Hey friend do you know someone loves you he has prepared heaven for you his name is jesus christ you just need to repent of your sins
@reekydebbarma5397 Жыл бұрын
@@Schrodingers_Kat I love you do you love jesus
@reekydebbarma5397 Жыл бұрын
Repent of your sins
@why4299 Жыл бұрын
While detransitioning how does it feel with no breast? I mean no harm. I'm generally curious
@thefoodcrier Жыл бұрын
It's very difficult to accept. I am still coming to terms with the fact that I got a double mastectomy for cosmetic reasons. I now know a handful of people who had no choice but to remove their breasts, and having met these people, it has given me a different perspective on the thought of cosmetic surgery. Sometimes, very rarely, I get a small remembrance of them, as if I still had them. Kind of like "ghost limbs" except it is such a fleeting feeling. That feeling brings sadness, because there has been a lot of grieving over the loss of them, and I am STILL going through this process. Of course, the back pain has decreased... but all in all, I do regret the surgery and it is not something I recommend unless medically needed. It comes with a LOT of grieving and sadness and emotional pain.
@why4299 Жыл бұрын
@@thefoodcrier I'm so sorry you're going through this. I pray you find some peace.
@wrmlm37 Жыл бұрын
Lovely. Well told and sincere. Good luck in your future. This bit of autobiography was nice to stumble upon, Silas. Though your thumbnail implies you detransitioned. Not done yet, but you still look male...
@thefoodcrier Жыл бұрын
Thank you! Yes, it's a long story... I need to do an update video. I still "identify as male" because I still have a lot of trauma around accepting my natural gender as it is (female). I have this weird thing where I still identify as "male" in public; I only allow my girlfriend to mix up my pronouns because I trust her. At this point, how I identify is just based upon how safe I feel in any given environment, which I'm STILL working on.
@wrmlm37 Жыл бұрын
@@thefoodcrier I hope you find peace in your skin. We all deserve some happiness and a life that isn't constant stress!
@KallusGarnet Жыл бұрын
My name is Kallus and i transitioned from man to machine.
@wrmlm37 Жыл бұрын
That "scent" you referred to is minor, unless you shower infrequently. It's your body's way of cleaning itself. It's good, don't villainize, a natural proces. All menstruating people go through this! You're just fine;)
@wrmlm37 Жыл бұрын
Your doggo will love you no matter what. Best of luck to you!
@thefoodcrier Жыл бұрын
True! Thank you!
@mandy3404 Жыл бұрын
This video will be so helpful for people going through a similar process. Of course everybody will be different, but uncertain medical things can be really lonely and isolating so not feeling alone can make a big difference x
@thefoodcrier Жыл бұрын
I had the same thing in mind, thank you! All I want to do is help.
@laurapleasefollowjesus14712 жыл бұрын
God bless you lovely one. Many prayers over you in Jesus name.
@user-wh8qx1xi3k2 жыл бұрын
How do you identify now?
@thefoodcrier Жыл бұрын
Unfortunately, I still have the trauma; it doesn't just go away... so in public, I tend to identify as "male" (just because it feels safer, and because it's what I've been used to for years now and what's marked on my license). I hope, one day, to be able to be comfortable enough in myself to possibly start identifying as "female" again...
@user-wh8qx1xi3k Жыл бұрын
@@thefoodcrier I want you to know that, once you’ve worked through your trauma, it’s completely possible your discomfort with being female may still be there. It’s just as possible it won’t be, but please don’t force yourself to do anything you’re uncomfortable with. It sounds like you still have a lot of stuff going on and either way you should have all of the support you could possibly ever need. Whether you’re male or female, you deserve to have the resources to heal and go through life in whichever way is most comfortable for you. If you really are trans, nothing you can possibly do will ever make the discomfort with being female go away- ever. Even if you heal from your trauma. So take your time, go at your own pace, be very careful with big life decisions, and be sure of yourself before you take any big steps, whether they be detransition or transition related. I hope you’re not trans, because if you are, then life is going to be very complicated for you. But if you are and you ignore it, that will make the matter ten times worse. Best of luck, please take care. I wish you well and good luck <3
@thefoodcrier Жыл бұрын
@@user-wh8qx1xi3k Thank you immensely for this response!
@scandia6182 жыл бұрын
I did all of the same things that you did as a youth, except it was before trans was even a thing. I am a lesbian, however., not all tomboys turn out that way.
@why4299 Жыл бұрын
I was such a tomboy. Even told my mom I wanted to be a boy. Thank God I grew up in the 70s.
@thefoodcrier Жыл бұрын
It's very sad that some of us grow up feeling like we have to change ourselves rather than learn to love ourself for who we are... I am VERY glad that you went down the route that didn't require editing your body in any way. I accepted being a tomboy more as I was younger, but then... I'm not really sure what happened. We all learn lessons though I suppose! Happy for you!
@scandia618 Жыл бұрын
@@thefoodcrier I wish the best for you.
@scandia618 Жыл бұрын
We didn't have the option when I was young, thank god.
@sharonleecowan40752 жыл бұрын
Thank you SO MUCH for these two videos. The more detransitioners have the courage to tell their stories, the more other people will have the courage to turn back if transition isn't solving their emotional difficulties.
@thefoodcrier Жыл бұрын
Of course! I completely agree!
@angelpaul86782 жыл бұрын
💔 promosm
@wordsbykatarina2 жыл бұрын
THIS IS FUCKING INCREDIBLE.
@wordsbykatarina2 жыл бұрын
You’re absolutely beautiful
@perseasasimakopoulos8963 жыл бұрын
Am sorry i didnt get what you regret i mean you think self love is important and transition doesnt nessecery help but what about you ? what changed in your identity if i may ask and do you not want to continue hormone therapy ? Or what happened bad because of transition ?
@josieeaston9063 жыл бұрын
Thank you for your bravery. Just the decision to detransition would have been a huge one to make, let alone sharing it in such an open manner. Please know that your bravery is acknowledged, and appreciated.... without such stories, we get the impression that everybody who starts on hormones lives happily ever after, and that "detransition is a myth" - and when there is no such thing as detransition, the medical community feels justified in continuing to insist that medical transition is the best, indeed the ONLY, way to manage gender dysphoria.
@user-wh8qx1xi3k2 жыл бұрын
It is the only way to treat gender dysphoria. The question is diagnosing what gender dysphoria is, though. A lot of people get it confused with other emotions or types of pain, and if you’re not emotionally intelligent, don’t your yourself well, don’t have a good therapist, etc. it’s very possible to be misdiagnosed. But if you truly have gender dysphoria and you weren’t misdiagnosed, then yes, the only treatment is transition.
@bestany55173 жыл бұрын
Your documentary style story telling is great, both parts 1 &2. I’m glad you are in a good place and have discovered how to love yourself. I hope you are still doing well this late into 2020!
@thefoodcrier Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much! Doing much better!
@journofay4 жыл бұрын
Living in today's society Men are constantly devalued, criticized & burdened with unrealistic expectations to be Superman. Life doesn't get easier transitioning from a female to a male, it just introduces a new set of challenges. Learning, Growth & Self Love are unavoidable experiences every Individual will deal with in life. Make peace, keep moving forward & enjoy your life.
@luciaetxebarria35144 жыл бұрын
Amazing! So beautifully filmes. Loved It.
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Lucía Etxebarria Thank you very much!
@luciaetxebarria35144 жыл бұрын
You are welcome. I al from Spain. 💜
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Lucía Etxebarria I live in the United States in Connecticut. It’s lovely to know that the audience is around the world!
@ninahagen10084 жыл бұрын
Silas Thank You So Much With All My Love & Solidarity!
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
You’re very welcome 😊
@helenspielbauer54014 жыл бұрын
While there are a lot of great detransition videos on youtube, I love how you tell your story in documentary form instead of just a vlog. Well done!
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you very much, I appreciate it!
@helenspielbauer54014 жыл бұрын
Your story is important. Thanks for sharing. Great video. Your dog is the sweetest!
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much! And yes, he’s a sweetheart! His name is Bear 😊🐕
@wordsbykatarina4 жыл бұрын
silasmgonz um excuse me LOL i kid 😂
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
😆😆
@MarvSomers4 жыл бұрын
Thank you, this is beautiful. Hope you’re going well
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Not a problem! Thank you!
@audreymai27734 жыл бұрын
You are very beautuful btw.
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much! 🙂
@audreymai27734 жыл бұрын
Glad you found your true self!
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you! So am I!
@ellepalmer4 жыл бұрын
we stopped testosterone at the same time. your video made me feel a lot better about myself... knowing someone is going through the same journey that I am.
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
I’m super grateful that my video made a difference in your life; I share to do just that! Your comment really hit me hard. I’m really happy to hear that I was able to help. 🙂
@madamedestcroix4 жыл бұрын
I'm so glad that you are doing well, Silas, and that you have good support. I'm really wishing things keep getting better and better for you!
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much!
@randomentertainment78264 жыл бұрын
your amazing thanks for sharing all of this
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you! It’s no problem.
@randomentertainment78264 жыл бұрын
thankyou for this video ik its not directed toward anyone specific bu it just helps to know that i have someone who is like an older brother and has gone thru the exact same thing(s) that im going thru
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
No problem! Glad I could help.
@Perzikyoghurt4 жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing. You look more authentic now and that's great. A stable mood is worth everything. :)
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
No problem! I definitely do feel more authentic; I’m really glad it’s noticeable.
@powerfantastic014 жыл бұрын
Wow, thank you for the update!! You're looking great! :)
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
No problem, thank you!
@wordsbykatarina4 жыл бұрын
thank you ♥️...
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Thank YOU!
@Rainbow-kl9hy4 жыл бұрын
Hi silaz..how are you? Merry christmas and happy new year. God loves you and he always there for you..
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you very much! I’m doing quite well lately. Happy Holidays to you!
@NoCorpoCerto4 жыл бұрын
Great, Silas! I would like to translate your video to our channel. Would it be possible? Thanks I lot. We´re a Brazilian campaign against transking kids in Brasil. Best regards, thanks and be brave <3
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Of course! And thank you 😊
@wordsbykatarina4 жыл бұрын
You are an amazing human being inside & out Never forget that
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you ❤️...
@wordsbykatarina4 жыл бұрын
♥️...
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
❤️❤️❤️
@wordsbykatarina4 жыл бұрын
silasmgonz :3!
@Rainbow-kl9hy4 жыл бұрын
I pray for you.remember god love you..pray and you will find a joy in god glory.
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you very much!
@Rainbow-kl9hy4 жыл бұрын
silasmgonz stay strong and healthy.. i never stop pray for you. God love you..there are people care for even you dont see them..
@Rainbow-kl9hy4 жыл бұрын
silasmgonz how are you today?..god always there for you..open your heart and he will come to your life. You will fill with love, joy and peace. Stay strong and healthy.
@Rainbow-kl9hy4 жыл бұрын
silasmgonz ..i want to share a song with you. If you want..You can listen to this song (Broken Vessel- hillsong) when i feel sad. it makes me remember of god that He loves me. Stay strong and healthy..
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
You have impeccable timing, as I really needed to hear this at this moment. Thank you very much.
@MF-sj4qv4 жыл бұрын
You're very strong and very brave. I wish you the best. Thank you for sharing this.
@thefoodcrier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you! It means a lot to me that you watched it 😊
@ScottEMyers5 жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story, wishing all the best for you <3
@thefoodcrier5 жыл бұрын
Thank you very much!
@kaktus3345 жыл бұрын
as a lesbian I almost went down that road, but I had a therapist who refused to acknoledge me as not being a woman and that somehow clicked for me and I realized my problems with myself weren't rooted in me being trans or in a wrong body. thanks for telling your story, I hope it reaches young women that consider transitioning
@thefoodcrier5 жыл бұрын
Thank you! I’m thankful for your therapist. Too many people nowadays are having lots of regrets because of their decisions. I’m hoping that this video can prevent, or at least decrease, the number of people going through this situation.
@NoCorpoCerto4 жыл бұрын
It´s so hard finding a therapist who tells us the truth, or at least makes us see other frames... and in some countries this can take out his or her license :(
@rocket32545 жыл бұрын
You are a very talented film maker. I wish you all the best with healing your traumas and the future!
@thefoodcrier5 жыл бұрын
Thank you very much!
@Perzikyoghurt5 жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story. Great job. I hope it gets seen a lot.
@thefoodcrier5 жыл бұрын
No problem! Thank you very much 😊
@powerfantastic015 жыл бұрын
THANK YOU!!
@thefoodcrier5 жыл бұрын
No problem! 😊
@loiscatlin97085 жыл бұрын
Thank you for doing this. It was honest and brave. It makes me so angry that there were not caring people available to help you deal with some of the trauma before you did something so drastic. But - big BUT - there can still be healing and help and growth and life. Self love doesn't quite go far enough - knowing you are loved by the God who created you (perfect) is the life changer. What you have walked through, though brutal, can help many others in a similar position.
@thefoodcrier5 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much. I’m hoping, with this video, that I can help others in any way possible by sharing my story 👍🏻
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W vid
YES!!!
Great work! Well done ❤
Thank you!
Hey friend do you know someone loves you he has prepared heaven for you his name is jesus christ you just need to repent of your sins
@@Schrodingers_Kat I love you do you love jesus
Repent of your sins
While detransitioning how does it feel with no breast? I mean no harm. I'm generally curious
It's very difficult to accept. I am still coming to terms with the fact that I got a double mastectomy for cosmetic reasons. I now know a handful of people who had no choice but to remove their breasts, and having met these people, it has given me a different perspective on the thought of cosmetic surgery. Sometimes, very rarely, I get a small remembrance of them, as if I still had them. Kind of like "ghost limbs" except it is such a fleeting feeling. That feeling brings sadness, because there has been a lot of grieving over the loss of them, and I am STILL going through this process. Of course, the back pain has decreased... but all in all, I do regret the surgery and it is not something I recommend unless medically needed. It comes with a LOT of grieving and sadness and emotional pain.
@@thefoodcrier I'm so sorry you're going through this. I pray you find some peace.
Lovely. Well told and sincere. Good luck in your future. This bit of autobiography was nice to stumble upon, Silas. Though your thumbnail implies you detransitioned. Not done yet, but you still look male...
Thank you! Yes, it's a long story... I need to do an update video. I still "identify as male" because I still have a lot of trauma around accepting my natural gender as it is (female). I have this weird thing where I still identify as "male" in public; I only allow my girlfriend to mix up my pronouns because I trust her. At this point, how I identify is just based upon how safe I feel in any given environment, which I'm STILL working on.
@@thefoodcrier I hope you find peace in your skin. We all deserve some happiness and a life that isn't constant stress!
My name is Kallus and i transitioned from man to machine.
That "scent" you referred to is minor, unless you shower infrequently. It's your body's way of cleaning itself. It's good, don't villainize, a natural proces. All menstruating people go through this! You're just fine;)
Your doggo will love you no matter what. Best of luck to you!
True! Thank you!
This video will be so helpful for people going through a similar process. Of course everybody will be different, but uncertain medical things can be really lonely and isolating so not feeling alone can make a big difference x
I had the same thing in mind, thank you! All I want to do is help.
God bless you lovely one. Many prayers over you in Jesus name.
How do you identify now?
Unfortunately, I still have the trauma; it doesn't just go away... so in public, I tend to identify as "male" (just because it feels safer, and because it's what I've been used to for years now and what's marked on my license). I hope, one day, to be able to be comfortable enough in myself to possibly start identifying as "female" again...
@@thefoodcrier I want you to know that, once you’ve worked through your trauma, it’s completely possible your discomfort with being female may still be there. It’s just as possible it won’t be, but please don’t force yourself to do anything you’re uncomfortable with. It sounds like you still have a lot of stuff going on and either way you should have all of the support you could possibly ever need. Whether you’re male or female, you deserve to have the resources to heal and go through life in whichever way is most comfortable for you. If you really are trans, nothing you can possibly do will ever make the discomfort with being female go away- ever. Even if you heal from your trauma. So take your time, go at your own pace, be very careful with big life decisions, and be sure of yourself before you take any big steps, whether they be detransition or transition related. I hope you’re not trans, because if you are, then life is going to be very complicated for you. But if you are and you ignore it, that will make the matter ten times worse. Best of luck, please take care. I wish you well and good luck <3
@@user-wh8qx1xi3k Thank you immensely for this response!
I did all of the same things that you did as a youth, except it was before trans was even a thing. I am a lesbian, however., not all tomboys turn out that way.
I was such a tomboy. Even told my mom I wanted to be a boy. Thank God I grew up in the 70s.
It's very sad that some of us grow up feeling like we have to change ourselves rather than learn to love ourself for who we are... I am VERY glad that you went down the route that didn't require editing your body in any way. I accepted being a tomboy more as I was younger, but then... I'm not really sure what happened. We all learn lessons though I suppose! Happy for you!
@@thefoodcrier I wish the best for you.
We didn't have the option when I was young, thank god.
Thank you SO MUCH for these two videos. The more detransitioners have the courage to tell their stories, the more other people will have the courage to turn back if transition isn't solving their emotional difficulties.
Of course! I completely agree!
💔 promosm
THIS IS FUCKING INCREDIBLE.
You’re absolutely beautiful
Am sorry i didnt get what you regret i mean you think self love is important and transition doesnt nessecery help but what about you ? what changed in your identity if i may ask and do you not want to continue hormone therapy ? Or what happened bad because of transition ?
Thank you for your bravery. Just the decision to detransition would have been a huge one to make, let alone sharing it in such an open manner. Please know that your bravery is acknowledged, and appreciated.... without such stories, we get the impression that everybody who starts on hormones lives happily ever after, and that "detransition is a myth" - and when there is no such thing as detransition, the medical community feels justified in continuing to insist that medical transition is the best, indeed the ONLY, way to manage gender dysphoria.
It is the only way to treat gender dysphoria. The question is diagnosing what gender dysphoria is, though. A lot of people get it confused with other emotions or types of pain, and if you’re not emotionally intelligent, don’t your yourself well, don’t have a good therapist, etc. it’s very possible to be misdiagnosed. But if you truly have gender dysphoria and you weren’t misdiagnosed, then yes, the only treatment is transition.
Your documentary style story telling is great, both parts 1 &2. I’m glad you are in a good place and have discovered how to love yourself. I hope you are still doing well this late into 2020!
Thank you so much! Doing much better!
Living in today's society Men are constantly devalued, criticized & burdened with unrealistic expectations to be Superman. Life doesn't get easier transitioning from a female to a male, it just introduces a new set of challenges. Learning, Growth & Self Love are unavoidable experiences every Individual will deal with in life. Make peace, keep moving forward & enjoy your life.
Amazing! So beautifully filmes. Loved It.
Lucía Etxebarria Thank you very much!
You are welcome. I al from Spain. 💜
Lucía Etxebarria I live in the United States in Connecticut. It’s lovely to know that the audience is around the world!
Silas Thank You So Much With All My Love & Solidarity!
You’re very welcome 😊
While there are a lot of great detransition videos on youtube, I love how you tell your story in documentary form instead of just a vlog. Well done!
Thank you very much, I appreciate it!
Your story is important. Thanks for sharing. Great video. Your dog is the sweetest!
Thank you so much! And yes, he’s a sweetheart! His name is Bear 😊🐕
silasmgonz um excuse me LOL i kid 😂
😆😆
Thank you, this is beautiful. Hope you’re going well
Not a problem! Thank you!
You are very beautuful btw.
Thank you so much! 🙂
Glad you found your true self!
Thank you! So am I!
we stopped testosterone at the same time. your video made me feel a lot better about myself... knowing someone is going through the same journey that I am.
I’m super grateful that my video made a difference in your life; I share to do just that! Your comment really hit me hard. I’m really happy to hear that I was able to help. 🙂
I'm so glad that you are doing well, Silas, and that you have good support. I'm really wishing things keep getting better and better for you!
Thank you so much!
your amazing thanks for sharing all of this
Thank you! It’s no problem.
thankyou for this video ik its not directed toward anyone specific bu it just helps to know that i have someone who is like an older brother and has gone thru the exact same thing(s) that im going thru
No problem! Glad I could help.
Thanks for sharing. You look more authentic now and that's great. A stable mood is worth everything. :)
No problem! I definitely do feel more authentic; I’m really glad it’s noticeable.
Wow, thank you for the update!! You're looking great! :)
No problem, thank you!
thank you ♥️...
Thank YOU!
Hi silaz..how are you? Merry christmas and happy new year. God loves you and he always there for you..
Thank you very much! I’m doing quite well lately. Happy Holidays to you!
Great, Silas! I would like to translate your video to our channel. Would it be possible? Thanks I lot. We´re a Brazilian campaign against transking kids in Brasil. Best regards, thanks and be brave <3
Of course! And thank you 😊
You are an amazing human being inside & out Never forget that
Thank you ❤️...
♥️...
❤️❤️❤️
silasmgonz :3!
I pray for you.remember god love you..pray and you will find a joy in god glory.
Thank you very much!
silasmgonz stay strong and healthy.. i never stop pray for you. God love you..there are people care for even you dont see them..
silasmgonz how are you today?..god always there for you..open your heart and he will come to your life. You will fill with love, joy and peace. Stay strong and healthy.
silasmgonz ..i want to share a song with you. If you want..You can listen to this song (Broken Vessel- hillsong) when i feel sad. it makes me remember of god that He loves me. Stay strong and healthy..
You have impeccable timing, as I really needed to hear this at this moment. Thank you very much.
You're very strong and very brave. I wish you the best. Thank you for sharing this.
Thank you! It means a lot to me that you watched it 😊
Thank you for sharing your story, wishing all the best for you <3
Thank you very much!
as a lesbian I almost went down that road, but I had a therapist who refused to acknoledge me as not being a woman and that somehow clicked for me and I realized my problems with myself weren't rooted in me being trans or in a wrong body. thanks for telling your story, I hope it reaches young women that consider transitioning
Thank you! I’m thankful for your therapist. Too many people nowadays are having lots of regrets because of their decisions. I’m hoping that this video can prevent, or at least decrease, the number of people going through this situation.
It´s so hard finding a therapist who tells us the truth, or at least makes us see other frames... and in some countries this can take out his or her license :(
You are a very talented film maker. I wish you all the best with healing your traumas and the future!
Thank you very much!
Thank you for sharing your story. Great job. I hope it gets seen a lot.
No problem! Thank you very much 😊
THANK YOU!!
No problem! 😊
Thank you for doing this. It was honest and brave. It makes me so angry that there were not caring people available to help you deal with some of the trauma before you did something so drastic. But - big BUT - there can still be healing and help and growth and life. Self love doesn't quite go far enough - knowing you are loved by the God who created you (perfect) is the life changer. What you have walked through, though brutal, can help many others in a similar position.
Thank you so much. I’m hoping, with this video, that I can help others in any way possible by sharing my story 👍🏻
Thank you I love you
No problem!
Still breathtaking ♥️
Thank you so much ❤️
Fucking amazing!!! And insightful ♥️ good job..
Thank you ❤️...