“DID is not about the alters but the TRAUMA” LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK

Oh Jess love. That flashback said so much about why us non-DID folks, with our inexplicable morbid curiosity about trauma, REALLY need to show respect and not ask stupid personal questions. Thank you for your frankness, it humbles me.

I was aware that you guys have trauma and that it's the cause of your DID but actually hearing a panic attack really made me understand that fact. It was a really upsetting recording but what made me really upset and start crying was the idea that you guys had to go through something so bad and that someone did something so horrible to a child that this is the result. It took a lot of bravery to post that, but I feel like I've learned more about the PTSD side of DID just like everyone else who sees this video. Wish you guys the best, especially now with all of this uncertainty in the world!

This is the side of DID that some forget about when they say things like "I wish I had DID" or "Isn't it just like having friends in your head?" It's so much more than that. We thank you all for being brave and putting something so personal out there for people to see. Much love from our system ❤️

I carry a lot of trauma, and my boyfriend would always tell me to get over it. That life is life and I should just let it go. He once got so angry with me for having a panic attack because he was embarrassed. He left me a few days ago and it was crushing, because I do love him. But hearing Gaz try to calm you instead of shutting you out is a good reminder that I deserve more. And that there are partners out there who won't abandon you because of mental illness.

I literally started crying as soon as the audio clip started. I could not even imagine how scary having to relive any of those memories, in any capacity. I am so so sorry to all of you. And also I am so so thankful that you all have Gaz as someone to help in all ways that he can. This absolutely broke my heart, but I think could be so helpful and important to others. You are all so strong and I am so proud of you all for posting this. You are amazing!

Those cries were purely harrowing, I'm so sorry for what you went through and continue to go through. I've been watching you since the early days and am so grateful you choose to share about your condition in such an insightful manner. You are so immensely strong as a system and Gaz seems like the most wonderful, helpful and supportive partner. I hope the therapy is going really well! ❤

As someone who doesn’t have DID, but wants to be educated I want to just send as much love as I possibly can to everyone in the community and just the world in general. I got so emotional watching this as I have friends who have PTSD and it is so beyond brave of you to share this and everything else you share. Sending a ton of love and encouragement and thanks for everything you do ♥️

I'm getting mixed feeling because, as someone who doesn't have DID, this allows me to get a raw view of what u live with, but also makes me really sad and angry how the selfishness of another human been causes you that much pain :(. Truly admire your strenght and transparency and your will to educate us. Send you and your family a lot of love! 💙

Also, can we all talk about how sweet Gaz was? I’m so glad that you have a husband like that.

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"People like us aren't monsters but, the abusers who made us this way, are."

Hi all! Thank you so much for watching and helping us bring this subject to light!

My partner has CPTSD and her panic attacks with/triggered by flashbacks sound so so similar to this. As a S/O, it is one of the most harrowing and horrific things to watch the person you love experience pain like this and to feel so useless. Listening to Gaz repeat the same things I say, the same way that I say them, is strange comfort to me. I do what I can, but most of the time, I am only her reminder to breathe. I admire the bravery it takes to show such vulnerability and honesty, especially with the nature of trauma-responses in DID and the openness of a platform like YT. Every day that I get to learn and listen to Jess and the boys is a privilege, and a step towards being a gentler and more understanding person overall. I am a better partner, daughter, and friend because of this channel. I approach the traumas of my loved ones, and my own trauma, with much more care and consideration. Thank you for sharing this with us, thank you for trusting us with this, and thank you for being a source of such light and compassion in a time of chaos like right now. ❤️

Crying doesn't usually get to me... but that cry was so primal, such raw terror that it punched me right in the gut. I'm so sorry for what happened to you guys and I hope life will become easier. You forever have my support

As someone with cptsd, this is oddly.. comforting to see. It’s absolutely heartwrenching don’t get me wrong, but I have never had an experience with flashbacks similar in severity to mine being represented. People really aren’t aware how terrible and debilitating it can be. Especially when you have no support system, or access to help.

it hurts my heart to hear the raw pain and horror in the audio clip, and to know something so awful and horrifying happened to a child. the bravery of the whole system to put out something so personal is stunning. so much love to the system, and gaz, who is so lovely and wonderful. I have an anxiety disorder and I know how helpful it can be to have a loving and kind presence to guide you through the worst feelings and see you to the other side. you are all amazing people and you are breaking down barriers for mental health advocacy. <3 so much love

This was unbelievably courageous of you to put your vulnerability out there. These flashbacks can be horrific. It's nice to know I am not alone, yet I wish I were. That this disorder was never needed. That abuse/trauma was not in existence. But, this video helped in ways unspoken. I will go back into therapy with a heart that perhaps is a lil more brave. Again, thank you.

As a person with PTSD I greatly appreciate how incredibly vulnerable you have all been with showing panic attacks and flashbacks. You’re powerful and your husband seems like a lovely support.

I am a therapist with a special interest in trauma and DID, I'm proud of all of you for this I think particularly Ed as I know from previous videos he is a little more private and hesitant about sharing this stuff. I feel like you're all moving forward together and it's beautiful to see 💕💕