humans are absolute scum to where I justify school shootings because of this

@deagor4578

Жыл бұрын

Exactly the same experience

@TheMirowGamer

Жыл бұрын

I think should learn to be a ghuru or some shit, all the anger you have taken in life you have convert to some good for other people

@TheMirowGamer

Жыл бұрын

But i feel what you mean im 21 now and im not that far like you, but if it keeps going like this, there is no hope

Gerbert is the hero we all needed

I remember in highschool there was this one girl. Got picked on all the time. Basically the meg griffin of the year level. She had big tiddies and all the abuse had made her bitter and twisted - my kind of woman. I asked her out a few times and always got denied. She desired the chad who always rejected her. Im not even ugly. Absolutely maddening

@gachigasm3210

2 ай бұрын

She desired the people that abused her... brvtal.

This channel is an absolute gem! I’m always blown away with the amount of knowledge and ability to articulate your thoughts that you possess Gerby! As a 46 year old man I could only dream of having the understanding of the world at such a young age. It’s honestly too late for me as had to learn these lessons the hard way but I strongly suggest that younger men who watch this channel listen to the knowledge being shared on this channel. It’s extremely important and can literally change your entire future and be the key to being successful and avoiding painful situations throughout life. Positive Vibes brothers

I really like it when you just talk like this and it feels really honest and I can relate to a decent amount of stuff you talk about

Absolutely relatable. Your point about the negative feedback loop from authority figures seems to be a major problem for our generation

i mean i know the whole literally me meme and all that shit but i really relate to your shit so hard even though im a bit younger i can find a lot of the experiences you share on here occuring with next to no variations in my present. if you could make a deep dive vid on how you think you should have acted when confronted it would be cool. thank

I didn't have the high school experience you had, however I was also a bit of a late bloomer & struggled in my early 20s. Alcohol, bad habits, poor relationships. Non of my friendships have lasted from high school or college though, which isn't all that bad honestly, its natural to grow apart. I really picked things up in the past few years though in terms of career, physique, mental health, etc. You're still only 19, you have lots of time to develop as a person in multiple aspects of life. You got this my man

I just recently found ur channel and this video really resonates with me. Past experiences, trauma, being an unattractive in middle school and some of high school (without the height promblems), finally being attractive but not being able to have a connection with a women because you can’t trust them and have past experiences of being unattractive. I’m glad I found ur channels man really nice to know there is people with experience similar to mine

A lot of what you say hits close to home and I respect that your able to speak your mind to thousands of people with courage. I personally think there are somethings you can't control under normal circumstances like height, but the things you can control are what you should try focusing on to become a better individual and evolve.

I have always felt very lucky for not being bullied and I still feel this way. This shit hurts even just to listen, I can't imagine the pain you must have felt. I am so thankful to have understanding and normal people around

@More_Row

Жыл бұрын

Man I wish, I really do.

I was played by a girl i really like (right now). I feel completely useless

@majestictable8098

Жыл бұрын

How did she play you homie?

@samueltorres3271

Жыл бұрын

Dont let hoes mess with your mind

@ukrainenews8247

Жыл бұрын

@@majestictable8098 she confessed to me, said she like me. Then completely dumped me a day later, laughed in my face

@majestictable8098

Жыл бұрын

@@ukrainenews8247 if she's the kind of girl to do that then she isn't worth liking in the first place my friend. Take the L, cut off contact with her and the people close to her if you haven't already and remember there's 4 billion more women

@ren.8137

Жыл бұрын

@@ukrainenews8247 you shouldnt have liked her. Take full responsibility and keep it pushing my friend

Love gerby spitting from the heart.

Gerby got bars🥶

Fuck bro I've been so lost and alone in this stage of my life but hearing your experiences and psyche n stuff is really relatable and just makes the day just a bit easier to endure. That's priceless to me, so thank you.

You just explained my whole life

I can relate a lot to this stuff and it's very true you kind of see the other face of our society but you don't get to talk about it because most people won't listen

Hey Gerb, I'm currently in a situation that's quite similar to yours and to be fair I am going to therapy because of it because I want to let go of the past and all the emotions and psychological attachments I have created by being abused or look down upon by other people. like me you seem to suffer from a lack of boundaries and asserting those. Because you were told it was wrong when you spoke up for yourself. I'm just gonna stop the regurgitation of what you said. What helped me is expressing and honestly feeling these emotions instead of just speaking about and intellectualising them. To really feel what you felt in those moments. Hurt, betrayed, lonely, angry and to let these emotions wash over you. So you can finally live life free from this emotional wounds and discover the richness that life and deep interpersonal relationships have to offer. Not saying that it is easy and your past experiences won't trigger you into old patterns, but it is possible. Overcoming this fear of intimacy is possible. Living again like a child is possible. Cheers

@More_Row

Жыл бұрын

How

The realest Gerb on YT

Watching this while at gym

Holy so relatable man

Goofy wicked laugh 😈🤓😂 touching stories tho, they somewhat resonate with me, but lifting, and exercise has really been an outlet for me in treating that. I got really self isolated especially in Covid, but coming out of Covid I feel like I’ve somewhat overcome it.

5:33 can relate so much when I used to feel bad before if someone made me feel bad for something I did not do or tried to on some level bully me i would never stand up for myself now i let them know whats what! always back yourself and be strong enough to go through the after effects you gotta live with the man u see in the mirror anyways would rather live with my chest up

Godspeed bro. Gonna make it. Head up.

Digging the freestyle intros 🔥

A couple of days ago I have decided to basically cut of everyone that I know,even people who were really close to me because of a certain event that was the absolute last straw for me but they know nothing about this. I will no longer be inititating first contact to see if any one of them even cares to message me first, which I doubt. I feel betrayed and someone who is just thrown to the side, I hate people and I don't think that I will put my trust in anyone from this point forward unless something drastic happens, it really sucks because I want to share things with people but I can take being insane and lonely for the rest of my life rather than used and betrayed

@failsbust

Жыл бұрын

Jesus loves you

@BadiehWoTBlitzMore

Жыл бұрын

@@failsbust I am a muslim and I love jesus as well, the only thing keeping me here is my belief in god

@failsbust

Жыл бұрын

@@BadiehWoTBlitzMore You belive Jesus was a prohpet, i belive hes God. i feel the same as you pal we could probably argue for hours which God is real. I would hope that you come to the realization that Jesus is God, but if what your religion is what keeps you going then keep fighting bruv.

@BadiehWoTBlitzMore

Жыл бұрын

@@failsbust I wish you a good journey as well brother

@blockaderunner

Жыл бұрын

Well the good thing is that both of you Read your religious books, but there are Other books, and when you are reading them, you are Not Alone, cause the author is more or less speaking to You eyeball-to-eyeball about what he's experienced or what is in His mind, if he's lived (long ago usually). You step into his world and it cannot help but to rub off onto your world or perspective to know what Many will not know Ever! I'll read in the bathtub or by a fire or in bed, in a hotel, wherever. Eric Hoffer was an amazing reader, and you can bet your bottom dollar, he was Alone a lot of his life, but people turned to him for wisdom. Not only do you feed your body until you die but you feed your mind, every bit as important, EVERY day. Think of not feeding your mind for a couple of weeks as dying of starvation. You'd realize it more with Real starvation, but you should be able to recognize the lack of food for the mind as starting to cause your death as well. I never could recognize it growing up (not reading). Now, I know when I've been without reading for some time. I know I'm getting sloppy and dumber and uninteresting in conversation. You can't just bring stuff outta your as5. People will notice, but the dumbas5es, if you allow yourself to hang around them, will not notice your lack of food for your mind, because they themselves are sloppy, wasting their lives, clueless, going nowhere, spinning their wheels, stuck in the mud/snow.

rare for me to sit through a whole long video without pausing or skipping and as well feel genuine emotion and sadness, I felt my heart beating in my chest. im older then you and have experienced a lot. but I empathise and have experienced everything you describe in this video and more. everything you said is on the money. mostly I forget and block about that part in my life but this video bought such a huge rush of memory and emotion I almost teared up. this coming from a dude whos spent a lot of time on the wrong side of the law, and generally considers themselves a pretty tough cookie. keep moving forward. it might get worse at times but it if you keep putting one foot in front of the other, it gets better.

@trtrhr

Жыл бұрын

It was over before it even started. How exactly does anything with women get better? is my question to you? you seem too positive.

@jb-xs8bo

Жыл бұрын

as you get older and gain maturity you view on things shift. ive gottten laid a lot as an adult and felt the same way as you when I was younger. life in general just gets better, especially if you had a shitty start.

@More_Row

Жыл бұрын

@@jb-xs8bo When though? Like after your 20s? Don't answer that , it's a rhetorical question.

it amazes me how much i can relate to this

what i like about this is that this is like raw and clean

You just have to care the least with people sometimes. The power of walking away. That also happened to me. I fought growing up and in school they told me not to and took me away from recess alot so I stopped because I rather be out there. Ended up hurting me not fighting in the future.

Insha Allah I hope you can heal from your wounds gerbie. You are one of my favorite creators on the platform, love your content.

This video hits too close to home. Incredible video as always Gerbert great fan!

I relate to this video a lot, now that I fight for myself constantly it gets exhausting. It gets very lonely.

My cousin and I were infamous in elementary school, and I was always known as (my cousin's) cousin. He was super energetic, outgoing, and loved to be around people. I was (am) the polar opposite, but we still did and do get along really well. Thinking about it, no one really cared about me, they just found it cool that we were related, because in fifth grade, he moved up state and went to a different school, and so I was alone. Everyone slowly grew away from me, which was not really unexpected because I didn't really like to be around people in the first place. In a slow downward spiral, everyone stopped listening to me, talking to me, and all my closest friends distanced themselves from me over other people. I was seen as the last option, as if the person next to me was somehow always better in some way. The feeling of always being left out because I wasn't good enough still comes up to this day when it happens. It's hard to comprehend just how much of an outcast I felt like, especially as a ten year old. I was a smarter and more logical kid than most others, but I still did comparatively worse academically that year. The beginning of the summer after that, I somewhat got the feeling that my parents were a little disappointed in me, and wished that I tried harder. Nor they listened to or helped me. I decided that I would hard grind and focus on improving myself, and middle school was much better. It's so obvious that what I went through changed my mental state. Everything I do now is ultimately because I want to make myself look better to other people so badly. I'm really competitive and one of the hardest working people in my generation, which makes for a deadly combination of growth in the things that I like to do. Most people, including you and I, Gerb, don't have faith in our generation, but I only hope I make it out because I can't stand, I fear the feeling of helplessness that much. Y'know, you remind of my cousin a lot, and we share a lot of the same sentiments. It's nice having someone that understands you.

@toplobster1040

Жыл бұрын

I just want you to know that I read your comment and I feel for you.

Insecurities, inferiority complexes and unfairness are part of life. However, one must do all they can to overcome those things head on.

@wtfimcrying

Жыл бұрын

yes

This channel is great! I love this kid he’s wise and appeals to me being almost twice his age. I always get hints he lives in Colorado to. Appreciate the work.

watching a gerbs video feels like talking to a real homie

Imagine going to a college party with Gerbert. That would be fun af, just listening to him throw random black pill jokes about whatever’s happening at the party

@themarathoncontinues4211

Жыл бұрын

I don’t think he’d do that tho 😂😂😂😂

@shalalalalalalalalalalala

6 ай бұрын

Parasocial af

When I went to school everyone would always call me a greaser and make remarks about my appearance which really made me self conscious even to this day I'm still self conscious just goes to show that school and all that education stuff is bullshit

@porkerpete7722

Жыл бұрын

Greases were the s*** back then. That's a compliment

Last few minutes were fax galore damn gerby

gerby's void is the best

big props to you for not becoming completley redpilled/blackpilled/incel'd or whatever and giving up on life, you've pulled through so much from those dark days!! we're all gonna make it!!

You really ain’t alone here. My first 3 years at secondary school (if you aren’t from the UK, secondary school is basically where 11-18 year olds go) were rough. I didn’t hit puberty until I was 14, was in the top 3 for shortest people in the year and was autistic, in other words I had pretty much every trait one could be belittled for. I was often thought of as being dumb because for some reason, everyone decided to think of me as more of a special ed autist than an intelligent autist. People often refused to say mature jokes around me because I was looking like a 9 year old at 12. They thought of me as slow also as they believed having shorter legs instantly makes one slower and the handful of people I actually beat in runs at PE ended up just refusing to accept it. Ultimately, it seemed as if everyone just wanted me to seem incompetent in every aspect. The last 4 years were much better tho the problems were still there at times. Once in dodgeball at PE, the chad on my team got all frustrated and decided to get a ball by snatching one of his teammates. Of course, I was his victim. Right now I’m 20 in the second year of uni studying maths. I took on chess as a hobby and progressed well, even managing to beat my brother with over a year of experience despite the fact I only had a few weeks of it. I’m also currently 3 months into a daily exercise routine. Despite this, I still don’t feel I’m good enough. To make things worse, I’ve never been in a relationship, and while I’m not planning on starting dating until I finish uni due to the workload (I’ll be like 21/22 then), I’ve had bad social anxiety as a result of my harsh first 3 years of secondary school and I doubt I’ll end up getting a gf until I’m at least in my mid 20s. Many ppl will probably further belittle me for that and be like “it ain’t hard, I got my first gf at 15,” though honestly, fuck those ppl tbh. Maybe I wouldn’t be so late if they didn’t trample me for 3 years. If you see this and wanna talk more about this kinda shit feel free to respond and I could give you my Instagram or Discord.

@icecold4085

Жыл бұрын

Sup Bro I'm from the UK aswell and wud probably wanna speak to u more abt this stuff

@void769

Жыл бұрын

lets go to therapy mate

@Hazaroth

Жыл бұрын

@@icecold4085 Sure, you got Insta or Discord?

@kenos911

Жыл бұрын

Same in Canada but it was only made worse by the fact that I started a year earlier (something something immigration)

@gasaidjohn3499

11 ай бұрын

​@@HazarothA bit late but do you have an online chess account? What's ur user?

This hits home hard.

Bro this one started with me smiling and grinning but soon made me real sad

8:30 same. The first bully I stood up to in early elementary, I was forced to kowtow and apologize to. Since then I’ve been a huge wuss when it comes to confrontation.

It's a gift and a curse to be this aware of things. A lot of the things that Gerbert says resonate with me as somebody who's never really had friends or very good social skills. Somebody who you could say was not "well adjusted". There's something tragic about somebody who is born as a "Chad" who never has to encounter this kind of hardship. Being so woefully ignorant to the state of things must set you up for failure later on. Then again though I am sure they will land on their feet just like everybody else, unlike us who will still be in some measure angry or resentful for the way we were treated when we were younger wishing that we did something different. Us, the people who know. Still there is no sense dwelling on the past. Take what strength and wisdom you can from it and use it to build a better future for yourself. Don't let it eat you.

Something I really admire about your content is how empathetic you are.

Man U are so relatable man it gives me peace knowing that others have lived like me and have had the same thoughts as me. For me it was growing up overweight and not being black enough and also not white. Being young and black liking anime and not getting girls man shit was tuff. Never was able to fully feel like I belonged completely but I had some amazing friend I made along the way. And weightlifting and bodybuilding is what got me ability to ascend beyond this void.

Although those experiences had damaged you a little, they are experience. You've seen the side of people that many of us don't get to see. I've been blessed to never deal with more than a few threats and stupid jokes from people since I'm 5''6'' but nothing too serious. Of course, the way people act around me is different. My classmates have this air of superiority around me. I don't like people and I don't want to form new connections with people either as I dislike their behaviour. I don't know and I heavily doubt I am a late bloomer, I think I will stay this way since I am 18.

@some_random_pog

Жыл бұрын

18 is still very young for you to say that you will never change bro. I had kinda similar experience as you (feeling inferior to others), but in college I was able to get few good friends who at first tolerated my distrustful behavior, then kinda started to like me and proved that I could say weird stuff to them without feeling awkward. I'm 23 btw and while even now I heavily distrust people by default, at least on surface I can make interacting with people tolerable. At least to have a facade of being approachable would a very good thing IMO. Me and especially you are very young, we can still change our behavior little by little. Good luck brother

@ignatcristian3036

Жыл бұрын

@@some_random_pog You are absolutely right. Thank you so much for the kind words and the encouragement. I really respect that you took your time to encourage a random stranger. By never changing I was mostly talking about my height. I'll admit I worded that poorly I made it sound like I'll never change as a person either. Although changing as a person is pretty difficult too but at least I have hope about that. I need to learn to respect myself and be grateful for the healthy body I was given, I must be grateful that I have the potential to do anything, I must learn to accept myself with my flaws and correct the issues I can correct.