Getting angry at yourself after every meal, no matter how healthy, is tiring.

@DandGvlogz

3 жыл бұрын

Yep, felt

@inchshorterthenthequeen9688

3 жыл бұрын

Oh damn... lol even tho I don’t think I have any type of ED I am very sure I am not close off... 😔

@_huckleberry2137

3 жыл бұрын

Ik, I’m not anorexic but I still try not to eat bc ya know, and I do eat small portions at dinner so I at least eat something but today I ate breakfast and now I just feel horrible

@DandGvlogz

3 жыл бұрын

@@_huckleberry2137 I really should be taking my own advice but I promise you, you are perfect just the way you are and I know it’s not easy to feel guilt after everything you eat but you are so unique in your own way and deserve to eat. Even if it’s just a little something, as long as your trying, I believe in you ❤️ you’re not alone

@sophiesleeps12

3 жыл бұрын

@@_huckleberry2137 If I drink a lot of water it's easy to feel full :(

"I feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch. " I can't stop crying

@Stephanie-lk5jf

4 жыл бұрын

when i’m at my dads i have to have dinner and either lunch or breakfast and i hate it so much, i can’t workout there so i’m constantly beating my self up about it

@claudiadenicolas5776

4 жыл бұрын

@@Stephanie-lk5jf I understand you. Sometimes it's really difficult live with your parents

@shyannestrength1452

4 жыл бұрын

I thought I was the only one that skipped both these meals and if I didnt I would feel so fat and horrible... but I'm not alone and neither are you❤

@shyannestrength1452

4 жыл бұрын

@@claudiadenicolas5776 my mom started noticing when I wouldnt eat and now she will tell me to.

@claudiadenicolas5776

4 жыл бұрын

@@shyannestrength1452 do you want talking with Instagram? I prefer than public coments

The fact that "at least I'll be skinny" is something that motivates me more than anything in life is sad

@TGOTWhihi

3 жыл бұрын

So, try to find other reasons. Reasons like friends or something.

@Mary-sp9dp

3 жыл бұрын

Same here

@yasminferreiralima2429

3 жыл бұрын

the worst is when u know u not healty about food,but when u eat even if its a little u fell guilty,im felling now

@dracosxroses4368

3 жыл бұрын

Same here

@palaktiwary6957

3 жыл бұрын

I just want to say please take care of yourself. If something damages you in any way then it's not good for you. I just hope you'll be happy the way you are.

you know it's getting bad again when you start listening to this again

@gabrielleherrera2192

2 жыл бұрын

Just got out of recovery and I’m falling back into it

@allymartin358

Жыл бұрын

Aha I’m back after 2 years

@Pizelx

Жыл бұрын

@MoralSupport You got this, im almost 19 and trying to get out of my ED phase rn, because it isnt doing me any good, I hope youre alright luv

@ratboygirl

Жыл бұрын

real

@ellenvandongen7695

Жыл бұрын

Not me listing to this and watching supersize vs superskinny to trigger myself. After 4 healthy years😅

"I'm chasing a body I know that Ill never outrun." I'm not crying. You're crying.

@avoo190

3 жыл бұрын

Who’s cutting onions? 💀💀 🧅

@mourpheen

3 жыл бұрын

youre right i am crying 🙏🙏

@amethystgacha4697

3 жыл бұрын

Well you got me

@chloelove2064

3 жыл бұрын

Yup...but everything will be okay! We can get through this. All together!

@chelseajoseph7150

3 жыл бұрын

I am not crying

“I just can’t stop pulling at my skin” hit a little too close to home

@caramelcutieee2298

3 жыл бұрын

Bruh read the room... This person is talking about struggling with body image and you’re talking about the likes? It’s disrespectful.

@lilahstribe5805

3 жыл бұрын

It’s not disrespectful there talking about how they relate to it

@bellarothstein3520

3 жыл бұрын

@Katlyn's Krafts wait did I say something disrespectful

@Cayla_theHufflepuff

3 жыл бұрын

For me too

@katiesimpki

3 жыл бұрын

wait I dont understand how they're being disrespectful? please enlighten me

Me: “This makes me want to come out of the ED closet.” Also me: “You’re not sick enough for people to believe you.”

@Idiot5nat

Жыл бұрын

DO YOU HAVE DISCORD IK YOU!! Do you know juno

@novemberrobinson5584

Жыл бұрын

Noo bestie, that's not true. I know because I felt (still do sometimes) the same way. It's not true Ed's or any mental illnesses for that matter have no shape or size. Anyone, I repeat anyone can suffer. No matter the age, gender, size, race or nationality. I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's been a year since your comment, I sincerely hope you're better now. If you aren't, believe me you will be. Do not give up, do you hear me? Don't give up, please. I love you and you're beautiful just the way you are, I'm so proud of you for holding on 💗

@hunterkubit8143

Жыл бұрын

This is me

@melissacarlucci3410

Жыл бұрын

true, i relate to this but yk im not underweight

@lilpotato7922

11 ай бұрын

I’m already underweight but not sick enough

In my mental state right now I shouldn’t be listening to this song

@elli3111

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah me too

@myli500

3 жыл бұрын

same

@saraluciahernandezpineda4719

3 жыл бұрын

X2

@mrspurple

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@billieelizabeth9998

3 жыл бұрын

Same, don’t worry.

"I'm scared that I'm never gonna like, who I am and I wish I knew why" I felt that way too well

@mrspurple

3 жыл бұрын

Yep just a stab to the heart

@tracykelly264

5 ай бұрын

same

Imagine a collaboration of her and alec benjamin, their voices would sound so good together!

@mrawat2004

3 жыл бұрын

true

@maple4syrup_

3 жыл бұрын

yesssssss

@rileyidk3533

3 жыл бұрын

Omg yes

@editsforweebs9134

3 жыл бұрын

Omg yah!

@alexhogg3839

3 жыл бұрын

I know right it be the only song I'd listen too

Parents will never understand how we feel, because according to them "it is silly"

@AmberWoodMusicx

3 жыл бұрын

They do understand. But they feel anger because they feel so helpless. Just switch perspective for a second.

@dsomam2738

3 жыл бұрын

My mum was anorexic but she still doesn’t understand why I would want to be smaller.

@ilovepancakes6077

3 жыл бұрын

I would like, but the likes r at 111

@sarahcollier9535

3 жыл бұрын

@@ilovepancakes6077 hahah

@astridvestin3099

3 жыл бұрын

what shitty ass parents do you have?

Just a question. Do you ever wish that people just cared and were concerned about you, but when they do you get really defensive and tell them that you are fine and that they should mind their own business. Or us it just me?

@rosewalls8776

3 жыл бұрын

Same sis 🤣

@sainitsain

3 жыл бұрын

lmao really how to stop that 🤣🤣

@gracierose0728

3 жыл бұрын

Mmmmm same here :(

@courtney5144

3 жыл бұрын

...

@tiktokcompsforthelonely

3 жыл бұрын

It’s not just you. It’s me too

No song has ever hit quite as deeply. I hate myself so much constantly I’m a cycle of eating less and then bingeing at night. I needed to know someone else felt the same no one else gets it’s a constant battle. But I will beat this I will get better food will not be my enemy calories won’t matter so much we’ve got this the fight isn’t over.

@kenadie_ann.t

4 жыл бұрын

Sab Yellow I do the same thing. I don’t eat a lot during the day but as soon as it is night I’m so hungry I eat so much then I feel like I failed myself. I just need to not starve myself but not eat so unhealthy. Who ever is going threw this I’m with you and so are others!💕

@queenyellow6714

4 жыл бұрын

Kenadie Thomas thank you so much for this I don’t think you understand how much I will remember this we will be okay

@jiminjamboree

4 жыл бұрын

Sab Yellow I honestly thought I was the only person who had this same exact cycle. At school I wouldn’t bring lunch so I’d get really hungry and eat everyone else’s leftovers. Then when I got home I would eat so much. At the time I forgot what being full felt like because I was on such a bad cycle. I can’t remember what it was like to eat food and not think of how many calories it is or how much I’ll have to do to burn it off. I’m jealous of my friends who can just eat a few chips and be full. Sleepovers are nightmares sometimes because at the time I eat how much and whatever I want, then in the morning I regret it and it’s something I’m still working on fixing.

@AlyCatVideos

4 жыл бұрын

god I've been stuck in this cycle for 6 years. You can do this, you can get better

@hadilhatim3535

4 жыл бұрын

Sab Yellow omggg same I hate it I always say it will get better tar but it just gets worst😭😭😭🥺

The people who disliked this are the people who tells us to get over it

@harmony8583

4 жыл бұрын

@@gabachoo3920 :

@annie2674

4 жыл бұрын

Hey.. You don’t have to look like these skinny models be yourself girl!! These skinny models.. it only matters in the inside.. so please don’t think that you HAVE to perfect cus nobody’s perfect life’s too short for this.

@laurella3828

3 жыл бұрын

Cookie_Coffee the thing is idk it’s like there’s all these girls w flat stomachs n stuff n no matter how much I try i just can’t forget it or anything.. all these ppl have their desired body n stuff idk it’s hard :(

@annie2674

3 жыл бұрын

laurella ik it’s hard.. tell your parents about it or a therapist or just whenever you think of that just automatically change the subject to so,etching positive loook in the mirror and just keep saying I’m beautiful no body’s perfect I’m beautiful the way I am 🥰 I hope good things for you girl..

@laurella3828

3 жыл бұрын

Cookie_Coffee I can’t tell my parents, they’re divorced n abusive, if I go to therapy I go to my mum, she’s more abusive so my only choice atm is to stay here :( so like either way it’s abuse idk I hate it but I’m planning to runaway soon

always remember a poet about eating disorder, 'when you were thin to begin with, you go to hospital. But when you were not thin to begin with, you are a success story'

"I'll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start" I can't

The songs you make about these issues: depression, anorexia... I know there are other songs that talk about them but none of them hit as deeply as yours. They romatize it but you tell it as it is. All the ugly worst parts in yoir beautiful music. Every single lyric captures my attention and heart as it mirrors my own experiences and thoughts. Thank you for letting your listeners know that theyre not alone and that their trauma is not just to be a song on the radio. It is to reflect your heart and theirs. Thank you, Sara.

@Karen-nx4qp

4 жыл бұрын

Alguien lo tenía que decir, gracias.

@luvkalista

4 жыл бұрын

Listen to empty by jaidenanimations, hits close to home

@lpsforestpaw

4 жыл бұрын

I think this song aswell fits for bulimia people. Since some of them aswell work out a lot, or eat less (but probably binge later). Aswell as they restrict a lot. Me myself I'm not a bulimic so I don't know much about it..

@alexn8035

4 жыл бұрын

Yet there’s still pro anas here :/

@Sweaterlatethannever

4 жыл бұрын

@@alexn8035 I cant tell if that is you saying that's a good thing or you want them here 😅😅

that web diagram hits different

@heavensent146

4 жыл бұрын

reminder -U just hit 1K likes⭐

@rightminddrive

4 жыл бұрын

​@@heavensent146 sik

@1ksubswithnocontent903

4 жыл бұрын

eudisisnshudjenehaisioskdhfusisndusk

@esanfilippo1230

3 жыл бұрын

Timestamp?

@Anna-tz9go

3 жыл бұрын

@@esanfilippo1230 2:32

“i feel like a failure if i don’t skip breakfast and lunch” hits to hard

“I’m chasing a body I know that I’ll never outrun” God. That hit.

My childhood is ruined because the world made me feel like I had to “look a certain way” and now, that’s all I worry about. :/ I’m young, and ruined

@ceoofbeingstoopid8490

3 жыл бұрын

never felt any relatable than this and I did decide to starve myself and skip meals but you know couldn't cause my family would say I m overreacting and whenever I ate I felt guilty and I also decided to self-harm myself and I also cried cause I didn't like the way I looked but these past months I practiced self-love and self-care and I do still feel insecure and hate the way I look but instead of starving myself and feeling guilty I workout and convince myself that I deserve the food

@ceoofbeingstoopid8490

3 жыл бұрын

hope it helped and u r beautiful

@chanslaptop7522

3 жыл бұрын

@@ceoofbeingstoopid8490 go and write love myself bts on KZread

@ceoofbeingstoopid8490

3 жыл бұрын

@@chanslaptop7522 thank u for the song recommendation, I just listened and I loved it, the lyrics were so relatable

@chanslaptop7522

3 жыл бұрын

@@ceoofbeingstoopid8490 thanks just listen to there other songs.

scrolling through the comments is making me more sad than the song itself. i just wanna hug all y’all rn.

@zorfa8150

3 жыл бұрын

please :(

@leahhxxx

3 жыл бұрын

:

@layna6736

3 жыл бұрын

@@zorfa8150 digital hug

@Madelin.

3 жыл бұрын

hug*

@blve.january

3 жыл бұрын

i never signed up for your drama club

"I'm scared I'm never gonna like how I look and I wish I knew why" why did this line hit me so hard? 💔

Young lady, I am 42 years old and your music resonates with me. Thank you for putting into words and music something I could not articulate for myself. It does not get any easier with age but we persevere and try every day to love ourselves in spite of our flaws.

@smeckysam

Жыл бұрын

you are perfect the way you are, even for 42, you look amazing! you're looks doesn't define you as a perfect at all hun -15 year old

@jwooley329

Жыл бұрын

I am 65 and still dealing with it. I wish I could go back and tell my younger self, and all you younger people, the dangers of all this. I have now developed high blood pressure and heart irregularities from starving myself. I've been warned by several doctors that my heart has been greatly effected, and it could cost me my life. It's too late to go back and change the past, but I'm hoping to make some changes now to preserve some of my future. Accepting that my starving myself caused this is a start.

how much I relate to this is just....just WOW

@pussyslayer4523

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@marlsd9495

3 жыл бұрын

you are so strong and beautiful. keep fighting bc ur so so perfect :))

@idkutellme-rp9qe

3 жыл бұрын

honestly me too

@hannah8133

3 жыл бұрын

Marley D you just made genuinely smile on a truly horrible day, so thank you for being so kind

@lostar781

3 жыл бұрын

I’m not fat, but I’m self conscious of my Weight because everyone around me even my own mom thinks I have an eating disorder when I literally don’t. It’s so frustrating.

I cried when i heard this on tiktok, cause i hate my body and i can relate so much on this song : Edit: Im starting to change my lifestyle, i jog and control my food, my goal is to loose 15 pounds and i hope i can reach it. For everyone who's been feeling the same it's not too late to change you can do this, believe in yourself it will take time but you'll get there, we will get through this. Thank you everyone stay safe and stay healthy!!!

@yeehaw8299

4 жыл бұрын

Daniela Melburnn same

@elise-clairebarratt9243

4 жыл бұрын

Daniela Melburnn i know it’s hard and i live the same thing...

@Loshi4lyfe18

4 жыл бұрын

Same

@leahburns7237

4 жыл бұрын

Same

@kierstoncoss9723

4 жыл бұрын

Same I so my best to eat as little as possibe I usually skip lunch and I'm working on skipping breakfast and I eat very little for dinner because I like going to bed hungry so I can burn calories in my sleep

This song no joke, made me cry. I have anorexia nervosa and it is taking over my life completely, I have weekly doctor appointments and eating is so hard for me. I still haven’t stopped throwing up and skipping meals. I used to only eat 1/4 of a cup of yogurt per day, and eventually had to go to the hospital for losing 20kg in the spam of 3 months. I had a tube feeding and supervised meals. Then I relapsed and lost 8kg again. This song is so relatable in so many levels. It’s honestly the first time I’ve cried to a song.

@allforYAHUAH

Жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry that you went through that, anorexia is so horribly deceptive. I am praying that you will be healed, have strength, and make a full recovery. Internet hugs 🤍

Her lyrics are always very very deep, that hits different

"i'm scared that i'm never going to like how i look and i wish i knew why" *moods.*

i still remember my seventh grade self staring at the toilet bowl, sticking two fingers down my throat, and wanting to get it all out so bad. i remember drinking cold water in the morning because someone told me it helps me lose weight. i remember pinching my thighs wishing i was smaller. im currently entering 10th grade and am doing so much better now. i've thankfully gotten out of that cycle, but it still hurts how i could relate to this song anyway. stay strong y'all

@godleruii2341

4 жыл бұрын

I relate to that a lot. Hope you will get better and happier🥺💞

@swiftiepharbz

4 жыл бұрын

@@godleruii2341 thank you, I've been doing a lot better now from the past year or so. i hope you're feeling better too. 🥺❤️

@swiftiepharbz

3 жыл бұрын

@@whoosh2319 hi there :) I hope you feel better again someday. it's going to be a long journey, but you can do it! I know it can feel almost addicting to stay in that cycle, but believe me when I say this: you have so much memories to make. you have so much energy and passion and you shouldn't turn it into hate towards yourself, or starving yourself. it is easier said than done, but when i look back; i realised just how much moments and opportunities i missed because i had issues with eating and body image. that being said, your struggles are nothing to be ashamed of. they shape you and your experiences but they do not define who you are. this is all that I'll say for now but if you ever wanna talk, feel free to reach out to me on instagram (@khloyi). you are so strong, you are so magnificent, and i am so proud of you. stay safe, take care. :)

@annaeylse5543

3 жыл бұрын

I’m in 8th rn it has been 3 years since this all started i hope I can get better to

@mysticall680

3 жыл бұрын

I hope you're doing better now

"I know that its not true but I feel like I'm the only one who´s chasing a body I know I'll never outrun" this hits HARD

I am now 5 months in anorexia recovery... I remember listening to this song and it used to trigger me. Now I cry because I do not wish to go back to that life. I am still far from fully recovered, and I know I will never recover before I solve my core problem.. But using this song as inspiration to recover is a huge step. It will be okay. Recovery is indeed hell, but it actiually does get better. I promise.

@2002stylan

2 жыл бұрын

how are you doing?

@mmyabaki

7 ай бұрын

Keep on that revovery. That's the right road

I’ve never related to something more in my life, like I literally wake up at “5 :30 to run and feel like a failure if I don’t skip breakfast and lunch”.

@allisonbryant4802

4 жыл бұрын

Thisbitchisemptey Yeet 💕

@ana-nq8gd

4 жыл бұрын

Periodt

@kallibrady5828

4 жыл бұрын

Thisbitchisemptey Yeet (just know you don’t have to do those things to be beautiful, you are you and that’s more than enough.. sending love💕💕)

@ningjingg

4 жыл бұрын

Same I wish I could talk to you

@yeehaw8299

4 жыл бұрын

Kim Aielle Sambilay yeah, probably need to go to therapy but don’t wanna tell anyone

you know ur relapsing when u start listening to songs like this 😔

@jessicatorres670

3 жыл бұрын

Same 😔💔

@kairyder420

3 жыл бұрын

sameee

@addisonbarton8757

3 жыл бұрын

thing is i never recovered...

@kokichiactually

3 жыл бұрын

Yup

@jadeverkos

3 жыл бұрын

fck you're so right

For everyone struggling like me, just stay strong y'all 🥺🙏🏻 praying for all of us to feel better.

this perfectly sums up my ED. I'm crying.

Literally 5 min ago went I wish she would release the whole song.... not saying I’m psychic buttttttt

When you feel this way but you never actually had the control to lose weight so you just sit there thinking how ugly you look

@AmberWoodMusicx

3 жыл бұрын

It’s actually losing control and giving into the disorder that makes you more miserable and never be satisfied with losing. You’re not ugly. You’re you and that’s good enough for anyone.

@solus8685

3 жыл бұрын

I'm actually at my weight goal atm but I still feel as fat as I felt 30 lbs heavier.. I fee like I look the same.. I feel like I'll never be (skinny) enough..

@amsoprettyandsoareyou9719

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah

@ilomilo9666

3 жыл бұрын

same literally ive been able to starve myself for a couple days after eating a lot but i always go back to eating

@softkookie-ii9ph

3 жыл бұрын

That’s me

I’ve been trying to find a perfect song to describe how I feel everyday, and I finally found it. Thank you

I think the hardest part is being able to describe how you feel to someone. I get embarrassed and feel ashamed when I open up to people about how I used to restrict and my overall relationship with food. Seeing a counselor made a huge difference though.

This actually made me cry. Your music is the best. I’m so glad on of your tik toks popped up a few months ago. You are very comforting, and really crazy good at writing music!

@lotion4391

4 жыл бұрын

One

I remember this girl from my highschool, we were in the same department and she was BEAUTIFUL. Like the kind of girl you cry over how pretty they are. And she was always wearing jackets over her uniform because she felt insecure, I always wanted to tell her how pretty she was but wasn't outgoing enough to actually do it. She was really pretty, she had thick wavy hair, her smile was very beautiful, she was adorable and perfect all over, also she was very smart and good in conversation with a side of sweetness and a great personality. Damn it hurt to see her covering her uniform, I wish I had told her how pretty she is, everyone deserves to be told how pretty they are. I hope she can someday see herself the way everyone saw her, and I hope everyone else can too

@lejlahasikic4038

3 жыл бұрын

You…. Yes you… you are the reason why I still believe in good people!

@RomeoChessGameVlogs200

2 жыл бұрын

Wow what a story but did dad to read like I hope she does well in life from here on out

@lunespiral

Жыл бұрын

maybe she was just really cold 😭

@caseycampbell4787

Жыл бұрын

Aww I hope she sees your comment.

I've never suffered from anorexia but this song still resonates with me. I'm over weight and hate my body. I have a horrible relationship with food and at times I wish more than anything that I didn't need to eat. I hate feeling like a failure every day and wishing I could escape my body.

How have I only just found this song, been on repeat for days. Hit the nail on the head with this! Anorexia, body dysmorphia is truly soul destroying.

"And i feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch" That hurts....because that's me....

@georgiad4939

3 жыл бұрын

Girl, you’re right it does suck. It’s hell. But I want you to know and remember that you’re not alone in this 🥲 Stay safe and drink plenty of water, love you❤️

@mrspurple

3 жыл бұрын

Me too

This song really made me realize I’m not alone in this. I don’t want to tell my friends about my ed because I don’t wanna be seen as attention seeking. I don’t want my family to know because I don’t want them to worry. I really want this to stop, I hate myself.

@AlyCatVideos

4 жыл бұрын

you're not alone, and you are stronger than your thoughts

@minmochi7558

4 жыл бұрын

ALYX thank you💖 I’m on recovery and doing slightly better

@Spell17

4 жыл бұрын

Love yourself. You are beautiful the way you are... trust me 😘 and I'm there for you.

@babygirl2907

4 жыл бұрын

Jeon Sana armyyy

@nymphadoratonks3712

4 жыл бұрын

Same. Literally before one of my friends convinced me to tell my mom, it was 2 people other than me that knew. I haven’t gone to the doctor because my mom just thinks I’m overreacting. You r amazing and whatever anyone ever tells you is wrong

Everyone is saying they are crying because of this , am I the only one that canr cry ?

“I’ll set a goal for myself, and I’ll try work hard. I’ll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start.” so relatable 😭

The people who dislike this are the people who say "just eat

Me: *hears this song on TikTok and decided to check it out* Also me: repeat repeat repeat

@misakimsyskos6168

3 жыл бұрын

Same...but I didn't heard it on TikTok... I was searching for songs bout my depression, anxiety and anorexia...just to cry and feel understand... 😭And hope u have a good day💞

Sometimes I'm happy that I find something relatable but also worried at the same time, that so many people go through this... Please challenge yourselves with the food that brings you anxiety, i know it's hard but you can do this, you are enough and recovery is possible! Sending all the love that your hearts can handle

as a mid-sized person i relate to this so much. the subtle fatshaming from my family opened up my insecurities and now thinking about eating just makes me sick. i deleted instagram to stop me from comparing myself with others but the fatshaming from my family members are just really really rough. i miss the times when i was younger and didn’t really take notice of my body shape :(

this is one of the most relatable songs i’ve ever heard. my friends.. they’re literally perfect. they’re so skinny and i wish i could look like them. i’m the biggest one in my group. they always talk abt how fat they are after they eat a meal, but they don’t realize that it makes me feel bad abt myself bc i’m huge. they know they’re not fat too. i cry myself to sleep every night, just wishing i could have a better body. i hate myself and i’ve drifted in and out of eating disorder habits. i truly do wish i was smaller than this

@AmberWoodMusicx

3 жыл бұрын

But even if you were it doesn’t feel good enough and it never will and that’s the trap and you need to tell your friends to stop making comments like that

@mr.constipation2041

3 жыл бұрын

What really matters is self assurance tho, like im a skinny dude and ive always been made fun of because im a stick and i would really get irritated at people saying they hate being fat but then mocks skinny people but then it really is all about being satisfied in your own body, when youre skinny you wanna gain weight, when youre fat you wanna lose weight, but when youre happy with your body you wanna be out there. Its all about feeling that self love that you dont care about what others say.

@mr.constipation2041

3 жыл бұрын

@@Shifaathefish Regardless of what you may be going through, regardless of your background or religion or etc, but if you would really look at things you have to find that inner happiness in you. You dont have to be pressured by what your surroundings demand just freely express what you want to be, life is like a very random speck of instance brought upon each of us that we dont know if it may come happen to us ever again so heck yeah why not make the most out of what you want out of it. But really ive been through those times like middleschool where I thought i'm living through a misery and wanted someone to end my life but i realized more like i look at myself in the mirror and literally said to myself and I CAN never forget it, i said "hey i would miss this guy (referring to myself), i feel bad about this silly man in front of me". That really stuck with me i just realized i really just lacked the self assurance and love that i've provided towards myself. Focus your energy on how you can make yourself happy and comfortable first before anyone else anyways it is your own breath to begin with. AND dont forget to look at life like its a silly videogame, there are monsters and enemies for the game to become more exciting so yeah what is life without struggles and opponents. GO FOR IT! 🥰✨

as someone with anorexia... this hits different like wayyy different

The fact that I was admitted to the hospital to the eating disorder unit and I'm still listening to this on the unit really says something

TW: i felt this. i’ve been struggling with an ED for years (it started in 6th grade i’m a junior now) but every time i tell my mom how food and eating makes me feel she says it’s normal. a couple months ago i found out it’s not normal an is very unhealthy for me to be counting calories and having panic attacks if i go over “my calories” my family throws the word fat around a lot and constantly talk about loosing weight and it honestly makes everything worse. when i told my mom eating was hard for me the next day she made 3 huge meals. so ofc that made me freak out. i’m trying to get better but it’s so hard. i’ve had this for such a long time that everyone jus thinks i have a high metabolism when that’s not really the case. my aunt always talks about how she would “k*ll for my body” when she doesn’t understand i’m literally breaking to maintain it.

@maddyhuff4028

3 жыл бұрын

I feel way better knowing someone else is going through the same thing, the only thing different is I'm a sophomore; my sister yells at me all the time for not eating and makes me feel awful about it, my mom buys fast food so does my dad and my family wonders why I cry/won't eat it.. I hope that it gets better for you, you're beautiful, remember that💕

when people think of sad or depressing songs, it's always about heartbreak or struggles with friends or family, but basically about people. when a song comes along about where you think something is wrong with you, regardless of what anyone says, it's about depression. this song is the first of it's kind that i have heard that talks about body image or eating disorders and it is beautiful in the most relatable way possible because deep down, everyone has felt this

@chloe-ave

3 жыл бұрын

the song prom queen is about eating disorders

@solus8685

3 жыл бұрын

Strawberry shortcake and Mrs Potato Head are also kind of about that

@odysseus1835

3 жыл бұрын

@@solus8685 strawberry shortcake is about sexual assault, orange juice is about eating disorders

@marshmallow7640

3 жыл бұрын

There is eyesore, please eat, bird gerhl kinda, Sophie, the day i chose not to eat etc...

@m3_mac

3 жыл бұрын

There’s scars to your beautiful that came out 6 years ago though

“I just can’t quit pulling at my skin” stands out to me for some reason. It makes me feel like on one level there’s a person with an eating disorder looking in the mirror pulling at their “fat” because they don’t see themselves the way everyone else does. And on another level to me it means not literally pulling their skin, but emotionally pulling themselves apart because they feel like they’re not good enough. This particular part of the song stood out to me but now watching the rest of it I can think of something for each line. For example, “I’m chasing a body I’ll never outrun” to me means two things as well, the first being that people with eating disorders are overworking themselves but still think if they get a little fitter or a little stronger they can do it. The other thing it means to me is that they’re looking at the people in magazines, on TV, etc, and thinking “oh, if I get a bit more work in and eat a little less I can be like that!” And eventually end up being skinner/fitter than the specific person but not see it. In their eyes they’re still too fat or not buff enough. Hope you enjoyed my little imagination bubble, that’s what I think those lines are trying to say. If you’re struggling make sure to talk to someone you trust and be safe ♥️

@cristinamalena

4 жыл бұрын

"chasing a body that I know I'll never outrun" That really got me because having an ED means that you are constantly getting smaller and smaller. You are literally chasing a body you can't outrun because it will get to a point where your body will give up before your will to get your dream body will. You can't survive your "ideal body"

I started skipping lunch everyday and was so proud of myself and I used to write it on my diary. Then I just realized that I was wasting my time cuz no matter I did I would hate the way I look. And now that I think about I think it’s crazy cuz today I’m probably the most confident person ever. We’re beautiful. U only see what u don’t like in ur body cuz u pay to much attention to it. Ppl that love u literally don’t see any imperfections in u . That’s why u should love ur self cuz if u do u won’t see anything wrong. I love u so love ur self 💕

@rokayashutup3919

3 жыл бұрын

*no matter what I did

I haven't eaten in 3 days this song rlly helped I might try to eat tmrw😊😭

I’m watching this w tears running down my face because these lyrics match exactly how I feel and I was just having these thoughts as I came across this song and it fits how I feel so accurately :’(

@alaina5365

4 жыл бұрын

Me too ☹️

@alexwilliams9129

3 жыл бұрын

me three :-(

My friend has an ED and they sent me this to explain how they felt. Y'all got me teary-eyed. I know that eating disorders are hell to go theough, and I am so fucking sorry for anyone that suffers from them.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

@ankitamandal18

3 жыл бұрын

How is your friend now?

@zeddcrystals2442

3 жыл бұрын

@@ankitamandal18 They're doing a little better nowadays- but they still have their ups and downs

@ankitamandal18

3 жыл бұрын

@@zeddcrystals2442 thats lovely to hear that they are doing better. I pray the very best for them.

"oh im scared im never gonna like how I look and I wish I knew why" the tears are coming up in my eyes like for the 100th time

"chasing a body i'll never outrun" "and i just cant quit pulling at my skin" "Im scared that i'm never gonna like how i look" well that hit hard.

Came all the way from TikTok just to cry my eyes out listen to this on repeat

@alaina5365

4 жыл бұрын

Same!

I was going through ED alone, I didn't tell anyone, nobody. I was starving myself for days, then binge and it comes and goes in waves. I felt so much guilty anytime I ate something, even if it was an apple or anything. I had a thinspo insta account, I wanted those bodies that I couldn't reach. I was on a Pro Ana Discord too. I lost about ten pounds. And then, I stopped because I am kinda bipolar, I was on that period were I was high. And I met my boyfriend, and then I started to be depressed again. I was back in the Pro Ana Discord server, but now, my bf told me that he would broke up if I don't leave the server and delete my thinspo accounts. I did. He helped me to accept my body. But now, I gained more than 10 pounds I really want to cry and be part of Pro Ana again.

@ohnoanshu

3 жыл бұрын

omg love, pls don't. your boyfriend cares so much, according to what you've written. you're gorgeous, just the way you are, andd you do not want to go down that road, ive seen people who have and suffered so much. i know it seems hard, but remember that even if you feel like a failure, there are people who care even if you don't like them. i hope you're doing fine now, and im really proud that you're trying.

@anjyfox

3 жыл бұрын

talk to him, he’ll understand

@avast47

3 жыл бұрын

I went through the same thing. I lost 10 lbs within a month and then snapped out of it. Since then, I have gained it all back and then some. It sucks, but if you really want to get fit, do it by eating a lot of healthy foods and exercising moderately. Find what works for you and is sustainable in the long run. Lose weight the right way and you’ll feel so much better. A healthy lifestyle not only makes a healthy body, but a healthy mind as well, which is more important in my opinion.

@bornwinner.___

3 жыл бұрын

no, don't do that love, you are beautiful just the way you are 💖 we aren't made to be perfect, we are made to be masterpieces, and flaws can be the most beautiful thing in masterpieces, there are people who love you for you, your bf, God, me, so please don't do that. I know it's hard, but you are a masterpiece, don't forget that. you might know this already, but let me say it again, being healthy will give you a much better life than being "thin" and unhealthy. You can be healthy and be your dream self. Paint your own masterpiece, don't copy someone else's 💖

@solaceyes7767

3 жыл бұрын

@@anjyfox she doesn't need to join shit.

I'm back here three years later and i think I'm okay now. I will probably never not feel the pain when I listen to this song, but I'm good now. Thank you

This fr just came on as I’m practicing drawing chubbier people to try and make myself feel better in my body

Whenever I hear my mom or any adult woman say something negative about their appearance. No matter how small it is. About their weight their wrinkles anything. I have to choke back sobbing bc I’m so scared of never feeling about myself. The idea of never being okay with myself is terrifying.

I have depression, anxiety, and a eating disorder and I lie to my family saying I'm fine but when I'm by myself I just cry

@AmberWoodMusicx

3 жыл бұрын

Don’t lie because that’s exhausting and you need to get better

@reiinemrm1582

2 жыл бұрын

❤

@reiinemrm1582

2 жыл бұрын

💗💫⭐🫀

Last November, during a really rough patch emotionally, physically, financially - I had to go to the doctors for an asthma plan. This wasn't my regular GP as he was away that day. Instead of simply printing the plan that was already on file - he decided he needed to 'weigh me' and 'check me out' because I was out of breath from walking up the street - as an asthmatic in heeled 'flats', and as someone who was already having a panic attack cause I hadn't left the house in 5 weeks. Without knowing me, without knowing that I had been a G cup since I was 15, and that I was "blessed" with thick thighs, weighed me, measured me and told me I was clinically obese. I weigh around 85 kilos at 5'5. Sure, I could stand to lose possibly 5 kilos - but he wants me at 68kgs... Which isn't going to happen unless I have a boob reduction. It is all in my boobs - but since then, I skip meals, I criticise myself in everything I wear and I just hate myself. I'm proud of myself for the weight I'm loosing - and to make it worse, I get well meaning comments from friends and coworkers telling me how "great" I look which makes me feel worse - especially when they ask what I do and I be honest and say "I stopped eating breakfast" and they say "oh - keep it up!". People have told my mum to stop worrying about my eating because I "look really good now!" What, I didn't before? I mean - I know I'm ugly (truth), but this is not helping my confidence at all hearing how "great" of a job I'm doing for starving myself.

@AmberWoodMusicx

3 жыл бұрын

It’s the illness being proud not you. It distorts everything. It’s so toxic as an illness and full of lies and you’re making yourself so sad

I never feel “sick enough” even though my body’s crying out for help

I came from tik tok: this is now my new favourite song, ive never felt less alone in a time where I feel loneliest and all I can say is thank you🥺😭

@allisonbryant4802

4 жыл бұрын

Lottie’s Life 💕

When i first became anorexic, my daily calorie intake was 1000 but then i kept lowering it to 750, to 500 to 250 to 100 and then eventuaply to nothing at all. I would like freeze water into popsicles and eat that and was like, im full. So like when you said youve reached your goal but still feel like you look the same, it made me think of why eating disorders aren't simply "diets". They are an unhealthy, never-ending cycle of "It's not enough". But itll never be enough

@melinapihlajaviita6733

3 жыл бұрын

I hope that ur doing better

@ilicktoeslol

3 жыл бұрын

and then you get full after a few bites when you try to eat

@katelynm9986

3 жыл бұрын

@@ilicktoeslol that’s because when you barely eat, believe it or not, your stomach will start shrinking-

@lol69970

3 жыл бұрын

I went from 52kg / 114 pounds to 45.1 kg / 99.4 pounds and I'm eating as little as possible. This is day 3 of me eating nothing. I just hope I can go this day with out food so that I hopefully can weigh around 44kg / 97 pounds. But it depends if I can sneak around dinner or not. Since my brother is home I cannot throw out the food out the window as I did yesterday. So I need to like pretend to take food and walk away with my arms up but not any food. Or I take just a tiny bit of food. That I won't eat, but I'll smudge it on the plate so if my dad comes in he would think I ate.

@katelynm9986

3 жыл бұрын

@@lol69970 please don’t do this to your self, your so beautiful no matter what. I understand that your unhappy it’s your body, but you need food.

Omg she's the cutest girl I've ever seen 🥺 I can't stop staring at how pretty she is 🥺❤️

I just keep coming back to this song and this comment section .... It makes me feel better and cry even more ....... Life is not supposed to be this hard ... Right? I'm exhausted.

This is so weird... I'm currently fighting an eating disorder and this was just in my recommended. It hit hard. Beautiful voice by the way, you earned a subscriber ♡

@addieirons4868

4 жыл бұрын

I know it’s rough but I believe in you and you will get through this. 💗

Oversized hoodies, skipping meals, perfect unrealistic body image, over exercising, don’t harm your body nor your mental state!! You are prefect the way you are!! Please please please never change yourself to be someone you arent, what good will it do you and the people around you? Stay safe everyone ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

@alaa3588lolo

2 жыл бұрын

tysm for this ❤ YOU TOO

@elijah_mozuka

2 жыл бұрын

im not crying ur crying and thank you i love you :> ❤️

@Preppy_Jilly

2 жыл бұрын

Not me wearing an oversized hoodie 24/7

@Preppy_Jilly

2 жыл бұрын

@ur mama I can’t do it anymore my school just put in a dress code

I’d had anorexia I think for a few months, not eating snacks, sometimes water and maybe a piece of bread for breakfast, and insisting on smaller portions but my birthday cake around and I was forced to eat a 239 cal cupcake 😭😭😭😭😭😭. My family had to work that day, and I chewed up the cupcake and spit it out. Then on Monday, we actually celebrated my birthday and they bought a chocolate Oreo ice cream cake, with lots of frosting I was pretty much forced to eat it because I didn’t want anyone to think that I had a problem and in the last bite I just shoved it in my mouth and as I was walking to the trashcan I spit it out in a napkin and threw it away everyone thought everything was all right but from then on I actually got better. I really hate that I got better for some reason I really miss being hungry and I miss my stomach growling at night wishing that I could eat something. I’ve tried triggering myself and sometimes I can last without food for 12 hrs but I binge instead 😓😓😓. Before my birthday, I told my friend that I thought I had anorexia (I thought that was wat I had and my brain kept telling me I was faking it) but she got a picture of pretty much a skeleton person whose ribs were showing so much, and was SO skinny the bad thing I think is that for a second I thought “ body goals” but I remembered I wanted to get better. After she said that I starved myself more but as I’ve told u guys rn, now I’m better but I miss Ana...

I'm absolutely obsessed with your music. You genuinely are an underrated artist. All your music is beautiful, just like your voice, and extremely relatable.

lyrics: i wake up early sometimes at 5:30 to run my mom got too worried i had to tell her it was fun i feel like a failure if i don’t skip breakfast and lunch i’m chasing a body i know that i’ll never outrun cause i’ll always wish i was smaller than this and i just can’t quit pulling at my skin oh, i’m scared that i’m never gonna like how i look and i wish i knew why cause i’ll always wish i was smaller than this i’ll set a goal for myself and i’ll try to work hard i’ll reach it but swear i look just like i did from the start i know that it’s not true but i feel like i’m the only one who’s chasing a body i know that i’ll never outrun cause i’ll always wish i was smaller than this and i just can’t quit pulling at my skin oh, i’m scared that i’m never gonna like how i look and i wish i knew why cause i’ll always wish i was smaller than this (vocals n stuff) i’ll always wish i was smaller than this and i just can’t quit pulling at my skin oh, i’m scared that i’m never gonna like how i look and i wish i knew why that i’ll always wish i was smaller than this

@liveloverock8249

4 жыл бұрын

Thanks!

@madisonmacias17

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you ❤️

@blankspace291

4 жыл бұрын

It's literally on the screen 🤣

@-sophia-879

4 жыл бұрын

@@blankspace291 yea but some people (Including myself) like it this way better......IDK why but i guess its because you can see all the lyrics?!?

“I’ll set a goal for myself and try to work hard ,I’ll reach it but swear I looked the same at the start “... wow how much I relate .

am i the only person who just feels like this so bad but is too scared to try and actually start starving themselves.... but like i want to? u get it?

My friends caught on that i was skipping breakfast and lunch so now I have to eat around them or they won't be too happy and I always feel disgusting after eating . I also cut wich no-one knows about because I just wanted to feel something. So this song relates to me so much

@AmberWoodMusicx

3 жыл бұрын

Please seek help because it’s not worth carrying on in this cycle.

@bri-sh5lv

3 жыл бұрын

same.

@mrspurple

3 жыл бұрын

Same

If anyone reading this struggles with body image, know that YOU ARE ENOUGH, you are beautiful and deserve to eat and feed your body nutrients it needs to live. The more love you give to yourself, the more love you can give to everybody else. Happiness and self love is the most important thing before anything else, you’re amazing, keep eating and fighting. It’s worth it!!!

@kasiausman772

4 жыл бұрын

Samara Pranata ur soul is beautiful

@rebecca_lynne

4 жыл бұрын

thank you, i rly needed that 🥺

@samarapranata4314

4 жыл бұрын

kasia evans thank you gorgeous 💘

@samarapranata4314

4 жыл бұрын

rebecca._. lynne no problem:)

@tildav5943

4 жыл бұрын

thank u so much 🥺

This song hits me in the guts because of how relatable it is. And it hurts that when people say “omg you’re so skinny, you look dead”, you are motivated to continue. Eating disorders are so easy to start, but extremely difficult to end 😞

@manah1ljm

3 жыл бұрын

Katlyn's Krafts if you’re going through a hard time, just remember you are beautiful, and loved

@manah1ljm

3 жыл бұрын

Katlyn's Krafts please, treat yourself right, i know its hard but there will be a day when you will realise, beauty does not mean being skinny, and tall, it rather means being beautiful from the inside

@manah1ljm

3 жыл бұрын

Katlyn's Krafts I’ve gone through the same thing, and i understand your feelings. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL :)

_i just can't stop count my calories._

"I feel like a failure if i don't skip breakfast and lunch" Lyric hit me hard

This song is the most realistic song I have ever heard I am sobbing because it hits so hard

This song made my cat come up to my phone and start purring

@mintie5439

4 жыл бұрын

OMG SAME LOL

Damn girl you embodied the exact feelings I have felt most my life. You are beautiful, it's amazing when music can truly express something you were never able to say to people.

I stopped eating breakfast and lunch and started working out more. My best friend of the time(we were 6 years of friendship) asked me about it and U simply said I ate earlier or wasn’t hungry. She let it go then 1 month later she ditched me and left for another group. I asked why bc I loved her and she said couldn’t keep trying to be friends with me if I had so many problems. She was the one always talked to me about her problems and I always helped her. I was the friend who was great for advice, always happy, had no problems and was there for everyone. I told her about one of my problems and she left me 2 months later. I couldn’t cope and I found that eating less made me feel better about myself. So I have been eating less and less. I told myself at the beginning I wouldn’t get obsessed with it and it was only until I had more confidence. I still do it and I am “chasing a body I know that I’ll never outrun”. Help....

@aka_duck

Ай бұрын

How are you doing hun?

"I feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch, i'm chasing a body i know that i'll never outrun.." ..I've never been able to relate to a song before...thank you..

i’m struggling rn with an eating disorder but this song made me feel like i’m not alone 🧡

@katiestan699

4 жыл бұрын

dani t you’re not alone girly!! Keep pushing through. You’re so strong

@danilieon6

4 жыл бұрын

Katie Grace thank you 🥺💓💓

@Unknown-yh2ri

4 жыл бұрын

Same here I’ve had one for maybe 5 years

@jetteandersen3286

4 жыл бұрын

I belive in you! Ur strong

Everyone is like “your so skinny” but in reality I’m like “why am not skinny enough” it sucks

I can't stop crying every time I listen to this song. It's amazing 🥺

Just incase: TW. Food oh so yummy, Sugar and sweet honey, Filling up my tummy, Now I am full. I'm getting way too fat, And I don't like that! My stomach now contracts, I feel sick from food. Throwing back my diner, Just trying to get thinner, And be a little winner, Over this fat disease. But now my body's shaking, My smile I start faking, Meals I keep skipping, Still no one notices. -Monika Stay safe all yous, and please eat :)

@rushdashajar8517

3 жыл бұрын

This made me cry😭❤️

@monikaweiss9057

3 жыл бұрын

@@rushdashajar8517 ^-^ hope you're doing okay.

@scribblyarts2418

3 жыл бұрын

This hurts omg 🥺😢

@graceburns3420

3 жыл бұрын

I cant eat..... I wish I was 82 lbs and I have 116 lbs to lose..... I hate being short fat and ugly.....😔💔

@rushdashajar8517

3 жыл бұрын

@@graceburns3420 I can understand.....I know it's hard....I will not gonna console you or tell you to do well and try hard because I know there is huge difference in saying and implementing......I would just say that give yourself some time....don't rush to your goals.....growth is a slow process.......and I know you are a beautiful girl.....just explore yourself by doing things which makes you happy.......don't hurt your soul, be kind to yourself after all only you can change yourself as you did earlier when you were absolutely fine.....you can do it now too....I know u can❤️

You are such a beautiful person and have such a beautiful soul. This is my upmost favorite song in the world. Thank you for pouring your soul into this work of art. It means more than to me right now than you know💕

Its been 3 years but yet I still come back

Sometimes I'll eat almost nothing for 3 days. and then other days I'll eat enough for a family then hate myself, it's an ongoing cycle that won't stop

@AmberWoodMusicx

3 жыл бұрын

It can stop. Please seek help.