Thank you for this video and for Kelly Bills sharing his grief. I too lost my wife. She was diagnosed with Stage 4 Cancer in July of this year and passed away in my arms just under a month later. It's been 5 months since and I too am living minute by minute as Kelley described. We were married 25 years. We built a life together and now I don't see anything meaningful in the future. He had a lot of parallels to my experience with my grief, and how him and his wife's life was. I felt like everything he said matched our life together. Except that, we didn't have kids, and he is so blessed to have them and can see his wife's attributes in his sons. Thank you both for putting this out there. Too many of us men who lose our spouses we loved dearly are sometimes forgotten. Thank you again 🙏🏻

@telelsky

Ай бұрын

I lost my wife jan this year 2024 and i feel i can feel you and Kelly. So relieved to have …...

@philaman1972

6 күн бұрын

My condolences.

@philaman1972

6 күн бұрын

@@telelsky My condolences.

@RobertJung-bj3fo

Күн бұрын

It's so fucking hard i lost my best friend Amy my wife why the fuck do we got to go though this shit

@philaman1972

Күн бұрын

@@RobertJung-bj3fo My condolences. I cannot even begin to imagine.

Today is 1 month since my husband suddenly died in my arms. I knew when I was trying to revive him that he was gone. They worked on him for so long, I knew.... I can't get the visions out of my head. I don't know how, after 28 years, to live without him! I am broken! I want to hug him, I want to smell him, I want to talk to him again! I don't know how to do this! I have dreamt of him one time, and i could feel him. My head buried in his chest, feeling his arms holding me. I want to dream of him like that every night, and im afraid I won't. The pain is unbearable. 💔

@dellasmith6960

3 ай бұрын

I’m so sorry for your lose. I just lost my wife of 4 years, 4 months ago. I just had my first dream about her Tuesday gone. I hope me and you have many dreams of our spouse because the pain in grief is unbearable. Her birthday is tomorrow. So if you can please pray for me.

@newyork6437

2 ай бұрын

@@dellasmith6960 ..i prayed for the both of you.i lost my wife a few weeks ago after #41 years of marriage.Life without her is'nt worth living to me.Had a gun in my hand more than once being ex-military.The empty house with her stuff everywhere makes me feel like i got hit with a sledge hammer every time i walk into the house.May God Bless you and give you strength.

@newyork6437

2 ай бұрын

I understand you and i can't even see her in a dream no matter how hard i try.=(

@michaelbsarmiento

2 ай бұрын

How are you holding up?

@moochnhowzn

27 күн бұрын

@@newyork6437 it’s not living it feels so lonely and empty and pointless. I have been here for nearly 2 months and it feels like everyday takes forever

My son died February 18,23 at home that morning of heart complications. My daughter-in-law heard an awful sound coming their bedroom, She tried CPR but being a litte girl she was afraid she wasn't pushing hard enough, 911 stayed on the line until the ambulance arrived. She called me I met her at the hospital at 6 am.Sorry but Val died. They were boyfiend and girlfriend when he was 16 she was 14. Throughout high school they dated, They had 2 awesome boys at the time one 11 one 14. My daughter-in-law has experienced everything he has spoken. His death changed her and she is still grieving. She loves him so much still today. She believes also she will see him again.

@naomisgram1

4 күн бұрын

😢

My wife was diagnosed with stage 4 gallbladder cancer April 27, 2023. Chemo did nothing to slow the disease. She was placed on in-home hospice October 17. My daughter, her daughter and I provided 24/7 care for her the last two weeks of her life. She passed away on the morning of December 21, 2023 with me and our daughters by her side, holding her hands. Darla and I were only together for 6 years, married for 4. In that short amount of time, we packed more love in than most do in a lifetime. We were, without a doubt, MADLY in love - my kids, her kids and all our friends always told us so. Her daughter described it as a "relationship for the ages". My daughter once joked that she came to visit, not to visit but to watch Darla and I interact - she said it was a beautiful kind of bond we had. It's been just under 2 months, and these have been my hardest days. At 2:00 in the video, Kelly says there is hope; I do believe that. He also says there is light at the end of the tunnel, but for me, the tunnel is very long and very dark...but I cling on to the hope and know it will get better. I will never forget my true love and will carry her in my heart for the rest of my life. If you're going through this, do know you can grieve with hope. It's a long, lonely road that you have to take one step at a time, one day at a time. Don't be afraid to reach out to friends, family or complete strangers at grief help lines. They are there to help, if only by listening to your story and struggles. Best to all.

Lost my lovely wife of 46 years on 10-24-23, god bless you, we were best friends

I lost my wife recently.. I’m so broken😭😭💔💔I’m dreading going to her funeral. Don’t know if I can handle it.. it’s too much.. I can’t believe she’s gone.. I love her so much 😭😭💔💔. Loved her more than anything.. she was my everything 😭😭💔💔

@dellasmith6960

3 ай бұрын

I’m sorry for your lose. I’m in the same boat as you right now. 😢please keep going.

@Mimithegr8

2 ай бұрын

Loved him more than life. Needed him more than air. 😢

@philaman1972

6 күн бұрын

My condolences.

28:21 This is absolutely the most soul crushing thing I’ve ever heard

@GeoffOdom-nn4ez

6 күн бұрын

Yes it is, but it is true. I have not felt my wife or dreamt of her since she died 3 weeks ago. It kills me.

I lost my husband of 31 years on Sept 27! This is so hard. One day he was here, the next day he was gone. My heart is broken.

I am here because I just recently lost my wife suddenly. It's only been 3 weeks ago she passed away. She was 48, I am 52, and we had our entire adult lives to live and love each other. Her death has shattered my outlook on life. We have two children (18 & 19) but they will move on to have their own lives soon. The thought of not having her here anymore is devastating. We were so in love it was sick. Never went anywhere without the other. She went on work trips with me so we would not have to be apart. I am heartbroken and would give any amount of anything to have her back.

@michellefrench6617

22 сағат бұрын

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I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my partner of 12 years, Steve, a month ago. He is the love of my life. I desperately wanted to see him in dreams or feel him but I haven't had any signs. I had one dream where we were out walking and our sons were there. He told me that I had to carry on doing nice things with the boys. I said I couldn't and it seemed disrespectful. He told me I had no choice now. I don't know if that was just my mind or if it was him.

My life is a constant torture since the death of my Husband Robert on 07 September 2022. He had an integrity that very few people have. I would marry the same man every time. ❤️To all in a state of grief and other sufferings.

@McAdder441

5 ай бұрын

❤😢 My heart goes out to you. I lost my wife this year on August 12. I know what you mean, I would marry my wife over and over again. She can't be replaced.

@rachelwesterman1223

3 ай бұрын

That's how I feel. I was so lucky to have him. I can't believe I lost him at 41. I loved every minute we were together.

@ariaahmadi7864

2 күн бұрын

💔🖤

Thank you for sharing this, your story. I lost my wife 15 years ago from cancer. I just want to tell you and all the broken hurting people who are watchhng this so soon after the death of loved ones. The pain does get better. Life does feel so slow for years and everyone grieves differently but though time doesnt heal every wound it does reduce the pain. But go after the pain year after year. Talk to those around who understand because they have suffered loss. God will help us heal. So will our dearest friends and family. But never stop reaching out. Even now 15 years later im remarried and i still need to keep healing. The pain goes away mostly but that place in you that loves that person never goes away completely and thats ok. And ive learned there are levels of healing. Our brain and heart have to block the most painful memories at first because its too much. But eventually we can go back and walk through those horrible memories and deal with them. Keep going... Keep healing.

I lost my wife suddenly on Friday 5th January 2024 the morning in hospital it was a big shock to me my heart felt like it was broken to pieces of losing her specially how I gonna tell the boys that she has passed on it still hurts but I need to be strong for them but we trying to cope with the support of family and friends but we're together for 18 years and still had big plans to continue to strengthen our future but God had other plans that we must not question but in due time will understand have a blessed day god bless

And this is why I’ve stayed single for 30 years because the sheer thought of loss is too much after losing my brother and parents when I was young. God bless

What a beautiful testimony. May God strength you. Be strong God is faithful. Amen

I can totally relate to this podcast, my spouse and best friend of 20 years passed away 1 month ago. Shelley was having back surgery, she died during the procedure, I can't even begin to tell you how I felt when the doctors came out and told me. In one moment your shattered into a thousand pieces. Our grandson whom we were raising is totally destroyed, he's 13 yrs old. I don't even know how to begin to pick up the pieces. The greatest advice from this podcast is to be present as you stated, don't take anything for granted. When I left for the hospital I had no idea my whole world would be changed.

@rollercoasterpodcast

6 ай бұрын

I am sorry for your loss.

@McAdder441

5 ай бұрын

😥 I am so sorry for your loss. Your story is heartbreaking.

I lost my girlfriend a month ago, after more than 14 years of relationship, 9 of them living together. She was 38, I just turned 36 two weeks ago. She had a flu, but was also infected with a strep A bacteria. She went from that flu to dying unexpectedly of sepsis in just 2 days. We were so happy together, not a single fight in all those years. We had so many dreams… now nothing makes sense, everything is pointless. I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel right now… Thank you for sharing your story, Kelly, although it's hard to hear that 1 year after your loss it's not getting any better 😭

@McAdder441

5 ай бұрын

Your loss is heartbreaking, and I feel your pain. I lost my wife to cancer 5 months ago. It was a sudden diagnosis with only less than a month when we found out about the stage 4 diagnosis that she passed away. I wanted to comment on yours because I too am lost. That nothing makes sense and everything is pointless. We built our lives together and that future no longer exists. It's devastating. I am trying to think of a new life, and doing something totally different, but I am totally broken. I just want to let you know that there are those of us who are in the same boat. Not sure if being in a sinking boat and looking over to the other guy on your right helps, and realizing we're both going down. But, I just wanted to share with you.

@serpadre87

5 ай бұрын

@@McAdder441 Thank you for sharing that and I'm so sorry for your loss… Knowing I'm not alone in this boat, even if it's sinking, definitely helps, so thank you for that. I hope we can all get through this and find a way to, somehow, enjoy life again even without our loved ones. I want to believe that's possible, but it's also true that many days I just don't want to live anymore. I hate this 😭 I was already happy and had a wonderful life, I don't know why it was taken from me… Take care of yourself

@McAdder441

5 ай бұрын

I hear you. I too would rather be next to her in heaven. But I know she would not want me to give up on my life. So I just cry two, three, or more times daily. I agree with you, I hope we can get through this and find happiness again. Peace be with you ❤

I'm in Flagstaff. On 1/5/24 my wife of 20 years was fighting a minor flu, the kind the kids bring home every holiday season. She was feeling a bit funky so I bundled her up in her new Christmas blanket, she had her cat Mandu in her lap and her ear nibbling rottweiler Tyson at her feet. She was in her recliner, I got her some cold meds and set up a humidifier for her and took our semi verbal autistic son to the other end of the house so that she could get some rest. When I came back a couple of hours later to take the dog out so she could rest her lips were white. She was gone at 52 from a stupid f'ing flu. Influenza 2009A according to the medical examiner, even though she had the flu shot. I 'retired' at 38 so that I could be with my oldest son from a previous marriage (I had custody) and our new son who turned out to be semi verbal autistic. My wife, Kim, was just a sweet person. I don't know any other way to describe her. She was a goofy dork who obsessed with feeding people, gardening, critters and our sons. Just a loveable goofball/dork who happened to be a solid looker, modeled in her youth. When I found her I attempted cpr even though she was clearly gone and rigor had already started in her hands and neck though it had only been a couple of hours. There is something indescribable about touching a body, especially a body of someone you loved. Attempting cpr is on someone who's gone is a horror. Some things can't be unseen. She must have passed within minutes of me tucking her in. Our autistic son has an obsession with recording everything on his iPad, makes it interesting to use the restroom, had recorded me getting him his dinner, if you could call heating up a red baron frozen pizza cooking. He also recorded me tucking in my wife and her saying 'thank you and I love you' before we went to the other end of the house. I have to give a big nod to the cops that showed up. They helped me keep it together so that I didn't freak out my autistic son. They helped me keep him from seeing anything bad. They were wonderful people. Her death was bad. Still can't make sense of it. But our son's vid shows her smiling and thanking me and saying I love you. Then she passed in her sleep. I can't understand it but I also can't be angry or guilty about anything. As several people have told me, they can't imagine a better/easier way to go. Grief sucks, never really experienced it before but grief really really sucks. Trying to explain to a special needs child that Mama is never coming home is a type of pain that I never knew existed. Thank you for sharing this vid. I'm not a sports guy, don't give a crap about that stuff but my boy has a brass set, no way I could speak so clearly. I'll pray for you brother. I'm still FUBAR hoping to find my way to SNAFU. I hear you. I'm gutted, I'm an empty shell, but faking my way through each day for our sons. Hopefully someday I can be whole again. Not optimistic, but hopeful.

Thank you for sharing your amazing story. 🙏🏼❤️

Fantastic interview! Lost my husband nearly three months ago after 33 years. It is all about relationships. Nothing else matters. Although not traumatic it was a long goodbye and without children, the legacy dies with him. But I will cherish the good times ❤ sorry for your loss Kelly. Your wife sounds like a wonderful woman!

My condolences for your loss!

I'm deeply saddened by your loss. 😢 My heartfelt condolences to all who have lost a loved one. May the Lord give you all much needed strength and comfort as you navigate on your journey. 🙏🏻💔🙏🏻

My husband passed also, it the most torturous way to live every day. Take care

My condolences for you both, the heartache is sometimes unbearable. Your grief journey will be a personal one of trying to heal a broken heart of which most people do not understand. I feel your pain, my loss was a year and a half ago and still the realization of him never coming back still does not seem real.

I lost my husband recently and suddenly and I so wish it was me and not him we are best friends. I miss him so much. Thank you for this video.

Wow! This broke me. I cannot believe how strong this man is. Indeed, *everyone* has to experience trauma in life.

@kellybills i prayed for dreams of my late wife... It happened a coupke times over 5 years plus..and each time i woke up thsnking God and feeling like i was so blessed to have a moment of her again. It hurt but it was so incredible. I think you will have some of those moments. And they will be a beautiful surprise. Peobably for your boys also. Unfortunately we can't make it happen. Hope will come back. You will make it and the pain will get less. Blessings to you and your boys

I know how you feel, it will be three years this August when my husband passed suddenly. The unexpected is devastating. I know the feeling of feeling lost, a part of you gone, accepting the reality that he/she will never walk through the front door. This type of grief is emotional and a roller coaster. But if it wasn't for God, I would be lost. God bless you. You and your boys are in my prayers for daily peace, strength, and comfort.

Kelly I don't know if you will read this but you are the definition of a man How you described the outlook after this event and the "leadership" aspect as one of your values and the fact that you show up despite everything 4 Months ago I lost my girlfriend at the age of 28 due to a nasty cancer. Every second of my day my thoughts go to her and at the moment it is just about figuring stuff out, minute by minute. Rethinking the last moments a lot at the moment and it crushes me. I felt your story deeply and I salute you for everything Thank you for sharing this

@rollercoasterpodcast

6 ай бұрын

I am truly sorry for your loss. Strength to you.

@McAdder441

5 ай бұрын

I totally agree. I lost my wife 5 months ago. So sorry for you loss.

@SimonTrageser

5 ай бұрын

@@McAdder441 I have you in my thoughts man I feel you and I am deeply sorry what happened to you

Lost my wife 2 months after we got married and 2 days after she gave birth to our first child together. We were both 24. Its was 08/11/2023 my mind is in shambles I’m trying to just focus on our kid but I also need to grieve so I be there emotionally for our kid. It feels like I’m sinking in quicksand.

@rollercoasterpodcast

5 ай бұрын

I am sorry for your loss. More strength to you.

@McAdder441

5 ай бұрын

❤😢 My wife died August 12 this year. It's unbelievably hard. Nothing can be said to ease the pain. I know. My heart goes out to you. So sorry.

@suegardner3588

4 ай бұрын

I am much older than you but I lost my husband you said it perfectly. My mind is in shambles. Sorry, it makes me feel not quite so alone.

@moxymouse1231

3 күн бұрын

❤️🙏❤️🙏

I came across this video in my own effort to deal with my own grief and the loss of my husband. We were together for 27 years. He passed away 6 years ago from cancer. Your story touched me deeply, thank you for sharing and I am so sorry.

@rollercoasterpodcast

5 ай бұрын

I am deeply sorry for your loss.

@luzedie1275

5 ай бұрын

@@rollercoasterpodcast Thank you for your condolences and for taking the time to show you care.

This story is so similar to mine with my sons passing 7 years ago... only difference is that I can’t say that he went peacefully which still haunts me til this day.

Did he ever say what his wife passed from? Loving this channel so far. Praying it continues to grow and reach more viewers. So great.

@rollercoasterpodcast

5 ай бұрын

Yes, his wife passed away due to heart arrhythmia. Thanks for the support

Too many people are just suddenly dying.

Kelly I'm so sorry for the loss of your wife. Can I ask where you got your hat? The meaning behind it so fits my Tina that passed 4 weeks ago.

I’m so sorry for ur loss I lost my wife 2 weeks ago I can’t go on. !!!!

I don't know who you are but i lost my husband to a rare cancer, one day at a time is all we can do, also have two young children life is not fair but Jesus Christ has been their for me

I also had a very traumatic experience losing my partner when he had cardiac arrest while he’s sleeping last March 17, 2024!We’ve been together for over 2 years and we are happy together and his passing is really sudden bcoz he is always healthy.I lost him so fast like in less than 10 mins of the arrest he was gone.😢😢😢I missed him everyday.I feel so alone now that he’s gone.I know that he is always by my side.I can feel it everyday.May my love Niño Cruz have eternal rest.

Thats tough man

😭😭😭😭so sorry man

I lost my husband 4 years ago we had been together for over 30 years we had 3 daughters and we were his life as he was ours, we miss him tremendously, I hold on just for the girls he got to hold his grandkids which I thank God for, I wish he could have had more time. My heart hurts so much our youngest is about to graduate I think grief it’s hitting her now I believe she threw herself into school but now it’s coming to an end she is breaking me down because I stuffed this feeling down so far but it’s coming back, we are getting sick a lot I know we are just grieving, lord help us please.

I'm trying, I live also minute by minute. My husband passed 3 months ago. Our anniversary came this month, Christmas, I made it through Thanksgiving.....I feel the statement he said..... this has destroyed me.

@rollercoasterpodcast

5 ай бұрын

I am sorry for your loss. You got this

@McAdder441

5 ай бұрын

❤😢 Christmas was very hard. It was my first one without my wife. My heart goes out to you.

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i am so very sad, i miss my husband so much, not fair. I as well live minute to minute

“Then you’re just left alone” … dealing with that is agonizing at least. But Is now my reality after my boyfriend died 4 weeks before giving birth to our daughter.

@ariaahmadi7864

2 күн бұрын

My heart goes out to you 💔

My husband of 52 years dropdied in front of me and then lost my eldest son A few years later of prostate cancer

Your wife and my beloved husband were cut from the same cloth. Goodness. 4 mos for me. The pain is unbearable.

i lost my wife on 1-13-19 she had muscular dystrophy. i took me over 3 years to let go. she went to bed and didnt wake up. i really thought she would out live me she was 20 years younger than me. i was 40 and she was 20 we were together 12 years.

@McAdder441

5 ай бұрын

❤ I am sorry for your loss 😢

My most hand some most strong kind pure husband got killed suddenly by 2 stupid young teen boys (gang)in Murray Utah over our own parking spots I’m destroyed our he was everything to me I mean everything after his loss our life got destroyed I can’t be the same mom same person to our 4 kids I’m so scared to live this life with out him he was our protector

My heart hurts for you.....I know how you feel....I lost my son ....if it weren't for Jesus my Savior I could have not coped.

My God this sucks

Was she vaxxed?

Loosing a wife…hat says ‘good’? Mmmm….

@helenbotelho9517

Ай бұрын

He explained the hat towards the end

@reneegonseth7072

3 күн бұрын

Its deeply personal, but I still wonder what happened and why? Did he ask? Does he know? What is it like to not have some insight for closure? Heartbreaking.