I cried the first time hearing it with no back story when it released. With the dementia/Alzheimer’s being apparent in the video it broke me in pieces because it hit so close to home.

Me listening to Holy Roller: Man, this is the heaviest song ever Me listening to Holy Roller ft. Ryo: OMFG this is it! It can't get heavier than this! Me listening to Constance: 😭 how could I have been so wrong. This is on another scale! Hats off, truly!

The song is already a brutal but compassionate poetry. Its worth resides in the poignancy and trenchant portrayal of the effect of Alzheimer's / Dementia. The slow chugging that plays so tragically towards the end always gets me because I get the message as someone who had a family member struggling with dementia. It was heartbreaking. Nevertheless, I'm appreciative of the defined craftmanship here.

After taking care of my mom for 10 years while she had dementia the day she died I blasted this song on repeat while I was on the shower floor. Constance kept me company in my grief and sorrow while lending me comfort in my pain. Constance is absolutely beautiful.

I know I'm gonna cry. I need to ban myself from this song I would do ANYTHING to hug my Nan one last time again. I'm so lucky I did get to say goodbye but it wasn't enough. Cheers to all the Constances in the world, we see you & we love you

Damn,, those onions again,, one of the heaviest songs this year,, cause of the topic they show in the video and lyrics,, actually very sad and very beautiful. Thanks Courtney, Mike , Bill and Dylan,, and thank you Tank

@jindas4217

3 жыл бұрын

Oh I hate those onions. 💯😊😊 They were way too ripe...should've put them in some ice water before I got chopping them.

Both the song and the cinematography have equal artistic prowess. The pain and emotions conveyed are so true that it resonates with those who has gone through similar experience. My grandparents became the prominent figures in my teenage life. When my mother went to rehab, I lived with them. They kept me grounded. I miss them everyday.

Spiritbox is the Christopher Nolan of metal.

This song hit me right in the feels. I was named after my grandma and she's suffering from dementia. I also lost my beloved grandfather some years ago. But overall an amazing song. Really beautifully done.

Tank everytime I've seen this video even now I cry. My mother was 104 and pass last March. Thanks God she didn't had Alzheimers but now and then she kind of had some allucinations. I completely identified with this song and certainly will still crying every time I see another reactor upon it

I lost my Nan this year from Dementia, she was 90 years old, and was a second mum at one stage in my life. God Rest Her Soul.

This came out right before my grandmother passed and her mind was starting to slip. When I first heard this song I watched the video and man did I ball my eyes out. I knew exactly what it was about. Now that my grandma is gone it hits even harder when I listen. But man is this song beautiful. It’s a piece of art.

Literally no matter how many times I watch this... I tear up.

This song is one of the most emotional songs I've ever listened to and a lot of it is owed to the ending breakdown. The whole song is heavy (emotionally) and then at the end, in my opinion, the breakdown throws all the weight and emotion on to YOU the listener. I was feeling some kind of way by the time it came but when it hit, I could literally feel the knot in my chest and my eyes well up. Amazing. I'm glad they let a more calm ambiance in at the end, it reminded me to exhale the breath I had been holding...

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I thought I built up a tolerance/desensitized myself to the video after violently weeping the first 10 times I watched it but bruh the onions kicked in the minute I saw you wipe at your eyes. Godddd this song.

Impressed by your efforts to hold it and distract yourself with gear specifics. Made me smile :)

So beautiful, I have listened to it over and over.

@daveofosiris

3 жыл бұрын

I had to stop in the end. I felt too much😭

Both of my grandmothers passed with dementia in 2014 and 2015. I never properly grieved for them until I heard this song. I cried for about 3 hours the first time I heard it, and it took me several months to work up the courage to listen to this in full. What's so bad about dementia is that I feel like my grannies passed before actually passing, if that makes sense. They were no longer the ladies I had known growing up, and they barely knew who I was. I miss them dearly, and this song is for them, too.

@TankTheTech

2 жыл бұрын

I know exactly what you mean when you say "passed before actually passing". I'm sorry for your loss, and thank you for having the heart to share that with me.

My great-grandmother suffered from dementia for several years before passing away. I remember one of the few times I saw her come out of it for a moment and she was so sad it broke my heart. She said she didn't like what was happening to her, she was mad because she was making her family suffer and she wasn't able to control it. She knew it and there was nothing she or anyone of us could do about it. And then she was gone again, talking to me as if I was her husband or a burglar, but not her great-grandson. I can think of 2 other songs that make me cry like this every time I listen to them: First, Anathema's "Are You There?" and then for a completely different reason, Cynic's "Box Up My Bones". Anyway, music is a beautiful thing and this channel is amazing. Thank you, Spiritbox. Thank you, Tank.

Nice dude. I knew you would get it. I cry every time. Super heavy. And you're right about other reacters. Everyone starts out super happy that there's new Spiritbox, and most people are in tears at the end. This one hits home for me too.

@alpinmack

3 жыл бұрын

It's just a masterpiece. The way the music slows down and descends into chaos to mirror her mental state is just brilliant.

This song was a gut punch to me having lost my grandmother to dementia as well. That being said it's a beautiful song with a very touching music video. Spiritbox is an amazing band

I went in blind and lost it when the guitars dropped and the grandma is staring into your soul. Hits too close to home.

The first time I heard this song, I was watching the music video with my best friend (recommended me this song and Circle With Me), I was close to shedding a tear. This song in particular, hits home for me. As my 93 year old great-grandmother has early stage dementia. On a second watch, it's hitting me harder what is happening to her, as I know it will gradually get worse.

I'll chime in on the bass thing: I've owned a few Dingwalls and they're fucking amazing. The tension is perfect on each string. I had one set up by them for drop G# and there was ZERO floppiness on that low boi. Dingwall is a fantastic company and Sheldon Dingwall himself is an awesome dude. Alright now, back to bawling my fucking eyes out over this song and video.

Brother, thank you for turning me on to this band. God damn, what a roller coaster.

Gotta be one of the best reactors to me. You educate about so much but also enjoy that art for what it is and you let it take you to another place which is always great to see someone else having that kind of reaction. Perfect blend for me. Keep up the good work.

@TankTheTech

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks a ton!

Yes!! Spiritbox!! They deserve more recognition I think. This song is just so damn good and so emotional, I love it. ❤️

I don't have a channel, but I went into this song with no background and this just FLOORED me. Constance just haunts me every day since this has come out. I balled my eyes out.

Yep. This song makes me cry. They are very good artists in the way they are able to convey emotions. Their songs hit Hard. It's not just the story or lyrics, it's the delivery. Love this band.

That ending is so brutal and you feel every bit of that emotion Courtney portrayed

This makes me cry every time just about haha. My grandfather had dementia; my mom is in her 70s and showing some signs of it and cries when she thinks about how bad it can get (because she knows how bad her dad was) and is constantly repeating herself and talking about end of life decisions, and what am I going to do when they are gone. It's like this thing you put out of your mind or don't think about, but its always looming in the back of your head, and this song takes it head on. Really not looking forward to when it does get super bad, but that's life - just keep moving forward. This song is just incredibly beautiful.

AWW. thank you for showing your emotions. This song has torn me up with losing my grandma to Alzheimer's. It's so hard to go through and even after years of her being gone this song spoke so hard to me. I love the raw reaction showing it's true.

I had no idea what this was the first time, other than Spiritbox, and teared up HARD. This is just an incredible piece of art, period.

December 4th is my birthday too I just turned 31, strangely enough, my grandmother's birthday is Dec 4th as well, she turned 89. Wow, I love that all three of us share the same birthday, and I love this song it definitely tugs on the heartstrings.

Just wanna say I appreciate your knowledge of gear, research and insight. Just found you a few months ago watching reactions and I'm definitely a fan. Great work man, I wish you much success!

@TankTheTech

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks a ton, man!

The bass was huge In this video, so much pain with those deep notes

I cry every time I watch the video and hear the song. This hits home for me, as well as to many others.

New Acoustic/Orchestral Video is worth it. Even if not a reaction, it's something for our non-heavy friends/family..... even more sharable, still fucking stunning.

I know im a late commenter, but I have lost my grandma last year (Not to covid) and its hard. I see people in the live comments talking about losing their parent. Man I can't imagine me losing any of them, they are only 52 and im 25 so we've got a long way still but I dont know how i would react if an accident would happen. Very touching song and video....

Straight in the feels. Just like “Mayonaise” by Smashing Pumpkins, “Sunshine Dust” by Skyharbor and “Broken Wings” by Bleed The Dream.

@shanahenkel8902

3 жыл бұрын

I love Mayonnaise by Smashing Pumpkins! Another song that gets me emotional.

@SpitFireShad

3 жыл бұрын

@@shanahenkel8902 💯 Love that song so much, is one of my favorites. But damn it has an emotional toll.

I’ve heard this song so many times now, and each time it hits me like a freight train. I have never gotten through it without tears coming. This song really shows the power of music to evoke emotions in all of us.

The last part of this song is taking all your emotions on such a deep level, I almost died in pain

One of the heaviest songs I have heard it had me in tears not what I was expecting after when I read what his song is about I was in tears when she said her grandmother passed away that had me in tears I lost my grandpa 16 years ago today and back in October I just lost my great grandma Everyday I get scared and fear that all my family will be gone I miss my Grandpa so much Spiritbox did a beautiful job on this And this song needs too be played on the radio Everyone request this song too be played yall 🤘🤘 I love Courtney so much 💚💚💚❤️❤️❤️

This one was deep, very cool...thank you for reacting to this

My Grandpa passed away back in June. He was 97 and had been suffering with dementia for the past couple years. Slowly fading away...We never knew if he’d recognize us. Eventually his heart gave out. We didn’t get to have a memorial service until a couple months later. He was indeed a member of the “greatest generation” and I’m extremely grateful to have had him in my life for so long ❤️ I’ll see you later, Grandpa! Well done, Weldon!

Great reaction. I loved the info you put in here regarding the equipment they are using... fantastic stuff. Spiritbox never disappoints, love these guys.

it not tears. its raining onions what can you do. Seriously you did a fantastic job with this. Im amazed, you kept together very well.

Yeah man, we all hear you. Been there like most. For me Soen - the words (official vid is a must) gets me every time. Also the song from the Eurovision film - not Ya ya ding dong 😜 has been getting me recently. I fooking love music man.

Glad you hit this early on man, it's incredible in numerous ways. The melody, music, vocals, voice and video utterly gut me.... in a good/bad way. It is just beautiful and I think many people can relate with other family/life issues as well. Just gorgeous and Courtney's voice is amazing in this. The overall project literally had tears running down this tough guys face... Damn.

Both of my grandmothers suffered from dimensia before they passed and my great grandmother died of Alzheimer’s. All of them were older than 95 when they died and I was very lucky to be close to all of them. When I first watched this video it hit very close to home, particularly with my great grandmother. I remembered when I was 7-8 years old, my dad took me to visit her and she must have been 97 or so at the time. She didn’t recognize me or remember my name and my dad had to explain to me what Alzheimer’s was. I remembered being so incredibly sad when I understood what she was suffering from. This was a beautiful reminder for me in a way to cherish friends and family. All of those random moments with my grandparents that at the time didn’t seem as important, have now become some of my most favorite memories. Spiritbox is such an incredible band and the fact that they can invoke such powerful feelings / emotions speaks volumes to their artistry.

I don't know much about the instruments, but I really like your unique take on videos. Like learning...

Thanks Tank! Your channel seems rather unique to me, as I don't see anyone else discussing the gear like you do... and I watch a lot of these videos. You rock, brother! 🎸 🤘

Been waiting for you to do this music video! Such an emotional song with the video to boot

This is my favorite so far from Spiritbox, it tells a story I have lived, I cry watching this every time. Miss my Grandma, she was the best, great song and another great reaction, now I gotta go wind down and try and climb out of this pit of emotion I am stuck in...

Watched this a bit ago, and the song fucking got to me. Just seeing like, her mental state obvious just fail, and everything disappearing from her house, out of her like and all. I couldn't help but think of my own grandma, some friends grandparents that passed away a while back... Just the whole range of everything

Brother! Sensational as always! I shouldn’t have watched this at work, I’m a blubbering mess in a work place full of blokes! Such a powerful song! ❤️

Love you Tank. ❤️ Wonderful reaction video.

I love how the deconstructing at the end of the clip matches the mental deconstruction of the character. At least thats how I feel about it. Kinda went through that with my mom couple of years ago

I never cry. This time around I did. My grandfather, a Vietnam veteran, passed away from cancer and Alzheimer’s recently. The things disappearing in the video and how it transitioned into the grandmother seeing things disappear was the part that made me lose it. It puts you in the shoes of that lady for a brief moment..

I've been watching a lot of your vids and man.... Your content/reactions/the way you present yourself is so genuine and makes us keep watching more. Keep up the great work and enjoy your subscriber count go up thanks dude

@TankTheTech

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks a ton, Jake!

Glad you got to see this one. It's a great song. I've been watching this for three days . I've lost two family members to dementia and this song has helped me come back out of the dark. Song of the year in my opinion. Peace ✌️ from Stan the Alaskan.

I lost my Gramps in July this year. He had Parkinsons and Dementia, which fucking sucked. I didn't see him for nearly 7 months because of Covid. Thankfully I was able to attend his funeral and say goodbye, so this song hits hard.

@tankthetech - Just wanted to send some kudos - after a "Constance" bender I started watching some reactions (reactors?) around YT. I dig your take. You're observant, know what you're talking about, and obviously simply a fan of music. You get technical yet also serve a more "general audience" and are expressive. As long as it serves you, keep it up! :) - some ex-musician & gear-head

@TankTheTech

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks a ton, Nick! Much appreciated! 🙌

I heard this song for the 1st time last night & let's just say that this brought up a LOT of unprocessed trauma and emotions. Just an amazing song😭❤️🔥🤘🏿

Ive only recently started listening to Spiritbox, and this song got me right in the feels. My husbands grandmother died back in 2020, and cos of covid he wasnt able to go and visit her the way he was used to. She had dementia. Her death hit him so hard, man, and he continues to struggle with the fact he wasn't able to see her before she died. I am in rhe habit of sharing new bands and songs i find with him, but i think I'll keep this one to myself

First time hearing this here, I've known it come out but have seen it's rough to get through, I added it to my playlist before he stopped it for the first time. That's really how you know what a song is good.

Don't worry brother. I don't think any of us held it together through the whole thing. Especially since most of us can relate and have had a loved one suffer like this. It's just as bad or worse than anything else a loved one can suffer from. Seeing someone you love forget who you are is beyond words painful. 10:33 to 10:40 gets me every single dang time. I see that look in my grandmother's face.

Love this rock song - an incredible piece with true emotions in it!

This one gutted me. I want to go in my room and really cry since my son-in-law is in the room with me, but I can’t go from the family room to my bedroom yet... my grandparents wedding picture and 50th anniversary picture are on the wall next to my bed. I can’t look yet. Grandma died in 2010 Grandpa died in 2012 I still can’t believe I’ll never see them, hear them, hug & kiss them, sit on the floor and listen to their stories about their lives, help grandma in the kitchen, learning the old recipes, watching grandpa getting all animated while describing being on a ship on the Pacific Ocean during massive, raging storms while he was serving during WWII. They were both so influential in my life. God I miss them.

Great job dude, such a heavy track and most of us can relate in some way or another. breaks me every time.

Breathtaking ❤ so happy to discover new music and stuff that I usually don't listen to. Thanks again for this great video ans can't wait to watch more!

Yeah man this strikes deep. Dylan & Versa Films did excellent job, the chilling still of granny's distant look is well-captured and going to be preserved in everyone's mind.

I went in blind I just saw they dropped this song, the day it dropped. I watched the video and immediately it broke me. My grandmother had Alzheimer's and I was the same age as the boy in this video when she started to go downhill. I had to watch my mom become total caregiver with the support of my dad while her siblings yelled at her for not doing enough. So I felt every bit of this song and then some. Thank you for such a genuine reaction despite not going in completely blind anyway.

Really thankful I discovered this band their debut album next year is pretty much my most anticipated album this music video made me tear up such a beautiful song

This work is amazing.

Loved this video, thanks man. Song is amazing! "that is ART..."

My husband's grandmother who actually raised him and was like his mom passed away a couple years ago and she had dimintia and we were taking care of her, it was probably the saddest thing I've ever had to be a part of. He cried almost everyday. So yea this song makes me tear up, she was my family too, I have been with her grandson for 13 years now. RIP Ruth🥺

At around 6:43 it gets to the part where I start to shed tears and I can tell it’s hitting him- Tank: DINGWALL is the type of guitar he’s playing fun fact it is a combustion 5 string *as he wipes a tear from his eye*

Can safely say that song will take a tear form a rock, amazing band, great reaction man well done 🤘🤘

wow this ton of emotions and memories that crush onto me.. i still crying 30 mins after this.. You cann see how he think come on talka bout the bass dont cry =). Man i love your reactions yopur knowledge and analysis of the songs are great. i hope we see many more vids from you. Your fan Thomas from Germany

I went into my first view of this video with zero knowledge. I picked up what was going on when that first breakdown hit right after the first chorus and it got me. For some reason it's those heavy riffs that get me emotionally. They're filled with anguish, confusion, and anger. You're right: absolute art. Video of the year.

@TankTheTech

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah, the breakdown at the end really drove home that heavy emotional feeling for me at the end.

once again, i finished this vid while crying with you, totally subbed forever

@TankTheTech

3 жыл бұрын

🙌🙌🙌

@phylazen5649

3 жыл бұрын

@@TankTheTech im sorry, dude. i was really in my feelings and i came across your reaction. i didn't mean to get to wacky on you.

Amazing song, I hope to a degree they keep it as is and don't or hardly perform it live at all. I feel like this (to me) is in the same ballpark as Korn's Daddy, it's so emotional, intense and impactful that it should be performed at rare instances. It's not like it has to be but it keeps the song more pure to me and would not be tainted by people screaming their ass off or talking during the performance (whenever that may happen again).

I watched this on the premiere. The only thing I knew about the song at the time was that Courtney was singing about a personal loss; she only explained the full context after the song was released. ...and I cried my eyes out. Both the song and the video are incredibly expressive. I was expecting some emotion, not this level of emotion. Absolutely beautiful. I found this band over a year ago and I've been so proud to see them grow.

Just wanna hug you, man. You're the first channel i've seen tear up. i've experienced this firsthand so, i was heavily impacted by this vid. It's so dark, but so real. The heaviness is necessary to implicate just how serious dementia is. You're the homie, tank. Love you.

that gear facts and specifications is a bonus. thanks man. i subbed.

@TankTheTech

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks man!

Nice one, man. I lost my grandpa to Alzheimer's years ago, so definitely a tough watch, but such a beautiful song and video.

Wow, nice clean vocals and great slightly ethereal, atmospheric melody lines 😍 - that's right up my alley! I'll definitely gonna check out more of their stuff :3 That vid and song is definitely hitting hard - not barely on a musical base more on the emotional one - I guess, we all have lost someone close and near in our lives. Doesn't have to be to this damn pandemic - totally think that this can be one of those songs that can be both therapeutic and catharsic and scratching at old wounds..... Also, as always cool to get all your expertise on the instruments, especially on the guitars. I like that people are still hand crafting things - including instruments 🥰

I really liked your reactions, but this one was special. This was such a genuine reaction in all cases. Hands down, subbed. You deserve it! Thank you!

@TankTheTech

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you!

WFT, you keep doing songs that hit the feels. But yeah my grandmother had dementia........ 😭keep at it man, good reaction as always

Perfect song, perfect video, perfect reaction.

While hold back the tears with watery eye. "Lets talk about some gear" 😆 And about this song and the video, its hit like a brick. English not my my native language so I don't understand much of the lyric, but I'm cry my ass off. Emotional presentation in this video is that good.

What a song. Kurwa mać. My eyes are watering each time I hear it. Can't imagine the pain of losing loved ones in this pandemic and not being able to be with them in their last moments, or even to say goodbye properly.

since seeing spiritbox for the first time on your channel, they became one of my favorites and damn that song might work as rainmaker. also one morning left - neon highway

My grandma suffered from Dementia and this was just brutal. I lost my mother/her daugther to cancer and at some point my grandma was asking for my mother and i had to tell her, that her daugther passed away some years ago. This was the hardest conversaiton i ever had. This video/song remembers me so hard of this Situation, i just cryed reclessly after watching this. But something positiv, your really awesome man, Thanks for the entertainment

I didnt know what this song was about and I listened to it ironically after a close family member passed away and I bawled like a baby...and I probably always will every time I hear this song...

This whole year has been crap , being on my own all through COVID I find things have been affectingly me emotionally more than ever , I’m not massive on female fronted bands , I have really struggled t9 get into Jinjer , but I absolutely love the last four singles from Spiritbox , and how versatile Courtney’s vocals are ! This song has been a good release for me and your reactions I really enjoy as I like your approach from a tech point of view and just someone else that really appreciates music ! All the best for 2021 when it comes around !

Don't be scared of those emotions brother, we're all people. I think it's safe to say the vast majority of people broke down when they heard this the first time. I was sitting here at my work desk bawling.

@redshift912

3 жыл бұрын

First time ?I have wept a few times

What a beautiful song very moving🤍