I need a t-shirt with "That's a part of healing, innit?" on it

@darklord9549

4 жыл бұрын

03:12

@tbella5186

3 жыл бұрын

Take my money 💰

Thanks for talking about this Ed, it probably wasn't easy for you but this was really reassuring to watch and very well scripted. As an Ex-Persecutor and a Sexual Alter myself, I haven't seen many people talking about it on KZread, and this was just the right amount of honest info to make me feel seen without being triggering. Additional thanks for the resource on Abuser Introjects, that will come in useful for us as we've been looking for information to help us support one of our other persecutors and hadn't been able to find much, perhaps it's considered too taboo in some spaces. Sending all our love from us, Nin xoxo

@sumaiakabir3959

4 жыл бұрын

I agree, and really like your channel as well!

@danniramirez9117

4 жыл бұрын

I hope you find what you're looking for nin love you and tell team pinata that I love them too❤❤

@theonionqueen3519

4 жыл бұрын

Oh hey I love your channel! I hope you get things solved in your system! ❤️

@dylancole1910

4 жыл бұрын

DissociaDID Hey, been watching your channel off an on for several months. I want to say that your videos have actually unexpectedly helped me work through some recent doubts I've had about my personal identity and gender identity. Even though I been half out for about four and a half years, due to confused and unsupportive family, a question kept rising in my brain about whether I was actually transexual, or if this was just some crazy form of DID as you have. But, after watching your videos, I've been able to see that it's more than just hearing voices in your head or presenting as another person, it's more like, for a period of time you truly aren't you...someone else's consciousness has somehow found their way into your body due to childhood trauma. After assessing my own situation, I realized that I never felt like a different person, I never had any black outs or had people telling me I looked and sounded like a different person. And, last of all I never had any significant violent or sexual trauma as a child that was bad enough to create anything other than a small fantasy world in my subconscious...the only thing I seem to be suffering from, genuinely, is gender dysphoria. So I know this is an awkward comment that you may not get a lot of, but I just want to thank you for continuing to educate the world on your condition, and also for helping me put doubts to rest in myself that were put there by others. Anyway, enjoyed the vid, have a great week.

@seeexy

4 жыл бұрын

@@dylancole1910 ty. ur comment helped me, define my issue. the GD we could be friends, if ur fam r not supportive (i know its random, couldnt help but 2 say, Gidday)

This reminds me so much of Jessica Rabbit: "I'm not bad. I'm just drawn that way".

I actually love his accent it’s kind of soothing

@thatoneweirdo1910

4 жыл бұрын

Honestly yeah

@nadjaannabel1

4 жыл бұрын

I love it too. And I have no problem understanding it, even though I'm swedish.

@justsomehipsterwithaniphon705

4 жыл бұрын

Ealainez Beckett His accent is so soothing it’s like one of those from the Old Hollywood movies.

@BradTea

4 жыл бұрын

He reminds me of Adele, which is cool.

@ReglasdeOro

4 жыл бұрын

@@BradTea I was totally thinking that!!!

"Look at me talking all smart acting like I know what I'm doing." Same Ed

@MrConstanzabahamonde

3 жыл бұрын

Thats what i was thinking while introducing my thesis to my teachers in college xD

@PonkChonk

Жыл бұрын

Me everytime I have a class presentation

Ed's face when he realizes he needs to say the cheesy phrase lol. I feel you Ed haha

This is such a good video. The only persecutor in my system that I was aware of, Misteltoe, fused before I could build a better relationship with her. Thank you for giving insight into your journey of battling with your role and history. I'll say that the s*xual part of your role feels familiar to my past. I'm not a s*xual alter but having been shamed and repressed a lot of my life, I started letting people treat me poorly because it was "better than nothing". I recognized that I was being disrespected but I also yearned for any kind of attention and didn't yet know healthy boundaries. You're not alone, Ed. Sending you nothing but safe love and gratitude. -Wyn

@glitterspray

Жыл бұрын

“Better than nothing.” Yep. Took me decades to reach the point where nothing actually was better 🙂

“Stay true, stay you, stay gorgeous.” 💜💜💜

I could listen to Ed talk forever. I really enjoy his voice.

@sydneymomma11

4 жыл бұрын

So could I! His voice is so lyrical, and his compassion comes through in everything he says and does. 💜

I do not have DID but the way Ed spoke about unwanted s*xual attention spoke to me. The way it validates me when someone catcalls me. Even when I feel scared I later view it as something "good". I don't want it yet it feels good.

I feel like this is an important video even beyond the realm of DID trauma teaches us to behave in ways that we may not like and may even know are unhealthy. Unlearning and moving past these ways to cope with the world is huge, and so much work. Bravo to you Ed! Honestly, you are a huge inspiration to me personally.

@soulg5846

4 жыл бұрын

You're so right! I don't have DID, but pretty bad childhood trauma and I recognized myself in this video. I also enjoy being catcalled, I always thought of it as positive attention, like someone making me compliment. I used to be one of those people defending catcallers (not sexual harassment obviously, just whistling and saying a word or two), saying things like "girls don't even appreciate compliments these days". I know it's wrong, but I still find myself wishing someone would whistle at me when I wear a nice outfit. It's hard to get over it even when you know it's wrong, but this video made me feel like my feelings are valid too while being informative. Thanks Ed

@seeexy

4 жыл бұрын

yess ^♡

@glitterspray

Жыл бұрын

@@soulg5846 it’s not “wrong” to like being whistled at. Everyone’s different. I hated being catcalled by multiple construction workers on my way to work. For me it was embarrassing and humiliating. And terrifying. I had to change how I dressed so I looked more androgynous That said, I’m fine with a compliment! Just don’t holler it at me 🙂

When he said it's easy to sound smart when it's been written down for you, my first thought was "Thanks, Jamie" 😭😭

Question-can s*xual alters struggle with healthy s*xual relationships because of the torn feelings of "i want this but I shouldnt" ? Does that make sense? Great vid

@MultiplicityAndMe

4 жыл бұрын

Yes, absolutely. Reforming that mindset can take a lot of time and patience

@RialVestro

4 жыл бұрын

That's a Nathan question... I have no idea how to answer that myself. I guess Ed already answered it but different alters in different systems might have different answers. I'm not really sure if Nathan would agree or not. -Mike Claw

@clowy9052

4 жыл бұрын

@@cathybobathy5714 Also it can lead to re-traumatisation if/when a certain alter takes over

@JoJo-sl7jt

4 жыл бұрын

@@cathybobathy5714 very true Cathy

@adielagibayev7788

3 жыл бұрын

Yes, one of my alters is that way. But they reciprocated those feelings, so s*xually they don't act as dominant or s*xual anymore for example. They're part-persecutor (not fully) as well. Technically, almost every persecutor or s*xual alter want to be understood. By the host or other alters that think that they're wrong or their thinking is just "abnormal". But if they weren't for the host, most likely the host wouldn't have an effective defense mechanism with the "fighty" alters. Persecutors are crucial, even if they're not very positive or accepting of others. They have a lesson to teach you, you just need to react properly so they won't harm you. If you want to negotiate with them (to avoid harm, stop bad and harmful habits, or integrate), it can take some time. They need time, time to trust, time to understand love again. They need reconciliation. Deep inside they're hurting even if they have a strong front. It's easier to be angry than miserable. Hope you find this comment informative.

"...I yearn for that attention because that's the way I've been made." OMFG is that a mood, Ed. Thank you for that validation.

I find myself saying "oh my days" sometimes in casual conversation so that's for that, Ed.

y’all look SO GOOD... this lipstick is really your color. ed’s taste? unparalleled

Don’t doubt yourself Ed, you’re doing so well!

Ed seems like the kind of person who cringes at everything wholesome/cute but secretly loves it. I wanna see him react to one of those “try not to cringe/laugh” videos on KZread.

"I ain't as green as cabbage looking" oh I'm so glad I had the captions so I could understand that... lol

Omg, I’m new to y’alls channel and I’m already in love with Ed! “F*ck me sideways” I’m dying! Thank you for sharing yourself with us, you really made my day. :)

“Even I struggle with my accent” Ed is so hilarious I love him 😂 -Alex

I honestly love the term 'misguided protector' ❤️ and can I also say that you guys' make-up looks gorgeous? It does ❤️

Love the input about not having to label everyone. Especially at first, the roles were so so confusing. Now, we just use ANP and EP because it’s a lot easier and gets the message across. Either they hold trauma or not. At the beginning Jamie (from our system lol) had no idea who they even were and had no clue how to label themself. Host? Persecutor? It was very confusing. This is so much easier for us and at least in our case it helps people not to judge specific alters so much. Eli

Omg I remember watching you years ago, I forgot your channel name and you didn’t pop up until I started watching videos about recent drama that shall not be named. You inspired me take classes in college educating me about different mental disorders and the stigma around it.

Great to hear from you on this topic Ed. It really hit home for us, and I loved how educational it was while still being personal. We’ve been working very hard with our persecutor and the way you explain things helps us understand him better and how to help him feel more comfortable in our system. It’s so brave to talk about difficult topics in order to help others 💖

i'm from Canada and have zero problem with your accent Ed. :) I love seeing you get more comfortable doing videos. i think you're awesome.

@HBoyle

4 жыл бұрын

For some people where English is a second language, it's harder to understand some dialects over others

I really appreciate this video. It takes a lot to come forward about s*xual abuse, healing from it, and the trauma surrounding it. Ed, you're completely valid for feeling the way you do about it. S*xual encounters aren't easy after being abused that way, and it can be especially difficult if it's not a role you wanted to have in the first place. You can like s*x without liking being abused, but it's a very real experience to have difficulty separating s*x from it, or to see yourself in s*xual situations positively, once s*xual abuse occurs. Thank you for being open. Sending all my love and support from New York 🖤

Ed, you’ve just helped me realise why I overeat. I can’t thank you enough.

Every share is a bit of trust extended to the world 💜

You are a protector, created to protect the body, I can’t see it any other way. You’re a valid person and totally, totally lovable in your own right.

Thank you so much for talking about this, Ed. Especially the part about kind of enjoying the attention even if you shouldn't. I honestly burst into tears because its something one of my alters struggles with, and I'm so so glad I was able to share this with her and help her to feel less disgusted with herself, and more accepting of herself. I think you're absolutely amazing and I wish you all the best in the future.

i just watched two videos before this, one with jess and one with ollie, and can i just say that the voices literally sound so different?? it's so fascinating

I love how you can always pinpoint the exact moment when Ed decides he's over it.

Okay, first of all, I think parenthood (obviously here outside the headspace) has been amazing for you. Or it’s been great for everyone collectively. Just comparing how you used to be about the channel and talking about stuff and how you are now. I hope it doesn’t sound condescending to say I’m so f-ing proud of you and how far you’ve come and the fact that you’re doing these things that make you uncomfortable, so that you can help other people. Second? I love you Ed! Like I always have. Always loved any time you were out in a video and I love how many you were doing. And your current goth 50’s housewife style is like... so amazing. And suits you right down to the ground. Thirdly, for the s*xual alter stuff, there’s no shame in any of it at all. None. Even for a person who isn’t one. Even if they are a thirsty b*tch and enjoy the hell out of everything hat goes along with it. There is NOTHING. WRONG. with that. Honestly, do what makes you happy. As long as you’re not hurting anyone. And anybody that EVER has a problem with that obviously cares more about their supposed morals or social whatever than your happiness. And you can tell them to step off and stop sharing their opinions with you. (Even if it’s that unhelpful little voice in the back of your head that sounds like a person you used to know or uses words you’ve had hurt you before) Beautiful vid Ed! Thanks for putting the effort in to post this and for doing smt that makes you so uncomfortable to help other people! Love you as always!! ❤️🖤❤️🖤

Yayyy I clicked so fast. Have DissociaDID vid on my phone and MultiplicityAndMe on my laptop yasss. Love you guys

@jaypegasi3769

4 жыл бұрын

*multitasking intensifies*

@smstarrynite6668

4 жыл бұрын

Alpha System exactly😆 got to

@angel26898

4 жыл бұрын

I would have done that but it is 2 am and I am too lazy to switch on my laptop XD

@smstarrynite6668

4 жыл бұрын

angel26898 lol at least you’re supporting I think they both appreciate it ♥️

Thanks Ed, this helps a lot ❤️ We've been struggling with our persecutor/protector, and this really helps get a better handle on the psychology. It makes a lot of sense now.

I need to show this to all my friends to help explain my persecutors, I have a hard time explaining to people why alters work the way they do, especially when they are sexual alters. A lot of people wanna chalk them up to bad people, and even I resented them for a time for seeming to only want to hurt us. But these past few months have been used for us to work through some stuff and I’d like my friends to understand this

Great video.. such delicate subject matter discussed in such a healthy and relatable way. Thanks for the tip of stopping when recognising triggers.. 3rd time I watched it all the way through. And so glad I did. This will help all of us so much especially two of us that have been so misinterpreted!! Cheers for being so non-dramatic about the subject matter 😊 Ed you’re the perfect balance of serious and lightness for this topic 😊. We need more of this in the media to help erase stigma.. that’s often even in our own parts. 💖 ❤️💖❤️💖🌈~ Bobbi

Thanks Ed, we all really appreciate seeing you and learning from you- you’re awesome ❤️

Thanks for letting us in there, Ed. We're still working out who is whom which is fun because we're often co-conscious. It's good to know how the world looks from your side xo

I love Ed haha. His sense of humor, his accent (event though it's a bit hard for me because English is not my first language), his swearwords (I'm not a particularly sweary person but I enjoy to hear them xd). And finally, I know Ed is very intelligent and a great person and I'm happy he's starting to notice that since a while now. Love you Ed!

this is amazing,, cant wait to watch the whole thing !!

Thank you for making this video! I have a friend with DID, and these videos help me understand them a lot better. :)

I love Ed’s accent, the body in his identity reminds me of Adele haha What is funny to me is that I’m brazilian and I have no trouble understanding what he says

You were wonderful, Ed, and I had no trouble understanding your accent. Much love to all of you ❤️

You are so loved Ed. And you deserve it all. ❤

This is so helpful and thank you for the link about introjects. One of our alters has mentioned that our abuser is inside the inner world in a “dark corner” trying to get out. Of course that’s super scary (I don’t have access to the inner world-I’m the host and we’ve only been diagnosed and receiving treatment for a short time) but the link you provided was helpful

The closed captions are greatly appreciated 😂❤️ love you all but especially good job to Ed for putting this all together!!

thanks for sharing your story, Ed! also, your makeup and outfit are so incredible!

Ed--thank you for trusting us and sharing your story, and I love your accent. Howdy to Multiplicity and Me from Arizona, USA, and wishing you all well.

Talking about sex with honesty is already such a taboo for singular people! So talking about how you as a system and as couples deal with it is so brave and necessary.

Ed - not only do you have killer makeup, I love listening to you. Your authenticity and ability to handle/talk through the difficult things is amazing :). I came across this channel today and really glad I did. Thanks for all the work you guys are doing to help other people understand :)

Thank you Ed. Your strength and courage is inspiring!

Hello! I wanted to just comment and say that you were my first exposure to DID. you taught me about this whole new interesting world and I'm so glad that you did. You definitely made me become more open about different mental illnesses and just different people in general. thank you and I hope all of you have a great day!

I love your personality Ed and I also love how you have grown to a place where you can talk about this stuff. Also love how well you and Jamie obviously compliment each other’s personalities. This was a brilliant and important video, thank you.

So proud of you Ed. I’ve watched all the episodes of your channel and this video feels like a big blessing from you to us. Thank you for continuing this journey with the rest of your system and finding the strength and courage to present even though you have had your reservations in the past. Much love to you all.

Fantastic video, Ed. Thank you for this! Very articulate and informative. Loved you saying you don’t have to label parts at all at the end 💜

This must have been a hard video to make Ed, but you did a stellar job explaining it all 🧡 great to see you!

Thank you for making this video. Even though it makes you uncomfortable to talk about and share with the world, it’s really helpful and really educational. I appreciate it

Thanks for subtitles- they're super useful ! and I'm so sorry you're still working through that, Ed, I will never fully understand what it's like to have DID but thanks to you guys i'm more and more aware and (hopefully) more understanding !

Could listen to Ed talk forever. I've watched this channel since the very very beginning and Ed, you have come so far. Watching you work on yourself is super inspiring x

You are a delight to hear from, Ed. I've always loved your elegance and mannerisms. You are an excellent teacher.♡

Thank you for making this for us Ed!

It's great that Ed is willing to sit down and talk about things, but also still has so much sass in the process. Thank you so much Ed for sharing the information and your wonderful self with us!

Ed, I absolutely love your voice and accent, it always makes me smile. Thank you for talking about this, and I'm sorry you struggle with your sexual role. You truly have nothing to be ashamed of; you help Jess so much and do a wonderful job protecting her.

I love your accent Ed!! I am always learning new things about DID and look forward to more videos!

Ed...you're fantastically amazing to me 💚 Thank you for sharing! I don't have or know anyone with DID but I've learned so much from you all. Thank you.

This is sooooo informative and well-spoken Ed ❤️ Im constantly learning about DID and you’ve taught me so well through this 😊😊😊

Wow Ed your makeup looked phenomenal in this video. Thank you for sharing this information with us all. I love learning from your all’s system. You’re all very lovely!

Ed I really admire how honest and open you are about the reasons why you were created. You have clearly come along way from the days talked about In the initial BBC documentary. Keep up the great work. Sending safe love and hugs xox

Ed, thanks for educating us all. As you said, it was difficult for you talk about, so I'm thankful that despite that you continued so we could all learn how to destigmatize and understand a little more a situation which is often misunderstood. I'm very proud of you ❤️

Thank you so much for sharing 💕 I love learning about DID and your channel and what you are doing is really great 👑

Thank you for captioning your videos. As someone who can't hear properly it makes a world of difference.

thank you for making this video, Ed! really good explanations. also, i personally have no problem with your accent, its actually one of the easier ones for me to listen to (i have auditory processing issues). your look is GOALS honestly, i love the darker makeup.

Love ed. You did an amazing job. Very informative and well put together. I look forward to more videos from you.

I love this channel ❤ As a "normal" person, I love the education and perspective I gain from you. Thank you so much ❤

Thank you for sharing Ed! This was awesomely informative!

“Not as green as I’m cabbage looking” I haven’t heard that phrase in years! Something my Nana used to say. Thank you for talking so honestly about this Ed xxx

This video was amazing, incredibly educational. Thank you so much for sharing an obviously very personal part of your life Ed! :)

I'm so proud of Ed for coming forward and speaking about such a sensitive topic which relates to him, I think it was extremely brave. While I was watching this video I had a smile on my face as I've noticed such a change with how Ed is more comfortable in front of the camera recently! :) I am very interested in DID and I found this very helpful on my journey of educating myself about it further! Next year I will be starting a degree in counselling and I can't wait to help people!

Ed you are awesome! Your accent is always a joy, never a problem. Thanks so much for sharing this, I could see it wasn't easy. I think so many people struggle with finding the negative sexual attention (e.g. catcalling) simultaneously gross and enjoyable/ something that makes you feel validated. That must be a constant battle for you and so hard with everything you've been through. You're lovely and very brave :)

You've come so far in your journey Ed!! You did a Grreatt job with the video! I use to be a persecutor. I loved that you mentioned about ANP's and EP's and how some people in a system could be a mix of both. I never thought of it like that before, thank you, that tid bit alone helped us understand a few of our own peeps a little better. Also Mia (in our system) wants to give a 'shout out' too, as one of the things she was made for is similar to you....that you don't go looking for it but if it happens, it feels good...she has struggled with that so much and you did a GREAT job explaining it. Hugs n loves from many of us!! - Daxx

Thank you Ed, I know it wasn't easy talking about something so personal but I genuinely found that educational. I LOVE how logical you are about who you are and why you do what you do. In that respect you are years ahead of a lot of "singleton" people I know and they would genuinely be better off in their lives if they learned to be more like you in that regard. SOOOO important to know who we are and why we do what we do. Sending love to you because you really do deserve it! =)

Ed, you are honestly amazing🖤

Thank you for opening up about this difficult subject, we love you Ed, and we're here for you.

You forgot „rockstar“ in your labels, mate.

Great job darling! 💜💜💜

First of all Ed, I love the accent! I personally don’t find it hard to understand you. Second of all, persecuters and s*xual alters were brought on for a purpose, so they are just as valid as every other alter. Thank you for this video and I hope everyone has a lovely day! Thanks and Smilies!

I love how much you have grown Ed :D it makes me happy

Wow this actually helped a lot. I am struggling with the fact that I recently realized I have DID and am trying to make sense of it all. Trying to learn what I should do to try to help manage day to day. I have loved watching your videos and would love to chat sometime. Thanks for helping make some of the pieces of the puzzle fit. LJ

Thanks so much for sharing this, Ed, and I love the look! ♡

God I love when ed makes videos. Also kind of loving that wall paper

Thank you for talking about this Ed. I’ve been following y’all for a few years now and I have to say you have always intrigued me the most. It’s really interesting to hear you talk about your... role, I guess (I don’t want to be insensitive), and how you view yourself and how you go about it. Loved this video 💜

Havent watched for a while, its amazing to see how far youve come! Lovr you ed and the rest 🖤

This made me understand more, so thank you Ed for talking about this.

Ed is actually a pleasant person and he really has made a lot of progress u can see it

Fudge I love Ed’s sassy self so much. Heck, I love every single Alter, & every single “puzzle piece”’ to your puzzle together. Lol You all are so awesome!!! ☺️🥰♥️

This was a great video and I love your sense of humor, Ed. 😂

Hi Ed, I love your accent ❤❤❤ This is so informative, I thank you for talking about this. I love you Ed, you're doing great, I'm so proud of you! Your emotions and actions and thoughts are all extremely valid. I support and respect you 100%. I'm happy to listen to you&learn about your incredible jobs for the system.

God I Love you Ed, you always crack me up while simultaneously educating the world, it’s good stuff! Loved the lippy on your hand in your goodbye wave too! xx Kate