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@rebecca3sanders

2 жыл бұрын

Omg... did she really actually put the links!!! B, im so proud ❤️

@SalT-nw4mw

2 жыл бұрын

Where’s the bed frame/ head board from 😍😍😍

@blairwalnuts

2 жыл бұрын

@@SalT-nw4mw it’s from city furniture :)

@SalT-nw4mw

2 жыл бұрын

@@blairwalnuts thank you!!!

@anaflores3064

2 жыл бұрын

Where is your couch from? it’s so cool!

Honestly early to mid twenties is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I haven’t been famous or had a career like yours but I switched schools a couple of times lost people and met new people and lost people again. And change is hard. But also - I realized that not having a sense of identity is okay so early on because it means you’re challenging yourself and growing somehow it’s freedom in a way.

@jadedoe9966

2 жыл бұрын

Very true. I’m 37 and you couldn’t pay me to go back to my twenties. It’s just full of lessons and learning the hard way.

@awnska

2 жыл бұрын

The WHOLE twenties are hard. 😂😅

@Mimi-hn6iv

2 жыл бұрын

Early 20's are terrible. This is so true

@MMMMMarrry

2 жыл бұрын

@@michelleandtim354 Yeah true. I loved my twenties, haha

@Mimi-hn6iv

2 жыл бұрын

@@michelleandtim354 eh, that doesn't take any certain age. I've seen my grandparents, cousin, uncle, and brother die and I just turned 27.

Literally quitting vaping sent me into a major depressive episode for months but now I’m feel so much better and can even feel my breathing so much better - totally worth it in the end

@blairwalnuts

2 жыл бұрын

Omggg maybe that’s why lol

@kelsorose9236

2 жыл бұрын

Fmlllll 😂😆

@daffke1185

2 жыл бұрын

You are so right. I quit smoking a few years ago and felt like something was missing everyday because if i had stress i would smoke and after that i would always think way to much if i had stress it gets better but you need something else in your hands or to do everytime you have stress and i had to chew gum first that replaces nicotine it was so gross but it helped and now it´s already 4 years ago , hope you feel better soon . Love your videos you deserve the best in life. And you look great you don´t need a diet. It think it´s so sad my friend has family in russia and is worrying everyday he lives in belgium like me my heart goes out to all the people in ukraine and innocent people in russia 😢💙

@valerieallen9756

2 жыл бұрын

I was the same way! But I had replaced smoking with gum and working out ... so eventually I balanced out and was able to pull through!

@chloemars9607

2 жыл бұрын

@@blairwalnuts you're in withdrawal. Stay strong, girl!

blair, girlie, wish you all the best, you are a kind soul. it seems as if you've been hurting a lot, hope the therapy helps

@esliz6499

2 жыл бұрын

I didn't get that vibe at all. She's just living her life. She's just talking to us calmly and expressing herself genuinely.

@gainvilevidago8972

Жыл бұрын

Honestly it hasn’t been that long since the divorce and she was very young, anybody would be adjusting and processing. She’s obviously struggling but she a traumatised queen that’s used to smiling through the pain so she’s giving strength

Quitting smoking/vaping was the best life decision I ever made. You will get over the body symptoms eventually. Look at the positives that start to happen like better skin, hair, teeth, faster healing etc. Adding up the money I didn't spend on it also was motivating.I used an app so I could just click on it whenever I felt the temptation.

As a long time viewer Blair, I encourage you to sit with the discomfort. Your body is going through physical withdrawals from vaping (I’ve experienced something similar with my weed pen) and I feel like the last year has been a lot of highs and lows. Sitting with ourselves, even when it feels awkward and painful is the key to growth IMO. I got out of a three year relationship - lived together two years - a month ago, and the best thing I’ve done for myself is to just accept the inner feelings of turmoil and conflict. I was raised in a dysfunctional home, so my relationship had a lot of toxicity in it that felt “normal” to me. It wasn’t, and it’s important for people like us to re-learn healthy relationship dynamics. Therapy will be so, so helpful with that. Sending so much love to my favorite walnut! 🥜

@laurenollinger422

2 жыл бұрын

i love this

@kayetaylor5551

Жыл бұрын

What....nooo never sit with discomfort...sounds bad

This was honestly a great thing to hear, today is my ex-best friend's birthday and we haven't talked for about a year. And I swear losing a best friend is worse than losing any guy so just hearing your kind words on her birthday helped heal my heart a little bit

@kaylat1325

2 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry you're going through that. Im going through the same type of thing. I had a best friend and her husband randomly became obsessed with me and stalking me and I tried to tell her about it but he had somehow already turned her against me by then and mustve told her lies or anything he could to get her to never speak to me again and block me before I could get the chance to tell her what he was doing to me. Its been 2 and half years since then and it still hurts so much that I've lost her. I still wish I could tell her what happened and get the chance to tell her to truth. I dont know what her husband could've possibly told her to get her to never speak to her best friend of over 10 years again and it kind of hurts even worse that she so easily threw me away like that when she was my best friend and so important to me. It was her birthday a couple weeks ago and I just wish I could tell her happy birthday. Im sorry you lost your friend too. I agree it hurts worse than losing a boyfriend.

@stephanieretana2056

2 жыл бұрын

Been there. It will get better ❤️

@thekmonkey101

2 жыл бұрын

I lost my ex & 6 closest friends bc they chose to support and stay friends with a cheating asshole & I don’t want anything to do with any connection. If I’m out, I’m OUT.

@nas2817

2 жыл бұрын

I broke up wt my ex and didn't cry as much as I did when I had a falling out with a friend I really care about. I was pretty depressed about it. *hugs* to you guys.

@angelastone4806

2 жыл бұрын

@@thekmonkey101 Sorry you got cheated on, but your “close friends” did NOT get cheated on by him. If they were friends with him prior to your relationship/prior to your relationship going sour, it’s kind of selfish & unfair of you to ask them to just stop being friends with him just to remain friends with you. I get being hurt & what your ex did was wrong, yet they still could have remained friends with you both & kept the friendships separate. As you grow up you’ll start to realize it’s not your friends job to take on all your pain & fall outs, thats really selfish to ask of them.

You say your not feeling at peace but this is the first time I've noticed you seem a little more calm. I know life without chaos is scary cause it forces you to sit with your emotions. It is so hard but it is necessary work. The more you honour those feelings the more you'll learn to love yourself 💕

You're a delightful little walnut of light in this world. I hope the therapy soothes your heart and soul as you deserve it babe!

I understand wanting and missing chaos! My therapist told me the same! But one day I realized I was happy in a stable and calm environment. I think you’ll find a balance between the two soon :)

I'm sitting here 30something years old with a partener, kids and mortgage and I'm like " Yes, Blair! Fuck all guys" She's my 20s self before I met my soulmate

@mmor7380

2 жыл бұрын

Not all, not everyone is an asshole

@sydneyhendrickson9174

2 жыл бұрын

@@mmor7380 duh 😂 it's a statement for women who are going through things. Let it be. It's like how I sing "these girls ain't loyal" but I don't believe I'm not a loyal person. It's hyperbole

I love that you don’t sugar coat things and pretend you’re a different person. Sometimes it’s off the wall but so so real. It’s important that we don’t only see the best of people online but also remember they go through real pain and difficulties too. You’re doing great and I hope you continue to heal. Also the chaos thing oh my god so true, sometimes it feels like that’s where we deserve to be and stability seems foreign.

Honestly, when you said you don’t feel peace in a state of peace and how you feel more like yourself in a state of chaos..that HIT. I’ve literally been feeling that way recently and thought the very same thing to myself so to hear you say that really validated me. Not that it’s a good thing but definitely a good thing to be aware of. Maybe it’s just something to adapt to or to make life chaotic but in a healthier way without the toxic relationships or behaviors. Idk how to word it but I’m wishing you find peace that you’re genuinely happy in. Thanks for being so authentic and open with us ❤️

@kerryswan1875

2 жыл бұрын

I highly recommend reading 'How To Do The Work' by Dr. Nicole LePera. She addresses this and explains everything so well. I've had so many aha moments...it's been life-changing. It's normal, you're not alone and you have the power to do something about it 💕

@nikolama6739

Жыл бұрын

I was like this, but then I had a kid and as a single parent life is SO chaotic, but also fulfilling and healthy

You not reciprocating your ex’s behavior is SO MATURE. 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

@JosefaTejeda

2 жыл бұрын

what did nik say

I’m proud of you for everything you’ve done and how far you’ve come. I know how difficult life can be, let alone getting out of bed some days. You’re doing amazing Blair.

Ahhhh I relate to this. I have been in an extremely abusive relationship both physically and emotionally. I actually had to leave with my daughter as I was afraid for our safety. Nearly 10 years later I still find that I am not content in any relationship unless they are constantly calling me or checking up on me or texting me or what I call 'protecting me'. BUT deep down I know that it's not healthy yet I still crave a man to be in charge. Im not sure how to break the habit, I don't think I ever will be able to

@blairwalnuts

2 жыл бұрын

Sammmeeee 😥

Love you so much Blair I'm proud of how far you've come. Settling in one place is a little scary sometimes but believe me, if you genuinely give it a try you will find so much peace. And a sense of safety. You are the only person who can provide these things for yourself. The key to living alone is to not isolate yourself too often! Have dinners with friends, invite ppl over at times, go OUT when you can. Having a home base helped me to heal in private, it has really changed me in the best ways so I hope this resonates with you too. We're here for you always. ❤ 🙏🏻

I love Blair unbothered! You don’t owe us or anyone an explanation! You have take the high road and showed your strength and class through all of this! Your IG’s literally make my day.

B you handled this situation with such grace and class. You're a genuinely kind person and I know you're doing ok

I started vaping again after “quitting” for 6 months. I was horribly nauseous for the first month and so sick. My anxiety took over though and I picked it back up. For anyone reading this, don’t be like me and take care of yourself and treat your body right even though I can’t ❤️

Why did I think that wig was a ferret

@blairwalnuts

2 жыл бұрын

I want to pin this comment

@user-pt6nk1cv4z

2 жыл бұрын

@@blairwalnuts :) go for it

Blair, you deserve better. I’m happy you’re taking the time to take a break and enjoy your life. I’m glad you’re seeing a therapist and surrounding yourself with friends and family who love you for you 💖💖💖 your girl talks inspire me in knowing what I want as a woman and not just pleasing a man.

girl EVERYTHING you are saying about wanting chaos and struggling to quit vices and being bored in a stable life is exactly how I used to feel constantly…but because I have bpd 😅 I have gone through a lot of therapy and I don’t feel that way anymore most of them time but I can totally relate

I really hope things get better for you Blair💖 feeling comfortable in a state of chaos is definitely very relatable and I hope in time you can heal!

I hear you when you mentioned you take comfort in chaos. I felt like my life lacked passion and adventure without it and I’d constantly be switching up jobs, cities/towns and relationships. I thought life was better when everything was a little more dramatic and fast paced. Honestly I had no desire to slow down and reflect at the time because I was scared that how I really felt wouldn’t match with how I was portraying myself to others around me. Still unpacking the trauma and unlearning/learning how to be a more emotionally intelligent adult because I was never shown the tools on how to do that growing up in a chaotic environment. But I know it will help me find that inner peace I lack and I hope you find yours to. Lots of love for you Blair ❤️ Take care of yourself

i totally relate to the state of chaos being your peace instead of calm and stable. always feels like i'm trapped, but i know it isn't healthy to be in chaos!

I feel you, I quit vaping three weeks ago. The headaches sucked. Keep going walnut! You can do it.

I love this, this video feels like how KZread used to be, not a lot of editing or filter and really just being vulnerable. Love you sm🤍

Girl, coming from one person adapting to stability after decades of chaos…it’s *will* be uncomfortable, like sitting in a pickle barrel…its cold and briney when you first get in, but if you can sit with the discomfort…and ask okay why’s this so uncomfortable and how might I accommodate myself through the discomfort…instead of just why am I doing this? Or why can’t I be/do xyz instead? Learning to sit with the discomfort and reduce it down to information, that’s a *powerful* skill set my dear 💗 nourish and feed your power through your healing ❤️‍🩹 you’re doing the work, be proud of that 🙌🏽💖🌹

I'm older... almost 40. My 20's and early 30's were very toxic-I didn't know how to live without chaos bc my childhood was also chaotic. It took me years to get used to living without it. Been single almost 10 years- My life is extremely docile and I couldn't imagine living in that state of chaos anymore. Therapy does wonders- wishing you the best of luck!

blair your whole state of chaos go go go reminds me of when i was super manic. Was also caused by a break up. Just a thought... also being manic to someone a tad mentally unstable is super fun, you party, you aren't hungry, you just feel more fun... but you seem much more stable now. Even just seeing the stuff your decorating with, its nice to see stuff you like again.

I recently ended a 5 year relationship,not anything close to how long y'alls were together but it hurts the most because the person you thought you end up being with forever and was your best friend ends up being just a stranger again. Hope you're taking good care of yourself 🥺💕!

@juliacissell

2 жыл бұрын

I just ended my 5 year relationship too:(, sending love

@maann89

2 жыл бұрын

@@juliacissell 💕💕 sending love back

Things will get better B!! You are so right though, give yourself a break if you need and do things that make YOU happy!! Wishing you lots of positivity for your life and hope you and everyone else here has a great rest of the week❤🙏

I hope everything gets better, you deserve the world and more, you are amazing

Enjoying the finsta blair! Thanks for sharing your life with us

YASS love a walnut that can see how her option on a war isn’t about her, it’s about the poor souls who are living through this war. Slava Ukraine!!

very much relate to the sentiment of romanticizing chaos and feeling incomplete without it. i like that your past two videos have been more personal again

Working past chaos *may* come in good time. I’m near 2 years sober (in 3 weeks yay!) and am certainly grieving a lot as far as what I’ve given up/ the life I used to live. Learning that putting myself in these times were trauma responses and such. I still rip my vape constantly and can hardly genuinely sit with myself. It’s really really hard shit but it does get better hunni. The process is just painfully honestly slow 🌺

@kelsorose9236

2 жыл бұрын

HAHA 7:47 happens seconds after… hysterical

the thing about chaos is that is not sustainable, and have you seeking for that constantly will hurt you and the ones you love! but it’s so hard. hope you learn how to work through. ur a queen 💓💓

I've watched your vids for years and i just wanted to say i'm so proud of you miss blair, sending you so much love xxx

feeling like yourself but in a state of chaos literally describes how I am rn 😭 don’t worry b we’re getting through it together 💘 edit: yes!!! U don’t have to explain yourself to ppl honestly I’m so sick of doing that like at this point just think whatever you want bc I can explain myself 100 times and someone will still find a way to find a problem 😭

honestly your just a super full of energy person and you’ve kept yourself occupied the past year so now that you’ve settled everything is probably hitting you right now, just hang in there babes time heals everything you’ve already made it a year❤️

You're such an inspiration Blair. Thanks for sharing your life with us so candidly. ❤

Genuinely never been so early, love u Blair! Hope ur doing amazing💛

I really respect you , you are so real and honest , and I feel like you are a really special person 🖤

Love our little walnut 💜💖 I’ve been trying to stop vaping (“trying” thinking about it 😅) this is my sign to stop! Thank you for always being so unapologetically you

@kelsorose9236

2 жыл бұрын

I’m in it with you babes *rips vape* let’s try this week 😫👍🏾

Blair you're a Queen !! So mature and u handled your breakup online so well!! Honestly ur ex was so immature I would've lost my cool but it's amazing that you still kept your cool ! I love how self aware you always are you are such a girlboss we stan!

@isabellaforce1705

2 жыл бұрын

what did he say in the video?

@danielhubley3335

2 жыл бұрын

She’s one of the least mature people on KZread are you actually insane?! You must only be 13 🥺

I found the way you talked about the Russian/Ukraine situation not being about you and the other stuff afterwards very well thought! xx

So much love for you. You are beautiful, honest and true to yourself, it's so refreshing to see someone just being themself. Take care lovely ❤️

Dude. I also enjoy being in a relationship where they are utterly, romantically, insanely persistent & obsessed w me in a healthy way. I need the drama, the “I love you so much it makes my heart ache when you’re sad or upset” kinda thing. Hee heeee

I love everything you said on the whole Ukraine/Russia thing and how you said it's not about you or how you're feeling. Mad props to you. Also been loving your finsta, it's so nice to see someone who seems so perfect be so real.

wishing u the best blair!! ily

girl your vibe is so comedic in this video like the pauses are killing me

I loved the way you addressed the old relationship. That was top tier respect. Hmm have you thought about trying to see if a doctor or even the therapist can help with the headaches and stuff? I am not sure if you wanted that route, but I hope you are feeling better today.

You are in your villain era and I am living for it ✨

Sending you love and positive energy walnuts ❤️

B💜 you’re such a strong beautiful woman. You’re awesome I swear I love watching your videos and seeing you be such a free spirit. I love how real you are and don’t bullshit things. Thank you for sharing your life with us! 💋❤️

Blair take acetylcholine to help with your quitting your vape journey!! Nicotine binds to the same receptors that acetylcholine does and basically when you consume nicotine your body ends up producing less acetylcholine in response to maintain equilibrium so when you stop you don’t have as much available and it’s such an important biomolecule for basic homeostasis so it def influences how your body is doing and how you feel! I have a BS in biochemistry but you can research this as well, it’s literally the mechanism of action in the human body! I hope you feel better soon walnut 🖤🖤🖤

@E59sb

2 жыл бұрын

Lmaooo I commented on a tiktok about her promoting smoking to stay skinny and she blocked me

Aw Blair your voice sounded so sad talking about how nick has spoken badly about you 😔😔 which I totally get bc it sucks hearinf someone you loved and tried to treat well say things that are hurtful

The vibe of this vid is so good more of this babe

❤❤❤ things will get better, seeing you emotional made me😢

Ilysm Blair ♡ thnk you for this !!!

Wish you the best Blair. Glad that you're doing well!!

My therapist told me the same thing lmaooo but after like 2 years of working on me I’m finally v happy w being stable and I’m in my first ever healthy relationship! Rooting for u bb❤

B, we think you are amazing and thank you for choosing to share your journey

thank you for opening up🥺💗

Can we see your paintings?!? The one you showed briefly was incredible!

Oh man :(. So sorry but glad you’re living your best life!!!

I love how she clarified that she needs *breathing* humans around her-

@blairwalnuts

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah breathing one’s

Wish you all the best babe! Your one of my fav. KZreadrs!

yess pls make a video about how to stop ordering bc I am literally waiting for my doordash order rn

omg i can’t believe you’re back together with him !!!

Girl, hope you get better, that therapy helps. You don't give off the same vibe. Hope you find balance in your chaos.

WHAAAAT?! I can’t believe you’re back together with him!!! 🔥💃🏻

I feel you girl...an ex of mine is engaged now and reminisces with me occasionally about our time together...that's a big NOPE!!

THE MOST RELATABLE QUEEN EVER.

Girrrrrlll OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE BACK TOGETHER WITH HIM...... LIKE HOW

I love how classy our Walnut is ❤️ but this is not class; it's her love and kindness shining through.

@5:49 alright all of this is so relatable (look at the 1 vid on my channel for a few second look at where that taste for chaos ultimately brought me... if anyone ever speaks to you that way please always do yourself the favor of leaving!) some chaos is good and passionate, but it's a learning process finding the balance cause it can't all be like that all the time or even most of it. 80% peace 20% chaos max for me now i think lolol. girl proud of you for your moving on and everything and being so dignified

I used to juul a lot pre-pandemic, &I know everyone is different, but quitting cold turkey is what I had to do and just never touch that ish again. I actually think the vaping was causing minor panic attacks and just general addiction behaviors I knew weren’t normal. Vaping in the bathroom at my office? Vaping during commercials of a tv show in between charges? Idk I guess it might sound all very minor in the grand scheme of things but it still had a hold over my life and I hated that. I’m glad to be freed from that horrible feeling

“I don’t feel at peace in a state of peace” - you’ve just summed up my entire mental health.

My fav walnut is back ❤️ glad to see you’re talking with a therapist and taking care of yourself/your health. proud of how far you’ve come over the last few years girl

i can’t believe u got back together!!!

Oh sweet walnut. Chaos is comfort. I get it. I’m struggling myself to find a balance between chaos and stability. But if a certain lifestyle feels right to you, it’s not wrong because it’s not the norm.

omg I can't believe you're back together with him!!!!!!

omg one of the last videos of yours that i watched is the announcement that you would get married & were living in bulgaria. now i’m like what 👁👄👁 you sound so sad compared to back then tho☹️ hope you will get better soon 💕

Omg!!! I can’t believe you’re back together!!!!!

“If everything feels chaotic, it’s fine” SAUS THE GIRL WHO ENJOYS CHAOS 😂😂 but, same.

So close to 1M let's gooo 👏🏼

Oh my goodness I fricken love you, this video totally feels like I'm just sitting here chilling with one of my girls having girl talk or sumshit

Love the couch!!! You’re a badass bb:) much love 💕

Rooting for you! You look beautiful 😍

The chaos. Can relate. Sometimes you need to operate the way that works for you now. It can change later. Whatever. You’re totally good cause happiness is in the moment, and I know you know how I mean that

Missed you so much B!

Love you so much, and I'm so glad you are doing amazing being a single ~GODDESS~!! I'm asking this for myself, what happened to your lip? I'm thinking about getting filler in my upper lip next month, but since I scheduled my appointment, I've been noticing people's lips way more and noticed that yours have changed a bit. Is there anything you think could help improve my experience? Did you notice a timeframe when you needed to stop? How often do you actually need to re-up? I'm sorry if this is invasive, but I'm trying to make sure that I'm doing the right thing for myself, my body, and... honestly, my finances.

I would love to see a video about your favorite makeup products!

OMG!! I can't believe you're back together with him!

Break ups hit so late. Especially marriage or engagement. When you live in chaos you accept it. You think they once you get stability life I’ll be good. So when you finally get it and it doesn’t meet your expectations it’s hard to accept that.

You're not toxic or chaotic, you are comfortable with who you are, you know what you like and you like your own company 👌 you are always so relatable! I'm a married mommy now lol but you remind me very much of myself. Keep living for you and your future other half is very lucky to have you.

This was so relatable.. all of it! Currently also not caring about men, because they are disgusting... Had a guy sending sexual text/comments to me and spending more time with me than his girlfriend.