14 years clean and sober from Methamphetamines and heroin.

@monkeynumbernine

4 жыл бұрын

Awesome!! That's so great 🤩 I've been free from meth for 12 years 😁🎶

@meganflanders4785

4 жыл бұрын

god damn! congrats. that's a fucking accomplishment and I'm proud of you

@Sara-cr2tl

4 жыл бұрын

Proud of you!

@hatz5125

4 жыл бұрын

Congratulations 💕🎉

@phatdik3829

4 жыл бұрын

Let's bang

I'm 77 days off heroin

@Ephemeral_Exe

5 жыл бұрын

Congrats! I hope you’re still holding strong, you can make it :))

@phuketufc1746

5 жыл бұрын

I am so glad to hear that Ms.Tessa :) praying for your recovery emotionally, mentally and physically.

@queenariel5651

5 жыл бұрын

One day at a time, girl ❤️ Keep being amazing 😽

@labyrinthofabsinthe

5 жыл бұрын

i hope you’re well

@vangoghsear9221

4 жыл бұрын

Oh thats great! I wish u luck💖

China? Italy? Can we get a "Draw My Life" timeline on this?

@aspiebear1677

5 жыл бұрын

Yes I was thinking the same id like to know what her nationality is like is she half Italian and Chinese or what I like learning these things even about my self I’m part Spanish and Italian as well as Scottish

@Elvenpath

5 жыл бұрын

@@aspiebear1677 she's Italian and lived in 8 countries.

@jewelofyoutube

4 жыл бұрын

олен yes!

@MaddieMaddocks

4 жыл бұрын

@@Elvenpath I wonder what the parents do!

@JointFive

4 жыл бұрын

I'm more wondering the virginity roadmap, not a stalker

My 24 year old son Od'd a month ago. His drug of choice was coke. He was on a 3 day binge, went to buy more, the dealer "mistakenly" gave him the wrong baggie with happened to be heroin laced with fentanyl. Dealer didn't even tell him when he realized what he'd done. After one line, my son OD'd Pulp Fiction style. Luckily, his brother was there, heard him choking on his vomit and called 911. He died, they had to narcan him twice to revive him. He's lucky. The kid that died because of that same dealer the week after my son od'd was not so lucky. You never know, it CAN happen to anyone. And I think people need to talk about it more.

@Tamara-lg4nd

5 жыл бұрын

stacy collins wow I am so sorry

@BB-mm6bv

5 жыл бұрын

My friend od'd 5 years ago at a party. Her friends just stood there and watched her OD out of fear of calling the police to save her. Unfortunately, narcan wasnt unavailable. To find out that she could've lived breaks my heart.

@mossgoblin4206

5 жыл бұрын

Bey Bey look up the good samaritan law.

@BB-mm6bv

5 жыл бұрын

mo 919 thanks!

@steinistein8611

5 жыл бұрын

I really hope he ratted that dealer out for what he did to him and the other guy... I know it's not something to do, but under those circumstances, f* that dealer.

this isnt really on topic with the video, but i love how you get to the point and don't drag out long intros like every youtuber, makes you more genuine!

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Aw thank you so much. 💕

@MiuXiu

6 жыл бұрын

Same, I appreciate her so much. She is one of the only youtubers that I don't have to skip past the first 5 minutes to get to the point of the video.

@cathe-2179

5 жыл бұрын

Please like/subscribe and put notifications on before you have seen the video or even know anything about me 😉👍 lol every intro

@OriginalPinkPenguin

5 жыл бұрын

Juju I agree with this SO hardcore. We know your YT handle, I’m sure it’d be super easy to find you on all other platforms if we wanted to. But most KZreadrs shove that shit down our throats! 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

@emmyidamax

5 жыл бұрын

This is so true and often an underrated thing because I can’t tellll you how many KZread vids I click off of because it takes the KZread like five minutes to get the main point ://

drugs are bad mkay? I learned my leason from my older sister who started meth when she was 15 now she's sitting in prison. Watching an addict and not being able to help is the worst

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Wow, I am so sorry. 💕

@user-gj8od6xb5z

6 жыл бұрын

Feel you

@itsmarzentines

6 жыл бұрын

So sorry... Love the southpark reference tho

@creature_skin

6 жыл бұрын

You're not alone 💖 I used to use but I quit a few months ago. Someone I care about is still addicted and about to go to prison. It's so destructive 😞

@edenstrausbaugh5594

5 жыл бұрын

that reminded me of Mr. Macky xD(idk how to spell that)

PSA if y’all buy hard drugs still, get yourself some fentanyl testing strips. Be careful.

@heroinfathr

4 жыл бұрын

This is important. Saying "don't do drugs" doesn't help anyone. Harm reduction does way, way more

@staggerindan16

4 жыл бұрын

testing kits saved my life back when i did bad things. if ur gonna be a degenerate, be a responsible one

@chloe-elizabethward1961

4 жыл бұрын

my bestfriends' mum died because she took coke she didn't know was laced with fentanyl. i wish she had a testing kit because seeing my friend kayla go through that pain.... it hurts.

@mischa2643

4 жыл бұрын

The one the great loves of my life has been dead for over a year thanks to fentanyl and I am never going to be over it.

@christaphobia1613

4 жыл бұрын

My best friend just died from xanax laced with fentanyl. I wish there was testing easily available.

tbh it sounds like the first bit of coke you did might have been crank (street meth) or cut with it. Coke tends to, for the most part, wear off after twenty minutes or so. Hence why people blow through it so quickly. One might still feel jittery as they start to come down but staying high as long as you did plus not sleeping for two days without constantly blowing lines the entire time are all signs that point to amphetamines.

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

I actually had done about a gram and a half that night, so lines evert 15 mins, so it makes sense I'd stay up for a while.

@StinkyDustyBird

5 жыл бұрын

Awhile, not 2 days. I did a lot of coke back in the day.

@MayinaAWA

5 жыл бұрын

Exactly what I was thinking, coke doesn't really work like that... it sounds like meth to me

@honeyyb

5 жыл бұрын

@@JourneysCurrentEvents opiates don't keep you up for days unless you're in withdrawal. However, a lot of uppers get cut with meth bc it's cheap to make and has a similar effect, so you usually won't know it's got meth in it until the come down.

@honeyyb

5 жыл бұрын

@@JourneysCurrentEvents Yea but you don't experience physical withdrawals from one use.

I bet your neighbours would be dead quiet if they only saw the look you gave them through the wall 😹

@notmyselfusee

6 жыл бұрын

Beatrice Pop haha how funny would that be if she had that picture like that and slid it under the door.

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

LMAOOOO

You ain't spilling tea on yourself. You had a problem. You over came something that kills, imprisons, and send us to mental institutions. People judge too much. Bravo chika. Bravo! I just subscribed, cause of the "realness".

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

💕💕💕 Thank you for being so nice.

@gypsywoman9140

5 жыл бұрын

The way society is going, though, if she didn't 'fess up to her dark period then blew up huge, some asshat would end up spilling tea from the past and painting her as shady....and people would fall for it.

@pineslucille1392

4 жыл бұрын

Yeah...

@DayanaraDays

4 жыл бұрын

This.

I have never had a drop of alcohol. I'm almost 30. I'm staunchly boring like that. Glad you are more healthy and clear headed now. I had brain surgery at age 17 and decided I would never do any of that since I am already brain damaged.

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Wow. I don't think it's boring at all. Good on you. I am glad you're well. 💖

@ElpSmith

5 жыл бұрын

People can call you boring all they want but at least you’re healthy and will never fall into the trap of addiction.

@Elvenpath

5 жыл бұрын

Good for you! I'm 24, never been drunk in my life, never tried smoking and never even seen drugs. Some people call me biting and a prude, I tell those people to go f themselves.

@brontebell7748

5 жыл бұрын

Actually what youre doing is really cool. If you cant have fun without alcohol than that's pretty sad. So kudos to you homie.

@Childfreedollar

5 жыл бұрын

Its not boring at all! I am 19, have drank alcohol (beer, vodka, rum, wine) at special occasions and honestly I don't even like the taste of it, makes me wanna puke everytime I'm even close to it. Lol

"I did about 7 shots of absynthe" EXCUSE ME I FEEL LIKE WE SHOULDN'T JUST BREEZE PAST THAT WITHOUT MORE INFORMATION

@Ae-ne5iy

5 жыл бұрын

She saw the green yaba faerie

@moonsovermyhamii

4 жыл бұрын

she also followed that up with “i was probably only tipsy” my ass would be dead lmao

@AliciaM5555

4 жыл бұрын

She's European so she's probably used to alcohol.

@hopedh7365

4 жыл бұрын

7 shots of anything is fucking lethal

@lolalu7749

2 жыл бұрын

Some absinthe is only 45%, so just slightly more than most vodkas. I’m guessing she was referring to the lower volume kind

i’m a month clean :)

@aquilaorion3531

6 жыл бұрын

lindsey cassano keep it up! You're doing great!

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

CONGRATULATIONS !! 💕💕💕💕

@MorphineSulphateIR

6 жыл бұрын

Congratulations! That is fantastic!

@suez7615

6 жыл бұрын

A month is fucking huge! Keep going, soon you'll have a year, then ten. Things will get hard, but I can honestly say the shittiest day sober is better than my best days high. I don't have to feel guilty about anything, I found to sleep without worrying someone is angry at me, I have my family back. It's so much better this way, even when life gets shitty. But don't get too confident, that's when you a susceptible to failing. However, please don't beat yourself up if you relapse. It happens to the best of us. I relapsed very early in the beginning and dwelling on it almost brought back the addict. It almost gave me enough sick justification ti just give up. Remember to be kind to yourself and lean on those you love. Happy 1 month and here's to many more.

@czarofhalloween

6 жыл бұрын

Good work and it’s just the beginning which is fucking awesome

Refreshing to here someone talk about stuff like this. I was clean for 5 years, relapsed and I’ve been clean for 7 months now. And it’s nice to see that people go through this, so you don’t feel so alone. So, thank you.

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

YAY !! Congratulation to you for being clean!! 💕

@rea.neeko.artemis

6 жыл бұрын

hi bethany, hope you're still going strong!! you can do this

@jaebby9695

5 жыл бұрын

I’m still struggling thru my addiction, having trouble being able to get clean. I wish there was just some “cure all” type pill 😭

@amandakaricunningham4116

5 жыл бұрын

jae bby it's not a cure all pill...but have u tried Subutex or Suboxone? I'm on Subutex myself and it literally has saved my life.

@bellatrix8751

5 жыл бұрын

If you're addicted to opiates, try getting into a methadone clinic. I am 2 years clean thanks to methadone. It makes it so you don't have to go through the physical withdrawals, and once your dose gets to a good spot, it also helps with the mental addiction. One day I was on 95mg and still using every day. The day after my dose increased to 100mg, I went straight home instead of to meet my dealer. When you hit your correct dose, at least for me, it was like instant that I suddenly was free from the mental addiction and could just live my life.

19 months clean off heroin here 👍🏼👍🏼

@rajaa8368

5 жыл бұрын

proud of you 👏👏👏❤️😊

@JE-ng4ty

5 жыл бұрын

You had 19 likes for 19 months and noe you have 20 for your 20th month!💜

@jesuschrist788

4 жыл бұрын

Congrats girl! 👍☺

@user-um9if2gk5x

4 жыл бұрын

That's such a huge step. Stay positive

@madnessman1520

4 жыл бұрын

@@rajaa8368 no hate but why did you do it in the first place

I lost my younger brother to heroine at the beginning of this year. He struggled with drugs for about 5 years, was in and out of different rehab programs, but couldn't shake it. He lived in a sober house in the same city as me about a year and a half ago. One day, I got a call from my mother that he was in the hospital and I needed to get him. He had done heroine and, somehow, ended up leaving his car on the side of the road and was picked up by an ambulance. I'll never forget picking him up and having him swear to me it wasn't drugs. The doctor gave him some literature on the dangers of drugs, and I told him that they don't just give that to someone unless they found drugs in their system. He finally admitted to me that it was heroine and I told him that if I had to go to his funeral because he overdosed I would never forgive him. Then, on February 24th of this year, I got a call from my parents. My mom told me that we lost him. It was the worst feeling I have ever experienced - and am still experiencing. To anyone that is going through drug addiction, I urge you to seek help. You have no idea what it is like to be on the other side of things, watching your loved one struggle like that and then to never get to see them again. My brother was 22. He had his whole life ahead of him, and it was taken by drugs. Sorry for the long paragraph, every time I see a video like this it brings back all of the pain and I feel the need to share. I'm glad that you were able to kick the habit, and hope that you stay strong.

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

I am so sorry about your brother. 💖

@fifi6958

6 жыл бұрын

DickleTickle thank you for sharing your story. i’m so sorry you & your family had to go through that. may your brother rest in peace ❤️

@Ecanbee

6 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your brother. I have never lost a sibling but I have lost several friends to heroin. The pain of losing them was all encompassing so I can’t even imagine what you’ve been through.

@MissxoAlisha

5 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry.. Ugh. Such an evil drug. My baby brother is an addict. Its hard.. Hugs and healing to you and your family. ❤

@lysslenae3170

5 жыл бұрын

It’s really hard to lose somebody go through that, I’ve been clean from heroin about a year and realized how selfish I was being but at the time I didn’t see it that way. I thought I’d never overdose and I’m sure your brother never pictured that happening. Prayers to you and your family.

I spent the entire video staring at your eyelashes and had to watch it a second time...

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Ahahaah thank you !!

@aliciaaliciawebb6182

5 жыл бұрын

Megan John same tho

@queenelizabethi5868

5 жыл бұрын

Yep 🤣

@katiekiyohara4330

5 жыл бұрын

What lashes are these ?! ♡♡

@misstreas84

5 жыл бұрын

Yes WHAT LASHES ARE THOSE?…………

I love your message of don’t underestimate the power of just using one time. It’s so true! I’m glad you’re doing well.

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much! 💖

9:35 Drug "vacations" like those are the worse. The moment you relapse and realize you haven't changed at all is soulcrushing.

God bless you hon. Thank you for your honesty. I'm a 36 year old divorced mom of the two most amazing teenage sons in the world. In 2007 I had to have several back to back surgeries and I was having daily migraines. I'm sure you see where this is going. I was put on narcotics and became addicted. Every time I got clean I'd have to have another surgery and it would start over again. In 2009 my verbally and emotionally abusive husband decided to divorce me because of the pain meds and he tried to get full custody with supervised visitation. My kids are my world and he was trying to take them from me. I got clean again and have been since 2009 and we ended up with joint custody which sucked. My kids and I were miserable being apart every other week. Now that they are both of age to choose who they want to live with, I'm going back to court to try for full custody. We go to court in a couple of weeks and I know he's going to play dirty. I'm praying that the court will do what is right for my kids. All this evil because I accidentally became addicted to pain pills. My heart goes out to you and I'm praying for you

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Wow good luck for the full custody! Also, congratulations on your sobriety! 💖

@crystalclear6661

5 жыл бұрын

Sara glittermepink I understand more then you know hun 💖💖

@fuzzyfoods710

5 жыл бұрын

Well done for staying so strong at a time of great emotional and physical pain!

@hunterm8152

4 жыл бұрын

Sara glittermepink you lost custody because u were addicted to pain pills not because ur ex is evil

@TheFreakiestShow27

4 жыл бұрын

@@hunterm8152 Yeah and now she's trying to take the kids away from their dad while HE did care for them when she wasn't able to, like wtf...

I am a recovering addict from everything but mainly heroin and xanax.I was active for 13 years (5 years clean) if I hadnt met my husband id have been dead within a month....two years before that I lost my mom and my son within 8 days. I literally tried to kill myself everyday (well I wasn't like determined to kill myself or id have succeeded but I would do as much dope as I could before my nose clogged and a big ol handfull of xanax. And when id wake up and realize I was still living this miserable life I would do it again and be back out for a day or five) but my now husband told me that if I wanted to be with him and be around his daughter than I couldn't be all messed up (he was also a recoveing addict and he had 2 years) his daughter was so loveable and adorable and she had no mommy and was attached to me at the hip the first time I met her.....all I ever wanted was to be a mama and after losing 3 babies all together I thought I would never be a mother to my own children. She was my baby and I was her motherly figure and I could not choose the drugs over them. So I quif....I took suboxin for a while for the dope withdraws and it helped but I still suffered a few minor seizures from the xanax withdraw . anyways now I have my own rainbow baby as well and I love my life and to think 5 years ago I thought life wasn't worth living is crazy to me now. I still suffer with bipolar depression anxiety and adhd. It gets hard at times having a war waging in my head,but I manage it well and life is still a precious gift! Its all on what you make of it and what you do or don't do to make it better!!!

@marzipanmango

6 жыл бұрын

Courtney Marks I just have anxiety and ADHD, and that's already difficult to deal with- I can't imagine the other stuff on top of it! The most amazing, wise and empathetic people I know all happen to have been through really tough times (losing family, addictions, mental illnesses, being socially isolated/lonely, prostitution, attempted suicide, etc.) at different points in their lives. I definitely think adversity shapes people, often for the better, if they manage to survive it. I'm glad you're doing great now :D

@roxyn6187

6 жыл бұрын

Courtney Marks I am glad you are ok. I am on Suboxone and have been for over a year and a half. It’s been the most horrific experience of my life. I am a mother of three and it’s affected my ability to work, relationships, friendships, ability to be a good mother, family, and health. I was a “functioning” addict to pain killers for three years and Xanax that my doctor would prescribe me. He prescribed 60 norco every two weeks for migraines. I finally got help after a couple instances of not getting refills fast enough and wanting to die. I never want to feel that way again and I now have permanent high blood pressure I will deal with and take medications for the rest of my life to treat. I hope through spreading awareness, we can help get people to think it won’t get them addicted, because I was someone who never did drugs and I never had trouble with alcohol. I thought it would never happen to me. I got my degree and was working full time, so I thought I didn’t have a problem. I am so lucky to have gotten the help because it’s very expensive, but I hope through sharing our stories, more people will seek the help they need without being ashamed. It’s way easier to resolve early on, rather than waiting and doing permanent damage. I appreciate you sharing your story and I am glad you are ok now. I hope I can wean off the Suboxone without any trouble, but we shall see. I have to just be stronger all of us who have gone through recovery even without Suboxone. Life is a special gift and many people going through the motions forget that so easily.

@freethegays

6 жыл бұрын

so inspiring.

@minusthewhitney

6 жыл бұрын

Courtney you are such a fucking champion! That story is insane and for you to have made it out alive and clean is a miracle! But due to your strength, courage and motivation from your now husband you are doing this damn thing! I'm celebrating 5 years clean off heroin this January and I never thought I'd be here. I'm dealing with some serious panic attacks lately and side effects of anxiety that have been making my day to day life difficult to say the least. Each day has its own challenges but I never think that anything could be solved by using. I lost a lot of friends and trust from my family but I have my health and my son and soul mate. Thank you for sharing your story hun! I'm sure your husbands daughter is very happy to have you in her life.

@ChelseyChannel

6 жыл бұрын

Love this.

im two weeks clean

@kaylaq5670

6 жыл бұрын

It only gets easier, you made it past the hardest part, which was actually quitting. Your mind is going to try to trick you, but you just have to keep reminding yourself why you quit and stick to it. Trust me, I know, easier than it sounds. But if I could do it, anyone can!

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Congratulations!! You can do it! 💖💖 Keep going !! 💖💖💖

@xlectraheart

6 жыл бұрын

Are you now 8 months clean?

@lspbeautea4791

5 жыл бұрын

Have you celebrated a year?

@cloud1036

5 жыл бұрын

I hope you have been clean for a year! 💕💕

i’m never, EVER touching alcohol or drugs. both parents alcoholic. call me boring idgaf, i will not even have friends that do drugs.

@xcid9925

4 жыл бұрын

Bitzy that's the smartest decision you can make. both of my parents were coke addicts and severe alcoholics. my moms been clean for about 5 years (im 16) but my father is nowhere to be found and it's been that way since i was 3. but i let my issues get the rest of me and got addicted to adderral and oxy's. im 6 months clean, but i regret everything. you're a smart person for deciding to stay away from that stuff. i hope you stay dedicated 💛

@Bitzy

4 жыл бұрын

x c i d good job on 6 months clean! i’m sorry you had to go through those things with your parents. keep up the great work and remember if a relapse does happen it’s not the end of the world, you just gotta get back up and keep on going.

@Thepinkxx

4 жыл бұрын

good choice girl

Talking about drug addiction is really really hard. For many many different reasons. I applaud you for talking about your story. Stay clean, gorgeous 🙏

If your coke makes you awake for days, its not coke

@soleilmusicx8330

5 жыл бұрын

David dupree Drugs affect everyone differently.

@KM-ld9ln

5 жыл бұрын

Curls xo mmmm coke doesn’t do that

@Chickadeebunny

5 жыл бұрын

it’s not coke, it’s ice.

@linziRyan1965

5 жыл бұрын

Absolutely. Meth all the way.

@lowriderslugg

5 жыл бұрын

David dupree affects everyone differently, and if you are doing lines on lines on lines....and you keep doing it all night, obviously it’s gonna make you stay up for a long time after.

Becomes friends with drug dealer Brings stuff for his mom I'm living

@michaelhaydenbell

5 жыл бұрын

They're people too. They're not movie villains. You can be friends with them. Crazy.

@punpuniia

5 жыл бұрын

^

@evelien135

4 жыл бұрын

One of my friends used to be a drug dealer, after he himself got clean 2 years before 😅 I new him before but we became friends in the time I would buy coke from him on weekends. I’ve stopped using it about 1,5 years ago and he’s stopped dealing almost a year ago. We now drink afternoon tea on Wednesday 😂

@tessseymour5333

4 жыл бұрын

Its weird but shit like that happens, i became "friends" with a drug dealer and she had kids older then me and the dealer would give me money to buy her daughter things and help around the house. Shits weird.

@evelien135

4 жыл бұрын

Tess Seymour everyone’s just getting by. I think you have to be really be a type of way to get higher up the chain. Most people have a reason why they can’t work a regular job so they just take it on as a way of making money out of the house.

When you started having eating disorders that was allready a sign that there was something hurting inside. In those moments we can't see what's wrong, we just feel it, a kind of blurred unease and unacceptance of ourselves. I'm happy that you were able to overcome the drug trap.

Jesus that is terrifying that you did coke in CHINA. Like just the fact that the government there is scary as hell. Appreciate you sharing your story. I was addicted to heroin when I was 19. Very sad how many young people are going through this.

@rand0mdude779

2 жыл бұрын

At least she didn’t happen to be studying in Russia, where they had quite a problem with this particular drug called крокодил which had similar affects to heroin and literally rotted the skin of the user off

"Lets get fucked up" *disappointed groan*

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

LOL

Thank you for talking and opening up like this. I can relate to you so much. I was a very "gifted" student. I was enrolled in a school with the top notch students. I fell into depression during my teen years after a horrible incident. I stopped caring. I started using EVERYTHING! I was sober briefly after joining the Army.. then I went back onto drugs when I came home from Iraq. I've been sober for 3 years, going onto 4. I wish you all the best on KZread, and life!

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Wow. Props to you for even being in the army and going to Iraq. Congratulations on your sobriety. 💕💕💕💕 You are strong individual.

“Don’t underestimate the power drugs can have on you” This is one of the most important things I’ve ever heard anyone say about drug use. I am an addict who has struggled for 14 years. I will be clean for a year this coming September. You are so fortunate to have the self awareness to know you were fucking up and to quit while you’re ahead. I was one of those people who thought I was ok and In control and was doing it because “I wanted to”. I moved 700 miles away and had to go into treatment and I’m glad I did because the therapy is the only thing that helps me break the habit. I used on and off over the years but my most recent bender was by far the worst. I died 5x that year and still couldn’t stop. It’s awful and my heart goes out to all the sick and suffering addicts still out there. Thank you for sharing your story. I think a lot about starting a channel and talking about it but it’s hard to just do it. I’m not ashamed of my past and I know it helps to hear of others who have been in the same place.

@lilya2906

4 жыл бұрын

I’m so glad you’re clean! My mother has struggled with drugs and she’s almost a year clean as well 😊

My opiate/heroin addiction began at the age of 13 years old. I was a fast pitch softball pitcher in middle school, I was really good and scholarships seemed an inevitable part of my future, but I ended up hurting my shoulder, benching me for that season. I had surgery on my shoulder, up until this point in my life, I had socially experimented with illicit substances, like weed, cocaine, alcohol, xanax, and speed, the only drug I did on a frequent basis was weed, and when I say frequent basis I mean like 2-3xs a week. After my surgery I was given a prescription for 120 tablets of Percocet 10mgs, my high school "gf" then turned me on to snorting them and that if I took 3 or 4 at one time would get me fucked up. That first Percocet buzz/high was game over for me, I just wasn't aware, nor could I have fathomed at that time, the immense suffering, misery, loneliness, pain, and hopelessness being conceived for my future, that would ultimately give birth to my darkest struggles, my deepest fears, and my greatest desires. Long story shortened a bit! I got pregnant with my daughter at 16, I was 17 when she was born and a full blown pain pill addict for the past 2 years or so. At 17, with a 4 month old daughter I attempted to get clean for the first time, it was a lock down facility bout 2 hours away from where I lived, but because I was still only 17, I was considered a minor and put on the adolescent psychiatric unit, it was a shitty 2 weeks where the only concern was to medicate me and keep medicating me for whatever they chose to diagnose me with, there was no focus on my pill addiction, the reason I sought help to begin with. I relapsed in less than 48 hours of being released, a few months later I attempt to get clean again, this time I'm 18, an adult and returning to the same facility as I previously did, I was put on the Adult Substance Abuse Unit, obviously where I needed to be, well after a 5 days cold turkey detox, they again want to start medicating me for bipolar, for insomnia, for depression, for this and for that, never addressed my addiction, when I refused to be medicated and declined to take any medication they attempted to have me take, I was told I would be discharged that I couldn't remain there if I wasn't being treated for something with medication, so after 5 days I was discharged and relapsed that night. I did 2 weeks at another treatment center specially for addiction, it was awesome, a few months after the prior 5 day joke, but unfortunately I relapsed in less than 24 hours of leaving that facility against medical advise. I did manage to find a program in 2006 that helped me to get and remain clean until my last relapse in 2009. From 2009-2013 I went to jail multiple times, I worked as an escort to support my full blown IV heroin and crack addiction,I tried various other inpatient, outpatient, meetings etc, I stayed in various shady and grimy motels, I had extremely toxic and even immensely harmful relationships, though my son was born in 2012 and was something truly good, purely perfect, and became a power combined with my daughter that would be my future strength. I overdosed twice, both times having to be revived via the electrical shock from the paddles, I yearned for death, I genuinely hoped that each time I pushed that dope in my veins it'd be the push that killed me, I wanted death more than death wanted me. Early May 2013 I found myself, with my sons sperm donor, my mom had custody of my kids by now, sleeping on a basketball court, everything we owned in two suitcases hidden in some underbrush nearby, getting high in a porta potty, using every dollar i made to get high instead of eating, or a place to shower and sleep, I knew that I was going to have the death I so desperately believed I wanted. I had made a prior appointment 2 months earlier to begin the one treatment program that kept me clean for 3 years before, and with my desire and will to live outweighing that of my desire and will to use and die, I got clean May 23 2013! Moved back home November 2013, Department of Social Services awarded me full/sole custody of my daughter and son on February 5 2014, and I'm beyond proud to say that I will celebrate 6 years clean on May 23 2019! My daughter is 13 and my son is 6 and life is great today, I'm glad life chose me,even when I didn't choose life or want to live!! My addiction of 10+ years was set into motion from the feeling I got from a pill, a legally prescribed medicine from a legitimate, board certified orthopedic surgeon, I can't help but to wonder every now and then what if I had never had the surgery....... Anyway, after 10+ years of active addiction, I am clean now, and this is the longest I've ever remained clean continuously, recovery is possible, where there is life, there is to HOPE, may it be great and grand, or miniscule and meager, HOPE it remains, unaltered, and unlimited through its greatest to smallest possessions!

@hollyinhell

4 жыл бұрын

Holy shit. If you can get to such an intense low and still get clean... anyone can.

@acidbath3226

4 жыл бұрын

percocet aint even shit

Ex drug addict here so bravo to you honey for being open and raw with us. We appreciate you xxx

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Aw thank you !! 💖 And so glad you're alive and well!! 💖💖💖

@fifi6958

6 жыл бұрын

DropbearKelly Autism Mummy vlogs bravo to you for being able to add the “ex”!! 💙

@dropbearkellyevehammond4446

6 жыл бұрын

Fifi • Thank you both Fifi and Julia. The love for my children was the motivation and still is the motivation to stay clean of prescription drugs. Even though right now is the most challenging time of my life. Much love and light to you both- beautiful caring souls ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

@Anna92781

5 жыл бұрын

*recovering* drug addict babe! Remember, we're always going to be addicts, but we can be *recovering* addicts! Don't forget how powerful this disease is. It will always be there waiting. Stay strong!

I've been sober for 3years god bless 😇 when I kicked it I got the sweat colds it sucks life's a bitch 😊 p.s I'm in my 20s and a virgin to😂

@lili-xx1xw

6 жыл бұрын

congrats!

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Good on you for your sobriety!! 💕💕💕

I wish this shirt said Eat your drugs Stay in vegetables Dont do school

"Done Weed" lol Also... Are you sure he didn't give you Meth? Cuz I have never heard of anyone staying up for 2 days from a lil blow. Just a thought.

@sallaiina8603

4 жыл бұрын

Thought the same

@jessicaharvey3811

4 жыл бұрын

It could of been laced with meth tbh I've had all kinds of dope and I've gotten coke laced with meth and vise versa

@JMill-bs6xt

4 жыл бұрын

Jessica Harvey ya that shit was probably cut

@itzwoody1649

4 жыл бұрын

Jessica Harvey so you’ve had meth laced with coke? That doesn’t sound very smart from the dealers perspective

@PenguinNoodleSoup

4 жыл бұрын

Is smoking weed an action yes or no? It's just like saying no I haven't done any schoolwork.

Thank-you so much for being so honest about your eating disorder. I've been living with Anorexia since the age of 9, at 11 I developed a pretty bad addiction to pain medication. Hearing someone you look up talk about this sorta thing so openly, is so damn refreshing 😊 I totally understand how bad addiction is, overcoming it is amazing, congratulations ❤️ Oh my gosh! 23k! You are growing like crazy! ❤️❤️

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for hearing me out. I am so sorry you've dealt with this!! 💕💕💕

@expressionlessentities8197

6 жыл бұрын

oh no need to be sorry! our struggles make us the person we are xxx

@expressionlessentities8197

6 жыл бұрын

Spotlessmind Thank- you ❤️❤️❤️

@suez7615

6 жыл бұрын

You can do this! Those of us who have struggles are more than equipped to overcome them. Just remember that you're worth it to keep fighting.

@expressionlessentities8197

6 жыл бұрын

Sue Z Thank-you so so so much xxx

~My queen uploads~ ~i like~

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

💕💕💕💕

@Kirstenmarshall

6 жыл бұрын

I think she's so beautiful.

The old DARE programs should’ve had more personal testimony like this, and not just like totally strung out crack heads, but ppl who can appear normal but still have a serious problem. Maybe it would’ve been effective then lol

@chanellee9762

4 жыл бұрын

Anyone else besides me sat thru D.A.R.E. thinking, "I can't wait to grow up so I can try this stuff!"

I am one of your followers and I guess you’d say “fan” and I am 66 friggen years old. Yes it’s true. This was an awesome video. Been there done that. You have wisdom beyond your years. I am going to share this with my grandkids. Your advice to just not underestimate it all was the best advice I’ve ever heard.

wow i never even realized you lived in shanghai, do you have more videos talking about your personal life? specifically living in china?

I’m an alcoholic and have just recently started going to AA. My addiction also started for a similar reason. I dated this guy who I gave literally everything to and he ghosted me. Straight up ignored me and now he is dating another girl. I believe he ghosted me because he met her and I was out of the country. So I started drinking alone every day passing out. I was also going out on nights out getting so drunk that I had to be driven home by friends partners or family because taxis wouldn’t take me. I was getting drunk at work and going to university wasted. Finally I went to get help a few weeks ago and I’m starting to rebuild my life. You have really inspired me to keep going! 💖

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Wow. I am so sorry about the guy. I am so glad you've gotten help!! 💖💖 Thank you for being so kind and I hope things get easier from here on!! 💖💖💖💖

@fifi6958

6 жыл бұрын

Acacia Moon i know i don’t know you, but i’m extremely proud of you.

@Jennifer-un7qo

5 жыл бұрын

This also sounds so so similar to me...I hope you're doing well ❤

@lolas6672

5 жыл бұрын

I was treated similarly by an ex (ghosted me after I gave him everything) so I understand and it was a dark time for me too. Lots of drinking and drugs. Remember that you’re not alone and that you’re worth taking care of. Congratulations on seeking help. ❤️❤️❤️

Your honesty is beautiful. When I speak of my past drug problems I feel severely judged

@hj6507

5 жыл бұрын

I have to admit I get very uncomfortable and judgmental when people speak to me of drug use... It's hard for me because my childhood was ruined by a parent that used drugs and that's where my aversion comes from. I want people to be free to be their true selves and own their stories but that topic is hard for me. It's something I have to work on. I hope that you have people in your life who don't judge you and listen to you 💕

Thank you for your openness and honesty...I love seeing all these collective years sober... Keep up the hard work, everyone

You’re brave to talk about such a personal experience.I think it’s a good story, especially for anyone who may be struggling with coming clean about their addictions! And viewers like myself are interested in -not just your videos- but -you- as a person! Thank you for sharing. I’m glad you are here on KZread 🖤🖤

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much! 💕💕💕💕 I am so honored people like you are here to listen!! 💕

I was addicted to mdma and coke a year ago, i turned out a mess, drugs are fun but if you abuse them it seriously destroys you

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Ugh, I am so sorry you had those issues too. 💕

@mads4449

6 жыл бұрын

I got in with the wrong crowd when I was 16! I'm all good now though and I'm glad you are too, could you possibly do a video about heartbreak? if you've ever been heartbroken, lots of love from england xx

@Hailz12211

5 жыл бұрын

I've seen my youngest brother flip on these drugs. For this reason. Scared the shit out of me and now even more im like nope.

@deanmcelwee5791

4 жыл бұрын

Mdma isn't addictive tho

@acidbath3226

4 жыл бұрын

mda is fucking nuerotoxic. shit does more damage than LSD or psilocybin ever could

I'm so so happy that you could see you had a problem, and took the time and effort to fix it. I lost both my parents to their addictions (alcohol, opiates). Drug addiction is a very important and touchy subject for me, and I nearly cry with joy when I hear stories like yours! You are such a strong person, I applaud you.

I'm a year and 2 months clean. Thank you for having the guts to share this with us. We shouldnt have to be afraid to talk about this, especially when you are succeeding in your sobriety. Its an everyday, for the rest of your life thing and no one knows that struggle but anyone who is a recovering addict. Stay strong and thank you so much for your bravery and congradulations on your sobriety!!!👍✊💗

Eh, if people ask why you didn't go to rehab, don't bother answering. It's not their business how you recovered, the fact that you share the information of you being in recovery is enough. Thank you for sharing your story. People underestimate addiction all the time, the underestimate what it does to your brain and body, they don't consider all the things it takes from you. My parents also tried to blame themselves and I told them a hundred times it wasn't them. Yes, I got addicted to my pain medication, like so many people, but there was nothing they could do. Even when they were controlling my meds, I would lie and steal to make sure I never went through withdrawal. Accountability is huge for recovery and it does facilitate the transition between active use and I recovery. I recognize that at one point I was no longer in control and while I honestly didn't think addiction was going to happen, I am still to blame for all my actions while using and I feel terrible about them all the time. The best I can do is try to be a better person now. Good luck in continuing your recovery, you have so much potential (as is the case with many addicts) and I'd hate for you to waste it.

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much !! 💖 I am sorry you dealt with a similar issue as well. I am glad you're doing better now !! 💖

@anoncounts7822

3 жыл бұрын

@@READYTOGLARE I hope I see your mugshot for drug trafficking :). This video is evidence that can be used against you.

"Don't underestimate what using once can do to you." It hurts how true that is. How did you manage the withdrawal symptoms? In helping people in my life to overcome their addictions, that's the one thing I've never been able to offer them a lifeline with, and I know that the withdrawal is such a crucial part of kicking it.

Thank you, for the raw bare facts. Most people bubblegum it up, or throw blame around or just refuse to tell the truth. That was a very raw, very clean view. Most wouldn’t do that. Thank you, again.

You are so brave to share your story, I can't imagine the time it took to tell your story. I had a really bad drug addiction and I'm sober for two months, and I will never go back to that lifestyle. You are an inspiration. I was able to get over it myself with the support from my family. Years and years of drugs fucked up my brain, and now I have hallucinations now even without drugs. I am now dealing with the after effects. you're absolutely right, taking accountability is the first step in rehabilitation. Love you.

I am binge watching your videos and I completely adore you. Wow this was so intense but you're so damn strong for overcoming this. I had a drinking problem when I was 17-19 like I needed vodka to get the edge off. It was highly foolish. Im thankful I'm over that and I'm thankful to you for sharing your stories too. I truly hope your channel grows xo

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Aw thank you so much 💖💖💖 I am so sorry you dealt with a similar issue yourself. I am glad you're done with it.

I love you so much. I'm currently cleaning the hell hole of my room, and I'm just... Listening to you talking about different topics. Thank you for creating these videos!

I just discovered your channel through the Tiger King videos, and just watched this one! I love your honest, no bullshit approach to all of your videos and am glad you're still alive to tell your story. I celebrate 13 years clean and sober this week! Thanks for telling your story and making great content!🖤🖤

“ya girl was on a wild one” literally the reasons for all my bad decisions. but for real i think it’s amazing that you’re so open aboht it because many people would try and keep it secret and pretend it didn’t happen. you truly are an inspiration xx

Thank you for sharing your story. I’m a heroin addict, I’ve gone through periods of sobriety and relapse for about 5 years now. It’s truly so isolating and just... disconnects you from reality. I’m working on myself now and trying to be the best person I can be. Addiction is hard but sometimes sobriety is harder. I’m constantly trying to reassure myself that doing the next right thing will be worth it.

@blumerlredpilledgirl8958

4 жыл бұрын

I’m not sure where you live but NA helped me, find me. I used for 8 years now been clean for 44 years. Find a meeting in your area and check it out. Peace.

I'm sick in bed so I've been watching all your videos. In my head we are now best friends haha. I love your logic. I don't know anyone like you. Thank you for sharing your experience with addiction. It was very introspective and self aware.

i have a lot of respect for you for talking about this stuff so openly and honestly (recently discovered your channel, sorry, i know this is an old video, but i've been kinda binge watching your stuff; i think you're really awesome as a person in general) also, i'm glad you managed to get through your problem as well as you did. i'm someone who's been using every drug on this earth in circles over the last 4 years (im 18 currently), and have had serious issues for the last 2 years which i've not yet managed to kick, especially since the loops are so dense when you use daily for years on end... it's nice to hear you were able to talk to your family about it as well, and that they were understanding and helpful, cause a lot of people (myself included) don't have that ability... anyway, much love to you x

I’ve always loved your channel, but I have so much more appreciation & respect for you after watching this video. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so happy to hear that you’re sober now and healthy. I struggled with heroin addiction myself, and as of today I’m 6 months sober. To this day that drug haunts and tempts me. NEVER underestimate what using just once will to do you. I almost lost my life because of it.

My freshmen year of college I was a stoner. I know a lot of people just think its weed but I would smoke every day sometimes even go to class stoned and stay up till 5am high as hell. The only reason why I stopped is because I moved out of my dorm to go back to live with my mom and she's super strict on any form of drugs and she knew there was something going on because I was always asking for money and I felt horrible using her money for weed. I also stopped because now I am working and they do random drug tests all the time.

@Sam-ze3hr

6 жыл бұрын

edwardlovrr I feel like a lot of people are ignoring the fact that any drug can be addictive, whether that be heroin, weed, or even sugar. It all depends on what's going on in your life and if you're using the drug as a coping mechanism or not. I would love for weed to be legalized at least medically but also recreational, so no shade against weed (and sugar is delicious lol), I just feel like because of the movement to end prohibition people are trying to paint it as if it isn't a drug at all. Like when people say "it's not a drug, it's a plant" like, fuck off. I'm cutting down on smoking myself but I'm not addicted. I only smoke when I'm bored (which is often and also why I'm cutting back) and I make sure to NEVER smoke to ignore my problems because that's what leads to addiction. I'm glad you got out of that funk. Also sorry for this little rant but I just wanted to say thay lol.

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

YES !! Good on you, girl! 💖

@acidbath3226

4 жыл бұрын

@@Sam-ze3hr its an adaptogenic herb that modulates your immune response thats why the brain has THC receptors in it, they dont just grow there overnight. weed and even heroin is nothing compared to the crap they are making and pushing out nowadays

@heroinfathr

4 жыл бұрын

Too much of anything is bad. Even if it's just weed

@annastascia878

4 жыл бұрын

acidbath32 Exactly, like, i’m a mom to be, haven’t smoked my entire pregnancy, and don’t plan on smoking until my child is way older. And yet literal alcoholics have told me that it’s “harmful for my child”. Like thanks Karen, how many cigarettes a day did you smoke while pregnant again? Edit: I haven’t smoked at ALL for my entire pregnancy, i won’t smoke until my kid is not only past the breastfeeding stage, but a 12+ year old and NEVER in front of them and i’ll NEVER have any shady dealers anywhere near my kid, or knowing my address. (I was sketch about them knowing my address already). And, i’ll never condone my child using any sort of drug (recreationally) until they’re at an age where it won’t effect developing cognitive abilities, or any sort of developmental abilities. (aka, as a teenager/young adult)

I never wanna talk about my addiction because of the way people react, This is so inspiring to me. Just gained a new subscriber. 💜

Thanks for telling your story you are really helping people . I think it is important to address these serious issues and not sugar coat them. Keep being you

Wow...I'm a bit speechless right now. You nailed it. Just like millions of teenagers, I did the same and then some. So cool to hear you describe the "pain" that goes along with the "craziness". It's an awful feeling for sure. At 58 I've gone through the struggles and find that being away from drugs is a really "good" thing. Great job J. You had me interested and hanging on every word...

A lot of people with EDs have other addictions because of addictive personalities and what not. During my ED, I also was a pretty hardcore alcoholic and dropped out of college to go back home and recover. I remember realizing I hit my low when I would drink until my stomach was full, purge and keep drinking. I didn't go to rehab either because, honestly, no one knew I had a problem. Sometimes, you just have to pack up and leave and i'm glad you were able to kick it!!!

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Wow. I am so so sorry you had to deal with that. 💕 I hope you're good now!! 💕

@kellynaz9256

5 жыл бұрын

you just change addictions

@sabrinasiobahn8991

5 жыл бұрын

I was addicted heavily to speed (amphetamines, adderall specifically) when my anorexia was at it's worse. I'd do it daily because it made me not want to eat and lose weight faster. I'd also go on binges at night and snort up to 150 mg. ED's and drug use sadly go hand in hand very often.

@lefse2278

4 жыл бұрын

I have almost the exact same story. Hope you’re doing well now.

I know I'm over a year late but I'm glad you were able to get out of that and not let it take over your life further. I just recently found your channel and I would have never guessed you struggled with coke. Glad you're healthy! and also love your channel :)

So much for respect to you for talking about your issues so openly. I discovered you a few days ago and already love your content, even more so after watching this.

im so glad your mom was supportive af, most parents would be pissed

Consider yourself lucky. At 19 I met this girl. We started dating, she introduced me to heroin. Long story short it's 20 years later. She died in 2012 and I'm still dealing with the consequences of my bad decisions.

@Spooky-Sara

Жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry for your losses. Both your girlfriend and yourself. I hope you’re doing okay now, 2 years after you posted this.

I recently dropped out of college because of bulimia and misuse of prescription meds, it's great to know you're not alone.

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

I am so sorry you struggle with bulimia too! I hope things begin to get better. 💖

@Tallidais

6 жыл бұрын

Rudie McRudeface I am a fan of the band but the avatar is a world of Warcraft Npc of a character called Siouxsie the Banshee, based on the band obviously

Thank you so much for sharing your story!! It makes me (and I’m sure many others) feel less alone. It’s very brave to speak about. I just stumbled upon your channel, very grateful!

6 days clean!!! can’t watch this since i’m in a very fragile state but i love you and everyone suffering from this disease, know that your mistakes don’t define your character. i’ve been in NA for about 6 months and quarantine really got me fucked up. any addicts out there struggling who wanna talk pls hit me up!!

Thank you for talking about these things! I would never be brave enough to speak about my struggles with addiction. Your story sounds quite similar to mine, in many ways.. Thank you for making me feel not so alone! xo

@destinyrose2778

6 жыл бұрын

And I truly wish more people realized that it really is true that it only takes one time to end up hooked!

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

I am glad you feel less alone!! 💕💕💕💕

damn i've been watching you for a year and i never knew you had an eating disorder too. i'm struggling with ednos pretty badly atm and in a way it's really comforting to know you went through something similar? that sounds super selfish im sorry it's just nice to relate to someone i look up to you know? i'm really sorry you went through all this💖 thank you sm for sharing your story

It takes great courage and maturity to open up to your fans about such a personal issue. I'm glad that you were able break free from that lifestyle...that is never a good road to be on. You continue to impress me with each new video that I watch. I appreciate your bluntness and opinions...always delivered in an unbiased way. You respect those who deserve or have earned it, but you're not naive. Not trying to be creepy, but you would definitely be a wonderful woman to have as a friend. I have so many personal issues that I would love to talk to you about and get your take on it. I look forward to watching more of your videos...thanks for bieng who you are!

Thank you for sharing your story. It took courage to be so open. I appreciate your honesty.

After struggling with addiction for 10+ years, I am finally getting on the right track...lots of slips...but every day I feel a little stronger.

@clarat3803

5 жыл бұрын

Congrats on getting clean! It might seem impossible now but what you're doing is amazing and you CAN get through it. Every day that you're clean is an amazing achievement ❤

Omg same here. Excellent teenager, nutso from 20 on

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Ahaha perfect.

@Prhmangel

5 жыл бұрын

Same here. I was your average teen. I experimented with weed, LSD and white crosses. I drank occasionally, but I was a good kid. I made good grades, didn't get into trouble. I was a Virgin until I was 17 and married my first and only! I lost my mom 2 months after my 20th birthday and I was all "FUCK THE WORLD!" Drugs for for year. Finally ended becoming a Heroin addict (both me and my husband). I finally started getting clean late 2010, relapsed a few times and I have now been clean (with the help of a Methadone clinic) since August 2015. Thanks for your story.

@Jennifer-un7qo

5 жыл бұрын

Me too!

@sam_shadyyy2972

5 жыл бұрын

same

@emilyyoung8552

5 жыл бұрын

I’m about to turn 20 and I’ve already gone through so many bad decisions when it comes to trying new drugs. I’m a total adrenaline junkie and I’ve tried a lot. I’ve also mixed a lot. I *rarely* do drugs but I *love* them when I do. When I’m in my 20s I want to be totally uninvolved in drugs, but I’m kinda scared I’ll fail at that. And when I’m done with school and have money, who knows what will happen. When I can afford to buy my own drugs, idk what’s gonna happen. 🤷🏼‍♀️ I only do them rarely because I only do them when I’m offered them for free by friends.

very glad u are alive as well to tell us. And ur story helps others going threw same things. so happy for u that u addressed ur drug issue. u are a survivor . look at it that way.

Thank you so much for having the heart and courage to share your experience with us, your loyal glarers. I'm 6 years clean from heroin. I've put work in, but lately I've known I need to step up my devotion to being clean. Your video has given me a nice kick in the ass, so thank you. I'm super proud of all your accomplishments. I'll bet your parents are super proud.

Thank you for the raw honesty and sharing something like this with us. I love your content 💕

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

💕💕💕💕 Thank you !!

Wow. You are one brave individual. I know how hard it can be. I'm so proud of you.(Now goes to watch video and hopes my comment matches the content. Lol)

@oldfashiondragon

6 жыл бұрын

Lex lol I was like damn how did you finish watch the video so fast !?. 😂

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

Aw thank you so much !!

I appreciate you sharing your story, thank you for that. Everyone has their own experiences with this subject. Your story is yours and nobody can tell you how it was or how it wasn’t because they didn’t experience it... you did.

can I just say as my favorite KZreadr, it's touching to see this video. thank you for putting yourself out there girl, so many of us relate to this on so many levels. I love you and this means volumes

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

OMFG after a shit day at school this made my night, week, month !!! 💖💖💖 You are so sweet and don't think I forgot your support since the very beginning !!! Love you !! 💖

Sober nine months today! Super proud of you ☺️

Thanks for sharing this dude. I went thru something incredibly similar. And I was super lucky to get out of it after like six months too. I had a few set backs and it’s definitely negatively impacted my life. But it also helped me figure out I want to work in rehabs. So I can’t really be angry that it happened. I feel like I was one of the lucky people who once they finally got the clean break from it I never looked back which is super rare..most people are haunted by it forever. So I agree with what you said about just trying it once can completely change your life. And IT CAN HAPPEN TO ANYONE. not just people who are stupid or have addictive personalities or who grew up in poor areas or whatever. You get it lol ❤️❤️❤️

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

I am so sorry you went through something similar. 💕 💕💕💕 But I am glad it helped you figure out you want to work in rehabs!

As a new subscriber, I just wanted to say how much I understand and I appreciate your genuine honesty. I'm a recovering heroin addict (been sober 6 months now, though I've had longer periods of sobriety in the past) while also in recovery from anorexia b/p subtype, and I just wanted to say congrats fo getting out of your addiction/ED. 🖤 And what you said about being aware of what you're putting in or how you're treating your body is the truth. It only took me one time as a 15 year old trying Percocet to realize, "I want to feel this way forever" - and my life has and never will be the same again. Take care 🖤

I'm 2 months clean from cocaine (and other drugs) and alcohol and I happened upon this randomly. I think I needed it. Thanks darlin! ♡ wishing another sober 24 to anyone seeing this !

I had a drug problem with pills in my early 20s. I also had a slight alcohol problem. I still struggle with pills and it’s hard for me to be around them, but I can luckily resist temptation now. I’m glad you are recovering and doing much better. You are very strong and have overcome a lot!

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

So glad you can now resist it, congratulations !! 💕💕💕💕

I might not be old enough to try drugs and everything but I’m proud of everyone in this comment section, as well as glare. Addictions could ruin your life. Addictions are hard, regardless of what that addiction might be. They are hard to quit. I hope everyone can stay clean, keep going, and be strong 💜

it’s really incredible that you’re coming out and seem so much better now

Thank you for sharing your story, you're a really inspiring person and this is the video and had no idea I needed to see. I've been struggling with addiction and decided to go clean about 4 days ago and it's been horrible but seeing this video has made me feel a lot more positive about the change. Thank you.

When the cmnt section turns into a support-group for drug addicts ....seems like we all have our issues 😥

8 years sober, by choice and by the help of my husband. always proud of others who get sober.

I appreciate your message behind making this video so much. I’ve been watching your videos for a few weeks and i love the way you talk about shit and think you’re hilarious (like when you referred to high school boyfriends as fuckboys). Anyway, from one recovering addict to another, I’m glad you’re sober and I truly enjoy your content.

I'm so sorry you went through that. My heart goes out to all the people in this video's comments, who struggled with addiction. It's easy to point the finger and blame, but it's clear to me that You need understanding and suport (including therapy). I'm really glad You are over IT. Your honesty is truly appreciated.

I have a older sister who uses. It really does make me think twice about doing anything because personally i watched my sister slowly start to lose everything including herself. I think you are amazing. And good for you for kicking your habit. 👍

@READYTOGLARE

6 жыл бұрын

I am so sorry about your sister, I hope she gets clean soon! 💖

@maddiejeanisnotmylover5226

6 жыл бұрын

READY TO GLARE Thanks i hope she does too ☺

My mom became addicted to meth last year and I had to move in with my dad on the last day of school and i haven't talked to her in nearly eight months

@madellynstire3119

5 жыл бұрын

maddi tracy dude I’m in basically the exact same situation. Sending lots of support 💗

@maddibesaddi

5 жыл бұрын

@@madellynstire3119 thank you hope it gets better for you too

Dear Giulia, thank you for your courage to share your story with your fans. I can only imagine how difficult it is to admit that to yourself, let alone confess it online. I’m rooting for you. Take care of stay safe.

I applaud you for being able to go through something like this, especially without a professional help! You really have a strong will. The majority of people wouldn't be able to, many of them wouldn't be able even with a real medical help. I've heard too many stories from my father who works with teens and young adults with addiction problems. Even though I would always recommend anyone who is going through something like this to search for professional help and therapy, hearing a story like this from you is a really inspirational, it can motivate people to leave drugs behind (or any other addiction they have).