by age 8 my dad was out of my life entirely. my mom would feed me lies about him. she made me believe that he was the one who abandoned us. with no one around to protect me, thats when the abuse started. I’m all choked up i cannot talk I’ve got a fucked up brain, fucked up thoughts writing songs was my therapy. I wrote the first verse and chorus while still living with her in october 2016. Thought i was okay but then i guess not I hope you know that this is your fault shame, anxiety, depression, self-doubt, anger...it was piling up. something had to change. so after 8 years of being apart I messaged my dad from a secret email address. (It would have been very bad if she found out.) he got me a secret phone (i put my best friends picture on it just in case) and we began planning my escape. Want you to feel bad when you go to sleep Hope you’re sad when you remember me Hope you’re feeling bad for all you did to me And hope you lie there in your misery the plan was to begin living with him full time by march, which felt like a long 5 months away. Hey little girl - You never believed there’s a ghost inside of you But it’s hidden too deep would the hopeful, happy, ambitious woman inside of me still be there when I was finally free? Hey little girl - You never imagined you’d get a little older You’ll get abandoned Hey little girl - You know smoking kills You don’t really care cause you love how it feels Hey little girl - You’re falling apart You don’t really care ‘cause they broke your heart abuse -> rebellion -> breakdown. this was the whole song at first. so I posted a clip on instagram as a failed cry for help. but less than a week later I got worried that my mom would see it and took it down. then in dec 2016, with 3 months still to go, my mother let it rip in front of the house, for all of my neighbors to see. bruised and crying I ran to my neighbors house and called my dad “we need to do this now”. my neighbors harbored me for a week while my dad prepared to get custody, as he did later that week. I will never forget the feeling the day I saw the police serving my mother the papers. a warm rush went through my body as she screamed in disbelief. within weeks i was on a beautiful beach vacationing with my dad for new year’s, when I found my song on KZread, but under another person’s name. who the hell is Quinn Quinn? for those of you who don’t know, this girl on KZread named Quinn Quinn ripped the audio from my instagram and reposted it as her song. it went kinda viral, on musically too. I was angry and helpless. who fucking does that? whatever! my only defens was to finish the song and post a video of me singing it in front of the piano. by this time, i’m free from my mother, which is why the second verse and bridge come from a whole new perspective. I’m fighting for all that I have lost It’s my time to show who's boss I’ve waited in the dark too long I’ve got this now, so just stay strong at 16 I finally had a chance. It was time to start going after my dreams. (I still tell myself this every day.) I know you won’t believe until I’m up on stage Make me bleed when you don't get your way in the mornings she would claim to not remember what she had done. “i hope you wake up and realize what a good mother i am to you" she would say. what a fuking joke. I hope you're scared when you remember me I hope you lie there in your misery Peace out you miserable bitch. Been in and out of recovery Remember when I could hardly breathe Sat in front of mirrors thinking to myself Can't get any clearer, what I’m doing to myself its been five years and i’m feeling okay. “You got this...you’re good” i like to tell myself. but sometimes it gets tough and i go back down to feeling like shit. I know i need to forgive her in order to fully move on, but its hard right now. i hope my story helps children and adults around the world recognize the dangers of child abuse and parental alienation. remember, there’s always someone you can go to for help. I just wish i contacted him sooner. - soph

@nevertrulyyours

3 жыл бұрын

It really felt heartbreaking to read your story, though I am glad you got help and got out of that hell. I hope you'll lead a happy life ahead

@gemtalented9193

3 жыл бұрын

Honestly, it's so hard to believe people would *actually* do that. I can't even begin to imagine how horrible that was. Not to mention the girl who literally stole your song. Love your song though, it's wonderful. The backstory to it though- I hope things are better!

@Caitlyn723

3 жыл бұрын

You are so inspiring to me

@goblinxx.

3 жыл бұрын

I've been abused and used by my brother and well he drowned me and my sister. I treat him nicely and all I get is a slap, a punch, a kick or an elbow to the throat. But it's hard to believe this, even though I do. This is also my favorite song. It's sooooo good!

@peekaB00_x

3 жыл бұрын

Your story is so upsetting. Parents r supposed to care for u and make u feel loved but instead they made u feel misery. Your story rlly inspired me. My mom hits me as well and she also thinks shes some brilliant amazing mother. Im happy u r free from ur mother now!!

parents: ''stop being childish, i've had worse as a child'' Strangers: ''It's okay. I understand.''

@alenagarcia4228

3 жыл бұрын

If hey have been in worse they why don't they help us

@jessicamcmullen7144

3 жыл бұрын

right ?

@Sila3x

3 жыл бұрын

Exactly, a random stranger who I've never talked to helped me and listened to me while I was venting to them. I'm the most thankful for them :)

@olgakabakova1503

3 жыл бұрын

Not only the parents, litterly the while family

@gaystarcos335

3 жыл бұрын

Literally what my family just told me again

Kid: 'depressed' Mom: it's that stupid phone Kid: that phone is the only thing stopping me from ending my life

@nabeehahussain904

3 жыл бұрын

So true the only thing that here for me is my phone all the sad times this phone help me stay up all night crying and this what help me

@yourgurlasher9299

3 жыл бұрын

thisgirl lovesroblox so I’m not the only one that does that? Yay

@allan4904

3 жыл бұрын

That’s true-ish. It’s actually family that’s keeping most people alive, people love their family to much to just, let them go Edit: alright my family doesn’t except me for being Non-binary and being poly. But I know that they still love me.

@marztheburntoutemo4919

3 жыл бұрын

Me I have some freinds like two

@Madison-to8mp

3 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry for you guys 😭 idk what I would do without my family

I’m pregnant right now at 18. I may not have been prepared for this. But my kids will never know the pain of this song or other like it. I will be nothing like my parents. My kids will be loved and brought up right. They will be listened to and understood. To my future kids. I love you. I’ll always be here for you.

@sophiemarie.b

Жыл бұрын

you’re going to be an amazing parent. sending you so much love. ❤️❤️

@potatowh0re686

Жыл бұрын

Congratulations! You're gonna be an amazing mother!!

@spacee2950

Жыл бұрын

I hope you and your kids the best🫶

@delillahkillebrew

Жыл бұрын

I believe in u ❤❤❤❤ u got this I may be 11 but I get underestimated a lot but we all support u stay positive ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

@nousername077

Жыл бұрын

You're going to be an amazing mother❤❤love and blessing for you child❤

The fact I listened to this song for 4 years. And every year it hits more

@thatequestrian_karlee

7 ай бұрын

same

@Your_Local_Moron

5 ай бұрын

i found this song like 4 years ago and I use to listen to this because it sounded cool, but i slowly realized that i was relating to it more and more :(

@HomelessMatt

5 ай бұрын

Your music taste is absolute ass

@ipoststupidthings348

5 ай бұрын

Same. It’s sad that you can be even a little eleven year old girl, tearing yourself apart for others and then they get mad at you for it…

@demetriusblakney9736

4 ай бұрын

@@Your_Local_Moronsame :(

this is the kind of sickness that isn’t excused at school this is the kind of sickness that no one ever notices this is the kind of sickness that goes unnoticed *until it kills*

@erin-un3fi

4 жыл бұрын

@Minecraft MemeGirl bruh why?

@kiffygreene4598

4 жыл бұрын

Even when it kills it will pass in a day even for the family believe me I know. I lost my brother to drugs and my family and friends dropped it by the end of the day well 3 years later it still haunts me

@random_flame_pup3222

4 жыл бұрын

You cant tell anyone because they wont understand and ur scared to and u lie about ur happiness even when they are saying they will help but u have hard that to many times till u just stop believing that they will..

@elizabethstaley6294

4 жыл бұрын

kiffy greene it might take other families more than a day to drop it like mine it took my dad like a week to drop the fact that my uncle committed suicide and two years for my dad to get over a friend who died of cancer

@scarrd3493

4 жыл бұрын

I was in the hospital for 5 months recovering from slitting my throat then stabbing myself multiple times. I'm glad I'm with my fiance now. The last 5 months we're horrible without him.

I knew a boy who liked to draw, He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his sleeves and showed me his scars. He felt embarrassed and looked down at his shoe. Then I rolled up my sleeves and whispered "I draw too" _I forgot who it was but its called "I draw too" (EDIT 2: I did not write this poem/song, I just wanted to clear that up!) Edit: Ok guys, I've seen comments saying "I draw too." I'm late, I just saw this after a year, but guys, cutting is not some beautiful art. Please listen. It is a beautiful poem, but you are a beautiful person. Don't let anyone take that knowledge away from you. I know a girl who I would consider pretty, but is downright nasty. And I mean, bullying nasty. It put me in a dark place for a while because I was already struggling with some private things, and yes, I have also 'drawn' once or twice. Still, please listen. You are beautiful. Go and look in the mirror right now and stare directly into your eyes, whatever shade they might be, and say to yourself; "I am beautiful." Don't look at what you think are flaws. Because you know what? The most beautiful person I have ever seen had a disability, but their smile and eyes just made you want to go up and hug them. You guys, throwing up your problems won't make them go away, either. You can't chase them away with a bottle of beer or a handful of pills. You can't cut them away from your body. You can't starve them away. I know you might have heard this before, but please TALK TO SOMEONE. If you just are not comfortable around your parents or think they might not understand, maybe start a chat with a teacher. ("I've been really stressed out lately, and I was wondering if I could just talk to you and ask some questions?") Either way, please do not self-harm in any way... Physical or mental. Because for me, when I was upset, my form of 'drawing' would be to write hateful words to myself on my arm in marker. Self-hate is NOT good for you. Please talk to someone. If they don't help, don't get discouraged. It took me a while to find the right person, too. I believe in you. If no one else does, just remember that one random stranger. Please don't think that suicide would end the pain, either. You'd just pass it on to someone else. If you think no one cares, think about this; every single person who has met you, ever, will wonder- could I have done something about it? Or, I knew her, I could have helped. Or, I saw her crying, once. I should have done something. Even the people who have insulted you will wonder every day if they were the cause of a murder. It is not ending your pain, it is extending it, giving it to everyone you have passed. Your pain will be in the shadows that people stand in, the ghost of your pain will haunt anyone who brushes past it. DO NOT DRAW! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!!

@zemyta4960

3 жыл бұрын

I love that poem

@itsdardarthebean4779

3 жыл бұрын

I draw too

@daystars6479

3 жыл бұрын

I saw that in a cringe comp once-

@hiii_itz_ya_boy_rudyyy8865

3 жыл бұрын

hey Amelia umm i sing and i wanted to know if i could send you a record use ur poem so that kids like you, me, and that boy could know that they aren't the only ones feeling this way (i like 2 get consent before using peoples creations and im glad the you survived ) your anoyher battle survivor know that there are other kids who r glad you survived you are OUR role model.

@k0orbb

3 жыл бұрын

I like that..its sweet

I love it when your parents or parent says “it’ll be fine we can help each other grow” BUT ALL THEY DO IS TEAR YOU DOWN THEY SHOUT AND SCREAM AND ASK WHY when all you do is help them

@barquarin

2 ай бұрын

yep

@user-fg5wc6kf6i

12 күн бұрын

I know how it feels I get yelled at all the time but my sister helps me

F= Fading slowly I= Internally crying N= Never felt more alone E= Every night I cry myself to sleep

@luna.fairy.

Жыл бұрын

r/im14andthisisdeep

@Nails_bylyss

Жыл бұрын

@@luna.fairy. lmao nah💀

@rdtc2009

Жыл бұрын

every girls when they say "I'm fine":

@FBI_appearsToOwnACat

Жыл бұрын

Well you just caught me didn't ya 🙂

@catlife738

Жыл бұрын

I’m *FINE*

When GEN z become parents, let's promise to be the best parents the universe and multi verse has ever seen. We will understand our kids and wont put them down when they go through sh*t

@wiltedelderflower8647

3 жыл бұрын

I promise.

@Micah_silly

3 жыл бұрын

yes

@friskflowerfell9689

3 жыл бұрын

I promise ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

@Jen-se2no

3 жыл бұрын

i hope gen z gets to the age of parenting we all want to kill ourselves

@emilyhudda4851

3 жыл бұрын

I promise

I love how my parents tell me that “everybody has bad days” but strangers will talk with me for hours saying they understand me

@Taylovesclouds

3 жыл бұрын

This hits too close to home. I’ve been fussed at because I’ve had in depth conversations with people 1 or 2 years older than me because we’ve experienced some of the same things. But because they are older and a bad influence so I lose electronics and just lose any happiness I had.

@Thrillinggoth

3 жыл бұрын

Its too true i first meet soemone at my school and ahe knew my pain right off the bat and she had the same problem and we became friends for a little i had to move schools so i havent seen her seans

@sonicthefrogedhog8656

3 жыл бұрын

Honestly like we’re your children shut up and do your job which is caring for us

@andreapineda8760

3 жыл бұрын

My parents just say sadness/depression in kids doesn’t exist.

@sonicthefrogedhog8656

3 жыл бұрын

@@andreapineda8760 are you kidding me I knew a six year old who committed suicide becuase her dad elft and she was raped when she was five she was from Africa but just becuase she was hung didn’t mean she had seen some shit

I love when your parents say “You will grow out of it” and a girl who doesnt even know me that well listens to me and understands me

@jessicawallace1960

Жыл бұрын

It just feels Like no one cares cuz I am pregnant

@StormPayne-yh9pr

Жыл бұрын

❤

just a few years ago I was crying like a baby to this song, still am, just like.. a more reasonable adult.. happy New Years everyone 🤍

@HomelessMatt

5 ай бұрын

Be so for real

@Mahala-yk4oc

4 ай бұрын

​@@HomelessMattwhat do you mean?

life asked Death: Why do people hate you and love me? Death said: Because, your a beautiful lie and i'm the painful truth.

@LifeisRoblox179

3 жыл бұрын

Ikr

@rxsey1317

3 жыл бұрын

wow wonderful .

@abi6063

3 жыл бұрын

I think death should of asked life that lol

@stayweird7849

3 жыл бұрын

@@abi6063 lmao fr fr fr

@INEEDAhanDle269

3 жыл бұрын

Other way around bud

It’s hilarious that parents say we’re to young to feel pain, be tired, depressed, feel love, know our sexuality.. we are, but that just shows Society is a messed up thing, but it’s even funnier when they ask what’s wrong like they think they can fix something not many people ever feel, they say get off our phones cus they could live without them, well they didn’t have to live through raping, depression, bullying, and so much more, we’re to young for a lot of things we feel but life’s not fair in that way, if it was... every one would be in heaven but no.. we’re down here in hell where every single day we wonder if we matter, make a difference or even exist as far as I’m concerned

@xxblueflame-reaperxx2266

3 жыл бұрын

ya society has gone to hell over the past few years

@sadnessdepression2102

3 жыл бұрын

This hit a little to hard

@Yara_89

3 жыл бұрын

If u don’t matter who would huh?

@brynnshannon3654

3 жыл бұрын

this this is the real explanation of life

@animesan9189

3 жыл бұрын

I’m flipping ten and I feel this pain because my friends say I’m too young to know that your lesbian.. they say it’s a phase and I’m so scared of my father I can’t even look him in the eye... and they say I’m not depressed when I really am... I wonder every day “am I enough, how am I not useless... and they say I’m only ten... I’m too young...

I hope you know that through the years, this has been my fight song. Through every abuse from my ex, every abuse from my mother, every day I was further indoctrinated into my family’s cult, and every self abuse I could imagine to make myself feel “normal”. It’s been the most challenging trials of my life, but every time I hear this song, I break down. It makes me feel strong again, it’s been one of my emotional lifelines. When I was 12, 13, 14, I never thought I would be around to see the next birthday. I’m so proud to say that I’ve been able to persevere and that my 17th birthday is in 71 days. You’ve genuinely changed my life with this song, with this message, with you being powerful enough to share your story. Thank you

@GardenHomie

11 ай бұрын

God bless you. I hope you get the healing that you need. 🌹

@jordyanmoats-gm9kt

9 ай бұрын

I know this is a late response, but I wanted to say you got this girl I didn’t go through verbal abuse but I did go through hurting myself and abusing me. You need to stay strong with the point of me, almost jumping off to end it all at night time and jumping into a creek by my house. You got this just stay strong and don’t be like me. Why are you don’t share your story.

When I listen to this song, I like to imagine I'm talking to my younger self when life was simple and happy. Before the depression, before the confusion, before the trauma...

@Potato_Taiga707

Ай бұрын

Yes when the world was better

“You get little older you get abandoned” hits so close to home

@user-ec4nt2es8y

3 жыл бұрын

That’s so sad :(

@user-wh4xh5bj8x

3 жыл бұрын

Same. My mom uses me for my talent in singing and I'm still in school😢

@mara4963

3 жыл бұрын

It also hit me hard, when i was smaller i was happy when i turned 12 i got abandoned im just a waste of space in my home, i rasied myself to hide my emotions and pretend to be happy

@twilightsweetie7841

3 жыл бұрын

We all know that we all die in someway. Even with suicide. I'll get abandoned when I get older

@alaianava9129

3 жыл бұрын

Awww I am so sorry :(((

I dont understand why some parents get mad at their children by being depressed. My parents yelled at me for cutting myself and my dad even said "if you really wanted to die then sure ill hang you myself!" While i said "then do it its not like im useful" my mother slapped me across my face after that they acted like i didnt have depression and suicidal thoughts. But til this day im still carrying it .. Update: Thank you all so much for all of the lovely messages down in the comments i really do appreciate it. It makes me happy that even strangers care about eachother, i know some of you suggested to call 911 on my parents but i love them too much to even do that..not to mention its actually my fault for being useless around the house. So today i talked to my friends about...leaving and going somewhere else which they didnt took seriously of course we laughed about it then i began to get silent, then started crying. Of course the moving away part has another meaning. Im sure all of you know what i mean. I began to cry and they tried comforting me with hugs and affection. I told them i wasnt sure yet..we were just outside my house then one of them suggested i should stop crying or my mom will see, of course i trusted them and told them about how my parents treated me. And even sometimes they can hear me crying and screaming inside of my house because of them, but of course nobody called the police or anything.. i dont know what to do, now with all this online school and quarantine going on everything is harder...i stopped myself from cutting as i sign i would change and so that i wont get myself in trouble. can you please give me some advice on how i can cope with this? Also this is not a cry for help i am onlu sharing my experiences with you. So for the next few months i will be updating this comment to share more ... November 8, 2020. 10:09 p.m. Guess ill be updating whenever something bad happens? I guess so.. Anyway, earlier today I woke up at 1 p.m I don't know why but I kept waking up late mostly in mid noon. My mom was cleaning and I had to get up since we share the same room I saw her. After a while I went out to do my regular stuff but then my mom mentioned the modules..that made my head ache just thinking about it but still I went to get them while working on the modules I became frustrated and without thinking I grabbed a bunch of worksheets from weeks ago and torn it my mom saw and began ranting about it telling me that I still am being able to pass them. I didnt knew what to do but I replied the opposite of what she said in a harsh tone she started screaming at me and i cried silently still she can see my tears pouring down but she didnt give a shit. I heard her voice crack and I knew she was really upset and was about to cry and that made me guilty..she grabbed my hair and pulled me back in our shared room and threw me on the bed telling me to sleep..of course I couldn't sleep, while trying I can still hear her saying insults at me like "if you arent interested in learning then you should've told me so that we didn't have to waste money on you. Just get a job as a maid so you'll be more helpful, though you dont know anything about cleaning so I guess you're pretty useless" and ect. It broke my heart I cried silently while thinking about my death and I know sooner or later ill go back to cutting again but more deeply. I know im a coward and I'm scared of dying but sometimes I just wish I had someone to do it for me. I'm really sick of everything im ungreatful and useless they gave me the life some people wish to have but im here being a total brat...I remember what my mom said; "quit acting youre not the victim here, We are! You're making our life harder and I could just die of high blood pressure because of you" im already writing a bunch of goodbye letters for them.."im sorry in bad luck.." November 19 2:22 pm I'm scared, I really am I do don't know what I'm doing with my life my mom found out that I slit my tighs Earlier. She ran to our room and started shouting non-stop. She got out and a few seconds later she came back holding a knife I started screaming and crying I was sure that my screams can be heard outside, my baby nephew cried because along side me, she kept threatening me about her killing me instead and her cutting my body into pieces instead of just slicing it. When she left to buy groceries I tried taking multiple pills for me to die from overdosing but I was too scared my heart bearing became rapid while I swear and cry a lot, I was still gripping on the bottle while crying...later I decided I'd take it I was about to swallow them all at once but I was too scared to so I took them one by one..I took three at the time then decided to make up my mind. I could feel my stomach bubble but not enough to hurt and my body felt weak and heavy I kept crashing on the floor when I tried to stand..I'm really scared and tired I just wished I wasn't a coward. I knew that pain was the last thing someone feels before they die, that's why I was scared. I was scared of pain I had enough I just wanted everything to go back to normal. I wished I didn't have any feelings I wish fear ,sadness,depression,disappointment, anger and all of the negative emotions never existed. I kept talking to myself in the mirror, I'm alone. The neighbours didn't give a shig. They only thought of it as normal since me and my mother faught a lot. But earlier...I screamed 10x louder and weeped harder. I wish they would understand I wish this pain in my chest would stop...but I knew that..the only burden that made me feel this way was myself..I wasn't good to them I knew I wasn't a good child and my parents had enough of me, I just wanted to leave and maybe they'd be happy! They can go ahead and sell my things I wouldn't care. Instead of a proper funeral go and throw me in the lake or dig a diy hole. Just to make you happy. I'm not your first propriety since I know I'm not loved that much l, even though I've been fed to and kept safe. Bad luck follows me everywhere and has been stuck with me ever since. I'm not pretty, or smart. But I do know I have a heart. I kept being kind to those who hurt me but if they crossed the line I knew I had to do something else. I tried my best to help her but I was focused on my phone, talking to my friends because I know that they'll make me happy. I focused on my talents and I kept working on my modules to keep up but I kept failing them. I got 1/20 last time and I broke down. I don't know what to do anymore God I could make a book out of this in wattpad.. December 16, 2020. 11:43 a.m I did it, I finally escaped my God for Saken house. I'm now out my best friends house. I came asked her if she could let me stay and she did and I came by when it was about 2 am. It was dark a and I had to walk towards her house which is a real exersice, when I was almost there there car pulled up and the color was white, I didn't have my glasses on so I thought it was the police. Turns out it was just a taxi helping me reach my destination for free, thank you. Now I'm scared. What if my mom takes me back? I don't want that December 27, 2020 9:25 pm: (Day before my birthday ) So earlier I decided that I would learn how to skate since I have a longboard that had been laying around for years now. I took it for a test drive and I felt happy that I could be able to skate, our street was empty and it had a almost smooth road it was almost perfect. I skated for a couple days before this and earlier my long board went haywire and flipped itself making me slip and fall in the process. I had almost broke a bone but I still managed to make it back home and tell my mother what happened. She scolded me and told me it's all my fault that I did such stupid things and that I could never achieve the success I wanted in skating. She planned to burn the board and told me to never skate ever again. I cried. All I wanted was support, is that too much to ask? Is it so hard to care for someone you have birth to? Why is it always have to be like this. Is people deserve love and support, don't think we're only human and can handle it unconditionally like we don't get hurt. I miss the time where everyone is happy and have their problems solved easily, but as life goes on everything becomes shit and hard. I know I'm failing in life like I'm failing my grades, I don't know what to do. I swear I'm trying but I was told I'm not trying my best and should do better. I'm sick of it. I really am... May 13. 1:19 pm I kind of forgot about this..but theres a bunch of horrible stuff happened in the past few days. I cant start on where, but as i scrolled down to see my past memories it just made me realize how of a horrible life ive lived . Anyway, i think i might have corona. Im not sure yet but the signs are there. Heres why i think i have the virus, me and my 2 friends were going to my other friends house to do our assignments, of course we we had permission. After we spent time and did our work, i felt weak. I felt like i was always tired and my breath was heavy, im sweating even when people thinks its cold, and i get cold easily when a fan is pointed at me. I have diarreah and i pee a lot more, headaches and body pain. I get rashes everywhere at my lower half body abd i dont know where it comes from. I didnt put any thought into it until i got a call from my friend saying that she was positive, i told my family about it. They didnt mind, as long as i dont go out anymore, yeah its reasonable but why let it slide? Im practically dying. But maybe im just overreacting?...

@duffelchild8869

4 жыл бұрын

Let me kno how you are doing i really wanna kno ok because i care about you even tho i dont kno you there is a purpous for everyone but how can i help and its not because your suicidal its because i dont want a world without you in it

@duffelchild8869

4 жыл бұрын

Evelynn Houck of course it’s weird I’m numb to emotion but no matter what try to comfort people we all go thro bad stuff and I’m sorry to say sometimes life doesn’t get better but talking helps and I genuinely care about how you are doing both of you

@duffelchild8869

4 жыл бұрын

Evelynn Houck I’m always here to talk like I don’t know you but I want to be your friend you seem like such a good person and the people have been through a lot are usually better people because of it

@duffelchild8869

4 жыл бұрын

Evelynn Houck yea I would love that

@duffelchild8869

4 жыл бұрын

Evelynn Houck Thank you I like your profile picture as well now it’s just a waiting game I guess by the way how old are you

Room:I'll be hear to hide you in your worst times Bed:I will be here for you when you're tired Pillow:I'll be here for you to catch your tears Dream:I'll be here for you to hide you from reality Music:I'll be here to comfort and sooth you Mirror reflection:don't worry when you cry I'll be here for you and not laugh Stay safe everyone 💓

@stevenm9026

Жыл бұрын

That's beautiful

@silverfoxgaming2484

Жыл бұрын

@@stevenm9026 thanks

@angelasuppa6197

Жыл бұрын

Not when you constantly feel like someones watching you. When you get that feeling, its like you can't be yourself. You feel the same when you're around people. (At least for me.)

@Ren.The.Kitty.

Жыл бұрын

You forgot one Plushies:I'll always take hugs from you and be with you when you're tired

@justuraveragefreshsimp

Жыл бұрын

Wow this is beautiful and brilliant

It’s crazy when I think of how many perspectives you could put this in. If you end up seeing this, everything will turn out okay, I promise.

@sophiemarie.b

Жыл бұрын

I think about this a lot actually. Lovely message tho ❤️❤️

@Teogamingtv123

2 ай бұрын

Hey 😥

They don’t notice: Your pain, Your tears, Your thoughts, Your corruption, But what they notice? YOUR MISTAKES!

@raiiqrus

3 жыл бұрын

Yousif Pierce Yeah.... ={

@lucijananic276

3 жыл бұрын

This hit s me

@Fallingforyou-uz2bl

3 жыл бұрын

...I have seen 3 true comments... this is one

@raiiqrus

3 жыл бұрын

Animal Master Thanks... 🥺

@raiiqrus

3 жыл бұрын

LUKA Ik, it hits me too..

"Suicide doesn't get rid of the pain, it gives it to someone else." - Random Person

@tvtoast8739

3 жыл бұрын

Then they will finally know how I felt

@estefanypelcastre3375

3 жыл бұрын

I thought suicide before but there is a reason why I kill myself. No not because I love my parents but because I want to help my siblings so they don't feel the same way i feel.

@yourlocalghost6517

3 жыл бұрын

@@estefanypelcastre3375 i hope thing will get better for you, i wish the best for you and your siblings💐💛

@estefanypelcastre3375

3 жыл бұрын

@@yourlocalghost6517 thank you

@anunknownfriend7809

3 жыл бұрын

Trust me it doesn’t fix any thing it just causes the people in your life more problems my brother committed suicide in 2013 it controlled my life for years because of an act he did

I’ve known this whole song since I was 8. I’m 13 now, still know every lyric, I heard my sister listening to it, a month later she tried to end it.

@teagreen5312

9 ай бұрын

Im so sorry. But you will get through it! You got this!

@Miss__Cowgirly

9 ай бұрын

I am so sorry. Do you mind me asking if your sister is okay? I really hope she is…🤞🙏 and you too. ❤️

I remember this when I was in middle school, and now there's a brand new meaning to this song

@jayden5188

Жыл бұрын

I love your profile picture

Parents: "Your fine, just deal with it!" Strangers, Music, Online friends, Social Media, Your Real Friends: "I'm always here for you no matter what."

@peekaB00_x

3 жыл бұрын

Thats my situation rn.. My parents call me useless and pathetic all the time my mum sometimes hits me so i told my head of yr that i didnt wanna go home i was actually planning on running away cuz my friend said i can stay wiv her but then her mom said theres no where for me to sleep and thats why i told the teachers. im still living here with my parents rn im not okay i dont wanna be here.. My parents used to get hit by there parents as well but worse but then if ur parents did that to u why the heck would u do that to ur child. IT HURTS SO MUCH!!

@lolatube3705

3 жыл бұрын

I know how it feels....... I used to think I was the only person in the world who ever got hurt, or only got to see there dad on special acasions, but I know that's not true..... Today is the 4th of July my 10yr anniversary of my parents getting a divorce, and I found out a week earlier that there was a way that I could spend my 4th of July with both my parents...... But then my dad planned a vacation to Tennessee....... All I did while no one was watching was cry because I thought that I would finnaly get to spend time with both my parents like all of my friends...... I was so heart broken.... Even though I loved the vacation and all, I will have to here about my friends stupid summer going to Florida with her mom and dad...... She is my best friend but she doesn't now how much she kills me every day talking about how her mom AND dad grounded her, or how her mom AND dad went shopping for shoes but couldn't find any that they liked in there size......

@kaitlyn7621

3 жыл бұрын

Wait what’s friends again I had some when I was like 2 people say I was faking sucicidal thoughts at nine but u can feel broke whenever

@anonymous_gae_hoe2303

2 жыл бұрын

Ikr it’s crazy how strangers understand you more than your own parents! This is the reason why kids are always on there phones cause that’s the only place where people understand them😔

@hanioszeq9155

2 жыл бұрын

You're*

Hey little girl You know smoking kills You dont really care Cause you love how it feels

@kyraplanting4646

5 жыл бұрын

Nanxi 😪

@Lanibaeee

5 жыл бұрын

@@santava3778 sis who? Cause u most definitely not talkin to me ☺.

@santava3778

5 жыл бұрын

@@Lanibaeee i knowwwww girl don't worry i wasnt talking to youu 😽 its just a meme

@Dani_494

5 жыл бұрын

This song reminds me of all the friends and "lovers" that messed me up and abandoned me...

@lilliecooks2347

5 жыл бұрын

Stop

This bring me so much nostalgia,it makes me remember how i had too fend dor myself and ive gon into depression and the always try too team up on me no matter how much love i show them.

I listened to this on repeat 4 years ago, I never ever thought that i would connect to every single line of this song now.

parents: *your ok your having a bad day* Stranger: *understanding me and listening to me rant for hours* 🥺

@s1mplxyroblox975

3 жыл бұрын

this is just facts 😖

@heartsfromcatie

3 жыл бұрын

@@s1mplxyroblox975 😕

@kenwalker1731

3 жыл бұрын

and then that "stranger" becomes an online friend who helps you through so much shit and your parents find out you havent met them in person and they dont want you talking to them (my parents have done this many times and is why i dont have my phone)

@heartsfromcatie

3 жыл бұрын

@@kenwalker1731 earlier I had ranted to someone, on a yt comment and they actually gave me better advice than any therapist has ever given me

@kenwalker1731

3 жыл бұрын

@@heartsfromcatie and thats the thing that parents never seem to understand. sometimes people we meet online as strangers become friends who are there for us when nobody else is :(

“It’s not the fact that they don’t understand, it’s that they don’t care.”

@superdonut5563

3 жыл бұрын

“People who let themselves down don’t want to be successful, parents try to help them be successful” -Angelo Fisherman

@aakiracoleman1537

3 жыл бұрын

I want to be alone but not fell alone don’t give up on me........

@KurdtKobain_67

3 жыл бұрын

Aakira Coleman I know the feeling well. I hope you feel better. 🥺

@sunnydavis4850

3 жыл бұрын

Ikr😭

@KurdtKobain_67

3 жыл бұрын

mina ashido NO! Don’t please. I’m sorry about my comment. Don’t do it

The fact that I’m 14 now and have been relating to this for way to long is sad and the fact that this song is literally becoming how my life is

@leeza3076

20 күн бұрын

Me too honestly some days it;s just unbearable but Im here for you fr and it will get better dw you're not alone

When I first found this song I only listened to it because it sounded pretty. A couple years later I became pretty depressed and started cutting myself especially with coming out and stuff, and today I was scrolling through listening to jack stained and I come upon this! Thank you for making this song, even if I'm not into the genre anymore I still love the song. So no matter what's happening in your life just know that there is a better ending that you have to wait for, ALL lives matter❤💛💚💙💜

@I_laugh_at_horror_movies

11 ай бұрын

Jack stauber* is what I meant

The fact that alot of adults don't believe that their children are having depression is shocking. Some adults believe that children are doing it for attention and that some adults don't seek help. Thousands of children are dying from suicide and adults still blame the children for not telling them. How toxic can this environment be?

@axela5746

4 жыл бұрын

I show any form of emotion = more pills

@hailey2493

4 жыл бұрын

my family thinks im faking the fact that im sad. so now i just fake being happy. and it’s believable i guess.

@bapaknyaanisa9107

4 жыл бұрын

This need to be top commeng ever

@stupid._.edward5415

4 жыл бұрын

I stopped telling my mom how sad I was after she said "if I help you, you will just cry more..."

@kyuubiyoko1472

4 жыл бұрын

And this is why I as a medicated depressed person I want to try to help when I have kids of my own, I think I would even help any children that would come to me, if they are ever feeling this way. But as someone who has gone through therapy multiple times in my life I can understand why it would be hard for kids to get help even if the parent is helpful. I was told that I had long term depression that I mostly likely had since I was 5. I wasn't given the help I needed until my senior year of high school, so the toxic environment runs deep, but this is my personal experience, other people could have had better experiences than me.

Plot twist: The one who is singing is the ghost inside of that little girl, and the ghost is just an older her

@stormfriends4000

4 жыл бұрын

That actually makes sense!

@fischlvonluftschlossnarfid5048

4 жыл бұрын

Plot twist: The girl's talking about the past and its her from the future.

@ryleewebb4946

4 жыл бұрын

Ivein Marie Jønsson that got in my feelings

@mikatosis

4 жыл бұрын

Isn’t that what she means? I assumed she meant that with the song.

@intruder6628

4 жыл бұрын

Hmmmmm.... No because ghosts don't speak. Don't tell me that it's the little girl! Little girls don't have voices like that. BTW and TBH so many idiot kids down here.

I remember listening to this exact video over and over when I was younger. I never really understood the lyrics, (I didn't know what they meant) but hearing it now, I'm realizing now that I used to think it couldn't get any worse. I thought I was sad back then. But little did I know that it would get worse. Not being able to cry is worse than all the things I used to cry abt.

I cried for my grandma 👵🏽listening to this 😭I miss her so much 😖

@sophiemarie.b

Жыл бұрын

💖💖💖

The people who disliked clearly don't know what pure talent is.

@alexgrecian4375

4 жыл бұрын

she sang from her heart

@isla3885

4 жыл бұрын

Yeah~!

@gamesd6706

4 жыл бұрын

True

@faithygachagirl2259

4 жыл бұрын

Yes

@Starsism

4 жыл бұрын

They dont know what depression is and how it affects people every single day.

Parents don’t realize their kids thoughts, their depression, their anger, or their pain until it’s too late. Edit: thank you for all the likes. To anyone who reads this, live life like there is no tomorrow. You can do whatever you put your mind to. And no matter what, NEVER put your life on the line because of someone or something ur going through

@muffintime3869

3 жыл бұрын

why don't they ever know?

@norineyee3690

3 жыл бұрын

This is true

@nezukochan4008

3 жыл бұрын

its true

@bella5474

3 жыл бұрын

Truee

@leahrichards9131

3 жыл бұрын

I lost my best friend coz she wouldnt talk to anyone untill it was too late and i was the one that found her but it really was too late and i would never forget that day and that is what has caused me to be like this and i have tryrd many times to join her but i was not successful 😭💔

When I was in fourth grade me and my old friend used to sing this together, it was our favorite song. I haven't heard this song in at least a year..

I’m so sorry for everyone who relates to this song just know that the light will come stay strong angels ❤❤

@Reeeeeeeees

6 ай бұрын

True!♥️

Society: be yourself Also society: no, not like that

@antetatarovic6860

4 жыл бұрын

I relate so hard...

@kyoka1528

4 жыл бұрын

This is why I say society is fucked up! They want you to be yourself then bring you down and hate on you when you do. No wonder everyone is a fake anymore!

@themonkeyprofit1803

4 жыл бұрын

Sooo ture

@trintnwhyamialive9373

4 жыл бұрын

Yep

@retroscares8434

4 жыл бұрын

For me life is a game where we have to survive but we survive to learn and do what we like to do not to be a fucking fake person that thinks like all "normal persons" The normal persons are there humans who tried to become what they want but didn't so they forgot who they are

This reminds me that as a 10 year old, the way you feel isn't really ever taken seriously. Like "you're to young to feel depressed". Remember everyone feels pain. No matter they're age.

@Charlotte-iz1mr

2 жыл бұрын

It’s so true thoughh

@tjesillyevwr

2 жыл бұрын

Yep....

@Silent0nyx

2 жыл бұрын

As a 11 year old can i just say this human is spitting FACTS

@xDDawq

2 жыл бұрын

I was 9 when my depression stared hitting really bad and it has only been going downhill since then. I am 14 now and only just got medically diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. Really wish my voice was heard all those years ago so I could have gotten the help I needed sooner.

@skullsandtea6957

2 жыл бұрын

I know I want to go to a mental hospital I'm not

Hey everyone, i remember listening to this song a cpl years ago, and i can confirm it gets better, keep going, you will find happiness and acceptance❤

it makes me feel like my soul is talking to me . I love this song Thank you🙏 for making this song it makes me feel like theres someone out there who can understand me the best of best.❤

@sophiemarie.b

Жыл бұрын

wow, thank you for this comment. i’m happy i could help in some way 💖💖

...Hey Little girl.. ...Your falling apart... ...But you don't really care... ...Cuz they broke your heart...

@TutiFruity7

4 жыл бұрын

*Felt that*

@user-eo3gq9tz8c

4 жыл бұрын

You're*

@cynthiaflack8103

5 ай бұрын

@@user-eo3gq9tz8c 💀

@KeiraMitchell-ml3lj

5 ай бұрын

Yeah

I told my mom about my depression. She didn’t believe it. I turned to self harm. She saw them and I broke down. She said I was doing it for attention. I will always remember those words Edit: Wow I didn’t expect all the responds. I am so sorry that some of you related to my story.

@yourconfusionmaster

3 жыл бұрын

maybe once ask your mom 'if im doing this for attention, then where's my attention?' because people with depression tend to get ignored/avoided, so if were doing it for attention then wheres our attention?

@Kageyamas_expiredmilk

3 жыл бұрын

Don't worry darling everything will be alright just hang in there even if you feel like giving up. I may be young but as a suicidal person who had lost many people I once loved, it's hard. You'll reach the end of your battle one day and find happiness ❤️ -a friendly stranger :)

@crym3ar1v3r3

3 жыл бұрын

that's just heart breaking and im here for u and i care have a nice day/night ily

@bobaicetea5515

3 жыл бұрын

Its always your doing it for attention but its not it takes the pain away even if its a little

@starlight9087

3 жыл бұрын

Well I hope your okay now 🌹💐

for all the people that are sad: Your skin is not paper, so don’t cut it” “Your neck is not a coat, so don’t hang it” “Your body isn’t a book, so don’t judge it” “Your life is not a movie, so don’t end it”

@TheDarthHater

10 ай бұрын

These are good words

@jaymemercer2183

10 ай бұрын

Thanks☺

@ButterflyLove745

9 ай бұрын

The sad part is that I cry to this comment

@alissaplayz7167

7 ай бұрын

What if it doesn't matter anyway?

@fredericksaxton9782

7 ай бұрын

​@cakebiites You shouldn't try and tell others what they would feel or how they feel. Remember, that happens to depressed people all the time.

To everyone out there, I know you might be sad, or scared, or angry, or a combination of all these things. That's ok. It's ok to not be ok. You've made it through so much, and I hope you see how much you're worth. Sometimes, you just need to take a deep breath. You've made it so far, and you still have so much more to go. Even if you doubt it, you are amazing. I really hope, one day, you'll be able to enjoy your life. And if that's not now? That's ok. It's small steps. Getting out of bed in the morning. Making sure to eat when you need too. Getting help if you need it: no shame in that whatsoever. I'm proud of you for making it so far. Just keep going. From, Leanna, a stranger on the internet who cares.

@Forest_On_PawZ491

18 күн бұрын

I have no idea why no one responded to you, thank you so much for caring about random strangers helping through stuff that no one could imagine! Your a amazing person ❤❤❤

@Girlnextdoor-fh1jm

3 күн бұрын

Thank you so much for this ❤ I have been very depressed and started thinking about my mistakes all the horrible things I did and want to end it all but your comment is amazing. It gives me strength when everyone around me just ignores my pain, my misery and all. Thank you for your inspiration to keep going in life❤❤

hey treat your pillow well, it accept your tears when no one else doesnt.

@stilesstilinski774

3 жыл бұрын

My pillow is my imaginary friend somehow.. dont ask- so I treat them wel

@randomquestion8513

3 жыл бұрын

My pillow is a anime person....

@the2goodsiblings446

3 жыл бұрын

I punch my pillow when I get annoyed or angry because I'm too scared of myself to face anyone, in fear that I'll hurt them..

@WeinerEater926

3 жыл бұрын

If you have a best friend that understands that to treat them well

@that1confusedfox435

3 жыл бұрын

I know how that feels. I pinned a person at school in the corridor after having enough of them bullying me and I regretted it so much after as I normally am not like that and don't like hurting people

Talking at school-30 seconds Talking to family-1 minutes Talking to bestie and online friend-3 minutes Talking to myself-10 hours

@Julianametzger

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah I talk to myself about I'm fine but I'm not

@gacha_chan8652

3 жыл бұрын

Your me but I talk to my family for 100 hours UvU

@cheeriopkoaina4968

3 жыл бұрын

@@Julianametzger to everyone in the comment section: Let us form a group to stop this from ever happening again......gen z's only but gen alpha's can join aswell my email : Lhikawolf@gmail.com

@chicken9721

3 жыл бұрын

I talk to myself as a way to express who I am and parents think I am weird and brother thinks I am mental but it just helps me with life it like another best friend in my head that just listen to me and does not judge

@Julianametzger

3 жыл бұрын

@Victoria Rushing yeah..

i sang this song for a talent show, i won it and i even told a little bit about your music and your story. people loved it, and now you have inspired me to write my own songs about my past experiences. thank you so much sophie❤. oh! also my music class is doing a music artist presentation and i’m doing you! you have inspired me so much i love you ❤. and thank you sophie ❤❤❤❤

Thanks you for writing this song and sharing your story. It’s motivating for everybody who can relate and this song got me through hard days… thank you…

its funny to see strangers understand your pain more then your own friends

@nat-iv8eg

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah

@Maudpie_is_me_fr

3 жыл бұрын

its true

@alenagarcia4228

3 жыл бұрын

For real

@xRUSTYx

3 жыл бұрын

fr :

@Nightmare-ep6wi

3 жыл бұрын

Honestly. All my friends say they understand, but they really don't. I can guarantee they wouldn't last an hour in my life. But they say they can

“I *HATE* when people tell you to be yourself,and than they don’t accept you for it”

@nikkimacbride7982

3 жыл бұрын

“I HATE when people tell you to be yourself,and than they don’t accept you for it” My Mother~

@KeeganandKing

3 жыл бұрын

@@nikkimacbride7982 your mother is smart :) be who you are

@KeeganandKing

3 жыл бұрын

@Patience Fish aww that great :)

@haveagoodmourning

3 жыл бұрын

@Patience Fish THAT'S AMAZING I'M SO PROUD OF YOU AAA

@dwightdunstan7177

3 жыл бұрын

I'm telling ya

My father was in prison starting when i was a baby until this year right before i turned 17. there was always a part of me that was mad at him for making the choices that lead him there. although I felt abandoned, i excused him for being absent because he was in prison. i told myself that now that he was in there, there’s nothing he could do. i dreamed of him getting out because i thought everything would change, as he claimed the reason he wasn’t there for me was being locked up. he has been emotionally draining me ever since his release. he walks in and out of my life whenever it’s convenient for him. i realized prison was never the issue, he was. he no longer had an excuse for his behavior, that’s just who he is. now i’m left feeling abandoned all over again, but it hurts more because he had a choice and he didn’t choose me even with the freedom to do so.

The song and it's meaning are all honestly heartbreaking. I've been through something similar to this but rather it being family doing it, it was friends, and people I thought I trusted. Music is generally my therapy, and this is one of me and my closest friend's favorite song that we both heavily relate to, her more than me. It's truly a moving song to anyone, and I feel bad for everyone who's experienced this, including the song artist.

“Everybody loves you,but nobody likes you and that is the loneliest feeling I’m the world” - bojack horseman

@WeinerEater926

3 жыл бұрын

I will love to keep that in mind thanks

@rylee9893

3 жыл бұрын

Almost everybody can know your name, but almost nobody will ever really know you.

@gummy6337

3 жыл бұрын

i hate that my ex ruined bojack horseman for me.

@Caj2009

3 жыл бұрын

@@gummy6337 I hate that for you it truly taught me some shit.

I’m currently laying in my bed on Christmas night, 2am, it’s pitch black, I’m my room, staring up at my ceiling, balling my eyes out as I replay all the family fights today.

@cjkrunk7649

3 жыл бұрын

Oh my god, I’m so sorry. My parents would argue nonstop when I was little, and I would cry almost every night until they got divorced. I remember them having a huge argument in the car while we were driving our Christmas tree home about 2 years before they got divorced. The argument continued for almost the rest of the afternoon and I hated it. After they got divorced, I started visiting my dad during the summer and on most holidays, so I got to see both of my parents. They still argue over text sometimes, but at least I don’t have to hear it anymore. Trust me, family arguments are horrible, but it’ll get better. Now, I still get sad sometimes, but it’s much better than before. It’ll get better. And I might not know you, but I believe you can get through this.

@theaspiringpianist7268

3 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry. I totally understand, my family can't seem to keep it together either. You'd think the holidays would improve the situation, wouldn't you?

@oompa_loompa1448

3 жыл бұрын

I'm here for you. Maybe not physically but if you need to vent to anyone or you want a distraction from anything bothering you please let me know, I'd love to talk about anything like your favorite TV show even. I just know what it's like to feel alone and I don't want you to feel like that. Love you ❤️

@bellydelahunt._.8321

3 жыл бұрын

@@cjkrunk7649 oh.. I dont get to see my real dad anymore.. I have a step dad that i hate so fucking god dam much, he hurt my mom infront of me once they were in a fight and he was on top of her trying to idk... I didnt understand and i was scareming a them to stop and its his fault and her fault that i am depressed not only that its school too.. I just wish i could have a good life with a perfect happy family... But it wont happen ...👀

@cheryladams2484

3 жыл бұрын

@@cjkrunk7649 I know this wasn’t meant for me but it helps so much.

This song is beautiful, it’s amazing how you can still fight, and even record a whole song after all this pain, I feel mad respect and sorrow for the, your, backstory (respect) ❤

Doing this song today for my schools talent show wish me luck guys ❤

@5Mirko5

Жыл бұрын

Good luck 👍

@Souplypse

11 ай бұрын

how was it? :)

@strawhat77

10 ай бұрын

How was itt

@HomelessMatt

5 ай бұрын

Embarassing

“Hey little girl U know smoking kills But u don’t rly care Cuz u love how it feels” Yep I felt that one 😔

@emmaumbreit6031

5 жыл бұрын

This song makes me really emotional

@reesepfingstler6713

5 жыл бұрын

Hey it’s fine stay strong

@lieselottehaegeman2266

5 жыл бұрын

Same

@faye3642

5 жыл бұрын

Alyssa Ledesma my dad does too

@Cat-hw9ie

5 жыл бұрын

lowkey lorna my parents used to smoke and drink around me and said “it made them feel better” so I started doing it too

When you realise that people you don’t know care more than the ones who you thought loved you.

@jjayarajan4769

4 жыл бұрын

There will always be someone to love and care about you, even if you don’t know it. And, who knows, maybe the person who cares the most is the one you least expect.

@Lila12655

4 жыл бұрын

I love youu 💗💗💗

@yolddykaki5914

4 жыл бұрын

Damn that hit me hard and its true....

@kiwi5658

3 жыл бұрын

The only way I stay strong now is by knowing that there’s someone out there who’s gonna love me, that I’ll have a future with, it’s how I smile everyday. It’s nice to think that there’s someone waiting for you who loves you they just don’t know it yet 💖

@gabrielleamandadimarucot8120

3 жыл бұрын

Then stay alive for those who really care and love you

Ur scars shows all the battels u have thought ur ghost in u is ur story and u lived a tough life stay strong ❤I love u all I'm 13 going through the samm

This song hit hard for 12-13 year old me. My dad and stepmother(i considered her to be my mother) were constantly getting into fights, some abusive but those were always in a different room from me and my siblings, but we could hear them. And all awhile, my brother was r@ping me, every single day and I couldnt bring myself to tell anyone because I knew that it would be the last straw that broke my family. They got divorced and when they did my world collapsed. My stepmother turned against me and took my other siblings away from me, they were the only ones I had because my dad doesnt pay much attention to me. So I started spiraling out of control, I eventually got help and still going through the healing process. I am now 15 and still come back to this song, remembering everything that was happening. I wish I could go back and hold that little girl and tell her its going to get better, that she is going to be safe one day, and that she has so mich to live for.

@whosminou

Жыл бұрын

I am so thankful that you shared your story. we can still keep going because yes, there is still so much to live for. we'll get out of the rough periods one day, i hope.

Me : “I don’t have a favorite song.” Me again: *listens to this all the time*

@l0vley_m331

3 жыл бұрын

SAME-

@WeinerEater926

3 жыл бұрын

Well yeah it’s good if you have depression and wanna cry behind doors and stuff

@ashhhvz

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@summerfamilio5413

3 жыл бұрын

never could of related more

this is actually the most depressing comment section i've ever seen. edit: oh my god it just gets worse.. this comment section makes me cry more than the song called Dead Mom

@preetiam3874

3 жыл бұрын

cant say the same for me......i listen to these types of songs as i can relate so i hv seen many comment section......also guys, b strong and dont giv up hope...who know, mayb latr on u might get someone tht loves u truly....do u really wanna miss tht?

@cindylaster4821

3 жыл бұрын

Welcome to the world

@Playernumber440

3 жыл бұрын

Is it a bad thing?? I think its a good thing.

@mikelbarr

3 жыл бұрын

Hey you listen to girl in red? Just asking-

@voicelessbeing

3 жыл бұрын

@@mikelbarr i have listened to we met in october

I used to relate this song when I was 8 till a few days ago when I found my real friends and the people I loved more, and I still do sometimes still struggle with my mom but after I read your story I felt so lucky that I’m not in that bad of a situation, I still cry at night very silently ❤❤❤

It’s been around 5 years since this song has been released! It is currently my favorite song and I’ve memorized the lyrics I live it so much your song will never comment what year month and day your reading this to prove people still listen to this right now it is 1/20/2024 let’s hope someone else is still listening to this song in the future

My mom tells me “everybody has bad days. Your fine” but then strangers who I’ve never met can relate to me more than my own mother. They will talk to me. My mother won’t.

@kealaniyamini2888

3 жыл бұрын

I hope your relationship gets better because having people who understand you is really important 😁

@ayanaheart320

3 жыл бұрын

i remember i told my mom that i was depressed and she said "then just dont be sad"

@yourlocalghost6517

3 жыл бұрын

We will always be here for you, here's some flowers💐💮🌹🏵🌻🌼🌸🌺🥀🌷⚘

@peekaB00_x

3 жыл бұрын

Thats my situation rn.. My parents call me useless and pathetic all the time my mum sometimes hits me so i told my head of yr that i didnt wanna go home i was actually planning on running away cuz my friend said i can stay wiv her but then her mom said theres no where for me to sleep and thats why i told the teachers. im still living here with my parents rn im not okay i dont wanna be here.. My parents used to get hit by there parents as well but worse but then if ur parents did that to u why the heck would u do that to ur child. IT HURTS SO MUCH!!

@emmaallen2334

2 жыл бұрын

It's the same with me but its both my parents

*"Why cry if you didn't even help me when I was suffering? You stood there and laughed at me. You didn't even bother to ask what's wrong. Now I'm dead."*

@itznicoleyee3041

3 жыл бұрын

:,(

@miragill9895

3 жыл бұрын

I wish I was 12,15,and18

@Rangersarethebestintheuk2023

3 жыл бұрын

That is soooo sad man

@Rangersarethebestintheuk2023

3 жыл бұрын

@@idk2116 ohhhhhhhhhhhhh 😭😭😭😭😭

@rynaseryna

3 жыл бұрын

thats why i dont go to normal school anymore (im not dead tho)

Sitting in the bathroom with my friends while we cry and vent about our shitty home lives and trying to find ways to make it easier on ourselves with eachother. Emancipation, early college, getting a job as soon as possible, saving up, buying a house together, pursuing our passions seperately, each doing what we love.

this hit close to home. I’m really glad that people are making stuff like this and basically saying “I’m not prefect and neither is my life. Deal with it, because it’s my experiences not yours.” I was in a really bad mental state for around 3 years because my mom was dating a a$$hole and I’m pretty sure what he did was mental abuse. And I use to regularly think about $*icide. But me, my mom and my sister are now moving out and I couldn’t be happier. So if you’re going/have been through something like this, know you’re not alone, and that if you try to make a difference things can and should hopefully get better.❤

Let’s be honest, when our parents and “friends” weren’t there..who was? Our electronics : Anime : Social Media : Online friends : Music : Anything that comforted you :

@komo228

3 жыл бұрын

@@summerhardwick689 And they have the AUDACITY to call themselves good people. I swear...Some parents are actually understanding tho..

@komo228

3 жыл бұрын

@@summerhardwick689 Well, Damn.

@komo228

3 жыл бұрын

@@summerhardwick689 Kill- I mean Ignore both of your parents.

@komo228

3 жыл бұрын

@@summerhardwick689 😊 Ah, yes. I now understand, you have an amazing heart.

@komo228

3 жыл бұрын

.........Yes 😊

My skin: im pretty My heart: im broken My brain: im smarter My soul: im dying My lips: im beautiful My wirst/arm: im not My life: get off me My death: hello..wanna have tea?

@stilesstilinski774

3 жыл бұрын

Ur death sounds British

@stilesstilinski774

3 жыл бұрын

@ANNABELLE RIDDLE PWHAHA YE I WAS ALSO SAD- but when they said that I immediately thought of it

@-_-NannO_-

3 жыл бұрын

@Samy Sagastume LMAO PLS YOUR DOTS MAKE IT SO MUCH FUNNIER BYE 😭😭😭🤚

@stepcrow1

3 жыл бұрын

STFU I SWEAR TO GAWD

@zero_marty3311

3 жыл бұрын

@@stilesstilinski774 Man I love tea and I am notBritish dont get those stereotypes.

6: Im going to be a princess 7:im going to be a Candy factor owner 8:im going to be a C.E.O 9:Im going to be a singer 10: I DONT WANT TO BE USED 11:I want a new family 12:I WANT SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME 13:I wanna be happy like when i was 6 13:I want dad to love me again... 14:I WANT MOM TO TAKE CARE OF ME!!! 15: I tried 15: im going to be dead when i grow up!😊

I only found this song recently, but I can't even begin to explain how much I relate to the words; though I "read" the meaning slightly differently. I don't think people really understand what it's like to be abandoned at an early age. My father left my mother and I when I was 2-3 years old. I didn't understand it then. I really didn't. I saw him twice after he left; both times, he ignored me and acted as though I wasn't there. My 6th b-day; he played video games with my three boy cousins, then fell asleep on our couch. Christmas when I was 8; was at my paternal grandparents house, when mom and I got there, I walked in and immediately went to the kitchen to help my grandma cook. In addition to the little memory I have of those days; my mom told me at that Christmas, I gave him a taste of his own medicine; basically showing them that I was doing fine without him there. Regardless, I despise both holidays/celebratory days because I'm reminded of these memories; it still hurts so much every day feeling like I'm not enough and never will be because "if I was people I loved and cared about, wouldn't have left." To add on to him leaving, my paternal (fathers side) grandparents; specifically grandmother, is misogynistic and manipulative. The same goes for my maternal (mothers' side) grandma. Throughout my childhood, I spent most of my time away from my mother because she worked long hours, and it was a decently far drive. My weekdays were spent with a babysitter that hated me (and me specifically) for whatever reason. Most of my weekends were spent with paternal grandparents. The babysitter I went to; I mentioned she hated me, but it wasn't just that. She treated me like absolute trash. I got blamed and punished for everything at her house; it didn't matter if I was even there the day it happend, everything was just my fault. There was a time when she smacked me across the mouth for "talking back" when I was actually explaining a situation to her; i still have the scar on my lip from her acryllic nails. She mentally, physically, and emotionally abused me for 13 years of my life. I was constantly shamed for eating and not eating; things I did as a kid (she would repeatedly bring up that I was a "cry baby" when I was an infant/young toddler? just to embarrass me in front of the other kids). Not only this, but she would constantly degrade me and tell me I was always wrong or that I was a failure. To add, she always got really pissed off when I stayed somewhere else for a day. She called me a liar 24/7 even when I wasn't lying and was always yelling at me for the randomest, most out-of-pocket things. She's the reason I have ptsd and cry when anybody raises their tone slightly when talking to me. I have trust issues, anger issues, and abandonment/attachment issues (from my "father"). I got anxiety and have become an extreme pefectionist because if there's one thing I learned from her, it's that no matter what I do, whether I'm perfect or not, it's never good enough. For my actual family, I can't go to them with anything because, surprise, surprise, I have family issues too. My one aunt is a beach; she starts so much sugar-honey-iced-tea that I'm pretty sure it's an addiction. She typed in a group chat that my mom is a "spawn of Satan and needs to go to hell" and has cut off almost all communication between other family members and her and her boys (my cousins). Not to mention that she lies constantly and threatened to show up on our doorstep with cops because we "stole" something that belonged to a deceased family member, which was actally offered to us by her husband (they were in charge of the house and stuff; I forget what its called). I did see a therapist at one point for a bit; but as I continue to say, you can't schedule feelings, and tbh I can't talk to people about my issues in person unless it's someone I fully trust and I'm having a breakdown; I've learned how to listen and bottle up my emotions so that no one knows. To add, as I saw a wise person once comment, "I feel my feelings are invalid because there are people going through/that have gone through so much worse than me." To all of you that read this; thank you, and I hope you're all doing well ❤

"I'm fighting for all that I've lost" "It's my time to show whose boss" "I've waited in the dark too long" "I've got now so just stay strong "

@raptor_444_

2 жыл бұрын

Párky

@zariin1722

2 жыл бұрын

@@raptor_444_ sorry I didn’t understand

@wendybergsma6116

2 жыл бұрын

@@raptor_444_ sausages ?

@chellesampo9847

2 жыл бұрын

I love that now i wish could live up to that

my parents: "why are you always on that phone" my mind: "cause its the only place where people understand me"

@thatonekid3908

3 жыл бұрын

Yes its true

@eijirokirishima7061

3 жыл бұрын

same

@HI-wc5qb

3 жыл бұрын

Yea

@inirafitzpatrick315

3 жыл бұрын

I relate and understand this

@bubbleguppieshisokaswifey5376

3 жыл бұрын

@Elizeth Reyes and your own family like you dont know them but they know you better than your own friends and family it's crazy

Thank you. I've known this since it became popular. I learned about it at first from my sister, and I've been coming back to it since then, but I think for different reasons than others here. I once listened to it because I liked the beat and it was really smooth, then I went through trauma when I was younger, so then I related to it more. Then, when my sister left on and off for a couple years, I came back to this a couple times because I felt like it let me relate to how she might've felt at the time. And how we are now. And now I think I almost completely relate to this song. Because now I'm starting to heal, and we're better, and I thank you.

This song still hits the same as it did when I was 10

*“Don’t cry when I’m gone because if you really cared you would of believed me when I said I was depressed..”*

@love-being-hot4350

3 жыл бұрын

Thank u someone understand in life. Right we would get bullied and no one really cared about us people so. They wont miss us when we go away there understand what they did wrong.

@rosarosyrosabell1873

3 жыл бұрын

Look I really want to you know 2 but the only reason why I don't is because I have people in my life that really let's just say I have earthly possessions think about everyone and everything even your pets that you know could you live knowing that they'll never see you for a very long time are the thought that you might never see them again because we don't know if heaven and pet heaven is connected so really think about it before you do it please my friends and my pets are the only reason why I'm here even though I know they're not real friends it still feels nice.

@muffintime3869

3 жыл бұрын

Here's another one don't cry when i'm gone cause you didn't notice not when I cried not when I was told to die never so is it worth it to cry over something you didn't care to think of?

@ccwlf9873

3 жыл бұрын

I feel you... I hurt every day putting on a fake smile every day just to know now that it never help hurting yourself jus to see if you'll get better nothing helps. Be other people I don't even know understand me in every way... So I stay alive a little longer..

@rosarosyrosabell1873

3 жыл бұрын

@@ccwlf9873 I feel you midnight I know you but I feel you try getting a cat or some type of animal to tell everything they do understand you and you can trust them not to say anything ;) only helps to know that anyone knows trust me I got to cats and they're loving and they've never left my side only downside is you'll miss them like HELL when they leave

little girl: what’s on your arm? me: they’re battle scars. little girl: you fought in a war? me: yeah. a long and hard one. little girl: that’s so cool! can i get one? me: no. please do not ever get any. but i’ll tell you what. whenever you see someone else with battle scars, i want you to hug them. okay? can you promise me? little girl: yes. i promise. a few days later we went on a short shopping spree. suddenly the little girl let go of my hand and ran up to another random teenager teen: why are you hugging me? little girl: because.. (*points*) you have battle scars just like my babysitter. the teen looked up at me, and i rolled up my sleeves to show her. with tears in her eyes, she said one thing to me.. teen: my war is far from being finished right now, but i am not done fighting. she bends down at eye level with the little girl teen: thanks for giving me the strength to keep . you are forever my war hero. ⚠️ this is not my story, but i saw it somewhere else and decided to share it too because i want you to do the same to anyone with “battle scars” ⚠️ I need everyone to pass this on.

@xavier5204

3 жыл бұрын

i have a lot of *battle scars* but nobody has done that to me thats so nice

@smokindemon3409

3 жыл бұрын

I SAW THE EXACT SAME THING IN ANOTHER VIDEO

@art3426

3 жыл бұрын

Omg im crying right now. Its so true

@rads_world

3 жыл бұрын

@@xavier5204 same

@BknightSkra

3 жыл бұрын

but like can someone do this for me my battle is over but it would be nice and wholesome

how i used to love this song! brings back memories

This song has truly sent me into tears. The fact that it says little girl and smoking kills I jaut love it ❤

"you get little older, you'll get abandoned" .....that hits

@jasmineresendiz9933

3 жыл бұрын

Fr tho....

@theanimusrainwing4934

3 жыл бұрын

//glares at my ex-bestfriend//

@PlayerAltoriya

3 жыл бұрын

*glares at all the people I’ve ever trusted*

@dnkassnation2282

3 жыл бұрын

Sadly it’s true tho

@KOA-Zzz...

3 жыл бұрын

That's kinda what happened with me But I was taken away from my mom and Dad when I was like 3 or 4

Its so upsetting how relatable this is.

Now that I’m getting older this song keeps connecting to my life more and more. My dad left me last year after he neglected me. I got SA by my ex. And a lot of other things. I keep relapsing and I can’t help it. Thank you for making a song I can use for coping❤

They didn't notice you were crying they didn't notice you were sad they didn't notice you were alone they didnt notice how beautiful you are they didnt notice how sweet you are they didn't notice that they are hurting you they did notice your falling grades they did notice all of your mistakes they did notice your flaws they did notice you are not good enough for them

@miabalsialisa2575

3 жыл бұрын

Stop describing my parents

@perrycobbs8043

3 жыл бұрын

I mean it's true for me

@perrycobbs8043

3 жыл бұрын

People don't understand only strangers . . . and you

@selenequintero5918

3 жыл бұрын

This is relatable for me.

@MobileLegends-ox8dt

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah im your... right..😭😭

*”Cause they broke your.....heart”* *Felt that :(*

@l_avenderdesire3094

4 жыл бұрын

I read this right as that lyric comes

@shadowdragon7997

4 жыл бұрын

Same I cried during that

@ln3lytoast698

4 жыл бұрын

It hit hard and my ex is in the room with me...

@reyna1466

4 жыл бұрын

Victoria_funk 34 me to

@user-by4cn3sw9y

4 жыл бұрын

Me too.

I felt this deep. 😢 Hope everyone can heal from their childhood tramas.

Really reminds me of the old times. This song used to be my fav back in the days. Now I've finally found it.

“You get a little older and you get abandoned” that hits me deep...bc I feel like my cousin abandoned me and always see me but then just ignore me and like I’m invisible...

@quizzypop3964

3 жыл бұрын

For me put my dad in your cousins place he left almost 5 years ago I was about 9 I'm 13 now he has only called 5 times and only for something important ...

isnt it funny how parents never believe that we were depressed. In their eyes we were just lazy. but in our eyes our world was falling apart. in their perspective they had bad kids and wanted a replacment. but in ours, we just wanted our parents to undertand because we love them and we just want to be loved by them.....

@peekaB00_x

3 жыл бұрын

Thats my situation rn.. My parents call me useless and pathetic all the time my mum sometimes hits me so i told my head of yr that i didnt wanna go home i was actually planning on running away cuz my friend said i can stay wiv her but then her mom said theres no where for me to sleep and thats why i told the teachers. im still living here with my parents rn im not okay i dont wanna be here.. My parents used to get hit by there parents as well but worse but then if ur parents did that to u why the heck would u do that to ur child. IT HURTS SO MUCH!! I dont feel loved by my mom..but i wish i was she said she regreted having me

@cerry_bubblegu2237

3 жыл бұрын

Yes,very true

@akffjn6880

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@dezireetripp7912

2 жыл бұрын

by that is why my parents think because i have depression so bad but they do think about that but them self's

@shittytitty7815

2 жыл бұрын

Yup :)

As a little girl myself, this song makes me feel so fuzzy. Almost as if ur talking directly to me, never felt more precious in my life. Keep up the good work!!

When I was 10 I had serve sleep issue I still slept in my mothers bed couldn’t even sleep there parents never took me to therapy. Had wayyy too many toxic friendships still no therapy I had anxiety couldn’t sit still, struggled to listen, trust issues, clingyness but they never cared enough I’m older now went ti therapy and got diagnosed with ADHD and depression this comment is for all those little girls who where scared to tell their parents mum dad I want to get tested, for all those little girls who where counting calories when they where 8 this is for u❤❤

It’s sad that people/parents tell you “you’re too young “ “it’s that phone!” “You’re just confused, not depressed” “you’re fine stop being over dramatic” No, it doesn’t matter who you are and how “good” your life is, you can get depressed. I don’t want to die, because I’m afraid of death, I just don’t want to exist. I get told I’m over dramatic and attention seeking when I say that and it makes me sad people would just dismiss others feelings like that.

@Emma-hf1kb

3 жыл бұрын

WHY DOES THIS NOT HAVE MORE LIKES!!!!!

@marnguyen1990

3 жыл бұрын

I can relate to this so much. I feel like such a coward being afraid of dieing, yet wishing I wasnt here. I sometimes wish I was just never born. when I was ten I felt like shit but didnt think it was depressed or anything. Thats also when the anime and reading addiction started, so I guess I was able to cover up my sadness with that, but then I noticed that when I didn't have that around, I was fucking tired. When I was 10, I lost all motivation, but didn't think much of it. When I was 10, I stayed in bed all day reading wattpad and watching anime. When I was 11, I figured out what I was feeling that whole time was NOT normal.... I figured that out by first, seeing other people around me oh SO happy. second, I let go of anime, reading, tv and anything else that kept me away from feeling emotion for just a little, and I felt like dieing. thats when I noticed that I wasnt as happy as I thought I was. Thats when I figured out that that "happiness" was just coming straight from fictional characters and stories. Now the only thing I was a little bit of motivation for left is volleyball because it reminds me of anime, so I can do something active that I like and that keeps my mind off of my mental stability. Now whenever I talk to people that are in my class, a lot of them seem so happy. I was talking to myself once and said 'I wish I was never born' Forgetting that other people actually like their life. Someone heard me and was concerned and asked ' What did you say!? That you were never bored?' Luckily they thought I said 'bored' so I just went along with it. I'm also lesbian, and I don't feel like I can tell anyone because I'm afraid someone is just going to say that shit to me too. There are so many things I couls say that happned to me, but I don't feel like wasting someone's time. Now I'm just spilling my life story to some people in a reply area of a comment on a song thats really good. I hope that anyone who reads this has a good 24 hours, and hopefully more. ♥

@d3rpycaat

3 жыл бұрын

People think just because were so young doesn’t mean we don’t feel this way Dumb@$$: just think of the people who have it worse than you Me: thank you for making me feel worse When Roblox is there for you when your friends aren’t My reason for wanting to 😭🔫 One depression two curiously that’s it

@julietrodriguez4642

3 жыл бұрын

One time I was tired of hiding my depression caused from my parents I was scared to tell them Im like maybe they'll help me but I knew they were gonna say your not depressed 😒🙄 I'm healing myself and they act like they did it...

@d3rpycaat

3 жыл бұрын

@@julietrodriguez4642 I’m so sorry for you

_this.song.is.everything._ *THIS NEEDS TO GO VIRAL* -THIS IS SO AMAZING-

@sophiemarie.b

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you Ali!

@cecilielarsen6789

5 жыл бұрын

Ali Zunigaaa it is on tik tok

@aliaaannnaa_

5 жыл бұрын

Sophiemarie.b no problem!!!💞💫

@aliaaannnaa_

5 жыл бұрын

Cecilie Larsen oh that’s cool!!

@anamariacanomendoza1728

5 жыл бұрын

FR fr no cap all of these are mine

I SHd for the first time a few weeks ago. My mental state has been up and down since fourth grade but this song always helps whenever it drops. I feel like I’m not alone.

I never thought I'd listen to this song with a small smile on my face while remembering all the pain i felt when i was just 11 years old At least now i know i made it through that pain, and im better than i was Yes im still a mess, but atleast now i have something to look forward to This song go me through so much, while i hope no child has to relate to this song like many of us had, i know atleast some will. And maybe it can be their reason to keep going just like it was mine