I get sad when people blame God for what people have done to religion. Glad you're pushing past what people have done to it and finding what God means to you. I believe keeping God in our lives is super important.

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you

“My sense of god is my sense of wonder about the universe.” ― Albert Einstein

Thanks Conor. I break my lurking silence to say this because it means so much. I too am on this path and it is so great to hear of other's experiences. You have given me some words to use to describe the wordless.xo Jazzy Jack

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Mmm this is wonderful feedback to receive. I very much appreciate you taking the time to share this with me

I love that both you and Brittany are sharing more about your experiences with what could be called spirituality (that's for sure what I like to call it these days). I too felt SO much resistance to anything that had to do with religion or spirituality for most of my life (I was a die-hard atheist too), until depression hit me really hard and literally burned away much of my societal programming around this topic. I felt so desperate and alone that I started to rely on a source much greater than me. Sometimes I still have my doubts and rationalisations start to creep in, but then I just remind myself that, in the end it all doesn't really matter. All that matters is what makes my life more joyful and meaningful. And the practices that I've found through spirituality and the community I am finding through it, have most definitely made my life just that, more joyful and meaningful. And I am forever so grateful for that. It gives me a lot of joy to see that you are finding your own way with this and it inspires me to go my own way even more. Thank you so much

Everything is energy. The word God is a symbol. Language distorts everything. Peace!

(just another quick comment, haven't watched): Christianity is more about a relationship than a religion

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you for your reflections

@rynem-setapartmind8906

4 жыл бұрын

Yes, a lovingly committed fully hands on relationship.

Connor you are such a light. Thank you for being a seeker and for sharing your life in such an honest and transparent way. I so appreciate watching the fruit of your growth and the inspiration it gives other to pursue growth. May God fill you with His peace, His unfailing love, and May He satisfy you in every part of you that ever longed for anything. I’m praying for you friend!

OHMYGOD, this is so beautiful!!! I know what you mean, and i feel ya on this one...and now i feel inspired to pray a little today (long time no pray). Love you long time, Connor

I appreciate your honesty and openness.

Recently, over the past few weeks, I have had this strong desire for you and Brittany to come to Jesus. I have been praying that this would happen. You two are sooo beautiful inside and out, and I really love you guys.

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you. I not personally looking to create a relationship with Jesus specifically but I do believe that we share the same desire to connect to the loving energy that pulses through this universe and I really respect the way in which you choose to do that. So much love to you!

This is so beautiful ❤ Thank you for sharing, Conor.

I haven't watched yet but as soon as I seen the title man i was so happy! I just want to let you know I've had experiences with Jesus, and he loves you and Brittany sooooo much. wow Connor

Beautifully said, Conor! Thank you so much for sharing so intimately with us. And how lovely that Jaja will have this big part of their soul nurtured through your openness to it. So much love. 💜💜💜

I love you, Conor! 💖

I needed this right now! Thank you Conor. 🙌❤

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Beautiful

You put it so well Conor! I too have recently discovered the power of prayers, and like you, it feels SO good! 😊💜💛💜

Oohhh...I love this video so incredibly much. ♥️ I've had a hard time linking myself up with any particular religion or belief system and instead feel a lot like you explained here. It's always just been this feeling. You are awesome Conor. Thanks so much for sharing this.

This is beautiful 💓

Rational, genuine and humble. Good stuff.

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

I appreciate that feedback

Love this Conor! For a few years now I have been combining my prayer and journaling practices and have found it to be very fulfilling! Almost like writing letters to God 😊

Right on! Prayers are powerful! And the way you said it I could feel peace in my heart! 💞💕

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Yes! I'm feeling it

Thank you for sharing. You communicated your ideas and feelings really well.

Thank you so much for this share. Peace and love to you 💗

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

And peace to you

I agree with everything you said, I also believe a different era is already upon us. So many people are waking up to realize how programmed we have become and are stepping out of those beliefs. The divine feminine is waking and people are seeing we are all one. We are all connected. I send you love, thank you for this video. 💜

You've put into words what I feel and do with prayer. I'm not religious in terms of organised religion but I feel a sense of there being a greater whole and maybe a source or higher power I can speak to, ask of and be grateful for. I don't feel alone in life's challenges. As time passes I realise that this greater thing is open to all and is not reserved for those of particular religions or people who avoid certain behaviours known as sin. And sometimes my prayers are to something wise within myself. As a witch I don't do rules, I am in the flow. X

Thank you for sharing your heart that you have opened yourself up to prayer and God . I find comfort sharing my heart in prayer talking to God about how I feel . 🙏

I appreciate this video! And I feel the same way about bowing in reverence. I just feel it in my soul. That’s where I also feel God. I’ve tried church on many occasions but never felt filled. My work as a Hospice nurse by far has taught me more about spirituality than anything else on this planet. 🙏the light in me recognized the light in you!!

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Yes. I so feel this. Thank you

@kellyreilan

5 жыл бұрын

Namaste!

Oh of you knew how much i loved to hear this.

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Beautiful

Very interesting to hear your thoughts and perspective on this subject. I can really relate to your struggle with the presumptions placed on religion and prayer. I never thought about it in this way. I might just have to give this a go. Thanks for the video.

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you for hearing me and sharing your spark for personal examination. I support your process

I think that it is good that you pray -prayers are always heard of the Universe :) Its ok to start with God - I myself believe in Buddhism, just a general belief of us all connected, as humans, living Beings, the Galaxes and so on -that do give me a sense of responsability and interconnectedness, a Karma related livingstyle if you will. Good Luck, Conor :)

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you for the support and your own personal reflections. I am happy to keep sharing as this journey continues to unfold. Much love

We are of one mind, my friend, thank you for sharing ❤🙏❤

Wow, funny you just made this video because I identified similarly to you with not believing in god and having resistance to prayer, only to become curious about prayer recently. I found that in some intense moments of my life, parts of me turned to prayer anyway and something felt good about it... Connecting to the core of what I really want and need, as you said. I still don't know what god is either or whether there is one. But I love the idea of reopening myself up to how it might feel to imagine the world differently, drop beliefs for a temporary amount of time, or maybe suspend disbelief if that fits better. So thank you for sharing that.

Wow. I love this so much Conor. I’m having a bit of a existential crisis, and though I have been leaning away from god because I feel confused about religion, I feel the urge to pray and wonder where that comes from. I’ve been denying myself the opportunity to explore because I’m scared to find myself back in the mental gym I was in during religion. It feels good to explore without projecting prior experiences on it. In many ways, this channel (oops I mean your channel with Brittany) has done Gods work in my life by allowing myself to open up sexually and find freedom from old religious ideas there. Thanks for sharing!

Conor- we spoke of these things together once. I'm deeply touched by your thoughts here. Love to you

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

That means a lot to read. Than you!

I forget to pray unless I need a parking spot. I used to pray as a matter of course then fell away from it. Thank you for the video

Touching!🙏

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you

I pray as soon as I wake up, last thing at night and at any time during the day when I feel like I'm flagging, sad, angry or anxious. I also like to say thank you a lot for all the good things and people in my life!

It's amazing to hear your story about this topic. I recently had a lot of revelations about it and it is beyond words for me too. I used to be Atheist and i've had a feeling of spirituality for a couple years, not knowing what really to call it. Then a few weeks ago I was in a strange inner state because I'd been working on a deadline for 3 days straight, so I went out in nature and had what can only be described as an awakening. Words cannot represent the truth of how it actually felt but essentially connectedness to the whole of earth/life and infinite love inside myself. I could also see my thoughts and ego for what they were without identifying with them. I felt the real me was formless, no words that could describe it, just consciousness. It was peace, healing and bliss. In my experince it was a very strong feminine energy, which is why it doesn't feel right to me to call it God. So this experience, which faded (or became clouded over?) after a few days, really drilled home the truth and the importance of loving and honoring yourself, practising more self awareness and trusting/accepting life a little more. That way you are not resisting life or suffering through it, you experience yourself as life...!

Nice - very good thank you. Connected spiritually with each other, animals, nature, the planet and universe - that to me is the feeling of god ✌️

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Yes. That makes so much sense

I pray all the time...intentionally...and feel amazing after that. I do pray to God and feel a special connection with His Spirit. Your point of view makes so much sense to me. It is meant to be felt and not explained. It's joy and intensity and love and peace and greatness of all things. Thanks for sharing

Thank you for this awesome video! In my opinion, God is the name we give to the consciousness of the universe. I also feel that we are all God putting himself (no sexuality in the pronoun intended) in an infinite amount of situations (both good and bad) to experience his own creations.

@kellyreilan

5 жыл бұрын

Zachary Sahuque WOW! Very profound insight! I have to write your words down for future inspiration! Thank you Zach!

I’m a Christian, and have actually prayed for you and Brittany that you would turn to God. I encourage you to read the Bible (NIV is my favorite version). Set aside any preconceived thoughts on religion and discover things without external factors. I believe God is real because of a few different reasons. If you look at the intricacies of nature and the human body you will see order and design which indicates a higher power and not some explosion creating everything. Heck the reproductive system couldn’t just form randomly. I’ve also witnessed things as well as many other people that simply cannot be explained by anything other than something bigger than us. I pray daily and I regularly see the results of my prayers. I have done a lot of research and it is easier to believe in God than evolution and the Big Bang Theory (in my opinion) There are many other reasons but I’m going to leave it there :)

@clarerice6679

5 жыл бұрын

I’m a Christian too and there has been so much happenings and experiences to know that Christianity is real (also scientific evidence). I have been praying for Connor and Brittany also ❤️

@stargirl8ful

5 жыл бұрын

Clare Rice isn’t the purpose of faith to believe without evidence? To believe even when prayers aren’t answered?

@clarerice6679

5 жыл бұрын

@@stargirl8ful I do much agree. Before I had any experiences/evidence I still believed. But, I have a burning desire to see souls saved, and can't help but talk on mine/others experiences in hopes that someone could come to Jesus. I don't pray for much other than souls being saved: if I have Jesus, i'm content! I really hope I wasn't negative in any form. Peace :)

@moonsong2118

5 жыл бұрын

I believe that belief creates our reality. So if you are Christian or Muslim or Buddhist then you are going to see proof if you believe strongly about any one thing. Conner and Britney don’t need you to pray for them. But I can see where your coming from and it’s a place of love. But they have so much love in their hearts, and from this video Conner is connecting to god, god has many names and can’t be tied down by only one religion. It’s beautiful that you have a strong faith but when you try to push it on others is when it fails. Share your beliefs but don’t push them on others. If god created everything then god created so many different view points and maybe religions. Maybe they have been tests all along to get us to see that god is in every religion. And you are part of god. Wish you all well. 💜

I also have a lot of resistance to religion. And I also have started praying, not too long ago. I decided to do what a lot of pagans do, where you give thanks to Gods that are a personification of nature. So they are not seperate beings, but nature itself, or aspects of nature. For example the sun or water or trees.

Jesus saved me from a masturbation/pornography/homosexual sex addiction. The masturbation/pornography was for 10+ years and the sex addiction was 6+. I had met with over 100 people during that time. He woke me up so clearly. I had considered myself as "spiritual" before this happened, not having grown up in church or having any immediate family that were Christians. I was kinda just a mix of anything that had to do with "peace" and "love", and I knew there was something more going on. I used to describe things as "The universe" or god" as well. God drew me to Himself in a crystal clear way. One day I woke up with the thought to go to church, which was strange for me. I went, and that night I came home, fell to my knees on my kitchen floor, was crying for 3 hours, and I suddenly knew who God was. The new part was - I suddenly knew who Jesus was, too. It was like I had always thought I knew what was on one side of this wall, but I had no idea until I crossed it. I remember describing to my family that I felt that I had been "completely blind" my entire life, but now I could see. I didn't know until later that these are the lyrics to 'Amazing Grace.' But that is how it felt. I pray that God continue to draw you to Himself. He is a loving Father who cares about His creation, and desires to make us new, heal us, and restore us. And Jesus is that special connector that allows us to be saved, as God is fully perfect, righteous, and just, and we are broken and imperfect. God bless you, brother.

This video is absolutely the SH!T

This is lovely. Are you a Christian? Were you raised in church growing up? I am curious what are your thoughts on life after death? Do you believe in Heaven or Hell?

check out Doug Perry on his liberty ranch. his youtube is fotm1.

This is a brief explanation for "LIFE": Everything, both visible and invisible, is what most persons call "God". God is One Reality but just as a knife cannot cut itself, God cannot know itself (or at least EXPERIENCE Himself) and so has manifested this phenomenal universe within Himself. Therefore, this world of duality is really just a play of consciousness within Consciousness. Apparently, this phenomenal universe was "created" (within Consciousness) with the initial act (the so-called "Big Bang") and from that first deed, every action that has occurred has been a direct or indirect result of it. Therefore, each of us humans were the result of that initial manifestation. That is the real explanation for "karma" - everything was preordained from the initial spark (or to be more precise, preordained in ETERNITY). Whatever state we currently find ourselves in is the result of two factors alone - our genetic make-up at conception and our present-life conditioning. Because we are temporarily residing within this dualistic universe, we experience both pain and pleasure, BOTH of which can (and usually does) cause us suffering. Suffering and pain are not the same. There are five kinds of suffering: Guilt Blame Pride Worry/Anxiety Attachment to outcomes/Expectations These types of suffering are the result of not properly understanding what was explained above, that life is a series of happenings and NOT caused by the individual living beings. No living creature, including us humans, has individual free-will. There is only the Universal, Divine Will at play, acting through every body. The body/mind is simply a biological machine. So now that you understand life and why we are suffering here in this (supposedly) material universe, you are now able to be liberated from all forms of suffering, RIGHT? WRONG! It is imperative to find an authentic spiritual master to assist you to come to the above realization, by slowly undoing your past conditioning. Even if you follow a competent teacher, you may still not come to a full understanding of life but if you are sincere, humble and dedicated, you will definitely find more peace in your daily life (all of which was DESTINED to occur, of course). Peace! 🙏

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your perspective. Well written and easy to understand. Happy to read you know what is important to you in this journey. Much love

xoxo

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Conor there is a reason you have been on such a search with "spirituality" or trying to pray. Please know that religion is man's way of making their own idea of God. There is a God and He loves YOU SO SO much. He made you and has a greater purpose for you than anything you could think of for yourself. You can come to God and ask Him to reveal who He is to you. He is purely good and is love. He is not the "love" that the world shoves down our throats. Yes, He deserves all our praise because He knew we would go astray from Him, but He sent His only son Jesus to come and pay the price for everyone's sin. All you have to do is accept Jesus into your life and repent of your sins to accept that freedom He has given you to be with Him in perfect peace. He gives us this hope of His return. He will come back to take His people home very soon. Please keep reaching out to Him! You are right, we all are spiritual. God is spirit and He breathed His life into us to create us. We are made in His image. When you reach out to God humbly and not of yourself, you do honor Him and He is very pleased with that. Put aside who you think you are and let Him make you into who He originally made you to be. He is the hole that everyone has and when you fill it with Him, the only thing that can fill that hole; you will find fulfillment. Reach out to Christians who can clarify more and read your Bible. I'd suggest the NKJV. I'm so glad you are sharing. I will pray for you and this longing on your heart. I hope to see you with The Lord one day soon as a brother in Christ.

Hello Conor, I hope you see my comment. I don’t intend to come at you with any bias, as I also dislike religion. That being said, I strongly believe that “Minimalism” and TRUE Christianity(not the Christianity that we see today) are very hand in hand. You’re on to something when talking about energy. As a Bible teacher I’ve done my fair share of research on Greek&Hebrew language. And the word “SpiritOfGod” in the Hebrew is “Ruarh”-which means, you guessed it, energy. Basically, in Hebrew “wind” = Ruarh. Also “breath/air” = Ruarh. I will disagree that we are all “gods”, though. We are not all gods. However, we are all created from this one Being. According to Genesis, God created Humans “in His own Image.” For the sake of the comment section I will stop. However, I hope you see this. Maybe we can continue talking about this. Have a good day, sir.

I don't believe in any god(s) and am not spiritual.

@ConorMcmillen

5 жыл бұрын

Thanks for the share. I respect that absolutely

@TheWorldTeacher

5 жыл бұрын

French Frys Pray to whom?

There is great danger in trying to define God in a way that feels comfortable to you, as God is not our genie and there to grant our wishes. He is who He is, regardless of what we want Him to be. And we are certainly not God. Unless you can even create a true blade of grass I am forever unimpressed by your grandiose notion of being godlike. This is the greatest delusion that had its beginnings in the garden of Eden. Literally the oldest lie of all time. God is an unpopular concept to many because they want to be their own gods, to do their own thing and not to be accountable or under any laws or regulations. In our culture we are conditioned to believe that we can do exactly as we want and what "feels good" to us. Jesus Christ died and suffered for our sin. He humbled Himself to the point of dying a gruesome death for us - He didn't do what "felt good" to Him. He suffered horrifically in sacrifice. To truly know God involves seeking Him, not fitting Him into our little paradigms that feel good. The bible says: "There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death" (Proverbs 14:12) The one and only true God is very clear in His expectations for living. God is all loving and merciful, but He is not to be mocked. He is a loving, beautiful Father who wants relationship with His children, but as His word says: "if you love Me, you will obey My commands". Very unpopular with modern society, but if you choose to truly seek Him, you will find Him and be in awe of who He really is and how He operates. He is the most unexpected God imaginable. And you will never look back. There is no true, long-lasting fulfilment and meaning without God.