I found. I could not stop getting sick. I could not get out of my chair to go to the toilet to vomit so i got sick where i sat. I was hot and cold sweating and freezing all the time. I could not eat or drink including water. If i did i would vomit. I felt very anxious and paranoid all the time. Fear was lurking in me at all times. Facial twitches. The smell of alcohol coming from every pour in my body was making me sick. My skin was ultra sensitive to the touch. My feet and my hands were peeling and very, very dry. I could not sleep ( 20 days this would last ) even though i was exhausted. I had many varied hullucinations and hearing stuff. My brain was constantly racing. I had sleep apnoea, so even when i managed to fall asleep i would wake up minutes later and struggle for breathe. I had horrible pulputations. The sad thing is i repeated this madness many times. I am now sober 11 months and I will not be going back to that hell. HOPEFULLY.

The worse part is it gets worst as the days go. First few days is extreme anxiety and terrible depression. Heart palpitations. Then the fear comes, slowly but you know it is coming. Shaking is nothing compared to the doom you feel. Then you get the hallucinations after a few days. Faces staring at you. Spiders on the corner of your vision. You then get so confused, as in you forget where your toilet is in your house. You forget where you are. I remember being terrified of closing my eyes because of the faces staring at me. No sleep for days, just faces whenever you blink. and the worst part. You know one drink will stop it all.

@_BatCountry

21 күн бұрын

I could talk about the faces alone for hours. They are central to my experience of withdrawal

Jesus Christ this makes me thankful I'm only going through opiates withdrawals listening to this, lol

Excellent video man ! Haven't seen a more detailed video on withdrawals . The anxiety is absolutely brutal .

@_BatCountry

Жыл бұрын

Thanks Gary! And yeah, the anxiety is the worst part of it.

@bristlefist

11 күн бұрын

@@_BatCountry Most definitely. Literally feels 100% like literal insanity

The thing about the heart and impending death is so relatable. I have accepted my fate multiple times

Excellent video mate. One of the most detailed ones on KZread. I was at delerium tremens level of withdrawal. I managed to taper myself off. Now 2 weeks sober.

@_BatCountry

Жыл бұрын

Thanks mate, glad you found it useful. And tapering off, as much as professionals don't like it, is the best/only way for some people. I did a follow up about my actual experiences with delirium tremens, if you're interested. kzread.info/dash/bejne/e5eC1dZxcrG5p7A.html

@_BatCountry

Жыл бұрын

oh, and congrats on two weeks. Stick with it.

@methylphenidate69

Жыл бұрын

@@_BatCountry I indeed will stick with it. I watched your other videos too. Keep up the amazing videos. You clearly put in alot of effort, but it provides the recovering alcoholic's soul with much needed comfort and company.

This time last year I’d never given a second thought about Alcohol withdrawal. Words like tremors, detox, Librium, banana bag drip, Dt’s,AA etc we’re not in my current lexicon. Now, a year later and soon after a bad cold turkey experience from prescription benzo’s in which I turned to alcohol to counter the withdrawal (dr’s weren’t interested,long story) I’ve been to rehab and had 4 subsequent withdrawals 3 of which I ended up in hospital. Your video bought back some painful memories which I am very thankful for. Why all the withdrawals ? Well up until last year I had no problem with drink but my brain chemistry has changed and it took me awhile to come to grips with. I just started slipping into withdrawals with less time drinking. I’d get trapped in the cycle of drink-anxiety-drink to relieve the anxiety-more drink etc then finally withdrawal. If hangovers are the bad side of drinking then withdrawals are the evil side. Anyway sober now and not going back. I make sure I watch videos like yours to remind me of the sheer terror of withdrawals so thanks again😀

@_BatCountry

Жыл бұрын

I'm glad this struck a nerve Steve, those memories are painful, but necessary. "If hangovers are the bad side of drinking then withdrawals are the evil side." - that's very true indeed. Congrats on staying sober so far buddy, stick with it.

Thank you for talking about the anxiety and heart issues and panic attacks that make you feel like you know you're about to die that last for days. I've never heard anyone talk about that and I have looked and looked around on the Internet for someone who has had the same experience as that. I'm glad I'm not the only one in a F*cked up way

You have a very good way of explaining all of this. I've kindled myself to the point of if I drink for even a few days, I have seizures. I recently travelled to the Amazon rainforest after a bender of booze and benzos (I am dependent on them) and I tried to stop. Just as I stepped into the canoe on the Amazon river I had a grand mal seizure. Then 6 more of them at the closest hospital. My worst experience. Did that make me stop? No, I am going through withdrawal again right now. Thankfully only slight DT's this time. I feel doomed mostly due to the benzos because being stuck on them is just as bad. Double GABA situation going on and kindled out as far as I think I can go. Been loving your videos man. Great accent too. Your stories are insane.

@_BatCountry

8 күн бұрын

hooooolllyyyy shit, that's really scary. There aren't many people who can top my withdrawal in a Kazakh prison, but a grand mal on an Amazonian canoe is definitely one of them. Jeez dude, you gotta start your own channel to talk about this stuff. It has really helped me.

This is an amazing video. I am going thru this now and what you said about the anxiety is spot on. Been hell for two days 😢

My tremors were so bad, when I finally go to the hospital to detox I was, just like you, unable to sign my name! It was insanely difficult and I ended up just drawing some crooked lines. And the first hospital meal I got was spaghetti with tomato sauce 😂 in hindsight it sounds funny. I was unable to eat properly and I splattered the sauce everywhere and made a huge mess lol! It took me over a month of being completely sober until I gained my fine motorics back and was finally able to write normally again.

@_BatCountry

7 күн бұрын

Yeah if I couldn't hold food with my whole hand, I couldn't eat it. I lost 4kgs in 4 days in detox because I just couldn't get the food in my mouth. My ability to touch-type has never fully recovered.

You’re so right. These ‘standard’ descriptions do absolutely not justify the real experiences that come with withdrawal. And with the delirium tremors that you so perfectly described in another video (and that I’ve had the misfortune to experience three times myself) you’ve got a real shitshow of a concoction. 1 1/2 years sober now, and I will NEVER dabble with alcohol again. I’m simply to scared. Thank you for your honest words. All the best from Denmark❤

I related to almost every sentence uttered, and found myself even finishing some of your sentences too. these videos are epic.

@_BatCountry

Ай бұрын

Thank you Hamish! This is an old one, I've got a little more grey in my beard these days. Glad you enjoyed it though.

Your videos are very good mate I’m surprised you don’t have significant following! I for one at grateful you took the time. I need to keep watching the horror stories. I’m darkly fascinated by the hallucinations there is not enough stories out there about them. They seem to be so creatively extreme and terrifying.

Awesome videos! Seriously when youre going thru withdrawals and do youtube search its like god is playing a mean trick on you. The videos that pop up are always extremely sceientific and lack that experience aspect. You and delirium dirk are the only real talk explanations i have heard. Thank you ❤

@_BatCountry

5 ай бұрын

Thank you! It was Dirk's video that led me to make my own, and I'll be doing more, since there's so little information out there.

Yes we have very similar withdrawals. The restlessness and anxiety would have me pacing from 6am to 12 midnight then I’d lay in bed unable to turn off my mind then do it all over agin the next day. As you said I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.

The same is true for opiate withdrawal. The descriptions can’t describe the pain well enough. Yes, it is like the worst flu you have ever had x1000. But those are only half the symptoms. It’s like a block of ice. Your pain receptors had been frozen. And now, they are thawing. All of them. Every second is misery. There is no escape. “Kicking” the habit is real. You find yourself kicking your legs in a desperate attempt to ease the discomfort. It doesn’t work. You have no control over your body temperature. You are freezing and sweating. Then hot. Then cold. Changing every second. It feels like your soul is attempting to leave your body. There is a feeling of internal pain and discomfort that cannot be described accurately. Because it only ever happens to people in opiate withdrawal. Sleep is not going to come. For weeks sometimes. There is no sleep and no escape. No way to silence the pain, even for a moment. That’s why people fail. A day would be tolerable to some. But it’s not a day. It’s a week. Or more. Every second. Every minute. No escape. Huge help. Imodium AD. It’s an opiate. It doesn’t cross blood brain barrier. In the depths of withdrawal, a big dose of Imodium will put the fire out. It will bind to opiate receptors in the gut and other places, except the brain. It will give relief. Every addict should have Imodium around.

This is going to sound sad but your videos are incredibly entertaining when drinking!

@_BatCountry

5 күн бұрын

You're not the only one to say that mate!

A fascinating insight Stu. That was incredably open and honest first and foremost but also so well presented, shot, paced and indepth.

@_BatCountry

Жыл бұрын

Oh god, I forgot real people I know in real life watch this channel, hahaha! Thanks, I appreciate the feedback :)

Aloso, subscribed. I'm on day fifty-seven of not drinking any alcohol whatsoever.

@_BatCountry

5 ай бұрын

Hey Rick, sorry for the slow reply. Congrats on your time, that's the hardest period over with by far. Watch out for the three-month threshold, that can trip people up, including me. Thanks for the subscription buddy, I appreciate it.

As with most of us, I have sobered up several times over the years. Except for the first time, each subsequent time, there have been 3, I sobered up, on my own, in my apartment. I dont recommend it. But there is no safe place to recover down here on St. John. I had all the symptoms you described except the vomiting. For some reason indont throw up, not even when drinking. I know I beat the odds. I know I was close to death when the auditory hallucinations started. The shakes, the insomnia, the sweats, the anxiety and depression were AWFUL. But , it was all worth it. Because I wasn't living anymore. I existed to drink and drug. I was either getting sober or dying. Simple as that. Thanks again for the content.

@_BatCountry

26 күн бұрын

St John? Canada? Wow man yeah, that's a tough place to white-knuckle it. Much respect.

@Disappointingyourdemons

26 күн бұрын

No, even worse. St. John in The US Virgin Islands in the Caribbean. Where everyone vacations and parties like there's no tomorrow. It is literally a culture that revolves around alcohol and party drugs. But I've made it. If I can be sober here I can be sober anywhere.

@_BatCountry

26 күн бұрын

@@Disappointingyourdemons oh wow, that's a whole different challenge. I'm going to set done time aside to catch up with your videos.

@Disappointingyourdemons

26 күн бұрын

Thanks brotha! I appreciate the support!

I've had alcoholic hallucinosis and full-blown DTs. The lizards, spiders and reptiles.

How about that overwhelming excited feeling when you're cooking something actually solid that you're PRAYING goes down, then scarfing it down like a mad man once you realize it's all cleared up finally! It's not really the healthiest, but I've always had hot dogs wrapped in cheese slices rather than bun as the first solid food. Kind of weird I know, but easy to manage. Another symptom that I have, is that I have very violent intrusive thoughts of events in my past where I was wronged but give me a weird spasmy "rush" when the thought stops. It's... just so strange. The thoughts come and are over in 3-5 seconds. They usually get STRAIGHT to the point. These are thoughts that I have NEVER had while not going through withdrawal and are... particularly violent. If I didn't have my own name as my username, I would post them

@_BatCountry

3 ай бұрын

Yeah, the first proper meal is a big moment. The first poop too, haha! A lot of people, including me, have those unbelievably gory and violent visualisations, completely beyond our control. Unfortunately, those are often the things that stay with me the longest, because I'm surprised at my own capacity for such things. Thanks for the comment buddy, I appreciate it!

Benzos are the same difficulty. Cptsd & Bpd I almost died being taken off Cold Turkey after being prescribed for anxiety now for 23yrs. I couldn’t strain thoughts together, couldn’t speak, forgot how To Walk. It’s insane

You going to make more videos? Its been 8 months!!! Always good stuff, you describe it perfectly 👍.

@_BatCountry

4 ай бұрын

Working on it!

@sleepwiththestars1

4 ай бұрын

@@_BatCountry nice!!! Can't wait!

I have been hospitalized several times now for alcoholic withdrawal. One symptom I got that wasn't mentioned above was: not being able to urinate! I was awfully dehydrated, i had to drink lots of water, but I had utmost difficulty peeing. It was like there was nerve damage around the groin area or something. Another symptom I used to have was cramps. Real bad ones too. Also: time seems to go terribly slowly. One day can seem to just drag on and on, as you lie there bedridden, suffering like hell. When sleep finally comes, the dreams one tends to have with withdrawal are like an acid trip x 1000! Nightmares and super bizarre lucid dreams. Not recommended.

@_BatCountry

Ай бұрын

Yeah the pee thing is real! I'm glad you made it through, and I hope you're putting the experience to use as motivation today.

you should make a video about depictions of alcohol withdrawal in movies. and how accurate they are. for example, Leaving Las Vegas. Last Samurai. ect, ect

@_BatCountry

26 күн бұрын

You're absolutely right - in fact I'd like to do it as a series.

I checked myself into the hospital back on 2021 to stop drinking and pn the 2nd or third day i collapsed in dp much pain and apparently 20 percent of my pancreas dissolved inside my body. I finally stopped

I just found your channel and I find the subject very fascinating. Did you ever detox under medical supervision or were you always alone? Doing it alone sounds like a fucking nightmare

It totally sucks. This is off topic, but KZreadr Slayer sober mentioned both of our channels in his recent video. He complemented your production value. I would like to make mine better. What are your camera settings? I am having trouble with white balance. I use a Canon RP mirrorless set at usually at HD 30fps. The 4K is pretty much useless. The lighting in here as you might see on my videos is either too warm or a tad too cool, flat and colorless. I just use lamp lighting and an overhead ceiling fan light. What do you set your white balance at? Thank you and stay sober. The constipation is most likely do to dehydration.

@_BatCountry

2 ай бұрын

Oh cool, I'll check his video out today - Friday is Bat Country day so I'm filming a new one. About my setup: the older videos are filmed on a Lumix G9 and the newer ones on a Lumix S5IIx. I film in 4k at 24fps, but 1080p HD at 24 is good too. Doesn't matter a great deal what the camera is and there's no great difference between 1080- and 4k when most people are watching on their phones anyway. Plus 4k is a bit of a hassle to store and edit if you're shooting for an hour at a time like I am. What makes the difference for me is the lenses I use. Most youtubers use a wide angle lens and a small aperture so everything is in the frame and everything's in focus, but I use vintage 50mm lenses with wide apertures for a more cinematic look, and no autofocus. That sounds like a lot of work, but it isn't. You can get a fantastic old lens and a canon mount for about 50 bucks. (Adding an edit here: that Canon RP sensor responds really well to vintage lenses. Hit a flea market and find an old lens around 50mm f1.8 or lower. Figure out how to nail the focus manually before you start shooting, takes a bit of practice, but worth it.) Then I have a little bit of lighting to create some shadow rather than relying on the room lights. If you do that, you don't have to worry about white balance. Leave it on auto and concentrate the aperture and the exposure. Just put the lamp to one side so that you get some shadow on your face and ditch the ceiling fan light completely - that fan light is probably the problem. I also do a bit of recolouring while I'm editing, nothing major, but that helps a bit too. I've got a bit of a headstart on this though, it's part of my day job. Hope this is useful. The point is, it's the lens and the lights that make the difference, not the camera, so grab a cheapy vintage lens with a fast aperture and make your lighting directional. It doesn't take much but it makes a big difference.

@ShadesOClarity

2 ай бұрын

@@_BatCountry Thanks for the reply. I mostly use an R 24-105. F4, but shoot at 5.6. I have an older canon EOS EF 50mm 1.4, but the autofocus doesn't work half the time and I can't manually focus it either. Good glass is key. I'll try to move the lights around and see what happens.

Remind me of the last, Stranger Things at the story

How much were you drinking to get these issues?

@_BatCountry

7 ай бұрын

The first time, about 1.5 litres of vodka a day for about 4 months. After that, it was less every time, until it could be triggered by about 5 days of binge drinking.

@joealitz4157

7 ай бұрын

@@_BatCountry since March I’ve been drinking 12-16 drinks daily. I decided to stop the other day but I’ve been tapering down every day. Yesterday I had 6. Today I will have 4. The first few days were rough but I’m feeling alot better already with consuming far less alcohol.

@Rick_Cleland

6 ай бұрын

@@joealitz4157 Yeah, tapering is a must.