elle palmer

elle palmer

Hello! I'm Elle. I'm a woman who thought I was a man for 5 years. I like to talk about the mistakes I've made, and how things will get better.

I had an abortion

I had an abortion

MY DETRANSITION IS OVER

MY DETRANSITION IS OVER

How I'm Fixing My Voice

How I'm Fixing My Voice

Growing.

Growing.

The Truth About Detransition

The Truth About Detransition

Channel + Life Update

Channel + Life Update

I’ve been struggling

I’ve been struggling

Would I Re-Transition?

Would I Re-Transition?

Is My Singing Voice Ruined?

Is My Singing Voice Ruined?

Did I Learn From Transition?

Did I Learn From Transition?

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  • @jerrycarnley7673
    @jerrycarnley7673Күн бұрын

    Maia, thanks for openly sharing - I felt what you articulated at 54:44 was so important to your narrative and may help so many others. Thank you both for sharing your stories.

  • @Csmaria11
    @Csmaria11Күн бұрын

    I like your voice. 😊 we all have struggles and hardships. Please never feel alone or awkward. Things will get better. Just keep praying and be patient through each step of being a beautiful woman. God know your heart. God bless

  • @nrodry76
    @nrodry76Күн бұрын

    Transgenderism is madness.

  • @Salvador_is_my_king___..
    @Salvador_is_my_king___..Күн бұрын

    Gross

  • @Michael2x
    @Michael2xКүн бұрын

    Just look inside your drawers for the answer 😂

  • @starlalowry2743
    @starlalowry27432 күн бұрын

    I am a trans woman and pleased with it, 82 years old. I have lived as woman for 24 years. I am who I am and accept myself as I am. I do not worry about how I am addressd or how I am dressed. I wear feminine clothing, but little or no makeup.

  • @victoriamoreno4966
    @victoriamoreno49662 күн бұрын

    I'm so happy for you. I'm sorry you had to go through all of this with transitioning and detransitioning but at least you seem to be very happy in your life now! I wish you luck in your life and God bless you!

  • @mireillelanglois6947
    @mireillelanglois69472 күн бұрын

    I love your voice, it is a very low feminine voice. some singers would really like to have your voice.

  • @kayasper6081
    @kayasper60812 күн бұрын

    So there was nothing wrong with your body in the first place, right?

  • @AustinSmithisagoodguy
    @AustinSmithisagoodguy3 күн бұрын

    Thank you for your sharing. This is very helpful video.

  • @chaccaron4321
    @chaccaron43213 күн бұрын

    They’re not “female to male” they’re just male.

  • @AustinSmithisagoodguy
    @AustinSmithisagoodguy3 күн бұрын

    You are a beautiful woman. God bless you! Wish you all the best. Gender dysphoria can be cured by love, compassion and mental care. Many people have this confusion during puberty. It is not your fault. It is The professionals like doctors, nurses, teachers and politicians’ fault. It is also us, as adults, we don’t take good care of our children. We didn’t fight enough. Parents need to speak up. If you think that your kids will be okay so you don’t have motivation to speak up. Then I can tell you, if we don’t take action, our grand children will be affected. We will be no future.

  • @Nonethelessersoulcoin
    @Nonethelessersoulcoin3 күн бұрын

    I've been exploring the detransitioning side of things to get perspective (started transitioning in 2020) and I just want to say our experiences with feelings during puberty are very very similar and I now have been having that weird questioning things feeling of why am i not satisfied. I was supposed to have top surgery but cancelled it twice now. I have stopped T since and I feel so much more connected with myself physically. Just knowing my body is doing what it is supposed to naturally is a really good feeling. Thanks for sharing your story

  • @michelleh1464
    @michelleh14643 күн бұрын

    how do you handle a phone call, when someone calls you a "he"

  • @ALARMINGadaora
    @ALARMINGadaora3 күн бұрын

    This is really interesting. I think children thinking about identity is a positive thing…I think being introspective and investigating and asking yourSelf if or why you like something is integral to figuring out who you are truly. We DO largely just accept what’s given to us without even blinking whether it’s gender or religion. You said at 10;18 “ we’ve never had to think about that before” as if it’s a bad thing. Why do you perceive that as negative?

  • @Julia_Jane_Jesus
    @Julia_Jane_Jesus3 күн бұрын

    @EllePalmer Keep going beautiful lady! I'm a 50 yr-old hetero woman, now menopausal but I've always had a lower than usual voice - in part perhaps cos I tried so hard as a young girl to win the acceptance of my 2 older brothers and my best friend's 2 older brothers! But plenty of women have natutally low voices. Pls just love yourself for who you are inside and out, each day - as both will change and grow over time... FyI. I struggled with body dysmorphia as a young person - didn't feel "enough of a woman" as a teen... it led me down some very dark alleyways in life - looking for love in all the wrong ways, people and places. Took me years to realise God loved me perfectly all the time - AS I WAS - and to start loving myself the same way. I'm still learning to love myself - but if I could go back knowing this love that I now know, I'd live SO differently.

  • @starlalowry2743
    @starlalowry27433 күн бұрын

    From what I have seen, you would be seen as the gender you present at the time. I think you would pass either way.

  • @leerdee
    @leerdee4 күн бұрын

    Your voice is fine. ❤

  • @MeMyselfMoi
    @MeMyselfMoi4 күн бұрын

    Your voice had changed

  • @gonnfishy2987
    @gonnfishy29874 күн бұрын

    🌟 Glad to hear you reach a point to say (in this vid) that not everything is going to snap back, but you're feeling better with what *has*. (lolz i'm stupidly four years late and commenting, i r dum) ... Hope you have had a good run. I think you might have found already, you will over a decade, almost everything besides bones is subject to change. Not all 'hair' or anatomy changes at the same rate. It does change, for the better. It's not magic tho. lolz.

  • @jacksondavid8785
    @jacksondavid87855 күн бұрын

    Be safe.... lots of love...😊

  • @TheKatarinaGiselle
    @TheKatarinaGiselle6 күн бұрын

    Wish I was notified! But I thought about you and looked you up, and I'm here now! Happy you've uploaded since the last time I visited your channel and that I have this video, the part two, and another video to watch! I'm going through a really...very bad depression...and I need all the content and distraction I can get! 💓💗❤️

  • @SpiderMilk
    @SpiderMilk6 күн бұрын

    By your own logic you shouldn't be able to play womens sports either or go in the womens prisons after experiencing the effects of testosterone on your brain and body.

  • @sabrinadavila8302
    @sabrinadavila83026 күн бұрын

    You've killed your two children. They would have helped you to detransition more quickly and recover your feminine voice and your identity as a woman and a mum. I'm not judging you, it's telling everyone killing a human being is a crime. By the way, you're still a mum who got rid of their kids. I hope you can see this in order to ask for forgiveness and heal (you & your children). Jesus & Mary please I beg you for the Gift of Faith❤

  • @sabrinadavila8302
    @sabrinadavila83026 күн бұрын

    Dear girls, you're both two beautiful women, still in the road of finding where you come from. Just go to your bedroom and talk to Him. Ask Him, please God tell me who am I?

  • @DebbieOldSchool-1442
    @DebbieOldSchool-14427 күн бұрын

    I’m a 71 year old woman that was born with a low voice. Just the way I came out. There were times I thought it was too low. But it’s me. Love all of me or don’t. lol if some says anything I tell them I have a great bedroom voice, which is very sexy. They can eat their hearts out. You sound perfectly normal to me. You’re just back to being a born woman now with a sexy bedroom voice. I get compliments on my voice because It’s mine and I own it. ❤ hang in there and love yourself there is so much wonderful things ahead of you.

  • @starlalowry2743
    @starlalowry27437 күн бұрын

    I suggest that we go back to the original term, "transsexual" and be required to live as the other sex full time for no less than 2 years and seek surgery.

  • @sabrinadavila8302
    @sabrinadavila83028 күн бұрын

    I 100% agree with you. And I think most people agree with you but are TERRIFIED to admit this to themselves.

  • @vanessafato4814
    @vanessafato48148 күн бұрын

    Pourquoi ne pas retourner la situation à ton avantage et utiliser ta voix pour earn your living dans du doublage ? Mangas, animés, jeux vidéos etc? Ta voix devient ta force. N'oublie pas que beaucoup de femmes ont des voix dites masculines, et ce depuis toujours, sans aucune prise de testostérone, et beaucoup sont des actrices ou chanteuses connues. Beaucoup de femmes cis adoreraient avoir une voix plus masculine !

  • @vanessafato4814
    @vanessafato48148 күн бұрын

    Funny jeu de mots ! 😂

  • @TrollRabbit
    @TrollRabbit8 күн бұрын

    Most of the detransitioners are FTMTF. That should tell you something.

  • @umasonne
    @umasonne8 күн бұрын

    I relate very much to what you were saying, even though I have trauma issues, but no sexual transitioning. I am so grateful that you share your story, I feel deeply moved, and I feel a little less alone with my struggles. Please know Ella that I hear your voice and it sounds beautiful.

  • @sabrinadavila8302
    @sabrinadavila83029 күн бұрын

    Ask Virgin Mary to help you. She's our Mother. She'll help you!❤

  • @TheJessshakespeare
    @TheJessshakespeare9 күн бұрын

    You're so brave. ❤ I hope you find a way to accept you, and who you are because we are all different. There's no ideal or perfect example of a woman. Every one of us worries that we aren't perfect, I know you're experience is so different to mine, but know that all women worry about something about them. People will notice differences, they always do. The people that matter won't care, look for them. The rest aren't worth your concern. I wish you all the best for your future ❤️

  • @rba94629
    @rba946299 күн бұрын

    You are pretty, brave and loved just the way you are now. Carry on , you are helping lots of people just by this video. Your voice is interesting and as I love women singers with a strong voice I think you are great!!

  • @judeesee894
    @judeesee8949 күн бұрын

    You are right. The truth is just the truth.

  • @Thomas11611
    @Thomas1161110 күн бұрын

    I’m sending you a virtual hug love. I didn’t get to watch all of your video, but have you considered vocal feminization surgery? I only say that because it’s bothering you. I also wonder if you can sing, too. Maybe you should try! Turn something that bothers you into an asset! I bet you can sing!! Please stay strong and don’t suffer alone. Sending you so much love ❤️

  • @lilliecrutchfield2798
    @lilliecrutchfield279810 күн бұрын

    Practice talking from your nose when you are alone practice changing your voice just try it. People practice to learn how to sing and their voices changed for the better. Practice, Practice, Practice. see what happens until it becomes natural.

  • @lilliecrutchfield2798
    @lilliecrutchfield279810 күн бұрын

    If you have all the woman parts thats what counts. Be a woman your hormones and XX chromosomes know who you are stay there.

  • @lilliecrutchfield2798
    @lilliecrutchfield279810 күн бұрын

    You were created, a woman. Your chromosomes know who you are. As a woman the woman is going to be come out. Have a baby the light will come on..The body is changing all through life. If you with the the wrong sex you cant produce what God wanted you to produced.

  • @jeanqueen8401
    @jeanqueen840110 күн бұрын

    Transitioning , detransitioning the body is going through a lot thank God I appreciate who I am

  • @rayscott3028
    @rayscott302811 күн бұрын

    There is no such thing as a normal woman. Everybody thinks things about others bodies/ voices all the time. Other people need you ...... serve in some way. Focussing on life outside of myself helped me out of depression and knowing that God loves me as I am.

  • @ariadnaestrauss3895
    @ariadnaestrauss389511 күн бұрын

    You know, many women has a voice like yours without transtionning, and personnally I like your voice, I'm sure that someone who loves you will like your voice too. However it's not very important, your personnality, your inner world will always be the most important, for you and for those who love you. You are a beautiful human being, give love to those who are important to you, and don't worry about how other people perceive or judge you, don't give any attention to that. The key is to not focus your attention on yourself (because that create doubts, anxiety, self depreciation, loneliness , depression ...for everyone, not only those who are in your situation. You will feel better when you will be able to be more indifferent to your suffering and instead you will desire to help and love people who are also suffering (and of course also people you care about). Giving love and compassion to other souls who are struggling and suffering, is the best way to walk on the path of self confidence, mental balance, and in the end happiness, connection to yourself and to people, capacity to feel that life has a real meaning and can be bright and meaningful. I assure you that will happen (not immediately, but more and more with time) because I experiencd it. And it will be real, not like a naive illusion, but like the most important discovery of your life. I wish you the best ...

  • @JessicaSmith-bq7wy
    @JessicaSmith-bq7wy11 күн бұрын

    I'm really happy I found you. My child recently said they wanted to transition. They are 12yo and I'm convinced she's masking body image issues and this is an extension to an eating disorder. Thank you for giving a voice to an alternative perspective.

  • @JessicaSmith-bq7wy
    @JessicaSmith-bq7wy11 күн бұрын

    As a parent with a 12yo who has recently asked to transition, this is terrifying. My child's issues stem from insecurities about their body.

  • @susanmerrill3489
    @susanmerrill348911 күн бұрын

    Elle, you are a beautiful young woman. Part of your ongoing transition is about letting go of the stereotypes - voice being one of them. After about 5 minutes I wasn’t even aware of it until til you mentioned it again. You are brave and I pray for you to reach your potential as a human being.

  • @JewishKeto
    @JewishKeto11 күн бұрын

    As someone who used to believe he was trans (MtF) listening to other stories is very affirming and I notice we all have the same things in common… we are hurting and we want to be affirmed to avoid the pain we are dealing with.

  • @ClayMastah344
    @ClayMastah34412 күн бұрын

    And the men who say they’re women and believe it and STILL abuse women and kids

  • @carolfox9620
    @carolfox962012 күн бұрын

    Wow - brave woman, brave vid. For perspective, I'm a 66 year old woman from a deeply dysfunctional family and it's the gift that keeps on giving. I've recently found a wonderful coach and have made progress but it's such an upward slog. I think we pick something about us or about our life as the 'reason' relationships are hard or impossible and obsess about that, but really, the dysfunction is it and the rest is distraction. All we can do is keep going and find the best help we can and accept the things about us we find unacceptable. To do otherwise is just to hurt ourselves over and over and make it less likely that we'll see our way to the real healing. Your boyfriend was a blessing and there will be many more and you deserve good things. ❤

  • @chloe-fy4wc
    @chloe-fy4wc12 күн бұрын

    3:44 you know that “biological” women can take testosterone? and use that to advance ? and that some cis women have way higher levels than others on the other hand trans women on hrt get female type of muscle building so after some time they loose all the “advantage of male puberty” and monitoring of hormone levels is a thing in professional sports so you cannot in fact enter if your t levels are too high this is simple biological truth