You are not 🌊

@paulinegel4292

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Haha una pumasok sa isip ko “ you are not a wave” hahha

@sporadicfaneurysm

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I love you, shoti Ben 💙 Hugs!!!

@yhanieflorentino1985

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We love you Ben!

@dongmiano1785

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You are not wave?😅✌️

@rosalieelatico586

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Allergic rhinitis ✋️

Eto yung namiss ko sa vlogging industry ung nag kwekwento lang naka upo parang may ka usap ako 😢 walang for the brand deals ganto lang and oc na miss ka nmen 💕💕💕

@juliusgenolos2876

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🥰

@almazanadventure7931

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John sana mameet kita hehehe

Being too self-aware is both a blessing and a curse, I’ve learned this through therapy as well because it made me realize that (like you) we, over thinkers tend to try and find solutions for things that we feel like we are at fault or responsible for - even when it comes to our fears and insecurities, that’s why we end up overwhelmed and burdened. So glad you found therapy. It is such an immense help for people like us who tries to take on almost everything for people around us but rarely or don’t even ask for help. Slowly, you’ll get better in asking for support in ways you are comfortable in. Shedding some relationships that are not serving you is also part of your healing, it can be sad at first but you’ll later on realize that it is for a reason. Good luck on your journey and may you find joy again in the things that you love. Thanks for being brave and sharing your story. ❤

As a psychology student, I just want to say that you're so brave Kuya Ben, bilang lang ang mga taong umaamin weakness nila, and isa ka doon. Get well Kuya Ben!

As a psychology student, I really do understand where and what you're coming from. I appreciate the effort that you still have the courage to do this kinda video, even though you're currently dealing with your anxiety and mental breakdowns, just to inspire others and raise awareness about how you'll be able to cope with the negative/chaotic situations that you've been through. MAHIGPIT NA YAKAP KUYA BEN!

@BenedictCua

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aw thank you! hope i didnt say anything wrong

@jay-beesales9001

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@@BenedictCua we missed you ben

Worth it 'yung 22 mins sa'yo, Ben. Thank you for sharing your experience with us. Please know that there are a lot of people who value you. I hope you get to feeling completely better soon. We love you! ✨

Ben is just so brave to do this!! Hindi pa nagsisimula yung vlog pero I got emotional already. I have mental health issue too. Still healing and fighting. Hopefully, we NORMALIZE this- having discussions about our mental health. To those who are battling silently, seek help please. You are not alone and you got this!! And kuya Ben, mahigpit na yakaaaaaaaaaaaaaap!

Thank you for sharing, I just knew now that what I've been experiencing for many years that I thought were normal for introverted people to feel were actually symptoms of panic attack. Thank you for this video, it made me understand myself better. I still hear those voices in your head and your mind is somewhat always noisy. I agree that everything should start with the right perspective, I have been coping up using what I believe is a positive mindset regardless of what other people say because at the end of the day it all boils down to how you feel about yourself. No matter how many outside help I got it never did get better for me at some point I thought that it would be better if I'd just die. I felt useless and just a burden to my parents and family. I was at my lowest at that time and I happen to come a cross videos of self-help and from there on, I started my self-love/self-help journey by understanding myself better and doing what makes me happy. I can say that I have improve a lot and still am and I can't wait for other things that i can improve and learn about myself. Keep fighting the good fight, it may not feel good right now but it will all be worth it. Just trust yourself that you're getting better and better each day. 👊🏻👊🏻

I’m going through a shutdown right now too. In fact I’m lying in bed and have been for 2 months. Gone 4 years without help and it just all imploded. Honestly, hearing I am not alone helps. I think people understanding what you’re going through, though it might not cure whatever it is, does lessen the guilt of not participating and socialising, even though the urge to escape is our body telling us to rest and reset.

I'm so proud of you na naovercome mo lahat yan, Ben. And I know na kaya mo labanan lahat ng pinagdadaanan mo. #YouAreValid and #YouAreLoved. Lovelots, Benedict Cua.

Out of your 226 Vlogs, this one really felt like a hug. It's not everyday you learn about people's vulnerabilities (especially people whose careers are closely inclined with social media) -- and I think this is very brave of you to do, Ben. Personally, I've also come to the ends of alc*h*lism, forgetting my boundaries, pushing people away with my bad behavior, bursting in anger over the smallest things, and neglecting my needs -- even when my body is already begging me to rest and calm down. I started watching your vlogs in 2018, and from time to time, when I "spiral," I binge watch your content (still)... it does seem like you're good at shedding light in other people's lives (I think that's the hook that got me to watch your content over and over) -- but it also seems like you need to share that light with yourself. We don't know each other personally, but I'll include you in my prayers. I sincerely hope you discover the things that make you smile at ease, enough to lit up everything that has dimmed inside you. Also, here's an excerpt from one of the books that has helped me when I felt like my days were my last, the book is entitled Dear Self by Ruby Dhal, and the line goes: "happiness doesn't always come with the fear that it will leave. Sometimes it comes with the promise that it will stay. All you need to do is welcome it with open arms and a heart spread wide enough to let it stay, wide enough to let in people and adventures in new countries where the wind flows in a different direction, and the mountains peak higher than the clouds, so you start to grasp that the sky isn't the limit, because the sun and the stars are."

Thanks for sharing this Ben! As a fan, appreciate this. My thoughts - boundaries are super important and needed to give you a healthier space in life. Hope you get better and stronger each day! God bless!

In a Psychology student perspective, I was amazed by the way you explained your situation and your feelings/emotion to the audience even in a minute I was hook up how it was so detailed and comprehensive na you shared a complex scenario into a simplier and mas relatable sa viewers. This really show that you know your current situation very well maybe because you've been through it for a long time and that you have the ability to create and apply yung naisip mong alternatives to your difficulties. This video is an eye opener sa mga audience; not just for them to learn but more on to take action and be mindful sa sinasabi/ginagawa nila sa sarili at sa ibang tao.

@BenedictCua

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Thank you this means a lot! I’ve been paranoid about saying the wrong information but at the end of the day, talking about self experience is never incorrect because that’s really how i felt

@ShidoBitzify

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@@BenedictCuamental health is same as physical health that requires medical attention and should not invalidate by other people. Thank you for sharing your experiences. This one is hard to share but it is a big relief. I can’t imagine the baggages you are carrying all this time.

Thank you so much Ben for doing this content and for having a courage to share it with us. I don't normally comment in any vlogs or videos but this content helps me a lot and I need to let you know that. It's a reminder that I'm not alone and also a reminder that it's okay not to explain yourself always. I think I need to always remind myself that I don't have to be afraid or feel bad to say no without explaining myself. Anyway, I'm so grateful that I watched this vlog and your voice and the way you talk is so calming. You're awesome, Ben. I know you'll get better.

Thank you for sharing. You have grown so much! I am not a psychologist but for someone who have the same experience I have practiced to focus on gratitude more than my imperfections. I am very proud of you. Benedict Cua all the way ❤❤❤🤗🤗🤗

Thank you for sharing this. I am somewhat experiencing this, and I do not understand why. With your video, I somehow had the idea of how to help myself. Been following you on FB because your videos, posts, and stories never fail to make me happy, or at least smile. Thank you so much.

Thanks Ben for making a content like this. It really ment a lot specially to people who don’t really know much about depression. I’m also clinically diagnosed same as your diagnosis. And to be honest this video really gives me hope and made me realize that I’m really not 🌊 in this journey and that i could be better one day and the world that im in right now would be a happy place again. Thanks Ben for this!! Fighting!

Got diagnosed with BD just a little over 2yrs ago which started w/ panic attacks & became a complication of major depression. Family support meant A LOT bec it's an everyday battle + proper medication. From being fit to being overweight again caused my insecurities to arise but Lord's grace makes it more bearable & I take each God-given day as it comes. You'll be fine eventually & you did the right thing by reaching out to ask for help.💝🙏

This made me cry. Sending hugs to all those battling depression and/or anxiety silently.

Thank you for sharing all those experiences! I am confident it will help a lot of people going through same situations.

yung mga insecurities ni benedict dito na gradually niyang na-overcome eh yung mga insecurities na hindi ko na inovercome. this is so brave of you benedict. keep inspiring.

I'm going through the same thing right now, this made me feel so much better. Thank you for speaking up about this!

Thank you Ben. You are on the right track. Everything happens for a reason. I'm so excited for you. It seems like the universe is preparing you for a higher purpose. I'll always be here listening. The best is yet to come.

I finished the entire video and I can relate to some of the manifestations that you experienced. I have not seen a doctor yet but I would love to. My excuses are I don't have time, I don't have the financial capability since I'm supporting someone with medical needs and lastly I'm scared I might slipped... However, after watching this video you made me realize that I really need intervention to better support people that I need to support and to heal myself. Thank you again for this.

Thank you for sharing, Benedict. For someone who was diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression, this means a lot. Thank you.

Your feelings and emotions are valid, kuya Ben. Isa ko sa mga napapasaya mo sa mga vids mo. Sguro, tayo yung nauubos dahil nagmomotivate tayo ng ibang tao but deep inside nahihirapan din tayo. Fighting Kuya Ben! I know mabuti kang tao, masayahin, productive, masaya kasama at totoo on/off cam. We're here for u to support u. 🙂

this is what i like about your vlogs and is also the reason why I continue supporting you. You're the reason why I try to be productive each day for the past 5-6 years now ( i think). each time I feel like the week has been way to rough for me I treat myself just to at least have something good going, you're positivity amazes me to the point where my mind became open to things. I understood life much more making your channel as the base. It felt relatable as I continue to watch your vlogs. I hope we get through these obstacles and improve much better than before. LABAN BENPIRES!

Thanks for this. I badly need this one right now. Very refreshing. Thanks, Benedict.

Thank u Kuya Benedict for opening up. Halos lahat na sinabi mo ay nangyayari din sa akin. I felt relieved na hindi ako lang ang may ganitong problema. I hope that, as time goes by, we are able to handle life gracefully.

Hi Ben! Nakakamiss ka mapanuod mag vlog ng ganyan, yung spontaneous and pure lang. Thanks for speaking for us! We're on the same page and hoping for healing soon! 🍉🍉🍉 Thanks for sharing your story.

Happy for you to see that genuine smile.Hoping for your healing..Praying for everyone’s healing..Let us be kinder ♥️🙏

Thank you, Benedict, for this video! Made me feel I am not alone. And that you for giving so much emphasis on not taking mental health so lightly. 💕

As an occupational therapist and a fan of your work, Im so happy that we have you as a vlogger Ben! The process will be long but you will get there.

proud of you Ben! I missed watching your vlog, thank you for sharing this to us, you're so brave, I appreciate you so much 💙

Thanks for this Ben, I feel seen and heard. This whole video resonates to my core. You are such a good speaker!

Thank you for sharing this. I feel like someone has spoken for me. Like validating what i am going through. It is true that not everyone believes or has a knowledge about depression and anxiety, but at least through social media and vlogs like this, awareness is spread, and people atleast would just choose to be kinder and more understanding, if they could not directly help. Hindi natin kailangan ng excuse para maging mabait ang kapwa natin sa atin, but i think it is a general sense in humanity to be compassionate. 🙏🏻

Love you benedict! Just do you after all living is about experiencing and learning and what matters more is you’re happy and proud with where you are today

Thank you, Ben. What you have said, is something that I really feel right now, that I cannot express. I cannot afford to take therapy, yet. But I hope soon enough, I can. Thank you, Ben, for being our voice, for us that are silently battling all these demons inside us. I love how you were able to articulate those reality that someone like me might be needing to hear in this moment. Thank you for the courage to speak up. That might be one of your purposes in life. I might need a hug. Thank you so much.

@reverlindi23

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@haiiizaiii

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Hugs!! I can be a listening ear po if you need someone to talk without judgment :)

After watching the whole video, these are the things you really have to consider Ben: 1. Stop putting so much pressure on yourself. -Step back and reevaluate. 2. Stop taking things personally. -Your power lies in your response. 3. Start meditating. -This will cultivate your inner peace and will strengthen your focus. 4. Start embracing your authentic self…the real you… - By doing so, will lift so much weight off the burden you’re carrying. 5. Start recalibrating your thoughts and perspectives. -How you see the world sometimes stems down from the generational view of seeing things that were passed down from the people who came before you in a society that still envelops these ideologies. 6. Be (your own definition of) happy. I hope you’re well.

thank you Ben! I love how you just be true to this vid and also to help us to remember to be kind to our self💖

Thank you for standing up and fight for life. Love you always Ben. ❤️

Kudos for being brave and being comfortable enough to share this personal chapter to your huge platform. Personally, I felt heard through this video especially on the light on being an adult who built majority of one’s life by making versions of himself that was tailored to how people would benefit from us and also to overcompensate so as to feel “validated”. Immensely grateful for my mum for initiating to eventually see a behavioural medical specialist and from there break down almost three decades of the unreal me. Started on a regular medication that is very helpful in regulating my mood and sleep. Perhaps I will highlight that acknowledging to oneself that you have a health problem and you need help, is the single most essential step to healing and recovering. To anyone having a difficult time, you aren’t alone and you will get through this. Hopefully a Filipino version of #PostYourPill, mental health wise will be an eye opener for the general Philippine public. ❤❤❤

I feel you. I am in a similar situation. I categorize myself as one with High Functioning Depression. Been to some Psych Docs but since one of my issues is trust, I don’t trust them and hasn’t been medicating. I do the spiral thing and it works all the time. Oftentimes, I took a leave from work, sometimes 2 days to 1 week, as often as monthly, just to compose myself again, by sleeping, eating and doing nothing. Like you, I don’t wanna harm myself, so when the going gets tough, I just take some time off, and go back to work after, like nothing happened. Its been more than 30 years for me. So pat your shoulder for recognizing and accepting who you are. You will surely continue being a productive person until you gets old. Fighting! 💪

I’ve never seen you in awhile Ben, thank you so much for being brave enough to share and admit this reality of yours to all of your viewers. This is such an eye opener to everyone who seldom talks about their current situation. Hopefully you get all the time that you need to ease your transition on coming back to what you used to do.

Thanks for this vid. ❤️ I also feel the same way cause I am in my 30s na and I feel lost. People think of me as a strong person cause lagi ako nakatawa and I am a psych grad so I need to look as if I feel good all the time but deep inside I am not. It's true that social media made is think that you always need validation from others to feel good but the reality is it's just yourself overthinking. In the end of the day mas Kilala mo self mo and alam mo mas magpapasaya sayo. I felt better after watching this and I am proud of you for being brave of sharing your story. ❤️

Ang buong vlog na to ay parang diary ko during the pandemic 😂, one thing is for sure, everything gets better. We can only cope, the anxiety and depression doesn't go away. It just becomes smaller. Be diligent on the meds, it requires a lot of work kahit hndi mo nman gustong gunawa ng kahit ano kasi walang motivation. I hope you can wake up one day and hindi kna biglang umiiyak ng hndi mapigilan. 💕

Just glad that you're healing and you're in the process of healing.Sending virtual hugs!

You are absolutely right! I've been wanting to vlog my travels but when you're there and see the nature and the place you just forget everything and just enjoy the view and relax. That's why I enjoy every travels.

always remeber, your feelings are VALID! Thanks, Ben for sharing your story, PAYTING!!

We can get through this! Hugs to everyone 🤗🤗🤗

You’re such a strong person to find the courage to publish very sensitive online. From one person who also feels something similar, your story really resonated with me. Thank you. 💕

Your heard and all the things you do and said and experience matters. Praying for you 🙂

As someone who just started asking for help and now undergoing therapy this video is super empowering. Naiyak lang ako dun sa last part, those discussion with your therapist hits home for me. Padayon Ben!

Kakarelate iyong executive dysfunction when one would just shut down from the entire world and shun everyone. Could remember how I didn’t do basic activities of daily living for three days and had to slap myself awake and pick myself up after having a social welfare check at 3am-that was pivotal for me. Although I had to leave a big city and go back home to heal, I do not regret such. Thankful for my Q pill for being a good help so far and I hope this will be a sign for anyone to seek help, start the healing era and eventually come out strong. ✨✨✨✨

Thank you for sharing. I hope I could hug you. Praying for you, Ben.

Thank you for this video Ben! This is an encouragement to those who experience as yours! So proud of u!! Yea your right things shall pass and u get better than yesterday. God bless un

i started crying when u played the audio with ur therapist. i cried because realizing na we may have different experiences, but we felt the same in everything. until now im crying because i KNOW now that i needed help. i always think that myself is just crazy just like u thought that everyone has blocked nose in the morning. i thought putting boundaries with people is JUST WEIRD. but i think its not. maybe im also in defense mode and i need to seek help. thank you, ben. thank you.

To my Dearest Kuya Ben♡♡ Remember that you are always LOVED ❤ no matter what you're facing right now .... lilipas din yan! Don't give up po iloveyouuuu and sending virtual hugs🤍❤🥰

Thank you for sharing your experience, Benedict. This will help me to understand my friends or family that might or have the same situation. Sending love to all and I know you'll get better. ☺

Thanks for sharing this. Such an eye opener. Hugs to you Ben, for being so brave. ❤️

I felt so productive after viewing this video. Thanks Kuya Ben for becoming my virtual Kuya. Always here as your virtual bunso to listen and support you virtually. Fighting

I am happy that you are addressing this and you let peope know. Being open to the world is one step to getting better, I believe. You will get there! Just be consistent and things will be better in no time. Di mo mapapansin you can continue living life like you used to, not feeling axious about everything that really doesn’t matter. We love you Ben. Ingat parate. ❤😊

Hi Ben, thank you for sharing your story. I can relate to you. I have Bipolar Disorder and Schizophrenia. I'm seeing my psychiatrist for almost a decade. What you're going through is not easy but I know that you are strong. 🖤

Thanks for sharing this Ben . It made me realize the value of life. and to look on to the brightest side and move forward. As you read this, I am still in the darkness , stuck and helpless. Watching your video has ignited a spark of an opportunity to become better. Been watching your videos since 2020, and this us one of the best. Thank you for sharing your experiences, I hope one day I will have the courage to share mine and the strength to face all my fears 😭

As someone who currently experiences burnout (its been 3 weeks), listening to you talk about these things is somehow therapeutic to me. Knowing that I'm not alone in what I feel makes me feel validated, and convinces me to not be too hard on myself. We'll heal and move forward, no matter how long it takes, for ourselves. Thank you, Kuys Ben.

Hi. Kuya Ben! Just wanna let you know that I will be here supporting you no matter where life puts you. Thank you for sharing your mental health journey in this vlog. My advice to you is that, don't put so much pressure on yourself just to prove to people that you're good enough. Genuine people in your life would appreciate what you can offer and they would accept on what you can't offer. As well as your fans. Hehe. Been here since 2019. Shoutout. As a mental health advocate & a psychology graduate, I am so proud of you on sharing awareness on mental health and openly talk about your experience about it through this vlog. I loved how open you are on issues in your life. Thank you for your courage. Appreciate it. This too, shall pass! Fighting! 🫶 God bless *notice me please, thanks xoxo* Rooting for you, all the way! 🥳

I needed this. Thank you so much ben! You will be ok soon. ❤️

Glad you shared this piece with us. Stay as you are! Brilliant, funny, and beautiful (inside out) ❤

Thank you for this, Ben. We miss you. I hope you get better.

Hi, Ben. I don't know if you'll be able to read this but I am hoping you would! This vlog is such a precious one. You were able to craft something raw and honest in one video. And I admire you for that. Thank you for being honest and speaking on behalf of all of us with the same situation. I want to just thank you. I hope you'll share more of this in the future! BUT AGAIN, IT'S NO PRESSURE. Thank you, Ben!

Thank you, Ben. Also diagnosed with MDD and still have no real support with this fight but hearing from someone who struggles the same and received the help they needed sparked hope in me to keep going. Padayon ta;

This is so worth watching. Thank you Ben for sharing what you've been through. As Psychology major I feel to spiritually, and you are so string to overcome these. Even I, have been experiencing anxiety and insecurity but I still hope to be better. Life will constantly challenge us but what matters is that you always have to believe that you'll get through it.

No matter what you're facing right now, you'll get through it. There's light at the end of the tunnel, so don't give up.

This video gives all the validation that we all needed. 🥺 Thank you for sharing this kuya Ben. I know it took a lot of courage to share this to us so I’m proud of you. laban lang… hugs💗💗

I feel you. I've been through that and glad I'm now better. Hugs Ben! 🤗

This too shall pass. Praying for you Benedict.

This type of video urges me to pursue Clinical Psychology to help people like you kuya Ben and to be able to spread awareness about Mental Health and how Mental Illness can affect your Physical Self. I hope you can pass this dark phrase and find yourself again And live without the hassle and be free again We love you and we were always here for you FIGHTING 💜💜💜

I feel for you and your feelings are valid. Im diagnosed with anorexia nervosa to major depressive disorder with generalized anxiety disorder and now down to bipolar 2 and binge eating disorder. All i can say is, i really hope you find the fit doctors for you and know that you are not alone and no matter how small or big your progress is, progress is progress. Thank you for this video. You are my first fave youtuber and this is actually sad that you have to go through this but i know kaya mo yan. Surround your self with positive and loving people. Always know that you are loved. Once step at a time lang, Ben. :) Kaya natin to.

Congrats Ben! The first step to the process of healing, is aknowledgement that there is a problem. Seeking help and telling your story take a lot of courage within. I think you're getting there, the path to healing. Just remember to be more kind to yourself, but never lose focus to your goal. Therapies, medications and support system can do wonders to cope up. I hope you'll get through it. 👍💪

I am and will always be a fan. Warm hugs. Did not expect this at all but you have my support, all the way! 😚😘😉

We love you kuya Ben. Kahit ano man ilabas or ilapag mo mag hihinaty at manunuod kami kahit Anong mangyari. Always remember that. Please don't be harsh to yourself, mahal ka namin🥰

Thank you for this content Ben. God is so Good 🙏🏻

This too shall pass.. Walang pagsubok ang di natin kayang lagpasan... Mahigpit na yakap para sayo.. Tuloy lang sa pagbangon 🥰🙏💪

i could definitely relate. there was a point that my fave past time riding bike doesn't make me happy anymore. but it really helps to talk to somebody even stranger or friend. there are times that feel okay and not kaya kumakalma na lang ako minsan whenever I felt sad or tinotopak ako without me realizing why I am sad\depressed. true enough na we all need to help ourselves kasi yung ibang tao they only give ideas advice in the end self pa rin ang maginitiate what things that will be better for us. life is short to be parking on sad feeling. good job Ben. keep sharing and inspiring people. God bless

I feel you, recently i had the similar dilemma. Thank you for sharing. God is good.

Thanks Ben, this video made me feel better. I was really experiencing depression as you read this comment but, until I found your video. It made me realize something and told myself that everything will be okay. Just hold on and don't give up and think of the things that you love the most and channel it, use it to overcome the sadness and remove the dark cloud over your head. Thank you so much. More Powah!

Youre so real for this!! Thank you for sharing your story. ☺️

I feel you, Ben! ❤ we are with you.

Thank you Ben, sending pray

God bless Benedict. All you said are true! Thanks for this coz, after watching this, I realized I also have it, only milder I guess. Hope you cope well, and me too.

maonti lang talagang makakaintindi nito fully but i'm SO GLAD tuloy tuloy tuloy ka lang sa kwento and pag open up. i'm proud of you ben ten!!!!!

Watching you is like looking at a mirror and there is so many "Like me" moments but I am in a better place because of DGAF. I stop carrying and just do what I like and let things fall in in own place. I have learned to simply be grateful for the winning moments and deal with the consequences of my bad choices. It became easier to just not care too much and it's ok not to have control of everything. I Just need to do things because I like them and it makes me happy rather than to constantly listed to others perception of me. I hope you find a way to keep yourself your number one priority only following what you love doing and having the courage to face challenges not to win but to overcome them. You're in your 30s, I am in my 50s but life is too short and I focus on the quality of life I have lived rather than listening to others saying how I should live my life. I hope you feel better.

Hi Ben, I’m so proud of you for your courage to seek therapy and be out in the open about it and also medications. I’ve been diagnosed with MDD for 7yrs now, good job on what you’re doing to keep yourself healthy and mentally stable. 👏 Your journey towards recovery may take more time than you’ll ever expect but never lose hope. Pag MDD kasi extremes talaga. One week you’re so positive, energetic and happy. Following weeks you’re stuck in a blackhole. Just never lose hope and will power to continuously help yourself. You do you! God bless! 😊

Thanks for sharing this ben. Ramdam na ramdam ko to. Yung feeling na di mo na macontrol emotions mo kahit wala naman ganap.

I'm so happy that you're getting better! Thank you for sharing your experience and makes us feel that we are not alone

I miiiiisssss you so much Ben. ❣️ A friend of mine once told me that, "when searching for love, whether it's a hobby, a thing or a person make sure you that find yourself there first." Sometimes we tend to lose ourself in the process of maintaining the image that we set, to the point that our hobbies, our true identity, or basically everything that's natural in us are becoming our burdens. Rest if you must, but I'm glad that you're doing better than before. More power! ❤️❤️❤️

Hello Benedict! very well put together content and thank you for sharing this!! you hit it on point! I also wanted to add on and maybe this might help you too, that there’s nothing wrong taking a pause and pulling back a bit once you notice that it’s beginning to feel more of like a pressure than joy in any endeavor one is in. It happens to anyone and whatever you’re feeling is valid. I for one could relate in regards to not being sure at times where you truly belong. I am also of Chinese ancestry but was born and raised in the Philippines and my parents included and we are Filipinos at heart too. Sometimes, it does hurt when people judge one based on one’s looks etc. and the list goes on. People however, often miss on the mark that each one is different regardless of race, educational background etc. What matters at the end of the day is one’s intention, heart character and behavior. Everything else is merely superficial. Even having lived in the US half my life, though I also love and appreciate being also American, but sometimes, it gets to me too when I encounter rude people who have hurt me too with their words and prejudice in rare instances. I have come to realize however, that one can never generalize. Each person is different. At the end of the day, we can never control how people perceive us but we can control our response on this. I am still learning and I think as my high school teacher always used to say in class, “We live to learn and we learn to live.” What makes you an incredible content creator is that it is raw and relatable besides you being clear. I would say keep up the good work!! 🙂👍🏼🕊and all the best!! PS: i rarely get the chance to regularly watch clips from the people I subscribe to let alone leave a comment. I, however, have felt compelled leaving one on here and I believe you deserve a good shout out for simply being you!!😎👍🏼 To everyone on here, pls. excuse me for any typos and sending peace and love to each one on here💕☮️🕊️

I honor you for sharing this story. been here too. its hard to get out of that dark place but hope gets us out of that scary place.

I can see myself from your whole experience Ben. Reminds me of what i went through. You are not alone. I can relate to your journey. We’ll get better for sure. Therapy helps indeed.

Giving you hugs! Thanks for sharing this video.. and sobrang na touch ako sa life mo now