It was so spot on what you said about a desire for being seen and a fear of being seen - as well as the reluctance of owning the 3-aspects. Often, I choose to say nothing because I have such a hard time keeping it brief and I hate the feeling of having blabbered out a lot which is really just significant to myself. I have this desire to "burst out my soul" in each and every situation, and perhaps I'm afraid that if I let go, I'll end of swallowing up or drowning everyone around me. Perhaps also because I have a lot of 8 in me (which I also try to repress but also recognize as a true strength (not just a power game). See, I'm already just kind of journaling a lot of private thoughts and feel that I'm not even half finished. But yeah - even just yesterday, I talked to a dear friend of mine about how I've been wanting to do a podcast or make You Tube videos where I share my insights and views about this and that because I have an idea that I will love doing it and also that I really have something to share which is worth listening to. But as soon as I say that, I feel like I'm boasting and begin questioning myself and then I easily end up concluding that I really have so little experience with real life - I'm way too "immature" to own up to my chronoligical age or I become afraid of gathering a following and not being able to keep my feet on the ground. And then, when you said that about giving space to the ramblings of a 9, I teared up and just wanted to be in a setting like that but then again felt that fear of "taking advantage" and overdoing it so I end up pushing everyone away or just stealing their space. And then, toward the end, I got that insight that I'm longing to be seen - but not by others but myself. I suppose that I see myself as a tiny pearl buried in a pile of trash and that this pile of trash is longing to be repurposed.

@evolvingenneagram

11 ай бұрын

Wow. This is so touching, Zenia. Thank you so much for sharing your heartfelt "ramblings"! They moved and inspired me (even as I have my morning coffee here at 530am!) Also, I think that the anger in NINES when given compassionate permission TOTALLY shows up as a force of nature to be reckoned with in service to our world! (It doesn't even have to go tap into eight to do that! Nines get sleepy in part because of pushing all that anger down rather than harnessing it)! Best wishes on all your endeavors!

@Tousicle

11 ай бұрын

We live with a hypocrisy that is hard to look at, we want this but we do that, in fear; but in punishment that we know we are right, but don't want to hurt others so we hurt ourselves.

It narrowed down my personality from MBTI as INFP 9w1 Thank you 🙏

@MsHazelie

2 жыл бұрын

Me too!

@Studio-pg4sq

6 күн бұрын

Me too!🙋‍♂

This is a very compassionate and helpful description of the personality types. From a type 9, thanks.

It has taken a week from the discovery of my Enneagram 9w1 to feel ready to listen to this. Initially, I came across a Dr mansplaining All of my dysfunction. I felt I had done so much healing this past year...but I realized spiritual healing and transformation had to come first. Thank you for your gentleness and kindness. I am seeing everything with so much clarity. I needed this to come in a nurturing context. I truly appreciate your own light and inner beauty personally infused into this message. Much love🙏🏻💕

@evolvingenneagram

10 ай бұрын

Aww. Beautiful. Thank you for your strong and tender words! Ongoing blessings to you!

9w1.You have the gift. Rarely do speakers resonate with me the way you did. Please continue to shine your light and liberate us all🌟🌞

@evolvingenneagram

2 жыл бұрын

Awww. I'm touched. Thank you so much!

This is beautiful, thank you for sharing. I am a 9w1 on the path to finding myself and being a light instead of hiding it under a bushel barrel as russ Hudson says. I love your passion in the way you speak.

Thank you SO MUCH. I could hear you speaking for hours.

Ha ha, "ready, aim, squirrel!". I was just diagnosed with ADHD innatentive type. A way of pathologizing a type 9 perhaps??? Hoping Adderall will help me get in touch with and manifest my dreams-move into a 3.

@evolvingenneagram

2 жыл бұрын

hilarious. I want to laugh and cry at the same time! sending you blessing that you may tend lovingly to the manifestation of your deepest dreams!

Thank you !

Thank you 🧚🏾‍♀️

Thank you for this! 9w1

@revnhien

4 жыл бұрын

You're so very welcome! :)

You have such a soothing style of explanation. Are you a 2? Or 9 even? 😉

@evolvingenneagram

2 жыл бұрын

Haha. I identify as a "recovering" sexual 3!

Watching 4/30/22. Thank you.

Thank you ..This means a lot to me…9W1.

@evolvingenneagram

2 жыл бұрын

So glad to hear it!

Thank you for your insight...any suggestions on authors/books for 9's?

is there a video on type 5? curious !!

@evolvingenneagram

10 ай бұрын

Sadly my volunteer videographer had a mishap that day and the 5 video was lost! We were so bummed!

I'm an INFJ enneagram 9 wing 1 self preservation instinctual type.

@evolvingenneagram

3 күн бұрын

Hello there! Thanks so much for watching! I'm just now realizing where folk's youtube comments went! haha! I apologized for the delay in reply. I'm grateful you took time to share! Here's to all the wonderful sp9s out there!

OMG, I believe God lead me to this video. My name means “shining light, sun ray” and your stars are such a beautiful analogy. Thank you 🙏 blessed sister