From my experience, Saturn in Aries is about HAVING to use Aries qualities, but having them be so foreign. You muat be bold because if you are passive nothing ever works the way it should.

@blairg8171

3 жыл бұрын

I agree... positive Aries traits tho not the negative because that sets me back.

saturn in aries is very difficult . it is like pressing the accelarator and the brake at the same time. Aries wants action,Saturn denies it. But if you survive this,Saturn rewards like no other planet. in Saturn Aries,you can not demand anything. Saturn will give you when your Karma is complete saturn in aries is probably the most difficult placement in astrology.

@witchymama3439

6 жыл бұрын

santosh joshi I have Saturn in Aries square my cancer sun. Would you say that reward thing still applies for lucky me

@matriximaster

5 жыл бұрын

My whole life I felt like a Ferrari with no wheels! LOL! What I have figured out is that Saturn in Aries is about letting go of any control of ANYTHING in our lives. Just do what you love with love and EVERYTHING will be perfect in its own way. Quite a big revelation actually.

@jencore5334

5 жыл бұрын

Just want to ask what would you say about having a Saturn in Aries 1st house conjuct South Node? :(

@Kunalonforex

5 жыл бұрын

depends upon what is the dignity of it in your Navamsa i.e the D9 charts

@Yah-HoVah

5 жыл бұрын

Saturn is exalted in libra & in exile in aries

Saturn in Aries is continually called upon to defend itself, life is a continual battle with absolutely no let up. You are right, we are not allowed to cut any corners because bricks fall out of the sky suddenly if we do, and we are ones who learn eventually through frustration to become the most patient. Also there is truth in not taking everything so personally and lashing out because of it. Nice video as always :)

I must’ve done some messed up sh!t in my past life to be born with Saturn in Aries. Things others can achieve easily, I have to work so much harder to achieve. It’s a liability

@bonvivant3704

4 жыл бұрын

Zara M facts

@typrovoost7640

Жыл бұрын

I hear you, sister! Me too!

@stefanallen2987

Жыл бұрын

birth charts were used long time ago to understand what limitations one might face in this lifetime. Know that u know u look for a fitting sliritual process to overcome these limitations. Nowadays people just got stuck with the problem, having no solution!! Please do Inner engineering + completition will work no matter whats ur birthchart

@100daysofsunshine7

Жыл бұрын

I have a Saturn in Scorpio. It took me 40 years to master it. It's like constant death & rebirth.

@Unknown_flower25

Жыл бұрын

I understand this so 😢

"Until you know yourself you can't be allowed to lead others." 😭😭😭

I heard somewhere that Saturn in Ares is the sign of the artisan, monk, and warrior. You have good advice. Having Saturn in Ares is like always having to be patient until god puts a very rewarding task on your plate and you fulfill it 110%, but if you charge for it without waiting for the right moment you'll crash into a brick walla and get it half done. God love you by the way, keep up the good work!

@matriximaster

5 жыл бұрын

Yes, Divine timing is key. I have been waiting 40 years for the right timing to fulfill my dream.

@andreirosa8885

3 жыл бұрын

matrixist What is your dream?

Saturn in Aries obviously sucks 'cause it's the opposite from Libra where it's exalted, it's one of the three most difficult placements for Saturn, together with Cancer and Leo. But I think in general Saturn in Fire signs is the most difficult to deal with 'cause constricting Fire energy is just hell. People I know with Fire Saturns are always angsty as shit. As soon as you want to do something fun and spontaneous it shuts you right down, so eventually they just retreat in themselves.

@palaceofwisdom5968

4 жыл бұрын

Yes true

@jessicabarlow7412

2 жыл бұрын

💯

@Unknown_flower25

Жыл бұрын

Omg yes thats so right

@Graycars23

5 ай бұрын

Idk man I’m literally drowning with Saturn in Pisces. Soooo much sensitivity and deep emotions man, this shit ain’t easy

@rosa-py8nm

2 ай бұрын

Yes true wisdom

You should write a book. Thumbs up if you would read it!

Wow the self-worth thing is so accuarte. Like I basically have a voice in my head shouting constant criticisms at myself and it's never ending.

@Unknown_flower25

Жыл бұрын

😢 yes

@s000hjg

Жыл бұрын

same

@s000hjg

Жыл бұрын

same

that is so true. i have tried to copy more assertive/aggressive people who get what they want. guess what i get called out for it.

@techzRR

4 жыл бұрын

pineapple games 91 OMG

@reversethecurse7589

3 жыл бұрын

the moment i do for myself im selfish

@lwazimpulu4383

2 жыл бұрын

Right!? Like I've noticed when people mistreat me it goes unnoticed but when i retaliate i'm made out to be freaking satan himself!

I heard Saturn in aries described as "driving with the breaks on"

@island_trap

4 жыл бұрын

Yeah lmao

This video changed my life...

@ksyushasolovyova4339

5 жыл бұрын

how are you doing?

@r011ing_thunder6

5 жыл бұрын

^^^ I wanna know too!

@ajanimandara9137

4 жыл бұрын

Lol

Saturn in Aries and Jupiter in Capricorn, really feels like the worst placements...

@alexmora2342

7 жыл бұрын

Ana Gaby Pineda yes 😞

@rockwitu96

6 жыл бұрын

I have those placements

@ksyushasolovyova4339

5 жыл бұрын

both of them are mine lolol

@Xdlexi15xp

5 жыл бұрын

I have both of those

@xChronicleNurse

5 жыл бұрын

Yup both are mine as well

Why did i start crying during this video ?!

@TheDddXXXddd

8 жыл бұрын

Me too :'(

@ibimanuka1182

7 жыл бұрын

because is a fucked placement

@HollyJollyJennileeBest

7 жыл бұрын

Alice Irwin same 😭😭😭😭

@godrambe4173

6 жыл бұрын

Same. Had to immediately look in the comment section to see who else cried.

@Ashley-wn8cx

6 жыл бұрын

Same

This is really true Alyssa! I'm only 17 and ever since I started primary school I've felt like people would always try to put me down, wouldn't value me and my opinions. I've always tried to pretend to know who I am when I really don't so I could fit in, afterwards people would just stop listening to me and just put me down automatically. Then I would get back up from being disappointed too much by building this fake ego that makes me blind. I am very emotional after watching this video a couple times I can finally really understand and relate to what you're saying. I am still working on finding myself. I feel like I'm nearly there. Also I've always had a feeling that I will become something big one day, a natural strong leader with a big family

@sweetsoul8

6 жыл бұрын

Same!! I have Saturn in Aries in the 1st House in Pisces. My big goal in life is to be a CEO one day. I’ve grown up in life with my mum, stepdad & previous friends calling me stupid or that I will fail. But I really feel like one day I will be a great leader of a corporation.

@rituparnaboro4638

6 жыл бұрын

How are you guys saying about my entire life?? It's the same.

@Futureheroeszone

6 жыл бұрын

yeah same to me.. but it is in my 9th house

@stefanciprian3771

5 жыл бұрын

The same thing happened to me and it's still happening to me to this day in college, people have a real knack for seemingly putting you down all the time, especially yourself as a person. It's like there's this massive target on your back almost daily, being tested all the time. All I can say is that after all these trials you come out as a complete person, extremely satisfied because you survived through the bullshit that life constantly threw at you.

@yourtypicalwannabewitch4486

5 жыл бұрын

Same! I am 17 and I have my saturn in the 1st and I do feel like I have this artificial ego and people just dont listen when I try. But when I just speak, they do... I don't know how it works hahah, I hope you are doing well!

I find that most people with Saturn in Aries have a hard time even knowing who they are and how to define themselves. Most of them have Chiron in Aries too when you look into that time period...issues around stepping into self and lack of ego...great video Alyssa!

@mckenzieflaten376

9 жыл бұрын

My Chiron is in scorpio and i have no idea what that means

@orangeblossom5362

8 жыл бұрын

+McKenzie Flaten me too. Is your rising aries too?

@mckenzieflaten376

8 жыл бұрын

Orange Blossom no i have cancer rising!

@millymilly8264

6 жыл бұрын

Bitch stfu

@laundrewashington3734

3 жыл бұрын

@@mckenzieflaten376 my Chiron is in Scorpio too but it's in the first house

this lowkey gave me the chills cuz i have those exact thoughts and I never shared them with anyone. Especially when u were talking about feeling special and then not feeling special when others don't see u that way. lol anyway, great video

I have Saturn in Aries in 11th house. Life sucked during my childhood but it started getting better and better after 20. I’m now working abroad, have a decent job at a big global corporation at the age of 25 years old and a beautiful foreigner girlfriend :)

@arshnarula9032

Ай бұрын

I have the same placement , can h share your experiences so that i can learn more

It really does suck having Aries in Saturn:( I literally tear’d up watching this because it’s so true and it saddens me

but all I ever cared about was being true to myself

@Easyrawlins

3 жыл бұрын

Facts.

This astrological reading is more accurate than any psychic reading I ever had... and it was intended for the public! This vid was so on point! OMG!

I feel like crying because this really made me feel special... :)

the ending was so beautiful.

People just feel so intimidated by me. They feel like I'm very angry all the time when I'm not. I come off as sad, serious and no fun person, which is just not true! It's just hard for me to go out of have fun like everyone else cuz I am an introvert. And even when I try to break free and enjoy myself people judge me and you can say, "don't listen to them..etc" but it actually hurts! When you get made fun at, your own parents demand the best results from you and you try hard but still can't, it hurts as Fuck. I have been suicidal and self harm was my only option to let my anger out, cuz I hate to hurt others and I don't know how to heal myself! Time.. yes, time has been my only solace. Time acts like an ice on my frustrations. You're right about most of the things you said, especially that patience part. This placement is so hard, it kills away all the joy from your life. Plus Saturn in 1st house makes me look so much more serious than I actually am in a certain situation.

we are not closed minded, not in the least,.

I'm sick and tired of ppl wanting me to be something I'm not...idk...I'm gonna be me and they can like it or not, idk... When is Aries gonna have a break?

Finally, what I needed to hear. I've watched ten videos on Saturn in Aries and you're the first to give real answers to help me resolve my misery when it comes to this placement. You're right on point. This video will help me to be more patient now that I understand myself better. Thanks so much. Hugs and kisses to you.

@LotusScepter

8 жыл бұрын

I also have Aries in the North Node and the 12th house. Yep.

"Don't let people hurt you but don't hurt people back." (frustration intensifies)

Thank you so much Alyssa for this video, I cried watching this.. My Saturn is in Aries, and it's a really difficult placement for me as a Pisces Sun and Moon in Cancer. I'm a very sensitive and overemotional person, and it sucks :/

@IamTheLinkman

7 жыл бұрын

Kissy Anne Rico Peace and harmony to you

One need only consider the signs Saturn rules to understand their Saturn placement. Capricorn is about resilience, Aquarius is about solution. Saturn takes every sign and sees something valuable in it, then takes that thing away from you so that you have to fight for it. In Aries, Saturn represents limitations and restrictions on your strength/power/self-determination; you want to be able to sustain yourself, but people keep coming in the way, inserting themselves into your decisions, putting you down, etc. The answer is not to give up your power/control but to quit worrying about what other people think and do what must be done. Saturn in Aries is a life-long struggle to become more fearsome, perhaps why Aries is Saturn's sign of fall. Saturn in Libra, the opposite and Saturn's sign of exaltation, is a lifelong struggle to become more liked/loved.

This is so true. Especially in my relationships with women. Things backfired and having a lover telling me off in a very serious manner voice really hurt me deep inside.. and then she tried to get my attention, I completely ignored her, I became indifferent and cold, I shut life off and I left her.. we loved each other, I believe we really did.. But she's most definitely with another man because of this Saturn in Aries energy in me that Im learning about myself at 23 years old, so that it doesn't happen again. But one thing that I know is that I made her soul dance!

Saturn in Aries is kinda like a Libra. HA! Good one, Alyssa. I guess I'm kinda like an Aries, having Saturn in Libra. Love the Zeus analogy. You're freaking brilliant, Alyssa.

Thank you. Thanks for believing in me. This must be the hardest thing for me to overcome and I feel like you are the first person who really understands. It's actually pretty embarrassing to say this but oh well xD

@aphr0d

7 жыл бұрын

Good luck! We can do it (:

there is a reason I was brought to this video tonight, as a person who has this placement this video moved me to tears. Thank you for your perspective, especially since I have found this to be one of my most important lessons to learn in this life.

Lol I'm Saturn in Aries and this is currently my fucking life! My friend sent this video to me because I was describing that this has been my dilemma and he goes you need to watch this video!!!!

I watched this years ago. I’m 24 now and I can see it playing a huge role in my life. I understand it a lot more now. Thank you so much.

@yomendibeton6422

2 жыл бұрын

Wow, it's amazing you've known about this information for so long. I'm also 24 and I'm just getting into astrology. I hope we both learn the lessons of Saturn with grace and determination. I wish you peace and abundance on your journey 🙏🏿

@alyssadelgado8232

Жыл бұрын

@@yomendibeton6422 You too!

Saturn Aries and Jupiter pisces. Aww... at the ending I could feel it in your soul that you truly meant those words, “once we find a balance, we will be great!” You must have a family member or something that has this sign.

people have put me down so much that I just out myself down even when people try to tell me otherwise

I am a capricorn ascendant with saturn in 1st house, but this one applies so much to me :(( and I started crying too.... and I cannot believe that I finally found out why feel so hurt when people tell me if I do something wrong. it's because I feel they are telling me that I am wrong, not the thing I did.... now I have the explanation. I thought I was overreacting to criticism... it really is an eternal issue for me... who am I....? and I know I am special, I feel it. but sometimes I tell myself that maybe I am not and I just feel superior which isn't good (NN in aquarius, related to feeling superior). Being a Cappy ascendant, it means that I will get what I deserve but later in life...

@suzetteanthony5181

10 жыл бұрын

sarutucigash I also have Saturn in the first house. The beginning of life is harder. You look older when your young and younger when you age. While going through Saturn lessons beware of head problems like teeth, headaches, sinus.

@sarutucigash

10 жыл бұрын

Suzette Anthony what does "beginning of life" mean? :P I can't say I have problems with headaches or teeth. my teeth are actually fine, and I have headaches when I don't drink enough water and other external reasons. don' t know about sinus yet. But my eyes pulse when they are tired or when I am stressed. I need to get a pair of protection glasses for computer. Regarding the getting younger thing and life becoming better, maybe that's why I don't mind time going by so fast :)) I just can't wait fot things to get better.

@iTruGamer26

9 жыл бұрын

i feel the exact same way. people (mostly family) lash out at me for defending myself when someone else started it & was being rude. its as if they're allowed to dish it, but they can't take it. you know? but, i think they're starting to learn that i don't deal with people like that lightly. haha

@SacredSacral

6 жыл бұрын

Eff TheCoolKids LITERALLY ME! I'M ALWAYS THAT PERSON EVERYONE JUMPS ON IF I SAY SOMETHING.

@Unknown_flower25

Жыл бұрын

​@@SacredSacral 👍🏻

This video touched me more than any other placement video I've watched because I'm very concerned with learning lessons in life, and Saturn is the teacher. I think being a libra sun makes this placement harder. I suffer a lack of individual identity, whoever I'm close to is the person I learn from. And having this placement, I find makes me even more libra. I feel like I have to learn to be an Aries almost. Is that what Saturn in Aries is kind of about?

Best Saturn in Aries breakdown I’ve heard so far. Makes a lot of things in my life make sense.

Why didn’t anyone hear that once you learn patience, you will become a great leader? Learn to believe in yourself. Balance everything in life.

This is probably the most emotional placement for me, and you've no idea how much it means to have my thoughts understood. That was really moving and it makes me less inclined to hide myself away. Thank you :)

I plan on watching this every month to withhold the wisdom you speak, truly I need to believe in myself and not fake it, thank you

Only an Aries will understand how it feels to be an Aries. We know that all materialist things are temporary feelings of happiness. We are never satisfied because no one is really satisfied once they get what they want. So we keep going and going and longing for the ultimate happiness is to connect to God. For only then will we truly be happy. From a western understanding is so limited. But from kabbalistic understanding you understand what or who an Aries is. Not only Aries but the fire spirit. It goes deeper and deeper and it’s all connected to our trues beings. Being the first child, and the childlike sign is the biggest gift. And for those are who using their gifts to hurt people I completely I’m against. That will power is for so much more and when it’s complimented with earth water and air oh mine is it powerful. To interconnected all elements and become one is the goal.

I cried 😭. I also have neptune and uranus in the 1st house and I just felt like people doesn't understand me. I feel like no one really knows me at the core even my fam and close friends.

@Unknown_flower25

Жыл бұрын

❤

I am a Scorpio rising, have this placement in my 6th house and my Mars in libra in the 12th house. I lack self confidence so much, anything I take up I have to work 4x times more than anyone and still I am treated like shit.

hory shit no wonder why i dont get mad that much over things i should be mad over, and why im not so assertive and shit

I'm a saturn in Aries (3rd house) and I hate it bc it's so hard for me to communicate and/or assert myself. I mean, it's not as bad when I was younger, i've come to not care too much of what others have to say or think about me bc surely its nothing compared to what ive thought about myself but I still rub people the wrong way, especially when I am trying to stand up for myself. I also happen to be a Capricorn asendent and omg I'm so incredibly hard on myself. I've always been told I am too modest and that I should celebrate my accomplishments but my Capricorn ascendant is like "you haven't cured cancer so until you do, then you can celebrate. But even then, you haven't done anything anyone could have done". It's just really frustrating all around. :/

@SuaveHarrell...

4 жыл бұрын

Same 😥

Can I be anymore confused about my identity, having my saturn on the first house in aries, my rising in piscis and my libra sun in the 7th house. Also, virgo moon, honey, you are not helping my with your self esteem issues. Anyway, I am getting better at being... myself. Good luck to any saturn in aries out there.

@alexandria9447

3 жыл бұрын

Whaaa?? I have Sun in Aries in the first house with my Saturn and Venus, Pisces rising and Virgo moon! Nice to meet someone with similar placements(: hope you’re doing well and staying safe and healthy in 2021.

Just realized that my Saturn is in the first house and you were talking to meeeeee 😩 Thank you for the message!!!

The Universe speaks through you. Thank you 🙏🏼

This entire video is like super rational advice ,that no motivational Pinterest or Instagram post can top.

This had me sobbing, thank you SO MUCH for this video. Never needed a strangers words more in my life.

I apparently have a lot of lessons to learn, because Capricorn is my rising and the planet Saturn is in Aries along with my Sun (Aries). There is definitely a big connection.

Thank you so much, this was so needed, it was hard to find anything positive on Saturn in Aries, and the last part really spoke to me so thank you for that!

Before watching this video I was thinking about similar things you were talking about. I get so caught up in wanting to be my role models and trying to be great by achieving what that have that I forget that I am great. ME. I don't need to force it anymore. I will star accepting myself now.

Thank you.. I cried..

I have my Saturn Aries in my 1st house. It's just so hard, I get sooo fuckin' offended, my huge ego can be offended very easily. People told me, by some time, this Saturn will give me great strength to lead my life and fight for my loved ones, but now I'm just 17 and it's not happening yet :-(

Really with Saturn in aries, you get to learn all the blessings and all the lessons later in life, unlike other children, teens and adults who mentioned by the boss, lover, PDA in public, principle or manager and have their little moments in the sun, Saturn in aries can also play out in groups of people, classroom, workplace, confrontation, courtship, the reality of projecting yourself as standoffish and not loving unconditionally. With Saturn in aries you pay for having securities (basically you pay for being a strong person, and insecurities pay you for having aries in saturn, this can extend and range from career, love, interactions!

"you have Yoda in your ear" whahahah that one made me laugh 😂😂

This is so true, Ive always felt that everyone could just tell Im not being myself and that theres lying involved. What she said about pretending doesnt work and people are just going to put us down is so true. Im learning that pretending to be something just isnt working anymore and its about being and believing

wowwww Alyssa, you nailed it! I have been learning about astrology these past years and nobody does an awsome job like you do. Alyssa, you should be the most famous astrologer out there, you should be the astrologer that people spontaneously go to . I like your personality.

This speaks to me on so many levels... This is my biggest challenge. I needed to hear this. Both the good and the bad of this alignment in my chart. Thank you x1000, Alyssa

wow you made me cry. thank you for this video

Soooo binge watching your videos ...Crying, laughing, feeling empowered, Then being scared as hell lol ..Love them ❤

wow this is so accurate, I'm so glad i saw this video !! i have recently been learning a lot of this lessons, and trying now to fight the universe

Aquarius Sun.. Libra Ascendant & Saturn Aries.... yes I’m definitely misunderstood for being very angry when I’m actually just very passionate! This really resonated 😂😂

Hey Alyssa, thank you so much for this amazing video! I have Saturn in Aries which is definitely kind of a fought, since Saturn is at it's fall in Aries. However, Saturn does tribe both my ascendant and sun so I guess I have a but of an easier time dealing with it, but I still do have a lot to learn lol. You made this video sound very positive by the way, so it was very comforting to watch :)

this video is changing my life thank you Alyssa

Great video Allyssa, really liked it. Yours words reached deep in my heart and now I will use the advice that you gave me. Thanks Allyssa, you helped me out allot.

"Like the wrath of fucking Zeus or some shit"😭😭😭😭😭

Watching all your Saturn vids, good stuff. At 5:00, tip: all the Saturn in Aries people unite. Form a club, do the meet up thing. That's how y'all can heal from what she said at around 5:01; you can definitely have compassion and support for those that went through or go through a similar life struggle. #Saturn #Aries

@Unknown_flower25

Жыл бұрын

❤i live in Germany But i think the same❤❤❤❤❤ IT IS a good Idea

Cool painting behind you

I love your videos! You have really helped find myself through astrology!

It’s important to remember not to fall into a victim narrative! I have plenty of challenging aspects in my chart and I’ve always used it to my advantage. I’ve been going to therapy and really working on myself. Yes, you may face challenges but there’s a lot to learn from improving yourself.

Never seen a Saturn description in such a loving way ❤❤ It was beautiful thank you

I'm a Saturn in Aries 2nd House and this explains a loooott. You're awesome!!!

@punzora

4 жыл бұрын

How u balance it coz it is same for me

this is so sweet! thank you for making this video!

This was such an insightful video for this chart placement! Now it makes a lot of sense why I feel this "well if everyone else can do it, why can't I?" and this feeling of not being old enough (wise enough) yet, to push forward with the ideas I have because it seems like I have much more to learn and even more work to do still. Also just recovering from a breakup with an Aries and I just love how astrology can show up in our relationships to truly help us learn. tysm for this video!

Saturn in aries in 6th house my wife has aries Saturn in 1st house it's really a very difficult placement life humbles you and only when you are honest you gain strength love you dear you are very beautiful

"You want to believe in you, but nobody else wants to believe in you" ...! As a Saturn in Aries, Libra Ascendant... Let's just say I felt that!

I try to hype myself up to beat my Saturn in Aries but then all of my Aquarius placements are like, girl, humble yourself! 😩

I’ve been delving deep this past year….and that 12 minutes was profound and succinct…and what I needed to hear. Still processing. Thank you. Dig you!

I felt that, pretty tough placement, but now I understand it more

very balanced in delivery. awesome video.

Rewatching this 6 years later and I remember how sad and emotional it was to watch this the first time around - now I don't feel sad at all. This is consistent with a lot of things I've worked on and if anything it's comforting. I'm doing okay. Tldr thanks Alyssa love this video always

I am a Libra sun and my Saturn in Aries is in my 2nd house of self esteem/self worth... I definitely feel the self worth struggle thing. But I've been working with this part of myself for years and I feel like I am coming out on the other side. I think my Aquarius Acendent helps with the individuality part. Thanks Alyssa ❤️

I come back to watch this video so much because it inspires me in more ways than you know. Thank you for making videos like this, I adore you xx

You were so much fun to listen to. Thank you! This is the first day of my 52 day cycle so thank you and bless you!

Hello from a Saturn 10th house in Aries. Thank you for making this video

I love your energy. I’ve watched like 5 videos and your light is just so welcoming and captivating

You are a real person who teaches great astrology...God bless you 😘

Very accurate! I feel like this placement is the reason I don’t relate to most things about my moon being in aries. I think I’m starting to understand it better :)

Thankful for your videos, Alyssa! 💜☁️

8th House Saturn in Aries, 2nd House Chiron in Libra, 12th House Lilith in Leo. The Scapegoat is my only friend. He understands me, and I understand him. Both of us are covered in scars, both of us have an appetite for war, and both of us need a little kindness and understanding.

It’s like why do I have to change for people that already fucked up in the head 😂 I don’t bother anybody there is always someone projecting something on to me and went I counter it and address I’m the wrong one it’s crazy. Ima start smacking the shit outta people lol

my moon in leo, i feel like im the shit

@kingdomofheavenmusic3

6 жыл бұрын

me too

It’s so crazy to see how much you’ve grown Alyssa

Patience is my weakest thing 😭