While I may not be the most consistent viewer, I must say, these videos as of late have been really touching. Not only are they relatable but they give me hope and piece of mind when it comes to the noise of the world and existentialist thinking that goes on. Thank you for that and keep doing what you're doing man

@timisontube

10 ай бұрын

Agree

@davidh2550

9 ай бұрын

Absolute gems

@daramcdonagh4247

9 ай бұрын

Well said

@babatunde1208

4 ай бұрын

🫂

The Place Where He Inserted The Blade by Black Country, New Road provides such a beautiful instrumental that makes this video so wonderful

@mega4488

10 ай бұрын

yes. Housecat keeps making the best covers for the best music and then not releasing them outside of a sisyphus video it drives me insane

@michaelhays

10 ай бұрын

One of the best songs I've ever heard!

@coqui7247

10 ай бұрын

Agreed. It touched me in the original video.

@leaf6623

10 ай бұрын

was just about to say this

@samueldalessandro2038

10 ай бұрын

​@@michaelhayscouldn't agree more

its been years and i always like listening to you talk sisyphus, in the park, in between classes, sometimes your voice sounds so familiar, so comforting like an old friends. and sometimes when i listen to your thoughts i feel like i can love you

@chuggaa100

10 ай бұрын

Whoa

@Ambivlaent

10 ай бұрын

Same this voice brings me back to myself and I take this little time to reflect

@khalilkafieh8099

10 ай бұрын

I think these videos are really cool art too but what you’re feeling might be the consequence of a parasocial relationship healthy or not isnt for me to say

@gloomygguk528

10 ай бұрын

@@khalilkafieh8099 love doesn't have to be romantic, just an acceptance of a person as a whole

@samueldgutierrez

10 ай бұрын

lovely!!

I love this video!! Dear Sisyphus i just graduated from college in Italy. I put you in the dedication. I wrote “to my parents, my friends and sisyphus”. To thank you and the idea of Camus to face the tragedy of life with absurd courage. Courage is what was missing in my life and i think its whats miasing in yours!! Fear is the most natural emotion in humans. Its diabolical to let fear guide you though. Have the courage to love despite the fear of being hurt. Have the courage to dare what you might like do with people judging you for your unreasonable decision. Exercise your resilience to pain. And you’ll be the freest man in the world. It requires mental fortitude and a lot of failure. But thats life man! Decide to own that decision! Very big thanks from italy 🇮🇹🇮🇹🇮🇹

@andrewsteezy9765

10 ай бұрын

I ain’t reading all dat but I’m sure it’s wholesome

@JeroenCoelen

10 ай бұрын

@@andrewsteezy9765 it's 6 sentences...

@meryllejoyercilla5387

10 ай бұрын

I love this so much, congrats on graduating!

@andrewsteezy9765

10 ай бұрын

@@JeroenCoelenstill too much for my liking

@enzodapan5016

10 ай бұрын

congrats man 🎉 all fax there

Thank you very much. I hope that you all are having a nice summer!.

@bluethingable

10 ай бұрын

It’s okay

@iwontbesilenced2321

10 ай бұрын

best summer of my life

@droher1344

10 ай бұрын

I'm not, but I appreciate the nice wishes. Have a good day, kind stranger

@apotatoflewaround3085

10 ай бұрын

good but tough one, thanks and you too :)

@noraruiz7876

10 ай бұрын

@@droher1344 you too distant fella. I hope that whatever you're going through that you are at least safe.

That quote you made "I am not a problem to be solved" hits hard

As your name implies, your channel and yourself portrays the indomitable human spirit perfectly. Thanks for being an amazing youtuber and for being so relatable on a humanitarian level. Remember to love yourself and to Hydrate! Hope you have a good time

@northward6971

10 ай бұрын

I know the message is to the channel, but thanks man. As a random viewer scrolling through the comments you reminded me to love myself and to hydrate... and sometimes it's easy to forget I need both those things. So yeah, thanks, man.

@oscar7014

9 ай бұрын

second that @@northward6971

“This is enough” simple but a profound thing to say about how we could view our own life. There is such a thing as not being satisfied but still being content with what we have in the present.

I needed this channel 20 years ago. I think the only information that I have learned worth passing on is: what we experience in life isn't unique, but how we express it can be. Cheers!

@RichardHarlos

10 ай бұрын

If I may add to what you wrote: what we experience often results more from our interpretation of things than from the things themselves. Think for a moment how many times we unconsciously project our inner experience as if it's some external attribute. We might say, "That was the best steak!" However, what we almost certainly ought to have said is something more along the following: "I enjoyed that steak so much, I honestly can't remember a time when I enjoyed steak more." The former is us projecting our experience onto the steak, labeling it as 'the best'. The latter is us processing our experience as just that: *our experience,* and then taking a moment to find the words to share that inner experience with another. Projection leads to all sorts of difficulty, whereas expressing our experience as _our experience_ leads to much less difficulty. We can argue about whether any particular steak is 'the best', but we cannot argue about whether you ever enjoyed another steak as much as you enjoyed this one. As you go about your life, notice how much you and those around you project their inner experience onto things and people outside of themselves. It's ubiquitous.

you know, im glad i get to exist in this lifetime with people like you. I’m sure others can say the same. This video is amazing, and it speaks to me. Don’t mean to get all gooey but i’ve done some pretty bad stuff in my past. I’ve hurt others, i’ve hurt myself, i’ve ruined relationships, etc. That was a couple years ago (maybe 3-4), but every day it still feels like the day after i realized what i had done do the people closest to me, the people i loved with all my heart. And yet, a couple years later the guilt still eats at me the same way. It knows me inside and out, and knows what buttons to push and when. I’ve spent my time since then trying to be a better human, trying to change. Because, i think its the best way i can show how terribly sorry i am. Yet i still find myself in the same head i was in that very day. I don’t know what I really expected from myself, did i expect to be magically transported into a different body? Hours of journaling, searching on Quora and Reddit for answers, talking to a therapist i never truly opened myself up to, traveling far away, trying to surround myself with different people i never truly connected with, trying to find a new hobby, listening to different music, and trying to analyze a past i never completely remembered still left me in the same little jail cell full of shame and guilt. I like to think i’m not afraid of what other people think of me, and on the surface it seems so. But the reason i can never truly open up to others is BECAUSE i am terribly afraid of what they would think of me after. So i suffer in silence and a deep-rooted loneliness. I’ve considered everything that usually 16 year olds shouldn’t even be considering (I still feel like im 15, my birthday was a couple days ago). I have found no peace, no magical item in a mythical forest that can change my life instantly or give me the answer, i showed up empty-handed, nothing to prove and nobody to prove anything to. So I spend my nights alone now, I look up at the stars (i don’t wish on them anymore). And I think of how cold our universe is, no answer, no meaning. But i think that makes it all feel so much more special. We don’t know exactly who we are, or what we are doing. All on this spinning planet together, unsure of anything deep down. And maybe some of us are sure of something, we are all just the same species trying to survive each day (well, most of us). We are here together and while some things divide us, i find solace in places like these. Your channel, youtube comment sections on Minecraft parodies from 2015 (it’s nice to see others who are also reminiscing their childhood), people who again and again open their hearts up for others, and catching fireflies and showing them to my dog. Nobody has to read any of this, i don’t really expect anyone to. I just want you to kinda know that your videos have changed people’s perspective and in most cases, their life. You don’t see people who can do that too often. But i hope u find your groove in life, and peace if you haven’t already. Sorry this is so long, but thanks for lookin at it :)

@xman8908

2 ай бұрын

How is it going now?

@-_--bp6nf

Ай бұрын

I'm 15 too, it's nice to see I'm not the only one my age struggling

How are you exactly who I am. How do you know me better than I do myself. These past videos have helped me understand myself like I never did and I've decided writing, you inspire me. Thank you for this Sisyphus and I hope it'll all be worth it for all of us in the end

@shavono8402

10 ай бұрын

I'm guessing it's because we all share similar experiences. Even though these feelings seem individual and unique, they're common and we're not alone in having them. We're not alone in what we feel.

@niggabeans720

10 ай бұрын

It’s like we all live the same lives just thorough different lenses best way I’ve got to explain it

@stevencere

10 ай бұрын

@@shavono8402human beings are social creatures bound here by no desire of our own. Forced into consciousness we must depict the world around us. More than ever it’s important to realize how similar we are rather than different. Part of the human experience is denying the human experience. That I am different than others and have experienced things no one understands. It’s hard but comforting to realize we are not alone in this existence. We have people

@guerrerohr5500

10 ай бұрын

Literally me 😎😎😎

@anorakquest4004

10 ай бұрын

he’s been wayyyy too real according to my life too, he always has perfect timing. Maybe in a way we all need it

This hit on a level I wasn’t expecting, and I’m an active viewer. I think you’re spot on-we get lost in trying to identify a binary idea of who we are, rather than acknowledging it’s ok to not know everything about ourselves, knowing deep down that we probably never will. And instead of seeing that as an issue and then dedicating yourself to figuring out, you choose to ride the journey of life and figure it out with the motions of life. It’s a lot healthier to let life happen naturally then to chase an idea that you’re not even sure exists. Giving your life this binary identification of who you “are” is only limiting yourself to what a self help book told you late one night, rather than an actual picture of the person you find yourself becoming. It’s ok to not know everything about yourself. Nobody does. All we can do is our best for ourselves and others.

most of the video contains white spaces pictures, but those popping colors are so bright they leave marks on your eye, and for the next few moments you saw white with a colory ghost of what comes before. I don't know if you did that intentionally, but that seems really interesting and fit the video pretty well. nice

The place he inserted the blade in the back is so beautiful

Thank you. You are NOT a problem to be fixed, a to do list, a neverending problem. You’re enriching the world by being yourself. There is so much info everywhere, it’s overwhelming. We’ve forgotten to be just humans ❤️ loving, living, flawed.

@ButWhyMe...

10 ай бұрын

We didn't forget to be human, it was drilled out of us when we're young for purposes of making us docile and obedient (for the profit of capitalism of course).

Sisyphus, i love your music so much

@Kablistikai

10 ай бұрын

The main song is actually a cover of the song “The Place Where He Inserted The Blade” a beautifully sad but amazing song by Black Country, New Road

@andyzhanmusic

10 ай бұрын

The music is made by @Housecat00

@bunbynoy

10 ай бұрын

boosting this comment with a reply

Man, this really hit home. Glad I’m not the only one who’s been bouncing around with ideologies, philosophies, and identities.

Probably my favorite quote I've ever heard came from No Man's Sky. "Existence is beautiful, if you let it be. Life is not a question. There doesn't need to be an answer." I want to say, this channel, more than pretty much anything else I've encountered online, brings me hope. The complex simplicity of the ideas you share and the beauty of the way you put them into words are, well, beautiful. You've been an important support in my journey - a journey I'm just starting, but am hopeful will get better. Thank you.

I feel like your videos are like little messages from a friend. Not someone you see everyday, the one you swear you need to go to coffee with more. Thank you for your videos, they are getting me through a hard time

@andrearupe8094

9 ай бұрын

Beautiful comment

More Black Country, New Road as background music please I'm loving this!

the instrumental in the begining of the video is from "the place where he inserted the blade" by black country new road, im so happy i rocognize it

This video has been the most liberating feeling I have felt in a long time. Every word is so relatable and true to me. I found it at the perfect time and go back whenever doubts start creeping up on me. I'm constantly reminded that no matter where I am, there is beauty around me. I am enough, and life is enough. Nothing needs to be solved... because the only problems were the ones I created in my mind to deal with the absurdity of life and the human condition. To anyone who sees this: please stop searching endlessly for love and validation. Love is abundant, and you are here because the universe deemed you worthy from the beginning. You do not need to prove yourself. You, too, are enough.

The visual of the bee and flower switching colours with each other as you talked about giving and being given to is very moving

Life is not a mystery. Life is mastery. Careful what you live for. Tomorrow is anxiety. Yesterday is depression. Today is presence. Master it. Don’t let it be a mystery.

Sisyphus somehow your video's always match up to what I am thinking or dealing with in my life when I watch them for the first time. I appreciate coming back to your channel every time, thank u !!

the timing of these uploads seem to coincide with my life?? man what is happening 😭

@dirtysploof5890

10 ай бұрын

Yeah we in a simulation or somethin fam

@May0maynot

10 ай бұрын

Fr

I'm locked inside too but I can't write, do art, I can't create anything, I have nothing inside I can show in any way. All I can do is keep existing until I don't anymore, but I don't even want to wait

U definitely struck gold with this video. You put into words things i have been thinking about for a while. I believe that this sort of curious and vulnerable attitude to life and ones self is one of the keys to a happy life

I just want you to know how grateful I'm for your existence, you truly speak out for my soul. Thank you Sisyphus.

Well it's good to know I'm not the only one who overthinks every single aspect of my life experience. You have made a living out of it, kudos!

Are we scared of a world where we're needed?

All of these videos, the big one hour one, they're all helping me go through a hard time emotionally right now. Thank you.

I’ve been pestering myself by reading the unhinged blog of a Québécois Thomist Catholic and I needed this as a way to remember that there is enough-ness in my own life- as my sibling recalls, a hank green quote about short term fuel. This beautiful video soothes me. thank you. Also, I detect some influence from Stirner here - the creative nothing, the anti idealism, the rejection of religious causes of self-limitation. I appreciate that you still retain the importance of Aristotlean moral ethics - we have impersonal goods - while also acknowledging and empowering the Personal goods of change and dynamism that make us Human.

its okay to want more for yourself, its okay to want to better yourself and become more of who you want to be for yourself but know that the you that you are right now is every bit as valid a YOU as you will or want to be in ten years. those insecurities you feel are a part of you and can't be excised, accept who you are an that you can be anyone you want to be. YOU are enough. nobody ever gets to tell you that the you you've made for yourself isn't the real you.

BCNR in the background just makes this hit so much harder. Very cool!

And the award for „The video I have never thought anyone was able to produce because it revolves about an oddly specific personal matter but it was produced anyway and hit such a bullseye as not to be seen even through the most advanced microscopes” goes here. Right here. You hit it.

Your content has always helped tremendously, but this video was genuinely eye opening. You just helped me to have multiple epiphanies in the span of 7 minutes. I’m speechless right now.

beautiful, i enjoy looking through as many angles as i can about life/reality

The inclusion of the place where he inserted the blade is amazing

@matsch8154

9 ай бұрын

exactly what i thought. i just realized halfway through the video and when i did it made me so happy somehow.

Whenever I feel lost and burnt out, I'm deeply grateful to be able to turn to your videos. Your philosophies, words of encoragement and comfort help me find a way back to myself. Thank you for the effort you put!

The point about your rigidity of self denying you unity with the world reminds me of a similar thought about deadlines and goals I have had recently. I have a habit of planning my weeks out by the hour which has its own benefit to be sure; however, lately I’ve felt this rigidity has led to a stifling of my intuitive/fluid side. It’s like I was putting a damper on my soul in a way (very dramatic I know). I didn’t realize that by such strict planning, in a way, I was denying myself life as you said. At times, I was trying to pound a square peg in a round hole. Thanks for the insight about denying that unity with life! Peace

would never expect to hear a black country new road piano instrumental on a sisyphus55 video

You are gonna be the greatest old man of all time. Working on and healing yourself so honestly so young, you'll have nothing left to improve in old age. I'll tell my kids, go on up the hill and find old man Sisyphus. Find him at the debates at the Parthenon. He'll tell you how to lead a good life. Learn from him

Whenever I am faced with the constand dread of who I am and trying to put things in place, often simply letting go and letting it out in the most simple manner is the happiest solution We as people overcomplicate everything The beautfy of life isn't solving it, but living it and seeing things through It's really so much more simple than we all make it out to be That is also one of the reasons children are generally happier. They aren't yet tied with the desire to fix themselves, they just are. And contrary to popular belief, being a child isn't the only way to be happy, those days may be gone but they don't HAVE to remain as your life's magnum opus of happiness, you can still learn from them. Sure you won't have the same level of unconditional security and freedom that being a child is supposed to offer, but tbh navigating through adult life, having learned more, experienced more, frankly with more opportunities than you had as a child that we all couldn't wait to get, things can get even better from my experience. The important part is to just let yourself live and be and nothing more Just let go and stuff I also struggle with over-complication, but that is simply something that'll fix itself when you allow yourself to lose yourself

Bro this black country new road rendition is incredible

This speaks to me so much, and it's so beautifully crafted, the content, the quotes, the music 😙👌 chefs kiss dude ♥️

I have watched some of your videos such as the desire to simply not exist previously and somehow wandered back into this space, these incredible pieces you are making and i am truly grateful, because the last two, feeling unloveable and this is enough have truly hit home. I rarely leave comments on videos but I just wanted to show my appreciation for the amazing work!

Great video man, Everyday we fear that something we've done just isn't enough but nothing truly will be enough.

the place where he inserted the blade is THE sad song

New spaces and new people always give you a false sense of safety. That the things others believe about you is yet in your control, since they know nothing of you. You have never let your guard down here.

It is very very hard for me to cry, but this made me cry hard, thank you man

Ive felt alone recently and your video made me feel like theres someone i can relate with, thank you. Working on positive self change and the kind of person I aim to be for my self and the people I love. This video reminds me of being human

The ‘this is enough’ gave me goose bumps.

I cannot believe how accurate this is to my own experience, it's like you took the words right out of my own head! I thought I was alone in this but it seems many people have had a similar experience, which is a good thing. Phenomenal is all I can say!

"being then is not a problem yo be solved, but rather a mystery to be experienced."

BCNR X Sisyphus 55 fav collab of 2023

I have been following you for years. It is soothing, watching your videos remind me that there are so many who are going through the same journey as me.

Love BCNR, I was confused at first because this song is my alarm 😭

Thank you for all your videos Sisyphus, truly. You were the channel I've always been looking for, you speak my mind my the fears or issues I've been having since an early age, when I would have nobody else but myself. Really thank you. I'd like to be more precise on the very subject and things you talk about, but I'd like to do that properly and not in a superficial way, so I'm saving it for another time. Have a good day man.

About a year ago, I also came to this realisation. That I didn't know who I was. That despite all the self help and development that I had tried to undergo many years prior, i realised that I had completely missed the mark. That I eniterly missed the point. I watched a video one day that talked about a sense of identity, about building a strong sense of self about boundaries. At that point, although I knew such concepts existed and where 'important', I didn't realise that they were essential. That they were imperative to mental health and spiritual fullness. That without at least some sense of identity, life feels extremely turbulent and unpredictable. That you live in constant fear and hypervigilence. I started learning how to learn about yourself. How to build a strong identity. And it was scary at first, I went a couple days depressed because of realisations that I am alone. But then a few days later, beyond that realisation, I started to see the world for what it really was. I stopped distracting myself and just sat with myself. I started allowing myself to feel my emotions. I started listening. And I started thinking about what made me happy. I started thinking about how I could spend my day in a way that made me happy. And I did those things. And I realised, life is okay. Sometimes in the way of achieving happiness was fear and hard work. I realised those scary things where all in my head, and that if I pushed through, I could foster happiness for my future self. I think I realised that life was amazing. I started to understand why others thought so. I am a psychology student and recently touched upon existentialist philosophy. They have a key concept known as freedom and responsibility. I think freedom and responsibility summed up how in life, we are ultimately able to choose how to live however we want, meaning we are also able to determine the outcomes. We are able to control how we feel through our actions in a sense. But freedom also means responsibility. The freedom to act means we have to be responsible of both the actions themselves but also the outcomes they produce. Whether they bring happiness to ourselves or others, or inflict pain to ourselves or others. We should always be aware of our actions and where they lead us. This is important because unless you have a neurological impairment, we are all capable of happiness, peace and freedom in life. We just haven't learnt how to achieve that yet. You don't need to make outside changes to find peace and contentment. You just need to start listening within. Spend time with yourself. Date yourself. Learn to love yourself. If you were the last person to exist on earth, and you had a 100 years left to live, how would you live it?

I have been watching your videos on and off for a little more than 2 years now. Often I find some nugget of wisdom or words that I relate to, and I leave thinking "I have been solved," "this was the answer," or "I understand now." Inevitably I return to the same state of dreary contemplation and doubt, and I think that's fine. That's OK. Time and time again you seem to have spoken my thoughts. I appreciate all of your videos. Thanks Sisyphus.

I am very much enjoying these redux videos on the larger essay; it's easy to forget ideas or experiences in the high paced world of today. Especially in the case of a long form essay, unless *really* working through idea by idea, phrase by phrase, we quickly lose the point. Repetition holds a lot of weight in people's mind, it's why habits make up a large part of our person.

I resonate with u a lot 😭 feel less alone

its almost like youtube has made videos based on my journal its crazy to think someone is in such an uncannily similar situation to me you make truly good content, stuff that soothes the soul and opens the eyes, and most of all, is genuine i love you for what you do mr sisyphus55

Thank you Sisyphus from the bottom of my heart, you have made great reflections on things I didn’t thought of and have put in words many things I think about. You’ve made great art and helped lots of people. We are enough

This video came around just when I needed it. Existence is painful, yet it can be easier if we simply let our frames of "self-image" break to unite ourselves with the beauty of simply existing. Thank you for your ever-inspiring thoughts.

Out of all videos, this one plunged my heart, too close to home. I feel like those which harbor a mindset like this (which feels to be very exact between subjects) always get swept under with every other issue; it feels like it needs a specific solution to keep one atleast over the other side of that mental bar of eternal angst, and only few find out how to pull themselves up over it, never to share their secrets.

The most effective solution I’ve found for bad mental health is letting go of unreasonable desires. In this case, you got rid of your desire to perfect yourself. You were able to do this not because you don’t care, but because you know that it can never be done. It also helps when you know that feeding that desire will cause more suffering.

I'm currently not in a hard stage of my life tho, but listening to you as a method to develop my listening skill for the ielts seems to be a good choice. Nice vid as always, been a great help

I fucking love the Black Country New Road cover in the background

this brought me to tears wow. Keep making these amazing videos, thank you

>Hears three notes of The Place Where He Inserted the Blade >Tear up

I really love your videos, insightful and relatable

"gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha!" serendipity leads to pronoia which leads to more serendipity but you need the space within to embrace without

when you take a step back and look at it ....its true we're not broken ,we just dont know what to do with our lives .....because we're taught we have to do something meaningful or great with our lives.....just existing is enough....and we dont have to think about it....we just have to experience and continue to live thank you sisyphus for being yourself

I needed to hear this, I am enough, this IS enough, and even though my future holds a lot of uncertainty I am enough, I need to constantly remind myself this.

The power of 55 sisyphuses are behind me, there is no hill I can't ascend

"Being then is not a problem to be solved but rather a mystery to be experienced" I needed to hear this. I've been trying to chase the idea of me that it's not really me. The idea of trying to act such ways that I don't feel like it's me is considered as who I am and thus I tried to solve this. Kept in a cycle and then it resulted to nothing but emptiness of what I felt.

Great video! I agree with what you said towards the end of the video. Those moments when you are completely involved in the present moment without any motive, whether it be through enjoying your time with another, having fun with your friends and family, when you are in awestruck by a beautiful evening sky, or when you are simply being, in those moments you are not seeking anything, you and your problems are not there and for a brief moment you feel this moment is enough. Every moment is enough, the issue arises when we want each moment to contain that level of wholeness, which as Krishnamurti puts it, it is the movement of greed, that experience of wholeness becomes pleasure when you seek it. The wanting and seeking of those moments of freedom, wholeness, whichever word you want to use, those moments never happen again as long as one is seeking it, and those beautiful moments do indeed happen when you are not seeking anything, you are just there and out of nowhere comes the uninvited joy.

Hello I just want to say i really say that i really appreciate your videos. I first stumbled upon your videos when i was at the lowest point of my life. Needless to say im truly grateful. :)

A fixed mindset is never ideal. You're a brilliant man.

This alt version of that bcnr song in the background is sick.. fucking awesome video

@PenguinDrawz

10 ай бұрын

BCNR MENTIONED

Your content is what I have been looking for lately. Thank you for making this video 💌

This video came right when i needed.

I feel like people who call themselves professionals on one’s emotions are liars. They try to help you cope with it, they may have studied the mind how it thinks how it processes thoughts/emotions but In reality they have no clue of what their really talking about.

This calmed me down while suffering crowd induced anxiety. Thank you.

@themangle-laggle

10 ай бұрын

Are you ok?

This is exactly how I have been feeling lately but without really able to put my finger on, it let alone express it so beautifully and accurately like you just did. Thanks Sisyphus, wish you all the best

"I'm not broken... and I'm not alone" - Cyborg aka Victor Stone, ZSJL (2021)

Thanks for sharing and archieving your mental journey for the internet for free, dude. Even after you've found your peace and answer, and probably isn't interested in this kinda content anymore, these vids would still helps people, either new or when falling back to sometimes

You’re scared of a world where you’re needed…

2:30, there's nothing to be fixed. you're wonderful my friend. thanks for being a friend to me when I've needed it.

you always deliver something so precise and relatabe on the right time

Your videos are a poetic breath of fresh air in my life. I relate very much with them, thanks for what you do ❤

I used to chronically suffer from these kind of thoughts. "I can do everything in my power to live longer and be remembered and still people will forget me." I didn't want to die. I didn't want my second death, where I died in everyone's memories. I craved to fill my life with everything I could to live a more satisfactory life. I studied hard for academic validation and validation for my parents, I made sacrifices for work to leave a legacy of some kind, I desperately wanted money, I did a range of hobbies and learned so many things, but nothing could fill that hole. No validation in the world could satisfy me. In the end, I learned the best cure was gratitude, contentment, and letting go of my materialism. We live in a world built so strongly on materialism and greed. But it was once I was able to let go of my fears of being forgotten, my fears of being another face in the crowd, I simply wanted to be someone who was kind and good-hearted to those in my life. Building relationships and making a positive difference to the people around me, no matter how small. I could die tomorrow, but to know I gave away enough love to change someone else's life has become enough for me. I now live a humble life and stop to smell the flowers, stop to feel the sun on my face, stop to see rain fall on the bus window, and I am happier for it, and I am ok with who I am. I'm just a small blip in time, and there's nothing I can change about it. But now I'm honestly happy with that and can't wait to see what the remaining precious days have for me.

@themangle-laggle

10 ай бұрын

How are you?

Man, you're our personal therapist. Thank you.

That song sounded a lot like 'the place where he inserted the blade' by black country new road.

@matsch8154

9 ай бұрын

it is!

I don't think I have ever watched a video where every sentence spoken was an exact reflection of my life. At first I refused to believe that something so accurate to me was released. I was about to go to bed with this as my last video of the night, but this literally made me sit back in front of my computer and pay attention for the entire thing... in both fear and awe. Thank you. I just feel like using the excuse of "this is enough" and to embrace the mystery of life will end up as another trap of my mind in its search for the answer where I use this as the solution or fix, quite paradoxically actually.

I've spent my entire conscious life trying to figure out who I am. It wasn't until a year ago in my early 30's I realized that it isn't something I can answer or find much like your conclusion here. I also concluded that to be true to the mysterious self I should act in alignment with what I want whatever that is. Not a hedonistic search for every pleasure but on a bigger picture of what I truly want. Sometimes that is more clear than other times but it has been an improvement in my life.

Ive been watching you for years Ben, keep up the great work.

This is the video with the answers I've been looking for for so long now. Thank you