Thankyou everyone so much for watching, this one was difficult to write, but im glad I got to share it with you. As always here are the lyrics and the link to stream found.ee/ren-suic-de Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've fallen through the cracks of the night sky A light goes out on the other side, suicide, suicide, suidice Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm treading on the tracks in the night time It never really felt like the right time suicide, suicide, suicide I'm so fucking lonely beneath this, narcisistic, cant keep a secret, miscount sheep, I can't sleep, a misfit Some say troubled, but some say sadistic, Bruises my brother, one time or the other, my skin felt counterfeit, silicone, rubber Bruises my sister, skin pop the blister dig deep resist the feeling when it hits you Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've fallen through the cracks of the night sky A light goes out on the other side, suicide, suicide, suidice Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm treding on the tracks in the night time It never really felt like the right time suicide, suicide, suicide [sample] Sick boi, sick boi, bitten by a tick boi I feel like its not me its the world thats sick I'm so fucking washed up and sea sick masochistic kid with a split lip six feet deep I can't eat im nervous won't stay down 'cause my body purges useless my mother, cant keep in my supper skin so pale 'cause my cheeks leak colour Truth is my father, you choose your karma draw for the sword then drive through the armour Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've fallen through the cracks of the night sky A light goes out on the other side, suicide, suicide, suidice Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm treding on the tracks in the night time It never really felt like the right time suicide, suicide, suicide Suicide suicide suicide Suicide suicide suicide Suicide suicide suicide Suicide suicide suicide It's hard to take off from the ground when your wings are cut, Your stomach burns when you're drinking from an empty cup, You know the entire ocean came from my tear ducts? I see the world through fibonacci sequences and Double Dutch I guess there’s some that’s born lucky, there’s some that’s not I tried to cut away my bitterness - hatchet job I locked my youth in a trunk inside a pick up truck Then dumped the whole thing over the same bridge the night you jumped I think about that sometimes , vividly What it felt like to look down and see tranquility One sudden movement in a world of possibility Only one movement to expose our fragility I fucking miss you and I miss myself I miss thinking that were indestructible as well I miss chilling by the pier cave and kicking back Wirth Callum, Hugo, Sagar, Justin, Stevie and the fuckin lads I miss missing that, I numbed myself to close the gap, I never even call em up the distance is my plaster cast, The truth is that the day you jumped my childhood jumped too, But I still can’t find the anger all I find is missing you Man I miss you, with all my rhymes I picture running 5 minutes quicker, I'm right on time I picture pulling you back over the edge and then were crying And holding you my brother and telling you that it's fine that’s not the way that I worked Coz I was late like a jerk There's not a day where I could find a way to break from the hurt Your body missing so we never got to wave to the hearse I hope your listening , I love you man, I miss you absurd Fuck

@Upright_Tophat

11 ай бұрын

Your best song yet!

@ZInaNMooner

11 ай бұрын

Awesome m8

@dank5439

11 ай бұрын

Thank you, Ren.

@KeepingitSeels

11 ай бұрын

Incredible and fitting tribute to your friend. Love to you wherever you need it today Ren ❤

@Mezzystar1

11 ай бұрын

Thank you, Ren ❤

Today I want to write something beautiful and eloquent but I’ve been staring at my computer screen for the past 10 minutes blankly. So I’ll just write. Today, the 1st of June is my friend Joe’s birthday. I first met Joe when I was 8 years old, my friend Josh said I had to meet this guy, so we both walked over to his, it took about 10 minutes from my house. I was greeted by this kid covered head to toe in freckles, he grinned at us, climbed onto the back of his sofa and screamed “Swanton Bomb!” then front flipped off the top and landed right onto his back on a stone floor. He lay still for a moment, twitched a few times, then got up, grinned at us, brushed himself off, and did it again. This was Joe. He’d do anything to make people laugh. He ended up becoming one of my best friends. He was there when we stole our first cigarettes out of his mums pack, way too young. He was there when I had my first kiss, with a girl twice my size on the back of the 42 bus. He was there when I first got so drunk I threw up in the woods after drinking as much white lightning Cider as we could. I was there when he did his first backflip on skates, and saw him do a 720 off of the pier cave, that moment became legendary. Joe was the funny one in our friend group, he’d make us laugh till it hurt. No one had a bad word to say about him. It was impossible not to like him. Usually we put celebrities, athletes and actors on pedestals, turn them into role models and admire them from a far. The person I admired was Joe. Him and Sagar knew every word to the songs id write, we’d get drunk at parties and they’d be singing along as loud as they could. It gave me a lot of confidence back then. On Christmas Eve 2010 I was sitting in a pub with Joe, he’d been feeling low after a couple of consecutive break ups. He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment. He turned to me and said that sometimes he wished he could just walk into the sea and keep walking. He said it in a kind of half joking throw away comment type of way, then took a sip of his drink, walked over to the juke box and put Dig by Incubus on. If I knew that was the last time I’d see Joe id have hugged him, told him how much I loved him, how much I looked up to him, how much we all loved him, and I wouldn’t have left that pub. I didn’t know that, so I finished my drink, said happy Christmas and left. Two nights after Christmas I got woken up by a phone call at 3am, it was my friend Ella. She told me Joe was on the Menai Bridge, a large suspension bridge connecting the main land to the isle of Anglesey where we lived. He’d been on the phone to her in tears saying goodbye. He told her to tell everyone he loved them. I pulled on my clothes as fast as I could and started running toward the bridge. It was up a hill. I lived about a ten minute walk away, I could run it in five. As I ran I started dialling then redialing his number. The line was busy, which was a good sign, it meant he was still on the phone to someone. As I got about halfway, the busy tone changed. It told me the line was out of service. I got a sinking feeling and picked up my speed. I arrived to the bridge minutes after I left my house. It was deafeningly quiet. I was the first person to arrive. I got there probably about 2 minutes too late. Joe’s body was never found. Initially we refused to believe he was gone. The coastguard came out that night, with boats, and helicopters. Me and my friends spent the next 10 days putting up missing posters everywhere we could, walking up and down beaches with flashlights, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. When you’re walking up and down a beach with a torch when its dark everything looks like a body. We still haven’t found Joe. As his birthday came around, I wrote a song, freckled angels, a song I dedicated to Joe which I sang in front of his friends and family. A charity football match was put on for him, raising money for the RNLI where I won two bottles of wine in a raffle, I drank them both as quickly as I could, naturally, turned to my friend and probably slurred something along the lines of “This is the last time I ever drink” That was 12 years ago, I haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since. My first ever album I named Freckled Angels in tribute of one of the best people I ever knew. Skip forward some years. I’d been sitting on this song I wrote a few years ago. It always felt a little incomplete. It was going to be my next release, but I was dreading it because of this feeling of incompletion. I decided, very last minute, to do something about it. I sat by my piano, and the rest of the song fell out of me. I hadn’t thought about Joe in a little while, and the song initially wasn’t going to be about him, but the words all fell out of me. I wrote and recorded a whole 2 minutes extra, recording each part as I wrote it. Tears spewing out of my eyes pretty much the whole time, and decided not to do my usual thing of perfecting each line, I just recorded every line as it came. During this campaign I will be raising money for the RNLI, the group of brave men and women who spent hours tirelessly looking for Joe after the night he went missing. I'll also be donating 50% of the profit on all copies of the 'Freckled Angels' album directly to Joes family as a nice surprise gift. I will include links to the RNLI donation page below where 100% of the money will go to support them, I will be travelling to the UK later this month to make a music video, and have carved out a couple of days where I will travel to my home town on the isle of Anglesey to present the royal national lifeboat institution with a cheque of all the money raised. Turn on notifications for the video here: kzread.info/dash/bejne/oGd-sNafmZe8kpM.html Raising money for RNLI : www.justgiving.com/page/ren-gill-1685546882254?Link&/ren-gill-1685546882254& Freckled Angels album: renmakesmerch.com/products/freckled-angels-cd Presave Suic*de: found.ee/ren-suic-de

@derekkraft4658

11 ай бұрын

I already know this is gonna be so great and beautiful.❤️ I'm very sorry for your lost.😕💔

@Jessica-lw2vq

11 ай бұрын

I’m sorry you had to go through this Ren, i cannot even begin to imagine what that pain must feel like, and my heart goes out to anyone who has been through similar situations or if anyone feels like your friend Joe did i hope they get help & know they are loved 😔 sending you big hugs, i just know this song is going to touch so many hearts. We all are with you RIP Joe 🕊️❤️🌹 x

@NinStardust

11 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing your experiences with us Ren. Much love to you 💖 Sorry for your loss. RIP Joe 🕊️

@viantria

11 ай бұрын

it's a very sad and real life story Ren, thank you for being able to open up and transform pain and suffering into beautiful songs that can really support strangers who find them, this is a real gift

@mickjuul1977

11 ай бұрын

❤❤❤❤❤❤

I lost my son to suicide 5 years ago. I have been considering my own for those 5 years due to this and my own battle with chronic pain. I found your music last week, Ren, and it saved me. You saved me. SOMEONE knows how I feel!

@one4theditch38

11 ай бұрын

Please stay with us, you’re loved!

@scoutjack

11 ай бұрын

I hope REN sees this. I’m sure he’d appreciate it. I’ve been there but thanks to whoever I’m still here.

@PShabx2

11 ай бұрын

I’m very sorry you lost your son, it’s tragic, I can’t even imagine! Chronic pain sucks royally, but you stood for the fight, and now here we are knowing you and please know you are loved! We don’t have to know one another, it’s the positive energy that feeds us and we gain the strength to hold on. I lost three cousins to MD, it was insane living knowing when you will die. I miss them often and reminded of the words they left behind. There’s so much I can say and share but all I want you to know is someone out here is going to need you one day and like you found Ren, they will find you and you too would have saved a life. 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽❤️

@utfofuo4468

11 ай бұрын

Hey, im reallly sorry for this situation and hope you can realise that there are lots of people tha feel the same way as you lots of love and hope everyone thats reading this can see some light at the end of the tunnel

@davidlutjen1050

11 ай бұрын

My son took his life and mine has been a walking hell ever since. He was only a child at 16. Many many times I've thought about the only way I could see him again. It's hard in a way that you pray no one else should go through. I'm sorry for your loss.

"It never really felt like the right time." I've never seen a single sentence so perfectly describe suicidal thoughts. Constant, always there, always on your mind, but just... not quite yet. I'm just going to finish this book. I want to know what happens in the next season of that show. I can't leave the house this much of a mess, I'll do a deep clean first. There's always a reason it's not quite the right time yet. Until the moment it is. And when you feel this way, every second of your life is spent finding things that make it not the right time yet. I've never heard anyone make music that understood me like Ren does. I'm mentally ill, severely depressed, and I have an autoimmune disorder. He reaches out to us and says, "You're not alone in this." Some nights moments like that are the only reason it isn't the right time. I hope he knows that. I hope you know, Ren, you're saving lives with your music.

@Vffhndsercchi

2 ай бұрын

He just saved mine. I mean it. He really did. He really did ....

@LKand7

Ай бұрын

I understand exactly what you're saying. Another line that rips at my soul "looking down and seeing tranquility "

@njyates2396

24 күн бұрын

Your comment makes a lot of sense to me. I heard somewhere throughout life, someone say "I'll do it when I finish a bottle of shampoo and conditioner at the same time." It never happens. I hope it never does for the person or wherever I heard it.

@njyates2396

24 күн бұрын

Thank you for staying. I know I'm four months past when you posted but I really hope you are still here.

@SableCatDog

24 күн бұрын

@@njyates2396 I am! I'm watching an episode of Star Trek Next Gen with my friend every day. Keeping me here for now ❤️

As a nurse i know people want to say dont talk about this but its a good sign when someone opens up about their thoughts about this. Ren thank you for this video and song. There's nothing wrong with feeling and opening up to let others know they can talk. I want them to talk before its too late. Thank you Ren

@nocturnalsurf7021

8 ай бұрын

You're amazing, thank you!

@THEINDIFFERENTMILLIPEDE

7 ай бұрын

Reach out your hand until they take it. You are amazing.

@treebles

6 ай бұрын

from one nurse to another, thank you for all you do! spending your life in the service of others is the most rewarding feeling, but it is also very difficult~ difficult physically, difficult emotionally, difficult mentally, etc… much love to all the nurse out there!

Tomorrow is the six year anniversary of losing my 20 year old child in similar circumstances. Time does not heal, it accommodates. Beautiful song Ren. Thank you.

@CALLYPSO16

11 ай бұрын

❤

@sorryformyenglish2778

11 ай бұрын

So sorry for your loss ❤❤ Big hug to confort you from a human to another

@margaretc5679

11 ай бұрын

❤

@vivienneclarke2421

11 ай бұрын

My 13 year old son died 12 years ago,of natural causes. And yes,you are so right.....Some things time does NOT heal. Losing a child is one of those things. I'm so sorry for your loss,and I hope that you've found a way to live with the grief and still find happiness.......❤

@michalvictoria8846

11 ай бұрын

“Time does not heal, it accommodates”-beautifully said.

This is not a career, not a march to fame, this is a man's artist journey we get to follow 🙏❤️

@evechoseknowledge1604

11 ай бұрын

Beautifully said. ✨🙏🏼✨ What a privilege to see his truth as an artist, and more importantly an amazing soul.

@ryanhenro7649

11 ай бұрын

❤

@bobbywalker6307

11 ай бұрын

So true, Ren will be recognised for his greatness nothing else

@nicoleschickova8674

11 ай бұрын

❤

Englsih is not my native language so i'll do my best. Thanks man, I've been in a depression for about 12 years, I fought as hard as I could but I've started considering suicide 6 month ago. With my last piece of life I asked for help but no one answered to my call. But i heard your song and it gave me enough energy to fight one last time and find the right people to help me and it worked. Now I have pills but not forever and i can live a new life. I know I own it to myself but you helped me so much. So thank you with all my still beating heart.

@sylviayoung1901

2 ай бұрын

Not sure where you are but I know Kokopelli. Are you Dine'? Do you live near Farmington? Would love to meet you so we could be 2 humans', talking, face to face. I know a thing or gazillion about pain. I will listen.

@tamsin1969

Ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing hun. I've made a number of attempts over the years, but now at 54 I thank the God's I survived. All we have is each and every minute, right here and now, to make the decision we're going to choose happiness and gratitude. Despite the past, despite what's happening in our lives, we have to choose to have faith and trust the process. You are here for a reason. All the absolute best mate. (Have you read "Desiderata")?

@skylxr_staryt

Ай бұрын

not sure how and where you are now but i hope you're doing alright

@bridspear7428

Ай бұрын

I don’t know you, but I am here for you. There is so much love in the world and so much love here for you

I'm a survivor of an attempt and I have to say that your music resonates with me. It's such a lonely, pain filled place to be, thinking about suicide, making the plan to end things. If someone had showed me your music back then I wouldnt have felt so alone. I doubt I would have followed through if id had even a bit of hope that things could be better. Im grateful to still be here and to have had the chance to do so much more with my life. PLEASE, never stop believing in yourself! You are reaching so many people with what you have created.

@sprucemaroose

8 ай бұрын

The wold is glad that you are here, keep bringing your light to it. This music brings us who feel like a speck of sand on a sandless beach, together and know that there are others that understand

@drisk7691

7 ай бұрын

I'm glad you decided to stick around. We need people to like you to share your light. God bless.

@SweetBabyJesusOnTheCross

Ай бұрын

It's good to hear you realise now that you would have been making a mistake had your first attempt succeeded. Too many never have the opportunity for hindsight. But it's not really so much "surviving an attempt" as much as it is failing one, is it? Calling oneself a "Survivor" in this situation only really serves as an attempt to minimise the level of responsibility one believes they have for their own actions and makes attempts to find the root cause(s) that looked them to attempt suicide, less likely.

You’re a beautiful soul Ren. Thank you for everything you do.

@jakobkellner2781

11 ай бұрын

Yes, a beatiful soul, you hit it ! I am gonna travel to England because of him to See him live❤

@davethorntonphotography3342

11 ай бұрын

exactly my sentiment, what a truly unique & special soul, the world needs this right now with all the BS we're being told to comply with

@daniellaelainekilcline6452

11 ай бұрын

Already had it on repeat

@EthaMusic

11 ай бұрын

Second this

@krismcgowan1299

11 ай бұрын

My exact thoughts! Not interested in these type songs but his way with words are masterfull ,world & life topics could only come from someone goin through or been through it makes me want to & not live his life which is a weird juxtaposition as normal subcontious would have stans wanting 110% to be in their "idols " place, for an artist so young he's found a look on the world I've not long embraced at 40 & fk me I've lived a few lives 😂, mad respect!!

45 years ago I drove my car off a bridge. Last week I contemplated an overdose the difference between now and then; I know the feeling will pass. Keep writing Ren, it's needed.

@pauli_marie7644

11 ай бұрын

I am glad that you're still here. I hope you'll feel better soon. I hope you know how strong you are and how much the world is better off with you in it.

@roberthighsmith26

11 ай бұрын

You're loved. I love you, friend. Reach out if you ever want to talk. You're not alone

@hyza

11 ай бұрын

stay strong friend 🤍 proud of you for surviving

@MsRedbelly

11 ай бұрын

Much love & strength to you. I hope you find joy & adventures in the future that make your life richer. I’ve recently grappled with wanting to give up since my partner drowned in late January. He too battled suicidal ideation & depression for many years. It seems he drowned accidentally but we’ll never really know. He had said to me before he wanted the sea to take him away.

@Astrocat393

11 ай бұрын

Same, I used to attempt it so often but not now, I know things get better plus I don't want to miss what Ren is gonna do next! Lol

Loneliness and self critism are my companions throughout my journey of whatever this life is. Suicidal thoughts give me company often i try to drown them out but i am so depressed its almost deafining

@lbopp8661

11 күн бұрын

😢❤🙏

Rest in peace, Lunney. Will always appreciate your friendship through school.

It feels like a privilege to be allowed so far into your heart Ren. I'm sorry for the pain you feel.

@nitwitter

11 ай бұрын

sometimes it’s too much to keep it in and with that, he will continue to help those that are afraid to reach out. we are witnessing a big push in the movement that’s long overdue. 🫶 Thanks Ren, your vulnerability is inspiring further than you know. You understand marketing and how to get into peoples souls of all ages, job well done and you deserve to find your own inner happiness.

@Valineris_The_Phoenix

11 ай бұрын

Beautifuly put!

@namoric

11 ай бұрын

That's it. those are the words I was looking for. Well said.

@rockinrobbie1985

11 ай бұрын

He's not alone. A lot of us feel this way 😞😢

@laurafromliverpool

11 ай бұрын

@@rockinrobbie1985 I'm sorry for yours too. ❤

I am a 75 year old woman, and this got my first KZread comment ever. Thank you, beautiful boy.

@alexlowe8829

11 ай бұрын

Congrats. All the best

@stammers4208

10 ай бұрын

Deserve a nice comment

@ShairNisar

3 ай бұрын

This cheered me up so much after bawling my eyes out thank you for your comment ❤

@mickram23

Ай бұрын

Here's hoping you continue to explore more on KZread. I'm not far behind you in age and was convinced that modern music was generic and stale. Artists like Ren prove me wrong. But what's also obvious with him is that he has a deep respect for music from the past. I take it you can't possible have missed seeing Chinchilla?

@obscurevisions91

Ай бұрын

This is my favorite interaction on all of the internet.

Please never silence your voice nor your light, Ren. You are a beacon.

You saved a lot people w that song man... Hope you know... We all thank you...

@YunsDolls

20 күн бұрын

I believe he did and does. I wish I could have listened to this song with my son. I found this song today. It hit me so hard. My son was gone eight years ago. I don't know about your situation, but I hope you enjoy every moment of your life with your loved ones.

Hi Ren. I’m a 55yo Veteran who suffers from PTSD,Major chronic depression,Bipolar disorder plus many physical issues. I cannot explain how much your music resonates in me. THANK YOU. Never give up your truth,you are helping people in ways that you and I cannot imagine . I pray for your strength to carry on in this disjointed world and for your happiness and success. Again THANK YOU. I lost 7 brothers in a single year from 4 different wars a while back I wish they had had the opportunity to hear this,maybe some of them would still be around. To all my veteran brothers and sisters out there never,give up I can tell you from my own personal struggles and attempts that there is hope and light on the other side I’ve seen and lived it. I love and pray for you all no matter where you served or who with . One foot in front of the other and NEVER give up,it’s what we do.

@Trent_Walter

11 ай бұрын

Thank you for your service, I wish u all the best.

@docmarbles4369

11 ай бұрын

Whole heartedly agree!

@Diamonddog59

11 ай бұрын

Be well x

@damagecase13

11 ай бұрын

You are not alone friend.

@mikemclean8211

11 ай бұрын

Kind words from someone who is experiencing what you have gone through, 1st thank you for your service, 2nd keeping an open mind look into micro-dosing magic mushrooms, there seems to be a lot of great potential in helping with depression. Lots of info on you tube, try to find one you trust

I have been struggling with dark thoughts for a long time and last night I found myself scared, alone in the woods, it has never got this bad before. In the UK, the video has a link to “the Samaritans”, a charity there for those who need some emotional support. I clicked the link and spoke to a lovely lady for half an hour. Then the police came and helped direct me to more support and crisis centre. Last night. This song saved my life. Thank you Ren. Thank you so much.xx

@janetparsons4088

11 ай бұрын

I hope you heal Liam.

@neenerss

11 ай бұрын

Glad you are still here ♥️

@annaanon8419

11 ай бұрын

From the daughter of a victim of mental illness, I promise that the ppl you think won't miss you, will. I promise their hurt will never heal. And I promise they're glad- and I'm glad you're still here.

@laughteraddict1003

11 ай бұрын

Hang in there brother !

@heyarrhh

11 ай бұрын

🫂

I'm currently in a detox unit recovering from a heroin addiction I don't think I can do this and I don't Wana be here anymore I hate feeling this way ren Ur music helps me so much more than you know thankyou

@sabrinaskovholt7427

4 ай бұрын

Praying for you Tommy ❤

During a month-long camping trip in the summer of ‘97 I found my friend hanging in a tree when I woke up one morning. To this day I have never shared my thoughts or feelings of that morning with anyone. I’ve carried this baggage for decades, not knowing what to do with it. I appreciate you, Ren. You are able to express feelings that I haven’t been able to articulate all these years. Cathartic. Thanku. ❤️‍🩹🫶🏼

@christelsegbars1630

11 ай бұрын

Oh this reaction is heartfeld and so hitting home..warm hug for you.❤

@jodi.lynn.

11 ай бұрын

@@christelsegbars1630 ♥️

@succatash

11 ай бұрын

What are your thoughts and feelings?

@elliec7677

11 ай бұрын

Gosh I cannot even imagine having to go through something like that. I’m so sorry you’ve carried that pain with you for so long. I hope that you can work through that trauma and see the good memories you had with your friend before that day 💓

@roghoffa5390

11 ай бұрын

❤️

Hi Ren…I’m sorry you lost your friend. I lost my son. He would’ve loved your music! Thank you for writing such a beautiful song. You will save lives with your art ❤

@staceycline4261

11 ай бұрын

Beautiful

@alysmarcus7747

11 ай бұрын

already has

@kevinwilson455

11 ай бұрын

Oh, wow... your comment hit me there just as the song was starting. Sorry about your son, Amanda x

@koenraadkoerts9229

11 ай бұрын

Sterke en veel wijsheid .

@Oggham

11 ай бұрын

❤x

This video smashes EVERY commercially made music video, that's EVER been made. Within 2 minutes of watching my first Ren video, "Hi Ren", my instincts were SCREAMING super nova. Dude is miles above super star potential. Maybe the most versatile and influential musicians to ever exist. I'm 50, I've heard it ALL and never heard anything like this kid. I told my wife he was different, after hearing 1 song and then I dove down the rabbit hole and realized just how different, versatile and intelligent Ren is. Genius recognizes genius and this kid is HIGH level genius, PERIOD, not just verbally. EVERYTHING he does SCREAMS genius. Kid is the Saitama of the music world. Killing everything with a single punch. Stay freelance bro, never go industry. You don't need those rats. Your star is rising, regardless. You ARE a force of nature, no doubt.

@njyates2396

24 күн бұрын

This comment wins the internet in my opinion nad I just found Ren about 6 hours ago and am so shocked I did not know about him before now.

Man this really does hit different to most modern music. The emotion being expressed is on a whole other level. it’s more than just music.

@eva-ov8sp

10 ай бұрын

How are you feeling?

@danieldinsdale3248

10 ай бұрын

@@eva-ov8sp that’s a hard question to answer my friend, but I do know that it is always warming when a stranger asks. I hope you live long and find peace x

@eva-ov8sp

10 ай бұрын

@@danieldinsdale3248 thanks but...if you're not ok we can talk about it

@danieldinsdale3248

10 ай бұрын

@@eva-ov8sp I admire your persistence friend but honestly I’m feel better. How’s life on your end?

@eva-ov8sp

10 ай бұрын

@@danieldinsdale3248 i'm better too but please don't give up ok?

This song was released on what would've been my son Elijah's 24th birthday. He took his own life on September 24, 2021. Ren your music touches me, moves me. Your honesty helps me heal. So thankful that you exist.....

@bearbait7405

11 ай бұрын

Prayers lifted for the repose of your son, Elijah’s soul and for your peace.

@Keriousity

11 ай бұрын

much love big hugs & lots of compassion. my heart is aching for you.

@deborahcarson8310

11 ай бұрын

❤

@kimanddanahaagenson5595

11 ай бұрын

SO sorry for your loss.

@misterdutchification

11 ай бұрын

That is very sad to hear. I wish you all the best! ❤️

Brother…I haven’t cried since late 2006, after I hit my last roadside bomb in Iraq, and was flown to Washington DC, for a year of ineffective mental treatment. I haven’t cried in 16 years…unable, or unwilling. I listen to your music constantly while I’m out drinking, after once being 20 months sober. As a writer myself, every time I hear one of your songs, I understand them a little bit more… A couple weeks ago when I stopped a medication, my emotions came back…now…I can’t listen to you without crying. I want you to know, you give people like myself permission to feel, to be pissed off, and accept whom we are. As human beings, or artists, and students of navigating our own minds. You are truly loved and appreciated, brother…empathy doesn’t make us weak…it reminds us that what we do for ourselves, we do for others. 🤙🏻

@ellisbell614

11 ай бұрын

Joshua, you've probably heard "thank you for your service" many times. Reading your comment, words fall short. All I can say from one woman to one man that gave up so much for so many is that I love you. Simply put. I love you. I thank you. I keep my promises and I promise I will always keep you in my thoughts and prayers everyday. If their is anything I can do.. I'm a drummer. I know that music is excellent therapy. I'm glad you have that and Ren to help. 🙏❤️🕊️🇺🇸

@hells_kells

11 ай бұрын

This was so beautiful to read. I feel like Ren was put on this earth to share his pain in order to help heal people. I'm so sorry to hear what you've gone through, but I'm glad that coming of the meds and connecting with your higher self is finally helping. Know that you are loved and supported, and by sharing your story, you too are helping others. It's always ok to be vulnerable. Take good care of you ❤

@bearbait7405

11 ай бұрын

Joshua, I served on Walter Reed’s Ward 57 in 2006. I was a tall blond in a white consult jacket. Perhaps we met. You are my brother and I pray for each of us. Years later I suffered a multi-trauma and I walk the walk. My mottos changed from, “One can do more…” to “Courageous suffering begets fierce joy.” You and I are loved and admired more than we can ever know. I pray for your peace, and that joy.

@TristramSavage

11 ай бұрын

Fuck all, thank you for your service.

@SuzanneO707

11 ай бұрын

@@bearbait7405 Wow, fierce joy. Thats me all over.

7-22-23 it’s been the roughest few days since my brother took his own life. I’m lost. I’m broken. This song is hitting me beyond words. Hold your loved ones close. Rest in peace Chris. I miss you absurd.

@Maggie_n_Mitch23

10 ай бұрын

I can hear your tears , , I'm so sorry for your loss 😥

@slotmetal1334

10 ай бұрын

That means a lot. Thank you.

@jacobperez391

8 ай бұрын

My heart breaks for you and yours: "come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Hold fast to the word of life. I hope you find truth peace and love.

I remember discovering you in a busking video a few years ago. Seeing how far you've come, and everything you've gone through on the way. The world is gonna know you. Make the ground shake, Ren!

My 16 yr daughter has been suicidal for past 4 years. I haven't been able to really reach her , I've used anger, talking, coaching, and begging. I showed her this today we cried. This showed her there's 2 sides to suicide the person we loose & the person they loved in us that would go with them. Thank you Ren for being so vulnerable & valuable at the same time.

@erikpalumbo2400

11 ай бұрын

I hope she turns the corner.

@torlcean

11 ай бұрын

Hope she gets through the troubling times she's having. Much love from the UK!

@michaelmccormack5325

11 ай бұрын

So happy to hear about the experience you shared with her today. Wishing you two nothing but the best for the future. :)

@EricRozell-rf6oi

11 ай бұрын

Music is beautiful

@Oceanno69

11 ай бұрын

Hold her tight, we lost our daughter 9 years ago to suicide. My heart will always be broken.

One of the more enjoyable tangential effects of Ren Fandom is that, if you accidentally get really obsessive, you get to know Joe a little bit along the way. Thanks, ren.

Ren's music cuts so deep, yet heals at the same time. Thank you, Ren. For all that you are, for all that you do. ❤

This young man who talks like he's old. He talks like he's been through it, he talks like he's cold. Talks like he's been around, talks like he's up and down, talks like he's deep down in it. This guy is brilliant.

Your an absolute legend my brother. Because of you, now we all know Joe, and his memory will forever live on. I’m certain he would be so proud of you

Oh Ren, as someone who considered taking the decision to ‘stop’ and who is now working as a mental health nurse, your ability to articulate the pain and emotion of depression and su!c!de just blows me away, every single time. What a beautifully artistic soul you have. That was absolutely breathtaking 💔

As a nurse, CPP, DID, and AuDHD…this song hits and hurts. I am glad to say attempting was more of a struggle than talking about myself and how I’m feeling. Thank you REN!

I lost my son to suicide 7 months ago and grieving has been life changing .Thank you for this song as my son suffered from mental illness and this song is a tiny glimpse into the torture he endured. I only wish he had heard your music before he ended his life .

@gemmamcgregor4096

23 күн бұрын

🖤

I don’t often comment but wanted to say thank you for helping my husband finally release the pain of losing his friend of 50+ years the same way and realising he is not alone in the way he feels. You have a very unique talent.

2:26 when it drops here, the breathing and the piano weeping,, sounding so very alone in the world, detached from everything and everyone. This is an incredible piece of art Ren. Here’s to Joe, your wonderful best friend. 💜💜💜E|3 💜💜💜

@juliebarrow5743

11 ай бұрын

en pointe Yarnhacker

@miisvegas

11 ай бұрын

Ren’s “music” is unlike anything done previously. When introducing his songs (more so “works,” or masterpieces) to anyone unfamiliar w/his talent, I explain it as beyond “music,” rather it’s lyrical art … poetic storytelling to a beat. And here we all are again experiencing, feeling, getting caught up in this magnificence. The subject matter is tough, emotional, but again poetic. I want to tap my feet, bob my head, and sing along, yet I’m crying my eyes out. This juxtaposition, a polarity, is what makes this fascinating. An emotional outlet for a man continuously grieving and wondering “what-if,” but also a tribute to a best friend dearly missed and yet so deeply present. Without a doubt this is ART!!! And to repeat Yarnhacker … “To Joe.” 💔

Man you know how to crumble me and doubtlessly many others. So fucking heart wrenching. The world needs your music and your fragility.

such a powerful song.. as someone who has attempted suicide a few times, and struggles with Complex PTSD, and also as someone who lost a close friend to suicide, this song is so relevant to me.

This is my first time listening to Ren and the end absolutely broke me. This line "but I still can't find the anger all I find is missing you" made me sob. Never before I've heard someone putting into words that feeling

I lost my girlfriend to suicide 4yrs ago, completely fucked up my life. Brought me to suicide, brought me to addictions to numb the emptiness. I pray those who are experiencing the same thing, same thoughts, same feelings, reach out. I love you, we can get through this ❤️

@emilgrinderslev1654

11 ай бұрын

Thanks man. I needed that. Drunk while I read this but made me go to fucking bed...

@GrowthAddiction

11 ай бұрын

@@emilgrinderslev1654 🙏🏻

@roberthighsmith26

11 ай бұрын

Hey bro. Lost my wife 2 and a half years ago. In the thick of it still it feels. You ever want anyone to talk to, save my info. What happened happened, but we're still here and I love you man

@eminencerecords6049

11 ай бұрын

@@roberthighsmith26 ❤

When I was 18, I lost my 16yo sister to suicide. It's been almost 9 years and it still hurts. She was my best friend and I miss her every day and want her by my side. What a strong song this is, Ren. Thank you for such beautiful, relatable words. My sincere condolences.

@kimanddanahaagenson5595

11 ай бұрын

I am SO sorry for your loss.

Hi Ren. i'm 51 years old, diagnosed with Parkinsons at 39. I went from young to an old man so quickly, it would make your head spin. today is better then tomorrow but worse then yesterday. I'm so so sorry for the pain you've experienced in your life, but i thank you for sharing

Fell down a ren rabbit hole tonight. 1 hour in and sleeps been calling🥲

The honesty in your emotion is utterly vital. You’re doing something hugely important, Ren.

Anyone listening to this, just know no matter what anyone says, there is only one you in this world, you couldn't be more unique and more special! One of a kind! ❤

@juliebarrow5743

11 ай бұрын

True

@ellisbell614

11 ай бұрын

Yes!❤️

@davo_t

11 ай бұрын

Yep, unique. Just like everybody else.

@allybandy3047

11 ай бұрын

Even more than that, in the entire existence of the universe, there is only one you.

@Musiklife.9049

11 ай бұрын

Yes, indeed and for everyone, so special, 1 of 7.8 billion!

Been just over a year since my best friend committed. I still think about it everyday that I’m lucid. This song makes me cry a bit every time I listen to the lyrics. First time I heard it I had to replay it a few times. Finally decided to come watch the video too. It’s uncanny how much I relate to every lyric in this song. I hope Ren knows just how much this song means to so many people. It’s incredible. It’s f-king incredible.

@arete7884

3 ай бұрын

How was your friend before he did it, did he reach out?

@Mr.BusinessGhost

3 ай бұрын

@@arete7884 he had relayed that he was depressed, but not explicitly. He never said anything about dying. I thought he was doing the same as I was, which was pretty bad but still with hope, and he made plans for Christmas with me. So I left for a while, and just before I got back, I got the call. He was already dead. He never said anything to me. He didn’t say anything to anybody at all. I feel like I didn’t get there in time. In his note, he said that nobody could have changed his mind no matter what, so he didn’t say anything. It really felt like he was taunting me, doing it just before I was on my way to see him.

@arete7884

3 ай бұрын

@@Mr.BusinessGhost whats sad is that this low vibrational depression suicidal state is like an illusiory prison that seems so real and permaneng but once you get out of the storm and see the black clouds from a different perspective you realize it was all illusionary bs trap of mind, emotion and spirit

@Kaelyynaful

Ай бұрын

​@@Mr.BusinessGhostHugs and shared tears. I'm so sorry that you lost your friend. You did nothing wrong. It sounds like they were just done. Sometimes pain is so overwhelming that you can't see a way out or past it. I've felt that way, but I'm still here. You are too. Let go. Your love for your friend still exists and that's beautiful.

@Mr.BusinessGhost

Ай бұрын

@@Kaelyynaful thank you :] I know. It’s hard to stay mad about it for more than a minute when I know exactly what it’s like to feel and do what he did. But you’re right. I’m still here. I still love him. I’m holding on and trying to live because he couldn’t and didn’t get to.

This really hit me, especially during the last part when Ren put his entire heart and soul into how he felt. An amazing song that has and will touch people like me.

My sons first experience of suicide was when their 16 year old cousin took his own life. In a 2 year period we were connected to 6 other men who also chose that path; my eldest son's best mate, at 23, an uncle... the list goes on... thank you for talking about it and I look forward to hearing your words in this song. Words are so important. Stay strong.

@aestill7252

11 ай бұрын

Oh and... One of my all time favourite songs has the same title: kzread.info/dash/bejne/anuDvLlwmdrNnqg.html

@mistydouglas2874

11 ай бұрын

Thankyou for sharing..bless you 🙏

@aletheaestill923

11 ай бұрын

Thank you - I helped open a boxing club and we lost 2 young lads there during Covid and a female friend during that time too. The threat of suicide is real - We have become almost desensitised to it now, which is really sad.

@dustyntonks7388

11 ай бұрын

😢 I Lost 6 friends just in motorcycles and I don't count the ones freefalling on the whites

@primitivedogs4638

11 ай бұрын

I used to listen to Shinedown Daylight. Brent Smiths voice gives strength.

Simply outstanding (again!). I'm 69 years old and I've never seen or heard anyone as authentic as Ren. We are witnessing the emergence of a very special talent 👏👏👏

This one just hits different. No words man, Just wow...

I’ve been abandoned by my parents and anyone I’ve been close to. I wish someone would hug me and tell me I’m not alone. Listening to music is the only thing that helps even though it doesn’t

@andoxviii

2 ай бұрын

You're not alone...just know that.

@Kaelyynaful

Ай бұрын

You're not alone. I see you.

Well, I'm fucking wrecked. The emotion you poured into this is beautiful. I hope making it helped you heal just a little more. You've got an army behind you now and we appreciate you more than you will ever know. 🖤🖤

It's not just that this song is beautiful and shattering in its own right, but we all actually love Ren. Not like, "Oh, I love that band," We Love Ren like family or a long time friend. The song touches us even more because we care so much about the person singing it.

@michellereed2070

11 ай бұрын

Thank you for stating this truth perfectly!! 😍 I completely agree with what you said! Both my Hubby and myself care deeply about Ren the human being & want so damn much for Ren to experience the long, healthy, happy & fulfilled future he's been dreaming of & fighting so very hard to achieve one day! My Soulmate & I are both RENegades for life!! 💙🙃 Have an awesome weekend, sweetie!

@JustJoJoon

11 ай бұрын

Wholeheartedly agree. It's unexplainable .. just love

@faith.s_mom

11 ай бұрын

Well said💯

@bonbon51141

11 ай бұрын

Ren IS love ❤️

@davidkowalski7742

11 ай бұрын

Watching Ren on his Twitch is amazing, as he is able to make it feel like we are all there hanging out chattin' with him! I don't know how he does it, but it's top notch! 👏

I've listened to this 10+ times today, grieving the loss of three loved ones in just the last few months, this has really let me just sit and feel everything today. Sometimes it's just hard to let yourself feel, but listening to this opened the emotional floodgates. Thank you for that.

My nephew died of suicide about one week after I last got close to it. I got help. He didn't let anyone know. This was a few weeks ago. This is the only time I will mention it. The family keeps silent. Self destruction runs in our family. I learned how to transform suicidal feelings by letting go of things instead of myself. I am still letting go, to make sure the urge does not come back during this very dark time. I keep finding purpose in my life to keep from doing this thing to myself. You help me so much with this task. When I heard a few days ago that you were planning to release this song I was relieved. We are the kind who walk through the fire and out the other side. We talk about it. My nephew couldn't do that. Let's keep talking. It helps.

@ILTOMBA

11 ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing

@bearbait7405

11 ай бұрын

Prayers lifted for the repose of his soul and for the family’s and friends’ peace.

@sandralynnsparks3468

9 ай бұрын

@@ILTOMBA Thank you.

@sandralynnsparks3468

9 ай бұрын

@@bearbait7405 Thank you.

I'm a 46 year old male and this is the first song that's made me cry that isn't directly associated with a moment in my own life. Between 'Hi Ren" and this I've never encountered an artist that hits me in the soul so hard.

@joemcallister128

11 ай бұрын

I'm 52 and I'm right there with you brother. Thought I was too old and too hardened for any "new" music to get to me. Then I heard "Hi Ren".

@gavin4805

10 ай бұрын

Yep 46 too. And this guy is next level. Never been so excited to watch an artist grow, he is groundbreaking & his music will be talked about in generations to come.

@truthpanda1966

10 ай бұрын

i'm way older than all of you . i'm 81. you are all punks

@aerobill8554

9 ай бұрын

54 in a week and same here. Ren has lived a lifetime already it send and somehow has the gift and talent and puts in the hard work to translate his thoughts and emotions into relatable music. What a guy. Greetings from the Netherlands.

@paulgrillo

9 ай бұрын

Exactly the same - I love 90s grunge, 70s disco, 00 nu-metal , and more , but Ren's art/music/story telling resonates at such base a level. What an incredible talent , first artist in probably 30 years , actually maybe all my years, that has made me stop , think , listen and just be awe struck.

I felt every word of that lyrical bomb, bro! Good job getting that out of your head!

Your songs bring out every single emotion in me.thank you for sharing your pain and frustration.i cried so hard for you

I have been completely depleted since hurricane Ian, I Lost almost everything and now separated after 20 years of marriage, don’t get to see my children every day anymore which crushes my soul. Ren you have helped give me faith when I thought it was no longer possible. Keep fighting the good fight please,it helps so many, thank you.

@user-jr1op3yk6k

11 ай бұрын

Stay strong mate

@bearbait7405

11 ай бұрын

Courageous suffering begets fierce joy. Prayers lifted for your suffering and courage and May you find His peace. KkXpax

@rbbea

11 ай бұрын

Stay strong mate…you never know what tomorrow will bring…

@mdanam

11 ай бұрын

Wow, brother you are my soulmate. I lost everything in Hurricane Sandy, lost the relationship with my wife of 30 years, and haven't been able to speak to either of my daughters in over 5 years. Hang in there brother it does get easier. What doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

@stephaniemichelle2771

Ай бұрын

I went through Ian too. I lost everything after Hurricane Michael. Keep on pushing! You’re not alone.

This was the hardest one yet. I lost my mom, then my little brother and sister to suicide in the years following. It’s been hard to be the only one left, but people like you really give us all hope and support with your words. Thank you, Ren.

@lebluedragon9320

11 ай бұрын

You are so awesome ❤ You've got this, just keep pushing through :)

@leighhartsoeify

11 ай бұрын

I can't imagine having to deal with such a disaster as that but hold tight ]God has something amazing for you I pray you will seek him much love and respect to you for holding on and not giving up friend! Please read this verse in the bible Jeremiah 29:11-14

@dos_mas_805

11 ай бұрын

Sending you massive and eternal love. I've lost one family member to suicide and can, but at the same time can't begin to fathom the depths of your loss or the grief you must overcome daily. Love you

@sski3665

11 ай бұрын

Your words tore through my heart. I will pray for your mind to be at peace tonight.

@carlahelin5203

11 ай бұрын

(((Hugs)))

This song is incredible. Thank you for writing it.

12 years and it’s every day that I miss my brother. Thank you for releasing your art. It helps and it heals. ❤❤❤❤❤

Wow, "It's hard to take off from the ground when your wings are cut".... That is deep... my son died by suicide in 2014, Ren, Thank You for voicing the pain that occurs after having someone die by suicide. I am constantly awaiting your new songs to be posted!! Love your work!! Thank You!!

@craigevans8912

11 ай бұрын

❤

@whitecloud3731

11 ай бұрын

❤

@nocigar8867

11 ай бұрын

❤

@unikstar

11 ай бұрын

@SamRansome

11 ай бұрын

❤

As someone who lost a dear friend to suicide, this hits hard. My deepest condolences on your loss Ren.

@bearbait7405

11 ай бұрын

Prayers lifted for the repose of your friend’s soul and for your peace.

This was beyond amazing. Words fail. Thank you

There's not many songs in my 50+ years revolving around the sun that have left me in tears... And here we are, writing this comment moist eyed and emotional. So sad for your loss Ren, but thank you for opening your heart to the world.

Came down from apartment to donate to a busker today, as I heard her performing ‘How to be me’ we both evangelised to a passer by about REN’s awesomeness! So I bought her a pint as well. 😂

Lost my son to suicide 7 years ago - when I first heard Hi Ren it resonated on so many levels for male mental health. Thank you for your courage in bringing this crisis to the front of our minds and confronting the epidemic that is so taboo in our society. ❤ love and strength to you Ren! You are a legend!

@CALLYPSO16

11 ай бұрын

❤

@sofly75

11 ай бұрын

❤

@lindseybriggs2771

11 ай бұрын

❤

@sorryformyenglish2778

11 ай бұрын

So sorry for your loss. Big love to you my felllow human ❤

@bearbait7405

11 ай бұрын

Prayers lifted for the repose of your son’s soul and your peace.

On my birthday almost 5 years ago..the love of my life lost his battle with addiction and depression. He ended his life on my birthday of all days. March 4th. Some days I miss him so badly that I can’t breathe. Then hyperventilate myself into a panic attack. It never goes away. He never goes away. But the truth is, he lives through me now. Same as your friend who lost their battle. Sometimes some of us don’t survive the darkness. You can though. Choose to stay and create more of your artistry. It flows so easily through your veins. You have otherworldly type talent Ren. It’s truly magnificent to hear.

@elevenpsy

Ай бұрын

I'm so sorry you had to experience someone so close to you making that decision. I hope all is well

Sorry only just found you and your music a short while ago, 'Hi Ren' my first experience and that blew me away, now going through your other stuff and found this. Literally stopped me in my tracks, again powerful, poignant, heartbreaking and visceral. The video also brings the whole experience to a moment.. I can't only explain. I hope someone listening who is fighting their own battle, finds solace that others feel the same, being alone, hurt and confused. And that people do care about them, love them, even though they can't see it, and know that they do make a difference in someone else life. When I was a lot younger, I went through my battle, thankfully someone reached out to me, and now, no matter all the despair, loneliness, and unhappy moments. I am so glad I got to experience everything else. Sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing and fighting on.

This is the authenticity in music that the world needs. Please don't ever stop doing this.

@theprinceofcrows8691

11 ай бұрын

YES... You nailed it. 🤙

@julesbc9031

11 ай бұрын

Absolutely ❤

@JG-jc8dm

11 ай бұрын

If i could hit the thumbs up 1000 times I would.

Young artist, I am a middle-aged woman from Canada. I have lost so many friends to drugs and suicide. My days are ghosts. This captured it perfectly. Thank you.

@misterdutchification

11 ай бұрын

I hope you’ll find the light 🙏🏻

@roo5384

11 ай бұрын

@@misterdutchification I have through Stoic practice, kindness, and community service.

Ren just found your music...Wow it really is deep and amazing... lots of love and prayers from Guyana 🇬🇾

God bless you Ren! I love you and the incredible work you do. Keep it up. The world needs you and the messages you send. I hope to see you in Kansas City.

To anybody thinking about ending it, listen to the last verse and remember that your pain doesn't end after you jump. It just gets transferred to all the people who care for you. And there are people who care for you, even if you can't see that right now.

@olgagladilnikova7723

11 ай бұрын

that's the worst part of it

@bearbait7405

11 ай бұрын

Let us forgive.

To say I think you are one of the realist and most interesting artists I've listened to in an age is a massive understatement. In a world of filters, egos, PR agents and bullshit, you are truly a breath of fresh air, Ren. 🥰

Too many tears fall this way. Beautiful Ren. RIP Nick and Sis

This is the rawest,most honest song I have ever heard. Thank you, Ren. Your honesty honors us.

I'm 50 and been on antidepressants for 25 years. I still think about suicide every day. I've done therapy. Multiple prescriptions. All the shit they recommend. Nothing helps. I keep living for the people that depend on me. I'm glad you're giving a platform for the young generation so they have someplace to go with their feelings. ❤ PS you're awesome.

@DarlaAnne

11 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry. I hope you stay and find peace.

@contrafax

11 ай бұрын

I get it, I am almost 58 probably been depressed since I was 10, definitely suicidal since I was 15. I feel you. Hang in their, don't let the bastard win.

@usjosharmy

11 ай бұрын

@@contrafaxeven if that bastard is you!

@riteasrain

11 ай бұрын

There's no chance, so often, of changing how we feel. I try and try and try. Try everything. It's so part of us.

@hondaman6918

11 ай бұрын

You should try magic mushrooms. The research on it and reports by people using this natural remedy is amazing, please read up on it and god bless.

I’m still in recovery from a su!ic!de attempt in February. I was sectioned and am now in a much better place. Things really can get better but i didn’t believe it when I was in that headspace. It’s truly a disease. I’ve struggled with thoughts like that since I was 17. I’m 25 now. Thank you for this song Ren. If I hadn’t lived I wouldn’t have gotten to hear it ❤️ I try to look for the little things like that now. There’s so much to experience and learn and see. Thank you for making all of us feel less alone and seen. Thank you for sharing your art with the world. It’s a much better place with you in it. Condolences for your friend. I hope he found peace. 😓

@ILTOMBA

11 ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing these hopeful words

@christelsegbars1630

11 ай бұрын

Dear Jiji, you are worth hapiness, you are loved by all the strangers from all over the world who react to your honoust reaction..... please accept my warm hug for you❤❤❤

@dred8616

11 ай бұрын

How did you come to suffer so much at such a young age?

@gloomcircus

11 ай бұрын

@@ILTOMBA thank you for reading ❤️ there is always some hope, no matter how small

@gloomcircus

11 ай бұрын

@@christelsegbars1630 thank you so much for your lovely words. I am accepting your hug to give you one in return. 🫂❤️

Music was the one thing that kept me from ending it.

He went there to get help but they wouldn’t take him in. I know what it’s like to be in his shoes but I could’ve never imagined what it would be like for everyone else around. Thank you for shedding a light on a very severe topic, for you very close to home but so well spoken of in this song. Rip Joe & Callum, your boy Ren is making wonders down here ❤ thank you Ren 🎉

You done Joe proud with this one my friend. 😢By being this vulnerable you’ve give a voice to and told the story of millions of us who have lost someone to or attempted suicide. Thank you ❤

@D.RED420

11 ай бұрын

I was actually a little surprised that that wasn't what was mentioned in his comment about the 'inspiration'(for lack of a better word) for this song, I love that he is such a transparent human being that seems to bring kindness, love and empathy out of other human beings. But when I listened to this the first time, I was an ass 'assuming' that was what this song was about. I guess I was wrong, I'm sure it resonates today, regardless. I am Sure, as with many of his songs, we all take it where we need it, we all have a different journey, but we all feel the same feelings. As we are human beings. 🥹 Much Love. 💚🦋🎶

@thehangingparsiple5692

11 ай бұрын

@ KCs Funhouse 💯💯 true

@JMemski

11 ай бұрын

​@@D.RED420he mentioned it not long ago in his community posts you can see it ❤

My cousin took his life at 12. He was my idol, my heart. Then my father took his life. I lost what was left of my childhood that day. My awesome uncle Bill copycat committed suicide after Dad. Then I snapped and tried as well. I was resuscitated 3 times, ended up in a coma, and was later diagnosed with PTSD. I had done it on my father's suicide anniversary without even realizing it... Almost died at just 15 years old. I struggled with substance abuse for the next several years. My Mom tried next. This was JUST in my family. I have lost friends too. I am so grateful to be alive today. I am so glad I escaped the cycle. LIFE GOT BETTER. I would have missed out on so much happiness. Reach out, cry for help! Don't leave your loved ones behind. I spent so many decades wondering why I wasn't enough to keep my Dad around... It's not about that, tho. The brain is our heart. It is full of chemical reactions, electrical currents, and sometimes, crossed wiring. If you feel overwhelmed, lost, in darkness, in guilt, in pain, remember that you can & should reach out for help. I know it can be hard, but please, stop, breathe, call somebody. Just live. Don't let pride get in the way. It's brave to ask for help. Thank you, Ren. You've created something very special here. Your compassion to help others is appreciated ♡

@eveline5858

11 ай бұрын

🤗🤗🤗thanks to you

@SuileanAirgid

11 ай бұрын

I’m glad you’re here. Thank you for sharing.

@0BAAC0

11 ай бұрын

Fuck... that's hard to even read, let alone live through. They say suicide doesn't stop the pain, it only transfers it to someone else. I hope you live a long, blessed life surrounded by people who love you.

@jennifersullivan7023

11 ай бұрын

Thank you for the love. The transference of pain is so on point. That resonates. I am so grateful that Ren is bringing issues out into the light. Suicide should not be a taboo subject. Our mental health system needs a complete overhaul. Mental well-being is crucial to surviving physical pain. I am 5 years out from surviving cancer. It took such a toll on my head and my heart. I can not imagine going through that, already in a downward spiral mentally.

@ratflail215

11 ай бұрын

That is just so dark. There is something deeply wrong in our society when 12 year old kids want to take their own life. I hope you spread your message forward as a survivor.

freckled angels laugh the hardest and their smiles they are the largest

To similar frequencies I do resonate. You're absolutely brilliant, Ren. There's an angelic parallel spoken through your music, and master number. It's so rare to learn of existing familiars; it's a magical thing to have this true and singular universal language to speak through and to be heard. Naturals are gifts, unique among masses. Continue to be you, quintessentially magnanimous and sincere with your transcendent ability. Soul speaker, sauntering dreamer, music weaver... stay and smile at least once more every day. You are a beautiful individual and an ancient spirit. Continue the creation.

Wow, Ren! This is unbelievable! You are elevating pain on another level, mate. Thinking about the amount of shit life has put you through and you go out there and turn yourself inside out for everyone to see. What a masterpiece you’ve created again! Those emotions, the rawness, the lyrics, the bloody visuals,… oh my god! And like in “Hi Ren” just when we think we made it through to the end you take us to the cleaners. I’m sitting here crying me eyes out. Feeling so sad for you suffering that much pain and at the same time being blown away by the beautiful art you keep blessing us with. One day, when you feel the time is right, the stage will be yours, Ren and you will be descending on the Glastonburys of this world like a shining light and the crowds will be there to open their hearts and souls for you like you open yours for us right now. Or they might switch on the fuckin’ TV and watch you on Netflix for that matter… can’t wait either way. Keep going bro!

@terryjagers2280

11 ай бұрын

ahem

@emplula

11 ай бұрын

I couldn't have put it better myself, KS! Ren is here to stay 💫💜

Everyones crying and full of love at the same time.. ❤ Rennnnnn!! Thanks so much for everything you do. You will save lives with this song.

A poet, a musician, a teller of truths. I'm getting old and can't always keep up with the pace of Ren's lyrics ( i'm talking in general, not this song) but the genius of this very special man is that, depite that, you feel every emotion he's conveying (and here's the killer) every emotion you might be feeling. A national treasure.

Ren, I just found your music yesterday. I've lost many friends from suicide and drugs. Today is mother's day, and my now 8 yr old, lost his mom to this when he was 2. Apparently I needed to hear this and grieve a bit more, so thank you

Thank you Ren, everytime you create one of these honest vunerable songs , I see it reverberate through the male population around me. Ren is the sound of healing, Ren is the sound of talking it through, Ren is the sound of trusting that there is kindness on the other side of our words . I hope you get the help you offer the rest of the world. ❤

@leilaleya6992

11 ай бұрын

This!

@brandojameson8044

11 ай бұрын

I teared up a lil there

You are something else mate……..I’ve introduced my 10 year old lad to your stuff and withheld a few expletives here and there 😂 but hearing him sing the first few bars of ‘illest of our time’ in the shower this morning made my heart melt. He loves you man and your music is the first he’s ever taken an interest in. He’ll never forget you bro and long will your legacy live on as it’s growing by the minute!!!

@benawake4eva273

11 ай бұрын

Awesome! Good job Dad!

@loneyb11

11 ай бұрын

Same here!!! My daughters 10 and 7 singing your music (ones I can play :) each time they jump in my truck!

@robjohn5036

11 ай бұрын

I was watching Animal while my 17month old grandson was round and he was mesmerised by it and he never stands still that long normally! I'm 54 and can't listen to nothing apart from ren and chinchilla, love you guys ❤

@zed4225

11 ай бұрын

Sweet as❤️

@usefulidiot-

11 ай бұрын

🤣🤣 I also introduced Ren to my 14 year old boy but my 5 year old son is absolutely obsessed with Rens music. He bugs me half the day to put Ren on, then I have to quickly turn the volume down for the expletives, which I don’t always manage to do🤣🤣 but after a little chat, he understands not to say those words outside of the house🤣🤣 His top songs just to name a few are Power, Girls, What You Want & diazepam & the love music trilogy.

And here I'm crying rivers again. I can't cry, even if I want to so badly. There's just nothing than that f*cking depression and that running running running in my head. But every single time I hear and see your music/videos, I just break out in tears at the end. So thank you for letting me feel something again. All my love goes to you and your art. You deserve to be known and to be heard - and now you are. And we all are so incredibly happy for you, and so f*cking proud - as you should be. ❤

Every strong one has come from deep struggles. Learning to use it to our advantage is a must. Thank Ren

Joe, I'm so sorry that your pain was so unbearable. Sorry that the broken health system didn't recognize that your wounds were so very urgent and life threatening, even if they weren't visible. Freckled Angels is beautiful, Ren. Heart-breaking that it came from the abyss of grief, the one with no answers to the anguished "what ifs" that keep us awake at night. The kind that tears into us and leaves us with eyes so red from tears that we can barely see. Milestones like birthdays are so hard, hugs to you and everyone who loved Joe.

Dear Ren, As a 57-year-old gentleman grappling with chronic pain for over a decade, there was a period when my hope dwindled and all I perceived was an engulfing darkness. I even considered choosing the seemingly easy way out. However, everything shifted upon discovering your music. While the physical discomfort remains an everyday companion, my perspective on life has undergone a significant transformation. I feel an immense sense of gratitude towards you, not just for the solace I find in your songs, but also for the resilience you demonstrate in your personal life. You are an inspiration, and your strength echoes in each melody. Thank you for being a beacon of hope. With deepest admiration, Börje

@TristramSavage

11 ай бұрын

Amen

I suffered childhood trauma that in my adulthood won't let me shed tears for myself. But the tears and the emotion burst like a broken dam from my body when I hear you sing my friend. May God bless you in all ways and always ❤

@rolex3560

9 ай бұрын

Your comment. I went through a lot of childhood trauma. I don't cry when I'm supposed to. I don't feel when I'm supposed to. I don't care for things I'm supposed to. I did not cry a single drop at my father's death. I cry for no-one. I haven't spoken to my mother, brother, sister, etc. in years. I feel nothing. But something like this, and his other videos, and good music in general, will make me cry so fucking much.

Your talent is stunning, the lyrics, the twists the turns,the remix’s, the fusion of bits of your other stuff that always seem to fit, the different types of music you use, the way you wear your heart on your sleeve and your beautiful transparency