Therapy plays a huge role in recovery and life in general adhdonline.com/ericzink/ to get tested for ADHD and more, along with getting connected to psychiatrists and psychologists in your area.

"Cocaine makes you a new man. And the first thing that new man wants is ... more cocaine." - George Carlin

@islandbreeze414

27 күн бұрын

#facts

@edwardelston

7 күн бұрын

George Carlin was a wise man, that’s why the CIA assassinated him.

@steaustin8789

12 сағат бұрын

Not me. #Opinions

I was a weekend user for 15 years . That drug was the best at the beginning but super dark at the end

@DavidandMegan

2 ай бұрын

How dark?

@RonniePickeringMate

2 ай бұрын

The bad times start to outweigh the good times. In my experience, you start to get anxiety before even doing it - like you’ve anticipated the comedown before it’s even arrived. I don’t think you ever get to really enjoy it like you did when you were young then.

@joski9030

2 ай бұрын

Depends if you’re talking about a cheeky line with the boys or smoking rocks on your own. I’ve been at it since I was about 18 after the e days me and the lads can take it or leave it.

@RonniePickeringMate

2 ай бұрын

@@joski9030 A cheeky line is never just a cheeky line though 😂. Fair play to you if you can resist the urge to fully commit. I’ve tried it many times and it’s always ended the same way - doing a slug at 6am and hating myself.

@imemine8605

2 ай бұрын

​@@joski9030this sums it up when your doing your chosen drug slone seek help because youve got a serious problem

The worst part about cocaine is when you run out of cocaine.

@johnathangill5666

4 ай бұрын

For Sure

@allanswain2425

4 ай бұрын

Or building tolerance

@jasonryan3506

3 ай бұрын

So true

@user-vj6qc6om9f

3 ай бұрын

My worst experiences were always when there was more and I didn't want it . Just a thought

@JamieBay

3 ай бұрын

@@user-vj6qc6om9f more I had the less I used.

I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to cocaine. Spent my whole life fighting cocaine addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my girlfriend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.

@MuratBasar-jm9lc

15 күн бұрын

Amen God bless people. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health.

@Ronkaja

15 күн бұрын

Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏

@SusanaGomez-mp8sk

15 күн бұрын

Yes Dr.alishrooms

@NicoleCtirad

15 күн бұрын

Congrats! I'm really happy for you that your friend decided to help you. I always admire those who beat their addiction. Knowing it's possible to fix your life knowing there's people out there that have done what I thought was impossible gives me hope I will make it through as well. Those who share their experiences don't know how much it helps when you're about to give up, it gives you the strength knowing somone who actully know what it's like to go through this tell you it's possible, it's not the same somone telling you you can do it when they have no idea what it's like, but hearing somone who knows what it's like that helps a lot since you understand it firsthand and made it out gives so much hope. so thanks for sharing.

@Wimruther-hk4zn

15 күн бұрын

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

I believe I just had one of the worst comedowns yesterday. I've been trying to quit coke and alcohol but being alone at home triggers my addiction. Went to a local rock concert, everything was amazing, but I thought I couldn't have any fun if I didn't drink and snort. I wouldn't even go there without getting drunk. I've never used as much as I did yesterday and spent all the money I had. I had such a breakdown that I was just bawling my eyes out for more than an hour out of guilt, embarassment and everything. I just want to stop this shit and all the lies that come with it, I have someone to take care of and I'm just throwing my life away. It's like I'm a completely different person now, I don't even know who I am anymore. I hope this was the last time. Thanks for the vids, they always help me.

@C.K985

10 ай бұрын

I’m also an alcoholic and cocaine addict. I’ve been in recovery for 4 years. I know exactly how you’re feeling because I’ve been there countless times. I would routinely snort my paycheck within 2-3 days. The shame, guilt, remorse, anxiety… it’s fucking horrible. The good news is that you can stop man. I promise you can. I won’t sugarcoat it - it’s not easy. You have to want to do it. Admitting you have a problem is the first step and it seems like you’re there. I recommend letting your plugs know that you’re done. I would also delete their phone numbers. I had one plug whose number I memorized but I would purposely try to fuck it up in my mind and I eventually did forget it. Good thing, too, because about two years into my recovery I had an incredible urge to get some. I tried like hell, but the friends I knew who were still doing blow all knew that I was sober and no one would get it for me. People, places and things - you have to be willing to change all of them if you really want to get sober. I know meetings aren’t for everyone but they really helped me out. I’d even say they helped save my life. There’s also a really great subreddit called r/stopdrinking that has thousands of people in it that are just like us. Remember - you don’t have to commit to never getting high again. Just commit to not getting high today. When you wake up tomorrow, do the same thing again.

@gamerpaulista

10 ай бұрын

@@C.K985 tks a lot man, and congrats on your improvement. I'm trying to put locks on the doors that lead me to addiction, kind of like trying to prevent this monster from escaping the cage. Engaging in new hobbies has been a positive thing and expressing my feelings through art too, it sort of fulfills the needs that I'd otherwise be trying to cover with alcohol and drgs. Stay strong anyone who's reading this and be kind to yourselves.

@newbeginning3571

9 ай бұрын

Repent and trust in Jesus. You can't go through life without him it will always be hard without him but once your given the holy spirit everything changes.

@JT0007

9 ай бұрын

Start exercising 🫡🇺🇸🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

@eggos77

9 ай бұрын

I went through the same thing my friend, I was told about hypnosis. So I went and tried it and it turned my life around.

“We’ve created our own trauma through our use of drugs” man I will always remember that, thank you so much for sharing, I hope life is a lot better for you now 🙏🏾💯

I never realized your wife passed away, really sorry to hear that man

@EricBZink

11 ай бұрын

I have remarried since but head was a rough time and still healing

@oooooooo4963

10 ай бұрын

Plot twist , we re all dead and she s the only one alive coz she was standing by the door

@tommysherman7155

10 ай бұрын

You can go to rehab for alcohol addiction because it can kill you and is physically addictive,. Cocaine including crack cocaine is psychologically addictive, no physical withdrawals at all and for that reason in my country they will just offer you talking groups. Pointless drug not found in any pharmacy or hospital. Cannabis is used for anxiety, depression, pain, insomnia. Mushrooms, ecstasy and LSD for anxiety and depression, amphetamines for ADHD, ketermiene for local anaesthetic before a medical procedure, heroin for pain, end of life care and for diarrhea. Basically every drug especially heroin/opiates is found in every pharmacy or hospital in the world. Cocaine and crack are not and not even physically addictive that's why you don't go to detox off them, pointless drug no pharmaceutical purposes to it whatsoever and before it's in You're hand's it's been bashed up lot's of time's

@deeeeeee988

10 ай бұрын

My husband took his life .he was only 34. . Functioning weed and sometimes meth user .. worked a full time job and paid our bills .just ! You don't have to be hard core ,train wreck,in the gutter addict to fall victim to suicide .. every one is different as in mental ,emotional,and physical Resistance to drugs .. and yes when drugs are cut with extra toxic ,different substances ... It can do damage almost instantly to your brain which is how my man found himself puting our dogs lead over the second floor balcony ....and hanging himself..just metre or 2 away from me .. from high to bye in a matter of hours ..tragic and shocking .

@toddprater14

9 ай бұрын

2- 8 balls for 500? Damn… that’s 250 a ball…I’d bet them for 125/ball or 450 for a 1/2 ounce….this was back around 2004…

I live in the UK and am at the point where I'm beginning to think about my drug usage. These video that you'd are making are so helpful, you've genuinely prevented me from doing the next line. Appreciate the honesty and it takes real strength to talk about it, especially in the context of your loss. Thanks again. Stay safe, and please keep going. Rich

I've lost 3 friends to suicide in the last 45 days so this video really hit home. Although my partying days are behind me and I was lucky to be able to snap out of my addiction days in my mid 20's, many of my friends weren't so lucky and I've watched them deteriorate. Its very sad.

@joshuawesteros5345

9 ай бұрын

That’s horrible bro. Share their stories when ya can. It’ll help.

@HybOj

3 ай бұрын

@@joshuawesteros5345 one of my friends commited suicide like 20 years ago. It was similar as in this video story. At those times, we partied at underground techno... at one of these parties, he did too much and was never the same afterwards. And thats when I met him. I never knew him before this, as a normal man. Only as this new state of mind. Ppl were making fun of him. Me - not. I was the only person taking him seriously. I have a clean consciousness now. Contrary to others, who always made fun of him, including his bro. One time I got into the issues in a pub, and he vanished, 5 minutes later, the guys in the pub started to beat me up real bad - thats when he returned. He forsee this, he returned with 20cm kitchen knife, to fucking save my life and thats what he fucking did!!! Damn ./ Anyway. We played as a DJs for a moment at one pub, had one succesfull night there. Everybody loved it, we were invited for next week. Agreed on that. I stashed my DJ equip at his place (just a smal DJ needles for a turntable) and agreed he will take it next week. That never happend. Next week, he was a already dead. Hang himself. What the fuck mate .... still hurts. He was like 20yo and me as well. Now Im 40.

Your honesty means so much to so many people😊

Eric, I’m so so sorry for your losses 😢😢 Stay strong, we need you!

You have my full respect for your honesty and how open you are. Congratulations on recovering and may it continue.God bless you. I’m so sorry to hear your wife passed away,

Man this guy is real. I am so sorry to hear about your wife . Glad to hear you got sober! me too!

I'm so sorry for your loss! Sending you lots of love and positive vibes ❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻

I enjoy hearing the stories of others in recovery. The stories remind me why I stopped years ago. I remember how bad I wanted to be clean and how hard it was to stay clean. What he said about causing ourselves trauma is the truth. I still feel traumatized by crazy things I did or close calls I experienced. It feels great to be nearly 18 years clean.

thanks friend i was about to buy some then this video popped in my recommendations and ended up deleting the guy's number. thank you!

So very brave and honest. Thank you Eric.

This is such a heartbreaking but honest and true story. Thank you so much for sharing your experience.

Many people have to be helped by your honesty. Thank you

Love your channel bro. Honestly you’re a true man

Thanks for sharing mate, and sorry for your losses

I really appreciate you sharing these stories of your experiences. I battle my own addictions. After 30 years of heavy partying i have def slowed down a lot. When everyone you know loves to drink an party it's hard to stay clean. Thanks again.👍

That was kinda heartwarming. Thanks for sharing.

Hi! I wanted to thank you so much for making your videos and putting everything out there. You’re incredibly brave & your videos are very healing & help me a lot.You’re a blessing to everyone out there. Your Fellow Addict - Dave 👍👍

Your honesty is admirable.

Holy sh*t, man. The fact that you are still here is impressive. Thank you for sharing your life experience. I hope you have a good, peaceful, rest of your life.

Thank you so much for sharing your story with so much bravery, you are turning your pain into empowerment for others. I definitely have very traumatic memories from my party days using lots of coke and other drugs. At the time I thought I was just being free and having fun but I look back now and realize how damaging it really was and how much that affected my brain.

Hey Erik, thanks for telling your story. A real eye opener that I’ll try to keep with me. I’m not an addict, but your experience is still really important

Your testimonial sends shivers in my body. I m an ex coke and fentanyl alcohol recovery addict. And man , when you said that we all had one experience that is our worse , I totally agreed with you. Hope you’ll find happiness in your life, and every day is a struggle. It’s worth fighting ❤❤❤❤thank you for being you 👍🏻🏆

Thank you for this great video.

Thanks for your honesty, man.

Your helping a lot of people! Keep up the good work warrior ! Greetings Portsmouth England 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

@JT0007

9 ай бұрын

🫡🇺🇸🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

Thank you for sharing what you share. You are incredible

I appreciate your videos dude. Still getting over my shit. Nowhere near sober. But seeing these vids recommended daily really is making changes. Obviously I’m not in recovery or anything like that. I just wanna say keep this up dude. I already know I’ll be coming back to your channel pretty soon.

Wow bro! Keep your head up man this jus popped up on my feed!

Sorry to hear about this tragedy, but I am glad you are standing strong and sober. God bless and take care 🙏

Man youre literally a warrior and inspiration courages and brave. Good for you man wish you endless success health and wealth. Things will get better you have great mindset and mental keep it up.

I could never sleep after cocaine, i would rarely take it but on a night out when i did, i would take 1 gram and be up till 6-7am. Then when i would go to bed, i would be rolling around unable to sleep and just sweating profusely. Very surprised to hear you could sleep like 15 mins later.

@FlabbyAbi

6 ай бұрын

This is really interesting to me. Trying to find as much info as possible. Someone I know is a coke addict but can very quickly fall asleep after taking it. Was wondering if it was cut with something... They can be getting ready to go out in the morning, disappear for some lines and then conk out. Maybe that just happens to some people?

@BenThrockorton

3 ай бұрын

Possibly they have ADHD. It is a big reason I thinks some of us loved it so much. Coke made us feel normal. Some stimulants actually shut our brains down enough we can get some sleep. @@FlabbyAbi

@marcd2743

3 ай бұрын

@@FlabbyAbi No, it's just because they are fd up on it and their body can take it.

@morganborzelli8942

3 ай бұрын

Yup then you hear the birds chirping on a workday and you know your fucked lol 😂 fun times but don’t miss em

@ItsMia19

2 ай бұрын

@@morganborzelli8942I hate that part 😂

Thanks for sharing your story, I never had a drug problem (thankfully) but hearing your story was touching.

I came here by accident… not even on the topic I was looking for. But you did say a few things that are helping me in my current struggle. Thanks for your bravery and sharing.. jp

I’m sorry to hear that brother but thank you for sharing. I needed to hear this so I didn’t drink tonight

Thanks for your honesty bud

Thank you for sharing this.

PTSD from drugs is surely a thing.

@dwade6322

2 ай бұрын

Can u give me a typical example of ptsd from drugs?

@icey3787

2 ай бұрын

@@dwade6322certain smells, places, songs will bring up that feeling that you used to get when using. Not always, but sometimes

@Teenywing

2 ай бұрын

I will absolutely 100% agree. It absolutely can mirror ptsd and I’m certain there are many cases of diagnosed PTSD from the experiences from extreme drug use. Your comment actually really interests me…it might be a new study for me. ❤

@Teenywing

2 ай бұрын

@@dwade6322I think he means the experiences from extreme drug use have caused ptsd. Not the actual consumption of the drug. ❤

@thewaywardgrape3838

2 ай бұрын

@@dwade6322 Example: Before my friend took his own life, he was with drawing from weed. He spent years hiding his habbit and lying, to the point that he never knew what was completely fabricated to cover for his drug usage, was real or a delusion and even the realisation of years wasted. This broke him. He begged for help from the NHS and was turned away. In reality, his perception on reality was recalibrating due to sobriety. He wrote to me explaining how he felt like a broken man, unsure of his reality and who is actually is. He isolated himself and died from exposure and starvation.

i hope things has got better for you in life 🙏 thanks again

Thank you for sharing, man. One day at a time

My Man, a super tough existence 🙏hopefully you can help Others

Thanks very much pal for sharing 22 months clean and sober my self

This was a great listen, though terrifying and sad. You look like you’re in good shape right now keep it up. Sorry about your significant other.

You are talking about everything bro, you got a lot of courage.

I stopped smoking at 19, last year I stopped drinking. I don't do any drugs. I am 53 single no children or pets and it's fine, may the force be with you

@user-ei6jc2fi1z

Ай бұрын

May the force be with you brother... Always

@EyesWideOp3n

16 күн бұрын

Different folks, Different strokes. More power to you mate. My wee family is the most fulfilling thing

My God!! And you are still Alive.... God Bless you for sharing your story. All love and best wishes . ❤❤❤❤❤.

I appreciate you coming out for this, thank you

@JasmineRodjeep

2 ай бұрын

l'll refer this mycologist who helped me treat my depression and anxiety, check him out he also guide newbies on proper trips moments.

@JasmineRodjeep

2 ай бұрын

He's on Instagram

@JasmineRodjeep

2 ай бұрын

@novatripps

You are a good man i have been watching your videos and i relate.. this hit home .. thankyou i am so sorry this happened

Thank you!! I am very inspired by your story My sobriety date is 2/1/2016 Appreciate your honesty

Stay strong mate. Having an addictive personality is a tough thing to deal with. You've just gotta find healthy addictions.

@chrism4008

9 ай бұрын

Addiction itself is unhealthy, it is a *disease* Find a hobby, not an addiction

Thank you for doing this videos. I am 37 and been clean for 210 days. I use to go on benders for like 5 years.

@EricBZink

11 ай бұрын

Feel that and all the love

@janmik11

9 ай бұрын

A five year bender is mad

You were both adults and you made your decisions. Sadly, her story ended too abruptly. This was not your fault. She doesn’t blame you. Your honesty is refreshing and raw. Your healing is inspiring and deserved ❤

your talking of these experiences is healing yourself !

@EricBZink

11 ай бұрын

It definitely is I’m going to be sharing more of my experiences

@chrisquintana3877

2 ай бұрын

As some point you gotta let it go , reliving it helps at fist , but eventually thinking/talking about it triggers your inner addict.

@GrubbySalad

2 ай бұрын

​​@@chrisquintana3877speak for yourself and not for others

Thank you for sharing...Good luck.

Thank you for sharing. Imagine what you described everyday for years. It takes time for the brain to go back and heal itself......

Thanks for the share brother you and your wife sound a lot like me and mine were. I also lost her in 2015 August as well to an overdose hearing your story was helpful this morning.👍

God, in my deep coke addiction I had a 100 nights worse than this! Shudder to recall most of it

@bobhope4949

5 күн бұрын

Yeah I almost assassinated a ninja and another time got ran off the road by some girls jealous boyfriend, wasn’t a bad experience though cuz I was high as tits and really don’t remember it lol

You're still kicking dude 👍. One day at a time.

Thank you for your story.

Coke an alcohol always been very problematic in my life also ! Good to hear your story - but also sorry to hear about your wife and father , I am at the stage of still having little relapses on it but hating myself for it - I go more than a week or 2 an I will slip up only for one night but it really not enjoyable anymore - hate myself it’s soo ingrained in my social culture as a thing to do when out . Hopefully I can find the same strength you have had to do and get completely clean but every step is a step an compared to what I was like it’s a total different stage soo can only keep trying to progress the brain is a really tricky thing to control - that’s for sharing your video

damn this got dark.. thank you for speaking out about it. I am sorry for the loss

Hi Eric. My sobriety birthday is 6/26/17. We are pretty close. Keep up the good work. Sobriety is an amazing gift!

I’m so sorry to hear about your wife my condolences.

Stay strong man. Sad to hear that about your former wife. I was into the same level of use and had similar experiences when I suspected the substances were cut with crazy substances. The paranoia, psychosis, all that and hospitalization.

So sorry .. Thank you for sharing.

Really sorry to hear about your Wife and your Dad. A loved one's Suicide is something that changes you forever. A good friend of mine took his life about 20 years ago and it still haunts me to this day if I really think about it. Congratulations on your sobriety. Keep going....one day at a time brother.

@adriannahp1833

21 күн бұрын

I concur with this statement. You never recover from someone committing suicide. My person committed suicide and post toxicology, we found he was a cocaine user to our surprise. Never would have imagined but this video especially talking about hallucinations really hit home.

Thank u so much. Ur the man

sorry for your loss.

I'm sober but my brain still plans times to get drunk/wrecked. I sceme ways to do it and things until I get enough mental clarity to shift the thoughts to something else or stay physically busy. It sucks...hope it's not like this forever. I like your channel and your honesty. Subbed. Take care Eric from over the pond 🇬🇧

I remember those days very, very well. I think about it now, and it makes me sick to my stomach. It really does, I've been clean now for going on 15 years. I am thankful everyday for it My life was when I was using. I just makes me sick. God, Bless you my friend.

I’m so sorry about your wife brandy. I can’t even imagine your pain. I’m glad you’re clean and sober now tho

Man…. Recovery truly is possible ♥️

Heartbreaking brother... But you rode into the storm & calmer waters are ahead. Sorry about you're partner Man The pain in you're voice as you relive the journey it scars , you're brain so deep.. You literally become a slave . I can totally relate to this, I'm excalty same mindset , I've gotta stay in that high zone .. Its All or Fk all , ain't it ?? Keep going bro , keep talking & keep at this. Journey's over Man ,some people didn't come back , but you did .

Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

@Jennifer-bw7ku

8 ай бұрын

Does anyone know any good source to get them? I put so much on my plate and it definitely affects my stress and anxiety levels, would love to give shrooms a try.

@steceymorgan814

8 ай бұрын

Yes, dr.sporesss

@patriaciasmith3499

8 ай бұрын

Dr.sporesss is the best, he's been my go to for anything psychedelics.

@Jennifer-bw7ku

8 ай бұрын

Is he on instagram?

@steceymorgan814

8 ай бұрын

Yes he is. dr.sporesss

Far out…your honesty is real 😮

I can tell from your face how much it brings you back, im afraid to respond below your vids with my story, im at day 4. I hope following you might help. I gained tinnitus, from a night like that.

I know this is a bad experience but at the beginning picturing yall butt ass naked playing Wii bowling railing lines brought me a good laugh. Terribly sorry for your loss and I’m glad you’re sober !

Bro the way you’re breathing as you’re telling the story, I can tell it was a traumatic experience. Gives me anxiety just hearing you talk about it. Happy you’re doing great now though 🙏🏼

I love it. I wonder if this kind of honesty makes kids think twice befor doing any kind of drug... Usually it's drugs are bad, they will fuck u up. And when they try them and feel super good, they think its a bunch of bull...

@SardaukarX

10 ай бұрын

That’s why channels like this one are so precious. Never did drugs (not even weed) but I want to be able to explain to my kifs WHY drugs are bad for them, what they can and will do to them. Eric’s doing a hell of a job explaining what addiction’s like. I have a ton of respect for the man.

@jakeg9372

10 ай бұрын

@@SardaukarX😊 ppl

Thanks for sharing .

Brother. You've been through hell. No other words to describe it. I know hell as well since I can be my worst enemy most of the time. I just wanted to say that it kind of confort me to hear you and also that I wish you the best in life. You're out of that cloud that seems to enjoy tracking me down. So your words feels like a tiny and fragile glimmer of hope. God Bless if there is such a thing as god.

Recovering coke , valium and tablets ( codeine) . I can relate so much to your videos and currently going na meetings. It's hard and in my experience I still get to the point of relapse but have to remember how this drug made me after...not at the time (asci always felt comfortable and im my bubble) like you I always had it on my own.... I try and focus on how it made me feel the day after and the days after . When I did relapse the urge to want it increased so much that I had a dealers number ready to ring ! I respect the way you explain your story my friend.

Lad absolute respect to you for talking about it my life is fucked because of coke and alcohol

Smthis video made me fallow you! Know about you since i been addicted

I had a very similar maniacal psychosis of paranoina that all started in one of my runs with amphetamine when I was about 18 years old and it took me well over a year to get back to normal. I had the same paranoia with police breaking into my apartment and hiding in different parts of my flat. I couldnt go to the bathroom without a knife and when I sat in the bath one night with two knives it just fell off like water that it wasn't real, if they wanted to come in and take me it would already had happened. So myblesson from that was to get out of a psychosis like that you must figure it out yourself. You got into it and you're the only one who can get out of it. ❤

Thanks bro 💎

New here. I appreciate you. Really.

Losing someone you truly love in the midst of drug addiction is the worst.. its just too much to deal with all together

Thank you for sharing

Very honest, if you know you know bless you 🙏

I still miss it even after 3 years without. But never again 🙏🏼

thanks for sharing your storry bro

I’m really sorry for your loss. Kind of went through the same incident with my wife. We were both addicted to drugs but one night she walked out and was walking the streets and got hit by a car.