This is a powerful reminder of where alcoholism leads. This is where it led me, I remember coming back to my house in a similar state to this after being discharged from hospital after a month-long bender. I am so lucky to still be here today and am 2.5 years sober. Sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing.

@czygyny

3 жыл бұрын

May your 2.5 years grow to 25 and beyond.

@JaneEva

3 жыл бұрын

Me, too! This could be any of our houses/apartments once the drinking gets completely out of control... and it always does! I thank G-d almighty that He has saved me from my alcoholism. Sober 7 years and only after my best friend died of alcohol poisoning. May G-d help all the addicts.

@Nat-ster

2 жыл бұрын

@@JaneEva I've been alcohol free for 124 days now. And It all started with a serious case of alcohol poisoning and vomiting from sunrise till sunset. Happy to be sober now. Never looking back.

@TheBaker64

2 жыл бұрын

keep going at it! i got 11, but lost my sister to it in 2017. there is no reason how i survived. My sister should still be here and i shouldnt! if you watch the Live or Let Die she looked like the man at the beginning of the video with the Bilirubin leaking into her body! Its really not fair!!!

@czygyny

2 жыл бұрын

@@john_cs2253 Many of us can drink, enjoy and stop. Some cannot. I drink. I drink fairly frequently but it stops at one or two and I am done. Beyond that is no good to me and after witnessing my brother's downfall, I am glad I am such a lightweight.

My brother also lived this way toward the end of his life. He was an amazing human being until alcohol hijaked his mind. He was found dead in his apartment amongst all debris and filth. I still cry about it sometimes. I miss him

@czygyny

6 жыл бұрын

I am sorry for your pain. It is something that never quite goes away, but time does soften the sharp edges.

@maxdetwiler9770

4 жыл бұрын

Im sorry 😔

@barbryll8596

4 жыл бұрын

@@maxdetwiler9770 thank you

@jiggajigjones8210

3 жыл бұрын

@@barbryll8596 yes sorry...

@user-os1kb1gg8l

3 жыл бұрын

Sorry for your loss may they be at peace

it is absolutely incredible how fast you can trash a place when a heavy alcoholic. you can clean up, say you're never going to do it again, and then 2 weeks later the carpets are stained, there's sick everywhere, bottles and spilled drinks, can hardly move and you wonder how it happened, it's like a blink of an eye.

@richardlawson6787

4 жыл бұрын

Wrong...being a drunk doesn't make you nasty...lazy makes you nasty

@TzekYoSelf

4 жыл бұрын

@@richardlawson6787 Alcohol stinks so it still makes you nasty

@richardlawson6787

4 жыл бұрын

@Koal Kottentail good point

@JustAWatcher73

4 жыл бұрын

@Koal Kottentailand after a point of time you just don't care

@helenrussell5634

3 жыл бұрын

@@richardlawson6787 also from personal experience alcohol makes u very depressed to where u dont see the point in anything anymore, whether it be cleaning up, hobbies , work nothing. It has very little to do with laziness. I have been sober for 9 years now and my home is spotless!

Poor lad, alcohol is one of the worst drugs out there hands down,

@betsymartin4709

2 жыл бұрын

Only if you abuse it.

@terrapinflyer273

2 жыл бұрын

Agreed. As my dad lays bedridden, unable to control his bodily functions, and consistently refuses any help he is offered. Any drug or vice in general can lead to complete destruction inside, out, and beyond. But the mental turmoil and horrors I've suffered w my parents... And friends who've obliterated their lives and the lives of their young children. It's enough to make you sick.

@judaspreistvlct

2 жыл бұрын

@@betsymartin4709 Denial talk.

@maryann7619

3 ай бұрын

@@betsymartin4709 What's your definition of abuse? Physically, there is zero benefit to alcohol. None. By definition, alcohol is a drug to use to alter your reality.

My house was starting to look this way when I nearly drank myself to death. My ex girlfriend came over to my house and put me in the shower and then made me detox at her apartment. I later went to rehab and been sober ever since December 22, 2020. It's crazy how you get to the point where drinking is all that matters.

Thanks so much for sharing. Yep, that's how my apartment was looking like until I blacked out while driving one evening , how I didn't hit anything or anyone is still a miracle to me. After detoxing I was shocked at what I used to be, and what I became. Took photos of my place as a reminder to never go back to that. 38 days today, loving one day at a time. Much love and strength to all 💖

@Stedemn

6 ай бұрын

Update?

My dad was alcoholic too he died at 56.. I struggle with alcohol too but I try to quit I’m 45 days sober . I need to make it . I lost so much because of this shit already ... Hope your dad is ok

@clappedoutmotor

3 жыл бұрын

Sending love and power

@dominicnardozzi6589

3 жыл бұрын

Congrats keep on keeping on .

@franco7928

3 жыл бұрын

Stay strong, praying for you 💐

@talulatree5297

2 жыл бұрын

💖🌷💖

@erik-fn2xf

6 ай бұрын

How old are you? I'm 34 23 days sober

I’m so sorry for your loss. We just found a good friend of mine 2 days ago. 44 years old and dead in the bathroom. I managed to get help and get on with my life. He went back to the bottle with a vengeance and in 4 years he went from a healthy happy man to dead. I’m still in shock about it.

@terrapinflyer273

2 жыл бұрын

So sorry for your loss. It is truly tragic, in every sense of the word, having loved ones suffering w alcoholism. On another note, I am very glad to hear you were able to get help for yourself.

Thank you for sharing. I'm sorry for your loss. But, people like myself and other alcoholics need to see stuff like this on occasion. There was a point in my life where beer cans were stacked about a foot high in my room. With a lawn chair in the middle, and that's all. Yes, I would clean every other week but the cans would accumulate again after about a week or two. I became physically dependent on alcohol. Drank at least 30 beers a day or more. Lost all my strength, and any sanity I had. It was utter chaos, like someone mentioned below.. It was my"alcoholism manifested in my environment (house). I still remember it very clearly, I decided to go to rehab for 9 months. Prayed a lot to God, and eventually became sober. It's a tough fight and I might slip every great once in a while, but I have attained a great support team, and people who care about my wellbeing, so they help me get back on track. This is the first time in my life I'm actually trying to quit alcohol PERMANENTLY. And, it's going on 2 years, it's the hardest fight I've ever fought (and I use to box in the amateurs!) But, it's worth it. If I can do it, anyone can.

@karlaveneracion9199

3 жыл бұрын

💚💚💚 Your comment is giving hope. I have an alcoholic brother. He is missing since yesterday after he walked out of the hospital. God bless you

@Lexus2JZ

3 жыл бұрын

@@karlaveneracion9199 I'm sorry to hear that, yes there is always hope. I pray that your brother returns safely, and finds the strength to fight alcoholism. Take care dear 🙏🙏❤

Once an alcoholic deteriorates to the point of drinking all the time, everything around them disintegrates including their living environments. Although it's fairly uncommon, you'd be surprised to learn of the number of alcoholics bodies which are discovered in flats and houses in terrible conditions like this. I'm very sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing a glimpse of what is the manifestation of the chaos of an alcoholics sick and diseased mind in the final stages.

I’m not as good as you guys, but I’m only 27 days sober. I’m really struggling.....

@czygyny

3 жыл бұрын

Denying your cravings is probably the most difficult of all human behaviors. I do not envy you. I hope you have other people nearby to help you through those times where your appetite screams louder than your resolve to refuse it. Looking at videos like this may help you stand firm against this most insidious of issues...the end isn't very pretty. God bless.

@dominicnardozzi6589

3 жыл бұрын

Hang in there.

People need to see these horrible nightmares of alcoholism, I want people to show their children the trail of misery a real sickness like this will bring, respect your life and don't let a bottle of alcohol live off of your body and destroy your precious life.

@educationcentral_

4 жыл бұрын

Your life is going to be destroyed anyway even if you eat right and work out every day

@kathleenwetherell1205

4 жыл бұрын

I don’t drink never have I’ve watched so many people around me use and abuse alcohol I swore I wouldn’t lead the same path and I still swear by it there isn’t even alcohol allowed in my house or anywhere near my house at all

@godisgreat5141

4 жыл бұрын

Right kids should learn about it at an early age

@espoire_

3 жыл бұрын

@@educationcentral_ cope harder drunky

@educationcentral_

3 жыл бұрын

@@espoire_ are you secial ed? I mean that in Ernest

The devils poison. He breaks you down to the deepest debts of hell. Sad.

This man was battling with depression 100% As sad as it is, he wanted to die.

@czygyny

5 жыл бұрын

Depression runs in the family. I am no stranger to the black pit. I work hard to ride the beast...my brother allowed it to drag him along.

@meginscheepers8341

4 жыл бұрын

No excuses man it's not a depression alcoholism is a desease and it has no reason! Depression and shit that are story's of An alcoholic

@thinkinoutloudd5511

4 жыл бұрын

@@czygyny this hurts my hurt 😔 I have been there before

I'm so sorry this has happened to your family! Thank you for sharing this!

The shocking thing is that this is not uncommon. On the extreme side, but cops and paramedics routinely see stuff like this.

I struggle with alcoholism if this isn't a wake up call idk what is. Sorry for your lost its an extremely sad sad disease.

@crazy680195

4 жыл бұрын

The key in this situation, is find other things to do!

@vinnycarrocia7511

4 жыл бұрын

@@crazy680195 Easier said than done. Swapping the bottle for a puzzle is a fairy tale. It's a disease.

@kathleenwetherell1205

4 жыл бұрын

I just lost my uncle my best friend he was found dead on Monday because of his alcohol problem please from the bottom of my heart do not let your family suffer I am so so lost right now my family has been through HELL PLEASE PLEASE GET HELP BEFORE ITS TO LATE BECAUSE I AM STRUGGLING SO DAMN MUCH TO COPE WITH LOSING MY UNCLE HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND MY PROTECTOR AS I LOST MY FATHER 3 yrs ago and my uncle died on the day of my fathers anniversary and I am devastated a year after my father died my other uncle died from cancer both my uncles were brothers I lost my grandmother 24th November 2019 I’ve lost 19 people in 3 yrs and my husbands side has lost 28 people I am crushed I have terminal illnesses and I shouldn’t be here I have severe issues with my pancreas and had to have more than 3 quarters removed after I got gallstones in my pregnancy and I spent 2and a half months fighting for my life because of gallstones in my pregnancy I got septicaemia and was left in intensive care my husband got contacted 4 times to bring my children to say bye as it was the end for me my son was just 1yr old at the time and my daughter 3weeks old I didn’t drink I never had I was 19yrs old and I’m 31yrs now and my organs are failing they don’t know how I survived but I did now my body is shutting down my uncle had issues with his pancreas because of the drink and I will say the same I said to him I DID NOT ASK FOR WHAT HAPPENED TO ME I DIDNT DO ANYTHING TO MAKE MY BODY SUFFER I DIDNT KILL MY PANCREAS AND MAKE ME WORRY WHEN IM GOING TO GET THE PANCREAS CANCER WHICH IS 99.9% I will get it but when they can’t answer but they told me when I do it will be to late to do anything as there is no symptoms when they opened me up I had 12 cysts all over my pancreas and my pancreas was mush they had to suction it out because there was so much necrosis PLEASE FROM A 31yr old Desperate mother it’s never to late to change PLEASE I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO BE HERE FOR MY CHILDREN MY SON WILL TURN 14yrs on 17th feb and my daughter just turned 12yrs on Christmas Eve I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO BE HERE TO WATCH THEM GROW TO GO TO UNIVERSITY AND GET MARRIED AND HAVE CHILDREN AND BE HAPPY BUT I KNOW THAT IS JUST A DREAM PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GET HELP NOW!!!!😭😭😭😭😢😢😢💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

@thecavernman420cmd

3 жыл бұрын

I hope you got better. My cousin died today of it

This is why I'm Anti Alcohol, I don't see the benefit in drinking all. Especially as a person with Autism. No matter how many Beer Ads I get, I will Deny Alcohol and Narcotics for as long as I live Healthy.

@pauljordan4452

5 ай бұрын

Jack, I'm autistic and learned Acceptance and Commitment Therapy. It takes application but is better than drinking to numb anxiety.

@jackharpe3rd233

5 ай бұрын

Amen @@pauljordan4452, and thank you for responding.

This is called diogenes syndrome. It is comorbid with alcoholism and depression. My best friend died last month of drinking himself to death and this is what his house was like. He had so many friends help pick up after him many times over the years. It would take a week to get it back to a mess.

@terrapinflyer273

2 жыл бұрын

Yep. Same w my parents' house :( Both alcoholics since my early teens. I am fine with never drinking again after the sheer horrors I have been through. Luckily, I've never had an issue w drinking in excess (outside of my late teens and early 20s), but why risk it. Edit: Also, so very sorry for your loss. To an extent that words cannot explain.

@annabanana50

2 жыл бұрын

@@terrapinflyer273 hi Terrapin. I’m so sorry for having to grow up with the horror of two alcoholic parents. Just the decade of my best friend who used to be my boyfriend and also my professor was a horror in and of itself. I’m still angry about it. I’m not sure how to let go of it. All his friends thought he was a saint and my relationship to him and his death is much more complicated. I did so much for him and yet he treated me so differently and at times so badly, but he could switch off this mad behavior for his friends and it was like Jekyll and Hyde. I feel like my reality is so different and he spread so many bad things about me. Anyways, I’m not sure how to cope. How do you cope with your feelings towards your parents? Maybe you can offer some tips? I uses to go to therapy three times a week years ago but I’m hesitant to do it again. So I take long walks to clear my mind. I also totally stopped drinking. I never really loved it and only drank with my friend every once in a while. Alcohol is the most dangerous drug.

@annabanana50

2 жыл бұрын

@@terrapinflyer273 thank you for your kind words also.

thanks for filming and posting this, it is helpful somehow to me. my brother died 4 months ago , the last year of his life (after a liver disease diagnosis) he drank his beer like never before, on top of his meds. my mother's house, our childhood home, turned into this. I miss him, I miss who I know he was underneath it all. yet I hate him for the cruelty and selfishness that became all that was left of him. and now after waiting most my life for my mother's attention (his enabler) she is 80 and grieving herself literally to to death.

@brandon-bk1wu

7 жыл бұрын

+otterz4u sorry to hear that may i ask what age your brother passed?

@otterz4u

6 жыл бұрын

brandon612 ThankYou, he was 60 years old, he started drinking when he was 16

@juliebyrne9131

6 жыл бұрын

why did she let him do that in her house? my grandmamma hated alcohol and theres no way in hell she would have allowed this even from her only son(my dad)and he knew it and didnt even try that shit with her.he drank and lived other places but never ever at grandmammas house(shed have taken him out with a frying pan)!😄

So sorry for your loss. May your Dad rest in eternal peace.....his torment pain is over 🙏🏻❤

Thank you for sharing for the good cause. My thought is that many alcoholics say “well I’m not THAT bad so I must still be ok.” So in some ways this gives many alcoholics permission to continue at their current rate. Truth is, this will be the next step.

OMG, I feel a little of what you have experienced . I hope it's all in the past as much as possible.

I feel I am drinking too much. Looking at this horrified me. Thanks for posting maybe it will help me stop.

@talulatree5297

2 жыл бұрын

It's scaring me as well. 😞

@Redsnapper123

17 күн бұрын

Did you stop? 🛑

@johnfrench9608

16 күн бұрын

@popcornboxing369 No not really I have had a couple of breaks but still have a beer most nights just 2 or 3 I guess you could say i am an alcoholic of some sort.

@Redsnapper123

16 күн бұрын

@@johnfrench9608 stage 2 alcohol?

Thank You for posting

there are some things words can't explain, but something like this comes closer to representing the utter decimation that addiction causes. so sad, so disturbing

What a terrible decease. Slowly breaks you down physically and mentally

This is exactly what my Uncle did to my childhood home after his mother passed away. He picked one room to hide all his alcohol bottle and trash and threw bottles and bags in it. eventually the floor rotted out and there was a 5 foot hole to ground under the pier and beams. We found him in the hallway, he had a stroke 2 days earlier and lay there. He died in hospice a few days later, of alcohol dementia and liver disease. It took my mother and her husband weeks to clean up the house and get it repaired to be sold.

My 30 year old little sister is like this,drinks more than a gallon of whiskey a day and her home is just like this. I’m terribly scared for her life. Alcoholics are big in my family,thank the lord I quit 3 years ago. I hope she can find her way out too. She refuses all help so I’m pretty lost.

@8ofwands300

Жыл бұрын

😔😔😔😔🙏🙏🙏🙏

@erik-fn2xf

6 ай бұрын

She won't refure help when she is no longer to keep alcohol down. Than vomiting blood. It will scare you enough to seek medical attention immediately

I lost one childhood best friend to alcohol, her home looked like this in the end. My other best friend is quick headed the same route. The MOST frustrating part is I can't say or do anything cause they always have an excuse to drink and if I say anything I'm a bad friend.

@czygyny

3 жыл бұрын

It is an insidious and heartbreaking ailment. My condolences. I've known the lives of a number of people who have flamed out early because of drugs or alcohol.

@pauljordan4452

2 жыл бұрын

If you say something you'll save their damn lives. I had a stroke when I was was born and the side effects of alcohol on brain damage were becoming a pain in the ass, so I stopped over three weeks ago.

@Jennifer-di4nl

2 жыл бұрын

@@pauljordan4452 Tell me what I can say that will get through to her. Please.

@pauljordan4452

8 ай бұрын

​@@Jennifer-di4nlI'm only getting back to you now. I learned Acceptance and Commitment Therapy for anxiety related drinking. Refer people to that and the book The Happiness Trap by Russell Harris MD.

@pauljordan4452

5 ай бұрын

​@@Jennifer-di4nlI sought therapy for drinking. Basically breathing into tension and letting thoughts come and go. Sorry I only noticed this now. Ask the drinker why they imbibe - find out the root cause. Ethanol is a poison to the body.

my mom was a year long alcoholic during the pandemic. it’s heartbreaking seeing ppl go through the same my mom did. seeing the same cans in the video as she had around the house really makes the world seem small.

My father drinks over 12/18 beers a night while abusing prescription medication and he's developed schizophrenia from all his drinking. He wont admit he has a problem so I can't do much for him. He's incredibly abusive verbally. It's very sad how much alcohol can destroy someone. Same thing happened to my uncle as well and now he's dead. I've vowed to never take a single sip of alcohol for as long as I live and I never have even tasted what alcohol tastes like. I truly believe it's evil and it will get you in the long run no matter what and it's not a pleasant death, especially when it happens at technically a young age.

@exeuroweenie

7 жыл бұрын

Very wise move of yours-to never try the stuff.Alcoholism can run in families,so why set yourself up? Besides,the little bit I've tasted is foul anyway.

@czygyny

7 жыл бұрын

Oddly enough my father didn't drink. At least not much. I imbibe on occasion but did quit for ten years while raising my brother's twins. Now I drink once in a while, but don't find the need to overdo it. It isn't evil in itself but I think there is such a danger for some of us that it is wise to refrain. Think of how many lives it has ruined over the millennia.

@epicgamerseries8131

6 жыл бұрын

truely its not the alcohol its the person

@czygyny

6 жыл бұрын

It was the statement 'It's not him, it's the alcohol' concerning my brother's alcoholism that caused a rift between my father and me for the last years of his life. I am sick of enablers.

@Mylifebelikeeee

6 жыл бұрын

Alcohol itself does not cause schizophrenia. He may have had certain preexisting mental health issues or Perhaps he was predisposed to this disorder and/or maybe it’s even genetic. The alcohol & drugs may have aggravated his already existing mental health problems causing this (schizophrenia) to surface. Those issues would have already likely existed before but the alcohol or drug use over time most likely caused them to surface/ or brought them out. Just a thought.

That’s absolutely horrible. Sorry for your loss

So sad! Exactly how my brother in laws apartment looked. He passed away one month to the day today. Thank god he only had a studio apartment so it didn’t take long for the help to clean it.

Lord have mercy....

@bemore2886

3 жыл бұрын

This being the first comment I c makes the video more impactful

@Redsnapper123

17 күн бұрын

@@bemore2886it wasn’t the first comment.

My uncle's friend got a big promotion at his job. He went to celebrate with his friends and got drunk. And even though he was drunk he tried to go to another bar on his bike. He had a big accident and he died on the spot. He had two little children. All of this because he was addicted to alcohol.

When you're that deep into addiction, your mind isn't yours anymore. You don't understand the need to do a lot of things...basic things....You just don't understand it anymore. You're a zombie at this point and the real you doesn't even know it because it already died.

@augirl15

3 жыл бұрын

Jesus. Christ. I felt this.

I just found out today that my cousin died. They said his house was like this. I’m truly sad about your loss. And I already miss my cousin dearly.

I think this shows more about the hoarding then the alcoholism. Still very sorry for your loss. I was on a short road to death from booze & was Blessed to stop only by a miracle, I wasnt able to do it by myself

@erichodge567

4 жыл бұрын

A miracle? Can you tell us about it? If you'd rather not, I understand.

This is precisely why I flatly refuse to drink!

@xwarx1000

5 жыл бұрын

Its very simple for some people to say i resufe to drink, but there are some of us who cant help it. Its something the way our brain is built. Very very painful video though.

@czygyny

5 жыл бұрын

I still drink. It is a seldom occurrence and never overdone. Like any other substance that alters your perception you must master it or be its slave. Some can't resist its allure so abstention may, indeed, be best.

@pauljordan4452

4 жыл бұрын

@@xwarx1000 Acceptance and Commitment Therapy helps tremendously!

@jamesbyrne9312

3 жыл бұрын

But why risk it. That's daft. It's like saying I only fire a gun twice a year

@JaneEva

3 жыл бұрын

A lot of us got to it from living with unbearable pain. It was the only thing that numbed the pain. However, the "cure" becomes worse than the disease! May G-d help all struggling addicts.

So, so sorry😔I am 27 years sober. Hard journey but worth it. Incidentally was there a home for his pets. We forget that they suffer too. They are more empathetic than people realize.

@czygyny

4 жыл бұрын

The dog was mine, there for protection. My dad's and brother's cats were all rehomed except one whom we could not trap. My niece said they were traumatized, but recovered after awhile.

I FEEL SORRY FOR THAT BEAUTIFUL ROTTWEILER.

@czygyny

6 жыл бұрын

The dog is mine, she is a Rott/Dobie cross. She was with me every time I went down to work on the house, and I carried a sidearm, because it is a nasty part of town. Drug zombies everywhere. There were cats left in the house, however. The two we were able to trap were taken in by my niece

@nolayaheardme402

5 жыл бұрын

@@czygyny why is it so fucking skinny then?

@czygyny

5 жыл бұрын

@@nolayaheardme402 Hey, smart mouth, the dog is part Doberman pinscher. She has always been thin and fast as the wind. The vet always considers her in perfect health and weight, even at a matronly six years of age.

@mwm9510

4 жыл бұрын

@@nolayaheardme402 just apologize for jumping to conclusions and move on, silly child.

@nolayaheardme402

4 жыл бұрын

@@mwm9510 5 months late jerkoff

My ex father in law destroyed his house. There were empty quarts laying all over the house. Just sit in there and drink his life away. His wife left him 15 years before. There was half inch or more dust on everything of hers. The bathroom was covered except where he stepped in showered occasionally. It was like opening a time vault. He ate beans and rice if he did eat at all.

I had to live like this as a child. My father was an alcoholic

@gardendormouse6479

3 жыл бұрын

I'm sorry. My dad was one, too. He got help before it was too late.

Thanks for sharing. Worryingly my home is beginning to look like this

@johelenfugate1288

5 жыл бұрын

Pick up a little bit every day. Have rules for yourself like ‘all garbage goes out to the trash every day ‘ or all dishes get washed before bedtime.’ One part of chronic mess is chronic disorganization; learning to handle the mess is an ongoing quest. Do you only clean when people are coming over? Invite people over more. Do you like competition? Set a timer for a task and try to beat the clock. There are zillions of ways to get ahead of hoarding.best of luck , Adam !

A tenant in a building I live in lives like this. He drinks from morning 'til night. I have befriended him and want to help him, but I don't really know how. Any advice from anyone appreciated - as I haven't worked out a way I can properly help him to try and consider quitting. Thanks for posting this, it's a brave thing to do. Bets wishes to you and your family.

@czygyny

3 жыл бұрын

You can try to befriend him and listen to him, but beware of getting too involved, giving money or taking him in. These people learn to manipulate others with a great skill only surpassed by drug addicts. You can only provide a bit of brightness in their lives--but it is up to them to decide to get help. You absolutely cannot do it for them.

@clappedoutmotor

3 жыл бұрын

@@czygyny As I thought. Thanks for replying.

So sad. My husbands pillow was bloody and the toilet broken. Man. Tears!!!

I'm an alcoholic. Just lost my job because of drink. Several family members dont talk to me. I have a considerable police record, including 4 prison sentences. But I always say that alcoholism is a symptom of much deeper things. Sure, it becomes a problem in itself, but I drink to black out much deeper issues. Thanks for posting anyway.

@czygyny

Жыл бұрын

Part of that deeper issue are mental ones that can and should be addressed, but there is a biological component, too, that makes a body more likely to fall quickly into the addiction. Still, it is not an excuse to not do all you can to lift up out of the pit. You owe it to the loved ones around you that your behavior affects, but most of all YOU deserve to fight your way out of it. Life is worth living well. Sometimes it is a struggle to get there. I hope the best for you. I really do. I am not without my own issues, as well, but I fight for health and happiness at every step of the way. I hope you will never give up trying, too.

@atfaithvalue

Жыл бұрын

@@czygyny Thank you for your reply

@Redsnapper123

17 күн бұрын

@@atfaithvaluewow! Are you sober today?

This is exactly how my dad’s house looked after he died of alcoholism. There were hundreds of bottles of wild irish rose strewn throughout the entire house and other trash.

@KoloaKane

3 жыл бұрын

one of the things that disgusted me about my drinking was the accumulation of beer bottles. we have to take them to the recycle center so they stack up.

@peterlyons8793

Жыл бұрын

Everyone can thank the late Marvin Sands and his two millionaire sons for making a fortune selling Wild Irish Rose. They own Constellation Brands in Rochester,NY. And also thank Danny Wegman for selling wines in his family's supermarkets.

So heartbreaking! Addiction is so very cruel!

Thank you for sharing. This helped me

@czygyny

4 жыл бұрын

I am glad that it has a positive effect for you. It is frightening how addiction can ruin lives. Anything that can help you step away from its harmful effects is a bonus.

@tomparker962

3 жыл бұрын

Think its helping me too I always regret drinking every time it just gets dull

how did it come to this :/

I'm so sorry for the family.

How grim, how sad, that it should end like this.

Hia bedroom looks just like mine... empty can and bottles with an unholy mess🥺May we, who still have breath, win against this demon🙏🏾 May your brother's soul find blissful rest, he went through hell💔

I'm very sorry, but I'm very curious where his body was found? It's okay if you don't want to answer I understand.

@czygyny

6 жыл бұрын

It is a day I'll never forget. Dark, still and cold in the filthy house, drapes drawn...and he was sitting on the couch with his jacket on, dressed in shorts so you could see the lividity in his legs, arms crossed as if cold, bathed in the red glow of the boom box quietly playing music. He was just sitting there, waiting for the end. I've never experienced a more macabre situation. Thankfully I am of strong constitution.

I just cleaned an apartment of this alchoholic couple, the lanlord asked if i would throw away all they left behind, it was horrendous.. feces on clothes in the kitchen, beer cans and vodka bottles and tons of newspaper everywhere,. So sorry for your loss!

I hope he lived alone and didn't make someone else have to be exposed to his world of utter filth. I'm sorry for the other family members having to see this. No other memories will erase that moment. So sorry y'all!!

There once was a full life there, a good life too. I am so very sorry for your loss. Addiction is the destroyer of all it infests.

I'm confused so the father or brother messed the house up.?.

@facelessmusik

4 жыл бұрын

I thought it was that the father was a hoarder. When he died, the son became an alcoholic hoarder and obviously was very depressed. Did both the father and brother die? Badly worded, I don't know either..

that looks like my my place when i winded up in hospital

So sorry for your loss condolences to the whole family so sad 🙏🙏🙏🙏

What happened to the poor dog?

I’m so sorry for everyone’s loss my uncle(my best friend) was found dead on Monday by his room mate after years of abuse which got worse since we lost my grandmother (uncles mom) November 24th 2019 to COPD I guess it just got worse from there I’m heart broken my died died 3 yrs ago exactly a year another uncle died from cancer (my uncles brother) then 3yrs exactly he died on the 3rd anniversary of my father 3 of them on the same date years apart it’s 19 deaths in 3 years and 28deaths on my husbands side I’m honestly at breaking point and don’t know how much more I can take I have terminal illnesses myself and I shouldn’t be here but I am I’m only 31yrs and all of this is to much I don’t know what to do anymore

@barbryll8596

4 жыл бұрын

Hang in there Kathleen ❤️

I dont really understand. Did your brother die in your fathers house? Did he drink him self to death?

@czygyny

Жыл бұрын

Yes, he died in the house. We found him. He drank himself to death.

lets puts this in perspective. the alky sobers up with a wicked hangover and sees this mess, sez fuck it I will clean it later and gets drunk instead. when the body gets damaged from the alcohol, the drunk has little energy for sustained effort

@czygyny

6 жыл бұрын

I understand it...I just thought it was a terrible irony that I was the one to clean it since pops wrote me out of his will (says I understood why, but I haven't a clue!). My brother's kids got the money, which is quite fine with me...but the vision of finding his body in that dark house and the months of ensuing grunge work will NEVER leave my soul. Still, I have dad's music and history book collections, which I am glad to have.

My brother died the same way. And, my friend upstairs will too.

Kids if you take someone on a date and they drink don't give them a second date...this mess is symbolic of a drunks life...nip it in the bud

@Jennifer-di4nl

3 жыл бұрын

Most people who drink are not alcoholics.

Omg those toilets.

@maxdetwiler9770

4 жыл бұрын

Looks like pesto sauce

@benters3509

3 жыл бұрын

Thankfully I stopped watching before the usual "Shit-House shot".

Unfortunately my brother is following this path, I can get past him being hammered and trying to fight me and all that but when I see him passed out in his filthy room with natty ice and natty daddy cans everywhere it breaks my heart but if I ever say something to he get defensive and insist I worry about myself

@omen4122

5 жыл бұрын

Same happeneds to me but for my mother

@Samkilla99

5 жыл бұрын

OMEN I feel ya man my mom and step dad drank beer every night but never showed typical alcoholic signs they were pretty much great parents but the Drinking beer every night normalized it for us kids

I didn't want to watch this. This is my husband's bathroom, his office and our porch. All the doors have holes in them. I clean his bathroom when I can smell it through the door. Its embarrassing. Its humiliating. I can't have my own family over because of what he does to his areas of the house.

Thankyou for reminding me I have it pretty good.

Looks like my brother's office & bedroom. The only reason why the other areas of the house are okay is because he lives with a roommate that cleans up after himself. My brother's in total denial about his alcoholism & hoarding. I took pictures once & sent them to my parents. Got no responses.

A familiar picture from the already distant past. Complete chaos in the apartment, a vomited bathtub, a sink and a toilet smeared with shit - empty vodka bottles everywhere. Three delirium tremens and one intensive care unit. I found the strength to get out of all this. Already 12 years without alcohol I quit on my own - without the help of doctors, psychologists, etc.

I was 14 and it was summer in Texas. Everything was good, same ole same ole. I was at a friends house when my mom picked me up unexpectedly and told me dad was driving drunk and had gotten in a wreck. He was fine, thankfully, but still. He’d been on a downward spiral for thr past couple years. Me and my mom went to his apartment to check on his dog. And oh my god the mess. I still don’t really see my dad the same way. And to think when i was younger his house kinda looked like this, but not that bad. Maybe it was, i’m not sure. But he still got up every day, went to work, made triple figures. You never ever know a lerson

I'm just seeing this now. So very sorry

I have a sister who is a severe alcoholic. Her house looks just like this.

I just lost my uncle my best friend he was found dead on Monday because of his alcohol problem please from the bottom of my heart do not let your family suffer I am so so lost right now my family has been through HELL PLEASE PLEASE GET HELP BEFORE ITS TO LATE BECAUSE I AM STRUGGLING SO DAMN MUCH TO COPE WITH LOSING MY UNCLE HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND MY PROTECTOR AS I LOST MY FATHER 3 yrs ago and my uncle died on the day of my fathers anniversary and I am devastated a year after my father died my other uncle died from cancer both my uncles were brothers I lost my grandmother 24th November 2019 I’ve lost 19 people in 3 yrs and my husbands side has lost 28 people I am crushed I have terminal illnesses and I shouldn’t be here I have severe issues with my pancreas and had to have more than 3 quarters removed after I got gallstones in my pregnancy and I spent 2and a half months fighting for my life because of gallstones in my pregnancy I got septicaemia and was left in intensive care my husband got contacted 4 times to bring my children to say bye as it was the end for me my son was just 1yr old at the time and my daughter 3weeks old I didn’t drink I never had I was 19yrs old and I’m 31yrs now and my organs are failing they don’t know how I survived but I did now my body is shutting down my uncle had issues with his pancreas because of the drink and I will say the same I said to him I DID NOT ASK FOR WHAT HAPPENED TO ME I DIDNT DO ANYTHING TO MAKE MY BODY SUFFER I DIDNT KILL MY PANCREAS AND MAKE ME WORRY WHEN IM GOING TO GET THE PANCREAS CANCER WHICH IS 99.9% I will get it but when they can’t answer but they told me when I do it will be to late to do anything as there is no symptoms when they opened me up I had 12 cysts all over my pancreas and my pancreas was mush they had to suction it out because there was so much necrosis PLEASE FROM A 31yr old Desperate mother it’s never to late to change PLEASE I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO BE HERE FOR MY CHILDREN MY SON WILL TURN 14yrs on 17th feb and my daughter just turned 12yrs on Christmas Eve I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO BE HERE TO WATCH THEM GROW TO GO TO UNIVERSITY AND GET MARRIED AND HAVE CHILDREN AND BE HAPPY BUT I KNOW THAT IS JUST A DREAM PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GET HELP NOW!!!!😭😭😭😭😢😢😢💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

@czygyny

4 жыл бұрын

I hope your heart heals soon. Losing your life to substance abuse is such a waste, and it is destroying so many.

@kathleenwetherell1205

4 жыл бұрын

I tried so hard to help him I really did he did great for while and then he lost his mother my grandmother and I guess that destroyed him so much he knew he was my world I told him he knew he was my best friend my everything he was always there when I was in hospital and he knew I wouldn’t let him visit me in there if he had been drinking he knew that was the reason he couldn’t see my children I couldn’t let them see that it’s not what I want them to watch him destroy himself slowly he cried for me repeatedly because he couldn’t believe what he was doing to himself and making his pancreas screwed because of his own actions and he didn’t understand why it would happen to me when I have never ever touched drink he broke his heart he held me and kissed my cheeks and said he was so sorry I didn’t deserve what was happening to me but he did because he was selfish and I told him you are not selfish you have just lost the path you are supposed to follow he has ripped my heart into pieces and I don’t know how to fix it I’ve lost 19 people in 3 years damn and another 28people on my husbands side I’m DESTROYED completely and honestly I’m lost so lost right now he’s left so many people in pieces behind his twin sister will be destroyed she is in remission for cancer damn it hurts so much 😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔

@kathleenwetherell1205

4 жыл бұрын

The worst thing he died on the 3rd of February exactly 3 years since I lost my father he died in my arms I just turned 31yrs this stuff shouldn’t be happening I don’t understand what I ever did wrong to this world to deserve all of this

@czygyny

4 жыл бұрын

@@kathleenwetherell1205 You are certainly young too be experiencing so much loss. There is no explanation for it, but it truly is not because of anything you have done. The best you can do is let grief run its course, get counseling if you can, seek a Higher Power if you will, let time heal the wounds and then reach out and help others who are going through similar trials. Make it count for something, dear.

@kathleenwetherell1205

4 жыл бұрын

czygyny thankyou you truly are an amazing beautiful person and honestly your family are so lucky to have someone so amazing in there family

Very sad

Face in the sheets on the ground at 2:47?

@czygyny

7 жыл бұрын

I can't see it myself, but we are hardwired to see faces in patterns; pareidolia is the scientific name. The house had a depressive, dark and desperate spirit in it for a long time. After the contents cleared it became a much lighter, friendlier place but it was still in shadows.

@poseysalsman

6 жыл бұрын

I'm very sorry for your loss ma'am. Yes, I did see a face in the sheets there, still do, wish I could have you see from my mind's eye for just an instant and show you. I'm really sorry you lost your Brother, especially in this manner. It looks like the man was suffering, but at the very least he isn't anymore. Those left behind are the ones hurting so bad. My very best to you and yours through your hard times, God knows I've had them too. Thanks for posting this.

@utahboxergirl11

6 жыл бұрын

Posey Salsman I saw it too

@sophielouise4551

3 жыл бұрын

Yes I can see it too

@Redsnapper123

17 күн бұрын

It took me a while to see it but I saw it to.

It took me a month to get well and THEN the crazy mood swings hit! Happy, pissed off, sad, irate, horny, sad, pissed off, aggravated, sad, horny, really happy and all in the span of ten minutes! ALL DAY! This lasted a little more than two weeks. I literally could notice the mood swings smoothing out as the days went by.

So sorry my friend

I like how they attempted to use the dishwasher.

Before I sobered up my flat was like this, even worse though... mountains of bottles of vodka & wine. Most full of urine because i found it easier to pee in them than to stagger & tip toe around the mess without falling over. It was hell, pure hell... i have now finally seen the light! Alcoholism/addiction is no joke

@inosence8838

5 жыл бұрын

Andy Watts Please can you tell me how much alcohol per day you consumed? Thank you.

@andywatts3961

5 жыл бұрын

@@inosence8838 about 30 units.

@inosence8838

5 жыл бұрын

Andy Watts units or maybe ounces (?) Sorry, I'm from Australia and 30 units would be ⅓ of a bottle (it's not really that much) Sorry. Thank you dearly for replying though :)

@andywatts3961

5 жыл бұрын

@@inosence8838 yeah 30 units. So 3 bottles of wine ish. I would drink it in a short space of time & be fucked! Horrible times... are you having issues yourself?

Sorry for the loss of your brother. This house is like nothing I've ever seen before. I'm a heavy drinker but my house is clean and doesn't have all this junk around .

Good reminder, mine was close to that. Thank goodness i got help and dont drink anymore

Looks like my moms place😢

@myheartttt873

4 жыл бұрын

thats so sad to see ur mom living like that, i hope she realizes what she is doing to u one day

Starting to look familiar

@julies1ify

6 жыл бұрын

Vincent Lopresti, I hope your not in a bad place with booze Vince. Ive been down that road

@naturallyimperfect8399

5 жыл бұрын

@Tanker XL death will kill us all. Life is life until death approaches.

RIP Mum

Oh my goodness this is sad

so sad to see this i thank the lord for my parents and uncles who saved me put me in the 12 step program it saved me 23 years ago

I’m an alcoholic I drink Atleast half a 70cl bottle vodka every night and my house is nothing like this I still keep clean and tidy

Very sad been sober now fourteen years

@czygyny

3 жыл бұрын

And may it be so for the rest of your life. :-)

Never really a big issue with me ,but will only drink say a couple of bottles (lager) now, when I know when I’m finished I can’t get anymore ,and only once a week if at all

So sorry

My uncle's place looks like this, full of filth, old dried puke on floor, furniture etc. Garbage and empty bottles everywhere. And his toilet, let's just say that i would never sit down on it. He's been that way for a loong time. I have another relative who was drunk for 30 years, hardcore alcoholic. But his house was clean as a whistle, he cleaned his house even when he was extremely drunk. He's sober now. So how your place looks just depends on the person, that goes for normal people too.. God Bless you.

No words necessary....

Such a sad familiar story😔

Wow this looks like my room

I've been an alcoholic for 30 years. My house gets trash when I go on a big tear which might be a week or a couple of months, but there's more going on here than just alcoholism. That looks like meth use and maybe some hoarding. I'm hardcore and drink 24/7 when I decide to go on one. I've regularly drank Listerine and if that don't say hardcore I don't know what does. When you use meth, which I have a couple of times, it makes you just focus on what you're doing you just dig through shit and don't worry about putting it back together you got to find something and you just dig through everything like a Jack Russell

@oli19827

5 жыл бұрын

Yeah, you just kinda throw things aside.

@deebest4202

5 жыл бұрын

Believe me Joe, I live in England where meth is not a big problems and have come across many home like this, their only addiction was alcohol. Alcoholics are in final stag of alcoholism. All had clear symptoms of Wet brain syndrome