hey man. I lost my sister a few days before Christmas 2014 in a traffic accident. She was 22 and I was 17 at the time. I didn't know how to cope. I asked my aunt for advice (she had also lost her brother, also a car accident, sometime in 2006) and what she told me stuck with me: "You never forget. Wounds never heal. With time, you just learn to tolerate the pain." And now, 9 years later, I see how true her words were. I try to live every waking moment as if my sister can see through my eyes, to give her a life she never got to experience. I hope - no, I'm sure - she's proud of me, and that's what keeps me going. And I'm sure your sister is proud of you, too. Stay strong.

@JayTCU

5 ай бұрын

“You never get over it, you learn to deal with it” that’s how It was told to me. I’ve been fortunate to not have any losses in my immediate family(knock on wood). I don’t ever want to know what’s that’s like.

@ankitchauhancr7

5 ай бұрын

Sorry for your loss man.

@eigelgregossweisse9563

4 ай бұрын

Sorry for your loss man, I don't want to be counterintuitive, but Hugo's death or change was completely avoidable. I guess they really want the terminal illness metaphor to relate to the players. I doubt that though.

@HOGR95AMERICAN

4 ай бұрын

Sorry for youre lose did you find it or he losting 😢😢😢 sorry for this story

@bvilleD

4 ай бұрын

amazing words...thanks for sharing and sorry for your loss. she IS proud of you, especially her knowing that she mean so much to you and you still want her to be happy.

Do I play A Plague Tale Requiem? Yes. Did I get spoiled? Yes. Do I regret ignoring the warnings? No. This was such a personal video for you and hearing you talk about these things was worth the spoiler. Neon, you're an incredibly strong person and your sister would be proud

I'm sorry for your loss man. Stay strong, love your stuff.

@heheshshdbsjshjswkqfi

5 ай бұрын

Yea but I don't understand why he called himself overdramatic over his sister death, like what are you allowed to suffer then, what can you cry for if not for missing somone

The one line that broke me in the end was Hugo saying "I've been happy with you" he did not care that he was going to die instead Hugo just accepted it and the only thing he really cared about was every moment that he got to spend with his sister. Man this game just messes with your head.

My condolences for your sister. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you to even talk about this. These videos have been one of the best things that I've seen on this platform for the past few years and I want you to know just how amazing content you make. Thank you.

Just played it a week ago. It was a second time that a game made me so devastated and depressed. Its music is especially so fitting and it's still hard to listen to without falling into despair

@adk7165

5 ай бұрын

What was the first one? For me it would be TLOU2. Not necessarily depressed but absolutely emotionally exhausted and done.

@RafaelDiez

5 ай бұрын

@@adk7165 The first was Horizon Zero Dawn. Though it was 6 years ago, I wasn't quite experienced with games, and also was sort of predisposed to sadness at that time, so I'm not sure if the game was truly that good or not. But Plague Tale's drama is certainly masterfully done. I've just started playing TLoU 1 by the way. Curious to see if it's truly as good as the reviews say

I’m so glad you talked about the idea that Hugo could be fine if they found a safe place. I never saw anyone talking about that possibility - instead assuming that he would always succumb. Your explanation cleared up the lingering questions I had there, so thank you!

I had understood the circumstances of your sister before, and as an older brother it just breaks my heart. I have a lot of respect that you shared so much about it and wish you all the best. As for the game, I didn't enjoy the story except for a few small moments between Amicia and Hugo, but I have a lot of appreciation for the studio and a TON of respect for your experience with it.

Love your witcher stuff and your branching out to other games has been fun to watch, looking forward to this one especially because I've played it. I'm so sorry for your loss, glad this game was able to help you in some way

@JayTCU

5 ай бұрын

He actually mentioned it in a previous video but it was so brief I thought it happened ages ago. People often overlook video games not as a coping mechanism, but as a source for healing.

I lost my beloved stepmom in 2017, my Father in 2019, and my mother on 2021, stepmom anf father of cancer in their late 50s, and my mother of als, having my parents gone before age 35, it was so hard, ot still is, i still cry out of nowhere, people say it gets better, when?, idk its not better for me, i just hope for anyone that recently lost someone, you're not alone ❤

Never played A Plague Tale, but The Last of Us was similar for me. It didn't change my life but my perspective on a lot of things shifted from that experience.

sorry about your loss... my eldest sister also passed away last July this year as well from cervical cancer just 3 days away from my dad's bday... life... take care and all the best this 2024 i guess...

Did not disappoint as per usual. As someone who recently had the unfortunate circumstance of having the one year anniversary of losing his dad; also somehow ended up playing games that dealt with losing dad's and diving deep into metal and dark trap, I am sorry for your loss. Im glad you have had a successful 2023 and Im sure your sister would be proud of you. May You have a Most Blessed 2024 my friend!

Omg, what are the odds. I just finished this game last night!

This is the only game to ever make me weep. I can't imagine playing right after losing someone. It's funny how media always seems to find us in those moments. To show us that we're not alone. And we never really are. Hope you're doing better man. Sounds like you are :)

I subbed for TW3 content but you’re so entertaining I’ve stayed for games I don’t have any interest in.

My condoleances to you man i hope 2024 is beter for you bro and if its not keep listening to Slayer that fixes most things at least a bit

I probably never would have given this game a second look but your video has me interested. And if thoughts and prayers from random internet guy helps at all I am sorry to hear about your sister. I can’t imagine going through that and I hope you find peace and comfort.

As an only child and having only my mother left as family, both games were a window for me on what it would be like to have a sibling, I loved them both regardless of plot holes and other minor things

Massive respect for putting yourself out there like this man. This can’t have been an easy video to make. Wishing you all the best going forward into the new year and to the new content!

"Requiem" is not only a story well told, it is a story that needed to be told. Because in the end it talks about hard truths, and following Amicia through this story and reflecting about her path enables you to discover these truths - about yourself or about others. It documents the power of allegorical story telling, its way of using metaphors as a lens to provide a new perspective. In that it becomes not only entertaining but also enlightening, as it does not distract you from yourself and make your forget, but actually makes you reflect and learn. "Requiem" is one of the finest examples in pop culture. Another examples are Grimm's Fairy Tales or "Star Trek" (the classic one, until 2005). To me at its core APT is about not losing your humanity, your ability to have empathy and compassion in a world full of hate and violence, and Amicia's and Hugo's struggle within themselves. And both come out of this struggle differently, as both are different characters with different prepositions and at a different state of maturity. Amicia is a remarkable character, that stays with you after you followed her story. Because you feel that you can learn from her. And she suffered for you to be able to. You cannot give enough credit for her creators, like writer Sébastien Renard, motion capture actress Robyn Wolf, voice actress Charlotte McBurney, character designer and CGI model creator Olivier Ponsonnet, and the animators who provided additional in-game performances (like Lise Sourlier who played Amicia hugging Hugo one last time or worked on Amicia's animation breaking down in the hidden room). Through their talent and love for story telling Amicia came to life and they created a character that truly is so much more than just the sum of her parts. I started playing "Innocence", because I saw by accident a playthrough on YT and thought, it looked nice and enabled me to explore 14th century medieval France a little. The epic journey I would embark and how deeply touched I would be by it at the end, I had no idea. Such a wonderful surprise!

I'm sorry for your loss, my condolences.

I'm a very stoic person on the outside but very sensitive on the inside. I purposely didn't play this game because I knew it was going to do something like this after the innocence trailer. I cried at brocks funeral

Sorry for your loss, stay strong my dude

Thank you for putting this out. The last five months have had a lot of loss and grieving for me, due to the loss of a family member to cancer and a really sudden breakup that made me lose not only my girlfriend but also our dog, both of whom were the most important beings in life for me. I'm always happy to see these kinds of reconstructions. I'm sorry for your loss and I hope you'll feel better soon. Also, for anyone looking to play Requiem, it'll be free on the lowest-tier PS+ in January, so no better time to check it out if you're interested.

I absolutely love these games so I was looking forward to this video since you mentioned it in your last one. Requiem broke my heart for days as someone who just has siblings, so I can’t imagine how it affected someone who has lost one. Much respect for speaking about it and making a video like this, can’t be easy

I lost my father 3 weeks ago. I feel your pain. I hope you get through dark hours. From one stranger to another, much love.

Im sorry for you and your family dude. Hope you're all holding up alright 🙏

Thank you so much for this video and opening up about your sister. I am sure it was really hard to do that. I am so sorry for your loss. This game also touched me deeply. I cried a lot at the end. And btw: your videos are amazing! You are very talented and skilled :) Don't think about too much what others might think- you are on the right path. Wishing you all the best!

i have never cried this much about a game just the fact that amicia had to kill her brother her own brother by throwing a rock at hugo that got me alot……it feels different than any other child deaths in any game ive played. This was worse this felt worse

I am truly sorry for your loss, every video of yours is so consistely well done and I just want to thank you for sharing your experiences and your knowledge. Not only do I think you post the best Witcher content, but some of the best content on the platform. Ill be waiting with anticipation for any video that you plan on making.

I just wanted to honestly say that I am so glad your community got to see this aspect of you. I was one of those people who watched your videos early on (I was 130-odd hours into the witcher 3) and lost you in that time you needed. Rediscovering you're channel with KCD and watching your recent witcher content has A: made me apart of your community and B: forced me into reading the witcher books. Not as personable as losing a sibling, but your content affects people in all the best ways. Godspeed and good luck oh radiant Neon Knight. Here's to a year of excellence and growth.

My heart goes out to you. I can not even imagine the pain of losing my older brother. I wish you all the best in life and lots of success with your channel. Your content is great and deep and I love it ❤️ you deserve it.

I follow your videos since I stumbled on your very first - and at this time only - video. I hope you stay strong and wish you all the best for the next and future years. I really enjoy your videos and I am looking forward to more of these!

wow. really moving video. my heart goes out to you man, amazing to see you transform a dark time in your life into a creative project.

I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your sister , I can’t imagine what this game meant to you. It was a truly beautiful game and quickly rose to one of my favourites of all time, I think about the ending way too often, I don’t think a video game has ever made me emotionally connect and just straight up cry the way requiem did. I really hope to see another game come out of this franchise. Can’t wait for your next video.

Thank you for all the effort you put into your videos. My condolences for your loss. I wish you a happy and successful 2024

Just actually found your channel today from your older Witcher 3 videos and I love the videos man keep up the great work. I’m truly sorry for your loss. But her energy is forever with you now. Stay strong ❤️

I am so sorry about your loss. I love your videos and wish you the best in the future.

The game, and your video by extension, resonated incredibly well for me. Thank you for making this video!

Been watching you since bf2. Im really sorry about your loss. hope you hang in there.

Condolences for your sister. I've lost an aunt to cancer. It sucks. Great video on this series. Requiem had me sitting in tears at the end. The music and story telling are incredible.

I haven't played this game, but I subscribed to you when you could count your viewers/subs on one hand and I've always loved your content. This is an incredibly brave video and thankyou for sharing. I have a similar, yet completely different story with how The Witcher 3 completely saved me. Sorry for your loss, and I hope things are as good as they could possibly be for you in the near-future.

Never thought that I would watch a whole video about Plague Tale cause it never particularly interested me but here we are. Great job man. I'm really sorry for your loss. Stay strong and keep on with great vids!

I just learned there was a plague tale book?! off to go shopping!

These games are so special to me. It fills my stupid heart to hear others' relationship to it. I honestly can't formulate a better reply than this at the moment. I'll be coming back to rewatch this video again, no doubt. Just like i always come back to the games themselves. I am currently spite-recalling high school french to read tenebris. I love these silly little rat games beyond words. They continue to mean so much to me. As gut-wrenching as they are, i find them deeply comforting. Catharsis, man. Hell of a drug.

Great video, all my condolences, lets make this video the most viewed of his channel!

Hi Neon, Thank you for sharing, really. I have three sisters and I can not even start to fathom a life without them. I am truly sorry. But, I am certain she would be proud of you!

Dude, I love your channel and I hope you grow. I'm so sorry for your loss! ❤

Hope youre doing alright. keep up the great content mate

You have a really compelling storytelling method. Subbing for sure.

Hey man my condolences. Sorry to hear that you lost your sister.

My condolences, I lost my grandfather this year who was more like a father to me. Your videos, especially those on The Witcher are my favorite content on KZread and help me when I need an escape. Thanks for all you do.

I had never even heard of these games before. At the 10 minute mark I went on Steam and bought both. I just finished Requiem, and immediately came back here. Just want to say thank you for putting me onto these because wow, that was one of the most powerful experiences a game can provide. I can't imagine how it would have felt playing this in your shoes, but I can see why you felt the need to talk about it. Incredible video, and sorry for your loss. Also, this ending and the same Witcher 3 scene were also the only times I've shed a tear over a game, lol.

I hope you're doing fine man. My younger sister is the one thing I love the most in this whole wide world and I couldn't even imagine anything ever happening to her. Throughout both of these games, I couldn't stop thinking about her and related to Amicia so much. Amicia and Hugo is the best sibling relationship I've seen in any game and just for that, it makes both of these games masterpieces. The moment Hugo first gives Amicia a flower is just THE cutest thing ever!

Thanks for the new game recommendation, and sorry to hear about your sister

Sorry about your sister, it seems each year everything gets worse, but we can only hope 2024 will be a little better, hope you have a good new year.

I lost my sister to suicide/drug overdose this March of 2023. I feel you buddy. Be strong.

Damn man this video became one of my best watched videos on KZread, Loved it man. Take care, Happy New year

Hope you’re doing well. Imo, your videos are insanely good! You have many (including me) that are fans of yours! 😊

There are times in any media where it surprises you by connecting or speaking to you in some deep way because of what you’re going through or what you’ve been through. I had it with a little college play I went to because I had to and was surprised when the tears fell. Not a big crier, but it related to struggles in my family. I think that’s kinda of the goal in anything dramatic or philosophical in purpose. My most recent games played are the Metro games, and I’d recommend them as far as you can find a shooter game that actually has choices and impact save for like- what, Black Ops 2? The final game is such an amazing capstone to the games.

This was a beautifully done video, and thank you for being willing to share something so close to you, I'm sure we were all listening.

I didn't watch past the 10 min mark to avoid spoilers but I just wanted to give you my condolences for what is alluded to before that point in the vid. Looking forward to more great content from you. (Baldur's Gate 3?)

Great video! Love these games. Love your story. Keep doing what you're doing!

I'm sorry for your loss, I lost my older sister too. It's strange not having her around even four years later.

I got this when it came out before I could be spoiled and I sat staring at my computer screen for like 20 minutes after the ending. Gut wrenching.

I would LOVE to see lucas, amicia, and sofia again (especially lucas) but idk how they could dedicate an entire game to their search for truth without having an active plague to fight against On lucas: man, he really was the rock this entire game. I was so happy when they hugged at the end because goddammit did they both need it. I loved seeing him stand up to amicia in the jail cell ("it's a fight you cannot win"), and i loved seeing him take some notes from amicia's tough attitude with a Lucas touch to try to motivate her and hugo to move after their mom died. Ugh, just, Lucas

I’ll check back in a couple weeks when they release this game for free on PS and I’ve had time to play. Can’t be having any spoilers. But thought I’d leave a like and comment for the algorithm. You do great work man, keep it up!

It's a shame you're most likely right about this being one of your less viewed videos. I've watched and loved your content for ages, really awesome to see you make a video so personal to you which you're so passionate about.

I'm truly sorry for the loss of your sister.

My condolences for your sister. I also appreciate your courage to open up and talk about it. I really appreciate that someone is talking about this hidden gem of a game! I thought exactly the same about Amicia when I was playing the game, and you articulated it very well. The Macula and by extension Huge (a little bit) feel like a MacGuffin, and the story is all about the journey of Amicia. From the sisterhood to the pseudo-family and ultimately the sacrificing and letting go. It's a very beautifully told story in the medium of a video game. Some flaws aside, it is a very emotional game.

i’m so sorry for your loss, my condolences. and thank you for opening up about something very personal ♥️ this was a beautiful video. you have a way with words, storytelling, and scripts - your channel is truly high quality videos all around. even when i haven’t played any of the games you’ve talked about, i am all here for it! it’s funny when you were in the middle of major spoiler territory and mentioned that “zero people who haven’t already played continued watching” cause i did haha. maybe i shouldve watched a playthrough and experienced the game spoiler free but i really just enjoy your videos too much 😅 anyway, this video seriously made me both laugh out loud and shed tears. (shoutouts to 1:28 and 1:41 and the rat poison for the soul comments for being hilarious) happy new year and wishing you a great 2024 ahead of you ◡̈

This was a good video. Thanks for making it.

Hey Neon, Watched the video yesterday but had to take some time to think before writing. First of all, my sincere condolences about the loss of your sister. Sharing your story truly hit me and I'm impressed by your bravery and strength to talk about it. A lot of emotional maturity right there and you help a lot of people by doing so. Thank you! (and don't ever worry that people would be uninterested and not care). Regarding your videos and the content you make, I've been following you for some time now and in my opinion your content is top-tier. I have never played Plague Tale but it doesn't matter, still watch all your uploads. Without a doubt, you could build a full-time career on it and become really really big if you found time to upload more regularly. Reason being that you have a thorough and funny yet brilliant and honest way of reviewing games and making your point come across. You are great, man! (And take this from someone who is probably about twice your age and lives in a different part of the world.) Your sister would be (and surely is) proud!

imo the Plague Tale games have some of the best music in gaming history. The main menu theme of Requiem hit so hard after listening to "Up There" in Ch 16

Thank you for an amazing video as always. Thank you for sharing your story.

I’m such a perceptive and sentimental person but watching this video felt like curing from a very great pain after the ending of this game. I hope you’re doing okay and dealt with your loss of a loved one. New subscriber here! Thank you so much for making this video❤

Hey man, I also have an older sister and she the most important person in my life. I can't even begin to imagine what you went through. I'm so sorry for your loss, from the bottom of my heart, I truly am

I love you man, sorry for your loss.

I'm sorry for your loss. Cancer can be so unforgiving and I'm coming up on the one-year anniversary of losing one of my oldest friends to it. I'll admit to crying during this video and I can't imagine how it must have been for you to play it, but I'm happy it ended up helping you. PS: I might be the one person who hasn't played either game but still enjoyed watching to the end. Can't wait for your Hearts of Stone "what would Geralt do" video!

We're with you. Please carry on.

I just finished both games and came across your video. I am very sorry about your sister and I hope you’re doing well right now. Thank you for this great video that gave great insights on what they can do after the ending of the game. Personally, A Plague Tale is the game I’ve been the most emotionally impacted by because of the build up in the relationship between the siblings and how it ended. I really couldn’t care less about the depth in gameplay (its most criticized aspect) because I’ve just bonded so much with Amicia and Hugo in both games. The best parts of it being the interactions between them and how they expressed their love for each other. So seeing Hugo accept his death and Amicia keeping the fight to save him until the last second truly broke me when I finished the game. NO game did this to me in 15+ years I’ve been playing video games and especially story driven ones. If they make a third game, I really hope they don’t ruin the ending of requiem wether we play with Amicia again or in a modern day plague as foreshadowed in the post credit scene.

I’m sorry for your loss

I extend my condolences for your loss. The Plague Tale games are exceptional, skillfully addressing the theme of losing loved ones. I encourage anyone reading this to experience both games in French.

My sincerest condolences to you, my friend. It is something that I truly empathise with as last year I lost my elder sister too, also as a result of cancer. Watching your videos has given me a lot of enjoyment over the last year and a bit, at times where sometimes I don't know quite where to turn, so for that I thank you! Stay well.

I am sorry for you loss.

I'm sorry for your loss man. Truly sorry. I will pray for you and your sisters soul.

I lost one of my brothers a year and a half ago. So I understand your pain every day that passes I wonder how this could have happened...

Great video, you just gained a sub. And yes, great videogame, I notice I tend to like most stories that deal with negative emotions or aspects of life, Requiem story is brutal by most standards, but it feels "real" if you know what I mean, like IRL bad things happen and consequences occur, unlike the superhero stories where nobody ever dies and everyone can just resurrect lol. But as crushing as Requiem is I don't think of the game as "depressing" neccessarily, Amicia and Hugo got to know each other and know life, and celebrate it at times even if it was miserable most of the time. It is depressing yes, but it is beautiful in its own way. Again, great video and I hope you keep getting better.

This game broke me in so many ways. I can only imagine what you felt when you lost your sister. Thank you for sharing your personal story, and I'm so sorry for your loss 😢

You mentioned your sister passing in a previous vid briefly, but that she was the last of you immediate family hit home for me. You've been thru a lot for your age.

@Harishiv18

4 ай бұрын

And he even said it with his trademark deadpan delivery. ‘My sister died. Believe it or not and this may shock you, but that kinda threw my life off track a little bit’ Never change neonknight❤

A Plague Tale Requiem broke me too :') but it's my most favorite game! The other must be Witcher 3 and Elden Ring, which makes me happy because I see those are also what you're interested in. Subscribed! Thank you for making great videos~ ❤

These games sound worth playing, thank you for this video

Love you and your content. I ignored your spoiler warning, thank you for sharing with us your journey.

I, too, have suffered the loss of losing one of my sisters, who was 3 years older than me and probably the one I was closest with. Fast forward a few years, and I suffered a broken heart, and only 5 months later, then the death of another loved one. Then I played requiem and the ending broke me. After another couple of years, I feel like I'm in a much better spot, and I'm meeting lots of new people trying new things again. I feel like playing these games has helped speed along the grieving process.

4:28 When I played Innocence i didn't really feel that way because the only kills I did were the mandatory ones and sneaked my way through 99% of the game which made the experience that much better. Good point but i loved the way it was handled, lets you go cowabunga if thats your style or play like an actual stealth game.

@NeonKnight

5 ай бұрын

I don’t really see how that changes the point I’m making. There are easily 20+ required kills throughout the game… that’s a lot of murder for anyone.

@GoldenRoyal5

5 ай бұрын

@@NeonKnight I got the point you made but it def feels a lot more worse when you can easily double that number

@GoldenRoyal5

5 ай бұрын

Also sorry to hear about your loss I wrote the comment without getting to the middle part

I'm genuinely sorry for your loss, I unfortunately can somewhat relate, not to the same degree though. Love your videos.

I am sorry for your loss.

My condolences for your sister. Stay strong! I don't cry easily either and this game made me cry at the end when they forced me to kill Hugo. As someone who has a younger sibling myself, that moment was too much for me. Thanks for another amazing video!

13:50 It's not easy to speak about any issues and admit/accept they're definitely (still)haunting you But that is really awesome and brave of you and I'm glad you're still making it through every single day Every Single Day. You're the neon knight (emphasis on the knight), so you'll overcome the challenges that you have with you/life And whatever you do you'll make the best out of it