09. Autism and Me - Starting a new life on a boat to save my mental health from Aspergers.

Autism and Me - Starting a new life on a boat to save my mental health from Aspergers.
Whatever you call it, ASD, Autism Spectrum Disorder, Aspergers, Aspergers Syndrome, it's the cause of my anxiety, depression, and meltdowns. It's the reason I had to give up my dream career in radio, and it's driven me to self-harm and thoughts of suicide.
Some viewers have asked why we moved off our first boat back in 2004. In this video, I try to explain everything, although the title has given it away already! I guess it's my 'autism coming out' story explaining how ASD - Aspergers Syndrome affects me, and Shaun. I recorded it during a walk in one of my favourite places.
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  • @maraperez9188
    @maraperez91883 жыл бұрын

    I wish I could give this a thousand likes.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much, Mara! 💜💜💜

  • @davidharlem6824
    @davidharlem68245 жыл бұрын

    Colin you are a diamond. I am seventy years old and have a richness of experience that helps me to relate to everything you say. ASD is your gift my friend - it makes you the precious being that you are! Courage and strength of character to face life’s hurdles ( are they hurdles or in fact treasures?) define the man. Every challenge polishes us and you, my friend, shine brilliantly. xx

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    5 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much, David. Lovely words xx

  • @ceeceety2320

    @ceeceety2320

    4 жыл бұрын

    David Harlem~The world needs more people like yourself in it. It would be a much better place to survive. I believe it take life experience to come to these conclusions sometimes. Of course, in my years coming up, my Grandmother instilled morals and values that I will always remember and treasure. I just hope the younger generation who are raising children get it right somehow. It doesn't seem to me that they are, and I don't mean to be negative. I'm in the US and people are seemingly more rude than ever. Children included. Very sad. We pray that the world gets more enlightened. Divine blessings to you! Tim and Tammie Miller `

  • @davidharlem6824

    @davidharlem6824

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@ceeceety2320 Hi Tim. All these months later, I have just found your reply. Thank you for your very kind words. Like you, I cherish the attitudes and values that were instilled in me by my parents as I grew up. Yes, also like you, I am deeply troubled by what appears to be a decline in basic human decency. The enlightenment that you pray for is the only thing that will germinate change. Perhaps the virus that we are now all confronting will be the catalyst for that change. We are all attempting to exist in an obviously troubled world and on so many levels. I pray that my grandchildren and their generation will be the architects of a very different world - a world based on insight, understanding and compassion. God bless you and Tammie 🙏

  • @ilyalicebtoklas
    @ilyalicebtoklas3 жыл бұрын

    A friend of mine who loves his boating watched this and told me to watch it. Im a bit older than you now 57 but i too was diagnosed about 5 years ago. Ive spent most of my adult life in a bubble where i went about my daily life but felt as though I wasnt part of it. Like you social gatherings terrify me and if forced into one I can usually cope for about 2 hours after which Im exhausted by the effort of trying to 'fit in'. Ive never been lucky enough to find my special person like you so i spend most of my time alone and as I put it to my friends living in my box. Very interesting listening to your foibles it never really occurred to me the condition had identifiable traits but I can identify with most of yours and many things you struggle with I struggle with too. Overthinking and depression yup I hate to admit this but ive come close several times when everything became too much but I have a strength that wont give up and keeps me going and that has always been my fall back. Ive had people suggest drugs but like you I try to keep a clear mind and try to think myself out of these ruts which get thrown in my way more often than I care to admit. Your solution is a brave one I just wish Id got the guts to walk away I do something new and different. Ive suggested living on an island but thats just me being a misery and trying to get away from people. All the very best Nick

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks so much Nick, and for watching this. I never dreamed that so many people would engage over this video. Amazing!

  • @nancythomas-wardm.b.a2993

    @nancythomas-wardm.b.a2993

    3 жыл бұрын

    Best topic yet..bitter, sweet, direct...as a vlogger you have the power to enlighten and motivate people to be the best they can with what they have.. Thank you for enlightening me. Blessings to all who have shared their experiences in the comments.. xx n

  • @MacSeoin86
    @MacSeoin862 жыл бұрын

    My go to video when I get asked what my ASD is like

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    2 жыл бұрын

    Awesome x

  • @tombartolomei4398
    @tombartolomei43984 жыл бұрын

    Colin: I am totally blown away by your courage in bearing your soul in this way. And, by doing so, you help countless others who are struggling day in and day out with their own mental health issues. As a mental health professional I can tell you that this is nothing short of epic. BRAVO!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much, Tom 💜

  • @thenarrowboatgirl
    @thenarrowboatgirl6 жыл бұрын

    Well done for talking about this. I hope the move onto the boat really helps. My daughter and I (Narrowboat Girl) moved onto our boat to improve our mental health. Emma is homeschooled as her dyslexia was causing her too much stress at school. Fresh air and a slower pace are great for us. I hope the buying process goes smoothly for you. We were stuck in a marina for a few weeks and we hated it so we know how you felt. Things are so much better out on the cut. Anyway good luck with getting your boat and we look forward to your next video 😁

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    6 жыл бұрын

    Hi. Thank you so much! I was so apprehensive about posting that video (it's been recorded for over a week). Comments like yours mean so much :) I just know it will do me good once the house sale goes through and we get our boat. ps... follow us back on Twitter ;-) xxx

  • @garybrown5500

    @garybrown5500

    5 жыл бұрын

    @pmailkeey Maybe you should consider going private for your medical care.

  • @scottfw7169

    @scottfw7169

    4 жыл бұрын

    Today, finding out that some of y'all narrowboaters I follow from way out in US farmland have similar life experiences, challenges, is quite encouraging.

  • @mimilion6072

    @mimilion6072

    4 жыл бұрын

    Your little girls channel is Brilliant!!! I love watching her channel. x

  • @Philipwet
    @Philipwet2 жыл бұрын

    Only discovered you on Amazon Prime today. Watched the first two episodes and then looked for your KZread channel. This is one of the loveliest vlogs I’ve seen and talk about ASD and mental health so eloquently. I count myself lucky I’ve discovered you and Shaun. You’re amazing and I’m looking forward to seeing more Britain by Narrowboat episodes and your videos. Thank you for being you! 🏳️‍🌈🙏

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    2 жыл бұрын

    Welcome to our channel, Philip. Season 2 out on Prime in the new year 👍❤️🙏

  • @easternpainterpg3697
    @easternpainterpg3697 Жыл бұрын

    Everything you say happened to me. I kept waiting for something for me: several different jobs, always bullied, didn't know why people would say to me you don't know what you want.... I feel for you. And I absolutely hated parties, big places with people. I feel a lot better being in the country, and being with animals.. It is very different having Asperger. But fortunately for you, you have a partner. May you and him always be blessed.

  • @MinimalList
    @MinimalList6 жыл бұрын

    Wonderful video and so glad you're sharing this with the community. I've had my own lifetime of struggles with what can only be described as a highly specialized brain, and a great deal of what you described, especially in terms of social anxiety, really resonates with me. I've been fortunate enough to come to a pretty high degree of peace with my noggin, but only through the dint of much effort and flailing around trying to find answers, and even now there's always the chance of missing a rung every so often. It's a life of practice, but it leads to a life of joy. So, as one heavily literarily tattooed oddball to another, thank you! Proud of you! And for you. Michael

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    6 жыл бұрын

    Minimal List Michael, thank you. I’m not very good with words sometimes, but I’m really glad you managed to work some of this stuff out. You always come across as a wise man. x

  • @davieimrie2407

    @davieimrie2407

    6 жыл бұрын

    Great video and very well done And Michael; what a very lovely reply Im diagnosed as having borderline personality disorder, and heard many similarities during this video; the overthinking, the meltdowns, the eiditic memory, panics, anxieties, etc Grateful Thanks and Huge respect to u both Davie x

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    6 жыл бұрын

    Davie IMRIE Thanks David 👍🏻

  • @scottfw7169

    @scottfw7169

    4 жыл бұрын

    Ya know, today is one of those days where learning some folks who you know are themselves dealing with similar things is actually uplifting.

  • @pauljackson6599
    @pauljackson65995 жыл бұрын

    Your a big man for telling us all about your life mate and I can understand were you are coming from and it’s hard going at times

  • @laurielee4386
    @laurielee43862 жыл бұрын

    Hi from The USA .I found your videos recently and love all of the history and scenery. I'm learning about a side of the U.K. I never knew existed!! I especially want to thank you for speaking about your personal issues. I have a daughter with bipolar disorder and it helps everyone when difficulties are talked about. Sometimes we feel all alone don't we!! Stay close to your little family it helps always😊

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    2 жыл бұрын

    💜

  • @joleenmccammon6276
    @joleenmccammon6276 Жыл бұрын

    I live in the US, and have recently discovered narrowboats. Today I found one of you vlogs and went back and started watching from the beginning. When I got to this one I was stunned and in tears. I don’t think I have ever heard such a heartfelt and honest discussion. I admire you for being able to tell your story in such an articulate way. Thank you so much for sharing. I know that I am 4 years behind, but I intend to watch EVERY post. I hope you and Shaun are well and I look forward to following your journey. ❤️

  • @sarahoughtibridge1018
    @sarahoughtibridge10186 жыл бұрын

    You really are fabulous :) This is one of the most positive open videos I've watched. I love the way you embrace it. Its the things that make us different which make us special. Thank you xxx

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    5 жыл бұрын

    Thank you, lovely! Hope you’re both keeping well xxx

  • @mattlourer9692
    @mattlourer96925 жыл бұрын

    I'm a perfectionist introvert. I live out in the middle of the woods alone. The days at work and the people I have to deal with puts me out of touch with anyone for the weekends. The time alone is an actual healing. A great video as always.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    5 жыл бұрын

    Thanks Matt. If I didn’t have Shaun I would probably do the same as you 👍🏻

  • @painmagnet1

    @painmagnet1

    5 жыл бұрын

    I'm the same, Matt. I live alone with just my dogs and quite happy. Being with women caused my stress to skyrocket, totally unsustainable. I have a few close neighbors here in Portland, Oregon but they are all wonderful people and we get along great. As long as I have at least a day to 'veg out' with no stress, I'm good.

  • @jonrudman2488
    @jonrudman24883 жыл бұрын

    I've watched the canal blogs for a couple of weeks now and think they are great - lovely and relaxed. My attention was caught in this one by the Asperger's reference. My oldest son had Asperger's and we went through hell with difficult behaviour from when he was a toddler onwards. He would come home from primary school with huge bruises and grazes. We just got waffly BS from the teachers who had no more of a clue than we had. I worked in Aberdeen and later moved to outer London for work. My son was ready to move to senior school, by then, and moved into a much bigger school (full of strangers). I would later find out that 'not coping with change' is a classic symptom). By the time we moved I had read on an early Compuserve Internet precursor group in the US specifically for Asperger parents. You know that 'in the car' game to occupy kids where you look for specific letters in car registrations? He would read the letters - say 'ABC' and say back 'BAC' which was one of the Asperger's classic 'pick 3 of these 16 symptoms' - inability to sequence. I worked away a lot in Europe in the weeks and one week my wife had a call that he had tried to hang himself with his school tie! Now he seems to function well and holds down a reasonable consulting job. Love the canal chats!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks, Jon. I'm glad your son is sorted now 👍🏻

  • @RX-rr8te
    @RX-rr8te2 жыл бұрын

    Not only am I heartened by your words, but also the sheer volume of supporting comments. Truly wonderful.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    2 жыл бұрын

    💜

  • @tinytimberman5739
    @tinytimberman57394 жыл бұрын

    In 2005 I was a mad Artist making things from old scraps of steel. I made a full time job of it, even fully restored a 1952 ( year I was born ) Morris Minor Ute into a proper USA type woody, but I could not keep up with my brain and all the thoughts that were spinning around in my head. I sort out help after a solo exhibition in Sydney that sold out in 2 days and I ran into a wall inside of my head due to the fact that I had not considered that there should have been more art I had 31 pieces in that show with an average price in excess of $800. I ended up on a drug that for about 4 months was great, my mind became clear and the spinning stopped. Then every thing slowly stopped I had lost the will to work, to enjoy, to look at a bit of old car and see what it could be, in about late 2012 I kicked out the drug and I still have a shed full of bits collected from 1988 and I sit and watch videos all day every day just waiting for the odd rare day where I can face the shed and even get so far as opening the doors. Mate I took the Medication line, I am Glad that you never did as I can say that the stuff you put into your trips would be very dull with out you talking about the history and how you feel and the fun you two have and show. You may have to show whats in that secret Draw one day.......C C-o-l-i-n I am glad I decided to watch from the start, as I love the cut, it's a pity we don't have that sort of thing here in Australia cause that would be me in a flash. Thank You for the courage I know that it took to do that walk with a Camera. Thanks again Tony.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Hey, Tony. Thanks so much! None of the meds worked for me either. Loads of crappy side effects. The main one took away the one thing in life that gave me pleasure 💦🤯😬 Haha! The secret cupboard is a story for another media where I wouldn't get banned 😂

  • @elisabethm9655
    @elisabethm96553 жыл бұрын

    Labeling is a way of creating control...when imposed from the outside, it can be oppressive...but learning about oneself and finding a way of naming ‘it’ can be a source of liberation. Social media has been a boon for many unique people who need to navigate the world differently than the common herd. For me, the very idea of being at a sports event or even walking in the streets of a big city is frightening. You’re gaining a good handle on yourself. I got a dx about 10 years ago - They had me on meds for a while to ‘normalize’ me...but I’ve come to love being on the asd spectrum - it makes me, me and in this case you, you. So many people are finding the current lockdown terrible, but I’ve been almost luxuriating in the ability to self isolate without feeling guilty - in fact - it’s a virtuous skill! Enjoy it!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks, Elizabeth 💜

  • @magsreape3608

    @magsreape3608

    3 жыл бұрын

    O it's not just a "label" dear it's how our life is, it's easy for someone not on the spectrum to understand ,usually it's the misinformed that come out with statements such as your own, and the only way to remedy that is read and learn, but hey everyone's entitled to their opinion.

  • @elisabethm9655

    @elisabethm9655

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@magsreape3608 your reply confuses me. Are you saying I am misinformed about ‘labeling’? Please explain?

  • @fred-sy3ci
    @fred-sy3ci Жыл бұрын

    A 61 year old veteran and i sit har with tears in my eyes about your honesty, you are a beautiful person.

  • @chribra
    @chribra3 жыл бұрын

    I'm in my late 60s now and wish I'd heard something like this brave and open piece when I was growing up. It might have helped me understand that, as you say, we are all different; that the bullies I suffered from at school and throughout my life were cruel and ignorant; that I wasn't wrong all the time. Thank you so much.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Sorry you had a hard time too, Chris. xxx

  • @beatehenningsen9690
    @beatehenningsen96904 жыл бұрын

    This is the best and most honest and clarifying description of how it is to live with ASD I have ever encountered. As a mum and a teacher and headmaster, my heart bleeds for the thirteen year old Colin in his room, waiting for hell to start all over again. It is fantastic that you have learned to cope with life, despite not knowing why you felt different. Absolutely amazing, hat and everything else off for that. I promise you, that I will do my very best, and then some more, to make sure my pupils do not get the same experience, no matter what their challenges are. Cross my heart.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Hi, Beate 👋 Thank you so much for taking time to comment. If you help just one thirteen year old have a better time then this video is totally worth it. Thank you! 💜

  • @grahambarrett5569
    @grahambarrett55693 жыл бұрын

    What a great video I totally admire you for your honesty. I have just discovered your channel so glad I did.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much! Welcome! 👍🏻

  • @bradhall3948
    @bradhall39483 жыл бұрын

    I describe my life as constantly being on a carnival midway. 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. I hear every conversation, see every flashing light, the clank of every ride, the smells... Going to a carnival is fun for most people, because when they leave it's over. Not so much when you'd like to leave but you can't.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Such a familiar story. Sending love 💜

  • @life-outdoors
    @life-outdoors10 ай бұрын

    I watched this year's ago and just watched it for the first time after being diagnosed with High Functioning ASD, ADHD and dyslexic at the age of 54 (which is the average life expectancy for these conditions). So much of what you said, I can identify with. Although, when I saw this previously, I didn't. My diagnosis came because I couldn't cope after lockdown which was the best time of my life. It made he understand myself better and after a shutdown and reboot I'm okay. Just need to go backpacking one day of the week to reset. If anyone else is struggling, get help and get this average age much higher.

  • @Truerealism747

    @Truerealism747

    7 ай бұрын

    Do you have any fybromyalgia nfrom your Asperger's my grandfather had it but lived so simple for to 85 just lost my mum who obvously had it di dnof severe ms 72 yes stress does us in my son's just diagnosed now

  • @terrystephens1102
    @terrystephens11025 жыл бұрын

    Dear Colin, thanks for sharing your journey with ASD - your are a fantastic person and I admire your candour and courage in discussing your situation. We have a teenage grandson who also has been diagnosed with ASD. Fortunately, we’ve been able, with professional help, to teach him coping mechanisms that help him a lot. I love your sense of humour and I sincerely hope that your dreams for the boat become reality. I look forward to following you both on your journey. Terry.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    5 жыл бұрын

    Terry, thank you again! You're a lovely person and your comments are so kind. Much love to you! x

  • @louiswestfall9622
    @louiswestfall96225 жыл бұрын

    You have articulated what has taken me 60 years to come to terms with. Years of medication left me aggressive and fearless, not a good combination. With determination I was able to get off the medication, and actually deal with my depression and anxiety. As you know it’s an ongoing process, and for me at least a life long one. Talking to a few long time friends, they said they didn’t recognize the person I had become on medication. I’m grateful that those who mattered in my life hung in there and are still around today. I want to thank you again for making me feel relieved that I’m not alone in my struggle. Growing up I just thought extreme anxiety and panic attacks were common place. Now on a lighter note, I am intrigued with narrow boat life and hope some day to be able visit England and at least be able to enjoy a short term rental for an adventure on the canals. I’ve watched most of you and your partners vlogs and find them entertaining and informative, and yes you both have a fine sense of humour. Goodbye for now from a Canadian suffering through this cold endless winter.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    5 жыл бұрын

    Hi Louis, Apologies for the lateness of my reply. Yeah, I have hated every medication they tried to give me. None of it does me any good, and only causes more side effects. If ever you escape that long, hard, Canadian winter to visit the UK you must give narrow-boating a try! xx

  • @davidnoseworthy4540
    @davidnoseworthy45403 жыл бұрын

    This is most likely one of the most important vlogs that I have viewed, in beginning to understand and appreciate the complexities of mental health, and how it can mean something different in each one of us. I started to watch this and couldn't stop, because of the value in what you shared. I admire your honesty, and your bravery for sharing. I sincerely wish that this is viewed by many, to broaden understanding, and more importantly, to kindle hope.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much, David 💜

  • @vanessaduncan6707
    @vanessaduncan67073 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your ASD journey. You are an inspiration!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much!

  • @GeoffJLewis
    @GeoffJLewis4 жыл бұрын

    Thank you Colin. My daughter is currently going through the process of being diagnosed as being on the spectrum of autism and your video was extremely helpful in making me understand what she is going through. She like you has ultra sensitivity to sound, manifesting in misaphonia. Very difficult not to take personally sometimes when she has to leave the room, but your video was an epiphany. Thank you so much. Keep on cruising you wonderful man!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Yeah, Misaphonia is awful, and Shaun gives me such a look sometimes if his chewing or crunching is stressing me, but it's tough when you don't understand. Sending love! 💜

  • @K2shadowfax
    @K2shadowfax5 жыл бұрын

    That was (possibly) your best video that I have seen (from ep1); which touched on a number of very important mental health issues. Firstly, I think you are very brave to be so open and free with your own struggles - a hearty cheer for that! Secondly, I could only imagine how many children (and adults) who could benefit from hearing your comments, and about your own life experiences - especially as a youngster, struggling and coping with a 'horrible' school existence. Just imagine, if you reached out to a relevant Mental Health organisation and/or charity group, and was able to be endorsed as an Ambassador, for them to help you to organise visits to schools en route on your narrowboat journeys - just imagine...how many children you could help! Anyway, Colin, I think you're very brave. And so, too, is your partner, Sean, for standing by you, and staying the course! So, very well done...to you both! And, thanks for sharing!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    5 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much! xx

  • @andyb2375
    @andyb23753 жыл бұрын

    The world needs more people like you Colin. We are all unique and that should be celebrated not frowned upon.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Aww, thanks, Andy!

  • @davidedwards7835
    @davidedwards78352 жыл бұрын

    my son has Aspergers and you totally describe similar symptons,thank you for your bravery,and helping people understand the complexities of Aspergers.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    2 жыл бұрын

    Thanks David.

  • @katherinekelly5380

    @katherinekelly5380

    2 жыл бұрын

    Totally agree - the more role models bring to light their health struggles and challenges, the better off we all are I enjoy your channel so much and now I admire the two of you even more ❣️

  • @MikeB_UK
    @MikeB_UK4 жыл бұрын

    Fantastic video. Huge, massive respect and awe that you have shared this with anyone who wants to watch. The biggest thing everyone needs to learn in life is that everyone is unique and different as you point out. I don;t think even doctors get this. The world needs to lose the concept of 'normal' and 'accepted'. What works for one person may be hated and stressful to another.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Very true words, Mike 💜

  • @jayblazed564
    @jayblazed5644 жыл бұрын

    one of the most humbling videos i have watched for a long time it takes a brave person to talk about mental health and mental health issues but full respect to yourself im sure everyone here can relate to mental health issues in one way or another either with themselves or people they know but just keep doing you love the videos

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much 💜

  • @jayblazed564

    @jayblazed564

    4 жыл бұрын

    Your welcome I always think people should be open and honest about things and if your ever towards Ely Cambridgeshire way drop a message I'll stop by

  • @nickspence2559
    @nickspence255911 ай бұрын

    Excellent Colin. I just wish a lot more people could watch this as it’s right on the button.

  • @Arctic69
    @Arctic69 Жыл бұрын

    This video is four years old but I just discovered it and I can't tell you how much it helped me!! It was like you understood me. I'm gay and so much of what you said spoke to me. I stopped the video and just thought about it and then started it and stopped it to think as you talked. I don't want to belabor this post but I do want to thank you so much for making this video and for the wisdom you displayed in it. I live thousands of miles from you but you have touched my life in a significant way and I want to sincerely thank you!

  • @arteeire4364
    @arteeire43644 жыл бұрын

    This is an AWESOME video. You have done a genuine service to the mental health community in sharing this. There is an American psychiatrist, Ned Hallowell who talks about people with certain mental health conditions having a brain with a Ferrari engine but bicycle brakes. The fact that you were able to post this personal video means that over time you've developed better brakes than most, but there is no doubt, a Ferrari engine underneath.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    What an amazing way to put it. Thanks 💜

  • @lyndakarle1060
    @lyndakarle10604 жыл бұрын

    You are so right Colin , we are all individuals, there is no right or wrong way as lone as we learn from it, there shouldn't be labels, to have a good heart and do your best what more is there. I think your life style now with Silver Fox is the way to go, to find that quiet place, that still place at your mooring but also with in your self will be wonderful.Blessings from Australia.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    💜 Well said

  • @lesleystewart9535
    @lesleystewart95352 жыл бұрын

    Our daughter has recently been diagnosed with mysophonia, ASD and ADHD. Your vlog described her perfectly and your description was simple and easy for us to understand. Thank you Colin, for such an important and honest vlog.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    2 жыл бұрын

    you're welcome, Lesley and thank you 🙏❤️

  • @tw0crows74
    @tw0crows743 жыл бұрын

    This deserves way more shares, you can see from the comments it has helped a lot of people and could help a lot more, you have my absolute respect for sharing your condition with us

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks so much !

  • @kanemary56

    @kanemary56

    3 жыл бұрын

    Agreed!! Respect Sir !!

  • @philb364
    @philb3642 жыл бұрын

    Hi Colin. My son pointed me to your channel during a recent visit and I will be forever thankful to him for that. I am now approaching 80 and have experienced many of the symptoms you describe in this video, but for the first time I have some idea of what I have been going through. The symptoms are not severe but certainly produce their own level of stress. I am a Bradford lad who emigrated to Canada 50 years ago and have never looked due to the peace I find in the wide open spaces of this country, far away from cities and their frenzy. I plan to watch every episode of your journey and watch your progress. I wish you the best in the future.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    2 жыл бұрын

    Awesome, thank you so much for joining us. Sounds like you live in a beautiful place. Take care and stay safe 🙏❤️

  • @Elle-kr8od
    @Elle-kr8od2 жыл бұрын

    Wow! What an honest, open-hearted person you are. Anyone would be honored to be your friend.

  • @ooocrowooo
    @ooocrowooo3 жыл бұрын

    You will never know of the many people who watch your videos and think maybe I can do what he is doing, and it will change the lives of others you will never see or know of. But be assured that you are an inspiration to others, we love what you do and we are beside you living our lives the best way can, a day at a time, take care my friend.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    So kind. Thank you so much! 💜

  • @peterfleming7232
    @peterfleming72322 жыл бұрын

    My comment will unavoidably be repeated words from the many great comments before mine. Such an honest, informative, and easy to watch chat you had with everyone. Honestly it was like I was taking a walk with you. I hope that walk and talk helped you as much as it undoubtedly will help others that live with the same issues. Thanks for sharing 😀

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    2 жыл бұрын

    I appreciate that!

  • @ToddQuigley
    @ToddQuigley5 жыл бұрын

    Thanks for posting! This gave me some things to think about. I too was diagnosed late (46, now 48). I need to make some changes myself to improve my mental health. Also, you are super easy to listen to and I look forward to watching your other videos!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    5 жыл бұрын

    Thanks, Todd! I hope you enjoy the other videos :) x

  • @keithlenton5313
    @keithlenton53134 жыл бұрын

    You’re a very brave man sharing your inner thoughts with use, I am Australian living in a remote part of the country, and just found this channel I’ll be watching it from now on thanks again for telling use who you are.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Hi, Keith and WELCOME! 🙏 xx

  • @buddyric7688
    @buddyric76883 жыл бұрын

    just started watching your channel, finding it very inspirational, your frankness in this one shows what a sympathetic, understanding and brave person you are. I wish you both all the luck in the world on your travels, and look forward to following your journey

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks and welcome

  • @devonmike
    @devonmike2 жыл бұрын

    I think your conversation to us has raised a lot of issues that people may have but don’t realise it. Personally, I can relate to your ASD as Tescos is the worst place to shop, try Waitrose it will definitely calm you down. Seriously, I am pleased you opened up about your inner self. You are so right, we are all on the spectrum, it is just some people don’t know it. It seems these days everyone likes to have a label, it’s their way to be noticed. I agree with you, like people for who they are and not for what they are. Treat each other with respect and that way we will all get along just fine….

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    2 жыл бұрын

    Thanks, Mike 💙

  • @alienj272
    @alienj2724 жыл бұрын

    I’m 39 and this is the first time I’ve heard someone talk about the same as the way I’m feeling and acting!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    That's cool. Hope you got something from it 💜

  • @Silkendrum
    @Silkendrum5 жыл бұрын

    You did that beautifully. Thank you.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    5 жыл бұрын

    Thank you! x

  • @mfirving

    @mfirving

    4 жыл бұрын

    Very moving to hear your journey of understanding and acceptance of your condition. Mike x

  • @tonyclough9844

    @tonyclough9844

    4 жыл бұрын

    Can anyone explain to me where all this autism and bipolar comes from I am from the 50s generation but never heard of anyone at my school with the condition

  • @Silkendrum

    @Silkendrum

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@tonyclough9844 - I am 75, so approximately your generation. You never heard of anyone at your school with the condition for two reasons: because the autism diagnosis is fairly recent, and because the medical community was under the impression that ordinary parents were incapable of dealing with "different" children, so they were labelled "retarded" and shuttled off to "homes" (read that as institutions), and no one spoke of them again except in whispers. It was a brutal time. It was only in the early '60s or so that the idea of learning disabilities for example was explored (my college was one of the few doing studies in that). It was around that time that institutions were closing, and people with difficulties were beginning to be mainstreamed. Autism and bipolar (plus all the other classifications and variations) have been with us as long as there have been people. We just didn't try to understand it and actually deal with it until relatively recently.

  • @tonyclough9844

    @tonyclough9844

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@Silkendrum thanks for that explanation

  • @ggreg2258
    @ggreg22582 жыл бұрын

    Yours is the most accurate, compassionate, empathetic and personal description of ASD and Aspergers specifically that I have ever heard/see. Thank you so much for your willingness to share. I am certain that it will be beneficial to others who either have Aspergers or who wish to understand it. I am watching all of your vids, in order now, after having jumped around a bit right after I discovered you on You Tube. Again, thank you for your warmth and strength in your willingness to share. (PS: I am a retired Clinical Social Worker in Ohio, US; just FYI!)

  • @mikem7159
    @mikem71593 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for the video. My partner and I have been watching your narrowboat adventures for several weeks now, but with no idea of your emotional struggles. My partner, a Harvard Law School graduate, has always suffered debilitating depression, but in recent months has especially been dealing with stress and anxiety, to the point it has made him physically ill. I think watching this video has resonated deeply with him. Thanks again. Mike, Cleveland OH, USA

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    I would say I'm pleased it triggered something, but I'm not glad of the circumstances. Be strong both of you! 💜

  • @allanwest5476
    @allanwest54765 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing, thank you for being ...you!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    5 жыл бұрын

    Thank YOU for watching and commenting :) xx

  • @Nexus--9
    @Nexus--93 жыл бұрын

    Only just found your channel and have been hooked, I turn 50 this year and I was a late diagnosis, I was diagnosed in 2018 after years of being treated as bipolar and medicated for it too, it never worked and usually ended badly, hearing you describing it while my other half was listening was uncanny, the words coming out of your mouth were pretty much word for word how I've described it, the tesco bit made me chuckle, I usually sit in the car while other half goes in, she usually jokes but she knows how hard it is for me, until I was diagnosed whatever "it" was, was something external, an illness that had to be cured, as soon as I got my diagnosis it was suddenly ok, I wasn't broken, it was just the way I am. Of course being hyper aware means hyper aware of self too and the over analysis of every thought and the results of every thought and every thought that comes from that can be overwhelming but just knowing "hey, thats just the way I'm wired" kind of makes it easier to deal with, lovely to see someone being so open as I agree, it's nothing to be ashamed of, it's nothing wrong, we don't need curing. we are just different, and different is kinda cool.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Exactly right! A lot of people think once you have a diagnosis that there's a cure. It's really just about learning to live with how you are. 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

  • @adrianleman5158
    @adrianleman51583 жыл бұрын

    I have suffered your symptoms ,now at 57,I've learnt like you to take some stress out of my routine,thankyou.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Good stuff, Adrian. Hope you;'re well xx

  • @adrianleman5158

    @adrianleman5158

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@FoxesAfloat Thankyou it's good to know people care,feel so lonely in this world.

  • @stacymcardle
    @stacymcardle3 жыл бұрын

    Some of this broke my heart. I’m so sorry you were mistreated during school years. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s an important one to share. You’re such a fabulous soul. You’re both so real and warm. I’m sure I speak for many when I say you’re both so easy to love - even when only through my tv. Blessings!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much!

  • @JohnTheBrewer
    @JohnTheBrewer5 жыл бұрын

    I watched this because I didn't know what 'ASD' was...my god, I think I've had that all my life. It explains so much. When you started describing the feeling you get when you go into a crowded Tesco's, I knew exactly what you meant. Thank you for posting this. From the bottom of my heart. It made a difference. I like your narrowboat vids, too. :-)

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    5 жыл бұрын

    Hey. Thank you! :) x

  • @jowattful
    @jowattful4 жыл бұрын

    I am a singe lady living with Aspergers, it's slightly different for females, but most of what you said described me. I was 53 when diagnosed and it was a huge relief, and for the first time in my life I felt I could be myself. Well done for opening up and Thank you. I have subscribed to your channel and will continue to watch.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Hi, and thank you for subscribing 👋🏻 x

  • @ChrisCanary
    @ChrisCanary3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much for posting this. It was a two tissue moment listening to you describe me and my life as if you were looking in a crystal ball. I have never been diagnosed, but every syllable you uttered described me, my life, my anxiety, swings, crash and burns, knotted innards in the face of social situations. Oh my God. I was a hairdresser for 45 years. After dealing with new people and repeat clients who WANT something or DEMAND things, all day, every day, 30 minutes and repeat... I drank and drugged myself into oblivion every night for about 30 years. (I made Patsy and Eddie look like amateurs, sweetie... LOL) I no longer drink, and am drug free. I do smoke weed, but that's my worse vice. I was on meds for depression for a brief time, but like you, choose not to go that route. I've had 3 heart surgeries, mostly stress induced... and having smoke cigarettes since age 7. When in a depressive meltdown, it seems like acknowledgement of the situation lightens the load quite a bit and recovery is quicker. I know that it will get better. It always does. I KNOW the depressive episode will eventually end and I'll feel better again. So, I get through it, and work on getting through it by doing something positive or doing something kind for someone else. It helps. Positive energy . In the 80s, knowing my social phobia and fear of being in those situations, a boyfriend threw me a surprise birthday party. I threw everyone out, broke up with the boyfriend and never spoke again to anyone who attended. It is that severe. I still do not socialize with anyone offline. I just freeze and don't know what to say. I crave the company of friends, but when we do meet up, I can't get away fast enough. It's good having friends who understand. Thank you again for sharing this. You really touched my heart and released a floodgate of emotion, knowing someone else knows exactly how I feel. God bless you. Safe cruising.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Everything you said is shared by millions of us who for whatever reason don't tell our story. I'm so glad you watched this, if not only to know that we are out there and feel the same. Sending love ! 💜

  • @gailwestney396
    @gailwestney3963 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for talking about autism you truly are amazing and so is Shaun. Big hugs to you both 💕

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks, Gail 💜

  • @ceeceety2320
    @ceeceety23203 жыл бұрын

    Oh my goodness! Look at how this video has gone on to give people support or validation or whatever good they've gotten from it! You are a beautiful human being Colin, and so is Shaun! You said you dreaded the outcome of this video. I can only imagine what was going through your head at that point, but I am sure you're very glad you did post it. I'm glad you did, as I've been reading the comments. Whoa! So much love and support out there. You are a beacon of light and even though my wife told me about this video probably last year, I now actually get it even more having seen you be so raw with your emotions. I'm surprised this video hasn't gone viral. I'm so glad to have found your channel and will continue to enjoy it as long as KZread is around! KZread will certainly outlive me! LOL! Peace and take good care and thank you!!!!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much! 🐾 💜🐾

  • @TheDaveWoods
    @TheDaveWoods4 жыл бұрын

    Wow, just wow. I've just found you and Sean on Amazon Prime, enjoyed the series and looked for you on here. But this 20 minutes is one of the best things I have seen. Open, honest, informative and beautifully filmed. Thank you for sharing this with us. 👍

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Welcome aboard, Dave! Thank you so much 💜

  • @paulsedman7876
    @paulsedman78763 жыл бұрын

    You made me cry, my world has just fallen apart, iv do e something stupid and ended up trying to take my own life. Your words are so true and I hope I get the help you have had. I will follow you. Thanks.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    I hope you're getting some support, Paul. 💜

  • @paulsedman7876

    @paulsedman7876

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@FoxesAfloat Times are hard, it's when you have no one to talk to that your world closes in on You. When those you trusted have let you down so much. I truly thought I was stronger. Just starting to get the help I need. Take care and keep in touch, watch this space, I want a boat to take ex service men like myself out to relax and feel safe. Just looking for a boat now.

  • @ManuelDornbusch
    @ManuelDornbusch3 жыл бұрын

    You have a lovely voice. Absolutely lovely Thank you for speaking about it. It makes it accessible, understandable for people who have no experience, exposure to it. It spreads awareness. Like when you describe overthinking. English has the expression to secondguess something. Amateurs. I millionguess. I can get into a decisionlock, where I will not outwardly seem stress. Rather will look too lazy to decide/proceed. While inside I run a million miles an hour, trying to find every perspective. Social situations are maybe what unites all on the spectrum. But I found if I am communicating with somebody who I know to handle the same difficulties, I have it somehow easier. Just when you mutually know to look at signs of what is happening inside the other person, because you know them so much yourself. Labels are great for sorting. But from how I have it for me, I think the bad part is to give everybody ONE label. Instead everybody has... up to infinite labels

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Great words, Michael!

  • @pennydyer8210
    @pennydyer82104 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for saying there’s no such thing as normal, and that many personality traits are simply spectrums. I’ve tried to say the same thing to people, but you’ve said it perfectly.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    It's true 💜👍🏻

  • @dodgygeezah4707
    @dodgygeezah47074 жыл бұрын

    I've watched 5 episodes today, liked them all but this was on another level. Well done Colin! Thanks for being brave enough to talk about this. I'm a mental health nurse and have specialised for some years in supporting people with Asperger's and autism. Sadly, your experience is a common one and it can have a very undermining effect upon someone's self-confidence and esteem. Keep doing what you're both doing - you're rising above all this and getting to a better place - well, literally!!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much! 👍🏻💜

  • @sassandsavvy007
    @sassandsavvy0072 жыл бұрын

    Your words have touched me deeply. I'm 59, never diagnosed but I know exactly what you are talking about. Sending lots of love to both of you. 🙋🏻‍♀️ Lisa

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    2 жыл бұрын

    Thanks, Lisa. You too 💜

  • @sassandsavvy007

    @sassandsavvy007

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@FoxesAfloat 💜

  • @eileencannon9534
    @eileencannon95343 жыл бұрын

    My granddaughter is on the spectrum and is the most amazing person. (I think amazing is used too much which devalues the word) Incredible? We feel truly blessed to have her in our lives.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    She sounds an awesome person xxx

  • @irenehenderson8516

    @irenehenderson8516

    3 жыл бұрын

    My granddaughter is also on the Spectrum. So gifted, but socially awkward. We honor her individuality and talents. She is gifted and a very loving young lady. We are blessed to have her in our lives♥️.

  • @simongodefroy8969
    @simongodefroy89694 жыл бұрын

    What an amazing video. I am a mental health professional and this really illuminated what the reality of what living with ASD can be like. My boyfriend has been diagnosed with autistic traits and I see a lot of what you have said in him, which I knew anyway but it has helped me understand him better. So many thanks for speaking out. I love your videos, they make me laugh and feel okay with the world. I have only just come across them so I am working through them. If you pass through Reading, we would love to say hi. Best wishes, Simon and Tony.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Hi guys 👋 Thank you so much. We're on the Thames near Oxford at the moment. Still not sure which way we're going yet 😬

  • @garyturner5204
    @garyturner5204 Жыл бұрын

    I suspect that the comments and replies here are nothing quite like you were expecting. The few I have read confirm that far more of us watching understand and are delighted and look forward to your videos. Thank you so very much for simply being yourself, and sharing your life experiences with us. I live in the United Stares and simply came across your videos by accident. I think it might have been one of the videos where you talk about trains. :) I get a kick out of your sense of humor. In creating engaging content like you guys do here on KZread, we simply share of ourselves and our fascination and learning about the world we live in. You might not have realized it in the moment when you were doing radio, but you were training for this moment. Thank you so very much for sharing your journey with us all here!

  • @LilithsOwn303
    @LilithsOwn3033 жыл бұрын

    I feel exactly like you, except the bullying at school, was not EVERY day, but certainly in every school. I hated it too and left at age 16 to find a job. I am 62 now, so in those days no one had even heard about Autism or ADHD or any of that. I just got diagnosed in July of this year (2020) and am still processing a lot. I too am HFA (High Functioning Autist) with a high IQ. So yeah, it almost sounds as if you are talking about my life in many ways... :) What you do; the rumination about what to say, do or think is a big part of what they call "masking". All Autistic people do their best to fit in, in to the non-autistic world (aka NT world), and depending on what level of functioning you have, you'll have more (or less) difficulty coping in the outside world. And then there is indeed the SOD (Sensory Overload Disorder) that can make life hell. Like in my street there have been works going on with drills and diggers on tracks (like tanks) that make a hell of a noise on the cobblestones and steamrollers and the works lasted for a full 10 months!! I am diagnosed with Autism, Depression, Anxiety and C-PTSD, I also have OCD so I know exactly what you mean about the depression being caused in majority by the constant stress we're under. I too prefer not to go for medication. I had medication once in 1980's when I was diagnosed with a burnout and I felt like a zombie. Sure I had less stress, but in fact I had stopped feeling anything at all, things happened around me, but I didn't feel concerned anymore. That episode frightened me at lot, so ... for now, if I can cope without medication, I prefer to. No they cannot find a cure for ASD, because it is not a disease, our brains are simply differently wired. It would be the same as trying to cure a horse for having knees that bend the "wrong way" it is not wrong that his hindlegs bend outward, he's a horse! We are simply a different species within the humans. Like a horse is a different species within the animal world. That's also the reason I prefer talking about ASS and not ASD Autism Spectrum Syndrome and not "disorder". We are not in dis-order, our brain simply has a different order, we are differently wired. That's all.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    It's so good to hear from someone in such detail about their experience. Feel free to drop by for a coffee if by some miracle you end up on a canal 😂💜💜👍🏻👍🏻

  • @LilithsOwn303

    @LilithsOwn303

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@FoxesAfloat Thank you very much for your kind answer and invitation. I live across the big canal really I am from Belgium, so I am not sure we'll ever meet, but if the Universe would put us on eachother's path, I would love to enjoy a coffee and some cake with you

  • @heathermallard9197
    @heathermallard91973 жыл бұрын

    OMG Colin, now i know why i love you so very much. You see you described my daughter, who was also recently diagnosed as High functioning Autism. She is like you highly intelligent and despite being born profoundly deaf attained a Science Degree at University which she has not used because she cannot deal with people in this world. She is extremely focussed and was even as a tiny child. Her anxiety levels like you leads her to melt downs and her autism led to her divorce from a husband who did not take his vows seriously i.e. to love her through sickness and health, and whom she adored. She lives with us now and is happier now but it took her until now to get over the way he treated her. ( Long story) She has found happiness again through a man who was first her best friend and who now has proved his love for and whom we all love too, but still she battles through her anxieties daily. The thought of facing the world for her brings her to her knees with panic and she hides away literally. So this video had me crying my eyes out for you and also for my daughter because i recognised in you, her life Colin.. . I knew there was a reason i was drawn to you, Colin...and I don't mean sexually...lol....(I am a happily marries since 1979 woman ..) No what.i mean is I now know I recognised like. You know? When i heard you speak it was as if a door had been opened and my understanding enlightened more for my daughter. I really would love to meet you and Shaun one day ....and i know your kind of a celebrity and so am realistic that i most likely will not, but I think you and I would get along. When my daughter was diagnosed i along with her dad was with her and they said they believed me to be also be High functioning Autistic. I was pretty shocked but looking back it explains a lot. Been pretty down about it for a while and I haven't told many people about how i feel ....guilt being one emotion since i obviously passed it on to my beloved daughter and i can see the pain it has caused her. Sobbing now Colin... I have never shared this with anyone especially in public like this.....Anyway bless you Colin for sharing ....with everyone and for trying to make the world a more understanding place for people like my daughter and indeed me who struggle daily. I really do mean this when i say... much love to you and to Shaun...You have touched my heart, Colin...in ways you will probably never get to see. As for Shaun...who obviously loves you very much he is your love and i am so very glad you have him. I am so very glad that i found your videos and now feel honoured to know you just a little more. love always Heather

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Hi, Heather! Awww, I feel bad that it made you cry! It's so sad that partners don't understand, or find it impossible to cope, although I can believe that it happens because I know how hard it is for Shaun to cope living with me. As for being celebrities... Don't be silly! Haha! We're the same down-to-earth blokes from Yorkshire that we were a couple fo years ago! Sending loads of love! Colin x

  • @heathermallard9197

    @heathermallard9197

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@FoxesAfloat It is very clear that Shaun loves you very much... Indeed its what endears me to him also. When you had a melt down that he shared, it was clear he was worried sick about you, you could see it in his eyes. He puts up with you (as you say) because he loves you and that is why. His love is a beautiful thing. He recognises a very special person when he sees one Colin, and that makes it very easy for him to 'put up with you' as you state. Never forget that... ok. Lots of love Heather x

  • @heathermallard9197

    @heathermallard9197

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@FoxesAfloat Just joined to support you both on your venture. Love your videos guys and you both too. x

  • @kanashiiookami6537
    @kanashiiookami65374 жыл бұрын

    Yup. I know about the pain sound can give, I've been accused of making that up or being dramatic my whole life. No one believes me when I say things like a "quiet" tv are too loud even if it's in the next room. And when it comes to any loud music I can feel it in my spine and heart (or at least that's what the deep tones feel like) and it just makes my anxiety go through the roof because I don't like that feeling. Definitely anxiety ridden and stressed out all day every day, even for the little things, but because my family and I are all the same I figured this was normal. Until I watched people and realised none of these things like choices has ever stopped them dead and made them fret. I've got too many of these problems to list, most everything on your list and more. But like you said, I don't wanna take drugs to change it even if it will make me feel normal. I've spent too long being abnormal that normal sounds depressing. (That and just reading any side affects and symptoms of any drug just freaks me out to no end) So yeah, I understand everything you said, and I get you because you get me. So watching the video has been a chuckle because I'm like "got that, that too, yup, I know that".

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    It's amazing how many people share these things, but I guess unless you experience them it's tough to understand. Sending love! 💜

  • @MichaelAMalone
    @MichaelAMalone4 жыл бұрын

    Well..... wasn't expecting this vid..... and I it just made me feel like... ahh a real person and one who has some balls, to be able to show up and share as yourself is really fabulous. I can relate to a bit of what you are saying and the next time I'm in the UK perhaps I'll look you up. Thanks again for sharing...

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Thanks for some lovely words, Michael 💜

  • @DeceptionDetection86
    @DeceptionDetection863 жыл бұрын

    This dose of honesty is why we love watching you two. You’re real. Thank You

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    💜💜💜

  • @mickcrisp2854
    @mickcrisp28543 жыл бұрын

    Colin, that was the most profound and honest video/vlog? I have ever watched. I found your channel via another narrow boating vlogger and have watched a few of your recent vlogs before I found this one. Your vlogs knock the others into a cocked hat. I shall eagerly await your next vlog. In the meantime I shall catch up with your back catalogue. Thank you

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Wow, thank you!

  • @1320trail
    @1320trail4 жыл бұрын

    You are a beautiful person and it's my pleasure to know you (even if it is only through youtube). You don't know me from Adam, but we're friends just the same.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Aww, thank you! 💜

  • @donnawhereat7998
    @donnawhereat79983 жыл бұрын

    Brave and enlighting. Good on you. I admire your honesty and integrity, im sure this vlog will help many to understand and hopefully be more compassionate of others in thefuture. Credit to you.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much!

  • @nickward1277
    @nickward12773 жыл бұрын

    Thank you *so* much for this. You are incredibly brave, Colin to say these things. I could probably blab on forever, but just to say this: Thank you.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    You are so welcome

  • @sueKay
    @sueKay2 жыл бұрын

    I've never been diagnosed as autistic, although I'm fairly certain I am (my CBT therapist agreed, but my GP refused to help me get a referral). Listening to your story really resonates with me. When I was at school I was picked on every single day for being different, and I'd go home and go to bed and only get out for dinner or to do chores, then I'd get up the next day, rinse and repeat. I had a series of breakdowns in my 20s and for 7 or 8 years I wasn't really living and it's all a bit of a blur truth be told. I freak out a lot in busy places too - university was hell because of that, I used to run out of lectures to calm down all the time. Noise upsets me as well. I have noisy neighbours and I can't even function when they start up. It's an odd thing because I wouldn't wish how I've felt on anyone, but it's also a comfort to know there's other people out there with similar experiences, so thank you so much for sharing. Luckily these days - other than my neighbours making noise - I'm doing much better and I hope you are too.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    2 жыл бұрын

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @PolkaDotPearle
    @PolkaDotPearle4 жыл бұрын

    I think this is the calmest I’ve seen you in a video. Probably because you’re laying it all bare (we know you do that on top of the boat too!) I have anxiety and there’s definitely a “mask” we wear, but there’s no mask here and it’s beautifully honest. Thank you for sharing it xx

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Thanks for noticing it, Leanne 💜

  • @fishtank5813
    @fishtank58134 жыл бұрын

    Top man! If everyone shared their mental health experiences, there would be no reason for anybody to feel "odd" or out of place.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Well said 👍🏻

  • @simonclifford7055
    @simonclifford70553 жыл бұрын

    Great post, I was only told 2 years ago I suffer from depression and anxiety and it made me realise how long I have suffered this way just like you, the overthinking, dreading social events been told I'm odd,weird, different. I'm 45 married and 2 beautiful children and like you nobody would know. Thank you for this video it helps to hear I'm not alone. I have recently started taking countryside photos and love. I'm a new subscriber and so keep up the great work.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much for commenting, Simon! (And for subscribing) 👍🏻💜

  • @TheSoundsInside
    @TheSoundsInside3 жыл бұрын

    I was just looking through some of your older videos because your channel has such warm positive energy that I wanted to watch more :) And, I found this one! I also have Asperger’s, and I relate very strongly to many things you express here. Thank you SO much for your openness and honesty in speaking about this. It is really touching to see true raw expression from another human. People spend so much time trying to hide who they are, rather than simply be truthful or open about it. You’re a bloody amazing person. You BOTH are. 😊✨

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Aww, thank you so much! 💜

  • @redrup1969
    @redrup19694 жыл бұрын

    I've never heard anyone describe how I feel as well as you just have,I am starting to think maybe I am similar.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    💜

  • @brutusl2786
    @brutusl27865 жыл бұрын

    Boy oh boy, I so get it! It took me over 60 yrs to figure it out, but it was a revelation, like a light bulb going off. The bullying, the stress of social situations, it just resonates. I have seen more and more that we're not alone with this, there are lots of people dealing with this. I too suffered through childhood, the meltdowns, total anxiety. Lack in like you said, they really didn't know about this stuff back in the day, it was all freudian - no help, at least it wasn't called evil spirits. Knowing really helps.

  • @saffanna26
    @saffanna263 жыл бұрын

    It's been a while since you posted this, and I don't know if you'll see this comment, but what a beautiful an intelligent vlog. I'm an American woman who dreams of the narrow-boat life...but years ago I worked with pre-school children who were on the spectrum and loved them dearly. I pray that they have grown into knowing and accepting themselves as you have. I am thankful you have such an understanding partner. I've really enjoyed your humor and joy in the few videos I have watched, and will be trying to watch them all. Much love to the two of you (and Dylan) from Tampa, Florida.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks so much, Carolyn and big respect for the work you did 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻💜💜💜

  • @andyhering9560
    @andyhering95603 жыл бұрын

    You are a true and sincere person, God bless you!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much, Andy 💜

  • @StanHirson
    @StanHirson5 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for making this. There is little else I can add; it is a beautiful video and a huge contribution. Vlogging at its best!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    5 жыл бұрын

    Stan, that is so awesome of you, thank you! xxxxx

  • @anniepienaar2718
    @anniepienaar27184 жыл бұрын

    You are one awesome human and thank you for sharing your life with us, may you go from strenght to strenght

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    Thank you! You too!

  • @dizzyduck3708
    @dizzyduck37083 жыл бұрын

    Hi I saw your vlog and thought it very interesting. My son was diagnosed with ASD when he was 7 and my daughter when she was 19 we have had some bad times but we have also had some lovely times. My son being diagnosed early was a help the school he went to helped him with strategies to help him cope with everyday life. My daughter struggles all the time with depression and anxiety. I have seen both sides of diagnosis the early and the late. I think my son copes so much better and actually helps my daughter alot to cope with different situations. My son is now 19 and my daughter is 27. Thank you for being so honest and open about your diagnosis it will help so may people. Love you you both. Tracy. Xx

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks so much, Tracy!

  • @nancyspringston8547
    @nancyspringston85473 жыл бұрын

    Ohhhhhhhh, thank you, thank you. We have a grandson (14) who is just like you. He has only been officially diagnosed for about 4 years. He is very intelligent, gently, caring, and struggles exactly like you describe. But, hearing you so beautifully describe YOU. It has helped me as his grandmother, who loves he so very much.....as we do our other three grandchildren. I am going to show this episode to my daughter....and I believe it will be good for our beautiful boy to hear.....we talk about his autism, and it is open and accepted. It is supported.....but to hear you......thank you, thank you, thank you. God bless you....

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you, Nancy. Your grandson has a very caring and loving grandmother 💜

  • @AndyB59
    @AndyB596 жыл бұрын

    I wish there was a "love" button to click, as you would get one from me. This is a brilliant video. You open yourself up and explain so articulately how the world is for you and how each day has problems for you to overcome that neurotypicals can't begin to understand. I have two grown up children at opposite ends of the spectrum and I am constantly lost in love and admiration at how they cope with what life throws at them and come out the other side still smiling. I like to think that we as parents have helped them come to terms with who they are and develop coping strategies. As you say, everyone of us is unique and does not need a label; you have explained this so well. I wish you and Sean every happiness in your new (second time around!) life and will be following you avidly.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    6 жыл бұрын

    Andy, thank you so much. It means everything to me when people understand :) I have nothing for admiration for parents who have raised children on the spectrum. You're heroes! Thank you for the kind wishes. Lots of love! Colin.

  • @andyevo1989
    @andyevo19893 жыл бұрын

    Great video! Massive respect for telling everyone about the past and how you've dealt with it. It will hit a lot of people and they will have similar experiences in my opinion, I know I have. Keep up the amazing work on your channel :-)

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    I appreciate that!

  • @tobyhuxley
    @tobyhuxley3 жыл бұрын

    I have ADHD and I’m currently going through symptoms of generalised anxiety disorder, something incredibly calming about hearing you talk about mental health, the spectrum and just sharing your story ☺️

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    I hope you get through it mate 💜

  • @chriswatson9818
    @chriswatson98183 жыл бұрын

    Colin.... just absolutely awesome!! I know it took a lot of courage for you to make this video. The ridiculous stigma surrounding autism and mental health is horrible. I'm also truly grateful you found a partner that can wholly support you! I'm a firefighter/medic and see all too often the effects these kinds of things have on people, my wife is actually inpatient in a mental health facility as I write this so it really does hit home. She has long been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and severe depression and its a daily struggle for her. But with people erasing the stigma and talking about it in the open it really does help, not only others struggling themselves letting them know that are not alone but with those who don't understand what others might actually be going through. Amazing as always!!

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks so much, Chris 💜

  • @louiseshekell4902
    @louiseshekell49023 жыл бұрын

    you are such a natural communicator, that is a gift in itself. Talking therapies are estimated to be as effective as medication for some people. Stay well xx

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks, Louise 💜

  • @brianrgreen45
    @brianrgreen454 жыл бұрын

    Well I'm 74 and have been aware that I am somewhere on the "spectrum" for many years although not "diagnosed". My life experience has been a somewhat "watered down" version of yours. I have found that practicing Yoga has made a big contribution to me... The practice grounds me, stops my brain charging round in circles, makes me more aware and comfortable with those around me and as a bonus keeps my ageing body flexible. There are many lessons on U tube I recomend it to anyone. Thanks for your video. Happy boating "There is nothing absolutely nothing so worth doing as messing about in boats" Brian

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    4 жыл бұрын

    hehe.. Great line at the end. I used to teach Pilates in addition to being a Personal Trainer and that helped The confines of the boat prevent a lot of the activity but I've never tried Yoga. 💜

  • @kellie5476
    @kellie54763 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much for opening up like this, you're absolutely right, it really does help others who struggle too. What I'd give to be able to just sail away from the noise... This lifestyle is so inspiring.

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks, Michael 💜

  • @johncornish1380

    @johncornish1380

    2 жыл бұрын

    Your open and honest communication is so incredibly helpful. Your experiences mirror my own in so many ways and you’ve given me a sense that I’m not alone. Thank you!

  • @phi1lchris2
    @phi1lchris23 жыл бұрын

    Glad you shared that video Colin, so good of you to talk about mental health issues openly. New to Canal boating last year and enjoying watching all your blogs from the beginning. best to you and Shaun,

  • @FoxesAfloat

    @FoxesAfloat

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks so much, Mike!