“I wake up and I think... again really. I have to do this again”

@yanaivakova4434

4 жыл бұрын

what is this series / movie?

@Evstaic

4 жыл бұрын

Yana Ivakova Killing Eve, tv show.

@mhdwantz6214

4 жыл бұрын

Anastasia Pierce fuckkk! I hate to admit I feel this everydays and it ruins my fucking life 😢😢😢

@nedamitova1075

4 жыл бұрын

Same here... every fucking day is like that

@mp9373

4 жыл бұрын

@@mhdwantz6214 every day is a battle. Just know that you're winning the war by keeping going. You'll be okay, just keep going

*You know you're sad when you go back to these videos.*

@juttavanderhorst4521

4 жыл бұрын

true :(

@vivekamartinnirup9535

4 жыл бұрын

Too true

@eggles5123

4 жыл бұрын

Mood

@laylah6959

4 жыл бұрын

That's a whole mood

@keiratrujillo9714

4 жыл бұрын

Its so true it hurts

"I hurt myself, it doesn’t hurt. I buy what I want, I don’t’ want it.I do what I like, I don’t like it. I’m just…so bored." THIS is so true.

@maryanncaldwell6342

4 жыл бұрын

What movie/show is that from?

@MsGirlNextDoor19

4 жыл бұрын

DreamerGirl For Life I think it’s from the show Killing Eve

@maryanncaldwell6342

4 жыл бұрын

@@MsGirlNextDoor19 Thank you!

This what happens when u gave up on life but ur too afraid to die...

@ifeelverydead9180

4 жыл бұрын

Why are you in my house

@ifeelverydead9180

4 жыл бұрын

Get out of my house

@heinertfernandez9250

4 жыл бұрын

@@ifeelverydead9180 hvvvvhihkdhhjgm

@user-ti9bv5jk4p

4 жыл бұрын

That littrealy me

@Emma_n_n

3 жыл бұрын

I'm not afraid to die, it's just I know there are some people that still care about me and I don't want them to feel sad

The feeling of not feeling anything is so weird because when I explain my feelings to my self or someone that I trust, it feels like I’m lying to myself and them because I can’t even feel what I’m talking about and I really don’t like that. It’s weird.

@alexhowes8778

4 жыл бұрын

I agree.. So much. I'm asked why. But I can't answer. I mean how can i?

@Pakelcigariet

4 жыл бұрын

And when u feel this way. U feel nothing. Its EMPTY... just empty...

@silentsky_27

4 жыл бұрын

I get made fun of for saying that and people wonder why I don't talk about my feelings.

@lanisha2132

4 жыл бұрын

Sky Bruser my best friend feel the same way so I talked to her about it, just try to talk to people who understand it, you can talk to me if you want too!

@alejanelrosmark7220

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah that's one of the hardest parts for me. I feel nothing, so I don't feel bad about my mental state. I don't care, just like I don't care about anything else. And sometimes, when I almost convince myself that I'm just living a normal life, I feel like I was just making it up before. I know it's a serious problem, but it doesn't 'feel' as such. That thought receives the same indifference as every other thought, regardless of the severity or its implications. A very curious feeling indeed.

*my life, it doesn't work nothing will ever fix that*

@donnajames4934

4 жыл бұрын

I understand how u feel i feel that way

@williamc.890

4 жыл бұрын

Have you used Flex Tape or Flex Seal?

@HazelGrey.

4 жыл бұрын

Except you

@theladymorgana8657

4 жыл бұрын

My life

@niqhtale

4 жыл бұрын

atleast you'll be accepted in therapy, i won't even be taken bec of my complexity, guess i'll have to become a criminal first so they have to treat me.

“You mean he’s dead?” “I’m so sorry” “I’m hungry” *said with no feeling in her eyes* My heart: poor child. Even though I would say the same thing.

@marigardner8451

4 жыл бұрын

What movie is that from

@Mal-gy1ic

4 жыл бұрын

She broke my heart

@Evstaic

4 жыл бұрын

Mari Gardner Person of Interest

@dilara23

4 жыл бұрын

which movie?

@Evstaic

4 жыл бұрын

Dilara TV show, but Person of Interest

The worst thing....when everything stops hurting anf you just stare at your problems with a blank face...no pain...no regret...no happiness...no love...just emptiness....and the words... *IM USED TO IT*

@shamwar1999

4 жыл бұрын

Shooting Star that’s me.

@preetyshaleni6288

4 жыл бұрын

Exactly

@rachalamjarred740

3 жыл бұрын

S A M E

@nitikapalta8570

3 жыл бұрын

The blank face and silence makes me feel that I am already dead

Whats the point of living if you can't feel anything but pain

@racoonwounds2893

4 жыл бұрын

Well I would rather feel pain then nothing at all I mean imagine it feeling nothing means you can never really live because you have no capability to love or regret nothing

@theladymorgana8657

4 жыл бұрын

@@racoonwounds2893 I can't take the pain any longer

@racoonwounds2893

4 жыл бұрын

@@theladymorgana8657 i embrace my pain the only i it hurts is when i neglect it

@e.t9727

4 жыл бұрын

@CocunutMilk a little pain is what makes you remember you're humain

@vidamarcelienkland5138

3 жыл бұрын

I’m so fricking tired of people telling me to be strong, saying I’m so strong I’ll get through this too.. but they are selfish, they want me to live so they don’t have to mourn me.... but I have to live in constant pain and numbness for them??? What about what I want💔💔

I don't even remember how it's like to feel anymore, it's been too long

@aleanikodem1355

4 жыл бұрын

i see you on almost every video of these and i wish i could help you so much that it hurts

@rachalamjarred740

3 жыл бұрын

SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAME like i just wanna remember a little bit of what feeling is like but i'm too tired to even think about it i just- yeah.

@isabella6769

2 жыл бұрын

Believe me is like hell

The absolute worst "feeling" is...losing feeling. It's the most miserable existence because feelings are part of what make us ALIVE. Sending hugs to others who experience this numbness.

@nursemercy5676

Жыл бұрын

Thanks, I’ll accept your hugs

“I’m just so bored” I feel that too much. I’m just so bored of my life. When I’m manic I can’t feel, when I’m depressed, I can’t feel. I want to feel something again

@Lily-gz3ip

2 жыл бұрын

u felt?

😢 I hate being able to relate to these videos, simply because I hate the word relate in this circumstance.. Stigma

that moment when not even these videos can get you to feel sad anymore.... i just felt numb watching this.

I don’t feel better I don’t feel peace I don’t feel ANYTHING -Hayley Marshal (the originals)

When you’re in pain for so long ur emotions just go away and feel nothing. I feel nothing and idk how i feel about it.

My friends tell me “take things more seriously”, “but I can’t because I don’t want more pain then I already have”

@ClarenceRao

3 жыл бұрын

They Don't Know What we are facing with...

I can't cry. I can't be mad. I can barely smile. I try to feel by making so many stupid jokes to literally everyone to try and make them laugh so that maybe I can feel something. and what happens? nothing. They don't laugh, I don't feel some type of emotion. Hell, sometimes I would listen to some of the saddest music I know just to feel something. And the results? A blank face staring into blank space. Sure people can genuinely make me laugh, but it kinda just withers away almost right after. It's painful to not feel.

I get so relieved when I feel sad, bc when I feel sad, I know I can feel happy soon. And yes, feeling nothing is so boring, i am so bored to be watching all of these and feel nothing, watching all of the happy edits too and feel nothing.

WOW i haven't seen anything more relatable in a very long time. This is the way i felt for years, and sometimes i still do. And the fear that that feeling won't go away, at least not completely still terrifies me, after all this time. this video was abolutely perfect , ADORE this. Didn't realize it's a collab, perfect scene choice!

@JulaMisiak

4 жыл бұрын

I know the feeling. Glad you enjoyed the video ♥️

In 2018 I was saddest and loneliest I have ever been. 2019 and 2020 I would rather feel that than nothing.

@rachalamjarred740

3 жыл бұрын

2019 was the happiest for me, 2020 i would rather feel than..

I’m watching this because I really need to cry and like I’m trying to get my feelings out because I’m tired of holding them in....yet...I feel nothing. No tears. No emotion. It’s just nothing.

I don't even know what made me like this, I think I might of forgotten it like everything else.

@shamwar1999

4 жыл бұрын

XxdragonslayerxX Anonymous same

@rachalamjarred740

3 жыл бұрын

saaame like its been so long that i just dont remember and dont even care to remember i just wanna feel and be alive thats it idc about anything else

When I can’t feel anything I hurt myself. I started this year to hurt me physically, I think I did it before emotionally and mentally. It helps. Sometimes I even am able to cry. And the weird thing is: I know I shouldn’t cut. I know that, really. But when I think about it, I don’t feel bad or guilty or happy or anything. I just feel empty again

There's a difference between pleasure and happiness, I can feel pleasure in the moment for something small but it fades quickly and I feel nothing again. Eventually I will stop feeling pleasure as well

Make it stop! I can’t feel anything I don’t to feel like this anymore I hurt myself , but it doesn’t hurt I wake up in the morning... really think. I have to do this again! I buy what I like but I don’t feel it I’m dead inside Make it stop make it stop make it stop......pleaseeeee

At least they feel like crying I don't even feel that.

I have been emotionless this entire year, it is easier for me to cope with everything this way.

@Kanon..

3 жыл бұрын

I’ve seen you on so many emotionless subliminals omg

The thing is I can't even cry. I watch these video, I feel nothing. It's just so lonely.

I'm really tired of living. I don't feel anything and I don't want to do anything .

you know you're broken when you don't feel anything

Feeling nothing is the best way to survive. Trust me it's better then having your heart broken over and over.

Everyone thinks sadness is the worst feeling.But the worst feeling is to not feel ANYTHING

@ughicanteven5896

4 жыл бұрын

I wish I felt nothing. Feeling regret and the feeling of overthinking is the worst.

I have JUST finished reading Vicious and have this urge to read it again already because I haven't connected with a book and it's characters so much in I dunno how long. And then this vid appears in my sub box with THAT quote. This edit is all I wish I could say but can never find words for it...we all feel lost and alone sometimes and admitting that is the hardest thing..

@JulaMisiak

5 жыл бұрын

I read Vicious for the first time quite a while ago but I have never seen so many parts of myself in a character as much as I do in Victor. It was at once surprising and incredible.

@tafkila3756

4 жыл бұрын

is vicious a novel? and victor

@JulaMisiak

4 жыл бұрын

@@tafkila3756 Yes, Vicious is a novel written by V. E. Schwab. Victor is the main character in said novel.

@brooke2402

4 жыл бұрын

@@tafkila3756 Yes it is a book by V.E.Schwab, I highly recommend it! Victor is the main character in the book.

I LOVE how this turned out omg, everyone did so amazing!! Thank you for letting me be apart of this

@JulaMisiak

4 жыл бұрын

I love the end result so much as well. I'm really glad to have had you join this collab ♥️

I hate it when people say they wish they could be numb because it is the most lonely feeling ever you feel like you are getting drowned in a constant pool of nothingness

the boredom part really hit me hard

Woah this project is incredible. It´s a sad multifandom which finally touched my heart again (I did and watched too many). I love this video so much!

I'm so numb. I feel sad about something for 10 minutes, I cry for a while but then my mind goes blank. I don't even remember why I was sad. All I can do is stare at the wall in silence and feel empty.

whoa this hits way too close to home

Forever my favorite Sad Multifandom. Watch it like 1000 times and i know every line. Song is on my playlist too. It just so emocional and those quotes just perfectly describe emocinal void

This turned out so stunning. Thank you for having me! Wow. I'm amazed.

@JulaMisiak

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for joining ♥️

You know you’ve felt to much when you stop feeling at all

You feel like you wanna cry but then suddenly you feel nothing...absolutely nothing.

@mjnoon3609

2 жыл бұрын

Childhood emotional neglect is a bitch.

Awesome edit ! As someone who can't emotionally connect to other people I can relate 😞 This is so boring..

Why can't I cry ????? I used to watch videos like these and cry like a baby but now I can't feel anything

oof. This was brutal to watch while already feeling down

it’s like you’re trying to scream for all of it to stop and no one can hear you. then you realize that you screamed so much that you have no voice, no feeling, no emotion, no hurt, no happiness, no one. so you give up & you don’t want to be known as the girl or boy that gave up or killed themselves so you just go on with life. same cycle, same face, same “feelings”, same fake smile. and i think that’s the worst thing about it, you have to fake being happy and you watch everyone else actually feeling it. but you don’t know how to feel it because it’s been gone for so long that you got used to the pain, the anger, the hurt, the abandonment, the everything. so you just breathe. in and out. exhale inhale. still numb.

@rachalamjarred740

3 жыл бұрын

im not even breathing its been 11 months that im not breathing i mean i do but but its not real idk how to explain it... not feeling.. not breathing.. just existing and waiting for something unknown to happen

@rachalamjarred740

3 жыл бұрын

sis 9 months check how r u now?

They say “it gets better” but I’m almost 40 now.. when? When does it get better? When?

@_Themis_0896

2 жыл бұрын

I'm a lot younger than you, completely unaware of your circumstances & have been feeling pretty horrible lately but i want to give you the warmest hug possible. I hope & pray you find whatever you are seeking my friend🌼

One words: chills

I never know what to say if someone asks me “how do u feel” ,cause they wouldn’t understand if I said “I don’t “ ...

Oh, this is so deep and emotional video 💔 All parts look great together!

Me watching with no expectations because I can’t feel anything inside it hurts sooo bad

again... really. again over and over. i just can't believe that i live life like this knowing that im numb. i lost my love for food i lost everything tbh.... im absolutely nothing.

Feeling nothing is worse than feeling pain because you know your SUPPOSED to feel something, you know that its supposed to hurt, but it doesn't. And you don't know why you can't feel anything so you try and you try to feel something, pain, happiness, love just anything.. It's like your just watching the world burn and you can't shed a single tear, and your so broken you can't even realize it. you just want it to stop, stop the nothingness. You feel like your just existing, not living.

Why is life so Damn hard... I don’t understand we were made to make humanity feel like something special but all we do is break it down and realise that the truth is its just sad and useless like everything around u..... Sophie~

Oh my god wow this turned out INCREDIBLE. Every part followed the theme so well and flowed perfectly. Thankyou so much for having me

you know it's bad when you used to cry seeing this. but now, you don't. you just watch at this with a blank eyes. no feelings at all. yes, you feel pain. but when you getting used to it, your soul making like you doesn't feel anything.

Thank you for allowing me to take part. As always, it is a true pleasure, and I just love the result ! :*

@JulaMisiak

4 жыл бұрын

I love having you in my collabs ♥️

I swear this is the first time I’ve ever seen any emmerdale clips in one of these .. I love that show though so now I’m crying.. :|

This was so beautifully done, you deserve so many more views/ likes then you have 💜

I used to watch all these sad edits with tears in my eyes. so much pain and crying, but now there's nothing. My blank expression just staring at the screen hoping, waiting to feel at least something. anything.

This is so good, I know I’m sad when I look for these golden videos.

Can someone please tell me all the movies and shows in this collab because they all look GREAT.

@awks1060

4 жыл бұрын

Alina Chase 3/4 of the clips are from the show “ Emmerdale “ with the characters Robert Sugden and Charity Dingle. I know the Robert Sugden ones are from 2017, 25th December. The 1 with him punching a wall is also from 2017, sometime in August/September. I don’t know about the charity one sorry!! Also sorry if this is no help to you ( anyone )

status: in awe beautiful artwork right there. only thing there's to say here is that i can't wait for more art from this collab team.

I feel nothing for years. I'm like a donut. I'm empty. I watch this videos and... Nothing. I can't even cry. I just can't.

@ughicanteven5896

4 жыл бұрын

I wish I felt nothing. The feeling that noone cares is the worst and I wish I couldn't feel that like you.

I live with anxiety and depression, so my brain is fighting itself. To sum it all up, I feel everything of nothing and it is so painful and so exhausting because I don't get any of the positive feelings, all I get is fear and pain really.

three years later and people still include POI related stuff in their videos.... thank you

You know it’s bad when, if the world ended tomorrow, you wouldn’t even flinch. And if anyone, literally anyone, died you wouldn’t care. And if you lost everything you wouldn’t care. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I have nothing to care about, no one to care about, what’s the point in living if you have nothing to care about.

There's this scene in Private Practice, the psychologist says "don't you think I want to care? I can't feel anything." And then, she explains it in a similar way: It's like putting chocolate in your mouth and you know it's there on the tip of your tongue but you can't taste it. First time I've heard that, it was finally placing words on something I've been experiencing since I was a child. I just thought, perhaps, having this metaphor might help other people too.

Nothing rlly interests me anymore. All the shows I've been watching for the past months have started to bore me even though they're interesting. I don't laugh at tiktoks anymore even though people find them funny. I've tried to work out multiple times but I just don't have the motivation to do it anymore. Jesus, I don't even cry anymore, no matter how emotional the situation is. Everything I try to do seems like a chore that I'm too unmotivated to do. Maybe I'm just lazy but even the things that require minimum effort still feels boring and tiring. Have I told anybody about this yet? I tried to. I tell my parents this and they just mind it off saying I'm lazy, that I'm too young to have these feelings. I tried talking about this with my "friends". They brush it off and go ahead to talk about their day and their struggles instead for hours while I just remain silent. I seem like I'm complaining but I rlly have no one else to talk to.

So relatable empty , bored , emotionless,not caring about anyone or anything everything is just blah , I feel like I'm in the mellow part of depression like I'm not really happy or sad , I don't cry or laugh, everything is just really blank and empty

I remember waking every day and thinking what’s the point of living. It’s such a bad feeling to feel nothing sometimes I am so afraid to go back to these times

You just gained a subscriber because of the V E Schwab quote at the beginning. She is my all time favorite author!

@JulaMisiak

4 жыл бұрын

She's my favourite author as well 😊

WOW this is just chef's kiss 😍

If you can cry you're blessed believe me

I relate to this, out of all the edits i have watched, this is the one which makes me go "damn, bruh that's me"

we are dead on the inside

you know ur sad when u watch these videos and cry but u know ur empty when you watch them to feel something

That quote at the start, I'm sadly realising is true to me about most things. Everything I do, all that I love and enjoy, it feels artificial and I often ask myself if it's just fake, if I'm just trying to be all of those things. I don't think I'm really a good person :(

“Even in Death We do harm Our poison Seeps from our body And blackens the earth How then Did I expect To do good in life” - The Death of a Star by Ariana

I just don’t want to be here anymore but I love so many people and I just can’t.

There’s sometimes when I’m in so much emotional pain I don’t want to feel anything anymore.

That's cool I don't feel anything either

I’m so numb I can’t even cry anymore

I’m guessing everybody in the comments are depressed including me.

I feel this I use a mask people think I'm ok I smile when I really feel empty

@rachalamjarred740

3 жыл бұрын

its even hard to smile lmao

Anyone watch these sometimes even when you aren’t even sad

I just want to cry. But I can’t because if I start I won’t stop, I can’ feel my emotions and people want me to show my emotions but I just cant

@mechale111

4 жыл бұрын

I wish I could cry if I wanted to but I literally dont feel any emotion and I feel empty it's like my soul left me

I hate it when something happened and u can’t feel nothing

Guys.. I know you guys are going through rough times but.. U really are worthy.. ik you think its not helping but.. U have to know that people do care.. You just think to much, That you think They dont care but they care and love you. You do make a difference. You cannot give up... Ive tried suicide more than 5 times.. Ive cut myself more than 20 times. But look at me now.. Im still here. I believe u. Remember we love you😪

I want to cry but can't....i don't have tears anymore I feel like my heart is gonna explose !

I think the worst thing is I’m always searching for something to make me feel something and I never can. Not unless it’s personal and it makes me go into the darkness deeper and numbness doesn’t hurt but it’s a indescribable pain that no one understands unless they have been there. My mum stops asking how I really am and it was only before Christmas I told her I wanted to die and all she said is what can I do to make u feel better like I was unwell and she could fix it. I broke down everyday, in class on the bus at home and no one knew my mum just thinks I’m ok now.

so this is why i don’t flinch or get scared or don’t care about how i could die

Feeling nothing is the worst feeling in the world. Angry, sadness, happiness, sorrow, jealous, revenge everything is a feeling. But Feeling Nothing absolutely Empty is the worst feeling. I really don't wish to see another day even another second. I feel not worthy. I feel as a waste burden to earth. Not again.

I thought I would cry but I'm blank staring at this I want emotions again

@rachalamjarred740

3 жыл бұрын

same... 3 months check r u still numb? or did it get better?

@merinda990

3 жыл бұрын

@@rachalamjarred740 I've been diagnosed with depression and if anything it hurts more..

@rachalamjarred740

3 жыл бұрын

@@merinda990 oh same... and anxiety but i got rid of anxiety by antidepressants.. but this depression causing this emptiness just won't go away..im trying a break from social media and tryna focus on what i wanna do on the futur if this can help you... just to see if i this emptiness will ever go away i try to tell myself that i will heal soon..

@rachalamjarred740

3 жыл бұрын

@@merinda990 also i'm so sorry for you we got this we will heal just keep telling yourself that youre strong to get out of this and to be happy again!♥️

@merinda990

3 жыл бұрын

OH I FORGOT TO SAY its had it's up and downs but I'm thankful for my friends they're the only reason I'm alive right now :)

MARAVILHOSO! awesome!!

This is sad and amazing

the thing is, the reason why i listen to sad songs and watch sad edits is not to feel that relatability to all of u. i do it to cry. to make myself cry to feel something again

Honestly wish this was longer!