I admire your courage to make this video, it's not easy. I plan on Making one of this, or a write up on my story when I come out to my family.

Excellent video, Peyton. As a former evangelical Christian, your deconversion story is very powerful. I appreciate your openness. I was a Christian until I was thirty, then explored other spiritual expressions before my theism eventually evaporated from lack of evidence. Wishful thinking can only carry us so far.

@christophergibson7155

2 жыл бұрын

All the evidence you need is the new birth. Unless your are born again you can see or enter the kingdom of God. Jesus made that crystal clear. No need for any other evidence, because Jesus IS THE WORD OF GOD. "Other spiritual expressions" is a departure from the Living God and will only end in folly. Repent, (have a change of mind and heart toward sin and self) and trust in Jesus alone, come with the humility of a little child. He is Faithful, and will forgive you and receive you to Himself.

@TimH-pu2dd

2 жыл бұрын

@@christophergibson7155 I guess you missed the part where I said I was a Christian until I was thirty. I believed everything you wrote. But absence of proof, and a lack of anything with an unambiguously divine origin can undermine belief. Every single thing I felt or experienced could be explained by wishful thinking, confirmation bias, or willful ignorance.

@christophergibson7155

2 жыл бұрын

@@TimH-pu2dd Yes, I did read and understand the part of you being a Christian until you were 30. My question is: "If you knew Jesus and had a relationship with Him, how is possible to deny His existence? It's like saying I know my wife, but I am not sure she is real. You may have heard, we don't have "religion with Jesus" but we have a relationship. So, why did doubt, disbelief, and ultimately disobedience come into your life? Did you pick up another resource book to open up that door of departure from the faith?

@TimH-pu2dd

2 жыл бұрын

@@christophergibson7155 It is inaccurate to say I am denying his existence. Perhaps he exists, but I am no longer convinced of it. Whatever I felt and experienced during those years was frustratingly ambiguous, and indiscernible from my own wishful thinking and longing. Prayer was rather like talking into a phone and waiting for a response, only to hear silence-or sounds that may or may not be someone on the other end. I assure you, I wanted communication, and verification of his presence. I want to believe true things; I do not want to believe things just because I want them to be true. I am open to changing my mind, but it would take an unambiguous event to change it.

@christophergibson7155

2 жыл бұрын

@@TimH-pu2dd Perhaps, this has happened to you to let you stand back, and reconsider. May I encourage you not to give up. I was a backslider in heart for 20 years. I just recently came back to Jesus last year. I can confess that it is so much sweeter and real than it has ever been in my life. Yes, you will struggle with things you don't understand. Yet the scripture says over and over that The Lord is so very merciful and compassionate toward us. Even in our misunderstanding and strife. But prayer is a special place to pour out your thoughts, hurts, and struggles while walking with The Lord. I find in prayer that there are times of hearing that "still small voice" inside and I can rejoice in that comfort. I have cried many times out to God to move His hand on certain matters. Feelings come and go, but the faithfulness of God will always come through. If you have any area of unforgiveness, or resentment....confess and repent of that. We are in a spiritual warfare, so there are evil forces at work to try to get us to turn away from following The Lord. Even Jesus as you know was tempted. At the Mount of Olives Jesus was so engrossed in prayer that He sweated droplets of blood. "The Spirit bears witness with our spirit that we are the children of God." (Romans 8:16)

Thanks for putting this up. I’ve been struggling for a long time and The future scares me. Hearing you turned out okay makes me a lot less hesitant to explore the truth

@andrewpascal6096

2 жыл бұрын

I hope you landed OK. I went through a similar deconstruction and I wouldn’t ever go back. If your family will disown you and you’re dependent, make sure you reach out for a support network. It’s a fun journey.

@staroblivion1898

2 жыл бұрын

@@andrewpascal6096 Glad to report I'm in a much happier, healthier, and safer place now :)

You are a very brave exemplary young man and countless will muster courage to follow your journey towards reason and reality leaving superstition and mythology behind.

That was really good. Thanks for sharing.

Peyton just listened to first few minutes so far where you explain how deep you were in, but just wanted to warn you that you will get a ton of 'you were never a real Christian' . That's the no true Scotsman fallacy'. Anyway award yourself a bonus point everytime you get one!

@some_sun8502

2 жыл бұрын

This! Emotional abuse to put it back on the person. How judgemental and unloving. Deconverting is hard. It isn't a decision made lightly either.

@VulcanLogic

3 ай бұрын

I always respond to that with "like you didn't believe in Santa Claus. Of course you did. You cried your eyes out when you thought he wasn't coming. You sat down and wrote letters to him. You waited in line to sit on his lap and tell him what you wanted. You saw that he'd eaten the cookies and drank the milk. If you're telling me that none of us were real Santa believers, I'm telling you you're a liar, and not a very good one."

Deconstruction leads to destruction

A few years ago I left Catholicism and Christianity. I am an agnostic atheist. My conversation with my parents lasted 4 hours. They respect my choice and I respect their faith. That's it. My parents, however, were never fundamentalists. My wife believes there must be something there. We have been happily married for 18 years.

@illananenna

3 күн бұрын

u never truly believed in the first place.

@radosawszmid7822

3 күн бұрын

@@illananennaSure...You guys are so funny.

@illananenna

3 күн бұрын

@@radosawszmid7822 how do you go from believing in God to completely not believing? You can’t, you truly never had faith in the first place.

@radosawszmid7822

3 күн бұрын

@@illananenna There are millions of us and the number is constantly growing. The argument that I have never been a true believer is one of the weakest. You don't know what was in mind before or the path I took to get to where I am today. As long as you're in this bubble, you won't understand it, but if you only started analyzing it deeply with a critical mind, you'd probably get to the same point. Most people simply don't do it They prefer to stay in this bubble as it is the only way that gives them a sense of purpose and psychological comfort.

@illananenna

3 күн бұрын

@@radosawszmid7822 only growing with Europeans. You won’t come to terms that I stated a fact. Have a blessed day💗

Yep... Here comes the... "You were never actually a Christian."

@kontiuka

3 жыл бұрын

I think that would actually apply to me. I was raised RC but never really gave a crap about it other than worrying about hell from time to time. Total non-believer now.

@christophergibson7155

2 жыл бұрын

Well, how about you? The scripture does say this, "Now the Spirit expressly says (for sure it will happen) that in latter times (today) some will depart from the faith, (just check KZread for deconversion stories)... giving heed to deceiving spirits and doctrines of demons." (1 Timothy 4:1) No surprise, because the Word Of God is wisdom.

@brennonguilbeau569

5 ай бұрын

​@christophergibson7155 that could be said about any generation.

@chadrasmussen1154

3 ай бұрын

And also if there is a god or heaven or hell It doesn't make any sense not everyone wants religion what if I just want to explore the world live as long as I can have some hobbies play with my animals and then die I don't really get this whole religion God thing it sounds so boring

@christophergibson7155

3 ай бұрын

@@brennonguilbeau569 No. It speaks "expressly" of this generation. So called professing Christians dropping like dead flies. Why? Because Jesus made it clear to us that in this generation... "because lawlessness will abound, the (agape) love of many will grow cold." (Matthew 24:12) Sin will harden the luke warm Christian in this end time generation. "and with all unrighteous DECEPTION among those who perish, because they did not receive the love of the truth, that they might be saved. And for this reason God will send them strong DELUSION, that they should believe THE LIE" (2 Thessalonians 2:10-11)

Don't even listen to the christians who say you "weren't really saved." Saved from what? They claim to be saved from their sins and hell which don't even exist.

@christophergibson7155

2 жыл бұрын

"The Son of Man came to seek and SAVE that which was lost." "For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, that the world through Him might be SAVED." "That if you confess with your mouth The Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be SAVED." ....SAVED FROM WHAT?? Saved from your sins, your self, and from eternal separation in hell from the presence of God. Hell is a very real place. Jesus talked about it more than anyone else. You only deny it's existence because you have no fear (reverential awe) of God. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. Jesus said, "But I will show you whom you should fear: fear Him who, after He has killed, has power to cast into hell; yes, I say to you, FEAR HIM !(Luke 12:5) But you don't have to go there!! Jesus said to come to Him as a little child in humility and Repent, and believe in the gospel. Forsake yours sins, and trust Jesus for your salvation. He paid the debt for you by becoming sin for you on the cross by shedding His blood. He was the Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world. Turn to Christ and Live!

@superthoughts9611

2 жыл бұрын

After death where u will go? U need to stand before Christ for judgement. U will see, whether hell is real or not

@brialapoint2608

6 ай бұрын

superthoughts youre not exempt just because youre a Christian

@wholefoodplantbasedmama5398

5 ай бұрын

@@superthoughts9611not convinced your god exists.

Thank you!

Your story is sincere,candid, honest. Bible not inerrant. But refers to truth

"The cure for Christianity is simply read the bible " Mark Twain

evangelizing is the word you were looking for. I get that wrong too!

Great vid

Your parents shouldn’t blame you for having the brain that God gave you. I’ve been deconstructed for a number of decades. I thought I was alone in the world. I congratulate you on your path. Your story’s not over, but I greatly appreciated you sharing. I’m sure you’ve come across him thanks to the KZread algorithm, but I’ve enjoyed the teaching of Rabbi Tovia Singer. While I think the OT has many deep errors, who better than a passionate rabbi to expose the fallacies of the NT? Christian apologists just miss the mark imo. If your not aware of Rabbi Singer, his mission is to serve as a response to the deceptive tactics of evangelical Christians trying to convert Jews. Many great vids.

Good for you young man. I'm approaching 60 now and I never did believe it, even as a young child. Today I think that all religion has a certain amount of story telling value. People like to tell or write stories for a variety of reasons, whether it's to get a point across, or teach lessons about life, or just whatever it is that the imagination can dream up. I think that all religion was written as a form of human control, or possibly just as a form of entertainment. In any event, I think that all of religion is fiction. All of it. Every syllable. There's way too much of it that makes no sense in reality, the miracles in particular. "This happened because God," theists say, and it's bullshit. The supernatural cannot be proven, and theists scramble around like they can. It's hilarious to watch. Anyway go on like you are as an atheist, you have many years left. You'll be just fine without religion wasting your time.

❤ Brilliant, thanks tor sharing, I became an Atheist last year, after 30 years of evangelical church. I have the same current problems with my wife and her parents. Isn't it weird how the church always conveniently just misses out the controversial or contradictory verses!😉 Ironically have learned more about the bible and actual bible history since becoming an Atheist!😂 And there's no way I want to go back!

Liked. Very clear and rational deconversion account. So glad you ultimately chose to live your life instead of blindly following the insane words of camel-herders.

Great point man. I also asked what would happen to my great grand parents who existed before 1877 (that’s when the first missionary arrived in Uganda my home country) what would happen to them? Are they in hell for not having known Christ? This is the first time that got me to where I am today

I liked and Subscribed Hope you share more Make more videos ?

@atheistmoe5528

3 жыл бұрын

Check me out I made111-kzread.info/dron/EmUrTydX9XDgs2wR4v07uQ.html

I was raised Catholic wnd Protestant since i was in diapers. I left all of Christianity in 2004/ i love hearing why people leave because everyone has a different story. To me all of Christianity is abusive. There are people that go from evangelical to progressive Christian and i roll my eyes

A lot (daresay, most) of these deconversion stories are from former evangelicals.

@tonekenny5225

3 жыл бұрын

I'm curious. What's your point?

@glof2553

3 жыл бұрын

@@tonekenny5225 it’s telling and a trend, is all

@tonekenny5225

3 жыл бұрын

@@glof2553 is it possible that the trend can be explained by more people are are actually reading what the Bible says and they are coming to the conclusion that they sincerely don't believe it? The trend being that they are being honest? What do you think?

@glof2553

3 жыл бұрын

@@tonekenny5225 I think the trend is more ideological than about honesty. True intellectual honesty would be reading the Bible synoptically/within a historical context, without holding too much allegiance to any single interpretation.

@tonekenny5225

3 жыл бұрын

@@glof2553 appreciate your point of view

I feel you also christainty sounds boring the thing is I don't want to constantly fear the almighty of burning in hell or going to heaven I feel like why can't I enjoy my animals hobbies work and food and just die why do I have to worry about some afterlife if there's no creative stuff why would I want to go there I love fantasy characters and colorful characters like chip and dale or pokemon and ya I love God but I also think what's the point of heaven or hell it doesn't make sense

I think it's evangelizing. :) Anyways, thanks for the vid.

The term you're looking for is Evangelizing.

beat your slave, just don't beat him of*, got it.

you should try reading Hinduism (Sanatan Dharma more than 10K yrs old) start with Bhagwad Geeta.

Wow 3rd grade

The cia's mk ultra has nothing on religion 😮

Dear young man, you've let the world into your heart. Please reconsider!

@gamertag7676

5 ай бұрын

No he understands how flawed Christianity is, it's false hope you clearly don't understand his point, you lack empathy

@weirdwilliam8500

4 ай бұрын

“Don’t you dare leave me, babe, or I will mess you up so bad. You’re nothing without me. You don’t even deserve my love. Everything I sacrificed for you, and you can’t just love me how I tell you?” Smack. “Look what you made me do! You brought this on yourself! You deserve this!” Smack. That’s what you are making your god sound like. I see you as a victim, trying to pull others into an abusive relationship with an imaginary friend. I sincerely hope you can free yourself and enjoy the world and the one life you know you have.

Raw and uncut: What lots of people (even pastors) don't (yet) understand. God created us according to His own image and likeness. Godly. Mankind/the first Adam fell. The image of God in man got lost. That's why there is all this predicament on earth (selfishness, greed, lust, wars, sicknesses, death, etc). We are all born into that mess. For the fall of man a perfect atoning sacrifice had to be made.... that is what God did in Christ. With His own once and for all perefect sacrifice, He paid the debt for the fall of man for us, so we can be indwelled by His Spirit again and finally receive the divine life of the ages back, the first Adam let got of in the fall of man. An amazing act of grace and love by our creator. That is what you see happening in Christ's first disciples. They too healed all and walked in unselfish love. And yes.... that is still avaible today. The holy blood is in place, the Holy Spirit is here to give us understanding, power and transform us back to origin. Not to be debated about, but to be embraced and be-come. So: The Kingdom of God already came. Through Christ, in Spiritform, in those that understand. Hence the divine healing miracles we experience. God manifested in Christ to give us back the divine life mankind lost in the fall of Adam. Christ, the exact image of the invisible God. The image we were created after in Gen 1. The image we lost in the fall of man. The image that can be freely restored by Christ's blood and Holy Spirit working IN us. What a plan. What a solution. What a love. What a God. Jesus is amazing. It is the ultimate conclusion of the word and plan of God. God came full circle. He Himself stooped down from glory to restore us back to original created value: Christlikeness. Walking in divine healing power and unselfish love. Jesus, born of the Spirit of God, filled with the spirit of God. The "Son" of God, the incarnated word, God in the flesh. For three years He healed all, raised the dead, casted out demons, controlled nature, spoke pure divine truth. He said: "Follow Me. If you see Me, you see the Father. The Father and I are one. The glory I have IN My Father, I give to you. It pleases the Father to give you His Kingdom/Holy Spirit/divine nature. I will send Holy Spirit, the same as Me, He will be IN you, guide you into truth and give you explosive power. The same miracles i do, you will do too, because you will understand that the Father is IN Me and I am IN you. Freely I give you My Kingdom/Holy Spirit/divine nature, heal the sick, raise the dead, cast out demons, freely I give, freely share" Etc, etc, etc. I have experienced thousands of beautifull healing miracles through the power of Holy Spirit IN me already. Broken bones, cancers, covid, all kinds of infirmities healed in seconds. Demons manifesting and casted out by a simple "get out, in Jesus name". Jesus. De name above all names. In Him all power and wisdom is sourced and.... He calls us one with Him. God in man and man in God again. C'mon Jesus!! So.... again: God stooped down IN Christ to restore us back to Gen 1:27 were He said: "Let us make man according to our image and likeness and let them have authority.....": walk as Christ. Christ, the exact image of the invisible God. The image we were created after and being restored to by His atoning blood for the fall of man and indwelling Holy Spirit. You are free to receive this original divine life of the ages by Holy Spirit of Christ/God. Ask Him to guide you into truth. Read the Gospel of John and fall in love with your creator. You are not made for the fall of man and its effects, but for the image/glory of God and to walk like Christ. Holy Spirit is the guide and transforming power that will get you there. Amazing grace. A big leap in faith can be made when we start realizing we are already IN Christ, IN the last Adam. Free from the fall! Loved! Growing into awareness of our new (yet old) godly identity. Changing by Holy Spirit. The most fullfilled life ever. Paul healed all on Malta. He understood and wrote: "As in the first Adam ALL died (lost the divine nature), so also ALL were made alive IN Christ to walk in Zoë (= divine life) again". "IN Christ (the last Adam) we are co-cruisified (dead to the fall and its effects), co-raised (justified/made righteousness, holy, blameless, above reproach), co-seated (one with Him)" "The fullness of deity dwells in Christ and YOU HAVE BEEN MADE COMPLETE IN HIM, who is the head of every principality and power". So.... thank you Jesus! Thank you for redeeming me from the fall of man. Thank you for your Holy Spirit that makes this new (yet old) divine life come alive in me. You are amazing! In the shadow of Peter the sick healed... He understood too and wrote: "By Gods power (Holy Spirit) and knowing Christ, we have become partakers of the divine nature and have escaped the fall of man". The divine life of the ages has been returned to us by Jesus once and for all perfect atoning sacrifice for the debt of the fall of man and His indwelling Holy Spirit in us. Jesus/God is amazing!!! Ask Him to give you revelation and change you to the way it was before the fall of man: Christlikeness. He will do so. For it is written: "the Spirit brings forth after His own kind". "I have come to give you Zoë (divine life) in abundance...."

@Larry30102

2 жыл бұрын

A couple things that hit me when first digging into this is that there is forgiveness of sin in the OT without the shedding of blood….what?? Of course there is other example where blood was shed, but it was for things like a misdemeanor: a guy mistakenly walks across the court of the temple. Ok that that’s kind of strange to sacrifice an animal for that. But the really big ones, like turning your back on god…He would simply forgive if the person repented. So does man needs the blood of Jesus? While we’re on the topic…Jesus ‘The Lamb of God’. In the OT the sacrificial Lamb was always female. To Adam and Eve. If god knew they were going to fall, why didn’t he just start all over? Basically god aim is to have a family. Why condemn the majority of humanity for something he could of started over? This is on God. And the serpent didn’t beguile them. He basically said the truth. After digging a little more, I found the gospels were filled with so many errors. So, I think faith is a good thing. Spiritual life is a good thing. Having what you feel is personal relationship with Jesus is a good thing. Just realize that beyond the bubble and lens of Christianity there are so many things that just don’t add up. In your zeal, imo, while everything you say from a christian perspective is true, it misses the mark.

@wholefoodplantbasedmama5398

5 ай бұрын

A lot of babble.

JESUS is t only way, t truth and the life. If u got salvation, holy spirit anointing,living with Him, u won't fall. Now u r in t way of darkness that leads to eternal hell.

@superthoughts9611

2 жыл бұрын

After death where u will go?

@MasterOfDarkness42069

7 ай бұрын

Go away

That is terrible, imagine God did that to you. You say God please heal my little sister, and He just says to you, sorry i am too busy and ignores you. God is jealous in that He wants relationship with mankind, He creates mankind, He assists mankind in success, and helps one to spiritually grow. He gave you everything you have and will have, He wants you to spend eternity with Him reigning with Him. But you would rather follow the devil, who by the way hates God and he hates us with a passion. What we need is spiritual guidance and assistance. This all comes from within and resonates through the Holy Spirit. Christianity is the only faith given by God, sustained by God and developed with God. No other faith ahs the Holy Spirit as a guide and assist remedy. The devil is the person responsible for all the suffering in this world motivating, killers, robbers, cheaters, envy, jealously hatred towards God and each other. This is why we need the Holy Spirit. Not just to be acceptable to God but truly accepted in society. Persecution comes but with it comes admiration.

@wholefoodplantbasedmama5398

5 ай бұрын

Not convinced. The god of the Bible appears to be a narcissistic psychopath. Why would any sane person follow such a being.

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@booksie1

2 ай бұрын

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