I lost my wife of 36 years to cancer March 18th 2022. I miss her so much, part of me died with her.

My in-laws and i celebrated my wife's 40th birthday on December 24th outside the cafeteria of the ICU where she was being cared for. We bought her a small cake, took some video and showed her the same evening of her birthday to lift her spirits. We did the same on Christmas eve and New Year's. None of us wanted to leave the ICU for the night. Eventhough she was entubated she did her best to smile and communicate with us. Last night we said, "see you later" and sang songs for her while the nurse injected her with Morphine and reduced her oxygen. She was in so much pain. She was the life of the party. Easy to talk to. Fun and always positive. Caring and thoughtful. Loving and Loyal. All she wanted was to be loved. My Chompers, I will forever miss you.

My wife passed away 1 week ago. I feel so lost and lonely. We were married 25 years and she was my sole mate. This is literally the most difficult thing I've ever been through...that's coming from an ExMarine. I can only hope it gets easier. Cancer Sucks!!!

@dimplemehta3877

2 жыл бұрын

Same with my dad

@pennygreenwood7766

2 жыл бұрын

It’s the absolute worst but it does get easier.

@TJ-kk5zf

2 жыл бұрын

so sorry man.

@debmukh6942

2 жыл бұрын

Same thing happened to me as well

@minhazurrahman3382

2 жыл бұрын

I can feel your pain

The worst pain to try live through when u basically died with your loved one 💔

My wife passed away from cancer last month. We were together for 5 years, every day and night. We were perfect together. I wait for the day to join her again in the presence of Jesus. Thank you for sharing. I weep for her every day.

@jasim-un6eq

8 ай бұрын

😢so sad brother 😢

My wonderful wife Kristy died one week ago. Someone tell me it gets better.I feel like my heart and soul are ruined beyond repair.

@martinfreeman8391

7 жыл бұрын

Very sorry Brother. We widowers must support each other. Get support, lean on your faith, learn about the grief process and you can work through it.

@danielbuckman7370

7 жыл бұрын

It doesn't get better, my friend. You will never stop looking for her. Divorced women will never understand love that refuses to die, and we will never understand quitting on someone you promised to love. I am 49, my wife has been gone 15 months, and my faith and a few friends who can handle my grief make some days sunny. But be careful of divorced women. They will never love the way your wife loved. Please email if you need to talk. I caution you about divorced women because after two coffee dates they start inquiring about how many pictures you still have. They won't get it.

@jimmytaaffe

7 жыл бұрын

thank you.

@danielbuckman7370

7 жыл бұрын

Thank you, brother.

@jimmytaaffe

7 жыл бұрын

thank you.

I lost my beautiful, sweet, young, godly wife May 13th...the day before my 45th birthday. She also died of cancer. She had just turned 34. We have 4 children. The pain we have is a testament to the quality of our spouse and the love they inspire in us. May the love of God be close to all of those of a heavy heart. Amen

@oliwebb2616

3 жыл бұрын

how are you dealing with this tragedy? i lost my 27 year old partner of 8 years two weeks after my 30th birthday to suicide and i’m left battling with our 4 and 8 year old daughters. it’s dark. it’s impossible

@segovia1able

2 жыл бұрын

In the most horrible experience of our life, we have to have some real help from our faith, since all other earthly helps much more powerless than that. At least it's the best " help " for myself, as I lost my wife a year ago also. I wish, -- my brother--- if you can come closer and closer to the more real reality, --- that is the other world--- where your wife already transited. And we all marching towards . That is a happy fact. ( this life is just-- but an important--- jumping desk to that anyway)

@robertsalinas6890

2 жыл бұрын

I list my best friend and wife of 44 years no way to explain the loss and loneliness my grown kids are having a hard time she was my hawaiian princess rest in peace baby till we hug and laugh again your best friend

I just lost my wife on Wednesday last week. 14 months of fighting, and one month of fast decline. She died in my arms man, I’m lost. It helps knowing I’m not alone. You’re brave for talking about this

My wife passed 2 months ago and it seems like it's getting worse. After 34 years I don't think I will ever get through it

@ABQSentinel

7 ай бұрын

I am so sorry for your loss. My wife passed away at the end of October 2022, so I am coming up on the 1 year anniversary of her death. We were married for 34 years. Like you, things started getting bad for me at about the 2 month mark, and by the 3rd month I was a complete wreck. Someone recommended the book, "The Irreverent Grief Guide: How to F**king Survive Months 1 - 3" by Elizabeth Kupferman. I am not a self-help book guy, but I was drowning and this book was a lifeline for me! It's not going to take away the pain that you are feeling, but it will help you to understand what you are going through and what to expect. It's not very long, and it's an easy read. Honestly, I wish someone would have recommended it to me right after my wife died.

I lost my wife of almost 7yrs on 4/6/22 after a year of fighting stage 3 cervical cancer. She fought a brave and courageous fight! All the emotions, sadness, hurt, pain, memories. It's so freaking hard to deal with. Seeing my wife's condition towards the end of her life, crushed and completely broke me. It's a complete struggle to get through each hour let alone a day. My feelings are too much to bare. How can you live your life without your life? I don't want to. The crushing pain in my chest is suffocating. Almost no will to live. I can't even begin to imagine of a life without my wife/my best friend. Much love to everyone who's lost someone and has been down this road.

Stay strong..... my wife died in her sleep at 57 ... 6 years ago........ i Never got to say good bye

@latkagravas986

2 жыл бұрын

❤😥,👍

I’m 22 my wife was 20 when she passed. She was diagnosed with grade 4 brain cancer. it was hard I miss her but she also hurt me before she passed. God or the universe may bless us again with a wife or maby not life is all about trials and tribulations. but I still find the strength to get up and it’s hard trying to find decent woman, they are almost all gold diggers, or have only fans and woman now a days have no respect for them selves or us and what were willing to do for them.

I’m so alone, I have no friends, family, but most of all, I lost her and our daughter. I don’t think I could ever get over my loss. I lay here on a bed for 2 with just me on it, I walk down the hall and see a crib with no baby. Nobody can tell you it’s alright, cause it’s not. I know I’ll never get over her, but I must stick around to see how it goes. Stay strong my bros, even if it never get better.

@TheCH1947

Жыл бұрын

I’m feel so sorry for you, my friend. I thought I had it b

@ciganyweaverandherperiwink6293

Жыл бұрын

Oh god. I hope so sincerely that you are doing much better today than you were the day you wrote the above comment, it's heartbreaking. I have no idea what to say that would be genuinely helpful or comforting-- I just worry about being sincere and coming off trite, glib or just inappropriate instead. The agony and hopelessness in this comment section is intensely humbling and a real wake up call. I hope 2024 will be exceptional for you, I really do. 💖

@djgeorgieporgie7862

11 ай бұрын

Thx u bro. God bless

@alexanderkramer2931

10 ай бұрын

You not alone bro ✌️ it hurts

@chuckjenkins373

8 ай бұрын

Like you; I’m so alone, I have no friends, family. Its almost two years for me and I don't feel any better then the day she died. All I want is to join her in our next life. I think I will never be ok in this life anymore. Every day I must "Stick around to see how it goes". I hope things can get better for you.

My wife died in June 2022 and everyone grieves differently including each member of my family. As we are going through all of her "stuff" in my home, they each value things differently. As their Dad I must respect that. It takes time. It really does. They are 51 and 48 now and they each have 2 boys.

I lost my wife to cancer almost a year ago (end of October 2022). I've been trying to keep strong for our children, and overall, they seem to be handling it pretty well. I make sure to always make time for them, no matter how busy I am or what I'm doing. If they need something, I make it a point to stop what I'm doing and help them. I want them to know that I am there for them, to give them that added stability and support. I, on the other hand, struggle every day with it, and don't really have any support. My parents are gone, her father died when she was in grade school and her mother... well, she has some pretty evident mental health issues. So I am basically alone.

I lost my wife on July 6 rip baby I will always love you ...I miss you so much ..I think about you every day ..thank you you for being my best friend for 25 years ..best wife ever..

@thomasjurd4144

2 жыл бұрын

They say time but my heart feels torn apart an my poor 12 yr old son . Parts of life can be so cruel. Lets hope it does get better .good luck

Thank You. I can't imagine your pain with the two boys. I just lost my wife of 26 years only 10 weeks ago and living without her is beyond imagination. I will remember you and your sons in my prayers.

@satyajitdhumal9455

5 жыл бұрын

Hope everything is fine now I pray

@speedv12

4 жыл бұрын

I lost my wife 2 weeks ago after 23 years together. We were very close and I am struggling with this. No kids. I have booked my place next to her. I know this is a temporary parting. I miss her so much.

@mariasmith5

4 жыл бұрын

@@speedv12 we will see them again! And will be together forever and ever and ever. There will be no end to those eternal days. Life is so temporary. May Jesus give you love and peace so deep, so it will carry you through until the end. God bless you

@speedv12

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you

@BBart-bv1kd

4 жыл бұрын

@speedv12 very sorry, words don’t do the pain justice. I lost my wife of 30 yrs recently, no children, it feels like the wheels have come off. Hope you can find some peace.

Lost my wife today. She had kidney failure. Thanks for the upload. RIP Kimberly

@NftpMotovlogsPR

4 жыл бұрын

My wife had the same I'm sorry brother my prayers to you friend..

@kingjordanwilliams3681

2 жыл бұрын

My wife passed away five years ago from the same condition. Prayers strength and condolences to all families dealing with this extreme pain..

I just lost my wife 2 months ago. She was ill for a long time, she seemed to be getting better but suddenly crashed on the 5th of October. I'm really struggling in myself right now. I'm keeping it together for my 2 beautiful kids, but I just break down when they're at school. I cant deal with the thought that I wont see or hear from her ever again. Your video has helped me a little. Thank you.

I lost my beautyful dear wife on April,1st,2021. I feel sad,bored and angry most of the time. Is so uncomfortable. I miss her a lot and although sometimes I wish I had someone else with me,I can not see other woman as good as my wife. I could not trust anyone else. The other thing is the though of losing her forever is so frustrating. The love and care for our 2 kids keep me prisioner to this life.

The sudden death of my wife of 10yrs has been devastating. I think about it almost every minute of every day. It has been 1 year and 4 months but still feels like yesterday. I feel so sorry for anyone who has lost a loved one.

@latkagravas986

2 жыл бұрын

❤😥,👍---Hope your OK. It's been 2yrs for mine now.

@timetryp422

Жыл бұрын

Excurciating pain....

@goinprincecharles5129

3 ай бұрын

I feel sane. Lost my beautiful wife a year ago

@BellaJoyeuse

Ай бұрын

My husband passed away suddenly close to a year ago and the pain is the most torturous I've ever experienced- and it's only getting worse. Another widow said the first 3 years were the worst, always getting worse, and then she said it started getting better.

@synthartist69

Ай бұрын

@@BellaJoyeuse Hang in there, you will get better.

Thank you for sharing. Lost my wife four months ago. I don't see many men sharing their thoughts and being real. Thank you, may God bless.

I lost my husband of 10 years on 8/15/14 in a car accident on his way to work. We have three girls together. Your videos make me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you for sharing your journey.

@chrisjohnson2246

3 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry I know how it feels to be lonely without the person you love, such is life I understand how you feel but life goes on, I lost my wife 3yrs ago to a terrible heart disease, I felt deeply devastated with grief, but that's the past now, time is indeed the best healer I'd love to talk to you more if you don't mind it'd be nice if you just say hi here is my number +1206-237-2054

@chrissttiiee

3 жыл бұрын

I lost my younger sister on 8/25/14. Always thought we'd be old together .. she knew it wouldn't happen. She told me so in our last conversation.

@sonder2164

3 жыл бұрын

Odd. I lost my husband on 08/15/2012 in a accident also. That's it, I am canceling August.

@richardbradshaw7830

2 жыл бұрын

i came across your touching comment in the grieving of love ones post here on face book. Well am really sorry about that okay 😒☹and I know how it feels to be lonely without our love ones, we've all lost our love ones in death one way or the other, either a spouse, child, family members, or a true friend that meant the world to us, such is life I understand how you feel but life must move on because death is inevitable no matter how hard we try! And we'll all have to face it someday..

@richardbradshaw7830

2 жыл бұрын

@@sonder2164 i came across your touching comment in the grieving of love ones post here on face book. Well am really sorry about that okay 😒☹and I know how it feels to be lonely without our love ones, we've all lost our love ones in death one way or the other, either a spouse, child, family members, or a true friend that meant the world to us, such is life I understand how you feel but life must move on because death is inevitable no matter how hard we try! And we'll all have to face it someday..

I lost my wife june 2012. my daughter is now 5 and is an absolute angel. my life. just started chatting to a woman, but feel guilty . just feels weird.

I found this tonight looking for something to help me. My wife, Caroline, died four and a half months ago. We met thirty years ago in January and had been married almost 26 years when she died. Her cancer first appeared in 2014 and she fought it and we thought she beat it, but it came back July 2017 and she fought it with all she had for a year, but it could not be beaten. She died in my arms July 14, 2018. I have been heartbroken and in despair ever since. Her suffering was so terrible. She was only 63 years old when she died. She did not want to stop fighting, she wanted to live to the very last breath. For me it is like PTSD now. I don't know if I am ever going to be able to go on and be happy again. Do I even want to? Caroline gave my life its meaning. Last night I heard her say, while I was trying to pray and meditate, that she is still here, that we are not apart. I think she is here in some way that I cannot see. I just pray that she will wait for me and that we will be reunited forever. We always said our love would last forever. For myself and all the men and women (and children of lost parents), I pray for relief and a return of joy in our lives. Christmas is approaching and it must give us hope somehow.

My wife died On August 6th 2007. I am still not over it today in 2013 a few days before that date. I still love her and miss her and have never dated anyone or wanted to. I am only 52 years old now. I feel my life ended with her. I was only 46 at that time. I would like to know if you moved on. You are so right it is never over. I still have fun with my kids and they are all grown now. However that scar is always there. My children have the same scar.

@omayma4921

3 жыл бұрын

I hope you are doing better sir

I found this video because I was searching for dealing with the loss of a loved one. It's been 7 mos for me. I just wanted to hear other people talk about what they're going through.

Mr. Graves I lost my wife this Feb. i still cant stop cring every day I fill for you and your children may God be with you and your children I know what you fill

@Jerrymc1975

4 жыл бұрын

I lost my husband in Jan 2019. I, too, cry everyday. There are times I don’t think about him during day and then it hits me hard because I miss him so much. It’s a vicious cycle. I began to listen to NDE’s, which help me. Hugs to you.

@chrisjohnson2246

3 жыл бұрын

@@Jerrymc1975 I'm so sorry I know how it feels to be lonely without the person you love, such is life I understand how you feel but life goes on, I lost my wife 3yrs ago to a terrible heart disease, I felt deeply devastated with grief, but that's the past now, time is indeed the best healer I'd love to talk to you more if you don't mind it'd be nice if you just say hi here is my number +1206-237-2054

You're not rambling... Your point of view is exactly why I watch your videos. Your feelings and personal experience are very important and valuable to yourself and everyone watching. Thank you for sharing!

My husband died this past Feb. 25th. We went through the whole hospice process and it made it easier for both of us to deal with. He passed over in his home, I was able to spend every minute with him, watching him as he faded away. He was the love of my life, I'll miss him until the day I die.

@markschroeder3074

8 жыл бұрын

juniperlista Been there feel the pain. stay strong.

@rstlr73

5 жыл бұрын

juniperlista honey you will always miss him. The pain never goes away but, remember you are still alive until the day you die. Keep moving forward

@chrisjohnson2246

3 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry I know how it feels to be lonely without the person you love, such is life I understand how you feel but life goes on, I lost my wife 3yrs ago to a terrible heart disease, I felt deeply devastated with grief, but that's the past now, time is indeed the best healer I'd love to talk to you more if you don't mind it'd be nice if you just say hi here is my number +1206-237-2054

@richardbradshaw7830

2 жыл бұрын

@@markschroeder3074 i came across your touching comment in the grieving of love ones post here on face book. Well am really sorry about that okay 😒☹and I know how it feels to be lonely without our love ones, we've all lost our love ones in death one way or the other, either a spouse, child, family members, or a true friend that meant the world to us, such is life I understand how you feel but life must move on because death is inevitable no matter how hard we try! And we'll all have to face it someday..

@richardbradshaw7830

2 жыл бұрын

i came across your touching comment in the grieving of love ones post here on face book. Well am really sorry about that okay 😒☹and I know how it feels to be lonely without our love ones, we've all lost our love ones in death one way or the other, either a spouse, child, family members, or a true friend that meant the world to us, such is life I understand how you feel but life must move on because death is inevitable no matter how hard we try! And we'll all have to face it someday..

My wife passed away about a month and I am lost, devastated and heartbroken. Thank you for sharing your struggles, I can't even imagine two years from now but it helps to see that other men have made it through. Thank you for sharing.

@GuyFromTheSouth

5 жыл бұрын

Sorry for your loss. Its been 1 year now. Hopefully things are better for you.

It's the toughest thing to ever happened to me as a man.. I was with my beautiful Catharina for 38 years , 26 days. It has been 3 years since she died from cancer. It has been devastating to our little family. I can't believe the giant hole she left. A devoted woman is the most amazing thing on this earth. As a man, I have been trying hard to find a new lady friend, but divorced woman are quite unfeeling, but I do know I am at eased with the company of another woman. I have constant flashbacks of our life together, but the presence of another woman places her memory to the side. We were very close together and loss of her intimacy has been devastating. Men get no sympathy in this area. I feel like the world would just rather have you die. I believe it is best for a man to die early as woman seem to be a lot better with the loss of a spouse. But it is just fucking awful...

I lost my beautiful wife of 14 year’s so suddenly and unexpectedly. I have 3 young children and am absolutely lost. My heart is broken and I miss her innocent smile and laugh.

@fruitsalad350

5 ай бұрын

May Allah grant your wife jannah 🙏

Thanks for the video. Just lost my wife 2 months ago to colon cancer. She was only 31.

@ericho3624

6 жыл бұрын

GiSoxfan I can feel you, my wife just passed away two days ago to cancer, she is 32 I am 32. I miss her so much... My heart are so painful, it was like a knife that stab so deep inside my heart.

@christopherdidonna2796

3 жыл бұрын

Thats terrible, so young:(

I lost my wife 10/9/2021 from Glioblastoma Cancer. It is now July 2022 8 months after and It's still very hard. I watched your video I don't know how I came across it but I'm glad I did. I'm still in this sad, trying to move on state but not trying to bury the love or the memory of my wife. Anyway, to everyone on here who's lost someone. Day by day week by week, month by month. Honor your lost love when ever you can. Try to move forward and take the best qualities of that person and make it your own. My wife will always be a part of me and I hope there is an afterlife or heaven or paradise. I miss her very much and thank you for this. Hopefully you and your boys are doing well. For me its been 8 months for you 12 years.

I lost my husband 2 1/2 yrs ago. I can well relate to what you are going through & still feeling (the raw pain that still lingers from time to time). Thank you for doing this video. My thoughts & prayers go out to you & your boys. Please hang in there.

@ChrisJohnson-lh9qb

6 ай бұрын

I'm very sorry about your husband, trust me I completely understand how you feel, I felt the same way when my wife past away June 4th 2018 grief is hard to deal with but we learn to live with it, where are you from..?

I know your pain brother. Lost my sweet wife. My soulmate. A year and a half and me and my son still hurt so bad. Prayers to u

Sending you love man. My beautiful, loving, thoughtful wife died this month of cancer (34). We have no children but I miss her so much. You are a great man and wonderful father for showing perseverance through hurt and sadness. I hope to stay as graceful as you throughout all of this.

Just lost my partner of 10 yrs last month . I’m watching because I’m just looking for strength in testimonies so I thank all of you who commented. She was EVERYTHING to ME and idk what to do with my feelings right now but thank God he is so good!!

thank you my friend I lost my lovely, wonderful to cancer last April, I struggle every day I have two sides to my life now the side I put on to everyone around me the normal getting on with life side and my other side the life in tatters not knowing what to do next.

Thank you for sharing this . I lost the love of my life on Valentine's Day last month . I don't know were to go from here . I don't know how I'm going to pick up the pieces . We first lost our child and four months later she was gone too. She gave up . Once our daughter was gone Sarah never recovered no matter what I tried to do to help her . She packed up , moved out to her mothers clear her head and she just never came back home . I'm so lost friend I sit here and cry . I'm so sorry for your loss . I feel your pain and my own . Sarah was the only reason I woke up everyday . We saved each other in so many ways emotionally . We just fit . Who do I fit with now ? How do I start over at 37 years old ? I don't . I guess I'll wake every morning kiss her clothes and sneakers and drink my coffee with her soul . It's been over a month , I drink and I cry . I just needed to vent don't mind me . I'm tired and stressed out . God bless you dude thanks for the video it hit home for me and I was just interested in what progress looked like . I'm scared about my future I'm and alone ../ I miss her . Thanks for listening

@averagecitizen863

4 жыл бұрын

So sorry for you my friend , how are you doing now if that's ok to ask 🙏

My husband's father passed away when my husband was only seven years old. He would often say "The only thing that changed in my life, was everything. Nothing was ever the same, again."

@ChrisJohnson-lh9qb

6 ай бұрын

I'm very sorry about your husband, trust me I completely understand how you feel, I felt the same way when my wife past away June 4th 2018 grief is hard to deal with but we learn to live with it, where are you from ?

My wife died 2 months ago from brain cancer, The torture I've seen and experienced can't be undone. 22 years of a great christian marriage. I wonder if the pain will ever end , and somehow I know the answer is no. I'm glad you have children as a motivation to be your best. I'm trying to find motivation to be positive and find a new purpose in life . I know what your going through, your torn heart is so near the surface, ready to burst at any moment. just like mine, and it's been 2 years for you , wow, you inspire me.

@billman6364

5 жыл бұрын

Hi Mark, my wife died 2 weeks ago of brain cancer after a 5 month struggle, we were married 33 years, are you doing better now? right now Im lost.

@54GARYBOY

5 жыл бұрын

@@billman6364 Hi- My wife died from stage 4 lung cancer that spread to her brain. We were married 37 years-I just retired-her 62-me 64. She got 2 months after diagnosis and the brain cancer was just horrible and changed her so much. In the end you begin to think you were fortunate with only months because it was absolute torture to see her go like that. When it finally overtook her-it went so fast. Then the guilt of thinking that- at least it was over- its just insane. I am at 5 months and this is never going to get better. Its tough-you get up and deal with the day just hoping for it to end. LOST in a sleepwalking haze is how I put it. Good luck to you in trying to deal with it. I have counseling from Hospice and it does help. For those hours -then I still have to go home. You have my best wishes to get through somehow.

@latkagravas986

2 жыл бұрын

❤😥,👍----We will see them again (yours and mine)

I know how you feel , i lost my loving wife 14 months ago to lung cancer . I feel her in every inch of this place and she is in every fiber of my being .. i hope that things get better for both of us

Thank you for the video. I lost my wife in 2014. What a gap in my life. Now in 2021 still mourn but I feel ready to move on. God bless.

@omayma4921

2 жыл бұрын

I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you are doing better

Thank you for sharing this. I just lost my wife last month. Not many people to relate to my situation. Your story gives me promise of greater strength with time.

My wife currently has cancer. She really got emaciated before her surgery. She can’t seem to gain any weight before her Chimo starts. She has issues eating from her bowel resection surgery and total hysterectomy among them scraping other small Tumors out of there. She can’t eat much and we both fear she’s fading fast. She lost 30’pounds in three months and only gained back 2 pounds after surgery. We’re 52 years old, highschool Sweethearts , Love at first sight, absolute soul mates. We know we will be together again and we were together before this life. I actually used to have dreams of her face smiling at me when I was a child and would have recurring dreams of her. When I first saw her when I moved to a new school I knew I had seen her before and it didn’t hit me until years later. She also said she had dreams of me as a man walking out of the woods to help her. Funny because I spend most of my time in the woods hunting and working as a logger as a side gig. All that being said we are realists and we’ve talked many times about the outcome of this. We have four Daughters, two we adopted and we also are currently fostering and in the adoption process of two more children and we have 9 grand children. This is going to be a tough road for me but i think I can handle it. She insists that I re marry and I can’t even think about that as I have no desire to be with a different woman. She always jokes that a young college girl will try to snatch me up because they hit on me all the time and she thinks it’s hilarious. I’m glad she has a good sense of humor but I really feel this woman is being punished for spending her entire life taking care of other people to the point that she’s a pediatric NP that saw 30 Kids a day prior to her diagnosis and days before her surgery. All We’ve ever done was take care of kids ever since we started dating in 11th grade. I’m really sad for her and she’s really sad for me. I feel so lost and heartbroken already and I can’t quit staring at her while she sleeps next to me. She’s still so beautiful but very thin now and it’s so heartbreaking to see this evil cancer taking her life in front of me while I sit here helpless with her life in the hands of doctors and this menacing parasite that is constantly gnawing away at her. She would probably be in much better shape if her liver wasn’t so badly affected on both lobes. Her oncologist told her this treatment will prolong her life but won’t save it. She had pain for a long time and her OBGYN said it was common in menopause and was just an ovarian cyst so my wife put up with the pain until she could no longer have a bowel movement and got a colonoscopy which found a large 360 deg tumor in her sigmoid colon. Well now the OBGYN calls her once a week to see how she’s doing and she keeps apologizing to her. My wife thinks she’s afraid we’re going to sue her…..what good would that do? I feel this world is getting so ugly and I firmly believe WWIII is coming. Maybe she’s better off not living through this as I have been mentally preparing for a SHTF lifestyle for many years and I’ve read all the books from the Balkan Wars and the horrors that women face during such scenarios that it almost makes me feel that if there is a God he’s taking her now so she won’t have to face the horrors Of what is coming. Me OTOH I’m pretty tough but I will have two Young kids to take care of and I’m not about to turn my back on them especially after their birth parents have. My Wife’s loss will be devastating to them though. People keep telling me that cancer treatment has come a long way and they will be able to cure her and everything will be fine but they are trying to make themselves feel better by saying something nice but don’t see the pain she is in and aren’t watching her fade like I am. She is more tired and weak than ever, can’t eat or poop much and when she does it might take a couple days of severe pain for the process to work. I feel like a Whiny baby for typing all of this but I thought this may be a good forum to share what I haven’t been able to tell anyone in my family or circle of friends because it’s just too personal and too hard to talk about like this without losing my shit. I’m trying to stay so strong for her and I’ve been bottling a lot of my emotions in cause I don’t want her to see me weak. I don’t want to get mad at her for her demands as she’s real picky with food and quite understandably in a really crappy mood at times. I would be too. She keeps saying she’s sorry and that really tears me apart because she did t do ANYTHING wrong. I just hate seeing her suffer and I hope we can get her better. That’s all we can do. Thanks for listening.

@sunshine9122

7 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry.❤

Youre wife is waiting for you in heaven, Jon im sure she is (:

@Happy78704gal

4 жыл бұрын

According to the Bible marriage is still death do us part. Once one goes to Heaven, you are married to God. By design we are to continue our lives on earth...it’s not good for man to be alone. Pray for God to release that bondage, so you can move forward...it is what your wife would of wanted. The boys need a mother figure around, so they know how to treat their future spouses. I hope this doesn’t come as cold hearted because that is exactly the opposite of what I am. Sometimes people just need to tough love and probably those close to you will want to say it in those words, but won’t . God bless.

@chrisjohnson2246

3 жыл бұрын

@@Happy78704gal you're definitely right about that, I'm so sorry I know how it feels to be lonely without the person you love, such is life I understand how you feel but life goes on, I lost my wife 3yrs ago to a terrible heart disease, I felt deeply devastated with grief, but that's the past now, time is indeed the best healer I'd love to talk to you more if you don't mind it'd be nice if you just say hi here is my number +1206-237-2054

@latkagravas986

2 жыл бұрын

❤😥,👍---Yep. I encouraged him this is not over for him and the boys.

This is the first year living without my mom, and I'm not sure when the healing begins. I am sending love and hugs to you and your boys. xox

My wife is is dying of cancer its so very hard. She is the best thing that ever happened to me, i don't know what to do anymore. I can fix most things but can't fix this .

@latkagravas986

2 жыл бұрын

May you both consider accepting God into your life ---so that at least if it still happens, your Beloved story of you and her will carry on in Heaven. "You have nothing to lose, nor is this a trick or folly'. Regardless of where John has been or his belief system. Cause you Love Her.

@latkagravas986

2 жыл бұрын

John ---Pray. Do it regardless of where your walk in life has been. I know it 5 months now where Im barely replying but I hope she go through this. This shit (pain, hurt and Love of wife) ----is univerasaly real. Nothing topps it in Life. She Loves you ---You Love her. Things come and go, but this cant be included in my opinion. I loss my wife 2yrs ago and Ive gone dark.

So sorry for your loss. I love how you are very real with your feelings. Prayers for you and your boys. ♥️

Thank you for sharing your story. It must be truly hard for you and your boys to deal with the pain of losing someone so close. Hopefully the pain subsides as time goes by as I believe she would too want her family to be happy.

Thank you,I lost my Husband,Soulmate two years ago,and the pain of grief is no easier,I am adapting to a new reality,a different me.Part of me died with Rob...Love IS stronger than death...Love and Blessings to ypu and your Loved Ones...XOXO

@samuelmichael2449

3 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry for your loss, such is life we've all lost our loved ones in death, but life goes on, I lost my partner 3yrs ago, I understand how you feel, I'd love to talk to you more if you don't mind, it'd be nice if you just say hi here is my number +1206-237-2054 😇

@richardbradshaw7830

2 жыл бұрын

i came across your touching comment in the grieving of love ones post here on face book. Well am really sorry about that okay 😒☹and I know how it feels to be lonely without our love ones, we've all lost our love ones in death one way or the other, either a spouse, child, family members, or a true friend that meant the world to us, such is life I understand how you feel but life must move on because death is inevitable no matter how hard we try! And we'll all have to face it someday..

Some widows I have spoken to still feel it 9 years later. My heart goes out to you and your boys ❤

Thank you! It is so helpful to know that what I have dealt with the past two years is felt by others. I'm still hurting and healing and no one understands why I don't date yet. Thank you for sharing!

Sorry for your loss. Truly praying for peace over you and your family.

you're a good man John, thanks, 2 & 1/2 years for me and my kids, mostly grown but still our kids, your description of the waves that come and go and coping with them is tough but honest. What a strange brotherhood we widowers share. Love, loss, grief., love, loss grief. My hope is that someday it's all Love. What keeps me going.

Wow! This video hit me in so many ways. Totally relatable. Lost my mom last year from the same thing. Even though it’s been 10 yrs of this video, hope you guys r good. 💙💙💙

Thanks for being brave and sharing your story.

Thank you for sharing, i don’t understand what im feeling. I don’t understand whats happening. But thank you for bein brave n sharing with us

I lost my husband 1 year ago , i feel like it happened yesterday, and im sorry for your loss. Its sad you have young children,its harder to move on. It breaks my heart to see your pain and living this over and over again, just focus on your children the best you can,be for your children. It's going to be hard ,but love your self and be Kind to yourself. You dont need to find a replacement so soon ,it takes as many years ,how long you have been married to get over your wife. Bless You and Take Care 🕊️🙏❤️

god bless you for living your life with this strength, i can only imagine your pain and how tough it must be. you have my deepest condolences.

I cannot imagine that pain. My prayers go to you. I cannot imagine that I am so sorry for your loss.

Wow I'm sorrowful for the loss of your wife. Thank you for opening up and sharing all the emotions, the struggles that you and your son's are still dealing with. I just lost my wife a few days ago, I'm believe it will be so helpful to me and others. I see that this, can take a long time. Keep on doing what 3 are doing. Great advice.

Mate your an amazing bloke I am so sorry for your loss...this put tears in my eyes if I lost my wife I'd well just be so so lost :( sorry again

you said this so well! Two years coming up for us and It still hurts but in a different way. After 21 years married it doesn't just cut off.

Man what a great video thank you so much you probably helping a lot of people just feel like they're not alone I haven't wanted to discuss my wife's death with both of my children thinking they're not old enough to handle the pain or avoiding the discussion because I don't want to upset them and dig it up don't really know how to get through this I'm just moving through time I put her death on the back burner and now I'm in the frying pan

I randomly came across your video from dealing with loss! I am truly sorry to hear about your wife's passing! I am wiping away tears halfway through your video..actually more like sobbing! I am so sorry :( I hope you are well and dealing as best as you can with your loss, pain never goes away, love and light

I just wanted to say thank you so much for doing this. I lost my dad very suddenly at the start of December last year and I miss him so much, I would give anything to have him back. I'm only 20 and my dad was my idol, I sometimes feel like I can't go on with my life without him beside me and I've even thought about ending my own life to be with him. I'm just about to finish university and he was the one who encouraged me to do it and I'm so glad he did, but the fact that he will never see me gr

I had never seen your page before I'm so sorry for your loss. I pray that you and your boys find peace. I know it doesn't get easier you just learn to live with it. I lost my daddy it will be one year 12/12/13. Ill keep you in my prayers.

Thank you for your words from the heart..

I cant imagine the pain you all are going through. Please take heart. And continue to be strong

Year five November. Cancer took my wife 2011. Thank you for sharing. It helps me even more to consider my son is still dealing even though he says he isn't. Grace and peace.

Thank you Jon for posting this. I lost my beautiful and caring wife on May 12 this year and I also became a single parent at a blink of a eye. I can truly relate to all that you are saying. Of course I’m nowhere near the 2 year mark yet but I am trying my best to keep things as manageable for all of us and still give us the best quality of life as we can. It’s very hard to do this alone and I am so grateful that my daughter has stepped up to the plate with me to assist the younger brother (7) to deal and cope with the loss of a mother and wife. Everyone’s situation is different and the only common ground I can think of is the pain is real and very overbearing in times. As you can see I search and watch videos when I find myself alone to see how other people’s experiences and situations are. I find that it helps and let’s me know we are not alone, as a matter of fact I find there are a lot more people in situations like us then I previously thought. I just wanted to take a minute to thank you for posting this cause it does have a effect on me and gives me some insight on possible things we may encounter through this unique journey. Also I wanted to ask you if you plan on giving us a update on how things have been now since it’s been awhile since you posted about your family.

I lost my husband of 20 years about 14years ago and I still miss him every day,he was and still is part of me,even though I met a great guy and fell in love again my husband always has a place in my heart.So it does get better and you can be happy again but I COMPLETELY understand how you all feel and I will pray for all,,God bless,

@chrisjohnson2246

3 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry I know how it feels to be lonely without the person you love, such is life I understand how you feel but life goes on, I lost my wife 3yrs ago to a terrible heart disease, I felt deeply devastated with grief, but that's the past now, time is indeed the best healer I'd love to talk to you more if you don't mind it'd be nice if you just say hi here is my number +1206-237-2054

@richardbradshaw7830

2 жыл бұрын

i came across your touching comment in the grieving of love ones post here on face book. Well am really sorry about that okay 😒☹and I know how it feels to be lonely without our love ones, we've all lost our love ones in death one way or the other, either a spouse, child, family members, or a true friend that meant the world to us, such is life I understand how you feel but life must move on because death is inevitable no matter how hard we try! And we'll all have to face it someday..

I'm so sorry for your loss Jon Graves. Recently my ma passed away & it's been hard dealing with my dad & his emotions as he refuses to speak to us, his own flesh & blood children. I appreciate hearing from you & your heart. If you have any suggestions, please Lmk. Praying for u & ur boys!

I appreciate this. God bless you.

Thank you for your video sir, I recently had a loss

My wife passed away 8 days ago. I’m terrified of the future. I don’t know how I’m going to raise my 4 year old daughter. I pray that God gives us strength and peace knowing mommy is happy and healthy in Heaven.

@latkagravas986

2 жыл бұрын

❤😥,👍 He will, even though Ive been tripping on my own loss of my Wife (now 2yrs). You will be dual parenting Widow and you 'can do'. Look at the Pastor Tim Jennings 1998 video on Loss, Dr. Bill Webster on Grief loss on here and it helped me. I have more to share. Even though I feel hurt and bothered that God did not intervene ----here I am encourging and strenghthening you.

@latkagravas986

2 жыл бұрын

Im sorry for your loss. Should in the right time go back to church. And per Billy Graham 'they day you hear Billy Graham is dead ---dont you believe it, for I will be very much alive'. Share this other one from him too, that I keep close for your daughter ----"I read the last page of the Bible, and it's all going to turn out allright'. You daughter has and needs you --- and you will be DUAL parent of your wife in your Heart and yourself.

You are such a great father.

so sorry for loss of your lovely wife and mother of your boys.

My fiancé died 8 years ago. He was only 33 and I was 28x a month before our wedding. The battle was only 4 months….Everybody was saying I am Young and I will forget, I will get married and have new life. It never happened 😢 I watch years passing by, I will soon loose capability to be mom. I know I won’t have a home, be a wife and be a mom. I just know my future died with him, With my love. I wish I got sick and die or have some accident. I feel nothing but pain and sadness and nothing brings me any comfort. We had 2 dogs. They died as well…. I am the only one left. What is the purpose, why to get up , why to live… I have no dreams I can fulfill without him. I don’t have a grey hair yet but I feel so old and tired I sincerely can’t go on. I don’t know why god is taking the good people and leaves those who are pure evil. I just want to go to the other side and feel his hug for a second. Imagine being hungry for years…. It’s so unbelievable hard to continue…. If I would die today no one will notice, that’s how I am now 😔😔😔

I love your sincerity. Do focus in your children and you are young. Let time help with healing. One day you will find the right girl for you and your boys. best of luck.

Thank you for your video. I'm glad I'm not alone.

It has been just over a year since my wife of over 40 years passed into the arms of her savior. I was numb for the first 8 months, and began to pick up the pieces and put together my life. I am now finding the second year might be harder because I am fully alert and not numb. Thanks for sharing your journey, it is helpful to know others are feel the same way as I am.

I lost my wife six weeks ago. I still can’t believe she’s gone. It hurts so bad. I feel like I’m broken.

@timetryp422

Жыл бұрын

My wife of 50 years died 2/25/23. I still can't believe she's gone. Kaiser totally botched her care by not addressing her critical heart blockage. Industrial minimalist health "care".

God damn man that must be tough. Im so sorry for ur loss i truly am.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I lost my precious husband this summer and it has been the worst thing I have ever been through in my entire life, hands down. I love that you want to be a tender and compassionate father for your boys. I hope that you all are doing well now.

@ChrisJohnson-lh9qb

6 ай бұрын

I'm very sorry about your husband, trust me I completely understand how you feel, I felt the same way when my wife past away June 4th 2018 grief is hard to deal with but we learn to live with it, where are you from..?

It's really hard my mom died of cancer 5 years ago and I am still grieving its one of the hardiest thing ever and I know what your kids our felling and all the stuff they sour and it is hard and I had to go through this at the age of 7 and it dose get better and you will find boundaries but you can always over come them.

I have just lost my wife in November last year it came out of nowhereI have 4 children it has broken me .every time I think of her I think i cry too much in front of kids my children they act similar to yours .losing my wife

My sweet hubby passed away about 2plus years ago. My routine and work keep me going. My two granddaughters keep me smiling. Strange but I still talk to my hubby when I'm alone. Maybe whatever dimension he's in her hears. Wishful thinking and/or open minded it is. Yes no one can ever replace anyone.

@chrisjohnson2246

3 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry I know how it feels to be lonely without the person you love, such is life I understand how you feel but life goes on, I lost my wife 3yrs ago to a terrible heart disease, I felt deeply devastated with grief, but that's the past now, time is indeed the best healer I'd love to talk to you more if you don't mind it'd be nice if you just say hi here is my number +1206-237-2054

@richardbradshaw7830

2 жыл бұрын

i came across your touching comment in the grieving of love ones post here on face book. Well am really sorry about that okay 😒☹and I know how it feels to be lonely without our love ones, we've all lost our love ones in death one way or the other, either a spouse, child, family members, or a true friend that meant the world to us, such is life I understand how you feel but life must move on because death is inevitable no matter how hard we try! And we'll all have to face it someday..

Praying you find happiness and healing for you and your kids.

@riccialessandro5810

2 жыл бұрын

You so kind and amazing person

@damclifford6602

2 жыл бұрын

Same here

I hope lifes gotten better for you guys, heavens angels do exsist

I’m dating a man that lost his wife almost a year ago. She was sick for the last 7 years of their marriage and really sick the last 3. Her disease changed her personality (made her mean) her ability to function normally so when he tells me that he’s ready for a relationship and actually tells me he’s not been this happy in years I believe him. They had talked about getting a divorce right before her Diagnosis but he promised her he would not leave her, which he didn’t. They have two sons together one that just turned 11 and a 20 year old. About three years prior to her death he moved his sons in with his mom because of her personality change. I know this journey has been hard on all of them and since us dating I have been there for the anniversary of her falling which ultimately caused her death, the anniversary of her birthday (last week) and now in two weeks it will be the 1 year anniversary of her death. This is a new territory for me to be in. I want to be as supportive as I possibly can, but I’m not gonna lie it’s hard. In a normal relationship I wouldn’t expect my current boyfriend to talk about his ex periodically or acknowledge her Birthday so I’m learning to figure out how to set my feelings aside. I guess my questions is how do I do that? How do I come across as supportive and not jealous? He has a side business with his sister in law. He told me the other day that his brother-in-law It’s going to help him with a remodel of his house (Their house that they once lived in). And also what is the correct Terminology for him to address her as? His wife? His late wife? I really can’t imagine what he is going through or any of you, I just would like some advice as well to help me navigate this touchy situation. Thank you.

@sunshine9122

7 ай бұрын

How thoughtful and considerate of you! I am a widow of nearly ten years. I have remarried and my current husband is in shoes similar to yours. If you are still dating your partner and have questions, please feel free to post.

i lost my wife of 14 years in december 2014 and the pain still lingers.Messed up my sanity. Have 3 kids with her and it's 4 years and counting. Right now, i embrace them and love them and helps me through the process. I feel your pain and i will keep you in my prayers every day

Sory for you're lost hope you'll be ok stay strong we are all with you❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

I am so sorry for your loss :'( You and your children will see her again

Two years ago on 6 September 2021, I lost my son, Christian to drug addiction. I share your feeling of loss with someone so close. My heart aches for the children and you for something so terrible as Cancer to take your wife. Last month, my wife and I were again dragged through the call from the rehab clinic where he had been for 14 months trying and fighting through the addiction. He was dismissed for a challenging attitude (every addict struggles with a challenging attitude). Six weeks after being expelled he was dead. We’re in Utah, the rehab was in Georgia. My son was found unconscious, and later I learned that he had no brain waves remaining. The longest and loneliest flight of my life. Year two was much harder for both his mother and I, I wish you the best to find normalcy. God bless!

Great video. I'm about to turn 31 years old. I just lost my wife, whom had been with me for 12 years. She lost the battle to cancer. I miss her so much. It hurts SO much. Your video helped a lot. Be strong!

@ericho3624

6 жыл бұрын

mazivness I just lost my wife two days ago, she is 32, I am 31. Bcos of cancer also, I know how you feel to witness the wife getting weaker day by day and all the treatment, results, emotional, etc..no word can fully express how painful our heart is.

thank you for sharing. i lost my wife and i did not know this level of sadness existed