I'm so grateful that you all are here. What started out as a "weekend hobby" has turned into a beautiful community of Polar Warriors. I can't thank you all enough for watching, liking, and sharing my videos. We are in this TOGETHER. Love you all

@susiehuckaby4317

4 жыл бұрын

So grateful for this community you have helped me so much about being bipolar and techniques to help especially the anger hope you’re doing well

@fasthoggen11

4 жыл бұрын

Polar Warriors this helps me a lot. I felt this way this weekend. Everything just made me angry.

@SpaceShipDeathstar

4 жыл бұрын

Anger shifts with the bipolar curve. Just as how productive you are able to participate in your world. I really like cars. Have a bunch, sold most due to my condition. Maybe I missed a video on that subject. Still I'd like to ask if there is better/healthier way to run with it. The best phase is being hypomanic - I might even be able to regulate myself. Manic - doing something is no problem, but stopping before it afflicts healt is super hard. On the depressive side I do not even go outside. Most of the time I am not super depressed but I am also super uninterested in leaving the tight space between bed and laptop. I would have been physically able to get stuff done the last weeks still I did not. When I shifted back to hypomania I did not even want to touch my computer for the nice weather and all the stuff I have lying around. This also connects to the issue of spendings. This is my best index for how manic I am. From beeing totally uninterested even in my own cars to the buy all the cars/buy all the parts. I am lucky to to be very well educated about the problems of beeing bipolar. So for the most part nothing bad happens anymore and I am also quite disciplined with my spendings. It just happened now that I again float in hypomania, that I look back at my life, before the huge outbreaks. I had genuine fun doing stuff (there were depressive elements, nothing that stopped me from going on). Nowadays I wait like for two thirds of the year till the hypomania kicks in and I am "back". Also talkativeness. All the words I am unable to get out in depressive times, they just come out endlessly now. So, sory for the long post.

@CelesteAHall

4 жыл бұрын

@@SpaceShipDeathstar appreciate your comments. Since my anger, & mood flips, have driven almost everyone away from me I sometimes feel so misunderstood and alone. Having ability to feel connected and obtain confirmation & understanding that I just have a different normal... So grateful to BiPolar Warriors !! Stigma decreases with understanding.

@marccrilly4500

4 жыл бұрын

Thanks for all that you do

I find something pisses me off , then it stays with me all day. It wont shift from my mind its unbearable at times.

@nellenearthur282

4 жыл бұрын

I feel your pain

@lappietova6277

4 жыл бұрын

Recognizable. Your mind gets its own live and you can't control. My solution is making myself force doing things. And brake the thinking circle. At certain time i ask myself: can i do something about it? Is it no, let it go.(easier said then done). Is it yes, make a planning what you gonna do and when. Remember its better to wait for some time, because then you are more away from " the splash" and its less emotional. Then you take action. The moment you arrange that you can let it go more. When "in the head spinning" is terrible i alway go for mindfulness or go bycing or swimming till i'm tired. Then i can "reset myself". Just like a dog training. Wish you all the best&stay save. Your fellow warrior.

@NickRyanBayon

4 жыл бұрын

Same it can last days sometimes if severe weeks

@QWERTY-ov9tm

3 жыл бұрын

That's a tough one. I tend to struggle with that too. Some things I can shrug off. I've noticed what gets to me is repeated behavior from an individual. The irony is that I do the same thing as well and it's that mirror that upsets me. I'm like, "ugh! That person acts just like I do."

@julesservantofjesus972

3 жыл бұрын

@@QWERTY-ov9tm Exactly! I get so irritated I lose it! I have actually scared myself before!

My marriage is ending due to my husband's bipolar rages, mood swings, resentment, delusions and totally negative interpretations of me and life in general. He's also been told he's schizzoeffective, which might explain him hearing voices. I love watching these videos, and sometimes I could get him to watch, thinking it would help. These videos help me realize it isn't all ME like he likes to tell me .I feel bad for people with bipolar, truly, but it also has quite a bit of sad and hurtful fallout for their partner :(

@victoriaperea7860

4 жыл бұрын

I'm in the same boat right now. We have 3 adult kids who he's always been close to and a role model for. The 2 of us have been married 29 years and together 32. I guess we were lucky to know the man that didn't show symptoms of Bipolar till his forties. The kids and I rarely find that we want to be around him because of his negativity and mood swings. It feels like a death to me. I've lost someone I loved. I listen to bipolar warrior every couple of days and it has really helped me to understand his disorder but the person that really needs to hear this information is him and he refuses to listen. My husband is VERY self centered and I wonder this is a trait that goes with the disorder.

@tomcleverley18

4 жыл бұрын

@@victoriaperea7860, in some ways being selfish is human. I have BP and my wife and I have been married going on 27 years. I am not (I will have my wife read this message as I have her read most that I send) as you describe your husband. I don't think that it's just a BP thing, but I do think that BP could very well make it worse and be more difficult for him to realize that he is not being reasonable with his actions and reactions. I have lost a couple of friends that I am pretty sure caught me in an episode before I knew that I was sick, sought help, and started medication. I expect that he will feel badly after he realizes what he has lost. I wish things were better for you and your husband.

@victoriaperea7860

4 жыл бұрын

@@tomcleverley18 Thank you for letting me know that this trait may just be accentuated by his BP. It really is the hardest thing for us to deal with. It seems like he only thinks of himself and doesn't do anything unless there is something in it for him. One of our sons lives with us he is visually impaired and often needs rides to appointments or to a friends house. My husband charges him gas money and like $10 each way! He hasn't worked in years and doesn't contribute to our household and you would think it is the least he could do is help out with giving our son a ride. It isn't even his car or his gas! LOL I'm feeling just a little bitter.

@kkech1

4 жыл бұрын

Being delusional is kinda part of having any mental illness. We tend to project our negativity on others, so we don't have to face reality. It's very hard to admit that you're sick. It seems to suck away all the good and accomplished sides of us. Admitting that we're sick feels like reducing us to only our negative traits. So we tend to overcompensate. It's nice to remind myself that I'm strong as an ox and near genius level smart. But i also have bipolar. So there's that. Try to remind him of both his positives and negatives, when he's his normal self. And that it doesn't make him any less human.

@fleurfidan502

3 жыл бұрын

It is so sad, but my ex won't medicate, won't listen, won't try to change. I had to get out after 10 years. He argues everyday with his narc mother. The rages are humongous. I have cancer and his out of control behaviour is not helping. I pleaded with him stop arguing with his mother, but it is like he craves the high it gives him.

My anger episodes involve smashing things...or imagining awful scenarios where I can diffuse it. I’ve never before diagnosis had such a depth of anger

@calypsowhiteheart7807

4 жыл бұрын

Same

@VeggieRice

3 жыл бұрын

You may want to ask a mental health specialist about BPD

@susanyeadon6657

3 жыл бұрын

Jacson C I was already diagnosed

@abegarfield543

2 жыл бұрын

Mine is at risk of ruining my life. Mental health isn't something the British police have a lot of information about and trying to explain it after the fact is pointless. I can get quite violent too and unfortunately I'm pretty good at it.

@kinetickhaos6144

2 жыл бұрын

@@abegarfield543 oh my god I'm exactly the same 🤣

I have so many issues with anger especially when I’m manic. I have driven crazy many times running stop signs, gotten in physical fights and said the meanest things to people. It’s because I’m scared out of my mind. The fear in my episodes in unexplainable.

@rasmusinterstellar

4 жыл бұрын

My insane anger is also related to an uxexplainable fear, the fear is so intense & insane, in most cases of my anger...

@kkech1

4 жыл бұрын

Uhm, do you have random goosebumps and paranoia? Fear even your close friends and family might turn on you? If so, that might be from psychotic episodes. Happened to me once about 2 years ago, but i blamed drugs at first.

@AncientEnergyEyesOpen

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for saying this. My gf of 12 years is going thru her 2nd manic episode. Her anger is so intense. Reading your words makes me wonder if her anger towards me is because she's afraid I'll leave her.

@Sarablueunicorn

3 жыл бұрын

@@AncientEnergyEyesOpen could also be borderline

@AncientEnergyEyesOpen

3 жыл бұрын

@@Sarablueunicorn that's my thought too. What Kras said up above made me think that. It seems more psychotic now than mania. We finally got a doctor to take us seriously, so we will see where it goes. Thank you

I destroyed the love of my life with anger. The relationship started beautifully and I wasn’t diagnosed, didn’t know how my anger would get control of me until everything is ashes now.

@badcompany7654321

4 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry

@sophievanderbilt1325

4 жыл бұрын

Kud Home I will have to disagree, as someone who fell in love with and married a man with bipolar disorder. He divorced me when he was abusing his meds and it ruined our love. He then obsessed over getting me back, and promised me the moon and the stars. We are together again now, but it isn't the same. Resentment and bitterness has turned us into a completely different couple. He still threatens to leave me again and again, depending on his mood swings or if he's properly medicating. Sometimes he blames our divorce on me, tells me I'm the one with problems, and has convenient memory loss when he's the one at fault. There are many days that I regret going back with him. Please don't put someone through this.

@TheRiverJordan3613

4 жыл бұрын

Sophie Vanderbilt thank you Sophie, that’s a sobering word. I wish it could be different but I’ve probably run out of chances. I’m still in a very confused state. She used to tell me I didn’t remember in arguments but sometimes I did remember and couldn’t get my perspective across. The whole thing became toxic but I’m left with this aching longing for what once was and it repeats and repeats and drives my depression. Thank you for your comment.

@sophievanderbilt1325

4 жыл бұрын

Theriver Jordan I'm truly sorry for what you're experiencing. I hope you find peace in whatever decision you make. I just wanted to bring light to how your relationship with her probably won't go back to how it was. I know my husband idolizes our dating/engagement phase (which was wonderful!) and he still longs for our younger years. But we can't go back to that, as we have broken trust and different feelings now that we're older. Time changes a lot of things. It's just different. I still love him very much, but it's a difficult life for us to be together. I wish you the best, really I do.

@kkech1

4 жыл бұрын

@@TheRiverJordan3613 This hits too close to home, bro.. I was undiagnosed too at that time. Killed a perfect relationship with toxic behavior and obsessions. Needed a good year or two to get over it. I still occasionally think about all of it, but know it can't ever be the same again. At least that breakup triggered a psychotic manic episode, so it pushed me to get professional help. Focus on understanding yourself and your ailment. Forgive her and yourself for everything that happened. You didn't know better at the time.

Man u captivate it and explain it perfectly i couldn't even put it into words thanks for your work

@fasthoggen11

4 жыл бұрын

Adam Quinn he absolutely did. This explains a lot.

@Rastasoul1

3 жыл бұрын

Yes he really did! 🙌🏾

@stephenfermoyle4578

3 жыл бұрын

yes he does

@AzureSkyzz

2 жыл бұрын

How long does it typically take for the anger to die down?

I go straight to anger when I’m off my meds-no matter if I’m manic or depressed.

@andreakustner-branson5544

Жыл бұрын

@RainbowDreams30 so true

I loved my husband one week, then I see him as being the problem to my being unloving towards him the next week. He hasn’t changed, nor has he said anything unloving. I accuse him of being too fat, or not doing more, yet it is my own drastic shift in how I am becoming the one who blames without positive proof. When I “come back” to feel loving towards my husband. It is as if, I “left” him and became Jekyll.... Sick of such a pattern.

@kellyhendrickson2178

4 жыл бұрын

SHARON MENDES sounds like what I go threw with my Borderline Personality. Wishing you the Very best! Big hugs. Xx

@GreenAndTheToe

3 жыл бұрын

I relate to you on this. I’ll be like “why do I even love him? Do I love him? I mean he isn’t like the best one out there” to “I cannot live without him. He is the best one”

@sathidevi6657

3 жыл бұрын

I am Dr Jekyll during mania & Hyde when in exhaustion

@felix121984

3 жыл бұрын

You are very compassionate and unconditional! Good luck hope he gets help !

@mermaidodessa7067

3 жыл бұрын

I totally feel you.. I have the same issue and I think I have the best man ever. I'm so scared of losing him

It's soul-sucking, and actually terrifying to be around the BP person who has this extreme anger. I was around it for years, finally left

My ex has such extreme rage everyday. I couldn't take it anymore.

@dangad5393

3 жыл бұрын

Feed him lithium orotate, theanine and ashwaganda

I often have to warn people "Don't poke the snake." Some listen...

@socialpsycho184

4 жыл бұрын

i have recently came to terms with that i am pissed off.. almost always.. and when im not i am absolutely ovet the moon about that, no feeling heavy, no feeling hopeless and no uncontrollable anger.. its in these moments ive learned what will push my "motherfucker button" also learned that you can know what will potentially set you off.. and you can educate family, friends and co-workers about this.. but it wount stop someone from going and pressing that button anyway. i hate this fkn disorder.. mainly cause i likr being in control or at least being to be avle to control how i react.. but that button overrides control and rasional reasoning.. and when it gets activated i get pissed off about the fact that i am pissed off and tgen pissed off at the fkr that activated it and then the actual trigger.. that shit spirals quickly and its so hard to stop and realize what is actually going on.. people should really think about what it takes us who is afflicted by this condition to not just "loose our shit" and fuck all the consiquences.. that for me is the hardest.. stopping the symptomatic me from taking over constantly being actively mindful of yourself and your surroundings and in order to stay what looks to other peoplr as "ok"....... im never ok.. not even close.. but if i can go a day with fighting just myself and not fighting with soneonevelse i call that day a win.. and btw.. the fact that i have to live like this and i see other peoole just going about their day all happy and shit. well.. that pisses me off to. i have learned tho that being angry and acting on it is not the same.. but when the notherfucker button is pushed all bets are off.. and then im back to being a controlles angry hostile asshole. i gotta say tho, these videos have hrkped me alot. i tend to sketch now when i feel an episode coming. it helps me focus on the now and calms me just a little bit.. cause to the paper i can talk to and say anything.. it doesnt care.. i can take all the issues ive sketched and throw it away after im done and it won't come back with hurt feelibgs or resentment.. this is hard to find in people.. cause they just dont get it.. and how can they.. i mean..im the one with this illness and i don't get it.. i do know is that i need an outlet.. 😳 a healthy outlet.. so.. step 1... find a healthy outlet.. step 2... use it

@kinetickhaos6144

2 жыл бұрын

@@socialpsycho184 Are you bipolar one or two I am exactly like this and I need help my life is crumbling and this covid made uk mental health useless I'm suffering

For those who are bipolar, do you ever get SO mad crazy and feel like your whole body is gonna explode? And u feel like no one has ever felt that level of anger/rage that is eating u up inside and then you feel weak and...... GOSH I CANT EXPLAIN

@stevestarr6395

3 жыл бұрын

Yes!

@Thewritingelf

2 жыл бұрын

Absolutely!

@thefrog4990

Жыл бұрын

Yes. Often over the smallest things, or for no reason. Or for things that happened years ago and I'm thinking about it again. I'm always pissed off tbh.

@shuiwahlee5836

8 ай бұрын

All the time

@Skummyemo

8 ай бұрын

Yes. More than you could ever understand.

Losing my girlfriend scared the shit out of me. I didn’t realize I had bipolar till now , she loved me more than anything and I loved her back but my bipolar messed with my brain , I feel so bad for hurting her. She hates me now and I can’t stop feeling guilty for the damage that I did, I’m honestly a piece of shit and I take full responsibility for it. I didn’t deserve her, I knew since day one I would lose her one day, I always thought she deserved better than me . I’m a fucking idiot. I didn’t know what love was until I met her, I never saw real love, I saw abuse, fighting, anger, and cheating. I can’t believe I damaged such a good person and I was too fucking blind to realize I was in the wrong. No matter how many times I apologize, it’s not gonna work, she made up her mind. I’m going to get her a birthday gift and it’s farewell from there. I love you Sara and I’m sorry for not realizing I had a issue until the damage was done, you deserve the best life, you deserve so much more that I could give, I love you and I thank you for the lesson you taught me. I didn’t know I could love again until I met you, I love you and I hope for the best . Fuck me for ruining the best real relationship I could have ever had. I’m currently getting in anger management and counseling. I need to fix myself

@miked9596

11 ай бұрын

Where u at now brother. Can u get us an update on your life and ur age

@shuiwahlee5836

8 ай бұрын

🙏🙏🙏

@sally-kz7nz

6 ай бұрын

Your story is so sad. I'm in a fairly new relationship with a bipolar man and I'm slightly terrified. So far it's going well but he keeps saying he's scared he's gonna end up hurting me cos he drives everyone away who loves him. I'm going to give it a shot tho. These videos and comments are immensely helpful. I hope your life is better now

@antoineborg1327

6 ай бұрын

Hope you feel better now, even when we speak we feel better, Keep strong and positive is the better way.

When i have episodes, they usually don't get physical, but i start saying some rude and crazy shit and can't control it. I start shaking uncontrollably and it takes me about an hour to cool down.

@melinabobina9107

2 жыл бұрын

I feel like I started out like this and got progressively worse

@jonibakwood

20 күн бұрын

I do the same things but my heart starts to hurt when I get to over stimulated

I’ll get annoyed first and then builds up to anger inside my safe space where I can use something to extinguish the anger

Finally someone is talking about this. Thx

I notice I'm way more paranoid than usual when I'm angry at something or having a bad day. Everything makes sense to me and I can't imagine how no one else understands and it's annoying. I get angry because I feel like "it's not a coincidence" when something happens or something like that

You must have been a fly on my wall as you posted this video. It's a struggle to know if the anger is legitimate many times. It's a blurry line between feeling confident in standing up for yourself and feeling the need to be heard and understood so desperately it turns ugly. It's human to have things you are always passionate about and sometimes mentally healthy and well adjusted people must be uncharacteristically confrontational to be heard. It's so important to be very self aware and trusting of the close relationships in your life. If not, it will be a lifelong battle to maintain your self esteem and happiness.

@johnruhland9428

3 жыл бұрын

Bingo

@marciadupiche1656

3 жыл бұрын

So true. I can relate completely. You are not alone.

@royschou407

3 жыл бұрын

I agree with everything you said, I feel the same way

@royschou407

3 жыл бұрын

Hi Laura,how are you doing?

My husband gets his release by blaming everyone and says, "everyone is irritating me needs to leave me alone!!" And it's intense and the rest of us are confused and hurt. It's really tough living with him and deciding if he's being a true jerk or is this an episode.

It’s strange that when I was diagnosed BP and got my meds in order, my road rage subsided. Now I drive like Hoke in Driving Miss Daisy.

The sad reality of this channel is that more people who live with bi polar disorder are watching this than people who actually have it, it is so frustrating to see how some people dont want to confront there demons, i thank you for your videos and hope this message gets to the right people and believe me it helps.

Yes, anger can be a major thing with me if I’m crossed by someone and yes it’s a burning anger that I hate and know it’s wrong! 😞

you know you got it bad when you start crying when your mad

@julesservantofjesus972

3 жыл бұрын

Oh yeah! When I cry, I'm REALLY angry!

@TheDbugg

3 жыл бұрын

Me too

I absolutely love your videos. Since my diagnosis I’ve shared your videos with my mom to educate her. It’s made such a difference. Stay safe during this difficult time 😊🌸.

@NaturalLoveZ25

4 жыл бұрын

LunarHalo_ Studies* me too! With friends and such. Recently this was my diagnosis I was uneducated about it beforehand sadly.

I start slamming things if I get angry. I slam stuff in my bedroom, in the kitchen, etc, my spatula was bent, my pot was broken too. I kick everything secretly. Also, I said rude words to people close to me. You know, they just call my name and I shout to them. I always think my issue is anger management. I feel like it gives me a sense of relief. After that, when I have broken the relationship, I realized how bad I was.

My wife says it is "fun" to watch tv with me. I attack every commercial that comes on. My reasons for my anger are sound but others do not see why I get so angry . We dont watch much regular tv. I am basically pissed off at the whole world.

Robert, you've done it again! As usual you have really broached a very difficult symptom in this adventure called bipolar disorder. I have recently been dealing with anger issues. Lately it hasn't taken much for me to get all worked up over other people's actions. I feel guilty when I catch myself being overly critical of people. It's been a real struggle to keep a balance view of things and people without getting angry. Sometimes I feel like it wants to consume me. But, I remind myself that the anger will pass if I allow it to. So far I'm managing but not without some difficulty. Thanks Robert for a great video.

@lynndiedricks8903

4 жыл бұрын

Same

When you said “when you don’t have that door to slam you’ll have anxiety because that outlet we’re used to is gone, which makes it worse” that had me stop in my tracks- my mom is an easy trigger for me, but now she moved out and I don’t have her anymore, and my anxiety and angry outbursts had been incredibly more frequent. Now knowing and having insight into this is a big step to controlling it. I probably wouldn’t have figure this out if it wasn’t for your video, thank you

I wish people understood the difference between Bipolar, Borderline Personality Disorder, and Intermittent Explosive Disorder.

@noriyealice5916

4 ай бұрын

What’s the main differences

I had to distance myself from my adult daughter as she seems to be unaware of how much damage her behavior causes, her anger episodes being the most acutely damaging. One anger episode scared me with its sudden, random onset, and with the danger of her driving at the time with me as her passenger.

@PolarWarriors

11 ай бұрын

Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles like his recent hospital stay. Take gentle care! 🙏 Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors

Mine isn't even anger anymore; its rage. I've broken things, screamed until I felt my head was going to explode, started huge unnecessary arguments without seeing that I started it, put holes in walls, caused hairline fractures and countless bruises, busted knuckles, left whole sections of skin covered in scratches, etc.. I hate it. I keep trying to explain to my fiancé that most of it is a reaction and I'm having trouble repressing it.. People just think I'm not trying anymore. The real issue is that there's no solving what started my rage. No one's going to apologize.

@Xphearous

Жыл бұрын

- has anything worked for you? I have the same problem but maybe even worse. I have 2 or 4 episodes every damn day and my voice and hands never get a chance to heal. Ive broken every dish, mug, door frame and window in my house and scream for about an hour non-stop, yelling words such as "kill me please! Make it stop! Fuuuuhhh, god please make it stop, i want to die! Help!" On and on with every breath i take, and it only stops about 40 minutes of endless uncontrollable rage and emotional agony (all these negative emotions of jealousy, remorse, grief, loss, injustice, anger) and then i collapse and my heart is beating 200 bpm and im sweating and bloody and can only lay there on the floor breathing rapidly and heavily. Feels like a heart attack at the end of every episode. I cant take any more of this. Please, has anything worked for you??

God damn. YOU JUST DROPPED SOME KNOWLEDGE ON MY HEAD. My eldest sister currently struggles with bipolar anger. The scenarios and behaviors you spoke about actually describe her! I really am just trying to understand her better. Thank you for all the good you do for people.

I find that everything turns black and anyone trying to talk to me in that moment is like background noise, I’m so focused on the rage. My whole body shakes.

Yeah so amplified that I've drawn up divorce papers twice and then I come to my senses. Welcome to my anger.

@vanessagutierrez2325

4 жыл бұрын

Sarah Smile same

@kellyhendrickson2178

4 жыл бұрын

Sarah Smile me too. I’ve tried over 19 years to divorce my husband 4 times and thousands lost in attorney fees. 😔

@sarahsmile2883

4 жыл бұрын

@@kellyhendrickson2178 the struggle is real girl. Hang in there

@MB-pf9ox

3 жыл бұрын

Same with me. Then I come to my senses in like 3-7 hours. Luckily my Fiancé is an angel!

@MB-pf9ox

3 жыл бұрын

Sara smile as in Hall & Oates :-)

Can you please do a video on Ghosting, cutting someone off, ignoring someone that you cared about until..... Is that Mania? Can this be forever? How long does this usually last? Love your channel. Thank you for sharing everything that you do.

I was recently diagnosed with bipolar type 2 a few months ago (I’m 24) I’m still learning about it

me, too: homicidal rage and hypersensitivity, staying angry for hours, like killer bees. Lamictal has really brought this out. So glad that I have my wits about me, recognize this and defuse it. I don't want to hurt anybody or wind up in jail for a momentary lapse in control.

Yup! Me rn. It’s a consuming anger. Even people breathing around me angers me...which makes me wish I could make them stop breathing at some point. That’s when I walk away...

This...hurts. It hurts to finally get an answer to why so many people i cared for would do this. It sounds exactly like them and it hurts but it helps me understand and process what i saw them going through. Thanks for this.

I cried in relief just feeling validated. thank you.

Only a minute and 40 seconds in and wow...i didn’t know anyone else could explain in such detail what i feel.The anger is just so hard to control,i lash out and do things i wouldn’t even think about doing when i calm down.

Exactly. And people don't help because they "help you find the reason why you are angry". I have always felt isolated, but at the same time every little thing annoyed me at some point. I thought I was cured again...of course it wasn't the case. I am trying to use mindfulness. We can make it :)

@PolarWarriors

4 жыл бұрын

Yes we can Nicoletta!

I've been having these problems since I was in high school and I'm 21 now. I got diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder at age 16 and have found myself crying because it feels good to not be alone. My emotions may be magnified by my episode right now, but coming across these kinds of videos helps a lot.

You just explained a decade of anger in 5 minutes. Thank you.

Thank you Sir for sharing . I was with 2 women who were Bipolar and I am no longer with them . One for 20yrs had a Beautiful daughter. She had episodes of Rage and was also very promiscuous and I could not deal. I dont cheat and the other lady was the same and I left and never looked back. Sad I'm 53 and with no one . Will not be with anyone ever again . I wish I had this info yrs ago I might knew how to deal with it . God bless you all. I love God and wish the best for everyone who is bipolar. I want ever be with another bipolar again. I hope with the info we have we can treat this sad disease.

@felix121984

3 жыл бұрын

White boy !

@samanthahardy9903

Жыл бұрын

Anger is one of many reasons why I have chosen to be on my own for a number of years. I have bipolar disorder and feel it's better for me to not be with a significant other. It takes it's toll on relationships and with friends and family. Not many people can tolerate my mood swings and inconsistency of highs and lows. It's very confusing for a partner to see the person they fell in love with to seemingly change overnight into someone else. I don't want to put anyone else through that again. I've loved and lost so many people over the years through my own irresponsible actions which have resulted in a lot of heartache on both sides that it's better to be on my own. Fortunately I have a supportive family who try to understand the condition but it's not easy on them either. I'm 52 and can understand why you left your previous partners due to the hypersexuality and anger outbursts. It can make you question, "Was it me? Did I do something wrong? Was it them? Did they do it on purpose?" So many unanswered questions. Often it's neither of you. It's the condition itself which is the cause. It can be a difficult choice to walk away from someone with bipolar disorder. However, sadly the person with the condition can't walk away from the bipolar themselves and have to deal with it.

This is so pertinent to my day. I have been trying to clean out some boxes today and after a while I got frustrated and started just yelling and swearing and taking it out on my husband. It’s so hard for him - he has trouble understanding my disability because he himself has some issues and refuses to admit it. I have always been prone to road rage. As I matured I learned how to handle it... better. But once in a while, some jerk REALLY ticks me off. I was on an on ramp to the expressway and this idiot was trying to pass me even though there really wasn’t a lane. I sped up and all of a sudden he gunned it and drove almost 100 mph just to pass me. I got so upset that I drove like a maniac until I was right behind him and I followed him that way until I finally had to get off at my exit. Then the rest of the day I couldn’t get over it. You were right about this behavior not reflecting my actual personality. I am known to be kind, helpful, easy going. I don’t even kill mosquitoes so endangering people with my driving is definitely not me. Once the anger is gone it is replaced by extreme self-loathing. I did actually turn to Buddhism when I had to be on the expressway every day. I carried a mala with me and repeated the Tibetan compassion mantra for each bead while listening to temple monks chanting. It really helped. 🙂 If someone or something profoundly upsets me, I can ruminate for days. Can’t think clearly, can’t sleep. Mental illness is the proverbial monkey on your back- clinging, taunting, always there.

@missbehavin3370

3 жыл бұрын

Bravo!! U helped me tremendously in sharing ur life stories😇💋

@artistrg3487

4 ай бұрын

Your last sentence speaks to me, having lived with ADHD, generalized anxiety and OCD most of my life.

This video is extremely well timed. Woke up angry. Needed to be reminded that it amplifies everything and have to be mindful.

I find myself trying to not talk or engage with others like at church because i don't want to say the wrong thing or get triggered.

Thank you for putting out new episodes in these tough times, your work is greatly appreciated!

I was always an overachiever during the first 3/4 of my graduate studies in law, HEAVILY over-worked myself and was very ambitious with my goals, maybe because I usually experience very long lasting periods of “functional” hypomania. I kept this pace until I absolutely crashed and my life crumbled. Had to put my studies/work on hold for 5 years, which I’m actually thankful for, because I learned SO MUCH about my bipolar disorder. I’ve been doing coaching and psychotherapy for 3 years now, as well as some yoga and meditation. And I’m finally back on my meds after having recovered emotionally from my beloved dog passing away last September. Things are SO MUCH BETTER now. Especially since I discovered your channel. You’ve given me the beautiful gift of hope and being able to understand my condition while also offering specific advice and tools for managing my symptoms. The only reason I mentioned a simplified version of my journey was to point out that I’m overjoyed by the fact that I was finally able to enroll back in school and I’m only one year away from graduating as a lawyer. I’ll be using what I can from my first paycheck to support your work on patreon, because I’m so grateful for you and your content. Greetings from Colombia.

I've described my anger like a shark smelling blood in the water. I go into a frenzy and cannot stop...until I exhaust myself. Anything can set it off, which is as disturbing to me as much as people around me. When I'm grandiose, it takes on another dimension.

Great topic Rob. Thanks for the time you put into these videos.

Thank you Rob and community for your help and understanding. Much Gratitude. Lisa in Florida♡♡♡

I have been the punching bag of an undiagnosed brother who was evicted for non payment from his condo and is living with me. Yesterday, I couldn't take the abuse anymore and kicked him out of my house. He is still here he said "to make my life miserable". He is always angry, obsessed, abusive. I see him now as someone who i dont know, as a stranger who invaded my life and is destroying it.

I’ve watched so many of your videos and I can’t get over on how perfectly you describe everything I go through. Just incredible. The more I listen to you' the more I realize how much help I need 😞😞 thanks so much for all you do.

Thanks Rob, As always I'm learning from you along the way. Its crazy to see how I act when manic. I've thought my anger was so over the top & could never figure out way. Now I'm learning to understand why & trying to identify the triggers. Thank you my friend.

I get so much validation for how i sometimes feel therefore i don't feel like such a freak.

This video in particular helped me to understand A LOT of my actions and mindset(s) from over the years. I couldn't even put these things into words properly for my therapist until I watched this. I really appreciate you taking the time to make this vid. I have only seen a handful of your vids so far but yeah, this is great stuff. Thank you again.

Thank you so much for this video.. looking back it seems as if I've had issues with anger all my life, even childhood. As an adult my friendships, relationships were affected negatively by anger. But once my medications were stabilised my mood has improved and I have less anger,now. By then my life has become null. Very few friends,now. But I've learned to differentiate between manic rage, manic anger and anger. This video brings so much clarity. Thank you.🙏🏾

Thanks Rob! This is a video that will be watched often. Still getting a place just for me to cool off and pull myself back together.Thank you so much for sharing your challenges and of your Victories too. I know we all have different challenges, Right now with all that's going on i have to remember what's most important to me and stay away from triggers and manage my emotions. Thanks Rob! 👍

Robert, thanks again for all the effort you put into all the BP Warrior videos. We are all better off for your efforts. I'm not often in this situation, but I can recall (especially before I started medication) some times when I had misdirected anger or was more angry than justified. I have said before that we who suffer with BP need to do our best to be good to those we love when we are well, and try very hard to minimize our bad when we are not well. Take care and GOD BLESS.

Appreciate the content, glad there is a channel that can articulate the struggles of being bipolar.

Thank you for this! This is my 1st video of yours to watch, and you already make more sense of what I'm going through than my psychologist. I'm 45 and was recently diagnosed as BP1, but have been misdiagnosed for 45 years, so I'm finally about to get to see a psychiatrist about meds and so forth. Thank you, again, for the explanation of what I couldn't say in words myself because of the anxiety, anger, etc...!

I love how you described it as anger that scares the shit out of you because it's such a scary and honest truth and hits home with me for sure.. thanks for being a voice and bringing awareness to people

Amazing video. Great job articulating feelings and situations. Better than any Dr on the internet.

Thank you so much for this video, the description of the manic anger is so good. My anger destroys so much in my life & my anger is so enourmous I can go into black out. Both my wife & I found this video helpful, especially the strategies you point out. I'm so scared of my anger & Im So furious angry at the whole world, when im anger mania. When I calm down I get so overwhelmed with shame, guilt & self-contempt, I cant bear to be inside myself, I cant look anyone in the eyes, especially my wife, I feel like the whole world hates me, when Im off the anger. The manic anger is one of totally chaos, I yell so fast & loud I cant even get the words out of my mouth, & there is absolute no meaning or context in my behavior. My anger can also be activated through hyper-sexuality. Again thank you so much for this video & the strategies, Ill try and use them...

Seriously crying right now because you have explained everything I have felt but was unable to put into words. I am thankful for finding this page thank you for having this channel here and helping (I am sure so many) me find a voice for the confusion going on inside me.

@PolarWarriors

3 жыл бұрын

You are so welcome 🙏🏽

Thank you for creating this channel it's been very helpful

Thanks for sharing some of your insights! Anger is one of my biggest weak points, even during times of stability. It's embarrassing to display it physically; even if it's only taken out on property. I've only recently discovered this channel, but have found great solace in knowing that the intense emotions I feel are commonplace amongst those suffering from bipolar disorder. I enjoy combing through the catalog of videos you have compiled over the years, and greatly appreciate your tireless effort to do good. Stay safe ❤

Another great video. Always gives me hope. I also show these to my family and partner. You can explain things in ways I can't express to them sometimes and it helps. Thank you.

Thank yo so much for your video. I have read a lot about bipolar but you have captured the essence of anger in the context of bipolar. You have done so in a way that it's validating and informative. The anger literally feels like a raging fire which starts in your brain and rapidly consumes your entire body, while your mind continues to fan it. Not even the imperative of self preservation is enough to manage it at its worst.

Thank you for all these! You're doing Gods work!

Thank you for these, sir. I am a rapid cycling bpd w/ schizoaffective and a lot of unresolved PTSD; and I am a single mother of a toddler. I am terrified of what I don't recognize in my own behaviors, and your insights help me to stay vigilant for her.

Thank you for all this information,we've learned a LOT from you ,husband was just diagnosed with bipolar 1,we love YOU

Certain situations at work,trigger my anger,lies deceit,not taking responsibility for their messups,is driving me of the wall,

I'm 39 tomorrow and I have felt this since I was 17. I remember distinctly my first bipolar rage moment and 22 years later I still battle with it. It has cost me jobs and relationships along with enjoyment in hobbies. Thank you sooo much for sharing this. None of my friends understand, like it's taboo to be bipolar

Once something goes bad during a day that I am in a mixed episode or overtmania I get extremely frustrated and lash out even if it's intended towards the wrong person it's literally like snowball affect but not just that if I'm in a mixed episode I will have extreme anxiety/hypomania kind of overthinking 2Xtreme I don't know just learning how to put all this contact I have to get my meds adjusted again I believe one emotion at a time /one minute at a time one /breath at a time } rationalize and be patient{ what works best for "NOW" Even still there's extremely hard days .. but thank you for this video I really enjoyed it again it's like BRAIN nourishment

I've turned to watching this video to help with Bipolar anger. I'm reducing medication as I can't tolerate side effects so I'm experiencing anger a lot this week. Your tone, empathy, kindness and great techniques have helped de escalate me away from crisis.

My boyfriend and I moved to another city after nine months of living together and everything tumblerred down in 30 minutes (yes, 30 minutes). I suddenly found myself arrested and I lost everything (literally and figuratively). I've been officially diagnosed and I'm taking medication, I was lucky and could keep my job. Have read lots of books and watched videos about bipolar disorder and my life makes much more sense now. I'm still in the recovery process for the rest of my material world but feel completely empty emotionally. I cry every day and recently have had very strong anger "episodes" (don't know if that's the best way to call them) I feel I can't control myself... It's exhausting!

I have a low threshold for frustration when im “normal”, so it’ll be “explosive”. I get mad, yell, then I’m over it and be perfectly fine (adhd type stuff). I’m noticing now when I’m in a possible mixed episode (waiting for a diagnosis, but the puzzle pieces are fitting together), the anger is rage. Just pure rage bubbling underneath the surface BEGGING to come out. I’ll flip out over practically anything and I can’t cool off. I self isolate and tell my kids to not talk or come near me. I tell them “moms on one right now. It’s not your fault. I’m sorry I’m being like this but please give me my space.” I’m not a confrontational person by any stretch. I’m super patient with strangers and service workers. How I know I’m in the danger zone is when im PRAYING for a stranger to come at me wrong so I can just unload on them.

Thanks Rob. You help me so much, a lot to understand my husband feelings. I’m always here waiting for your next video.

I get angry for nothing and don’t realize it until i start to come out of it. Usually. And sometimes it’s coupled with paranoia and at the extremes delusions+paranoia+angry. But I can also be depressed at the same time, which even i don’t understand.

I am daughter of a bipolar woman with severe anger issues we have suffered most of our childhood, my siblings, and I due to her problem. I come to this video because I don’t know what else to do to help her. I’m tired of having to deal with her, and all of her issues have given every single one of us in the family emotional and mental distress. We are trying to give her one more chance. I hope all your advice can help us improve the situation a little ❤ thank you for making these types of videos

@PolarWarriors

13 күн бұрын

Hi there! I'm so glad you found Rob's channel! Your story is very common, you're not alone! In case you are interested Rob offers one on one support on Patreon and he has a support group for patrons only on discord where we have a lot of loved ones who attend. He also has a specific group for partners and family as well. Would love to have you there! Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors

Hi Robert this video was me 100% when I get mad. I use to take my anger out on my boyfriend of even my Mom. Depending on who was around at the time. But since I have been watching your videos and applying them to my life. My anger is not as severe as it has been. But when the anger does creep up and I yell and say things that I don't mean I always apologize for my actions. And tell the person the reason why I was so mad in the first place. Coming to terms with having Bypoler has not been an easy road but a necessary road. Thank you for making these videos Robert that have literally changed my life.

@Robertodicartlos

3 жыл бұрын

The worst part is saying things we don’t mean..

Thank you so much. I needed this. You’re a lifesaver

@PolarWarriors

3 жыл бұрын

You're so welcome!

My children and I are having to face my husband’s bipolar disorder for the first time. We are a blended family. This video was a spotlight on our biggest issue...thank you for explaining bipolar anger. I have had immense difficulty understanding this symptom and how to deal with it because I can’t relate to it. I have a temper just like anyone, but I can talk myself down. Your videos are helping me see that my husband hasn’t just been making excuses for poor self-control, he really is working with a very different kind of brain than mine. Thank you!

I appreciate your honesty and openness!!! So helpful. Thank you!!

Great video, Rob. Keep up the great work!

I’ve never been able to put it into words, thank you this helps a lot.

This one comes right on time. Thanks for the words and dedication. You're making a big diference into healing.

@PolarWarriors

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much! Also a big THANK YOU for being a long time subscriber! Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member Rob: I really need your help to keep a good thing going here... PLEASE consider supporting Polar Warriors work on Patreon. Even just $1 a month makes a huge difference. Thank you so much

Both mania and depression bring anger for me. Loneliness seems to be the core trigger; I can usually break it down after the anger episode and see that. I then blame myself for this loneliness, and the anger is turned inward.

My brother, I'm 99% sure is bipolar. It is so difficult. Vacillates from nice and pleasant part of the year to outright mean and vengeful the other. I'm at a lose.

Great job on this. My heartburn went away. I'm calm now. THX! :)

Thank you so much for posting this video. It has really helped me out. I am diagnosed bipolar2 as well as generalized anxiety disorder and adhd. Anger and rage are no stranger to me. You really put it into perspective for me. Thanks again, I'm truly grateful for your videos!

@PolarWarriors

2 жыл бұрын

I'm so glad Stephanie! So glad you are part of the community!

I'm so happy I found your page Was diagnosed in July . I'm finally understanding myself

i think this was and is one of the best i have seen....you summed it all up. thank you

I could really relate to your video. The problem I have when I get angry is I leap to self harm as a release I’ve been told many times go for a walk or get away from the situation I just never seem to make it too that. I’m also very good at slamming doors or crazy driving if I get triggered. I’m glad other people have the same feelings and I’m not alone.

Just had to listen to this again. Thankful you are “here”

Thank you again for another spot on video.