My healing journey ❤️‍🩹| 6 months of pain

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  • @Boujeespace
    @Boujeespace2 жыл бұрын

    If your phone says no stream please refresh app or update app then enjoy video 😘🧚🏽‍♀️

  • @ambermose5608

    @ambermose5608

    2 жыл бұрын

    😘❤️

  • @skaicole_

    @skaicole_

    2 жыл бұрын

    ❤️😩🔥

  • @mandisambongwa8452

    @mandisambongwa8452

    2 жыл бұрын

    Mina cyan boujee i love and adore you you are a fighter ♥️bruhh when you i feel like hugging yougoosh you are loved .continue bieng a strong and resilient woman that you are .

  • @innocentia4153

    @innocentia4153

    2 жыл бұрын

    Love and light ❤️

  • @MyTestimony_
    @MyTestimony_ Жыл бұрын

    Cyan has a great support system at home... You can tell with how she goes home everytime she feels down❤️

  • @wandisamvula6113
    @wandisamvula6113 Жыл бұрын

    People judge without knowing the full story but I’m glad you actually were brave enough to tell your story I’m proud of you. May you continuously shine and prosper

  • @bkizzle290
    @bkizzle2902 жыл бұрын

    You’ve been through so much 💔 and to go through all these things publically must have been so hard. I pray the Lord be with you ❤️and remember to lean on Him ALWAYS!

  • @hazelzuzu
    @hazelzuzu2 жыл бұрын

    Literally cried with you the entire video, take your time and heal, don't rush the process sweetyyy

  • @amahleblose6564
    @amahleblose65642 жыл бұрын

    You’re so young to be going through all of this 😞sending you lots of love and light . Everything will work out eventually ❤️

  • @fifitells5460
    @fifitells54602 жыл бұрын

    Girl, I feel you. I have been in pain over a situation for about 4 years, it's not sorted yet, but God has granted me peace finally this month, no one ever understands that dark place. I'd cry anywhere anytime, I was an emotional wreck. I'm ok now, made peace with the situation and I forgive and will make things right on my side even if I don't get the same from the other party. But I feel you girl, it is a roller coaster ride, you want it to end, it doesn't end. But yes, we do pull through in the end. Your video will give someone hope out there.

  • @malethabomoyahabo7483
    @malethabomoyahabo74832 жыл бұрын

    In almost cried after watching this but I held my tears back. You are so strong and I'm sure this video inspired someone out there. The way you were so patient with your healing process and you came back even stronger. Sending Love and more strength ❤️🥺

  • @enhle_k.a.y.i.s.e
    @enhle_k.a.y.i.s.e2 жыл бұрын

    Sending lots and lots of love. I pray you continue healing and being your best self. You deserve the best and nobody can give you that more than yourself. Congratulations on your new baby. I love you ❤️😊

  • @bonolomatshedisho
    @bonolomatshedisho2 жыл бұрын

    Man, I cried throughout the video. I’m so sorry you had to experience so much in such a short time frame

  • @niomathemba3083
    @niomathemba30832 жыл бұрын

    Ohhh nana, your come back attitude is very inspirational at such a young age you know you’re not entitled to a smooth run, you ready for whatever and whenever. You’re strong hun.

  • @keishasibisi
    @keishasibisi2 жыл бұрын

    Deeply inspired, and could relate to your healing journey 🥺. The best thing you can do for yourself is to make better choices and move forward keeping in mind the bigger picture 💕.

  • @avelangqangashe4046
    @avelangqangashe40462 жыл бұрын

    So glad you're alive and here today. Take your time healing you.

  • @brainlessbrunnet
    @brainlessbrunnet2 жыл бұрын

    keep going mama, we’re almost there ❤️ you’re going to be okay and you will be happy even if it’s not tomorrow or next week🫂.

  • @That_Thato
    @That_Thato2 жыл бұрын

    I love you! You are so inspiring, caught myself crying at some point. But you came through for yourself girl! Period!! Xoxo

  • @ntokozodlamini3215
    @ntokozodlamini32152 жыл бұрын

    It's the "I'm getting myself a Mercedes baby" for me 🥺🥺❤️❤️Congratulations mama🤙🏌️❤️

  • @HazelGumede-yb9sv
    @HazelGumede-yb9sv7 ай бұрын

    Ohhh my Gosh so i literally just watched this now and i understand what she mearnt when she said say Sesi Cyan to Paballo she literally is a big sister to these kids, has been through it all ,and all she was trying say when she said Go to school was because she knows this journey these kids are taking aint easy.I salute you for tryna discipline Paballo🎉

  • @klashhhkwennz1425

    @klashhhkwennz1425

    3 ай бұрын

    Y did she abort the baby 🥺

  • @thebemphahlele4773
    @thebemphahlele47732 жыл бұрын

    I dropped everything for this 😍💙 here first. I pray for your healing. It will be ok ❤ you were not a coward for letting go💔

  • @vivicamabusela1544
    @vivicamabusela15442 жыл бұрын

    I sent you a Dm on Instagram a few days ago, I was really hoping you'd see it. I'm just gonna go ahead and write it here. I just wanna say I'm sorry for what you went through. I admire your strength to put back together the broken pieces of your life . Anyone can give up, but to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength. Sending you love, light, healing energy and blessings. I'll always be your biggest fan ,rooting for you in the background!❤

  • @lifewithgeegee
    @lifewithgeegee2 жыл бұрын

    Healing your way ❤️ Congratulations on first not giving up on life and secondly on your new wheels ❤️

  • @mulalomakuya5221
    @mulalomakuya52212 жыл бұрын

    Yohh im crying 💔💔. You’re so strong Cyan❤️❤️. Sending love !!

  • @anastacia_4479
    @anastacia_44792 жыл бұрын

    I love you more each time, because of how raw and honest you are and it makes me resonate with you more and more. I feel your pain too. On the brighter side of things, congratulations on the car. ♥️

  • @ayandabianca5206
    @ayandabianca52062 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your journey with us, I'm sure it wasn't easy but for you to open up like that and let us in shows how strong of a person you are. I hope you rise and continue shinning like the star you are. Stay beautiful and blessed.

  • @lesedimosweu4455
    @lesedimosweu44552 жыл бұрын

    The fact that you could share this with us is everything❤️❤️we love you so much❤️

  • @sandilewiseman1771
    @sandilewiseman17712 жыл бұрын

    Mmh yoh mouthful😭❤️ good thing you documented everything and thats how you healed, im so proud you spoke out and stood your ground💯 hope others facing similar problems will speak out

  • @leratogumbi2108
    @leratogumbi21082 жыл бұрын

    Wow! This is beautiful! You so strong! You definitely the girl that you think you are. I love this and Congratulations to the baby❤️🥹🥂

  • @tlotlokhumo4921
    @tlotlokhumo49212 жыл бұрын

    You’re real ❤️❤️🥺I love that for you Boo 💕💕

  • @mpumiphalama9524
    @mpumiphalama9524 Жыл бұрын

    You're making me cry, I'm so sorry you went through that. I hope you're at a better place now and if not, you'll get there eventually. Take your time❤️

  • @mpho_mhlambi9789
    @mpho_mhlambi97892 жыл бұрын

    We love you cyan boujee never lose hope my girl, love and light your way ❤️🕯

  • @zinhleceenclairemhlanga4399
    @zinhleceenclairemhlanga43992 жыл бұрын

    I love you how really articulated healing , it don't matter which part you played for the pain to exist but acknowledging everytime you feel venerable and sad and bouncing to from those episodes and going through healing ✨️ ♥️....You are an ALFA FEMALE IN THE MAKING.

  • @precioussesiwe9005
    @precioussesiwe90052 жыл бұрын

    Hey Cyan. Firstly, thank you for being open and vulnerable with us. Your video is an inspiration to many people that face domestic violence and overall abuse which are serious cases all around the world. Your video is hope to those that lost hope and a voice to those that are voiceless. Secondly, you're so so strong, very open to hope even while going through hell. I'd like to commemorate you on your bravery and strength. You go girl! Loved the glow up at the end of the video ❤🤌. Sending love, light and a big big hug! 🫂

  • @SetlalekgosiMosala
    @SetlalekgosiMosala2 жыл бұрын

    This is so beautiful to watch! Sending you hugs and kisses. 🤗

  • @kwandaa
    @kwandaa2 жыл бұрын

    Honour you are so strong for a twenty year old❤️you make me believe that whatever i’m going through will pass

  • @neokoopedi8813
    @neokoopedi88132 жыл бұрын

    You don’t know how much this helped me. I’m so sorry mama ☹️❤️

  • @phelisamaponye5995
    @phelisamaponye59952 жыл бұрын

    ❤️❤️❤️ what a journey but once again you made it through. Stay blessed Cyan. Congratulations on the whip 😍😎

  • @theomonwa3869
    @theomonwa38692 жыл бұрын

    The bitter sweet of all this mann🥺so inspired ❤️. Indeed behind every pain there is a blessing.

  • @its.elspeth
    @its.elspeth2 жыл бұрын

    Oh Cyan 🤕 May God bless you and may he grant you all that your heart desires♥️ thank you for this video, so raw and unfiltered🥺love and light 💖

  • @rethabilephuroe2685
    @rethabilephuroe26852 жыл бұрын

    Love the ending! 😍🥺🥺Congratulation CYAN boujee to your new baby and sending love & light momma.

  • @ms.nduli15
    @ms.nduli152 жыл бұрын

    You're strong. You're powerful❤Love and light upon your life sis

  • @noreenkhumalo4000
    @noreenkhumalo4000 Жыл бұрын

    You are strong. You are beautiful and you will get through this . Congrats on your baby 💖

  • @esihle5279
    @esihle52792 жыл бұрын

    This was so sad to watch, glad you've pulled yourself towards yourself. Love and light ❤

  • @simphiwemabuza3229
    @simphiwemabuza32292 жыл бұрын

    You are surrounded by so much love, the real ones will always show up for you. Love and lights on your healing journey and congratulations on your new car. Keep winning ❤

  • @hopeamanda8035

    @hopeamanda8035

    2 жыл бұрын

    Same

  • @Shine.Shine06
    @Shine.Shine062 жыл бұрын

    All I want to do is just give you a hug boujee❤️❤️❤️love and light sis ,I pray you continue to heal !!!

  • @Sedii_moshounyane
    @Sedii_moshounyane2 жыл бұрын

    Haven't Finished The Video But I'm Crying😭😭💔 You Are So Strong

  • @nompilomthethwa5806
    @nompilomthethwa58062 жыл бұрын

    Wow! I'm lost for words. The realest and most beautiful video I've watched on YT. I wish you peace and light mama ❤️

  • @P.S_Hadebe.
    @P.S_Hadebe.2 жыл бұрын

    Wow girl I really loved the end part the glow, the rise! The confidence. "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger " so proud of you woman!!😍🤗

  • @chuluh_katlego
    @chuluh_katlego2 жыл бұрын

    You are one in a million Strong women ♥️you know your truth and it’s painful how people react to such situations

  • @onkabetseleagile5012
    @onkabetseleagile50122 жыл бұрын

    Hey sis I pray you heal from all that’s happening 🥺 you deserve all the good things and love too❤️ another thing I admire your strength to come here and share your pain with us🥺 you are one strong lady 🤞🏽❤️

  • @boitumelobrandt6593
    @boitumelobrandt65932 жыл бұрын

    I was so worried about you, I'm glad you are finding a way to deal with all of this. The God you trust will definitely pull through for you hun, lots of love

  • @palesapalesa2289
    @palesapalesa22892 жыл бұрын

    I love you so much cyan🥺🥺I love how you recovered ❤️It was never easy but you made it 😩

  • @khanyisilemathebula6582
    @khanyisilemathebula65822 жыл бұрын

    “You can’t even choose peace” that had me on a choke hold🥺😭… Love & Light sweetheart, I pray for your healing❤️

  • @aobakwemmalesego2962
    @aobakwemmalesego29622 жыл бұрын

    This video is everything felt every emotion that was happening 🥺❤️ & i love how Cyan is so strong & how she Bounce back‼️😍 i love her man she’s everything ( love& light & grace upon grace mama)🥺🥺❤️❤️

  • @angiemoabankwe7816
    @angiemoabankwe78162 жыл бұрын

    Remember you are loved and God is on your side.Hoping you find strength with each new day. I love you Cyan & again congratulations on the new whip ❤️

  • @clementiarg
    @clementiarg2 жыл бұрын

    It was a brave step to share your story, I wish your healing reaches its peak eventually and you achieve all you want. GBV is one horrible thing to experience and it makes you feel worthless at one point, but after all you experienced...you're a beautiful, independent and strong woman. I wish you find someone who'll kiss your scars and love you the way you deserve. Your ex will get whats coming to him for all the lies and manipulation he's been spreading and victimising himself as well as all those that have been judging you and putting dirt on your name. You'll be fine in due time mama.❤️❤️❤️

  • @klashhhkwennz1425

    @klashhhkwennz1425

    3 ай бұрын

    Why did she abort the baby

  • @duduzilenonkosimathontsi7286
    @duduzilenonkosimathontsi72862 жыл бұрын

    yohh social media can really taint a person, now having to watch this vid got me crying...being stuck on the cross roads between keeping your child and letting go can be the worst emotional damage ever which ever decision you take sticks with you for life... you chose what is best for you and you not a coward. its true never judge a book by its cover i just got another lesson 😘

  • @erica_sapani
    @erica_sapani2 жыл бұрын

    This deserves a whole reality show so sorry about what you had to go through..god always has timing and he did what he pulled through love this for you ❤️

  • @kgomotsomalokotsa3710

    @kgomotsomalokotsa3710

    2 жыл бұрын

    Loved this ❤️

  • @namhlamajeke2457
    @namhlamajeke24572 жыл бұрын

    Thanks for sharing your journey with us mama. You honestly didn’t have to but you did , & I appreciate you for that. May these upcoming months be kind to you and all of us❤️🫂

  • @athimapapu4367
    @athimapapu43672 жыл бұрын

    Good luck baby , all the hugs and love.

  • @BLZ.21
    @BLZ.212 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing this with us , you not alone ♥️

  • @lerato_S
    @lerato_S2 жыл бұрын

    I am happy that your moving on ❤️❤️❤️‍🔥🫀your so strong 💪 your resemblance hero

  • @Lebogang_Mathe
    @Lebogang_Mathe2 жыл бұрын

    Wow I’m not alone you just made me stronger 😩🙏

  • @dlaminilomalove2023
    @dlaminilomalove20232 жыл бұрын

    Im commenting before watching and I hope you heal and find peace..... good things are coming your way, everything is a season in life.

  • @nomfundoblose2695
    @nomfundoblose26952 жыл бұрын

    Literally been crying the entire video😭😭💔 I’m disappointed in myself that I actually believed the guy over you because of how social media always paint you in a bad way but it’s actually the opposite 😓.I’m sorry Honour you had to go through this and no women deserves to go through such.I love how genuine you are in pouring out your feelings coz I know we deal with our problems in a different way no one should judge you on that ❤️🤗 sometimes pouring out your feelings is also a good step to healing. Stay blessed sending hugs and kisses 😘😍

  • @emihlemsomi
    @emihlemsomi2 жыл бұрын

    you’ll be good mama 🥺 praying for you ❤️

  • @TiaNgidi
    @TiaNgidi Жыл бұрын

    What stood out for me was how you dusted yourself babe and made sure that you prove the fact that you can do things for yourself without masculine aid girl. Thank you so much for sharing this healing process with us. I hope God showers you with protection and His blessings❤

  • @lulamajodo8409
    @lulamajodo84092 жыл бұрын

    You know how many young girls go through what you went through... we with you girl... my early 20s was so traumatic... my 30s is my redo girl... we love you girl. Fuck the rest

  • @adorable_hilda6247
    @adorable_hilda62472 жыл бұрын

    I pray that you healing is permanent ❤️because sometimes you heal and something happens then everything go down again. Am currently going through a lot now but keep my head up. Sending you lot of love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @Boujeespace

    @Boujeespace

    2 жыл бұрын

    ❤️

  • @remmonelakhiwa7642
    @remmonelakhiwa76422 жыл бұрын

    I love you so much n stay blessed…I lost myself to depression,trauma,panic attack but you really motivate me to pick myself up n b me again ✨…you are an inspiration shm❤️

  • @vuyisiletwala1622
    @vuyisiletwala16222 жыл бұрын

    You are really brave and authentic to share this part of your life with us , appreciate and love you lots, keep being strong ❤️❤️❤️

  • @tlhokomeloshelile1813
    @tlhokomeloshelile18132 жыл бұрын

    You have got this God has got you❤

  • @officiallyrachel1612
    @officiallyrachel16122 жыл бұрын

    I am so glad your safe 💞 I am so glad your alive 💞

  • @lebogangrapatsa9905
    @lebogangrapatsa9905 Жыл бұрын

    That part where you took videos of your pregnancy journey up until you lost her I legit cried with you This has honestly made me appreciate my daughter even more I'm juss glad you healed and moved on I love your fighting spirit❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @Serenity1225
    @Serenity1225 Жыл бұрын

    Wow 😮 this video is powerful your vulnerability and transparency is so rare you are a phenomenal woman 🇧🇸

  • @normanimorisane9589
    @normanimorisane95892 жыл бұрын

    You are so strong !❤️I love you so much and I hope everything works out sis !!!❤️

  • @lyndowmascool2204
    @lyndowmascool2204 Жыл бұрын

    babe you so beautiful. You can't not change what already happened just accept and stop regretting. You are not alone ❤

  • @leratojulialeseo1990
    @leratojulialeseo19902 жыл бұрын

    Hope you heal mama❤️.Last year I was once in your situation where people judged me and some didn't even know the side of my story and some didn't even know me.Here I am I'm doing the most now.Heal mama❤️

  • @matshedisokaisara947
    @matshedisokaisara9472 жыл бұрын

    The pain you have been put through does not define you as a person. happiness is going to be your happy ending in all this.you are so young, but definetly going far😘

  • @lerato_S
    @lerato_S2 жыл бұрын

    I hope your doing great step by step sis ❤️we can’t feel your pain but we will tell positive things to make you heal you make us happy ❤️you deserve better we love you and your the best nothing less ❤️🫀🙏

  • @letlhogonolomzizi
    @letlhogonolomzizi2 жыл бұрын

    For the fact that you overcome your fears 🥺🤞🏼 God is great ♥️😊🥺

  • @karabobotolo3350
    @karabobotolo33502 жыл бұрын

    What an emotional roller coast, very raw. Healing is messy for real. Sending you lots of positive energy and good vibezzz. Congratulations on your new car

  • @ZoeysMusings
    @ZoeysMusings2 жыл бұрын

    You're the epitome of strength. I can't even 😭God bless you and may your healing be gentle and constant ❤️. I'm moved by your will to fight, to live and to do better. Blessings to you, dear 🙏🏽

  • @Boujeespace

    @Boujeespace

    Жыл бұрын

    😘😘😘

  • @starcarol2362
    @starcarol2362 Жыл бұрын

    I relate to everything that you went through sis,it's really traumatic and painful. I'm so sorry that you had to go through all this but continue to be strong and have faith in God❤.

  • @rethabilemokuena5409
    @rethabilemokuena54092 жыл бұрын

    You really inspired me young Lady because some women end up killing themselves just because nobody wants to believe their stories. Be blessed

  • @Boujeespace

    @Boujeespace

    2 жыл бұрын

    Thank you

  • @mavismashaba8817
    @mavismashaba88172 жыл бұрын

    Not me crying whenever you were crying throughout the video. Sending love and hugs sis😘😘❤️❤️ Congratulations on your car babes

  • @siphesihlethandolwethu3084
    @siphesihlethandolwethu30842 жыл бұрын

    ❤️ & 🕯️ sis may you heal from everything you going through & may god be with you

  • @lifewithandythatoh
    @lifewithandythatoh2 жыл бұрын

    The most emotional 🖤story but something good came out of it .. Love and light 🤍cyna

  • @Lerato_bubisi
    @Lerato_bubisi Жыл бұрын

    I just love how you never give up😩❤❤damn sis I'm your number one fan

  • @prettygirlhera5499
    @prettygirlhera54992 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for what you had to go through I feel your pain ❤️😪😭

  • @chanay
    @chanay2 жыл бұрын

    OMG😭 this made me cry... You have been through so much and no one even noticed that... You are a very STRONG women Cyan I salute you for who you are🙌🏽❤️ Congratulations with the new car😘

  • @flowrah.p6413
    @flowrah.p64132 жыл бұрын

    Wow cyan the ending does it all You really are a come back girl Strong asf😎

  • @Nyeleti_
    @Nyeleti_2 жыл бұрын

    Hey cyan, I'm so proud of you mama❤, you deserve it all and more 💖

  • @babazilemngomezulu
    @babazilemngomezulu2 жыл бұрын

    Cyan l'm so sorry that some were mean to you while you were going through hell alone. I've always believed you, you're strong, you have supporters like me that love you so much and will stand by you always. God loves you sis, you are beautiful and amazing Cyan. A blessing to us. Keep going and stay shining.❤

  • @miss_melaneen
    @miss_melaneen2 жыл бұрын

    This really hit home. Although our pain and our pain tolerance differ, to an extent I deeply understand. Pain is one thing that we humans cannot comprehend or rather "get used to". It's something that I myself struggle at times to coexist with. After watching this video, I have found the courage to face this pain I've held head on and 'show it who's the boss'. I've let my situation take so much control of me and today I'm taking that control back! It's my life after all, and I call the shots! I also want to start video journaling, as I literally have no one to talk to. I'm definitely gonna share it on my socials and hopefully I touch many souls just as you've touched mine with your story. Always remember that God gives the most toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. Therefore, me and you need to go through this pain so that we can be stronger for other people. To help others to avoid such situations by sharing our stories, our journeys. This will definitely be our last pain! We are stronger! Indeed there are angels among us, and those angels are me and you! Love and light skat!❤🕯

  • @Boujeespace

    @Boujeespace

    2 жыл бұрын

    Wow .. I’m crying Amo 🥹🥹🥹😫, thank you so much

  • @teekay8678
    @teekay86782 жыл бұрын

    You're such a strong woman hey. 🥺

  • @ddarkbrownsugar6199
    @ddarkbrownsugar6199 Жыл бұрын

    Aww man this is so heart breaking to watch😭😭😭 love and light babe.❤❤❤❤

  • @Thembigo2
    @Thembigo22 жыл бұрын

    Yes girl love your new car and hope you getting better 🎉🎉🎉🥺

  • @ntombinkulumzizi2650
    @ntombinkulumzizi26502 жыл бұрын

    You gonna be okay just give yourself time ❤♥️

  • @nsukunxumalo3558
    @nsukunxumalo35582 жыл бұрын

    I've been going through a lot lately and I've been drinking that willies wine to help heal. I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. Sending love and light.

  • @AmoMoagi9321

    @AmoMoagi9321

    2 жыл бұрын

    The woolies wine really does pull through

  • @nombusomasuku636
    @nombusomasuku6362 жыл бұрын

    I hope and pray you find someone genuine, you deserve it. ❤

  • @Phumiii
    @Phumiii2 жыл бұрын

    You Just Made me Very Emotional 😭😭thank you for sharing this