My daughters hypomania starts with irritability. If I can get her to nap sometimes that stops the cycle. She has not been able to keep a job because the stress brings on psychosis. Please take care of yourself.

@Ken-er9cq

2 ай бұрын

Napping works well for me. Even if I don’t fall asleep, it makes me less irritable. It also means that I don’t interact with other people, who say stupid things and don’t recognise how much cleverer I am. Having had a couple of incidents of psychosis due to anti-depressants, which is how I was diagnosed as bipolar, it is something to be avoided.

@florenciapescio9935

23 күн бұрын

I do that 🙋🏻‍♀️ When I'm very high on energy and/or overwhelmed with irritability I go to bed. I don't always get to nap, but to be horizontal helps calming 🙌🏻

@AZ-kr6ff

5 күн бұрын

​@@Ken-er9cq Psychosis from antidepressants?

One of the many frustrating things about having a mood disorder is having to do detective work on yourself and your patterns in life. I remember all of these instances of having conversations with people, especially older relatives and them asking me to slow down my speech, which as you probably know, takes concentrated effort. Getting used to the ebb and flow of the speed of thoughts, going from racing impatience to the molasses fog of depression can be such a jarring contrast- both as the person experiencing it and to those around us. I’m glad your videos are helping folks to relate to and surf the tides of these mood states.

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

This is all so well said and I think you’re right on it. The slowing down of speech is so relatable and I’ve probably been that way all my life, as I had manic symptoms from a very young age, they were just quite mild compared to what I deal with now. The detective comment is so real, thank you for sharing this and for this comment. Stay strong!

@VestalNumbre

29 күн бұрын

​@@SchizoKitzo(⁠｡⁠•́⁠︿⁠•̀⁠｡⁠) The Books 📚 🤔 ?what books do you read ? Speedcore?terror core ?breakcore ? Anxiety for me 😭.I am listening

I just finished watching this to the end - thank you for your vulnerability in sharing an inside view of one of your hypomanic episodes, SchizoKitzo. You continue to contribute to the acceptance and community around psychotic disorders. I hope that you are feeling better now.

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

I feeling something lol Thanks!

The sad part is that you know its not gona last forever 💔 but you still question whether the sad part of your is over

This makes me feel significantly less alone I see people with “mania” and it doesn’t seem like the way I experience it I hope you can calm down and not crash

If a crash has hit, I hope it’s being gentle with you. I hope you’re getting whatever help or just affirmation and companionship you want through it and thank you SO much. Thank you for trusting your followers with this part of your life

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

I appreciate these words so much, thanks! I’m glad I can share this stuff with the world, and I’m always so grateful for those that follow along. Thanks again!

@Voltchip

5 ай бұрын

@@SchizoKitzo :)

You talking fast af is finally fast enough for me lmao otherwise my brain moves on from whatever someone is talking about because they’re wayyyy too slow, my brain needs more info more stimulation asap

@Dude8718

10 күн бұрын

Bruh the internet has broken my friend. He watches shit as 2x speed but doesn't even retain anything 😭

Wow… this just made me feel so seen bc this is EXACTLY what my hypomania is like. I do find it interesting though that you said you don’t usually realize when you’re hypomanic because for me I can always tell. The thing I don’t realize in the moment though is how annoying I’m being… and then once I’m depressed I look back at myself and I’m like god I was unbearable wasn’t I 😅

Thank you so much for this glimpse into what hypomania is like for you! I've learned so much from the videos you took while you were in depressive episodes, so it was fascinating to see what comes before that. It's really cool that you realized what was happening in time to catch it on camera. What stood out to me the most was how much faster than usual you spoke - it gave me a good idea of how fast your brain is moving too, with nothing else being fast enough for it. It was also interesting to hear about your conflicting feelings of wanting to harness the hypomania vs. wondering if you should try to slow down. And I cackled so loud at that bee joke XD I hope you're having a blast at Katsucon, and that the combination of post-con depression and depression from this episode isn't too terrible. Thank you so much again for sharing this!

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

So glad you liked the bee joke it is my absolute favorite and I will use it at any opportunity. The fast speech-also known as pressured speech-is definitely the most obvious sign externally that I’m in hypo/mania for sure. And I’m glad you were able to learn from this one too. Katsu was great, thanks for the well wishes, and fortunately, as of me replying to this, I’m back to euthymia. Thanks GC!

I'm hypomanic right now and you make perfect sense. I can follow everything. I even chuckled because I relate

@SchizoKitzo

2 ай бұрын

😂 😂 😂

@elvinaguiremolina

2 ай бұрын

LMAO ME TOO 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

Thank you for sharing. As a therapist intern this was so beneficial for me to see what this looks like and hear your experience. I will be better able to help and recognize what my clients are experiencing because of your willingness to be vulnerable and share

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

Glad to help!

Pressured speech, it happens and these things do come in cycles. Best of luck! Hoping for the best experience at the festival. I don't have bipolar disorder as I didn't meet the criteria for it, but I do have a history of childhood asthma. Even as an adult, I sometimes need an inhaler and strong Corticosteroids to loosen me up because the coughing spells become intense. However, these things induce hypomania (and sometimes the full-blown thing in the case of IV SoluMedrol) and life simply feels so "fast". Likewise, the irritability is unreal and horrifying. However, in these scenarios, it's either hypomania or not breathing for me.

@Kriti2024

24 күн бұрын

Corticosteroids induce hypomania?!!! New information for me!!

Several years before I was diagnosed with BP2, I attended an entire job interview in this state. I talked for an hour and the interviewers never got a question in. At the end, one of the interviewers said that I sounded manic. This stuck with me and kept coming back in my thoughts and eventually I self-diagnosed and approached a psychiatrist who was outstanding. Like you, I still have no idea whether I am depressed or hypomanic and people have trouble understanding that. Occasionally I do. What still amazes me, is that out of all those people who have known me all my life (and I was diagnosed at 55), not a single one noticed that I was bipolar. BTW thanks for letting me see you when hypomanic - it helps me see how people must see me when I am in that state.

@aljaklapsicmonroe

Ай бұрын

Maybe You don't have it, if peopley dont sée it??

@leonbeale5431

Ай бұрын

@@aljaklapsicmonroe Perhaps I am not bipolar after all. Thanks for that, I will look into it.

@KobaltBlue680

Ай бұрын

Maybe you should go to a professional and be diagnosed. Self diagnoses are not exactly the most accurate and objective.

@leonbeale5431

Ай бұрын

@@KobaltBlue680 If you read above you will see I was diagnosed (first sentence). I have in fact been diagnosed twice by leading Psychiatrists. My comments are regarding the point that others around me didn't identify I was BP. The implication is that awareness is low. This is a common issue - late diagnosis. Apologies if I didn't express myself well.

@KobaltBlue680

Ай бұрын

@@leonbeale5431 No you expressed it well enough. I have a habit of missing parts in information that I read. Very irritating when it happens and I respond incorrectly. Wishing the best for you.

You have much more clarity and self-awareness then I tend have. I'm 37 and have only been recently diagnosed.

@SchizoKitzo

4 ай бұрын

I blame the 16 years of therapy, and recovery is possible! Best of luck in your journey and know the diagnosis is not the end ^_^

This is so much what happens to with me and I have bipolar 1. Higher energy, world too slow, irritated that the world is too slow. I feel you so much and all of us who have this.

Always try your best to slowdown otherwise mania can get out of control. I went completely off a rails. My mind and body was not in my control. People had to physically stop me. Now I'm in the deep depression phase but I will take this depression over mania any day.

Thank you so much for showing what this can look/sound like. Before I would have thought you were on drugs but now I understand that I can't jump to this conclusion with everybody. This has been very eye opening. Thank you

@SchizoKitzo

4 ай бұрын

LOL glad to have been eye opening, it does kinda seem off the rails and a little too hyper to those around me, but I explain what’s going on and they go “ohhhhhhhh” because they know me 😂

Appreciate your openness about this. I don’t feel as alone , thank you

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

You are so welcome

3:59 Thank you for your honesty and courage to share this with all of us. I am much happier knowing now I'm not hypomanic and just more positive and happy.

I just now had my first real hypomanic episode and finding out, I'm currently coming down, laying in the couch with a blanket watching this video relating to everything. An hour ago I was dancing around the apartment with speakers on max filled with euphoria, self confidence and my head going immensibly fast, after driving (faster than I should have) home from the hairdresser because I left work early to do so. I still dont know if I'm in my right mind to share all this here but at the same time it seems like the only right thing to do at this moment. You get it.. While I'm writing this now I'm experiencing a strongly heightened clarity and it feels like every word is just flowing through me, which is strange since I usually find it hard to articulate myself. Anyway. Flow stopped. I recently after alot of appointments and hard effort managed to persuade my doctor to send an application for the diagnosis of ADHD (It got declined) which became clear to me that I have been struggling with my whole life. I can only imagine the look on his face when I tell him I think (I know) I got bipolar disorder type II. So here we go, round two. The journey of self discovery continues, and life truly never stops giving. Take care everyone.

@esn2455

7 күн бұрын

Truthfully you don’t know that you have bipolar, you just think you do. It’s s dangerous game to self diagnose because you can send your doctors on a wild goose chase. There are many and I do mean many things that can look like mania that is not mania, don’t fall into the recent trend of younger folks of claiming you have something you don’t know you have. If you want to know some background, I am 48 years old and I was really diagnosed over 30 years ago (back before bipolar was the catch all it has become) and in that time I have learned some things about this illness. I don’t know if you really have bipolar or if you just have a healthy imagination but just please do those of us that have been clinically diagnosed a favor and refrain from posting things about this illness until you really have had proper evaluations, let the doctor’s do their work.

Not annoying at all. Loved it! Thank you for sharing. Hope you're able to navigate the ride as gracefully as possible.

Thank you for sharing this kit. I would never have the courage to be as open as you are. You are extremely brave! Videos like this remind me that there are other people like me. This kind of stuff is extremely valuable for the mental health + bipolar community as well. Hang in there kit and stay strong! I hope you are doing well now

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

Much better yes :) thanks!

Thanks for pressing record and capturing the moment. I hope you beehave at the convention 🥁

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

HA

Learning to cope with next week sounds like the hardest part but the more awareness you have of what's going on the easier it is to control that and you seem like you're getting that. We're also not perfect and we all live with regrets. I hope you enjoy your time at the con and don't overspend but if you do try not to be too hard on yourself for it.

It is preposterous to my reasoning that you have no brakes to slow down your flow of thoughts. Some medicines, of course, but that is all there is. I am happy that you make these videos! You are making progress.

@SchizoKitzo

3 ай бұрын

Thanks!

Hey kit, I really love your videos and appreciate your take/transparency. I was wondering if you would make a video to talk about how menstruation cycles affect you and play a role (if any) in your mental health. Sorry if this seems unrelated to this specific video, it just popped into my head as I was watching and thought I would put it out there

@gigahorse1475

5 ай бұрын

My paranoia would decrease a lot when I was on my period. 🤷

It's like looking in a mirror right now. Very happy I found your channel. Some meds I'm taking for a long infection is massivly effecting my ability to manage my schizoaffective mood. Gotta make sure they make a note for a next time, some pan's or maybe a stabilizer would not be a bad thing next time, but for now it's great! So lung infection, still did everything and more then normal. Shopping, cooking for my family, cleaning. Feel like superman and no increase in voices. Caught up a whole week of work in a day! Can't stop talking, wrote like a thousand lines of code on my frigging phone. Have it for two days now, still able to sleep altho allot of waking up ofcource. But euhh yeah, not gonna be pretty when I get off those meds. Luckly I never go very low, I mostly go up. Hope it went well for you afterwards as well.

Keep spreading the word. Hang in there and God bless.

Hoping you're recovering from the crash well. I know how hard this is for you.

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

I’m much better, now, thanks!

Oh man, I feel you! I hate hypomania…because all I can think about is the drop(which lasts way longer, for me). You a fan of Dragon force? VERY fast metal, super intricate with LOTS going on. Good luck on the bipolar roller coaster my friend, hopefully it’s not too crazy!

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

Oh heck yeah Dragonforce is great for hypo/mania!

hit the nail on the head. just found you. my friend just asked me what mania is and i tried my best but this is exactly. love you❤.

I’m so sorry for you. I totally and completely get it. I have hypomania as well as severe depression and mixed episodes. I don’t know if I’ve ever spoke as quickly as you are speaking, but you would have to ask friends and family members to be sure but I know what it feels like just a couple days ago. I literally felt like done three lines of cocaine or something, and I felt it on my insides. It felt like my insides were just gonna burst, I was just gonna burst open because I was so high but I don’t. I actually hate the feeling so that’s where I’m a little different as I actually hate that feeling. I think I usually get a little bit more energy before like you did there’s a little warning sign that’s coming on. That does feel good. I’m more productive and then I go into this drugged feeling but I got lucky yesterday or a couple days ago and it only lasted like a day, and then I take during these episodes. I take extra Valium so that I calm down. I know take a little bit and if that doesn’t work and a couple hours, I take a little bit more until it kind of pulls me down to a point where I’m calmer and it’s not as severe that way, and it really helps me get through the high but like you I dread the low because it’s so debilitating you’re so depleted of energy and I get that part too, so frustrating to live this way up and down up and down and the low is so low that you just can’t do anything. You’re so exhausted out like brushing your teeth feels like too much so I live like that most of the time unfortunately and then I get a high and I get a few things done and then not nearly enough, but then I go back to the low, so sorry you’re having to deal with this Nuro feedback is really helpful for me. I use lens LENS feedback and that has been really helpful. I didn’t. I don’t necessarily recommend any other type of Nuro feedback because the lens reads your brain waves in real time and gives it back to your brain and brain knows how to self correctso that has been the biggest help for me because I couldn’t tolerate. It made me a zombie on like a quarter of a starting dose like I’m so sensitive to medication so anyway thanks for sharing your hypomania. It’s really nice to see that. I’m so sorry for you but it’s nice to see that I’m not alone. Thanks for sharing.

I hope you managed to get what you need to manage/ make the fall a little less of a blow. I hope you have some loving support too. I have a personality disorder diagnosis and always thought I had Bipolar 2, one Psychiatrist said she didn't know if my past problems were due to Bipolar, but it was never followed up. I guess I'll never know if I had the condition or not, not sure if anyone has had a similar experience... I respect your bravery for posting this, I think videos like these educate people who don't understand mental health conditions. Thanks!

I hope your come down was manageable, Kit 🤗 Thank you for this video - it was very helpful.

I can an hear how rapid your speech is and how tangential your thoughts are , and i hear you when you say you get triggered in the lead up to conventions. Please do what stops you from going completely manic. For eg, eat even if not hungry and go to bed even when not tired. Lay off the caffeine. Things like that. God bless you 🙏🏼 ❤

Im trying to type this as fast as I can! Also thanks for sharing and if you crash later we will be here for you. Have a lovely con! 😊

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

Thanks!

I went to change the speed thinking I had it on 2x so yes you are hypomanic ❤ take care of your self

I thought i was either bipolar or bpd. Struggled to live with the diagnosis of bpd. For a while i forgot about bipolar as i couldnt see the signs clearly and now holy shit what your explaining sounds bipolar. I think im borderpolar. Its so crazy that switch. I Have those rapid mood swings and those highs and lows. I go from speaking fast to barely getting outta bed. So i got diagnosed with adhd but it aint consistent enough to be classic adhd. I randomly moved 2500km and got a job despite not being able to work 4 months until i relapsed it went away and i feel a major relapse. I found myself spending a lot of money. Now the money is gone i feel low, paranoid, irritable, pessimistic.

This is really helpful. I can show it to people to help people around me understand. Hope it's all good. Thank Kit.

@patrickpalmer-thomas2660

6 ай бұрын

I remembered to take my meds.

@patrickpalmer-thomas2660

6 ай бұрын

I always worry about annoying my therapist. I'm pretty sure its just a real thing they have to deal with.

@gigahorse1475

5 ай бұрын

@@patrickpalmer-thomas2660 I doubt you annoy your therapist. Your therapist chose that kind of job, so they shouldn’t be annoyed at their clients! ❤

Thank you for sharing your experience! I’m glad you’re feeling good now, and I hope you enjoy the convention! :) I have schizophrenia not schizoaffective. I’ve had times where I felt super high and energetic, but not to this extent.

Watching this makes me think of the version of this I get I have schizophrenia and ocd I get times were I can't sleep for days mixed with adrenaline and some mania but then mixes with delusions and I'm up for days I have to stay on my meds to keep it under control thanks for the video I'm wishing you the best take it easy take care

My brother is going through an epsisode right now, its so bad. Hes been in the hospital for 5 weeks, refuses medication. He talks so fast and slurred you can't understand him, swears a lot and laughs a lot. He would be so dangerous if he wasn't in the hospital. It's so sad. I am glad he is in the hospital right now, because when he drops he will drop hard and would probably become suicidal. I love bees too, btw ❤ thanks for the bee joke!

Thank you for posting and sharing your journey!

I was recently diagnosed with Cyclothymia (Bipolar disorder 3) and when I deal with hypomania I'm on top of the world. I talk too much and become impulsive. I also know after the hypomania is over the manic stage will be next. It sucks. But I'm glad to finally understand what I was going through all these years. Why I felt like Jekly and Hyde. With medication and therapy I'm becoming more aware and how to cope with it. Cutting down on sugar, coffee and alcohol has been helping as well.

I'm looking at my reflection..this..is me. i feel your pain dear, i am also BP 2. I can relate totally! keep doing good things and be easy on you! hugs

I recent had my first officially diagnosed mania. Diagnoses is currently officially schizoaffective from the hospital. But it turns out that my "voices" seem closer to the headmates/alters in OSDD and DID than in psychosis although I do have psychotic tendencies. They are less external and more internal but occasionally I mix them up as external because it's sort of like when you have a song stuck in you're head and it gets so loud you start to actually hear it but it's coming from the center of you're skull so you can tell it's not actually there unless there is a lot of background noise. I can feel their energy and emotions and they can make my muscles spasm.

I totally relate to this. Whew!!!!! But you don't yet sound delusional yet cause I can still understand you in this. It's exhausting and definately scary knowing the aftermath.

Hi kitz, im a new follower of you. I love your videos. They are very helpful. They are one of the best videos that explain schizoaffective to us folks. My 14yo daughter was recently diagnosed with sza, and you vids help me alot in understanding what she is dealing with. Some also give us insight on what she might be having (internal auditory and prorprioceptive hallucination). Anyway we love you, and stay strong.. if you dont mind, please make a video on how you deal with school and college.. since hers is all over the place, grades and absency are plumetting down..

I know how this feels, you stay strong girl

Do your best to take care -I understand it is not as easy as it sounds - make sure you keep in contact with your friends - from Anthony in Ireland

That is me all over...waiting for the world to catch up to me. I find it a very lonely place to be. Like...being the only person on the earth. Thanks for making me feel like I am part of a community, SchizoKitso. I like the way you are.

@SchizoKitzo

4 ай бұрын

None of us are alone!

I really appreciate you sharing your perspective.

Hi Kit, I have a question as I notice a lot of patterns and crossover between probably almost all neurodivergent conditions and have a very simple theory that ties them together. The only difference between anxiety and excitement is how the mind interprets those exact same chemicals released, which is why sports psychologists teach athletes to interpret their anxiety as excitement. I have 2 very young children that would likely experience hypomania if we as parents let them. I've heard people also refer to this as a happiness meltdown. Unlike a stereotypical meltdown where the person also wants it to end, when you are that happy why would you ever want to stop that feeling of immense joy and speed. It is likely why they call it emotional dysregulation as over excitement also triggers it. It is also why anxiety leading up to/during an event etc would also not let that same feeling stop. I have also frequently heard people "misdiagnosed" as bipolar which later turns out to be autism but I also notice that there is always some truth in what everyone observes. What I think happens for people experiencing bipolar episodes (not sure if that's the correct terminology) is very similar to an autistic person experiencing a stereotypical meltdown/ or shutdown followed burnout. I find all neurodivergent people are very similar at their core but find the medical label categorises how their brain expresses their anxiety/excitement and how the amygdala outwardly responses to that. The reason I bring this up is because the trigger for what causes your manic episodes is exactly the same for an autistic person (ie a hard transition, possible social overload, followed by shutdown or burnout which can often lead to depression). My question is (though I've forgot what it originally was) what are your thoughts on this? And if you don't know what an autistic person is (outside harmful stigmas and stereotypes) then think of them instead as a highly sensitive person (which is essentially all neurodivergent people). I also like to encourage every neurodivergent person to look at ideas from different neurodivergences on how to cope and manage as we all are essentially trying to manage very similar problems. My suggestions for you (with not much knowledge for what work for you) to try are binaural beats (try a few different ones as they each affect me differently but should in theory be fairly stimulating for your mind) and a weight blanket (which you can pace around in but should also help calm you down). Also try removing stimulation with noise cancelling headphones and turning off/blocking out lights and other stimuli (like have calming scented oils in your room). Try going for a walk in nature and pause to observe your surroundings (like bird/animal spotting etc). Hope that helps somewhat.

@Klorensen

2 күн бұрын

This was brilliant to read and think about.

@glenrose7482

2 күн бұрын

@@Klorensen thank you 😄

Having the knowledge that you're slipping into hypomania is such a great skill to have.

@SchizoKitzo

23 күн бұрын

It’s rare when it happens but when I realize it I’m usually like “oh no”

Hello! Now I know (hear) what my divorced husband dealt with as i was on warp speed so often. - Have you been diagnosed with bipolar 1 or 2? - 2 here and it sucks as about 93% is depression... horrible divorce process but he went through alot after 20 years. Bipolar 2 depression sucks. Atleast with 1 you get a little fun in there? albeit dangerous sometimes i hate this illness

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

Schizoaffective Bipolar Type is my actual diagnosis, the mood disorder side resembles bipolar 1, which was my diagnosis BEFORE I was diagnosed with SZA. “Warp speed” too real. I have a very typical presentation, lots of bright symptoms, but it does drop pretty hard when it’s over. Hope this answers your question!

@HeroTalesProductions

4 ай бұрын

I am also bipolar 2 too, and you’re right it does suck. I would say it’s 98% depressive episodes. I’m right now. Going through a very deep depression. Nobody really understands mental illness. I would say the people that get training for such as the police don’t understand it sometimes doctors don’t even understand it all I know is that it’s horrible to live with.

@pennyannvincent8831

4 ай бұрын

Yes 2

I am literally the exact opposite of this. I wonder if there is some kind of mental disorder/illness that causes you to want everything to slow down because I feel like everything (including my brain) is going WAY too fast and it constantly is giving me anxiety and panic attacks

Hey I just started watching you and I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and I was wondering if a switch in moods happens often and if you feel detached from reality

no he dormido en toda la noche por una idea de felicidad y sé que me va a doler la caída. 💔 espero que haya aunque sea un poco de verdad en esta idea de felicidad, en su esencia, debajo de esta hipomanía, y que no desaparezca cuando me vuelva a dormir. que algo quede por favor 😕

Good luck, I give you all my good vibes... I am bipolar type 2... And I know and I see the Hypomania as "The One Ring" in LOTR... It's a dangerous and traitor power... You maybe should call you psychiatrist he could give you medication as Olamzapine or Depakine to Slow down and not fall in depression. Take care of you, and tell us what append to you in the next few weeks. Love 🖤

its somehow what i feel and i just recently discovered that its bipolar disorder. i get scared by this because i start a 100 projects at the same time and the world doesnt keep up, so go go in depress mode when 60% of them get stuck and have to wait for conclusion for the rest of 40 projects that doesnt depend on me and i cant control so i get angry and all my energy and criativity goes down the drain so i get very depressed and guilty to not be able to get the energy to keep on so i drink and do that other coca cola drug and get even more miserable and depressed for months till i lose all hope and start again,

Growing up I used to feel like I might listen to a song at any given moment and it would sometimes sound like it’s going faster than usual but growing up I think it doesn’t happen anymore

I went through a stage where i had no sleep for a week and no food for a week, and i felt lime i didnt miss it. Im always chatty creating things, ive have impulsive thougts which it felt lime someone or something was controlling me, i hve had over 50 voices in my head all talking at once, but there was one that sounded clearee that they want me to cut hair off and burry her in my back garden, ive even had voice telling me to slit my wrists and my throat, gonna see my psychiatrist a soon as

You have a Cyberpunk cosplay??? 😍😍😍 Also thank you for sharing this, I can imagine this is very difficult 🥺💕 Take care 💜💜

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

I do! Love me some black and white techwear, I’m definitely more than a mental health content creator LOL

@ENCHILADASFROMHELL

5 ай бұрын

@@SchizoKitzo Omfg thats so cool!! Yeah obviously, Im glad tho that you have many ways to artistically express yourself, I struggle with it myself 💜💜

I relate to things not being fast enough during hypomania. I had an episode recently and I remember telling my psychiatrist (before I knew it was happening) that I completely stopped reading for weeks because the act of reading was just "too slow." Normally I'm an avid reader.

I get hypomanic after an overwhelming event happens. I guess it's my way of coping(?) Also, when I'm hypomanic, it's a super sudden switch, and I stop fearing danger. Once, I actually SH-ed while hypomanic, and it felt great..I'm so confuseddddd..

Hypomania is not always "fun". Yes, it might feel like it, but someotimes it might feel like high stress and anxiety (a not so fun state to be in). But After being somewhat bleh for a long while, I want the refreshing hypomania feeling, but without the baggage that comes with it. Get well soon though, cause the pressured speech is exhausting man.

@SchizoKitzo

4 ай бұрын

Of course it’s not always fun, but I do get the fun aspect, hence why I showed it here. It usually turns to the dark side later on.

The wolf you feed! Great song, give it a listen, but make sure you have good headphones.

@SchizoKitzo

4 ай бұрын

Sounds like a plan

This video is so relatable

I actually transform into a hulking green giant as the result of an accidental overdose of gamma radiation.

Great video! thanks for sharing 😁

The problem is how to stop when you actually can't...for the firs time I saw how I really look during hipomanic episodes 😅 thank you Kit❤

For me, Mania parallels a methamphetamines or speed high big time. Almost so much I have taken my meds improperly to intentionally manipulate myself into a hypomanic episode.

is it linked to diet somewhat? if you avoid sugar, simple carbs or processed food does that make a difference?

@SchizoKitzo

3 ай бұрын

Eh I used to do diets for mood but not anymore. Stuff like this depends on the person and I can’t speak on it as a result.

Yeah, my husband has BPII and Con Drop was the pits. We have not been to a con since COVID started and I don't miss that element.

When I feel like this , my husband gets me to take an early saphris and that slows me down enough that I will take clonazipam , this lady making me realize how ge must feel! Thank you lady!

I am sometimes aware when it happens to me. My thoughts won't shut up and people can't keep up with me when I talk.

Yup this is how I'm feeling so it's hard to think straight l too. I'm actually less productive when I'm hyper. I don't think I have mania but I do think I have a bit of whatever symptoms you have lol. I hate the feeling tbh

I don’t know what’s wrong with my son schizophrenia, psychosis, bipolar with paranoid delusions idk but I do notice that he will have a few good days and when that happens I know a major mental episode is coming so that’s usually weekly we have 1 major episodes. So good, stable, calm (3 days), then irritable, then irritable to the point of can’t control it a constant. Then major episode where we usually call cops. Definitely not like you lol, he is flat ! Any input?

Don't know if you'll see this but man do I have some song recs A few might not be that fast but you can always speed them up :) warning, some are aggressive or really harsh sounding (cause I like that kind of music. Hits my brain well) "Haunted' by Laura Les (Dylan Brady remix specifically) "Kuromi face tat" by iris day "Substance abuse" by mrotek "Spoiled little brat" by underscores, I love the last minute of it "Reaching for the sky" by noisekicks "Ferrari" by Alice Gas "PULLINGALLMYHAIROUT" by Alice Gas "Milky way galaxy" by tatsuyangu "745 sticky" by 100gecs (my fav is the black dresses remix) "Metal" from food house "Born slippy" supertone remix by Hecatonchires "Rats in my walls" by ratbag

@kulupu_ijo

5 ай бұрын

In addition for fast, intense, really harsh, eardrum-splitting songs Richter 42 by Diabarha (and the whole Confession of Lazarus album) Bleeding teeth by Diabarha Diabarha has a lot of other, songs with less screaming if those are too much. I like the album "steampunk machine" the bpm ranges from 125 to 980 They have a playlist "glitch obsession" with a lot of their mixes as well.

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

Def seeing this, thanks for the recs!!!!!!

I imagine it feeling like a mix of speed, cocaine and mdma. Super excited, flat breathing, butterflies in the stomac, ideas and the urge to run and yell.

I think that perhaps listening to classical / acoustic music would help calm you down instead of listening to speed metal music (rapid music is more for when one feels sluggish). Also, breathing exercises and meditation / yoga as well as tapping and/or other physical / stemming / calming exercises may also help when you feel the onset of a manic burst of energy. At times, if that energy can be focused and contained, one can channel it into creative output. But, if and when that energy becomes too intense, it's better to try the calming exercises until the extreme feelings are controlled in a focused and constructive manner.

Enjoy it and take care! 🌞 A music I listen on reapeat while i'm manic is : mirrors from DJSM

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

Thanks for the rec!

Do you find that a combination of: 1. Doing something physical and useful (such as gardening), to burn off the adrenaline 2. Consciously trying to relax, such as deep slow breaths, letting the stream of consciousness float past, some tense-and-relax muscles. 3. Using an emotions wheel to identify your underlying emotions, and the reasons for them. 4. Giving yourself permission to sleep as soon as you start to come down. Reminding yourself that you WILL overshoot a wee bit into depressed, but only for a short time. 5. Letting yourself ride out these oscillations gently, like the bounces in car suspension when you go over a big speed bump. Helps to stop this escalating? I don't have ScAD, but I do have an up and down personality. And learning, as an adult how to manage this, rather than suppressing it as taught by my steady, level, unsettled by it, mother, has helped immensely. I can now safely ENJOY the highs, when I'm really flying, without bad lows following. Still need to work on awareness of pressured speech though.

My meds are working i havent been manic in awhile. Except when im high off weed it makes me manic. But im no longer going to be able to smoke weed in two weeks and ill be drug tested i need to be clean beforehand

Pressure from 'normal' people demanding that 'you need to calm down' (primarily because THEY'RE unsettled by your mania) is awful. I learned to understand and manage myself better by DELIBERATELY going to an exciting rugby game most weeks. So I had a stimulant/trigger that I could control, and that didn't really matter. I learned my cycle of: Saturday: high Sunday: still high, but brittle Monday: feel normal, BUT... Tuesday: depressed, can't see past it, but KNOW it's just the reaction Wednesday: provided I didn't panic yesterday, fairly normal again Thursday: actually normal Friday: actually normal, and ready for another practice at this beginning tomorrow

@louisehogg8472

Ай бұрын

Tuesday was best managed by getting on with all the boring chores that need done sometime anyway

@louisehogg8472

Ай бұрын

The 'dark' type, sounds like what I describe as 'brittle'. Where I need to be careful to avoid other folks' demands or judgements, and nurture my own emotions. So I don't suddenly nosedive, but coast down gently. And as I got used to coasting down, learned to stop fearing the crash and therefore trying to delay the 'inevitable'.

@louisehogg8472

Ай бұрын

People who don't have an up and down temperament, assume on Sunday you're where you actually are by Wednesday. And assume you're at Thursday, by Monday. Basically they don't experience such an intense high on Saturday and Sunday, and don't experience your Monday or Tuesday.

Sounds complex. Our desire to be happy even though we're feeling sad is an emotional thing. If we slow down the evil depression might swallow us. Facing my own unhappiness is something I don't think about much. If I was to slow down some I might transcend it and reprocess, but most of the time I want the stimulation instead.

Oh, now I wonder what state I am in if I had to speed up this fast speech up to 1.75x, and I'm still able to understand everything and to follow with ease while being distracted from time to time on "change the username" or "find the settings I need". And it's even not my native language.

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

Nice

Recently I can detect my mania coming right before it is too. But then it is starting to combine with depression and I can’t get out of bed. It’s been 10 years I’m with bipolar dissorder. It’s still so tiring.

@SchizoKitzo

3 ай бұрын

Tiring is such an accurate word for this experience, and it’s a tiredness that doesn’t go away with sleep. Weariness I guess is a better word to describe how I feel

it's because mania feels good. AND People don't wasn't to think that feeling better is a BAD thing.

How do you know if it’s hypomania or mania? I am dealing with this now and I can relate to this all so much! Thank you for sharing

@AmberJAnderson0413

5 ай бұрын

I hope the crash after isn’t too bad ❤ That’s always the worst part

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

Years of having episodes tbh. Mania is way more disruptive and I’ve only ever had one true episode and I ended up on the other side of the world. It really comes down to how long it is and how much it disrupts your life. Doctors and therapists can help you better than I lol. But good luck!

My mom has hypomania and when she’s in a manic episode people will say she on meth I showed my dad this video to prove she’s not on meth it’s really unfortunate how under talked hypomania

My thoughts in my brain go multiples in the millions compared to this when I dont take any meds. As if I simulate my future self before it happens (precognition). It hurts. Better to take the meds?

Best thing to do when you're hypomanic - at least for me - is to groom yourself, particularly to sugarwax. I love doing that. I get my sugarwax store-bought, but the KZreadr abetweene has very detailed videos on how to do it and apply it. It's just such a satisfaction. Another thing I like to do is for example make my eyebrows perfect: I will plug them, fill them in and make them look like twins (cos usually they are sisters). These are kind of things I like to do. And it surprisingly also works when I'm depressed. (Of course it doesn't work always, but they are in general things that I try to remind myself of.)

I hate my hypomania. Nothings helps, even Lithium does only help a little. Sport till exhaustion helps a little. Cannot keep a job because of, no one understands.

I get manic also when we're going to travel. The last time we went away I went into mania three days into the trip. My Partner thought it best to cut vacation short, so we went home. Thanks for Sharing Kat, . Your in our thoughts 💕

I recognised something wad weird and off after around my secon hypomanic episode. Makes me really reconsider whether i actually have bipolar or not because everyone else diacover bipolar way later on in their illness.

@SchizoKitzo

4 ай бұрын

Everyone’s journey is different, and if you catch it early, even better. Definitely nothing wrong with that!

Hypomania is not this reved up for me. But I like the energy. Kit you're out in the world. How do you interact with the normies and thus feel part of? Thanks for this platform.

@SchizoKitzo

3 ай бұрын

Lol it’s not usually this intense for me either for the record, this was like oh crapola this is BAD levels of hypo for me when I get all talkative. As for the rest of the world? I’m unapologetically myself in every way and if people don’t like that they don’t have to be around me. Except at work. I must deal with people at work lol.

I dont know what mania is like. I only have depressive episodes. Your not annoying. I thought the video was adorable.

@SchizoKitzo

5 ай бұрын

Aww thanks!

I remember when though that maybe a drink will help since it's a depressant and thought it down slow me down and calm me. Ended up feeling sober but starting real talk with people like impulsive truth serum xd so it doesn't work.

Your looking really healthy though, keep up your lifestyle love 😘