I feel really nervous but I know I’ll feel so much better after I post this video. I’ll make sure to keep you guys posted on my IG Story if you're interested in daily updates (@stephanie_buttermore). Also, let me know if you want to see a full day of eating in the comments!👇 Thank you for sticking with me in this next chapter. Love you guys! 💕

@AznMoonlightz

3 жыл бұрын

Yess would love to see a full day of eating video 😍 Super proud of you stephanie of your braveness, courage and willingness to open up with us! Always supporting you 💕

@soul_ofcereal5462

3 жыл бұрын

Stephanie, thank you for going against the grain, being vulnerable and REAL. You’ve helped me, and probably many more, through some struggles with diet and exercise obsession and I ALWAYS look forward to your videos :)

@hyupk

3 жыл бұрын

You are so beautiful not just because YOU R BEAUTIFUL but also because you're happy internally and that u aren't starving or anything. You are beautiful imperfectly perfect and amazing and gorgeous ( I know I should be using commas but whatever😂)

@nobuhlemthethwa2644

3 жыл бұрын

Yes please...miss your 'full day of eating' videos

@DELHIFASHIONBLOGGER

3 жыл бұрын

Love you Stephanie from India 😘 from personal experience, drinking green tea leaves + spearmint leaves+ basil leaves together after each meal has helped in my anxiety episodes alot since it balances my sense, please try it and let me know if it works for you! 🤗 Thank you for being you!

I don't think you'll ever know just what an impact you've had on millions of women (and men) with your videos. The insight, humour, reality and honesty. You've helped so many people. Stephanie, you are a true star. A beautiful person inside out. Be kind to yourself. You are the most important person. Be good to yourself. You are loved ❤️

@maryk6678

3 жыл бұрын

Wayne Goss, you are also an amazing inspiration! I adore your positive, kind energy.

@soniauk4284

3 жыл бұрын

You are also an inspiration to many Wayne xx 😊🙏

@heatherlaurenRN

3 жыл бұрын

YES!! she has helped me personally and I will be forever thankful of these videos and the timing of them in my life.

@ivoryglass3589

3 жыл бұрын

Aww WAYNE-- You are such an angel!!

@amyparra1881

3 жыл бұрын

Seriously. I am a nutritionist... and also a woman that feels the pressure to be perfect. You put your best foot forward, so no one can see the other foot out. At some point, we must be comfortable and confident with who we are no matter what the goals are.

This is a modern world - this is what we've done to women. A smart, healthy woman is thinking about weight... a lot. I'm 51 and I have obsessed about my weight my entire life. It breaks my heart how much I've missed out on because I hated my body, and I still hate my body. I have no solutions, but this video is the healthiest conversation about weight that I've seen in a long time. I hope young people focus just on health - what's healthy - and being extremely overweight and underweight isn't healthy. Thanks for posting. I hope your positivity continues and that you love yourself more and more.

@mllemelocoton8272

3 жыл бұрын

Stay in there hold tight you are doing amazing just by trying!

@mnelson2008

3 жыл бұрын

@@mllemelocoton8272

@xenia_maria

3 жыл бұрын

yea unfortunately we teach women from young ages that our appearance is our most important value and it’s not, there’s so many things that are more important!

@a697ag

3 жыл бұрын

Reading this post is like listening to my inner voice. Most of my female friends are in the same boat and it breaks my heart. They're smart; funny; creative; hard working; successful in their chosen careers; amazing people, partners, daughters, sisters, mothers and friends... and all still looking at the scale for validation. It's exhausting

@jenjencurls

3 жыл бұрын

I always remember a story a hospice nurse said, she was caring for a person with terminal cancer, and the patient told her, “just eat the cake.” The nurse was confused, and the patient explained the same thing you said, she worried so much about what to eat or not to eat, about what was healthy or not, she wasted so much time worrying about how she looked, what she put on her body, yet she was in hospice dying of cancer. She regretted worrying so much about those insignificant things, because at the end of the day none of that mattered. She died shortly after that and the nurse said that changed her perspective permanently. Worry about making connections with people, about forming lasting memories that you can share with the future generations, about enjoying life, because that’s what you will remember when you are on your deathbed.

Stephanie. This isn’t in any way to be mean but you should talk to a therapist. You used to feel pressure to be lean and now you feel pressure to maintain your new body. Your “all in” journey has made your body healthier, but your mind is still where it was a year ago. You’re still very body focused, anxious, and a perfectionist in a new way. The body issues won’t go away unless you deal with them, and perhaps stop making these videos which focuses so heavily on your physical shape. You’ve done SO MUCH GOOD for those with eating disorders, but you can’t help anyone if you don’t help yourself.

@kimmy225

3 жыл бұрын

I was thinking this also. She seems like such a sweet and amazing person, but I noticed that all of her content seems to be fixated on her body and feeling uncomfortable/adjusting to her new body. She’s beautiful and perfect the way she is. She would definitely benefit from seeing a therapist.

@natania8347

3 жыл бұрын

Completely agree

@milkbread5036

3 жыл бұрын

I agree, she should now focus most of her energy on her mental state than physical!

@kani9284

3 жыл бұрын

talking to a therapist is always a good idea but I really do think we as people who are not youtube influencers cannot imagine what pressure comes with it, especially if you have a big following. Even if Steph fixes her issues I think feeling pressure is a given if you make yourself so vulnerable for the whole internet to see, do you know what I mean?

@BarryAllen-ht9jm

3 жыл бұрын

Glad you wrote this because I would of sounded way more mean

Perhaps it time to step away from the videos surrounding your weight and comparing it to how it was pre going all in. I mean even the thumbnails you have put together with photos of your changing body and weight measurements on it, that would be difficult for anyone to put out there let alone someone who has struggled with body image. Please stop doing this to yourself, no one is focusing on your weight we just want you to do what feels healthy and positive for you both physically and mentally.

@rabiaalaroui

3 жыл бұрын

👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

@ttttg5302

3 жыл бұрын

Exactly, just vlog also about other stuff or stuff like that

@annyms5092

3 жыл бұрын

God bless, Jesus loves you and died for you all

@naimadelafeunte9165

3 жыл бұрын

I agree with u i ready dont get it why she is doing this to her Self

@knjdlove92

3 жыл бұрын

I think she's been incredibly brave with her journey and bringing awareness to help others struggling with the same issue. Not to mention, she's really trying to promote being healthy and body positivity & acceptance. I really admire her for that, being so public with her journey has probably helped a lot of other women struggling, to focus on their health rather than obsess over 'perfection'. And truthfully, as a person who has struggled with disordered eating, I find this really helpful and a comfort.

You went “all in” at the same time I was in treatment for my eating disorder. It was the scariest thing I’ve ever done, and you helped me so much. Thanks for your honesty, bravery, and courage.

@Flow-sy

3 жыл бұрын

She helped me so much too. I wish the best for all of you who struggle with an Ed, we can do it❤️

@mllemelocoton8272

3 жыл бұрын

Hi Audree! I went all in too at the same time as Stephanie because of my ED was picking up again! I hope you are doing well and stay healthy!

@harlequeen93

3 жыл бұрын

And this is it. I have no issue with Stephanie's journey, but I feel like she's dancing around the fact that all of the things she described as making her miserable when before All In are basically symptoms of an eating disorder. Looking at the pictures of her from 18-20 months ago, she looked like almost emaciated.

@Flow-sy

3 жыл бұрын

@@harlequeen93 I think she might either not realize that or doesn't have a diagnosis and therefore doesn't want to claim to have a mental illness when she's not 100 percent sure

@harlequeen93

3 жыл бұрын

@@Flow-sy that's absolutely a possibility. I just want there to be a more transparent conversation and clear acknowledgment that many of her old videos (that anyone can access and use for fitness) encouraged these behaviors as perfectly healthy when they were not. People giving her shit for gaining weight is nonsense, and at the same time with so many girls in these comments saying that she helped them through their EDs, I feel like she has a responsibility to at least acknowledge that there were some parallels between her journey and that of people who actually went/are going through EDs.

You got this!! ❤️

@alices3486

3 жыл бұрын

You two are adorable^^

@collarmole1819

3 жыл бұрын

Marry her 🤩

@candelafernandezescudero7389

3 жыл бұрын

I love you both

@bobythomas2282

3 жыл бұрын

Jeff when are u gonna propose her .....😔😔.......

@katyaa609

3 жыл бұрын

You’re both amazing and inspirational! I look to both of your channels for factual, healthy habits I can apply to my life. Steph you’re brave, strong, and genuine. Thank you for continuing to share your journey. 🤍

Have you considered loading different content, other than body videos ? This may help with your anxiety. I think you should take a break from weight and post some other content!

@ttttg5302

3 жыл бұрын

Indeed, these videos are all the same, post something new not weight related

In my opinion, while I do think social media and public comments have an effect, I truly believe that it's *actually* STEPHANIE who believed All In was going to be a completely linear process, a straight shot with no hurdles....NOT the public spectators. After all, being a PhD scientist, Stephanie did tons of research into diet recovery. She looked into it thoroughly, talked to experts and read scientific papers about set point, etc. She was all very methodical. She was the one who knew everything and educated viewers about it in various videos; we had little to no prior knowledge... so how could we have any preconceived notions about the process? If anyone believed it would be a linear process, it was only because Stephanie made it seem so. So in actuality, her rational, strictly data-based thinking resulted in herself being disillusioned with the process, realizing it wasn't a "miracle" cure with no side effects. Instead of saying "people think", "people may believe", she should just be honest to herself and say " *I* believed", " *I* thought..." xyz about All In and it was *I* who was mistaken. I find that once you acknowledge that your problems are under YOUR control and yours alone, you can be confident that you will eventually find a solution. You never have to worry what anyone says because you realize they never mattered in the first place.

@ABnormalZUCHINI

3 жыл бұрын

Exactly! To be honest, she was actually met with more skepticism and not many people believed in the linear process she portrayed

@veraekritzinger1532

3 жыл бұрын

YES!!!! 🙌

@lumachinomenolattola

3 жыл бұрын

The fact that she has a phd doesn't mean that she doesn't have an ED. Her problem is that she tries to rationalise something that is not rational (body image issues and ED). She needs professional help.

@Philbyyyy

3 жыл бұрын

Her phd is not even related to this

@AnnaHans88

3 жыл бұрын

@@ABnormalZUCHINI The problem is that those skeptics were bashed and hated on by some of Steph's followers. I understand positivity is important, but nowadays people take it too far and if you say something skeptical or anything other than "YASS QUEEEN" people will hate you for it. It's a weird, toxic positivity that I really dislike.

Sharing things publicly is so difficult. I can’t imagine coming from a place of being a fitness influencer and then deciding to go all in. I’m on a public weight loss journey and just stalling in the journey people had A LOT to say😅😅😅 it is rough but you are helping a ton of people by publicizing this. It is so hard to not hear those opinions and it sucks that the reality of the situation is that one negative opinion seems to hold so much more weight than 100 positive ones but you are incredibly intelligent and I hope you can put on some blinders to all that and focus on what you want. Wishing you the best💛💛💛

@angelap3403

3 жыл бұрын

you're doing amazing Bea!

@sarahdunn2927

3 жыл бұрын

Beatrice you’ve also been an inspiration to me as well as Stephanie keep doing the damn thing you’re amazing and strong!! Don’t let the bastards get you down

@amanndabrown

3 жыл бұрын

My two favorites in one place🥺

@mehwishqahar941

3 жыл бұрын

Bea and stephanie both super intelligent. Bea you have incredible sense of humor.🥰

@Lolzadoodle8484

3 жыл бұрын

Yass Bea & Steph!!

My advice would be maybe branching out your content? So it’s not only fitness focused so maybe people would stop commenting constantly. I follow you for your personality, so anything that makes you happy will make you followers happy too!

@Vee-o4c

3 жыл бұрын

Agreed. I think this is a great suggestion and I second it :)

@sparkydoodle96

3 жыл бұрын

Yesss I'd love to see more videos about the phd and grad student life and all the classes and her dissertation etc. She's so good at explaining things well and making it look effortless maybe she can actually get through my mathematically challenged brain lol

@mariahauser9426

3 жыл бұрын

That's an excellent idea dear! I too love Steph's personality and just listening to her talking about cubing with that twinkle in her eyes is a huge motivation for me lol

@This.is.Bonnie

3 жыл бұрын

Love that idea!

@bobbobby475

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah I can easily see her transition/add in other forms of content EASILY

Get off social media it’s messing with you way to much if it is taking any effect on how you feel about your body weight? You shouldn’t put your weight loss or gain in the hands of others I’m sorry but you need to be honest with yourself and take a step back ... your followers on KZread should not effect your health !

@me5o

3 жыл бұрын

Then how would she make money and stay relevant? This drama is what she lives for.

@dianejilenkrian8898

3 жыл бұрын

I agree! This became very confusing. I’ve been following her journey... without yet making an opinion about her intentions or even the “all in” and this whole thing.. Watching this vid; I think it’s way deeper than sharing her all in journey. I think she needs to stop with the videos because she’s as confused internally as she sounds in her videos.

@raymundoo2879

3 жыл бұрын

It's her marketing tactic. She has followers who are brainless zombies that like to play victim.. Smfh

@dianejilenkrian8898

3 жыл бұрын

@@raymundoo2879 sad :(

@gillyfranklin1550

3 жыл бұрын

@J what's wrong with you?

I say this without judgment as I have my own body issues, but take your body offline. Take your life offline. I am not convinced that social media is a good thing...and I have various accounts. I've got a love/hate relationship with it. The pressure is making you stay focused on your body/appearance/food, which isn't healthy. It's adding stress to your life, and the current world situation is hellish enough.

@nevaehb.4371

3 жыл бұрын

I agree social media is making a lot of people mentally ill.

@Mexicobeanpole

3 жыл бұрын

I agree with this 100%.

@dianapachecolara.8322

3 жыл бұрын

👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

Hi Stephanie, with all due respect, I disagree with your opinion that as long as your content you put online can help people, it’s worth your anxiety.. for you to help others, you should help yourself first. And I say this with concern. I’m sure you’ll be in a better place to give advice or just put yourself out there if your mental health is taken care of first. It might be difficult for you if you’ve so many eyes watching due to the nature of your job.. take care steph!

@kiiimb0t

3 жыл бұрын

This.

@someoneusa

3 жыл бұрын

yup

@tatianayasmin

3 жыл бұрын

Agree

@ruthamaya3484

3 жыл бұрын

100%

@05sophi

3 жыл бұрын

👏👏👏

This is what it’s needed: real life stuff. Not everything is sunshine. We tend to show the best of our life and we often forget some days are quite difficult. Life is tough, and specially now oh dear, it’s definitely time of struggle. 💖

@rayr8530

3 жыл бұрын

Your videos seem very entertaining! Just subscribed :)

@dietitianandreaurizar

3 жыл бұрын

@@rayr8530 that's so sweet, thanks! :)

A woman with a PhD feels pressure to simultaneously maintain her weight, not be too fat, not be too skinny... Not because of health, but because people care more about her appearance than her as a person.

@juliesquirrel

3 жыл бұрын

So true.

@nopeabb8393

3 жыл бұрын

Problem is that SHE cares too much.

@yeiiful

3 жыл бұрын

And because she cares more about what people say...

@oygevaltanuddashoah4644

3 жыл бұрын

No one gives a shit about her appearance. SHE does. That's the problem

@msmilano7091

3 жыл бұрын

"People" don't care what Stephanie weighs or looks like aesthetically. Stephanie does. It would be so refreshing for her to show other parts of her life other than revolving it around food and weight. It's a shame because it's textbook behaviour for someone with an eating disorder- food and body image are all they think about,. She can't help it right now, but to say it is her audience who put the emphasis on it is simply not true. Remember people have their own lives going on, no one sits around thinking about what a stranger on the internet looks like. I would guess most of Steph's subscribers would love to see more of Stephanie the person. Not the constant "this is what I eat/this is what I weigh" ....at the end if the day it doesn't matter.

As someone that exercises daily and has body dysmorphia I'd like to say thank you so much for being real with us and showing your progress. Too many fitness influencers (specifically women) portray a very unhealthy lean physique. You've been so healthy for me mentally and you've inspired me to be intuitive with when I'm hungry and not shame myself. You're gorgeous and amazing! I adore you and please don't stop posting. You are one of the healthiest fitness influencers out there and I respect you so much.

Stephanie: Something I see as an outside viewer (watching you for 3 years now) is that maybe you need to step away from focusing so much on the “All In” discussion. I know it has helped many, but practically every single video you have made has revolved around discussing your weight gain. And if it isn’t the main focus, it is still mentioned. Every YT video, IG post, IG story you make mentioning All In or you gaining weight is further associating yourself to your physical appearance or the number on the scale. It also isn’t much new information your journey either, but repeating it over and over - at times it feels like you are trying to justify the why for the weight gain or now your loss - and you have explained yourself once, which is not even necessary and you do not owe it to anyone. But you explained the same thing a second time, a third… and so on. You are more than your weight, relationship with food, or appearance. And even if All In has helped you change your life in so many positive ways… you are not restricted by this label of being “All In”. I don’t know you personally, so I’m not sure if this All In identity has taken over in your everyday, personal life. But it seems to have become your entire social media persona. I see a lot of comment saying you should take a long social media break due to how it impacts your food guilt, perception of your body, etc. And it probably isn’t realistic for you because your platform is your livelihood. So I would suggest instead, focus less on so much talk regarding your All In journey - or even food related videos. Maybe make videos on your favorite books, workouts, vlogs, whatever it may be! But please, I don’t see you making almost daily Instagram content that always relates to your All In journey or not feeling bad about the meal you are eating or showing your body as an update - that cannot be good for you or anyone. Sending you love and I am sorry for this opinion you did not ask for, but I have been thinking about this for almost a year now.

@nannyboo9832

3 жыл бұрын

Agreed! It’s repetitive and seems detrimental, like all that matters is her weight

@taylor11111

3 жыл бұрын

I agree. She need to just step away. she’s obsessed.

@anniehamma6732

3 жыл бұрын

This is exactly where my thoughts have been. This may just be from an outside perspective, but it seems as though “All In” has overshadowed everything else about her. It’s become her identity. And, from a mental health standpoint, that is hardly better for her than before, when her identity centered around being visibly fit and lean. I mean, you’re a goddamn doctor, Stephanie. You got a freaking PhD while building a massive online presence. You undertook an incredibly controversial (for your industry) journey in a very public format and are the better for it in many ways-the exception being the mental health hurdles you’re now facing. As someone who shares a background in science, I can feel you methodically thinking through every scenario and every potential ramification of each scenario, and every potential solution to each ramification. It makes me tired to write it, I can’t imagine how tired you are of thinking it. Your body is not an experiment. Your life is not an experiment. And that’s fine. It is fine to just BE. Without reason, without explanation, without defense. Maybe KZread puts creators in boxes--like you need to find your niche and hone it so you can build a reliable community. Maybe you feel like, since you stopped being the typical “fitspo” KZreadr, you need to be the champion of all things All In. Maybe you think, this is who you are now. But that is simply untrue. KZread is just a job. That goes for every single creator. It’s just a job. That doesn’t mean it’s not meaningful or not worthwhile. But just, perspective. You can stop this whenever you want and find another way to make a living. One that doesn’t have you under a million microscopes, every day. You know what studying cancer taught me? That when there is a sickness in the body, the most effective treatment is to cut it out at the source. Seek professional help in identifying what the source of this anxiety and guilt truly is. And then liberate yourself from it.

@MrBobblemand

3 жыл бұрын

Social media is her primary source of income, so stepping away for a while is expensive

@gemmadelatorre5535

3 жыл бұрын

Wholeheartedly agree

Maybe start with seeing a professional psychologist? If the anxiety is as severe as you say, talking to a camera is probably not enough. Talk to a professional girl because you're dealing with a lot.

@emh8861

3 жыл бұрын

Not, needs to do high fat low carb.

@fldhkybnva

3 жыл бұрын

This was my first thought. Therapy would be helpful if she’s not already in it. Recovery, calling it what it is, can be crippling and tough to navigate.

@kristystrives6979

3 жыл бұрын

Well this is her job.

@plipplop1769

3 жыл бұрын

@@emh8861 Nothing wrong with some carbs. If a psychologist says that's what will help her fine, but I don't think you can tell her what's good for her at this moment.

@catsom9618

3 жыл бұрын

As a person that has seen multiple psychologists in her day I’ll say it’s not always the first step or a solution by any means. I think this opening up is exactly what a psychologist will actually suggest to combat that anxiety. Medication/therapy is only but temporary support :))

Don’t waste your life worrying about your weight. There’s so much more to focus on.

@farah_lynn

3 жыл бұрын

Amen!

@mysterygirl30011

3 жыл бұрын

While I obviously wholeheartedly agree, she is a nutritionist by training and is dating a fitness youtuber (not sure what his background is but also knowledgeable in nutrition) and I d9nt know whether she coached anyone but (and therefore) her life kinda revolves around it and already did prior... She probably feels she has to hold certain standards for her professional life (also as a youtuber)

@OneWeekTime

3 жыл бұрын

@@mysterygirl30011 it doesnt matter about career or passion, people need to know how to leave their jobs at the door sometimes. To hold the highest standard for herself, she needs to be able to think about things other than food and body.

@mysterygirl30011

3 жыл бұрын

@@OneWeekTime I totally agree with that but I think that is why and that is the hardest bit rather than worrying about her weight itself.

@p.r.9982

3 жыл бұрын

There has got to be bigger goals in life, especially for women. I mean come on!

Oh dear, I think everyone was kinda hoping you might move away from videos on food and eating. You’ve done amazing and we thank you for sharing your journey....but now....Go live your life away from the camera! Be happy. KZread is judgement you obviously don’t cope well with, it’s not healthy long turn and you will always remain body focused when you are filming so go pursue different interests. You surely don’t need to be a youtube star to find success and fulfilment in life???

@mferrariish

3 жыл бұрын

Exactly. I mean, the woman has a PhD for gods sakes it’s not like she has nothing to fall back on. At this point, it’s coming across as just wanting views or poor self awareness

@Peanutwhiskers77

3 жыл бұрын

Yes, I agree! Too much of something is never a good thing. This is becoming an obsession to the point where I can see why she’s been feeling so anxious. I hope she finds peace and something positive to focus on.

@Philbyyyy

3 жыл бұрын

@@mferrariish she's already said in an interview that the influencer life is easier, you can just lift and workout and make money

@mferrariish

3 жыл бұрын

@@Philbyyyy well it makes sense, I guess I didn’t see that one

You have no idea how many lives you’re saving by speaking up about such a controversial topic. I know you’ve saved me for sure this past year. Decided to go “all in” after being an unhealthily low weight at age 18 and have managed to gain a significant amount over the last few months. Couldn’t have done it without knowing I wasn’t alone in this♥️ love you and so so grateful xx

@dianak8516

3 жыл бұрын

Hey Steph, I’m actually really sorry about what I just commented because I wouldn’t want u to ever feel that u have to maintain this for the rest of us. Whatever u are dealing with is ok. You’re human. And we’re with u every step of the way

@moonlit_tripsnstyle

3 жыл бұрын

Diana K Congratulations 🎉

@alyssashoemaker3414

3 жыл бұрын

Oh my goodness, I'm surprised you're still alive! Thank God!! Good luck on the rest of your journey to recovery!!

@dianak8516

3 жыл бұрын

Alyssa Shoemaker thank u♥️ it’s been a hell of a tough year as I’m sure many can relate but definitely one full of growth & gratitude

@jdub8151

3 жыл бұрын

That is amazing. Keep it up! 💕

She's a textbook example of someone with serious body image issues. Professional therapy would help. And getting off social media ASAP.

@VASIGTravelingLifeinLondon

3 жыл бұрын

Feel like with her job is quite difficult. ❤️

@BurnMyEyes0107

3 жыл бұрын

@@VASIGTravelingLifeinLondon not really.

@lilysmuck5637

3 жыл бұрын

Don’t be an asshole. Stephanie is generous enough to put herself out there in order to raise awareness about this topic, and you should be nothing but grateful for that.

@louiset2212

3 жыл бұрын

She did get professional therapy...that's how she started doing All In. A lot of what she says in this video and throughout her All In journey is ED recovery rhetoric so she is working on getting better but it's a process with non-linear progress. I MUCH prefer these types of videos than her cheat day and 10k calorie day videos.

@ereyna1010

3 жыл бұрын

Stephanie you are stressing about 5% of the worlds criticism of your body meanwhile 95% thinks you are a perfect specimen.

Steph, LEAVE KZread FOR WHILE, FOR GOD'S SAKE GIRL!!! Stop caring about what we unknown people think, and focus on YOURSELF. We dont care about your body fluctuation, as long as you are happy that's what counts!! These videos show you are so overwhelmed girl, and your mental health won't bare much more of it. You are still food-and-body-fixed, so just take a break on uploading so much content and live your real life!!! Start the real path to self-love, which has nothing to do with all this. Understand that we are NOT our minds, they work too fast, and yours is getting too full of negativity here in KZread. I recommend meditation, reading Eackhart Tolle or Joe Dispenza, bc you need to stop idetinfying yourself so much with your body and your mind. They are both our allies, but first we need to understand that: 1. our body is only the vehicle to live our lives, and that all healthy bodies are perfect (yours is!!) no matter the looks!!! 2. we need to stop the constant chat in our minds, and observe it, without judging ourselves, to be able to focus on the present and what real life is about. LOTS OF LOVE FROM SPAIN :)

You don't have a weight problem, you have a problem with people's perception of you. You are giving strangers too much space in your life.

@marinamarina4482

3 жыл бұрын

Exactly

@nannyboo9832

3 жыл бұрын

Agree

@JS-ns8dr

3 жыл бұрын

I do agree. It isn’t about weight anymore. It’s about mental issues

@parisjones9328

3 жыл бұрын

Strong agree

@ellenko2684

3 жыл бұрын

This right here

Am I the only one who thinks that the food is never a problem, but mental state is? Food is just one of the forms in which anxiety and depression take form and these are much deeper issues that need to be addressed with a therapist. Body and food are just external factors, working on them is not gonna help resolve deeper inner problems, Worst case scenario, food will again become the problem because everything in the videos revolves around food/body. Thank you for reading it :)

@botten4187

3 жыл бұрын

at this point I guess most people think the same

@sophiazion1113

3 жыл бұрын

i definitely see where you're coming from, it definitely does have to do with mental state !! but i don't think it has to necessarily be anxiety or depression,, i feel like she displays behaviors of eating disorders which are different from anxiety and depression although they're not always exclusive . i don't think food and body have to be external factors, w eating disorders that could be the main problem because its almost like developing an irrational fear of food and gaining weight and it becomes really obsessive. personally, I have an ED and it has caused me to show signs of anxiety and depression but it is exclusive from them as a whole, its not just "external factors" to bigger issues, these ARE my issues. even just from this video hearing Stephanie talk about food guilt and justifying eating at certain times makes me worry for her :( j wanted to share my thoughts !

@ashleyvillarreal4479

3 жыл бұрын

Yes people often turn to controlling their food intake and working out as a means to cope with anxiety not realizing it. So once you heal the food issues like she did you’re left with the anxiety still. That is the same thing that happened with me but I am working through where that stems from etc.

@secondchannel7186

3 жыл бұрын

Yes absolutely! I was very sick at one point and I thought it was all about food issues and eds but it wasnt. It was just a simple form my anxiety and depression was acting out in. When I healed truly from the inside I realized this. Im a SAS and once I conquered this and changed my life I realized food is easy. My metabolism is quicker at 33 then it was at 19. This stuff is common sense its simple but its the mental part, the mental games... that complicate it. Anyone can save their life. I was almost gone and Im here thankfully! I promise anyone can save their life. It starts with the mind!

@bikinibodywax

3 жыл бұрын

I agree completely

Your honesty, your authenticity, your candor - it touches my heart.

If you live for approval, you'll die by rejection I think you need to take a break from youtube and social media, and actually think about what you want rather than what your viewers want.

@jaymzx2587

3 жыл бұрын

Great oneliner, I’ll remember that one.

To think anyone would criticize her journey is beyond me. She's literally been so open and genuine about her own personal struggles... like how can you even hate on somebody that's trying to better themselves. Will never understand but YES we'd love to see a full day of eating!

@mandavvv

3 жыл бұрын

Becky Chung i know!! people are crazy! i love steph. i always look forward to seeing her vids.

@hemingway3508

3 жыл бұрын

She is trying to get sympathy and attention. At this point it is obvious that she is lying.

@HikaruCrystal8

3 жыл бұрын

@@hemingway3508 Okay I'll bite, lying about what exactly?

@hemingway3508

3 жыл бұрын

@@HikaruCrystal8 Lying about her anxiety. No way her "hunger" from dieting is still haunting her.

@letsdomath1750

3 жыл бұрын

​@@hemingway3508 It seems the anxiety is related to social media use and wanting to maintain a certain image when it may not be feasible with her All in eating plan at the moment.

Your obstacles seem to be us. Take a break.

@hannah6yearsago683

3 жыл бұрын

so wise☺️👏👏

@milkbread5036

3 жыл бұрын

I agree. Just like she took a break from dieting, she should do the same with KZread for a bit.

@morenawicce

3 жыл бұрын

@J Belittling others is not cool.

@zerocooljpn

3 жыл бұрын

totally. We're all trying to be nice, being Jeff's gf and all. All the "problem" arguments are pretty subjective. And it shouldn't take 17m vid to express this... we all support you and all, but nobody is trying to put pressure on you. If you feel pressure, just remove the source, at least for a while.

I’m so grateful to you for sharing this journey. You have helped me so much with my ed recovery and I will always be grateful to you. Any time I have food guilt or go to skip a meal I think of you and listen to my body. No matter your size you inspire me and I will always support your creative works. Sending you so much love.

Omg your video change me!! I was eating like 500 to 800 calories per day and working out, I thought I needed to lose more and more weight. Now I feel so much confident and confortable about eating more and not feeling guilty or terrible if I gain weight, your videos are so helpful! Thank you so much

@AveryLakota

4 ай бұрын

oh my god 500 calories is less than one of my three meals- girl

Definitely talk to a therapist. Honestly, EVERYONE would benefit from talking to one to have a neutral ear to vent to & be given healthy coping skills or just the tools to handle/control these negative thoughts/feelings that are impacting them. Because no sane person is happy 24/7 & never runs into stress. I'm going soon since my depression & anxiety kills my appetite... I was underweight for 10yrs & just gained a bunch this year by pushing myself to eat. But I'm back to not being able to eat... (No, I don't stop myself from eating... Negative emotions removes my appetite).. also low blood sugar can cause anxiety to spike... I can't work out with the lack of calories... 😔

@megancooper6130

3 жыл бұрын

Much love to you! ❤️

@Alisha21210

3 жыл бұрын

@@megancooper6130 thank you, love to you as well💕

Everyone should realize that ideal weight is not just one number but rather a range. Then they won't freak out or be surprised if you're up or down a few pounds from where you are now. That's normal! Blessings to you

@joannapatterson4625

3 жыл бұрын

So true. We all have a weight range of at least 5 pounds that is normal and comfortable.

@dMi_mi

3 жыл бұрын

💯 exactly.

@Nicolacurran1

3 жыл бұрын

Yup especially for women who have a menstrual cycle!

@MrWill1729

3 жыл бұрын

its not a "few" pounds though is it

Gosh, you’re amazing! I’m so proud of you for being so transparent. I think it may help to take a step back from social media and just enjoy your life. ❤️

Can’t tell you how much I appreciate your honesty about anxiety and food guilt. Thank you!! Love the full day of eating videos 💖

Man I don't understand how I use to praise her old body as an ideal body she looks amazing and happier now, you're gorgeous Stephanie ❤️

@harlequeen93

3 жыл бұрын

Right like.....so many of us did and even Stephanie has yet to acknowledge how dangerously thin and food-obsessed she used to be. I feel like she's dancing around the fact that all of the things she described as making her miserable when before All In were basically symptoms of an eating disorder. Looking at the pictures of her from 18-20 months ago, she looked like almost emaciated. I wish we could all be more blunt about when fitness bloggers essentially encourage disordered eating and orthorexia.

@jeneeday3110

3 жыл бұрын

My opinion- sometimes (or most of the time) you don’t see something as a “before” until you see or realize the after. Hindsight. Also a lot of times people in the fitness community are complimenting because they understand the amount of effort that goes into physique and competing. Not necessarily because they think it’s a sustainable ideal. (And I’m not saying that makes them right to praise each other.) Steph, I think you are amazing. 💙

@marieburgo1995

3 жыл бұрын

I’m thinking the same!!

@SecretAgent440

3 жыл бұрын

Allyssa Golden Agreed... her eating was definitely disordered and I wish she said this because this is what is responsible, at least partially, for her extreme hunger

@BdetteRose

3 жыл бұрын

Allyssa Golden I find it frustrating that she doesn’t address this head-on. She was straight up emaciated but only refers to her being overly “restrictive” and “food focused” during that time, when its pretty clear she had an eating disorder(s). What she is essentially doing now is eating disorder recovery (all in) but she doesn’t address it as that either.

I feel like closing the all in experiment, stop posting update pics and keep on with your life could help. you had your goal, you succeded + you helped maaany others, including me. now it's time to put all your energy and focus on yourself only and move on. don't get me wrong, I know you would still want to keep us updated but from my perspective, it's been enough time to show all in really worked and it is a great method for anyone in the same or similar place as you've been before. don't feel like you have to be the living proof for the rest of your life. it's been a lot, you crushed it, you've helped so many. now feel free to completely let go and move onto something else. much love girl!

@robynw8223

3 жыл бұрын

yes!!

@jackiee7921

3 жыл бұрын

+

@heidifink991

3 жыл бұрын

Yes, agreed! She doesn't have to be a living example for the rest of her life.

I really like Stephanie, such a smart and empathetic person with a heart of gold. I do think though (judging from myself who has similar traits) that she is an overachiever and that unfortunately comes with a lot of pressure and "weight" on her shoulders. She is doing a lot of things, too many things for one person, work, youtube, relationship, mum, personal worries, new book etc...I love people's comments on caring for herself and take a step back. Stephanie has inspired so many people, and of course people want to be supportive and to give her space to do whatever is best for herself! There is a lot of guilt when you're slowing down, but it is so necessary for mental wellbeing. We love you Stephanie! ❤️

You are amazing and I love how honest and raw you are about your journey.

Is anyone else thinking.. is this not exhausting for Stephanie, exhausting for all human beings being constantly fixated on weight 😫😞 wish we as an entire race could just stop caring about how we look or weigh. We're all worth so much more than that ❤️

@malnutritionboy

3 жыл бұрын

another way to say what you're saying is to enjoy your heart disease and diabetes. we should all care about how much we weigh, if you're obese you're gonna die earlier. i'm not saying Stephanie is obese because she isn't and she looks great. But your comment directly promotes obesity and i'm not for that.

@mpagey3

3 жыл бұрын

@Toogalla Boo I completely agree!!

@mariaprendeville7456

3 жыл бұрын

@@malnutritionboy there's a difference between caring about what we weigh, and being fixated ^

@malnutritionboy

3 жыл бұрын

@@mariaprendeville7456 "wish we as an entire race could just stop caring about how we look or weigh" your words babe

@SaphirBeere

3 жыл бұрын

@@malnutritionboy Read "Health at every size" by Lindo Bacon, there has been done a lot of research on how over 100 factors (of which a lot are out of control) affect someone's weight. Implementing healthy behaviours are beneficial for overall health, even if weight stays the same. "Overweight" (by BMI) bodies tend to be less prone to disease and have faster recovery than "normal" (by BMI) bodies. Weight stigma is a real thing. And it's very unhelpful to solve the issue.

I would personally love to see your content diversify. Talking about lifestyle, mental health, relationship dynamics, education etc. You seem to have so much lifestyle and experience diversity and as a viewer I’d love to see you 1. Thrive 2. Not open yourself up to criticism from idiots on the internet when you may already be compromised emotionally 3. Switch it up :) watching your experience with all in has been so informative but remember that people would watch you regardless of what you’re taking about.

@alixwithani8250

3 жыл бұрын

I agree!

I look up to you so much, I just recently have started the all in and watching you makes me feel less alone ❤️ I never realized I could be at peace with my hunger and mental health till you

Thank you for continuing to be vulnerable with us, and letting us in your life! I love all of your videos, you are so informative and also fun! 💚

This is a really good example of how toxic social media has become. People feel the need to explain themselves constantly to appease their audience. Social media is still fairly new and we as a society aren't grasping how much of an effect this stuff has on our sense of identity.

No opinion here, just a huge “thank you” for sharing all this with us and being so honest 💕

@oliviacole7964

3 жыл бұрын

Love this comment 💓

I wish someone close to her would encourage her to get some professional help instead of enabling and ignoring this troubling behavior. I see myself in this obsession and therefore, I myself do have issues. But I'm not in denial about it and that's the first crucial step in recovery.

@PapunaOfficial

3 жыл бұрын

someone like jeff maybe? he is pretty good at fitness and stuff why not he helps her? she feels like lonley in her jurney

@Philbyyyy

3 жыл бұрын

Jeff is a bit of a villain here. Either he's too scared to confront her, he's clueless or he doesn't give a shit

You're so beautiful inside and out. There's an unveiling beauty that comes with being vulnerable for the sake of growth and helping others. I related to so many feelings you spoke on in this video, thank you for being so inspiring! 💞

You should find a passion, project, or purpose that doesn't involve food, exercise, or thinking about your body.

@bery33

3 жыл бұрын

She has that.

@natalienetanya7401

3 жыл бұрын

The point is to get your mind off food and body which will make you forget about it. You'd be more likely to only eat when hungry instead of navel-gazing and constantly searching for signals (over-analyzing) which is a prime opportunity for the mind to start playing tricks.

@savfaithcalhoun

3 жыл бұрын

I’m not sure if you meant for this comment to be nice or helpful, but it was the opposite. You implied that her anxieties or her struggles should easily disappear if she finds something to do with herself, as if you know that she’s doing nothing. If you don’t know or understand the full context of someone situation, don’t say anything constructive. Especially when they didn’t ask.

@TZ2nd

3 жыл бұрын

She has a PhD in the scientific field

@robynw8223

3 жыл бұрын

yes! she says she's gotten into reading and rubik's cubes but she should showcase her hobbies or even vlog something none body/food focused

I have one question, who matters most in this quest? The "social media?" You?" Jeff?" What weight do you feel comfortable with? You know and understand your own body's "messages" and "signals." Advise, for what it's worth, YOU NEED TO PLEASE YOU AND FORGET ALL THE OTHER OUTSIDE HATERS, COMMENTS, ETC. It appears that Jeff loves you regardless of your weight, so appease you, be you, do for you...Jeff will be there, those on social media will be "here today, gone tomorrow"...they don't count. Also, you're allowing yourself to be "limited" in when to eat based upon old trends, listen to your body and your own mind and heart...you know what and when to eat for your comfort, and what and when to eat for health or weight training. Keep working out and just eat like you know what is good. You're too beautiful of a person, inside and out, to worry and have anxiety about anything, especially what others think about your "all in" venture.

@transformxruby

3 жыл бұрын

omg i need you in my life - this question touched my heart

@Crust™

3 жыл бұрын

AMEN

your inspiring and amazing to come out with your struggles, remember, they make you stronger! your my idol! keep doing what your doing

U look amazing rn! as long as u r happy with urself, mentally and physically healthy, no one should ever have any problems. go girl! gain weight or lose weight it’s all ur decisions. u set a great example about we have control over our own bodies. thank u for ur knowledges, I’ve learned a lot from u!

You’re such a role model. I just applied for PhD programs for next fall and I’m super excited. I also changed up my lifestyle to make sure that the food I’m eating is fuel. I think you’re such an incredible human being

@GaryHighFruit

3 жыл бұрын

" incredible human being" Are you a bot? For incredible human, You need to check out the Carboraider.

Stephanie Idek if you’ll see this or not, but you’re the one who helped me get through my anorexia recovery, you’re making such a difference in this world. I love you and I’m so much happier now❤️❤️🥰

@estherjones7940

3 жыл бұрын

This made me cry 🥺

I can really see how sincere you're in this video! Thank you for sharing this with us 💕

Thank you Steph for being honest, transparent and true inspiration. I really respect your intelligence & for raising those issues and not hiding or covering them. I appreciate you 👏🏻

When you went all-in I realised I was underweight, constantly hungry and depressed. I decided to gain weight by just eating whatever. I'm up 12kg (26 lbs) and I had to deal with insecurities that never bothered me before. Brand new clothes not fitting me, having to get rid of a lot of pants, realising I have hip dips and that my jaw is misplaced making my face extremely asymmetrical after gaining weight, because the fat on my face is distributed unevenly. My stomach is never flat anymore, I'm constantly sweating, most of my pants don't fit around my hips anymore (went from xxs/xs to s/m) and I have buy completely new pants and sweatpants. I'm grateful that I didn't go though this all alone. Whenever I got insecure, sad or had a meltdown I watched your videos and it made me feel so much better that someone understands me. I'm anxious, paranoid and have so low apetite it makes me scared I'll loose all my progress. Because even though I'm not used to being normal weight, it's still a happier, healthier and more comfortable version of myself.

@belle1279

3 жыл бұрын

OMG SAME!!!! i can totally relate to everyt u’ve went through. tbh i haven’t thrown out my old clothes nor bought new ones so i’m always feeling insecure and depressed about it so i guess it’s actually time to get new ones! i extremely agree with the last part too and that’s also my motivation to carry on and just have that faith. you do you love ❤️

@wildtheim

3 жыл бұрын

@@belle1279 aww same! I didn't throw out my old clothes but I haven't bought new ones too. And everytime I wear my exact same clothes I feel so so bad because it doesn't fit like before anymore. Maybe it's really time buy new ones!

@lod2658

3 жыл бұрын

@@wildtheim .aybe just buy just a couple new items. Same happened to me. And wearing the pants that clearly were to small really showed me I gained weight, made me very insecure. So I got just 2 new pants that fit ny new weight. And I realized I looked really good! I'm sure u girls all look beautiful 😍

@wildtheim

3 жыл бұрын

lo d awww thank you so much! I’m sure you all are really beautiful too!

@belle1279

3 жыл бұрын

lo d agreed! yall are beautiful regardless xx

Don’t read comments. Just do you. Other people’s opinions say a lot about them not you.

@hristokozhuharov2585

3 жыл бұрын

Influencer not reading comments? Influencer are extremely Influenced by their subs. Its a a drug.

@GabijaS18

3 жыл бұрын

What? 😂

Your all-in videos have really influenced me who was struggling with the bulimia issue caused by constant calories counting.

i hope you know your videos are incredibly useful and necessary and there are so many ppl extremely grateful for your contribution and dedication. pls keep it up, your love & support will always overwhelmingly overpower the haters

Honestly, if I were you, you’ve got a PhD and can make a living outside of social media. For sanity’s sake, I’d live my life and be happy. No judgment because social media and 1 Million subs is a no small thing, but is it worth the anxiety? Truly feel for you. I hope you find peace with all of this. The state of our surroundings is stressful enough.

@raraavis7782

3 жыл бұрын

That's what I thought. Or at least focus more on fitness and science related content. Her channel has been all about 'all in' for a year now and while that is an important (and interesting) subject...maybe it's time now, to close that chapter and focus on content, that isn't about weight and body image. But yeah...if I had a PhD and was suffering from such severe problems, related to being a social media figure...I sure as heck would retire from that and just get a normal job. Or, since she already has such a large and devoted following, work part-time and do a podcast, instead of videos. There's money in that as well, but it wouldn't be all about, how she looks.

@asiram16

3 жыл бұрын

I agree with you. There's stress in every job, but I'm sure having to read everyone's opinion all the time about your life choices can be really tough

@AsianPoshDorene

3 жыл бұрын

Rara Avis great idea on the podcast. Focus on health and such and less on the physical attributes of her content. Netflix has a documentary out about social media and it’s affects on people. Unfortunately, Stephanie is the poster child of what it is doing to our society 😢

@AsianPoshDorene

3 жыл бұрын

Marisa Lally mental health is top priority! When you can’t gain or lose weight without having anxiety on what people behind a screen will say about it it’s time to reevaluate your own mental health.

@asiram16

3 жыл бұрын

@@AsianPoshDorene I know! Even as someone with no social media following I have to take a break sometimes from just getting brain involved in other people's opinions. I can't imagine having my appearance connected to my job

Neurons that fire together, wire together. The more you focus on your body and post about it, the more you reinforce it's importance. I think true freedom and liberation will result in paying it as little attention as possible, talking to us about different things and working on your harsh inner critic, anxiety and more self acceptance. We love you when you're happy. I broke down crying with you. I can see how confined you are by your expectations and societies. But now... I think you are the one putting the most pressure on yourself though. Most people honestly don't care if your weight changes again, and if they do, as long as you know in your heart your journey as and is successful, that's all that matters. And you still helped people and continue to. Do what you do need to do. Don't worry about us. It's time to live for you Steph, you deserve it. And the right people will love you without you having to people please. And they wont leave you if you aren't perfect. Good enough is more then enough. Sending you so so so so much love.

@heidifink991

3 жыл бұрын

THIS!! I 100% agree

@tatianayasmin

3 жыл бұрын

You explained just what I was thinking!

I can relate to this. I have struggled with severe anxiety as well--the kind that will literally keep you wide awake at night. I hope you're able to heal yourself.

oh my god i thought your original all in journey videos helped me a lot but this chapter Two really hit the mark for me again. I am 100% going through the same thing and I didnt know what was happening. Stephanie I am grateful that you shared your journey because it's helping me so much.

this is so real steph. anxiety is killer. don’t give up, and more importantly, don’t think you have to please us!! we will always be waiting here until you’re ready. please don’t pressure yourself to post when you’re at your lowest. and nothing is linear. if you’re not fluctuating, you’re not living. when you do post though, you help tremendously w my own journey :)

I don’t know if it was intentional, but I love that you shared this on world mental health day. I’m sorry to hear that you’ve been more anxious and I hope being able to talk about this more will be therapeutic for you. You’re such an inspiration not just for physical health, but mind/body/soul health. Thank you for sharing with us and being so human ❤️❤️❤️

Takes so much courage to open up about such personal issues online. Especially when everyone is so quick to offer their opinions. More power to you, gurl. You're an inspiration.

i´m so impressed and proud of you following your path, trying not listening to all the voices thinking to know better. you look great, you look radiant - you are such an inspiration!!!

Maybe now is the time to admit to yourself that you have an eating disorder. I have an ED too. It is nothing to be ashamed off. However, ED recovery involves both physical and mental recovery. Simply gaining weight is not enough as the ED thoughts around body size, body checking are still there. Your life still revolves around your body, EG. Your Instagram. This is disordered and is probably why you are feeling such pressure to stay a particular size. You have helped me immensely along my own journey, but it is obvious you have not recovered fully from your ED. I wish you all the best and am looking forward to reading your book

@vanessaangelina8763

3 жыл бұрын

I couldn't agree more. The whole focus on weight gain/loss feels tad obsessive and it personally seems to me to masks some internal issues. I don't think focusing on finding the 'perfect diet'; even if it's tailored specifically to that individual (intuitive, veganism, paleo, whatever it is) can help when there are issues internally that should be dealt with first. Just like addiction to alcohol, drugs, etc that we label as 'bad', food obsession is just another manifestation of what often is a mean to control, tool for instant gratification or a blind for lack of self worth. And no, it is nothing to be embarrassed of! We should view it as our body's signal for help and as you said, awareness and acknowledgement is the key to get started. Ofc we don't fully understand how she's feeling and thinking so I can only wish Steph nothing but the best!

@TheVeganVixenBlog

3 жыл бұрын

I’m not sure if it’s your traditional eating disorder or if it’s the new wave of eating disorders like orthorexia and her being in the fitness community for so long which is really where I think it stems from the most. Because she wasn’t super health-conscious before but health-conscious in the minds of a “fit focused” or “fit centric” person my feelings are that her body distortion came from that time in her life where she was so focused on a certain aesthetic and being a fitness-based Instagram her and competing etc. and I think for her she got a lot of backlash from that community and probably still does and I think it’s very unfair as she’s trying to fix herself. Ultimately I think she could benefit from therapy because her life is not just what she shows she has the whole caring for her mother, a long distance relationship, a myriad of things in her own personal mind and then the all In that has really encompassed most of her thoughts not to mention the social media aspect of going all in publicly. Inappropriate therapist might not be one individual therapist but two separate dealing with the ED element which may not even be NED but it could be because of the background she comes from and then the element of everything else that encompasses her life. It’s very clear that she is a perfectionist and I think a lot of that is a heavy weight to bear I personally see a therapist for 1 million different things and was diagnosed with OCPD and had to see a second therapist to deal with that issue alone, also in this instance of anxiety and my belief in naturopathic living I still believe in anxiety medication it has changed my life. I once had a doctor tell me I would be in the ground if I didn’t get it together, maybe she just needs a doctor to give her that push she needs. Sometimes you have to be scared to really make changes but it would have to be from a doctor she genuinely cares for. Although she may already be seeking steps to see a therapist Or be seeing a therapist and just not mentioning it either way I wish her so much wellness for her internal as well as her external health because both parts are equally important.

@EricaPapad

3 жыл бұрын

don't just throw around the word eating disorder like this.. if you are also suffering from one you should know that someone with an eating disorder would never be able to do this 'whole in' thing so easily, they would for sure never just decide to do it by themselves... i'm not saying she didn't have a hard time but for someone with an ED such a thing is unimaginable (or at least it feels like it is) ... one needs a lot of therapy to come to a point where they are ready to try and when they do they need a lot of professional help..they probably wouldn't manage on their own..especially the first few meals would be a nightmare ...also cheat days that she used to do are completely unimaginable for someone with an ED no matter how much you restrict...someone can be highly preoccupied with their appearance or have some disordered eating habits but not everyone has an ED.. please don't label so easily.. ED involves a lot of other behaviours and thoughts that you couldn't know if she had or not..

@screamingweevil3410

3 жыл бұрын

You can have disordered eating and not a full on ED. You CAN recover all-in; I'm two weeks in after anorexia. Binges and cheat days are also exceedingly common in anyone in energy debt, including disordered eaters, dieters, etc.

@vaneyjane

3 жыл бұрын

@@EricaPapad I went all in with an eating disorder, got to a certain point (gained quite a bit of weight, started to get comments from people) and got so overwhelmed with anxiety I started losing weight...and I would definitely have "cheat days" when I was in the fitness world that were just full on binges. I'm not saying she has an ED but these videos are kind of highlighting some glaring issues she may or may not be aware of. ED comes in all shapes and sizes ✌

What is so sad about this is that Stephanie’s new weight is often a huge goal for some people. Just goes to show how the whole idea of weight is ridiculous. Congrats on all your hard work, Stephanie!

Yes a full day of eating!:) you’re an amazing human for posting your journey!

Stephanie, thank you so much for this. This is so relatable. I’m not a public figure, but even in my life I feel pressure to fulfill other peoples’ expectations-both related and unrelated to weight. It takes so much to be open about this and it’s so impressive and courageous. It’s hugely encouraging to me to see that even someone like you-who is so much farther ahead in your fitness journey than I am-still struggles with this. Thank you ❤️

Imagine having constant eyes on your own weight journey and how much your body changes. You are a different kind of strong to go through this in front of an audience; I can assure you many of us fluctuate this much over the course of a lifetime without the audience. Just live your life girl!

This is meant with the best intention, but it seems important that you speak to a therapist. These people are qualified to help you deal with the struggles that you have. A young social media audience is not.... You don’t have to explain yourself or any of your life choices to strangers. With the anxiety that you feel around this whole thing, it really seems like you could use some help to deal with the thoughts that you have. Therapy is not for people who are “weak” ....it’s actually the opposite. The pressure that you feel is a lot for anyone to take on. You won’t find the coping tools you need to tackle what you are going through on SM. You are learning, like anyone else in eating disorder recovery, but it’s very hard to do alone. You don’t need to have all the answers right now. Don’t feel like you have to suddenly be an expert in the process just because you feel Iike you are on a platform. Remember you’re human xx Maybe it would even help you just a little to shift the focus of your content for a while. Take a new direction. If you feel under a microscope, having a different project that takes the light off physical appearance & weight for you and your followers might be a good idea. It’s a distraction for you, it something new for your channel ....it may be therapeutic in itself. I don’t expect you to read this comment. It’s just an idea.

We lovfe you!! U seriously insipre us, my sister and i, to live a healthier lifestyle!! Such an inspiration and we look up to u so much! We are here for u all thruout ur journey, supporting u always ❤️✨

I just recently found your videos... you are so inspiring... not because you're perfect but because of your strength at putting yourself out there. It's natural to be wary when placed on a platform. I hope you find a way to focus on you and just stay real. Thank you for everything!

Something you said really stuck out to me - "If I can manage my anxiety by talking to you guys." As someone with pretty severe anxiety, yes there's lots you can do yourself but to actually see change and get better it is extremely beneficial to go see a therapist if you haven't already. You might not have the tools you need in your current arsenal to deal with what's happening, and a therapist can help you get there.

We have a terrible culture of perfectionism, especially for women. I really appreciate your vulnerability and honesty, Stephanie. I try to remind myself that we are not robots and life is not a linear game where we check off tasks and advance to level XYZ and start the next set of tasks for the next level. Life is messy and subject to change depending on so many factors that are often beyond our control. I'm just appreciative of your voice and especially as a BIPOC woman. Keep it up. You're doing something really important. You're also challenging a system that thrives (financially) off of chasing an unsustainable idea of perfection. It's trying to fight to stay alive and that's where the haters come in. I'm sure you've heard this from others but your realness and truth is where you inspire me most. Thank you. Also, I'm trying to get back on my lifting routine, bought some Cake Pop PEscience protein.....omg!!! It's the best protein powder I ever had. Thanks for the discount code!!! I'll subscribe once I finish these samples! Thank you!!

How fucked up is the world that this beautiful, incredible queen has to feel huge anxiety just for not being thin? You are PERFECT just the way you are. Sending you tons of love and positive vibes

Hey Stephanie! Absolutely love your insightful and informative videos. Helped and reassured me through recent rebound after burnout from bikini competition. Felt lost, overwhelm, embarrassed and so much more! I am a huge fan and admire the courage you have to speak up about the REAL issues of prolonging caloric deprivation and intense training. Social media skews so much and it’s a relief to finally have a former bikini competitor speak the TRUTH!! 👏🏼🙌🏼❤️

I really recommend seeking counselling for your anxiety, and also as uncomfortable as it sounds - sit with your anxiety. Running around in the mornings trying to avoid your thoughts reinforces your sense that there is something to escape from. I have been jolted awake by anxiety before, it;'s a horrible feeling. I hope you find a way of responding to your anxiety that works for you

@gillyfranklin1550

3 жыл бұрын

Very insightful comment. Avoidance can do far more damage long-term than the momentary and short-lived relief it offers.

@carish1452

3 жыл бұрын

This comment needs way more thumbs up. I’m in the midst of a battle with hormonal anxiety, compounded by an eating disorder in my 20s and disordered eating (sub clinical) and high androgens all my life. Facing the anxiety head-on with the real people in your life by your side (and for me, reliance on Jesus) is the quickest way to show your fears that you don’t intend to just lay down and have your purpose -your whys-nullified. You will be a functioning human being because you already are, regardless of size, mental capacity or achievements.

Maybe the fitness industry is just unhealthy? How ironic

@surrogacybullshit

3 жыл бұрын

Nope. The unhealthy ones are individuals, not the whole industry .

@lanycera

3 жыл бұрын

Social media is the real problem. It's toxic af.

@essayellohemee

3 жыл бұрын

Honestly I don't think anything in an extreme can be healthy. The fitness industry is so fixated on nutrition, muscle definition, working out, being aestheticall appealing while "influencing" people on social media. One would have to be extremely balanced as an individual to not push themselves to a state of consistent deterioration and then eventually a breaking point. For outsiders fitness is a portion of our lives, but for these people appearance is EVERYTHING. You have to consistently be on top of your game. That has to be exhausting.

@Ash2theB

3 жыл бұрын

They did a study and after awhile of working out depression or anxiety is more likely to happen especially if your over doing it or doing the same thing over and over again. Yeah social media doesn’t help but the issues are different for everyone like Hormonal imbalances maybe the main case.

@TheCoExister

3 жыл бұрын

Sarah A yes social media is the real issue.

Thank you for sharing your journey!!! You are like literally the only person on the internet that promotes health over figure and it inspires me to look at my body in a completely different, healthier way! Please don't let the negativity get you down, cuz your awesome!!

You really are my life saver!Your video is so good, giving me hope and will to keep on the right road!love ,respect and support!

"spiraling anxiety loop is giving me more anxiety" has literally been the majority of my adult life! You're not alone and you are strong enough mentally to get through this, girl. Sending lots of love!!

As someone who works in a psychiatric hospital and sees people struggling every day i think u should consider unpluging from social media. If not for ever than at least a little while because it seems like thats the core of your strugles. I wish u all love and luck ❤️ ps you might want to consider not weighing yourself at all. Maby seeing a therapist would be helpful especially one who specializes in eating disorders.

@alexialanda27

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah but Stephanie is a scientist so she weighs herself to document her journey.

@EmThrives

3 жыл бұрын

@SuperTaekwondo23

3 жыл бұрын

@@alexialanda27 read the comment again, watch video again, and find context of the comment

@alexialanda27

3 жыл бұрын

@@SuperTaekwondo23 I meant no disrespect. Just commenting. The documentation of her journey is helping me through my own. She's providing an incredible support outlet for me and her followers including herself. I apologize if my comment was offensive to you.

@SyckoSiren

3 жыл бұрын

@@alexialanda27 yeah that’s hella egoism, I dealed with this kinda struggle at once and I regained my HAPPINESS by being unplugged, c you can’t help others if you don’t help yourself first.

it is so much easier said than done! i respect you so much please continue doing whats best FOR YOU!!!

Aww we love you Stephanie!!! Literally that “fake it till you make it” saying worked for me with my anxiety. Literally tell yourself when your having a panic attack that “your ok! Your ok! “ and breathe in and out slowly! It works. 🙏🏽❤️😩

My daughter is a pro figure athlete and no one, literally no one talks about these very real issues with food. Thank you for bringing this out in the open and being so brutally honest. You are impacting so many people and letting them know they are not alone.

@simonhomadi2761

3 жыл бұрын

look up Greg doucette

Nothing in life is forever, nothing is stable...is it even naturally possible to stay the same? Who wants to stay stagnant, or stuck? Life is about change and growth and you have come a long way and there is more ahead of you :) Thank you for sharing your story, I really appreciate your bravery and honesty!

@shell7142

3 жыл бұрын

I think this is truly the best comment and advice!

@JS-ns8dr

3 жыл бұрын

I agree! Change is great 👌

You look amazing! It's so clear that this journey was right for you.

I hope it helps for you to know that your videos and honestly about anxiety struggles has been so helpful for me. As an athlete with crippling anxiety, your video hit the nail on the head for me. I feel like you are talking about things no one talks about. This is so helpful and important. Tysm for being open and vulnerable and sharing your story. The people trying to tell you what to do are probably not nearly as informed as they think.

"It's so.much easier said than done!" I'm gonna say what most have already said. You put yourself out there. Your failures & successes impact many. Many of us watch you for inspiration, a road map, information & entertainment. This is your reality being on social media. BUT at some point you would do well to crawl in the personal space that JUST FOR YOU & SAY SCREW US!!! DO WHAT'S BEST FOR YOU! Truth is you can't please all of us all the time. However, ALL of what you put out there HELPS someone. You get 100 criticism but 1 you HELP... YOU'VE SUCCEEDED!! I love following you on this journey. I appreciate you.

Who said weight isn't supposed to fluctuate? I don't see why anyone would expect their body to stay the same all the time. You're great, keep going! You know what your body needs and you're healthy, that's the only thing that matters! Thank you for sharing your journey

Honestly Stephanie, if doing this is causing you issues and bad anxiety as you describe it, and you need to be surrounded by only good positive vibes then consider making other content besides things related to your weight and fitness. This oversharing is affecting your lifestyle and there are so many other ways to get the body positive message across

Stephanie! You are such a bright light and an absolute role model. I am a dietitian and a diabetes educator, and I really value not only the quality of your videos but your transparency that tackles real issues that so many women deal with. We need more people like you. Thank you for being so brave by posting your journey and thoughts. You are a beautiful person inside and out. Thank you!

Anxiety is horrible. I know, I know, I know. I also know you’ll be okay. And you’re a total babe!

I think you should detox from social media... anyone who is gaining weight, finds it incredibly hard; i cant imagine doing thuis on a public platform youre amazing, and you are so much more than your weight. Im pretty sure youre a bit traumatized from people trolling you which has led to your anxiety Take a break and focus on things other than your weight We love you and youre the best

@denisechatch

3 жыл бұрын

Hey I've watched your journey and loved it. But while I loved it I never resonated personally with it. I've never been thin. No matter what I do. Extreme hunger....nope. But this second phase ....this resonate with. Anxiety messing up my eating....yes....not knowing for sure what "healthy eating" is and having a hard time understanding intuitive eating with anxiety.... and "food guilt".... This is my journey. I know it so well And so deeply. Hoping you conquer this next phase. You have one fan rooting for you! Love to hear how you are coping. For me somedays it's just letting everything go...and realizing I can't be in control all the time and confronting and letting go of that fear. Sometimes it's forgiving myself and loving myself even if I have food guilt. Sometimes it's a new hobby for anxiety or sometimes it's getting rid of a habit like too much instagram to manage my anxiety. Sometimes it's a therapist. I just love you. Good luck to you. Life is. Journey we all wish we could just get comfy and stick there...but the universe requires constant change so we learn to embrace it the best we can. You aren't failing if things are changing. Your progressing....to your next phase. We are in your corner. Do what's best for you. I promise your followers who love you will keep loving you. ♥️

I just love seeing the snippets of you and Jeff together during the course of your all in. I know it was probably hard on you both but seeing how y’all stuck together was amazing. And how he supported you so lovingly through the ups and downs of your weight and emotions. It gives me hope. 💜

Your feelings and emotions are normal. People remark mostly because of their own insecurities. It's a reflection of feeling inadequate within themselves. You're a human just as we all are, no one can maintain a "perfect" anything 24/7. I value your honesty, rawness, education, workouts and etc. I value you. Keep shining ladybug!