Damn, watching a human being open about so personal things is truly empowering. Huge respect man.

@dawnsvlog

2 жыл бұрын

agreed! he's helping so many by sharing this

@theotakucorner4044

2 жыл бұрын

I love your poems man!! They've helped me get through some tough times.

@thecrisroldan

2 жыл бұрын

100% agree with with comment

@jowanzeerak9728

2 жыл бұрын

@@thecrisroldan Loved ittttt

@fromaroundtheworld4190

2 жыл бұрын

its soemething called being real..

“What you still need to know is this: before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned as we’ve moved toward that dream. That’s the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one ‘dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.’ -Paulo Coelho The Alchemist

@sirenaspeaks

2 жыл бұрын

I definitely gotta read it now! Thanks for sharing 🙏

@natural91LC

2 жыл бұрын

I *LOVE* that book

@RENX1337

2 жыл бұрын

The Alchemist is one of the best books ever, recommend everyone to read it, it is a must!

@julesandmusic

2 жыл бұрын

Wow!

@roxanamejia879

2 жыл бұрын

I just saved this comment 👏🏼

I think we all kinda lose our sense of “why” at some point. All we gotta do is keep going, no matter what we do, and the why will eventually get clearer. What’s the purpose of life? To live every second ✨🙌

@TilikaVispute

2 жыл бұрын

I was literally feeling this and saw your comment and made me feel so much better .. thank you so muchhhh 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻✨✨✨ have a lovely day aheadddd

@nawaldoghri

2 жыл бұрын

@@TilikaVispute have a lovely day too ❤️ Thank you for being there 🙌✨

@TilikaVispute

2 жыл бұрын

@@nawaldoghri 🥺🥺☺️☺️♥️♥️

@kmichalene

2 жыл бұрын

I concur! I’m experiencing this now. Being patient through the experience is a challenge :0)

@nawaldoghri

2 жыл бұрын

@@kmichalene yes a tough one! But we can still find ways through it, sending you all my positive energy ✨

I’ve had panic attacks before because I had no idea that I was anxious because I bottled it all up. Then I read that gratitude can help with anxiety, I tried gratitude meditation and I’ve not had them since. They say that it’s almost impossible to feel anxiety and gratitude at the same time. Thank you man! I’m forever grateful for your videos. You make us feel less alone.

@kita3256

2 жыл бұрын

I want to try that gratitude meditation. How did you do it?

@__jake.m

2 жыл бұрын

@@kita3256 Hey Kita! I just searched guided meditation for gratitude on KZread and used those. Have a great day wherever you are!

@Kat-fw5jo

2 жыл бұрын

@@kita3256 i noticed that whenever I was anxious in life, going through anxious times I always reminded myself what I'm great for in life

@kita3256

2 жыл бұрын

@@__jake.m thanks! Will definitely do that. I’m in California 😀 Have a great day too, wherever you are!

@kita3256

2 жыл бұрын

@@Kat-fw5jo I guess it’s like a grounding exercise. I can see that. I will try that. I suffer severally of anxiety and panic attacks but I also have ptsd so it gets very ugly. But I’ll try this gratitude meditation!

Living with a narcissist is so emotionally exhausting. I've lived with one my whole life. It's all about them and their needs; stepping all over your sense of self and turning your self-esteem into dust is what they do best. I feel so disillusioned with life right now, like it's not worth living anymore, since I spent all those years trying to please that narc that I don't know who I am and what I really want to do. And I'm constantly pushing people away because I'd rather not be hurt in any way by anyone again.

can we appreciate how far he’s come. his content used to be all videography (which isn’t bad) and now there’s all this personal and intimate insight :’) it’s so nice to see the growth over the years.

I loved this video. It felt like just sitting down and chatting about the moments that have shaped us into who we are today. I think many of us have years or times that we can reflect back on like this. I know I look back on 25 like it was the worst year but the most productive year to show me what I deserve in life and what I don't. Thanks for the reminder that through pain comes growth if you're willing to walk ahead of the shadows!

@rishabhshah1499

2 жыл бұрын

Ikr the video was awesome 👍

@julesandmusic

2 жыл бұрын

Truly inspiring

Nathaniel is helping thousands of people work towards their goals in a way that promotes wellness, not sacrifices wellness. He is giving people a better chance at understanding their lives and making an honest evaluation of it. Very important; thank you Nathaniel.

One thing I've learned through my life is sometimes quitting (and letting go of something) is a good thing

Sit down storytimes are great! It's like sitting down with a friend with a cuppa. Thanks for sharing your journey. Really resonates sooo much!

*”We have two lives. The second begins when we realise we only have one”* - Confucius Love from a small KZreadr 💙

It almost feels like everyone has to go through some level of depression to figure out what we want from our life.

@alidasilva3336

2 жыл бұрын

I think that pain is something essential to our progress and evolution, it's the complement of pleasure, one can't exist without other. While suffering is optional and borns from attachment to pleasure or pain.

@pephi8102

2 жыл бұрын

I absolutely agree. My depression has given me the worst but it has also given me the gratitude and the astonishment with which I see the world.

I'm going through one of those bad periods in my life at the moment. Thank you for making this video. I'm trying to work really hard to fight through it right now and get to a better place and this video helps in a small way on my own journey.

@alokrawatt

2 жыл бұрын

hey, please never give up, you already know its gonna change for better. :)

@overnightgrowth

2 жыл бұрын

@@alokrawatt Thank you for the encouragement, right now everything seems black and bleak because I'm in the middle of it. I'm taking steps to help myself by meditating and finally accepted that I need outside help by going to therapy.

@alokrawatt

2 жыл бұрын

@@overnightgrowth buddy I totally get you. I been through that phase and can understand every bit of it.

I am suacide survivor and disabled 32yo male. Broke my body because of narcissistic abuse explained in your previous video. My self-conficence fall off the cliff. Felt so deep sence of shame that nobody is up to endure. I still suffer from PTSD and daily pain. It's very comforting to know that it can pass with time, although disablility cannot be undone. Thank you for seriousness here.

Whenever I watch your videos I feel like I'm becoming more and more wiser with every video. -THANK YOU 🙂

You’ve no idea how understood I felt while watching this video. I’m 20 years old and I have no clue of what the hell is going on. The hole past year is such a blur; I feel like I lost control of absolutely everything, but the worst part, and you put it into words, is that I lost the reasons and I lost the point of why I was doing the things that I was doing. I don’t know what’s going to happen and definitely not know where my life is headed, but is nice to hear that it will no always be this confusing. I guess you’re right, it’s a part of growing up. By the way, I’m sorry that you didn’t have a very pleasant time in Argentina, we would love to have you back!

@arindammukherjee021

2 жыл бұрын

Things will be better soon. Till then keep the faith, buddy.

“It’s okay to not be okay sometimes” Really needed to hear it, thanks for sharing your story, man!

I think what I’ve struggled with the most is that “why”, which is something still hard to make sense of but hopefully one day it will:/

I went through the same experience: 2019 was supposed to be one of the best years of my life, as I had begun a study abroad programme in Paris, but my year was spent recovering from burnout, suffering from depression and feeling numb inside. It was really difficult but it helped me begin my journey of personal development and taught me to take care of myself more

@spunzel851

2 жыл бұрын

How did you heal from depression?

@romaiseb

2 жыл бұрын

​@@spunzel851 therapy and self-care. Giving myself time to rest and process everything that happened. Journalling is really good for processing things. Also try and identify what is causing your depression, as sometimes it is due to external factors - for me it was my studies. So once I finished my studies I felt so much better, as if a mountain had been lifted off my shoulders.

@pierren___

2 жыл бұрын

@@romaiseb do you think it is link to Paris ? What idea did you have of the City before ?

The level of genuine interaction I get from watching this channel is too real. Even though the video is a bit more relaxed, I feel like I am right there with you as a mate. Guess that just speaks to the power of storytelling right?

Having parents who are narcissists. Living in a "third world" country and being socially isolated contribute to the misery and hopelessness and the question "why" that complicate things more.

@marcelagovegan7754

2 жыл бұрын

:(

@HabeebKolawole

2 жыл бұрын

OMG. That hit hard

I'm 19 and I feel like I'm going through the worst year and the best at the same time, and it's sooo reassuring to hear someone who has grown out of it and can look back saying that it had to happen this way ❤️ thanks so much for opening up!!

Worst phase in our life teaches us most important lessons than a good phase in our lives . I am experiencing it:) Thankyou for sharing Nathaniel❤

@julesandmusic

2 жыл бұрын

Let's keep going and get through these tough times! 💪

@alokrawatt

2 жыл бұрын

More than 40% of the viewers of this video are going through the same including me

I'm so sorry that the time you spent in Argentina was so hard. I know that this country can be very tough (actually, it's never been easy). But also I think that probably it was the time and place you have and will learnt more from, in due time. Nietsche made the famous quote: lo que no me destruye me fortalece. I hope if you ever come back you'll have a better time here. Your videos are consistenly better each time.

I actually feel like im in this place at 18 years old and its comforting to see that you aswell were in a dark period and ended up in such a great place not too long after. Always appreciate your videos man. We dont really know eachother but im sure speaking as a viewer you have many friends who appreciate your existence.

This affected me so deeply. I find myself on a parallel path-- workaways, narcissists, valuing reflection, travel. Suddenly out in the big bad world. What an articulate and thoughtful portrait of a past version of self. I hope that five years from now I can sit down and recount the connections and trials of life, and continue to strive forward. These sorts of videos make it measurable over time and prompt self awareness in others...myself included. Fantastic.

I feel like i'm stuck. I decided to take off a semester of school do to burnout, and just feeling like crap. I plan on transferring to a new school but am just confused on what I want to do. This video is relatable.

I'm 18, and I am experiencing the same experience that you had. I just graduated from high school. I decided to get a job first before entering college (i don't have a particular course in mind), and maybe, that way, I can connect with myself again. I don't have any idea about what's going on in my life right now. That's why I am so grateful for this video. I learned a lot. Thank you very much! Thank you for enlightening lost souls like me!😭

I cannot explain how much I resonate with this video because of where I am now. I was in my kitchen the other day, crying because I have no idea what I'm doing with my life, and I happened to pick up a fortune cookie hanging around from an old takeout order. It said, "Do not wait for others to open the right doors for you." Thank you for encouraging us all to open our own doors. Excited to see what's in store for you :)

can we just appreciate the quality of the videos he makes!!!!

well this is probably the most relatable youtube video I have ever watched, thank you for sharing. It makes me feel a little less alone, grateful for what is and motivated to keep going.

Thank you so much for sharing this with us Nathaniel! When I was 18, depression, anxiety and suicide attempts entered and devastated my world and everything I knew till that point. I was also abroad, also felt super alone, no friends and no one to speak with. So, hearing people share their disadventures really touches me in some type of way. So, thank you

"Streangth grows in the moments when you think you can't go on but you keep going anyway." Thank you nathaniel for putting this out you are mentally so strong. I have been feeling this way and your video really came at the right time. Please keep doing this storytime videos this will really help us.

Your vulnerability in this video is very inspirational! I think that many of us can relate to many elements of your story in one way or another. Thanks for sharing man!

Your honesty and authenticity is really encouraging. I love your videos!

I really needed to hear this right now. Not only have you validated my struggle but to see you on the other side of it, successful and happy, gives me alot of hope. Thank you for sharing.

Feeling sadness can be so lethargic and took so much of our energy. I'm glad you're now in a good place, Drew! I love your videos and often replay it, for your deep thoughts & inspiring life journey!

Wow... thank you for this video man! Not sure if you'll see this comment, or anyone else for that matter... but I've been going through a lot lately and definitely relate to a degree of that lost feeling and feeling like overwhelmed about the future etc.

This piece really encouraged me as someone who is pursuing a path in the creative field without college. I've got to work hard while also not overburdening myself with pressure and realize that these things take time. Thanks, Nathaniel.

It's refreshing to see someone speak of their experience as the observer, life unraveling itself to help him grow. Such an awesome video!

I sincerely hope that this is the only thing you ever have to go through in your life. It might have been the worst year but it wasn’t bad at all.

This resonated so much with me. The video felt like a warm comforting hug from a wise person I trust. Thank you

Thank you for encouraging us to be real and to embrace our humanity! Transparency is such a big act of self love

watching you this past year has helped shift my perspective on content creating. there's something so special about a creator being honest about their lives, lessons, and mistakes. thank you nathaniel and keep it up.

I’m currently going through a tough time mentally and I’m learning to find the beauty in those struggles. Future me will be much stronger than before. Appreciate you sharing this means a lot to a lot of us. ♥️

Thank you for sharing your story, hearing you say " it takes time to process the things that happen to do" really resonated with me. We don't grow up in a day, we're always growing and it helps to hear people share their stories. Thank you!

Nathaniel, I'm a teenager who has been watching your videos for almost a year and a half. I can't tell how much I've learnt from your experiences! especially this one, sometimes we live in a blurry world, you feel like if you're a stranger even if you were among your family and friends, but it's all ok because someday you'll realize that this period of your life was so important to your self-improvement. Thank you so much

Thanks for sharing the most vulnerable moment of your life. I feel like the society has always been telling us that we need to know what we want in our life, but to get there, we have to go through a process, we will struggle and get lost…but not many people talk about it.

Truly appreciate your authenticity and openness as always. It's so easy to see people on what they've achieved and forget the hardship and challenges they went through to get here. Everyone faces obstacles in their lives, the question is what you decide to do about it. Love the heart and soul you put into your work and thank you for being you.

Thank you for sharing so openly. Your experience applies to so many of us, I'm sure, going through all different kinds of things. It is hope-giving to hear you sharing in hindsight. Thank you for the vulnerability and the honesty.

Nathaniel, your story in this video is precisely what I needed to hear. Right now, I am feeling what you felt back in 2016-2017 and I’m struggling big time. But somehow, you have managed to transmit hope for what’s to come. Thank you for this video :)

Love these videos! Thank you so much for sharing. Narcissists bring you to a place on your Heroes journey that show you your own wounds. It’s excruciating, but the truth is within ourselves. Exploring that, rather than remaining paralysed is life changing. You give hope to many that their suffering is ok, and that nothing stays the same. 🙏

Can’t even begin to explain how deeply I relate to this story! It’s a beautiful video with well thought out message. Thank you, I’m sure there’s more people that can relate to this than you think there are!

"Pain is one of the biggest teacher in life" , couldn't agree more!! ❤️🖤🙃

@alokrawatt

2 жыл бұрын

true

Thank you for following the path less travelled and following your passion for travel and film making. We wouldn't have your amazing creations if you'd followed society's expectations. We need more people like you! You're an inspiration to so many and I'm so glad you can now look back on the tough times with grace ❤

So glad you brought up these points of learning from painful periods. I’m finally moving on from a phase of my life that’s been so painful and difficult, and even though I know I’ll have very painful moments in this next phase of my life, I’m ecstatic to see what I learn from my new experiences. I loved this laid back feel. Felt like I was at lunch with a friend!

Wow, I really love how vulnerable and real you've been with this video. I've been through some similar issues and resorted to strange coping skills. On top of that, I felt so much pressure to make a toxic situation work. Thank you for sharing this 🙏 ❤

Nathaniel channel is the gift that keeps on giving

I’m experiencing not the best times rn & your video is smth not only me, but I’m sure lots of people need to see. It’s just like a reminder that u r not alone. And yes - it’s okay not to be okay. Dark times show us our true power. Thank you, Nathaniel!

man, your openness is so precious and rare - thank you so much!

Thank you for opening up and sharing this with us all. A brave choice to be so vulnerable...bless be for that courage! And what lessons you've learned (and thankfully are sharing!) that have made you so very empathetic!

felt like i needed to hear this! i resonated a lot with it as last year at 18 I had decided to take a gap year, and have felt the exact same as you described it of feeling lonely and lost questioning if I made the right decision. i’m still learning and it’s just a season of my life but it was reaffirming to hear this. thank you and i’m very proud of you and inspired by you to see where you’ve come from and all that you’re creating.

i’ve been a subscriber of your channel for years now and i’ve enjoyed every single video you put out thus far. but i have to say by far this video really speaks to the heart for me. i found myself in a place like yours few years back and i felt so so hopeless. watching this video and looking back,i’m beyond grateful of where i am now. thank you for putting this out ❤️

that's such an awful experience Nathaniel, i'm so sorry, so happy you're out the other side. i really enjoyed this format - you are an excellent storyteller :)

This video is absolutely lovely. Hard times add depth to the human experience, they help grow the vital life skills of resilience and compassion (for ones self and others). Understanding the darker sides of the human psyche (including narcissism) and why they manifest themselves can not only aid in appreciating the genuinely positive people in ones life but, help in creating empathy for those who do harm themselves or others. Importantly, empathy and forgiveness for those individuals does not mean forgoing empathy and compassion for ones self. Boundaries and distance from negative behaviour is essential. Perhaps understanding that people are the way they are for a multitude of reasons including past events, genetics, etc, can help alleviate the pain felt internally, making it all seem a little less personal. To sooth the fear created by others, one must have boundaries for how they will be treated, reflecting respect and love for ones own life. These are just some thoughts tho haha, did not expect to ramble so much this morning. I hope you enjoyed my unedited stream of consciousness hahahah 😅

We really must give teens and young adult the tools to survive difficult and hostile environments. My young adults years were beyond horrible and it was because of the people I lived with. I have spent the past 5years healing from it. Blessings

I really appreciate you putting this video out and sharing some of your struggles. It’s the hard times that forge us. The hard times suck without a doubt but when we get through them we come out the other side with increased super powers, some good wisdoms, and some new “internal” strength. One thing that is so important is the that you didn’t give up! No matter if your pace slowed or paused or if all of it felt like a huge weight on your back pinning you down, you moved forward. Solid work brother. ✔️😊

Listening to this felt like I'm talking to my friend sharing the pain and suffering. I fell liberated watching this video. I relate few of my life feeling with this story. Thanks for posting.

Yes, please do more of this style! Thanks for sharing your story Nathaniel 🙏

Thank you - listening to you describe a hard chapter of your own life which resonates with a period of my own life. Your honesty is inspiring - thank you ⭐️ I’m grateful for everyday that me and my kid live independently now. It’s not easy, battling self doubt whilst focussing on healing; however I wake up feeling safe now; feeing safe to create, to dream, to connect, and simply not giving up on myself.

This actually inspired me. Tour videos are my little daily highlights. Tha k you for sticking to what you believe in and what u dreamed of. Always remember, there are a million people always standing behind you

Its nice to know that I am not the only one who went through something life changing in 2016-2017. Thank you for making this video. I am late comer to your channel but I am looking forward to watching your videos!

You have put all the feelings I’m experiencing these days into words my friend. Your words are a true inspiration 😊🙏🏻

This was beautiful, Nathaniel. Your maturity is something that's always stood out for me. I've been going through this phase for the past year and a half, (I'm 37) and it's not easy. Taking it one day at a time and praying that the path will become clearer as I take the steps forward. Take care!

It's pretty cool watching how much courage you have to share such personal stories on here. People clearly connect well with you. It's very inspiring to see what you create from such personal subject matter.

I really liked this. I'm in that stage of life right now where I feel lost and I need to figure out what kind of life I want to live. Thank you for letting me know that this was normal :) It really helps a lot

I respect and appreciate you because you were able to talk about it. I’ve barely finished getting through the tough period of my life, and it’s lasted years, but I’m not at all ready to talk about it yet, just because it was extremely personally tough and challenging. So I want to thank you for sharing yours, because it’s given me hope that one day, I’ll be able to share mine.

This is one of my top faves you have created. I totally relate, have been there countless times & you communicate beautifully on how these experience hits & shapes us. Thank you Nathaniel, I do not feel alone x

Your description of how you felt physically and emotionally while trying to make it work under impossible conditions working for a narcissist is the exact way that I felt in a similar experience. It's kind of crazy to look back and see what were those manifestations of that stress, now that I am (mostly) out of that situation. Thanks for sharing!

Thanks so much for this Nate, I'm currently 18 and feel like I'm so lost with my own thoughts, past (mistakes), and more. So much encouragement and insight from you. Lova ya man!

I love listening to you speak, it feels like having a conversation with a close friend. Thanks so much for sharing this perspective and how you grew from that rough period in your life ❤️ I hope I can reach your level of contentment one day

I think I’m going through this now :-) I loved what you said about it being a natural part of “growing up.” To figure out what’s important to us & what we’d like our life to look like. Thank you

"Mar calmo não faz bom marinheiro", é o que penso quando passo por um momento de dificuldade. É relaxante e aconchegante ouvir um relato como esse, porque todos passamos por essas fases e esquecemos que faz parte. I love your videos, they're so inspiring! Have a nice day, Nathaniel ( :

I really appreciate the way you describe your feelings; you describe them without sugar coating or exaggerating.

wow, this is super inspiring- especially because I am in that "trying just to get my foot in the door" phase of life right now, just to hear someones story turn to success is the best motivation to keep going- Thank you Nate!!

I appreciate this so much, thank you for sharing stories like this. This one touched a part of me that believes that just maybe the worst year of my life won't last forever...

Thank you so much for this. Right now I feel like I’m lost, I feel alone and it’s seems like I can’t feel much. But I know I’m gonna grow from this. Sometimes is difficult to see the thing outside pain but I’m fighting for me to stay, to go through each day. Thank u so much for this video, I don’t feel alone and I feel hopeful. Everyone who’s going through something, I promise you you’re not alone. We are gonna be okay and we are gonna grow into something beautiful.

I feel I am going through the same experience you just described. I struggled with two suicide attempts and many isolation issues before and during the pandemic. I felt that in the future making art or movies would feel like this immense library of content that isn't appreciated the way it should be. After that, I am now going back to writing, I'm learning to give speeches and talks, and I'm back into filmmaking. Thanks for having done this video. You are the best.

This video is so inspiring, and thank you for sharing the perspective of how hard times are necessary! It's so easy to get sucked into a victim mindset of "woe is me" carrying around the pain of our hard times, rather than growing from them

Story times are the best. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability that shows actually strength, maturity and wisdom. Please more of these 🥰💫🙏

I respect that you are comfortable to open up to share what so many of us have experienced in life. If more of us would be able to do this, the world would be a better place. Many find comfort just hearing others struggles, knowing that someone has made it to the "other side" of such issues. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable.

Thank you for sharing your worst part of your life. It's good to normalize that we all go through some tough times in our lives and it is not a shame to share it but it rather encourages us to feel more compassionate towards others. For me, this period is teaching me to be a lot more patient with myself and to accept things take time in life. Enjoyed the content, thanks!

yes, i made it to the end of the video and i genuinely listened to every sentence you said i even found myself repeating some parts to make sure i get you right ! thank you for these reflections they were super useful !

Thank you for sharing this. I am in a really similar situation right now. I’m currently 18 and an au pair in the US and also feel really lost in life. Hearing your story was really comforting and makes it a little easier to just accept where I’m at right now. Thank you

Thank you so much for being vulnerable and open about your experiences and struggles, I know I needed to hear what you said. Having these conversations is really important and taking that extra step to share with all of us took courage so seriously thank you!

There are so many parallels in my life and language I haven't had but needed that I'm literally sharing your videos. Thank you is an understatement.

Always deeply thoughtful. Enjoyed the harp music, too. Thank you.

Thank uu for sharing ur story, i had many struggles in the last six years trying to find my path and i learned a lot from it and hearing about your journey gave me strength to keep pushing until i find what is right for me.

What you create and share here helps a lot man, thanks for that.

Thanks for sharing this. As someone living this struggling time of life I can say how comforting it is to hear it.