Congratulations, so proud of you! 🥳❤️🥳❤️🥳❤️🥳❤️🥳❤️🥳
@shineon8219 Жыл бұрын
Thank you. Despite the struggles, I'm in a better place in my life.
@HappyRhino2 жыл бұрын
Keep it up 👍 You inspire us all!
@shineon82192 жыл бұрын
Thank you. Will do.
@tripleeight56083 жыл бұрын
You will have to get radical with it. Its either you continue like that, or, stay trapped for the rest of your life. Either you find a way to shine or let the shadows swallow you. I don't blame you to not want get out there. but you want to have some fun outside bro. we all do. you can do it bro. you dont have to feel down because your past is heavy. keep going but give it a real shot. You are already bold enough to put yourself out there. which is a lot for the majority of us. You got it bro. Just find your thing and do it.
@shineon82193 жыл бұрын
Thank you very much for the kind words and advice. It means a lot. Addiction can be very up and down, and relapse is very common, so I try and keep in mind that despite having a down period, I have learned things and grown. My progress has not been wiped away because of a derailment. As long as I stay clean, I can have access to that growth. Taking a radical step like getting my GED and a part time job, and working towards higher education/job training to try and have a meaningful career seems to be the big, bold goal for me. These are things I have talked about wanting for years. Taking small, but deliberate and whole-hearted steps towards these things would be radical for me....I've dipped my toe in the water in the past towards these things but gave up. I have two days clean now...and feel a connection to my true self returning....I am still dealing with the effects of withdrawal (insomnia, anxiety, low mood, I have barely eaten in two days), but I had a moment of happiness, contentment and presence this evening. I feel hopeful. One foot in front of the other, writing down my short and long term goals, getting focused and deliberate, and trying to put myself out there socially is what I will do.
@tripleeight56083 жыл бұрын
@@shineon8219 Do it man! Also dont forget that avenues like KZread exists. You can create another channel about whatever you like. You already have a foot in it. You can speak on camera pretty good. So... just an idea.
@shineon82193 жыл бұрын
Thanks. I will keep that in mind. I often feel a little insecure about how I speak in videos. Many of my videos are made in times where I'm overwhelmed or lost. I am conscious of trying not to be too meandering, and I think I've gotten more focused as I've made more videos. I try to focus on one topic and stick to it if I can. I would be more articulate if I made videos where it was more structured beforehand. I do have different interests and hobbies. Maybe a more light-hearted channel might be worth trying.
@storytimewithjass60183 жыл бұрын
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@randybell98103 жыл бұрын
Pick up a broom do some work
@shineon82193 жыл бұрын
Hmm?
@storytimewithjass60183 жыл бұрын
Good to see you doing well. Take care.
@shineon82193 жыл бұрын
Thanks! I definitely feel I'm on the right track.
@survivornomad98923 жыл бұрын
Please seek help when you feel suicidal: Call 1-800-273-8255. You can call this number and they will help you. We support you and please keep talking to us about how you feel.
@conocerseasimismo4 жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing this, it is soooo valuable, it is great to hear from you! It would be interesting to have an update of this is months or years, like a friend who speaks how things are going with out any judgment! :)
@stellabella52694 жыл бұрын
Congratulations on your clean time, so proud of you! Pornagraphy addiction is definitely something that needs to be talked about more and i'm really happy you took this difficult step. It just shows how much you've grown and overcome. You look healthy and you sound so confident, and just like all the other addictions you will beat this one too , it just takes work, but if you really want it, it's possible. 🤗❤👍XOXO
@MyBenzoHell4 жыл бұрын
I’m here, this sounds crazy haha 🤯, aren’t our brains fascinating ? Edit = my opinions all my dreams have always related to something in my life even if they are so random . Ino this video is old now but keep going to meetings and heal the soul bro we all have a lot of un-resolved stuff that can lead to subliminal dreams . Hope to pannel up one day and talk some recovery💯 Peace from the uk 🇬🇧
@MyBenzoHell4 жыл бұрын
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@stellabella52694 жыл бұрын
You look great, so happy you're feeling better and on the healing journey. 🤗❤👍 XOXOX
@shineon82194 жыл бұрын
Stella, the recovery discord I'm in, thanks to you, changed my life so much. I am eternally grateful to you for this gift. It has changed my life incalculably.
@miladdoroudian614 жыл бұрын
I know your pain. I understand it(from your other videos), but life is worth living, I promise you life is worth living.
@savior67854 жыл бұрын
If you’re thinking about committing suicide or struggling with thoughts of suicide, know that God cares about you and you’re not alone in this world. Believe in His son that died on the cross for you and me, you’ll see, He’ll help you in this world to survive. 1 John 4:4 “You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world. Psalm @-19. “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. The righteous person may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all. @ @
@mjnoon36094 жыл бұрын
you kinda made me feel less alone if that helps you feel better.
@storytimewithjass60184 жыл бұрын
Thank you for having the courage to talk about this frame of mind you are in ATM. I understand and relate to you how you are feeling and the thought process and it sucks to be in that dark place it is scary as the thoughts are scary. Take care of yourself my friend, you are worth it, such a handsome young man so sad to see you suffering.💕
@RudyTheInternetGod4 жыл бұрын
Good deeds goes a long way if you're not helping others you'll definitely feel that way how many good deeds have you done this week? Get it up
@shineon82194 жыл бұрын
Yeah, I think service in some way is helpful to get out of depression. I've volunteered at an animal shelter for a short period of time. I just feel physically exhausted. It's like I am glued to the bed. Kind of hard to do good deeds with this level of physical and mental energy. Thanks for the suggestion. I did do some on the phone today...small good deeds.
@RudyTheInternetGod4 жыл бұрын
@@shineon8219 seek nature and drink 🥥water technology is eating you alive
@stellabella52694 жыл бұрын
Praying for you right now! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 Heavenly Father please send your Angel's right now to help my friend feel better. Take away all thoughts of suicide in Jesus name I ask this! Amen 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
@stellabella52694 жыл бұрын
I'm sorry you're feeling bad, sometimes when you start your meds it takes about 4 weeks to feel better. Maybe talking to someone from the suicide hot line could help put you in touch with resources near you. 1800-273- 8255 Call 24 hours a day Just call so you can talk to someone. ((HUGS)) ❤ Text the word home to 741741 and you'll also be able to text with a crisis counselor if you don't want to talk on the phone. This is also available 24/7
@storytimewithjass60184 жыл бұрын
Happy New Year. I agree hate is so destroying to ones self. Take care 💕
@shineon82194 жыл бұрын
Hey! Nice to hear from you. How are you enjoying the new year? You're in the UK, yes? What are your thoughts on Brexit, if you have any? I've been a bit more involved in news and politics lately, so I'm curious.
@storytimewithjass60184 жыл бұрын
Shine On no actually I am in Canada, born in South Africa but my mom was from England. But funny enough I was also following the brexit saga closely till the Epstein fiasco threw in the towel on all governments they are all corrupt just not worth the time. Also talk about hate cannot stand to see how Americans are hating on each other, what happened to discussion and grey area. Such venom going on due to religion and power hungry governments. Decided to focus on what is happening right around me and help when I can.
@shineon82194 жыл бұрын
@Narc Shock Ah, Canada. (Or should I say, O'? 🙂). I'm jealous of your health care system. Our's is obviously nuts. For me, personally, I hope Sanders represents our country. Restore a bit of sanity to the place. I registered to vote for the first time. I thought about volunteering for the campaign in some small way, but I'm fairly nervous to be around so many people I don't know. I don't really discuss politics on this channel, or much at all. It's very heated here especially. I agree. Sometimes I just need a break from news and politics. It can be draining to obsess over it. At the same time, I think it's good to be informed and civically engaged as much is possible.
@storytimewithjass60184 жыл бұрын
Shine On Our health and welfare here in Canada is good but has its issues as well. Mental health care is non existent though and what you can get unless your rich is riddled with narcissist so best to be avoided.
@storytimewithjass60184 жыл бұрын
Shine On You are right it is good to be involved and engaged. I turned of the TV when Trump started campaigning, found my self getting in a bad temper or stressed and sad watching TV. Watch way to much ytube though. I think getting out and involved in anyway is a good thing. Do you find it tiring being around people ? Do you go home after and go over the conversations in your head over and over again ?
@stellabella52694 жыл бұрын
Happy New Year!! 🤗❤🤗❤🤗
@shineon82194 жыл бұрын
Happy new year! Hope the year is starting out well for you. I'm just enjoying the day today and running a few errands. I feel myself having more energy, which is nice. How are you?
@stellabella52694 жыл бұрын
@@shineon8219 Doing great, watching the football game with family.
@shineon82194 жыл бұрын
@@stellabella5269 Ah, cool. All I know is that the 49ers are having a very good year so far. I've watched some KZread game summaries of their games. As you can tell, I'm from the SF Bay. I'm more into Baseball, I'd say. Go Giants. 🙂
@narcsinart71794 жыл бұрын
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@stellabella52694 жыл бұрын
You might want to check out this channel on KZread called Dereck Lambert rewired addiction he has dedicated his channel to all who suffer with addiction. They have a discord where you can talk to other recovering addicts and tons of stories. Like I said before, I'm so proud of you, you can do this!! One thing you said was your Mom eventually got clean, if she can do it so can you. So even though your family lacks emotional maturity your Mom found a way to get clean and from meth that's a very powerful drug most don't make it through that. So think about it like this, your Mom can kind of be your role model because she beat her addiction at some point. That to me is good news you'll make it too.
@shineon82194 жыл бұрын
I checked it out and watched a couple videos. I joined the Discord, too. There's a channel I like that talks about addiction called CG kid. I really appreciate your support. Tomorrow (it's 7 pm right now) will be my 12th day sober (including tobacco). I just feel so exhausted...I think my psych meds are increasing this. I have good moments, but I am having low mood throughout the day....I can't concentrate very well...it makes it hard to focus on what the counselors and my peers in the program are saying...which is very frustrating. What was talked about today was having faith. Not necessarily religious faith...but believing in something without 100% evidence. I am trying to have faith in the recovery process. Both internally, and externally. I am trying to have faith that things will get better. It won't always be like this. I am trying to keep things in perspective. I am still in very early recovery. Again...thank you for your support. It means a lot to me.
@stellabella52694 жыл бұрын
I'm really proud of you, start meeting people who have a long time sober. The longer you have sober the better you will feel, you'll start thinking clearer. Then you can make better decisions for your future. I got sober in 1993 it took me a while because I kept going back to old habits and non sober friends. You have to make new friends new environment if you can. XOXOX XOXOX
@shineon82194 жыл бұрын
I went to two meetings today, and I got a sponsor today for the first time. I'm grateful that there are a lot of meetings in my area to choose from. I'm fairly familiar with twelve step culture, but have never worked the steps or gotten a sponsor. Congrats on your sobriety! The second meeting I went to today was a speaker meeting and it's a regular meeting where people with 10+ years speak and then it's open to discussion. So, I took your advice. 🙂 You're so right. I can't continue with the same behavior and expect change. I have to do the work... continually. I have to create new coping skills, healthy relationships, get out of the house. I got a "Living Sober" book for free at the first meeting because I am newly in recovery from marijuana and alcohol. Which is great because I'm broke and also I need to learn how to do exactly that!
@stellabella52694 жыл бұрын
Congratulations on your 2 days sober!!! 🤗❤🤗❤🤗❤ You can do it 😘😘😘
@shineon82194 жыл бұрын
Thanks, Stella.
@narcsinart71794 жыл бұрын
don't be alone . go to AA again, and wherever you can to be with people in an accepting setting
@narcsinart71794 жыл бұрын
i'm only half vulcan :-)
@narcsinart71794 жыл бұрын
yeah, i remember what it's like to be hopeless too. i'm glad you have hope now.
@shineon82194 жыл бұрын
I'm going to attempt "30 in 30". 30 meetings in 30 days. I'm also going back to the drug treatment program I was in if I am allowed to. I'm not going to isolate myself...God help me.
@narcsinart71794 жыл бұрын
oh yeah, i gotta let the tears out, ideally a short minute or two every day. otherwise, like you say, it's just goonna come out/burst out. it'll be a big cry, it will be inconvenient, etc if i wait too long to cry.
@narcsinart71794 жыл бұрын
Whoops, your description counts
@shineon82194 жыл бұрын
Damn it!
@narcsinart71794 жыл бұрын
:-D
@HappyRhino5 жыл бұрын
It’s amazing that your willing to seek help and be honest with you’re self and others. That takes courage man!
@funknowhereman5 жыл бұрын
Yeah, I had to quit smoking weed because it can cause psychosis.
@shineon82195 жыл бұрын
Yeah, it has for me. Did you find it difficult to quit? I have tried quitting on my own many times. I know I need help to. There's a community on Reddit (it's r/leaves) that serves as a support group for people looking to quit. It's great to hear people's experiences and insights, and know I'm not alone. Some people don't realize how destructive cannabis addiction can be.
@conocerseasimismo5 жыл бұрын
That is so brave
@conocerseasimismo5 жыл бұрын
Helloooooooooooo
@shineon82195 жыл бұрын
Hi there. Good to hear from you!
@conocerseasimismo5 жыл бұрын
@@shineon8219 hugs to you. When are y available to speak?
@shineon82195 жыл бұрын
@@conocerseasimismo Just shoot me an email with what works for you. You're the one with the busy schedule 😁. My time right now is very open. Weekends work well.
@HappyRhino5 жыл бұрын
I’m sorry to hear man. No madder what remeber you are VALUED and VALUABLE. Keep on seeking and I and everyone watching this commend you for taking steps in the right direction.
@shineon82195 жыл бұрын
Thanks, man. Appreciate the support. I will keep seeking. 👍
@HappyRhino5 жыл бұрын
God bless man! Remember Gods there for ya! Your awesome man 👊
@storytimewithjass60185 жыл бұрын
Sorry to hear you have not been doing well. Good to see you still working on it
@shineon82195 жыл бұрын
Thanks for your support. It's ups and downs for me. I'm struggling with my shizophrenic and bipolar symptoms. That and the ups and downs of life. Luckily, I have some family, professional, online peer, and friends who support me. I'm hopeful about my future.
@narcsinart71795 жыл бұрын
The laugh is nice :)
@shineon82195 жыл бұрын
Thanks. I like it too. I love humor. Life just isn't funny without a little humor. I was a silly child. Silliness is a virtue.
@funknowhereman5 жыл бұрын
This world can be scary. I like to hide away too. But we have to get out there.
@conocerseasimismo5 жыл бұрын
Miss the last video!!!! 🤗
@conocerseasimismo5 жыл бұрын
Hello :)
@nataliaguerrero84205 жыл бұрын
Hello Brian :) It IS so nice to hear you
@narcsinart71795 жыл бұрын
"for no man ever yet hated his own flesh but nourishes and cherishes it, as the lord does the church" .. i have to remember this verse to remind myself that it's ok and normal to take care of myself
@AnnabelLeeIsNoContact5 жыл бұрын
I hope that 2019 is wonderful for you. Focusing on what's right in front of us is a great approach. One day at a time 💕
@shineon82195 жыл бұрын
Those small things, those new learned habits, and those days add up into something surprising...I'm seeing it more and more...and I'm having more and more respect for myself. My devoloping routine is helping me so much. Thank you. I hope 2019 goes the same for you.
@storytimewithjass60185 жыл бұрын
Great message thank you. All the best for the new year. Been so good to see the emotional growth in you.
@shineon82195 жыл бұрын
Same to you :). I'm very glad to hear you say you see me growing emotionally. Sometimes I want to just shut down my feelings and shut everyone and everything out. I hope to improve the relationships I have and find new friends that are hopefully not so far away this coming year.
@storytimewithjass60185 жыл бұрын
Yea I hear you 1 step forward 2 steps back sometimes. I do see you developing in a beautiful way, sometimes we cannot see it in ourselves as we are to hard on ourselves.
@becausekittenspaint19465 жыл бұрын
Do not adopt a victim mentality based on any diagnosis. For my Bachelor of Science in Psychology degree with honors I had to outline the entire DSM-V. The newest version wasn't out yet. For over 20 yrs Dr's have labeled me with various psychiatric "disorders" but after the GeneSight test results showed Lorazepam to have a moderate gene-drug interaction Dr's & I began to question everything. Now Dr's are concluding that I've had an autonomic system problem since I was 5. So it's not any mental illness & Dr's are admitting that I shouldn't have been on any Rx drugs. Research which receptors each Rx drug affects for yourself & the side effects. The National Center for Biotechnology Information (NCBI) has all the statistics & studies. Do you know what it's like to have Dr's tell you you're NOT crazy?! That it's a physical problem? At 14 I got diagnosed with bipolar & anxiety & thought that's all I was. All I'll ever be. Patients are customers. Period. Parents are trained to trust everything Dr's say. Often times the very "disorder" you are diagnosed with is what the pills turn you into. I've lived this. Studies prove this. There is no science to psychiatry. Talking to a patient for 10, 15, whatever minutes, hearing symptoms, then prescribing personality changing drugs is NOT science. 1/6 of the US economy is from health care including Rx drugs. There it is. Prayers. You're not nuts.
@becausekittenspaint19465 жыл бұрын
Don't just stop any Rx drug because you could get serious withdrawals. Facebook has support groups for individuals who want to safely taper off of most Rx drugs. You'd be surprised. If that's what anyone wants to do.
@shineon82195 жыл бұрын
Thank you for your insight, wisdom, knowledge, and support.
@shineon82195 жыл бұрын
The first time my years long depression ended was when my then therapist told me that everytime I had a negative thought to "flip it like a pancake" into either a positive or neutral thought. That little technique alone helped lift me out of a deep, deep sadness that I never thought would go away. I'm in therapy right now, and it's helpful in some ways, but I think it's time for me to get into something that involves CBT. I think that combined with support groups would be more effective than taking meds long term and feeling somewhat aimless in my current therapy. I have found psychiatry to be mostly harmful, and I'm very concerned about what the meds have done and are doing to me. Listening to Albert Ellis lectures (it seems his therapy and CBT are alike in fundamental ways) and simply reading about cognitive distortions today helped lift my mood and productivity. It's up to me now to ask, speak up, find the resources, and do the work of changing the way I think. I'm ignorant about most things, but I have to be an informed consumer...my life and the quality of it depends on that. I have to research these drugs further... Again, thanks for sharing your story and your knowledge.
@funknowhereman5 жыл бұрын
hang in there. life is what you make of it.
@nataliaguerrero84205 жыл бұрын
Important matters :) Happy Colombian Hug hehe.
@funknowhereman5 жыл бұрын
Yes having a diagnosis isn't fun. There is too much stigma. Life and living is up to you. You can do anything.
@shineon82195 жыл бұрын
Thanks, man.
@barbpaq5 жыл бұрын
Joining the army used to be the proverbial path recommended to young adults who needed to develop self discipline and find purpose in life. Plus it's alot of fun traveling to different places, seeing the world, and learning to use new technology.
@shineon82195 жыл бұрын
My dream...my goal is to work in the mental health field in some capacity.
@nataliaguerrero84205 жыл бұрын
It IS important for us hearing you say personal things ,not in general, we Wont think bad things of you.we are all connected with the Deep feeling of.... Need of true caring, loneliness, insatisfaction, void..please keep open up your Heart with such honesty! (If you want to correct my english that would be great too)
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Keep going!
Thank you! Will do.
Congratulations, so proud of you! 🥳❤️🥳❤️🥳❤️🥳❤️🥳❤️🥳
Thank you. Despite the struggles, I'm in a better place in my life.
Keep it up 👍 You inspire us all!
Thank you. Will do.
You will have to get radical with it. Its either you continue like that, or, stay trapped for the rest of your life. Either you find a way to shine or let the shadows swallow you. I don't blame you to not want get out there. but you want to have some fun outside bro. we all do. you can do it bro. you dont have to feel down because your past is heavy. keep going but give it a real shot. You are already bold enough to put yourself out there. which is a lot for the majority of us. You got it bro. Just find your thing and do it.
Thank you very much for the kind words and advice. It means a lot. Addiction can be very up and down, and relapse is very common, so I try and keep in mind that despite having a down period, I have learned things and grown. My progress has not been wiped away because of a derailment. As long as I stay clean, I can have access to that growth. Taking a radical step like getting my GED and a part time job, and working towards higher education/job training to try and have a meaningful career seems to be the big, bold goal for me. These are things I have talked about wanting for years. Taking small, but deliberate and whole-hearted steps towards these things would be radical for me....I've dipped my toe in the water in the past towards these things but gave up. I have two days clean now...and feel a connection to my true self returning....I am still dealing with the effects of withdrawal (insomnia, anxiety, low mood, I have barely eaten in two days), but I had a moment of happiness, contentment and presence this evening. I feel hopeful. One foot in front of the other, writing down my short and long term goals, getting focused and deliberate, and trying to put myself out there socially is what I will do.
@@shineon8219 Do it man! Also dont forget that avenues like KZread exists. You can create another channel about whatever you like. You already have a foot in it. You can speak on camera pretty good. So... just an idea.
Thanks. I will keep that in mind. I often feel a little insecure about how I speak in videos. Many of my videos are made in times where I'm overwhelmed or lost. I am conscious of trying not to be too meandering, and I think I've gotten more focused as I've made more videos. I try to focus on one topic and stick to it if I can. I would be more articulate if I made videos where it was more structured beforehand. I do have different interests and hobbies. Maybe a more light-hearted channel might be worth trying.
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Pick up a broom do some work
Hmm?
Good to see you doing well. Take care.
Thanks! I definitely feel I'm on the right track.
Please seek help when you feel suicidal: Call 1-800-273-8255. You can call this number and they will help you. We support you and please keep talking to us about how you feel.
Thank you for sharing this, it is soooo valuable, it is great to hear from you! It would be interesting to have an update of this is months or years, like a friend who speaks how things are going with out any judgment! :)
Congratulations on your clean time, so proud of you! Pornagraphy addiction is definitely something that needs to be talked about more and i'm really happy you took this difficult step. It just shows how much you've grown and overcome. You look healthy and you sound so confident, and just like all the other addictions you will beat this one too , it just takes work, but if you really want it, it's possible. 🤗❤👍XOXO
I’m here, this sounds crazy haha 🤯, aren’t our brains fascinating ? Edit = my opinions all my dreams have always related to something in my life even if they are so random . Ino this video is old now but keep going to meetings and heal the soul bro we all have a lot of un-resolved stuff that can lead to subliminal dreams . Hope to pannel up one day and talk some recovery💯 Peace from the uk 🇬🇧
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You look great, so happy you're feeling better and on the healing journey. 🤗❤👍 XOXOX
Stella, the recovery discord I'm in, thanks to you, changed my life so much. I am eternally grateful to you for this gift. It has changed my life incalculably.
I know your pain. I understand it(from your other videos), but life is worth living, I promise you life is worth living.
If you’re thinking about committing suicide or struggling with thoughts of suicide, know that God cares about you and you’re not alone in this world. Believe in His son that died on the cross for you and me, you’ll see, He’ll help you in this world to survive. 1 John 4:4 “You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world. Psalm @-19. “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. The righteous person may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all. @ @
you kinda made me feel less alone if that helps you feel better.
Thank you for having the courage to talk about this frame of mind you are in ATM. I understand and relate to you how you are feeling and the thought process and it sucks to be in that dark place it is scary as the thoughts are scary. Take care of yourself my friend, you are worth it, such a handsome young man so sad to see you suffering.💕
Good deeds goes a long way if you're not helping others you'll definitely feel that way how many good deeds have you done this week? Get it up
Yeah, I think service in some way is helpful to get out of depression. I've volunteered at an animal shelter for a short period of time. I just feel physically exhausted. It's like I am glued to the bed. Kind of hard to do good deeds with this level of physical and mental energy. Thanks for the suggestion. I did do some on the phone today...small good deeds.
@@shineon8219 seek nature and drink 🥥water technology is eating you alive
Praying for you right now! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 Heavenly Father please send your Angel's right now to help my friend feel better. Take away all thoughts of suicide in Jesus name I ask this! Amen 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
I'm sorry you're feeling bad, sometimes when you start your meds it takes about 4 weeks to feel better. Maybe talking to someone from the suicide hot line could help put you in touch with resources near you. 1800-273- 8255 Call 24 hours a day Just call so you can talk to someone. ((HUGS)) ❤ Text the word home to 741741 and you'll also be able to text with a crisis counselor if you don't want to talk on the phone. This is also available 24/7
Happy New Year. I agree hate is so destroying to ones self. Take care 💕
Hey! Nice to hear from you. How are you enjoying the new year? You're in the UK, yes? What are your thoughts on Brexit, if you have any? I've been a bit more involved in news and politics lately, so I'm curious.
Shine On no actually I am in Canada, born in South Africa but my mom was from England. But funny enough I was also following the brexit saga closely till the Epstein fiasco threw in the towel on all governments they are all corrupt just not worth the time. Also talk about hate cannot stand to see how Americans are hating on each other, what happened to discussion and grey area. Such venom going on due to religion and power hungry governments. Decided to focus on what is happening right around me and help when I can.
@Narc Shock Ah, Canada. (Or should I say, O'? 🙂). I'm jealous of your health care system. Our's is obviously nuts. For me, personally, I hope Sanders represents our country. Restore a bit of sanity to the place. I registered to vote for the first time. I thought about volunteering for the campaign in some small way, but I'm fairly nervous to be around so many people I don't know. I don't really discuss politics on this channel, or much at all. It's very heated here especially. I agree. Sometimes I just need a break from news and politics. It can be draining to obsess over it. At the same time, I think it's good to be informed and civically engaged as much is possible.
Shine On Our health and welfare here in Canada is good but has its issues as well. Mental health care is non existent though and what you can get unless your rich is riddled with narcissist so best to be avoided.
Shine On You are right it is good to be involved and engaged. I turned of the TV when Trump started campaigning, found my self getting in a bad temper or stressed and sad watching TV. Watch way to much ytube though. I think getting out and involved in anyway is a good thing. Do you find it tiring being around people ? Do you go home after and go over the conversations in your head over and over again ?
Happy New Year!! 🤗❤🤗❤🤗
Happy new year! Hope the year is starting out well for you. I'm just enjoying the day today and running a few errands. I feel myself having more energy, which is nice. How are you?
@@shineon8219 Doing great, watching the football game with family.
@@stellabella5269 Ah, cool. All I know is that the 49ers are having a very good year so far. I've watched some KZread game summaries of their games. As you can tell, I'm from the SF Bay. I'm more into Baseball, I'd say. Go Giants. 🙂
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You might want to check out this channel on KZread called Dereck Lambert rewired addiction he has dedicated his channel to all who suffer with addiction. They have a discord where you can talk to other recovering addicts and tons of stories. Like I said before, I'm so proud of you, you can do this!! One thing you said was your Mom eventually got clean, if she can do it so can you. So even though your family lacks emotional maturity your Mom found a way to get clean and from meth that's a very powerful drug most don't make it through that. So think about it like this, your Mom can kind of be your role model because she beat her addiction at some point. That to me is good news you'll make it too.
I checked it out and watched a couple videos. I joined the Discord, too. There's a channel I like that talks about addiction called CG kid. I really appreciate your support. Tomorrow (it's 7 pm right now) will be my 12th day sober (including tobacco). I just feel so exhausted...I think my psych meds are increasing this. I have good moments, but I am having low mood throughout the day....I can't concentrate very well...it makes it hard to focus on what the counselors and my peers in the program are saying...which is very frustrating. What was talked about today was having faith. Not necessarily religious faith...but believing in something without 100% evidence. I am trying to have faith in the recovery process. Both internally, and externally. I am trying to have faith that things will get better. It won't always be like this. I am trying to keep things in perspective. I am still in very early recovery. Again...thank you for your support. It means a lot to me.
I'm really proud of you, start meeting people who have a long time sober. The longer you have sober the better you will feel, you'll start thinking clearer. Then you can make better decisions for your future. I got sober in 1993 it took me a while because I kept going back to old habits and non sober friends. You have to make new friends new environment if you can. XOXOX XOXOX
I went to two meetings today, and I got a sponsor today for the first time. I'm grateful that there are a lot of meetings in my area to choose from. I'm fairly familiar with twelve step culture, but have never worked the steps or gotten a sponsor. Congrats on your sobriety! The second meeting I went to today was a speaker meeting and it's a regular meeting where people with 10+ years speak and then it's open to discussion. So, I took your advice. 🙂 You're so right. I can't continue with the same behavior and expect change. I have to do the work... continually. I have to create new coping skills, healthy relationships, get out of the house. I got a "Living Sober" book for free at the first meeting because I am newly in recovery from marijuana and alcohol. Which is great because I'm broke and also I need to learn how to do exactly that!
Congratulations on your 2 days sober!!! 🤗❤🤗❤🤗❤ You can do it 😘😘😘
Thanks, Stella.
don't be alone . go to AA again, and wherever you can to be with people in an accepting setting
i'm only half vulcan :-)
yeah, i remember what it's like to be hopeless too. i'm glad you have hope now.
I'm going to attempt "30 in 30". 30 meetings in 30 days. I'm also going back to the drug treatment program I was in if I am allowed to. I'm not going to isolate myself...God help me.
oh yeah, i gotta let the tears out, ideally a short minute or two every day. otherwise, like you say, it's just goonna come out/burst out. it'll be a big cry, it will be inconvenient, etc if i wait too long to cry.
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It’s amazing that your willing to seek help and be honest with you’re self and others. That takes courage man!
Yeah, I had to quit smoking weed because it can cause psychosis.
Yeah, it has for me. Did you find it difficult to quit? I have tried quitting on my own many times. I know I need help to. There's a community on Reddit (it's r/leaves) that serves as a support group for people looking to quit. It's great to hear people's experiences and insights, and know I'm not alone. Some people don't realize how destructive cannabis addiction can be.
That is so brave
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Hi there. Good to hear from you!
@@shineon8219 hugs to you. When are y available to speak?
@@conocerseasimismo Just shoot me an email with what works for you. You're the one with the busy schedule 😁. My time right now is very open. Weekends work well.
I’m sorry to hear man. No madder what remeber you are VALUED and VALUABLE. Keep on seeking and I and everyone watching this commend you for taking steps in the right direction.
Thanks, man. Appreciate the support. I will keep seeking. 👍
God bless man! Remember Gods there for ya! Your awesome man 👊
Sorry to hear you have not been doing well. Good to see you still working on it
Thanks for your support. It's ups and downs for me. I'm struggling with my shizophrenic and bipolar symptoms. That and the ups and downs of life. Luckily, I have some family, professional, online peer, and friends who support me. I'm hopeful about my future.
The laugh is nice :)
Thanks. I like it too. I love humor. Life just isn't funny without a little humor. I was a silly child. Silliness is a virtue.
This world can be scary. I like to hide away too. But we have to get out there.
Miss the last video!!!! 🤗
Hello :)
Hello Brian :) It IS so nice to hear you
"for no man ever yet hated his own flesh but nourishes and cherishes it, as the lord does the church" .. i have to remember this verse to remind myself that it's ok and normal to take care of myself
I hope that 2019 is wonderful for you. Focusing on what's right in front of us is a great approach. One day at a time 💕
Those small things, those new learned habits, and those days add up into something surprising...I'm seeing it more and more...and I'm having more and more respect for myself. My devoloping routine is helping me so much. Thank you. I hope 2019 goes the same for you.
Great message thank you. All the best for the new year. Been so good to see the emotional growth in you.
Same to you :). I'm very glad to hear you say you see me growing emotionally. Sometimes I want to just shut down my feelings and shut everyone and everything out. I hope to improve the relationships I have and find new friends that are hopefully not so far away this coming year.
Yea I hear you 1 step forward 2 steps back sometimes. I do see you developing in a beautiful way, sometimes we cannot see it in ourselves as we are to hard on ourselves.
Do not adopt a victim mentality based on any diagnosis. For my Bachelor of Science in Psychology degree with honors I had to outline the entire DSM-V. The newest version wasn't out yet. For over 20 yrs Dr's have labeled me with various psychiatric "disorders" but after the GeneSight test results showed Lorazepam to have a moderate gene-drug interaction Dr's & I began to question everything. Now Dr's are concluding that I've had an autonomic system problem since I was 5. So it's not any mental illness & Dr's are admitting that I shouldn't have been on any Rx drugs. Research which receptors each Rx drug affects for yourself & the side effects. The National Center for Biotechnology Information (NCBI) has all the statistics & studies. Do you know what it's like to have Dr's tell you you're NOT crazy?! That it's a physical problem? At 14 I got diagnosed with bipolar & anxiety & thought that's all I was. All I'll ever be. Patients are customers. Period. Parents are trained to trust everything Dr's say. Often times the very "disorder" you are diagnosed with is what the pills turn you into. I've lived this. Studies prove this. There is no science to psychiatry. Talking to a patient for 10, 15, whatever minutes, hearing symptoms, then prescribing personality changing drugs is NOT science. 1/6 of the US economy is from health care including Rx drugs. There it is. Prayers. You're not nuts.
Don't just stop any Rx drug because you could get serious withdrawals. Facebook has support groups for individuals who want to safely taper off of most Rx drugs. You'd be surprised. If that's what anyone wants to do.
Thank you for your insight, wisdom, knowledge, and support.
The first time my years long depression ended was when my then therapist told me that everytime I had a negative thought to "flip it like a pancake" into either a positive or neutral thought. That little technique alone helped lift me out of a deep, deep sadness that I never thought would go away. I'm in therapy right now, and it's helpful in some ways, but I think it's time for me to get into something that involves CBT. I think that combined with support groups would be more effective than taking meds long term and feeling somewhat aimless in my current therapy. I have found psychiatry to be mostly harmful, and I'm very concerned about what the meds have done and are doing to me. Listening to Albert Ellis lectures (it seems his therapy and CBT are alike in fundamental ways) and simply reading about cognitive distortions today helped lift my mood and productivity. It's up to me now to ask, speak up, find the resources, and do the work of changing the way I think. I'm ignorant about most things, but I have to be an informed consumer...my life and the quality of it depends on that. I have to research these drugs further... Again, thanks for sharing your story and your knowledge.
hang in there. life is what you make of it.
Important matters :) Happy Colombian Hug hehe.
Yes having a diagnosis isn't fun. There is too much stigma. Life and living is up to you. You can do anything.
Thanks, man.
Joining the army used to be the proverbial path recommended to young adults who needed to develop self discipline and find purpose in life. Plus it's alot of fun traveling to different places, seeing the world, and learning to use new technology.
My dream...my goal is to work in the mental health field in some capacity.
It IS important for us hearing you say personal things ,not in general, we Wont think bad things of you.we are all connected with the Deep feeling of.... Need of true caring, loneliness, insatisfaction, void..please keep open up your Heart with such honesty! (If you want to correct my english that would be great too)
Thanks for the support. It means a lot.