cringe

@Roanokem

10 ай бұрын

You could just leave the video then she mentioned.

@wintertimberwolf6963

10 ай бұрын

@@Roanokem No joke right. FFS

@Zaneexists

10 ай бұрын

:(

@andysixxstalkerangeloftrag5833

10 ай бұрын

You dont have to announce yourself, but at least you're self aware.

@jennyspicer6900

10 ай бұрын

Let's hope u never go through this and have ur entire soul ripped out 😒 I've only just found you're channel and I love it, real talk and you're raw , stay strong beautiful lady 💕💕💕💕 healing love and strength sent ❤

I had no idea you lost your husband. That’s my literal worst fear. I’m so sorry. You’re so strong.

@itsjeninMass

10 ай бұрын

Mine, too. He's my rock.

@infinitemidnightghostmourner

10 ай бұрын

Mine also. I can't even describe the fear.

@bioshawna

10 ай бұрын

This is also my worst fear. He's been with me through thick and thin for 16 years although we aren't married. I love him so much. I'm so sorry for your loss 🙏🏻

@BCFBreakfastClubFan

10 ай бұрын

I just lost mine after 32 years together. It's a kind of pain that is all-encompassing. There's no way to describe it.

@Superdudehatesmilk

10 ай бұрын

​​@@BCFBreakfastClubFanoh I am SO sorry. Edit: that didn't sound nearly as emphatic and empathetic as I meant for it too. I am genuinely so incredibly sorry for your loss.

As an Eskimo, let me share this proverb, "Perhaps they are not stars in the sky, but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know they are happy."

@shaderasbora1033

10 ай бұрын

That is absolutely beautiful

@Honey_Daddy

10 ай бұрын

I wish I could believe something that lovely.

@apriljk6557

10 ай бұрын

​@@Honey_Daddy you can, you don't have to take it literally. You can remember the happiness your loved ones made you feel when you see the stars.

@Honey_Daddy

10 ай бұрын

@@apriljk6557 it'd be more comforting if I just believed it literally, but I take your point and appreciate the sentiment of it.

@kaii6216

10 ай бұрын

this Proverb made me cry...

“what is grief if not love persevering” take all the time you need, you are loved by many

@basic_CeceRae

10 ай бұрын

🥹 this

@loozziee

10 ай бұрын

Vision ❤

@mbb-gl7tv

5 ай бұрын

That is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read. Prayers for all involved!

To the person who doxxed Glare, may you suffer from a constant itch in that one part of your back you can't reach, may your toast always land buttered side down, may every piece of paper you encounter give you paper cuts, may you always get the trainee nurse every time you need blood taken, may your pizzas always be delivered lukewarm, may every cat in your neighbourhood piss on your doorstep and every dog shit on your lawn and may every misery you have inflicted on others be visited back on you.

@Bobbymaccys

10 ай бұрын

And your belt get caught on every door handle

@x_void_princess_x

10 ай бұрын

And both sides of your pillow being hot af same with the rest of your bed

@TheStarCrow99

10 ай бұрын

And every Lego you encounter be miraculously, stepped on.

@ainsleighgibbs2975

10 ай бұрын

And everytime you ride a bike I hope a stick gets stuck in the wheels.

@madmouse1016

10 ай бұрын

*And may all your bacon burn*

"I'm 29, I should know who I am". Don't be hard on yourself, getting to know ourselves is a constant evolution 💕✨️

@itsjeninMass

10 ай бұрын

SO true!

@weirdgirl4611

10 ай бұрын

Because we evolve constantly.❤️

@maijacriner-harrison5161

10 ай бұрын

​@@weirdgirl4611lol

@BCFBreakfastClubFan

10 ай бұрын

I'm 49, and still trying to figure it out. We are always a work in progress.

@TreesNotBeach

10 ай бұрын

31 years old, and I just NOW am starting to slowly figure myself out. And I know I'll probably never know who I am. It's a ongoing process. You will figure out and lose it, figure out and lose another part of yourself. You're awesome, you're strong and being vulnerable is a very, very amazing thing. ❤

I lost my partner in 2011 and it was one of the hardest things I've lived through. Sometimes, time doesn't heal all wounds. For me, the grief feels more like a suitcase handcuffed to me. Some days it feels like the suitcase is filled with 20 lb bowling balls and even thinking about getting out of bed is pure exhaustion. Other days, the suitcase feels like there's maybe a few documents and I can get through the day. There are times when the suitcase is empty and I feel guilty so then I'm the one filling it with the bowling balls. It's confusing and it definitely changes you. Guilia, you're a beautiful human with an even more beautiful soul 💕💕 You have an entire loyal community behind you, we want you to be healthy and know you're supported. Don't rush the process, please take all the healing time needed. I hate how unfair sh*t can be; no one deserves to lose their human.

@READYTOGLARE

10 ай бұрын

I am so sorry for your loss but I am certain your partner would be so proud of you for uplifting others (me) 💚

@emo_penguin420

10 ай бұрын

​@READYTOGLARE much love to you girl 💚

@fjoppis

10 ай бұрын

Sorry for your loss

@natatatm

10 ай бұрын

wow, this was so beautifully put, i hope anyone struggling through grief sees this.

@angelsinger4574

10 ай бұрын

I am so sorry for your loss, and awed by the generosity of your spirit, to share your pain with strangers to help them heal. ((Hugs))

This version of you is loved, Guilia. As a fellow 29 year old who’s been on a path to rediscovering themselves. I appreciate your vulnerability and strength in sharing this. You’re one tough chick and I’m thankful you’re here. 🖤

@pabloescobarschanclas

10 ай бұрын

this is a very sweet comment.

@c.t.651

10 ай бұрын

Agreed❤

@hwoods-kg1jf

10 ай бұрын

I was gonna comment the same thing! Guilia is so strong and brave! My heart breaks for her! I've almost lost my man 4 times in the 13 years we've been together and it traumatized me to my core :( I feel so blessed he's still alive but his health isn't good :( He's 50 and I just turned 40 on the 5th and I'm always afraid of losing him again. I also have a lot of health issues of my own and sometimes I'm afraid I'll go before him....

Genuinely gasped out loud finding out he'd passed, been watching you quite a long time now and I hope you're getting all the love and support you need.

I’ll never forget when I reached out to you after my mothers passing. You went out of your way to give me advice and uplift me. Thank you, you are not alone. 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡

@itsjeninMass

10 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry for your loss.

You are such a beautiful soul. When you first announced your husband’s passing, I felt my heart drop into my stomach. I know hearing things like “I can’t imagine what you’re going through, having that happen, etc etc” do nothing to help but god. I’ve been in awe of the strength, grace, and character you possess and show. You seem like you’re someone who would be such a wonderful friend to anyone lucky enough to know you. You deserve SO much love, kindness, and happiness, and I really hope you get it 🖤

@READYTOGLARE

10 ай бұрын

Just so you know, your comment got me through the day. (Not that the responsibility is on you but I appreciate it).

When I found out about Jacob I couldn't even imagine you ever talking about it. You're so unbelievably strong for letting us know and, obviously, dealing with all this. A change is a perfect idea. Don't worry about people potentially disliking that change, do it purely for yourself. I just want you to know that no matter the circumstances your're in right now, it will get better eventually. You will heal. 💙

I will be honest - while I have watched you forever I had no idea what was going on and I'm sorry that you lost your partner. Having to deal with doxxing after such a traumatic event is a nightmare I am so so sorry.

@Michelle-og9tj

10 ай бұрын

I think that is the best way to keep it. We as an audience shouldn't need to know this part of her life, that is her personal freedom we shouldn't have access to. But 100% agree, this is an absolute nightmare and my heart goes out to her.

@user-sk5lx3ts6r

4 ай бұрын

I lost my old KZread account and hadn’t seen untill today when I thought I’d check up on her channel, im so heartbroken for her

Usually silent follower here : for what it’s worth, your voice and your videos soothed me during the worst period of my life, calmed me when I used to believe everyone would be better off without me. I don’t know you and you don’t know me, but you do matter to me, to us, and to a lot of people. Thank you ❤

@scarlettredding

10 ай бұрын

What they said 👆 I was absolutely devastated to hear about Jacob I can't even begin to understand what you're going through 💜 keep doing what's best for you sending love and positive energy

@MsKrankshaft

10 ай бұрын

Couldn't say it better than this. You matter. Thank you for existing 🖤

@itsjeninMass

10 ай бұрын

Well said.

@ehartley825

10 ай бұрын

I’m letting @madamecroco3354 speak for me as well here! She perfectly put into words how I have also felt so many times over the years & found a sense of comfort & not feeling so alone for a lil while by u & ur videos ♡

@user-sk5lx3ts6r

4 ай бұрын

Her videos helped me through the worst summer of my life in avery isolating and abusive relationship, she’s truly amazing

Losing someone that close to you is a specific kind of pain. No one gets to tell you how to grieve or how long to grieve. For someone to go out of their way to cause you grief and emotional distress during a period of time like this is disgusting.

@cassieb2813

10 ай бұрын

Agreed. Absolutely abhorrent.

@berrysnowyboy5251

10 ай бұрын

^^^^^^

You are not a mess girl, all the tears you shed are very valid, and shows how incredibly much you and Jacob love/loved each other. You are so incredibly strong for staying on this planet, as you put it, despite going through what I am sure has been your worst nightmare!

It's nobody's business HOW he passed...I hate when anyone asks because its a loss no matter the how. I'm so sorry you lost the love of your life. Wishing you endless strength 🖤

@corneliakobilke4638

3 ай бұрын

Of course but people will be curious

@missmorticia9224

2 ай бұрын

​@corneliakobilke4638 true but it's rude to ask & clearly they were never taught that.

I've been a silent watcher of yours for many years now. I found out about Jacob through twitter and my heart broke for you and has been broken for you ever since. (To be honest, I cried when I found out because I couldnt even begin to imagine what youre going through) You're so brave for posting this video and I know my words don't mean much, but I am truly sorry. The grief never truly does go away, but it gets easier to live with and you'll be able to think about Jacob and smile instead of cry. Sending you all the love and support.

@kendrarasberry3078

5 ай бұрын

I found out through Instagram. I thought I was going to cry.

Haven’t finished the video yet but just wanted to let you know getting a freakin scholarship while things are so hectic and you don’t feel 100% is insane. Don’t brush over that! You’re intelligent af! We are so proud of you for being here. You are so strong. ❤ edit: MAJOR hugs. I’m glad you know you are safe with your neighbors. The universe needs you here for a reason please remember that!

I lost my fiancé 15 years ago (i was 19 going on 20); it doesn’t get easier, we learn to coexist with grief, and you will get stronger, it’s an unpredictable process and there’s no rushing it. You are loved, and i am lighting candles for you and him. Glare, love you, you are in my thoughts. I won’t say it’s gonna get better, i will say it gets easier to coexist with it, some days it’s gonna win, most days, you’ll win. 🕯️❤️‍🩹

I’m in my mid 30’s and starting to feel like I’m really learning who I am. Sorry for your loss, I lost a husband at 30. Therapy is good, hard work, but good work.

@CanadianWhatever

10 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry you lost your husband

Grief is like food coloring dropped into water. The intensity may change over time, but the water will never be clear again. My heart breaks for you; I am so sorry you are dealing with this both the DM BS and the loss of Jacob. You are so loved.

"Re-getting to know myself" is not cringe and really hit home for me. I've been with my boyfriend since I was 16, I'm almost 22, and I see us having a life together in the future. I understand perfectly what you mean: although I'm a very independent person I don't know what I'd do if somehow our life paths separated somewhere down the road. Like it or not, when you've been with someone for a long time and since you were young, you basically grow up together and inevitably develop your adult character around the other person and the life you share together; it can be beautiful but scary at the same time. I'm really sorry you had to go through all of this, some people really don't know when to stop. I'm hoping all of this gets easier for you as time goes on.

@idiotsandwich4912

10 ай бұрын

This comment hits close. I’ve been with the same guy since we were 14 and 16. I can’t imagine if our paths for whatever reason went other ways. I don’t know what I’d do. How can the world go on? I don’t even know who I am with him I can’t imagine going at that alone. It’s possible.. but hard. I’m 25 and I haven’t the slightest idea who I am or who I am supposed to be ❤

@christinathea5737

4 ай бұрын

Im glad to have approval on this. I thought i was a weak person for having developed that interdependently under similar circumstances

Oh babe, I was exactly in your shoes. I lost my husband at the age of 28 and became a widowed mother of two. Our youngest was only 5 months old. I haven't ever related to another person who I don't know personally more than I do you at this time. This month will be ten years since my husband passed away and honestly grieving never stops it stays with you. Especially when there is trauma attached to the death, as it was with my husband's passing. I still deal with PTSD it's better than it was but it likes to pop up in random situations. I don't think I left my house for 6 months.. I couldn't even have a 1st birthday party for our son because I felt guilty. I ended up in the hospital just 7 weeks after he passed (the week of my birthday) I thought I was having a heart attack, found out I had severe cardiomyopathy (broken heart syndrome is what they called it) Death really f*cks you up but I have healed a lot and it took so much time but I have and it does happen. Also it's no one's business how anyone else passes. I hated when people would ask me that question in public, right in front of our kids. Like bro that's their father chill TF out and stop asking me "are you ok?" I hated that question I genuinely feel for you and am sending my virtual love over to you. I know words don't mean sh*t but you have a who army of people who are behind you. I hope you never forget that ❤️

@thinlizzy9032

10 ай бұрын

my heart breaks for you. sending you the biggest virtual hug right now. i can't even begin to imagine that level of heartache from grief that sends you to the hospital. but i'm glad to hear its getting better for you to bear and i hope it continues to get better and you feel peace and warmth in your heart whenever you remember your husband.

I am a grieving PhD student as well, I lost my grandpa and dad in less than year. I want you to know that grief, although it never ends, morphs throughout time. Its a journey and I am sorry we are on it together, but you are not alone. You are so loved and so strong.

Doing my PhD program was one of the most challenging things I ever done. I can’t imagine doing that and dealing with grief. Thank you for your vulnerability, I really wish more people would talk about grief. It’s soul crushing and transforming at the same time. But no more words, just hugs.

From one grieving PhD student to another, just know that you’re not alone! Both are long, transformative processes that will have plenty of ups and downs, but I have every faith that you’ll get through it. I remember you mentioning in a video that you wanted to do a PhD years ago, and it’s amazing hearing that you’re actually at that point now, in spite of the unimaginable happening in between. Sending so much love and support x

I’m 32 years old, and I’m still finding myself. If you have to refind yourself at 29, it is far from cringe. We all have different journeys. And especially after going through such a traumatic event, there is no cringe in that. Discover yourself in your healing journey.

A usually silent follower, avid watcher here, you are wonderful and you are being so hard on yourself. You are such a brilliant and intelligent person. I think 29 is the worst year for most people, and I couldn't imagine what it is like for you. You are loved. You are amazing. ❤ thank you for everything you do.❤

I have no words. I’ve watched you for years and I didn’t even know he passed. Thank you for being so open and… I honestly don’t know what to say. You’re strong and you’re loved. 🖤

I have also experienced watching the love of my life on a ventilator after performing cpr to try to save them. No one understands the full extent of trauma that can create until they see it for themselves. You have my solidarity.

@kimberlykees9163

10 ай бұрын

I’m one of the ones on a vent who got saved even when doctors essentially gave up. I’m so sorry for your loss. I hope you find love again, it’s what the world needs more than anything now.

@YourWifesBoyfriend

10 ай бұрын

LOL the love of your life is a "them" LOL

@maffieduran

10 ай бұрын

​@@YourWifesBoyfriend??? Psycho

@maffieduran

10 ай бұрын

​@@YourWifesBoyfrienddo you even understand basic english?

@benny_boop

10 ай бұрын

@@YourWifesBoyfriend Yes. You are a “them” as well. You should probably focus more on learning basic education rather than attempting to, and failing at trolling. Cause you’re bad at it.

I knew you lost him, and I’ve been worried about how you were genuinely doing. Thank you for sharing. I know it’s not any of our business, but we still appreciate it.

Asserting yourself is not ‘mean’. It’s a very positive and self actualized step. Setting boundaries regarding your partner and your story is a BIG win.

I’ve been watching you since I was 14, and over the last 4 years you have tought me how to deal with emotionally wrecking situations, downfalls, breakdowns, depression and other stuff that may influence you. I’m 18 now and you have played a big role in shaping me to be stronger and not feeling guilt nor embarrrssment to seek help. You are invredibly brave and strong. Thank you 🖤

@nessaf540

10 ай бұрын

same here 🙋🏻‍♀️turning 19 soon and her videos have helped me so much 🩷

We are here for you ❤ From a widow to another.. don't try to rush anything. ❤️ I met the love of my life at 16, lost him at 38 to suicide, just turned 42 and I'm still grieving and trying to figure out life..

@ashleyduckworthyt3224

10 ай бұрын

I am so so sorry that you lost your life partner in such a tragic way. Life is so unfair but I’m glad that you’re around to leave a comment here to provide support and love to another person who is feeling what you have felt.

@einienj3281

10 ай бұрын

@@ashleyduckworthyt3224 Thank You ❤️

@Lilmisscostumedrama

10 ай бұрын

😢❤

@einienj3281

10 ай бұрын

@@Lilmisscostumedrama ❤️❤️

@Enfjscrolling

10 ай бұрын

I can't imagine. You were with him longer than you were without him. Life must be confusing to navigate without him. I'm sorry he was struggling so much, and I'm sorry you took on that grief. Please keep going, I know it will get better and things always seems to work out last minute. Sending healing wishes to you 🩷

I remember you briefly mentioning Jacob's passing months ago and have had you in my thoughts since then. It's clear how much you loved him and I'm so sorry that you're going through this. Thank you for taking the time to share how you're doing - I promise your makeup doesn't look messy at the slightest even at the end! And as for the people who somehow think it's appropriate to DM you about how he passed ?? I say a big block and hope they sit and think why they have the right to ask such a thing.

Real ones remember how awesome and lovely Jacob was. He loved you so much G ❤

@READYTOGLARE

10 ай бұрын

A walking blessing tbh.

@mooncapone4556

10 ай бұрын

@@READYTOGLARE I'm really truly sorry this happend to you and you are so amazing just for making this video and trying your hardest to move on this genially made me cry i've been watching your videos for years now and the way you guys loved each other is truly spectacular and I really truly wish you the best of luck re discovering who you are as a person

29 is a PERFECTLY acceptable age to find yourself, and at the same time I am so sorry that you have to go through it for these reasons. You have no obligation to share intimate details of your life with us, though I hope some comments here can offer you a few words of comfort (even if a lot of them are words you've probably heard on repeat over the past year). It's natural for us to change throughout our lives and to be different people in different stages. And it's completely understandable to still feel lost in the middle of an ocean without even a damn compass at this point. As another 29 year old reinventing herself again (albeit for vastly different reasons), I hope you have the tools you need to support you through such a major period in your life. It doesn't matter if that process or even the methods you use to cope sound cringe to someone else; if it all works for you and gets you to a better place? DO IT. You DESERVE to heal, cope, and find yourself without judgement and harassment like this oh so brave DM (they DEF picked the wrong one). Heal at your own pace, do the cringiest things ever if it makes you happy. Your obligation is to yourself, and I wish you much success with your Ph.D program. You've got this, and you don't need a random stranger on the internet to tell you that, but in case it helps I'm gonna gas you up anyway. ❤

When you first told everyone about his passing, my heart sank. I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you will continue to heal and find hope. ❤️

Grief changes people. Don’t be to hard for changing and never apologize for crying. I honestly don’t know how you held it together for so long. You’re strong. You were and are loved. I hope that your followers show kindness and support even if you mix things up :)

This shit is not easy to talk about. I commend you for opening up like this. I’m so sorry for your loss I want to congratulate you as well for starting your PhD program- it’ll be hard but rewarding ❤

Omg I started crying watching this. Then further into this video words cannot express just how much of a badass you actually are. You have no idea how much your idgaf personality also helped me through tough times when I initially started watching you years ago. You are stronger than you even know and it shows when you are willing to make yourself vulnerable with your subscribers. Words cannot express just how much you have inspired me over the years. I'm so glad that you realize that you living and triumphing over this is an indication that you are a true goddess!! I mean this with the utmost sincerity and undying respect.

@READYTOGLARE

10 ай бұрын

I just wanted you to know I’ve screen shot your comment to read when I feel demoralized. You will be my moonlight on pitch black nights. Thank you.

@itsjeninMass

10 ай бұрын

😥 That's so beautiful.

Getting into a PhD program while having your life uprooted in the way it had is absolutely astonishing to me. I wish I had a more appropriate way of expressing this, but you are simply amazing. Grief is not a linear journey, but I hope you find some kind of peace in it soon. Wherever life leads you, career wise and elsewhere, they'll be blessed in having you in their company 🙏 I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss.

I've been watching your channel since I was about 13, and when you made videos about Onision. You were always such an icon to me with your cool hair, tattoos and outfits. You featured a (very badly drawn!) portrait I made of you when I was really young, and I remember how much it made me smile! I'm 21 now, getting married soon, and I'm still watching your videos. You are always going to be one of my favorite comfort watches, and I just wanted you to know how much myself and all of your viewers appreciate you!

My husband and I got together when he was 19, and I was 21. I can't imagine the grief and confusion you must be dealing with because you aren't going to be the same without Jacob, and that's just how it is. I wish the very best for you, and I'm proud of you for all the ways you're taking care of yourself. Including this video. (Eyeliner looks amazing)

I've been worried about you since i saw your post about losing Jacob. Been happy to see you back posting but like, I've also been keeping in mind your hurt this whole time. All this with the doxxing and everything is so scary and I'm genuinely wishing you healing, peace, and all the best ❤

I’m 43 and I don’t who the fvck I am. I hate you’re going through this. I am glad you spoke on it. I’ve been dealing with grief since May and I just don’t have anymore fight in me. I don’t even have the energy to get out of my own way. I relate to the “fvck around and find out” mentality because I’ve been feeling like “I wish someone would “ and we’ll go down together. I’m sending you a digital hug and support! 🤟🏽 🫂

@Alikatt9

10 ай бұрын

Your comment helped me feel so much better as a fellow 40 yr old ❤

@ShawnaLynnn

10 ай бұрын

@@Alikatt9 I’m glad hun… be easy on yourself. Lots of people don’t have life figured out… even people who act like they do.

@rachelosiria7865

10 ай бұрын

I'm thirty-four and I don't know exactly who I am because it's constantly changing. ❤ I've been dealing with grief heavy, since my brother died last year. Hugs

@jfinney225

10 ай бұрын

I’m 36 and still figuring it out too. I don’t think we will ever KNOW who we are bc we are ever evolving and growing. And to the original commenter, I’m so sorry you’re struggling with grief as well. Thinking of you. 🫂

@ShawnaLynnn

10 ай бұрын

@@rachelosiria7865 I’m so sorry to read about your loss! 🫂

Revisiting this video after watching your most recent life update video from 9-10 days ago. I remember watching this video when you first released it. I wanted to comment on it back then, but never did, because I didn't think that any words would adequately suffice trying to comfort someone who has lost their longtime best friend, husband, life partner. I know it's cliché, but I definitely think he's been with you this entire time, soul and spirit, and he is watching alongside you, proudly and in awe!!

In a video full of heartbreaking things, the saddest thing you said was "People associate me with death. I am death walking." And I don't know if saying this will help, but I can tell Jacob really loved you just from the way you talk about him, so I feel like he wouldn't want you to think of yourself in that way. I think he would be really proud of you for how you've handled this, so I hope you will speak more kindly about yourself in the future, because you deserve it. With grief, it's important to treat yourself with grace and understanding. Btw congrats on the PHD program!

Grief really does change you, my tolerance for the majority of crap diminished when my mum passed away. As time has gone on (this was over 9 years ago now) it’s helped and I’m more tolerant to something’s but whewww boy some days not so much. Anyway I’m so sorry you’ve had to deal with so much in such a short amount of time. Sending you so much love ❤️

@darkwriter_xx94

10 ай бұрын

That is literally my worst fear and sends me spiraling. I tell my therapist all the time that I’m certain I’m will be forever changed when my mom passes. I’m hoping that it has gotten easier for you as time has passed.

@LosAngelesLaura

10 ай бұрын

This ❤

@TiffanyG8675309

10 ай бұрын

My tolerance for SO much shit left me when my mama passed away.

We are here for you

I've been watching you since the early days where you would just go through Tumblr finding the most cursed shit in existence. You've inspired me to get my bachelor's in English and to keep going, even in vulnerable moments like these where shit hits the fan. I have been learning how to get to know myself again after a long term abusive relationship and I understand just how bizarre it is to rediscover myself in a sea of overwhelming, clashing feelings regarding the last decade of my life. I can only imagine how overwhelming things are for you, but you're here and you're still kicking ass. I'm so proud of you for going for your PhD and for showing how there is strength within vulnerability.

It is scary to have someone send your address and not have your partner to run to. That's a harsh reminder he's gone. I'm so sorry this is something you are experiencing. Definitely praying for you. Losing the love of your life is literally like having your heart ripped out and your soul stomped on.

Gosh Giulia I am so sorry for your loss. I had no idea about Jacob. Please keep taking care of yourself, I am so so proud of you for getting that scholarship. I know I could have never when I lost my family. You are an inspiration and you are stronger than you think. Sending you so much love

You've been one of my favorite people on KZread for years and as silly as it may sound I cried when you posted you lost Jacob. I'm so glad you stayed on this platform and continue to make videos, most of all I'm glad you're doing okay

I'm so sorry for your loss and the bs you've been through. As a counselor, I say to clients to remember to be gentle with themselves, there's no timeline when dealing with grief and loss.

@pamelaowen2015

5 ай бұрын

"As a councilor," (one like on a very good comment) wow, cults

People are fucked up and don't have lives so they sit on their phones bored. I'm going through something similar. I lost my boyfriend 2 years ago. Not the doxxing obviously. Sending love your way girl. No one deserves that. I hope the container that holds your grief gets bigger with time. 🖤

Lost my dad earlier in the year. Grief is a lot. Grief is so much. You're strong, and the love you and Jacob have is still with you. There's no words, but we're supporting you.

@TiffanyG8675309

10 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry for your loss.🥺 I lost my grandma and my mama two months apart last year. I'm still not OK and probably won't be for a while. Take all the time you need. ❤

@anime-dr4kf

10 ай бұрын

Lost my dad earlier this year as well.

Julia, I’m a lurker that never comments, but you have been my comfort creator for about 5 years now. Thank you so much for being so vulnerable. Although we may never meet we are here for you just as you have always been for us. Sending you infinite love ❤️

I’m so sorry for your loss and am glad you are still here. I’m 58 and I still don’t know what’s going on half the time, but I do so enjoy your videos. Also, people suck and I hope that person/s get really, REALLY bad hemorrhoids and sciatica.

@kendrarasberry3078

5 ай бұрын

Yikes! But the trolls deserve it, though.

How horrifically crass, to ask a grieving widow for intimate details on what's likely the worst day of her life. Anybody who asks that, does not deserve your grace.

Thank you for being vulnerable with us! We love you!!! ❤❤❤

I started crying watching this. I may not understand your direct situation but I understand what it’s like to lose a loved one. You are so incredibly strong and I know how difficult that can be, you’re a badass and I wish you nothing but love and healing.

Omg I’m so so sorry!!! I had no idea. I’m sorry for your loss.

This was quite honestly the strongest and most straightforward video I think I've ever seen. I've seen some of your content discussed by other creators but I'm subscribing right tf now because this was inspirational for someone like me with fears of what you're going through and similar internal feelings you've described and to lay them out like this? Wow. No further words, other than you're amazing and you deserve the best and I'm fkn impressed (not that you were trying, I just hope you know you're making an impact more than you may realize)

Pressing like on this doesn’t feel right. Thank you for sharing your story. I cannot begin to know what you’re going through. There are no words in a time like this. Do what you need to do, I support you

@magita1991

10 ай бұрын

Yeah liking it feels weird. I did like just to help the algorithm.

@Reeeeeeeeeeeeeed

10 ай бұрын

Something told me to like it immediately. I don’t do that for any videos. It doesn’t feel like a like this time.

@madz4693

10 ай бұрын

@@Reeeeeeeeeeeeeedsame, I view “liking” this video (in this case, VEHEMENTLY supporting) representing me “liking” Giulia’s bravery, vulnerability, and straight up BADASSERY in sharing this. Giulia if you’re reading, as a fellow “afraid to be vulnerable” girl, you are metal as FUCK for crying on camera and still holding your ground. 🖤

@itsjeninMass

10 ай бұрын

No. It doesn't. It feels like a hug.

This was so honest and raw and vulnerable. Thank you for allowing us to see beyond the curtain. You didn’t have to share this with us but you did and it helps us to see that creators are human beings too. I wish you the best.

This is just heartbreaking… I had no idea. I’m so sorry for your loss.

I am in real tears. I’m so so sorry. I had no idea and I am heartbroken for you. Jacob was an absolutely lovely man and this is such a huge loss to us all but you must be crushed. I am so sorry Guilia.

we love you! i know grief, i know it's hard. YOU DESERVE TO BE HERE ON THIS EARTH WITH US.

You're so strong and brave, and I'm sorry for all the things you have gone through... The thing about the address was fucking insane

I am so sorry you went through all of that while you were grieving 😞 some people are awful. Sending love ❤

This is so vulnerable and honest. I went through something similar a couple years back but with losing my mother, and you spoke truth when you said that you cannot come away from something like that the same as you were before. It may not mean much coming from a geographic distance and computer/phone screens away, but I see you and hear you. You are not alone. Sending comfort and love your way. 🖤🖤🖤

I never thought I’d be privileged enough to hear about this. Thank you so much for sharing. Your boundaries are valid!!!

@billieseyelashes

10 ай бұрын

very important input right here!

I had no idea this has happened. Do things on your terms. Just know we all love you. RIP Jacob

@danilotusflower

10 ай бұрын

Same here! I'm so incredibly sorry for Glare I could not even fathom going through any of this 😢

I'm so sorry for your loss. Young widowhood is a very particular monster; please know that you can get through it. I wish you peace and comfort.

You’re really brave to be this open and vulnerable. I’m so sorry for your loss and I hope you’re self discovery is fulfilling 💖

Giulia, I remember seeing your IG post and being so heartbroken for you. To see you power through the grief and pain and continue to make videos for us and put on a happy face, all the while taking on your PhD…that takes major, major guts and strength. You are such an inspiration, if not to everyone, than to myself. I am so so so proud of you and I know Jacob is too.

Im 25 and I am engaged to my high-school sweetheart. It is not silly at all that you need to rediscover who you are without him. I can't imagine how impossibility difficult this is for you. Sending as much positive energy your way as I can

I am so sorry about your loss :( I hope your path to healing and your journey through your grief is as smooth as it possibly can be! your content has always been a comfort to me when i went through my own grief last year which I am so grateful for! you are a wonderful human being who cares so much about the people in your life and the content you create! keep being awesome you deserve the literal world

I cried while watching this. My heart hurts for you. Vulnerability is a good step though. Being avoidant in my experience makes grief harder to process. You are loved 🩷

Damn I did not expect this at all. I had no Idea your partner has went to heaven. Girlie, please stay strong. This was truly shocking. I hope you find strength and hope for the future. ❤❤❤❤

Guila I remember reading the first announcement of his death and I actually had a visceral reaction that I felt in my chest. I can’t imagine going through that what you have. All I know is you have to be one of the strongest people I’ve ever witnessed. The only solace I’ve ever found in loss like this is being able to honor their memory by living another day. Everyday you keep showing up for yourself is another day you show reverence for his life.

I’ve been on a grief journey for the past 4 years in different ways, loss of people in my life through leaving both physically and through death, and it’s a lot. By 23 I had no parents, with my dad leaving in 2019 and the worst being my mum passing away last year, which broke me. I know we all experience grief differently, but I am so happy to hear you are starting new things, discovering new facets of yourself and that you are growing in a positive way despite everything you have faced. I am re entering education this year by starting university for the first time soon, something I never thought I’d be able to do. Your courage inspires others, and I am sending all my best wishes and love to you going forward 💖

I am so, so sorry for your loss. You are so strong. Sending my love and support.

Holy sh*t I didn’t even know this happened… wow. Just wow. I’m so sorry…

I am in tears for you! I recently lost my own partner in a very traumatic way. We started dating when I was 17, and I'm now 49, so that's 32 years together. I totally get what you're saying about not being able to go into so many rooms. I can't go into our bedroom, the bathroom (where he passed), and his shop. I'm not trying to get sympathy, I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone, and that the feelings that you're feeling are normal, and that it's important to recognize and experience those feelings. I lost him May 7, so I'm still trying to wrap my head around it, but I know that what we're feeling is normal, and that eventually, I will learn to cope with these feelings. Time doesn't heal our wounds, but it does teach us how to live with them, and how to care for them. With Love, Amber.

My heart goes out to you. Your strength is so admirable. The reason I’ve always loved watching you is how raw, real, funny, intelligent and true to yourself you are. Nobody will ever have it all figured out no matter how old you are, ESPECIALLY after such a life altering event. Just know you are so loved and so supported by all of us and you’re doing the best you can. We all love you and we’re all here for you. You’re amazing ❤

as someone who’s lost my mom, gma, and close friend ik grief is miserable. it sucks because there’s also no real timeline to grief, you may go thru all the phases over n over again. and sometimes you’ll have good days, but then the next day feel like ur starting the cycle of grief over again. it is hard, painful, pops up at random times. u never get over it, but you do get used to it. with that being said, she has so much strength to push thru this and the doxxing threat with the grace she has. it seems like she hasn’t caught a break. i hope she’s healing the best she can. her strength is so admirable.

I don't only watch your videos because I enjoy the topics, I love how educated, beautiful and creative you are. You're like the perfect Trifecta, and not being cringe, political, or toxic/narcissistic is rare to find with creators. Basically I have the up most respect for you and I really will be sending you and your family good energy. 🥺 I'm so sorry for what you're going through right now, take whatever time/action you feel fit. You don't owe us anything but staying healthy ❤❤❤

@NotAnotherKuromi

10 ай бұрын

I agree with what you said, you said it better than I could.

Thank you for showing such strength in such hard times. You're far stronger than you even think. Thank you for sharing.

I’m so sorry for your loss. You’re a strong person! You’ve been through so much and here you are, resilient. Keep kicking ass !

I usually never comment, but I've watched your videos for years. Stay strong,it's hard and it'll probably get even harder, but you got this. You have us too, you're not alone. Give yourself some time to heal. I'm sorry for your loss.

If I can manage to find even half of your strength at my lowest moment I'll be confident I can endure. You're a force of nature!

my condolences to you 🖤I’ve watched your channel since you had about 50k subs and have watched you change & grow over the years. I can’t even fathom how strong you are. just being here right now & vulnerable to your audience just shows how strong you are. you didn’t have to show this side of your grief, but at the same time i feel less alone in my own grief because of it, and i’m sure many others do too. i truly hope the best for you and hope that you find healing every day & one day feel whole again. 🖤🖤🖤

I am so sorry you're going through this, I relate to you so much and I just turned 30 this year amd don't know what the fwk I'm doing. I am sosososo sorry for your loss, you are so strong 🩷

Sending lots of love & healing vibes your way. I can't even imagine going through that then having to deal with some prick trying to make you feel that way in your own home. I know it may not feel like it sometimes but i think you're a badass & you rock! 🤍🖤💚

You are unbelievably strong. It's not cringey to explore and discover more of yourself. There are people far older who still don't know but won't allow themself the time and freedom. Congratulations on your scholarship, it clearly speaks to how brilliant you are that you earned it at the time you did. I can't imagine how hard things have been and will be for you, but I hope you can continue to grow and change for the better 🧡

We don’t just come for the stories, we come for you. We could get the stories from a multitude of other people/stories but we parasocially love you🖤 as someone who has been a fan and following along with you since the start of 2019, it’s been a journey and I’m so proud of you for everything you’ve made it though and accomplished. The love you and Jacob shared will always be there and parts of him live on with you. I’m wishing so much healing, love, and peace for you Gulia❤️

I've only seen a few of your videos, on and off kinda thing. But your video popped on my rec and I gotta say; I'm so sorry. Like that won't seem like much coming from a stranger, but I am. I know this isn't the same, but I lost my dad in 2019 and I'm still affected by the loss, so I get it. I can't promise it'll get better, but it'll probably get easier further down the line. But in the mean time, best you can do is be patient with yourself. And don't think of your crying as weakness. You still kick ass 💕