"Medicating Normal" | A Documentary Film | 76-min | EN (w/ subtitles in ES, DE, DK, FR, IT)

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This full-length, award-winning documentary unearths the shattering truth that millions of people worldwide are injured by prescribed psychiatric medications. Interweaving stories of harm with expert testimony, the film reveals how a profit-driven industry hides the risks of long-term use. This untold story is a compelling call to examine the consequences of medicating normal human suffering.
Featuring Experts:
-Anna Lembke, MD, Professor, Psychiatry and Behavioral Sciences, Stanford University Medical School, Author, "Dopamine Nation"
-Peter Gøtzsche, Danish physician and medical researcher, Co-founder of the Cochrane Collaboration, Director, Institute for Scientific Freedom
-David Cohen, PhD., researcher, Professor and Associate Dean for Research and Development at Luskin School of Social Work, University of California Los Angeles, Co-author, "Your Drug May Be Your Problem"
-Robert Whitaker, Science Journalist, Author, "Mad in America" and "Anatomy of an Epidemic."
-Allen Frances M.D., Psychiatrist, Professor and Chairman Emeritus of the Department of Psychiatry and Behavioral Sciences, Duke University School of Medicine, co-chair of DSM-IV Task Force, Author, "Saving Normal"
-Mary Vieten, PhD., Psychologist, Executive Director of Warfighter ADVANCE, Chairman of the Board of Directors for the International Society for Ethical Psychology & Psychiatry, ISEPP
-Ellen Vora, M.D., psychiatrist and author, "The Anatomy of Anxiety"
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Español
"Medicando La Normalidad"
Este documental narra la estremecedora verdad de millones de personas en el mundo que son víctimas de la prescripción desmedida de medicamentos psiquiátricos. Los testimonios de las víctimas y de los expertos demuestran cómo las industrias ocultan los riesgos de su uso a largo plazo y convierten el sufrimiento natural del ser humano en una enfermedad mental. Para más información, visite medicatingnormal.com
Danish (DK)
"Normalitet På Recept"
Den prisbelønnede dokumentarfilm afdækker en grum sandhed: millioner af mennesker verden over tager skade af lægeordineret psykofarmaka. Udsagn fra både ofre og eksperter viser, hvordan en profitorienteret medicinalbranche skjuler risici ved langvarig brug. Historien fortælles for første gang og er en indtrængende appel til at se på konsekvenserne af at medicinere normal, menneskelig lidelse. Find mere information på medicatingnormal.com
Français (FR)
"La normalité sous ordonnance"
Ce documentaire primé révèle une vérité fracassante. Des millions de personnes de par le monde sont victimes des médicaments psychotropes sous ordonnance. Les témoignages de victimes et d’experts démontrent que cette industrie privilégie ses profits au détriment de la santé des patients en dissimulant les risques de ses produits et en transformant une souffrance humaine normale en maladie mentale. En savoir plus: medicatingnormal.com
Italiano (IT)
"La normalità su prescrizione medica"
Questo premiato documentario rivela una sconvolgente verità: milioni di persone nel mondo soffrono a causa di psicofarmaci prescritti. Dando la parola a vittime ed esperti, svela come un'industria guidata dal profitto nasconda i rischi legati all’uso a lungo termine. Questa storia inedita è un appello pressante a esaminare le conseguenze della medicalizzazione della normale sofferenza umana. Per ulteriori informazioni, visita medicatingnormal.com
Deutsch (DE)
"Auf Rezept Normalität"
Der preisgekrönte Dokumentarfilm enthüllt eine grausame Wahrheit: Millionen von Menschen weltweit werden durch ärztlich verordnete Psychopharmaka geschädigt. Aussagen von Opfern und Experten zeigen, wie eine profitorientierte Industrie die Risiken der Langzeiteinnahme verheimlicht. Ein eindringlicher Appell, die Folgen der medikamentösen Behandlung normalen menschlichen Leidens zu untersuchen. Mehr Informationen unter: medicatingnormal.com

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  • @MedicatingNormal
    @MedicatingNormal3 ай бұрын

    EN: Subtitles are available in Danish, English, French, German, Italian and Spanish. To turn on subtitles, move your cursor over or tap the video screen to display the "CC" button in the right corner. Click or tap it to select your language. ES: Con subtítulos disponibles en alemán, danés, español, francés, inglés e italiano. Para ver los subtítulos, haz clic sobre la pantalla o tócala para que aparezca el botón "CC" en la esquina derecha. Haz clic en el botón o presiónalo para seleccionar tu idioma. DA: Der er undertekster på dansk, engelsk, fransk, tysk, italiensk og spansk. For at aktivere dem, skal du flytte markøren henover eller trykke på videoskærmen for at få vist knappen "CC" i højre hjørne. Klik på den for at vælge sprog. FR: Les sous-titres sont disponibles en danois, anglais, français, allemand, italien et espagnol. Pour activer les sous-titres, déplacez votre curseur ou appuyez sur l'écran vidéo pour afficher le bouton « CC » dans le coin droit. Cliquez ou appuyez dessus pour sélectionner votre langue. IT: I sottotitoli sono disponibili in danese, inglese, francese, tedesco, italiano e spagnolo. Per attivare i sottotitoli, sposta il cursore sopra o tocca lo schermo per visualizzare il pulsante "CC" nell'angolo destro. Fare clic o toccare per selezionare la lingua. DE: Untertitel sind auf Dänisch, Englisch, Französisch, Deutsch, Italienisch und Spanisch verfügbar. Um Untertitel zu aktivieren, bewegen Sie den Cursor über den Videobildschirm oder tippen Sie darauf, um die Schaltfläche „CC“ in der rechten Ecke anzuzeigen. Klicken oder tippen Sie darauf, um Ihre Sprache auszuwählen.

  • @marcellustone

    @marcellustone

    2 ай бұрын

    Out of curiosity. What took you so long to upload the movie? Don't get me wrong. I bought a copy many month ago. But there's an other YT-Channel (ENDVR,), that uploaded YOUR movie a month ago.

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    2 ай бұрын

    @@marcellustone ENDVR is a distributor that we gave rights to. Our YT release was delayed a month due to finishing up the languages - we wanted all the subtitles to be ready. All films are distributed in this way - first, the film goes to the festival circuit to garner interest/awards, then you do community screenings, then SVOD/TVOD and finally AVOD. Most filmmakers do not just upload their films as free from day 1 - this is bc if a big platform (Netflix, Hulu, etc) is going to pick the film up, they aren't going to do it if it's already free to the public. They have to have something to offer their viewership. The goal is to reach as large an audience as possible, not speak to the choir.

  • @Hollyucinogen
    @Hollyucinogen2 ай бұрын

    I got prescribed anti-psychotics for being angry that I've been severely abused for half of my life...... I'm not psychotic, I'm justifiably angry. I'm pretty sure that most people would be angry under the same circumstances. Update: I told my doctor that it wasn't working (surprise! Anti-psychotics don't work on people who aren't psychotic!), and he said that I wouldn't notice a difference for 6 months to a year. I fired him on the spot and haven't been back.

  • @imadish5356

    @imadish5356

    2 ай бұрын

    You are NOT alone. I personally know (lazy/complacent) parents who didn't want to parent, and it was too easy for them to find doctors who would all but toss pills at their children. Should be criminal. Glad it sounds like you're squaring -so many never do! Be well!

  • @alexisallore

    @alexisallore

    2 ай бұрын

    I was 15 inpatient for depression & prescribed anti psychotics for getting mad when the doctor wasn’t listening that the antidepressants were having the opposite of intended effect & he just kept upping the dose. So many of these places and drs need they’re licenses pulled

  • @Auurify

    @Auurify

    Ай бұрын

    I was prescribed for anti psychotics when I was having a serious non-aliving moment during a bad period of my life. They helped me to snap out of of the crisis. Both the therapist and the psychiatrist told me it was a TEMPORAL solution. And TEMPORAL it was!! This was in Mexico, IDK WTF is wrong with American doctors prescribing this shit as if it was candy!

  • @Pleasegoaway44

    @Pleasegoaway44

    Ай бұрын

    @@alexisallore bro u just said what I want to say from years. But what you and me can do to punish these people right. I want to see your words come true and this is not what u and me want rather many many people wants the same .

  • @elsh332

    @elsh332

    Ай бұрын

    Good on you for being proactive about your own health. Your story makes me think of my second son, who was misdiagnosed with schizophrenia and medicated as an adult on antipsychotic meds. They reduced his life satisfaction and capacity to work, which then reduced his life satisfaction, and on the cycle went. I never lost him a few years back to suicide. But since then, he got really proactive about taking control of things. It was so hard for him to get out of the mental health system and find a great doctor. One dr took his licence off him after she was the one who approved it! He almost lost his job and that was the thing that gave him purpose and routine and kept him alive! A bad doctor can kill a person; a good one can help; a great one will listen and save the person's life.

  • @chinookvalley
    @chinookvalley2 ай бұрын

    Took me NINE years to get off Klonopin. It was prescribed by a psychiatrist. I kept saying it wasn't working, it was making me feel weird. They said I wasn't taking enough, they kept increasing my dose and I kept getting worse. I'd try stopping, but I couldn't. They kept telling me I "needed" it, but it wasn't helping. I tried, and tried, and tried to get off. The more I tried the weirder everything was. When I look back, I see that the doktors were worse than any street dealer. Sick.

  • @wednesdayschild3627

    @wednesdayschild3627

    2 ай бұрын

    I feel lucky. 30 years ago a psychiatrist put me on this. I took it for 8 months. I told him no more. He refused to see me or help me. I quit the pills myself. I lay on the couch sick for 3 months. I still went to work. I quit it over 3 weeks which was likely too fast.

  • @recynd77

    @recynd77

    2 ай бұрын

    I think that street dealers are cheaper, more available, less judgmental, and more efficient than doctors. If only they had a clean supply…

  • @matane2465

    @matane2465

    2 ай бұрын

    ​and more honest. They know what they're pushing and they're mostly honest about it.

  • @glenyst5216

    @glenyst5216

    2 ай бұрын

    This seems to be normal with most Doctors. Even simple conditions like gout that my wife had where the meds only made it far worse. The Doctor said that happens sometimes and I should just take even more! These people have no critical thinking skills or concience. They're just drug reps for pharma. Know nothing about health.

  • @annemurphy8074

    @annemurphy8074

    2 ай бұрын

    Took me 6 years to get off everything. 16 years off now. Those meds are deadly. My original psychiatrist at 16 yrs old, told me that meds were for very short term use ONLY. I aged out of the system at 18 and had new psychiatrists that diagnosed me with so many different things and put me on so many medications and told me it was FOR LIFE.

  • @dianapollock1954
    @dianapollock19542 ай бұрын

    It's about time! The pharmaceutical industry needs to be held accountable for what they are doing to the American population.

  • @earthamcdermott982

    @earthamcdermott982

    2 ай бұрын

    The whole world population

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    Trying to explain to someone after being on a cocktail of psychotopic drugs for years is like trying to explain winter to a insect what winter is like if it only live during summer. People believe what they what to believe until it happens to them. I wish I never experience it at all. It destroyed my life.

  • @Pleasegoaway44

    @Pleasegoaway44

    Ай бұрын

    @@tomwong917 same here. Totally agreed dear. M in hell of a situation myself. I m just suffering 😪

  • @Pleasegoaway44

    @Pleasegoaway44

    Ай бұрын

    Absolutely its just the right time now to stand up against these people (it's ot just pharma guys but I m sure it's way above that. The government has a big role may be and jurisdiction of each respected nation that we have to mention as well I still don't understand many things which actually its not to be said here. But I know what reality looks like a rough idea of this massacre I will not be able to comment more about thi but one thing that we as a concerned people should atleast spread the awareness and break the conditioning that has been embedded into minds of many people and that wil be a backslash to whatever or whoever is doing this . I m not blaming anyone here like pharma or government becoz I will be in a bad situation for making statements. But sooner than later I will stand up for all the injustice done to me . I have seen what happens in this particular area of healing . I m not saying that it is bad or it is good just to be safe. I m above the fears as I got nothing to loose. But still this is not the right time to actually say or do even a bit more but soon I will show it by the actions not commenting. Those who wronged me has to know repercussions and they will soon be in front of me I m waiting for justice . And each of us has right justice against the perpetrators and they can be literally anyone from any faculty of medicine and other faculty as well.

  • @mjrotondi5086

    @mjrotondi5086

    Ай бұрын

    Why are we, as a culture, never STAND UP to the multitudes of crimes against us ? We allow the food/drug/medical criminals continue to trespass against us ???? We accept whatever they do, we shop and buy poison food and drugs without a fight.

  • @juanrodriguezfestivalcoach
    @juanrodriguezfestivalcoach2 ай бұрын

    I am a Veteran who suffered the abuse of being over medicated for 4 years and seeing my brethren take their lives to then turn to advocating for them against this cruelty to humanity.

  • @user-zk6im4jo4o

    @user-zk6im4jo4o

    2 ай бұрын

    Amen brother

  • @bobbyboiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii1222

    @bobbyboiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii1222

    2 ай бұрын

    Ty ❤️

  • @diturner7247

    @diturner7247

    2 ай бұрын

    I hope the medical cannabis oils and flowers help. Good meat and sunshine while trying to create an organic garden.

  • @ana62301

    @ana62301

    2 ай бұрын

    WHAT ABOUT PEOPLE WHO NEED THEM TO KEEP THEMSELVES SANE?

  • @amor797

    @amor797

    2 ай бұрын

    I hope you get the right knowledge on nutrition. Recently they talk more how nutrients carences cause or make worse mental illness, mood swings and such

  • @carolinecroft7029
    @carolinecroft70292 ай бұрын

    Excellent. The corruption talked about makes me furious and sickened. The upcoming epidemic of trying to get off these drugs will be enormous. Horrific.

  • @ministryofpeacekmk

    @ministryofpeacekmk

    2 ай бұрын

    ✔️

  • @visionvixxen

    @visionvixxen

    2 ай бұрын

    Is it’s already is

  • @jordy5625

    @jordy5625

    2 ай бұрын

    I'm observing this for the last 20 years and we are in trouble. 30% of Americans are on some kind of drug to not go crazy. Imagine when they suddenly don't get their drugs and start to see things and go crazy? This is going to be fun

  • @normul5984

    @normul5984

    Ай бұрын

    I keep thinking that if anything happens to the supply chain, there's gonna be a horrid mess, unimaginable, left in the wake.

  • @normul5984

    @normul5984

    Ай бұрын

    Probably half of my kids and grandkids are on "something" or several "somethings" and it just makes me sick. I'm currently working on a SLOW wean off Effexor with my daughter. Lord willing, we can do this w/o severe side effects.

  • @68orangecrate26
    @68orangecrate262 ай бұрын

    BTW: Children are full of energy and should be allowed to develop without being medicated to “behave”…

  • @invisibelle7590

    @invisibelle7590

    2 ай бұрын

    My son was a complete nutbag when he was little, couldn't concentrate for more than a minute...left him to it. I'd already seen what medication does with my mother who was given tranquilizers (which, incidentally dont make you tranquil) for 12 years. He bucked up at 14, started working hard, and is now doing an Msc in software engineering. I honestly think he would have been diagnosed with ADHD if I'd taken him to the doc. He just had alot of energy.

  • @rhondanighman

    @rhondanighman

    2 ай бұрын

    You can control behavior & hyperactivity through a sugar free low carb diet

  • @saintessa

    @saintessa

    2 ай бұрын

    Generally that's true. Although when I was a kid I jsut wouldn't stop playing when we were back in the classroom when other kids easily sat down and listened etc. I think adhd kids are a bit more so or it's harder to regulate our energy because of attention etc perhaps. But we don't want to go too far

  • @rhondanighman

    @rhondanighman

    2 ай бұрын

    @@saintessa that’s the problem with schools they’re not hands on learning that engage children.. kids aren’t designed to sit still they need things to do.Ive been inside a Hershey Montessori school & I can say with certainty the kids aren’t bored.Everything in the school is hands on learning through every day activities from measuring dirt ,counting beads,raising baby chicks/taking care of fish,whatever …there are activities to do that are incorporated for leaning

  • @Bingewatchingmediacontent

    @Bingewatchingmediacontent

    2 ай бұрын

    @@saintessaIt’s not natural for kids to just sit in a classroom for 6+ hours at a time. The problem isn’t the kid, it’s the society that thinks forcing kids to behave like miniature adults is sane.

  • @nsff2001able
    @nsff2001able2 ай бұрын

    Ive always resisted medications for mental health, this is why.

  • @louisecampbell2628

    @louisecampbell2628

    2 ай бұрын

    The same here!!

  • @w.urlitzer1869

    @w.urlitzer1869

    2 ай бұрын

    what was your solution?

  • @philanders3705

    @philanders3705

    2 ай бұрын

    ​@@w.urlitzer1869talk therapy is the only way through it

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    If I ever have life problems bumps on the road I will talk to a Priest, Pastor, Monk or a friend where I will at at least find empathy without side effects.

  • @claesyoungberg1695

    @claesyoungberg1695

    25 күн бұрын

    ​@@tomwong917amazing!! You have great instincts!!

  • @MGAF688
    @MGAF6882 ай бұрын

    I was suffering severe depression. I had a therapist. I told her that I would rather die than go on prescription drugs of any kind. I pulled through it after several years. I came out ahead. Others that I know did not.

  • @claesyoungberg1695

    @claesyoungberg1695

    25 күн бұрын

    🏆

  • @Kaylee_94
    @Kaylee_942 ай бұрын

    If it wasn’t for medicating normals online resources my spouse would still be on medication- when I was weaning him off, the doctor told me- he’d be back in the same condition in 8 months, Glory to God it’s been over 2 years and he’s never been better!!! Completely fine!

  • @jayterra2060

    @jayterra2060

    2 ай бұрын

    WOW

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    2 ай бұрын

    We're so glad to hear! Be well.

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    I stopped my medication after almost 3 decade on a cocktail of psychtropic drugs coming up to a year now and I am feeling like a normal human being. I do have neurological problems with like and sound but other than that I am relived.

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    I been off all my meds for almost a year and I am getting back all my emotions and the ability to feel again. For the fist time in almost 3 decade I have gone organic. No more popping pills every night and day. I am a happier person.

  • @jayterra2060

    @jayterra2060

    2 ай бұрын

    @@tomwong917 amazing, congratulations Tom. Thank you for sharing its sooo encouraging

  • @stormypuurl
    @stormypuurl2 ай бұрын

    This needs to be shared on every single social media outlet over and over. Rather than seeing suffering as a normal aspect of life, we dope ourselves. I know, I had severe panic attacks and was on anti depressants for 20 years. I saw some wild things. I finally took myself off. Withdrawal is crazy and lasting effects are too. I've been off for 3 years, even through covid. I'm fine mentally but physically, it caused auto immune stuff. The thing that helped the MOST and still does was the serenity prayer. I know that sounds cliche, but you must come to the conclusion that you can not control everything in life. Good or bad. Here's the prayer: God grant me the serenity to change the things I can, accept the things I can not change, and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen. This is a universal truth

  • @sunphoenix1231

    @sunphoenix1231

    2 ай бұрын

    I have moderate anxiety that hasn't been adequately addressed since I was a child. Lots of therapy and such, but nothing has really addressed it yet. I've tried medications for short periods but stop when it feels like it doesn't work. Same as religion, I'm a firm believer in God, but prayer doesn't really seem to help, acts do kinda. I don't think this is normal or should be normal.

  • @cinnamoslut

    @cinnamoslut

    Ай бұрын

    People should have the right to take medication if they want to. I think the problem is most people are quite ignorant when it comes to medicine and health. Health illiteracy is a huge problem. People get side-effects from drugs that were warned about from the pharmacist, from the insert packet that comes with prescription medications. Then they cry and say, 'No one told me this could happen!' But they did tell you... You didn't listen. So obviously what we're doing now isn't enough to make people care. I weigh the pros and cons of taking a drug and not taking a drug before I take anything. I don't think most people do that. Most patients want to be treated with drugs, they want the doctor to 'fix them' with drugs. What are doctors to do? Medication is life-saving for some people. It has been for me. I've also had negative experiences with medication. But I never felt like someone did this to me. I always felt informed of the potential risks. What's going wrong that so many people don't feel properly warned? A blind trust in doctors? Probably something like that, since doctors are seen as authority figures.

  • @lorivazquez2927
    @lorivazquez29272 ай бұрын

    It’s unbelievable that these drugs are still prescribed by the millions

  • @pinciukauskas

    @pinciukauskas

    2 ай бұрын

    Many need them.

  • @saturationstation1446

    @saturationstation1446

    2 ай бұрын

    @@pinciukauskas no. many need lifes necessities and are prevented from obtaining them for the sole purpose of inflating the egos and entertaining rich europeans. what our species needs is to get rid of its cancer (eurocentric culture) once and for all. if measured honestly, the only things that have been equally harmful to life on earth are literally mass extinction events. when something has proven itself to be able to do nothing besides mass harm to life on earth for many centuries in a row, its time you believe its long stated goal : the death of all life outside of europe.

  • @scarred10

    @scarred10

    2 ай бұрын

    ​@@pinciukauskasonly short term is warranted

  • @capresti3537

    @capresti3537

    2 ай бұрын

    @@pinciukauskas Nobody needs them. The drugs should be banned.

  • @rhinoskin7550

    @rhinoskin7550

    2 ай бұрын

    It's unbelievable that people blindly trust "authority" in the age of information. You can get free textbooks online.. so... at this point, it's the masses' fault for not properly educating themselves.

  • @christinwoodard3463
    @christinwoodard34632 ай бұрын

    This happened to me. Watching this is so validating.

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    As I was going through a hell of withdrawal I didn't understand what was happening to me until I stumble across this documentary.

  • @soulvigilante

    @soulvigilante

    Ай бұрын

    Same here. There are a lot of people being put through this right now

  • @bloodhound850

    @bloodhound850

    Ай бұрын

    im going through withdrawal. its very difficult to do any work.

  • @merjavaananen350
    @merjavaananen3502 ай бұрын

    I was taking benzos for 40 years as prescribed. 2017 I realized that the drugs were dangerous and made several attempts to get off. 2020 I was desesperate, couldn't sleep at all. They gave me antidepressants and after some weeks I made two suicide attempts and they put me in hospital. Terrible experience! I was totally dumb... During 2 years I tapered all the meds. The last pill was almost 2 years ago. Still can't sleep but I'm retired now and doesn't matter. I'm still hoping! I'm feeling to be another person without benzos. Can't deal with people normally. Feel me estrange...

  • @worshipthecreator9081

    @worshipthecreator9081

    2 ай бұрын

    Try magnesium theotrate or glycinate. You can even get it in liquid form to rub on the soles of your feet or capsules. Hope it helps 🌹

  • @gertrudewest4535
    @gertrudewest45352 ай бұрын

    I was wrongly prescribed anti anxiety medication because it was easier for the doctors than try to help me diagnose my serious and painful GI issues that caused me to lose too much weight and sleep. The anti anxiety had long lasting, painful side effects even though I was only on it for a year. I actually had zero vitamin D in my blood test. Once I corrected that imbalance, I recovered. Getting off of the anti anxiety meds was a truly horrible experience.

  • @VeryLikeLeigh

    @VeryLikeLeigh

    2 ай бұрын

    What was the drug?

  • @Hollyucinogen

    @Hollyucinogen

    2 ай бұрын

    I also have a medical condition that they kept blaming on "anxiety" and putting me on different anti-depressants for (Hashimoto's Thyroiditis). The best way to deal with it is to figure out what's wrong with you yourself.

  • @janetwalker587

    @janetwalker587

    Ай бұрын

    Absolutely! Worse than horrible! The torment I went through... There just isn't a word to describe this! God bless everyone struggling!

  • @VeryLikeLeigh

    @VeryLikeLeigh

    Ай бұрын

    @@Hollyucinogen You should listen to what this doctor says about Thyroid. kzread.info/dash/bejne/Y46A066blNGrpc4.html&ab_channel=5MinuteBody

  • @snowps1

    @snowps1

    Ай бұрын

    Me too! My gastroenterologist told me to take Lexapro for my stomach pain so I did. But then when I stopped taking it I got gastritis again at some point. When I went back to see him he yelled at me for going off the Lexapro because it helped my stomach. These doctors are freaking criminals. I discovered on my own about 5 years later that all of my stomach issues were related to gluten. Once I stopped eating gluten all of my stomach issues resolved. But the stupid GI would just have me take SSRIs for the rest of my life instead of helping me figure out the real issue.

  • @orangesnowflake3769
    @orangesnowflake37692 ай бұрын

    Also im glad this is on youtube now

  • @y2ksurvivor
    @y2ksurvivor2 ай бұрын

    The love of my life just took his own after a lifetime on a psych medicine that he struggled to come off of. I don't know that he ever succeeded. It induced new, scarier psychiatric symptoms whenever he tried to reduce it. Although he was no longer actively in my life, I was given the news and found myself immediately wondering if it was that effing medication. The prescribers are too often clueless about the effects of the drugs they dish out, meaning most conversations about getting off a certain medication are totally fruitless. I am devastated. After years of fighting to get off of various SSNRI drugs, I have an idea of what he went through and I can't help feeling despair over the kinds of ugly & uncontrollable thoughts that are caused by the drugs as well as the process of reducing the drugs. Nobody deserves that kind of mental torture, and I can't help but feel absolute anguish at the thought of him suffering these effects. The pain caused by the greed of big pharma has caused in my life reverberates into every corner of my existence.

  • @kmkeenan

    @kmkeenan

    2 ай бұрын

    I'm so sorry. It really is a horrific experience.

  • @YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial

    @YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial

    2 ай бұрын

    I'm so sorry for what you went through and are still going through. A KZreadr who was a dear young man and whom I really enjoyed tragically took his own life a few years ago, and it was blamed on his bipolar condition. I have to wonder if the meds that he was taking might have had anything to do with it. He was a bright light and it's truly tragic he's no longer with us. I won't say psych meds are bad but I believe they come with some steep risks and there is likely a lot of overprescribing going on right now because of pharma greed and general ignorance in the medical community. Physical biological pain is one thing, it is acute and it is measurable and it can be treated, but psych meds are a different animal. I hope in time the psychiatric field can do a better job on treating psych patients and having a better understanding of these medications. In the wrong hands the side effects can be tragic.

  • @bettyjaneantanavicius9800

    @bettyjaneantanavicius9800

    2 ай бұрын

    I've been hostage to psychiatric drugs for over 45 years,never wanted them.The more I resisted,the more they were pushed on me,

  • @ruthhorowitz7625
    @ruthhorowitz76252 ай бұрын

    I had CPTSD for 13 years before getting diagnosed and ASD for 57 years before getting diagnosed. I'm totally broken. But I won't take medication. I was forced to take medication in 2006 that I didn't need because I wasn't depressed. I was in autistic burnout. The antidepressants did nothing for me. Now I'm focusing on running and dancing because I know those are the things that will over time heal me. It may take a few more years, but I won't touch pharmaceuticals.

  • @YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial

    @YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial

    2 ай бұрын

    Stay strong, you've already overcome so much. Consider neurofeedback if you can afford it. It may be helpful!

  • @ruthhorowitz7625

    @ruthhorowitz7625

    2 ай бұрын

    @@YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial I can't afford it. I wish I could because it really helped me in the past.

  • @YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial

    @YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial

    2 ай бұрын

    @@ruthhorowitz7625 oh wow cool beans not many people know about it. Maybe you can find a cheaper provider near you....

  • @YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial

    @YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial

    2 ай бұрын

    @@ruthhorowitz7625 yes it's unfortunate that it is not more affordable. Perhaps you'll be able to find a cheaper provider in your area. I want to pursue it for my ADHD symptoms.

  • @chrispasson1940

    @chrispasson1940

    2 ай бұрын

    yes running and dancing help physical AND mental issues

  • @kyleegarcia5569
    @kyleegarcia55692 ай бұрын

    I had a horrible experience with several drugs and I don’t trust any of them anymore!! The gaslighting is insane.

  • @lisareiter5368

    @lisareiter5368

    2 ай бұрын

    We were gaslit during Covid, too, by the same powerful industry: Big Pharma. Remember this?. Take this new MRNA vaccine. It’s safe and effective. Alternative treatments don’t work. Vitamin D is untested. Ivermectin is horse medicine. Hydroxychloroquin is untested. Protect grandma by vaccinating kids. The vaccine lessens symptoms. Get vaxxed or lose your job. People have always died suddenly. Myocarditis in young athletes happens…it’s not the spike protein.

  • @jayterra2060

    @jayterra2060

    2 ай бұрын

    💯

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    You are smart enough to be aware what was going on. .I was on those drugs for almost 3 decade and it destroyed my life.

  • @user-sx7rm5zh6y
    @user-sx7rm5zh6y2 ай бұрын

    These drugs destroys lives

  • @MeadowDay

    @MeadowDay

    2 ай бұрын

    This should be a mandatory watch for every person in government…so they see clearly what they have done 🥹

  • @w.urlitzer1869

    @w.urlitzer1869

    2 ай бұрын

    on the other hand they save lives. the prescription policy is the problem here.

  • @user-sx7rm5zh6y

    @user-sx7rm5zh6y

    2 ай бұрын

    @@w.urlitzer1869 damages of these drugs are underestimed

  • @Bingewatchingmediacontent

    @Bingewatchingmediacontent

    2 ай бұрын

    @@w.urlitzer1869they put off dealing with the situation that’s making you anxious or depressed. They don’t solve these problems. Eventually you will have to face these challenges and deal with them. It’s painful but it’s the only “cure”

  • @a.randomjack6661

    @a.randomjack6661

    2 ай бұрын

    Almost got me. I guess I'm lucky. Wait, no! Actually, I think I'm very lucky.

  • @user-li1kw1ux3e
    @user-li1kw1ux3e2 ай бұрын

    My heart bleeds for all of the people in this film

  • @ME-cd3bs

    @ME-cd3bs

    2 ай бұрын

    Imaging doing this to a child. I'm one of the lucky few who was able to break free from this. The trauma will probably stick with me for life.

  • @user-li1kw1ux3e

    @user-li1kw1ux3e

    2 ай бұрын

    @@ME-cd3bs I was done this as a minor

  • @ME-cd3bs

    @ME-cd3bs

    2 ай бұрын

    @@user-li1kw1ux3e in sorry to hear about that :( . Mine started at age 4 and the medications kept piling up. I was on 7 different Rx when I finally stopped at age 17.

  • @ME-cd3bs

    @ME-cd3bs

    2 ай бұрын

    @@user-li1kw1ux3e I'd love to hear your story if you're willing to share. Bless you and I hope your mental and physical health are okay 🙏🏻

  • @user-li1kw1ux3e

    @user-li1kw1ux3e

    2 ай бұрын

    @@ME-cd3bs 🥰

  • @Owlshead110
    @Owlshead1102 ай бұрын

    My sister-in-law put herself to "sleep" by overmedication on Benzos. Criminal. This movie will help change the tide. We need to get off the meds. Vitamin D, exercise and strong relationships can help with depression.

  • @chrispasson1940

    @chrispasson1940

    2 ай бұрын

    thanks for the reminder about the value of strong relationships

  • @ana62301

    @ana62301

    2 ай бұрын

    BENZODIAZIPINES ARE NOT ANTI-DEPRESSANTS. THEY ARE ANTI-ANXIETY MEDICATIONS AND WORK WELL FOR PTSD.

  • @user-im2em7oc9x

    @user-im2em7oc9x

    2 ай бұрын

    See, If I put myself to "sleep" by accident my family would be happy. They hate me so much cuz I make "mistakes"that can't be forgiven.

  • @leelee8720

    @leelee8720

    2 ай бұрын

    To a person who literally can’t get out of bed in the morning, these things just aren’t going to cut it. Yall don’t understand clinical depression

  • @a.randomjack6661

    @a.randomjack6661

    2 ай бұрын

    Vitamin D for sure. It's way overlooked. Exercice... yup. Strong relationships... the last strong ones I had got destroyed by the hatred linked to the pandemic. Politics=divide to rule

  • @paulkramer9666
    @paulkramer96662 ай бұрын

    I'm pretty sure that the United States is one of only two countries that allows direct marketing of prescription pharmaceuticals to the consumer. And that became legal somewhere in the 1980s.

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    2 ай бұрын

    yes - and New Zealand - those are the only 2 places!

  • @cj-jr7iz

    @cj-jr7iz

    2 ай бұрын

    Paul, that is how they control the mainstream MEDIA!!🤐 Sh🤫…just advertising 🤑

  • @visionvixxen

    @visionvixxen

    2 ай бұрын

    You’re right. Us and New Zealand. It’s criminal

  • @visionvixxen

    @visionvixxen

    2 ай бұрын

    I think since these meds are supposedly “not so dangerous,” EVERY doctor that prescribed them should have tried them long term and then have first hand experience with getting on coming off etc.

  • @joseenoel8093

    @joseenoel8093

    2 ай бұрын

    😮and Canada 🇨🇦, docs here should be shot!

  • @visionvixxen
    @visionvixxen2 ай бұрын

    They give you these drugs the same way someone who try throwing spaghetti on the walls and see what sticks

  • @Kali_Yugahhhh

    @Kali_Yugahhhh

    2 ай бұрын

    Bingo

  • @saintessa

    @saintessa

    2 ай бұрын

    Geez... That's actually a pretty good metaphor

  • @sarahdriedger4386

    @sarahdriedger4386

    2 ай бұрын

    This makes me laugh. Because its so true.

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    Yes I had the same treatment...every time I get a new person they would ask if I had taken this. Once the drugs is in your brain you can't think straight anymore.

  • @JackieB.D.
    @JackieB.D.2 ай бұрын

    The lack of assistance the psychiatrist was providing Brianna was horrid, negligent. Five minutes or less of unhelpful, non specific “advice” on how she could reduce her dosage was all he could afford? No real plan, no support in the process, no let’s meet more frequently as you go through this, just dismissive crumbs and two attempts to entice her to try more pills. Her husband acted like the Dr. while he played the role. Bring back the 1960s mantra, “question authority”.

  • @visionvixxen

    @visionvixxen

    2 ай бұрын

    This is exactly how it has become. I get most anxious now before these visits where I know either nothing will happen or something really bad will be recommended and there is no winning because no one is trained or paying attention to it Also, you’re a different person off this crap and you have to decide what version you can survive as. The drug version doesn’t last because of tolerance and changes Read “Flowers for Algernon”. That spells it all!

  • @lisareiter5368

    @lisareiter5368

    2 ай бұрын

    Great book. That husband said that psychiatrists are like the alchemists of the past who tried to make gold using chemicals. Both promised great reward but failed to deliver.

  • @JackieB.D.

    @JackieB.D.

    2 ай бұрын

    I hope you can find someone who cares and is helpful. I wish there was more support. Thanks for the recommendation on the book. Ive heard about the movie, though never read or watched it.

  • @breathnstop
    @breathnstop2 ай бұрын

    I was written up (RN) for arguing with a psychiatrist who cold turkeyed a wonderful man. Patient, stock broker, super nice guy addicted to Klonopin. In patient for suicidal thoughts. Ive seen too many people hurt.

  • @Pleasegoaway44

    @Pleasegoaway44

    Ай бұрын

    Same here

  • @maryr7593

    @maryr7593

    Ай бұрын

    Thank you for speaking up...despite being written up. It is always the whistle blowers who end up with the discipline or firing. BUT we as a nation need whistle blower laws...no repercussions. Thank you for speaking up!

  • @Bonobo3D
    @Bonobo3D2 ай бұрын

    This documentary is excellent, goes deep, very sensitively presented.

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    Unfortunately it is really happening to real people.

  • @user-db5ts2yt6o
    @user-db5ts2yt6o2 ай бұрын

    Long term brain injury; neurological damage. Benzos have ruined my life. I've chosen to stay off but it's been hell. Constant daily survival mode.

  • @pamela9270

    @pamela9270

    2 ай бұрын

    Me too. 19 months off and still in hell. Years of taking Klonopin ruined my life. I am also in daily survival mode. This isn't a life, it's a horrible existence. Praying for you and all those suffering.

  • @user-db5ts2yt6o

    @user-db5ts2yt6o

    2 ай бұрын

    @@pamela9270 may God bless and keep you always. I heard your words. Thumbs up to you.

  • @pamela9270

    @pamela9270

    2 ай бұрын

    @user-db5ts2yt6o Thank you for that. Sending you some love and a big hug. ❤️ 🤗

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    I have serious problems with light and sound at the moment after coming off those drugs for almost a year now. I am being seen by a neurologist hopefully things are improving....this is what we call SIDE EFFECTS. It will take me years to recover as I was told. It has alter my brain somehow. But I am very relived now because for the first time I know what is really wrong with me and not my lables.

  • @Rend2be

    @Rend2be

    2 ай бұрын

    Jesus can heal you.

  • @janedoe6704
    @janedoe67042 ай бұрын

    Everyone needs to watch this!

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    2 ай бұрын

    We agree!!

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    You have to present it to people who are willing to listen and have an open mind. It has become the norm to be labled and drugged in our current society. As I said before unless you experience the it you will never believe it. You are in a whole different world when you are on these drugs.The only hope you have is people around you who are aware of these drugs and know you personally.

  • @victorial8764
    @victorial87642 ай бұрын

    I can’t believe I finally get to see this. I’ve been waiting years. I’m so excited and right now I definitely need to hear this in my life. Thank you so much for working on the forefront of history and discovery and healing and hope.❤

  • @marcellustone

    @marcellustone

    2 ай бұрын

    You’ve been waiting years? You could have just bought a copy of it over their website like I did and downloaded it. I'm far from rich, but buying the movie was also like donating.

  • @victorial8764

    @victorial8764

    2 ай бұрын

    @@marcellustone I didn’t know it was for sale! I would have tried to get it way sooner, lol. That’s anxiety for ya.

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    As this problem become more public there is a need to help people who are stuck with this drugs to find their way out. It is not going to be easy as I found out. I basically have to do it myself in pain.

  • @tomwong917
    @tomwong9172 ай бұрын

    I found my way back to what it is like to be a human being again. Something that I missed for a long long time. Thank You

  • @tcapone1734
    @tcapone17342 ай бұрын

    Then people wonder why the mass killings at schools and such occurred. Yet they blame a tool, when the timing of the tragedies happened just when these drugs started being prescribed like candy. Drug even says "may have sue-e-side tendencies" - translation also means homee-sideal tendencies. The problem is psychotropic drugs. Always has been.

  • @sunphoenix1231

    @sunphoenix1231

    2 ай бұрын

    Or just the combination of both that and easy access to firearms, it seems good logic that some psychiatric issues bar you from owning guns if you have legitimate issues. Even outside of using medication or not.

  • @tcapone1734

    @tcapone1734

    2 ай бұрын

    @@sunphoenix1231 Firearms have been in households since their invention hanging over fireplaces or in gun cabinets. Kids in NYC used to bring their .22 rifles on the subways to schools in the 1950's for training after class. No shootings. It's not the firearm or access to them. It is the mind that makes the decisions. The gun is just a tool like a screwdriver or a knife. Destroy the mind and you destroy sense and create aggression. Mass killings by kids and adults started in frequency after these psychotropic drugs were pushed onto society. Timeline proves it.

  • @r.w.4311

    @r.w.4311

    Ай бұрын

    They’re certainly one part of the problem but all evidence leads back to the intelligence agencies, MKUltra, mind-control, and false flags.

  • @StJane
    @StJane2 ай бұрын

    I was right where Dave is now. Hang in there sir. It's slow but it gets better. Getting this info out there is so important. I only hope that pharm. Companies will be held to account. They behave worse than the Nazis did. Thank You to everyone who shared their pain with us. You are stronger for doing it even if you can't feel it right now. ❤

  • @tomwong917
    @tomwong9172 ай бұрын

    Rebeca is a very lucky girl to have such a loving parents with great insight into the problem.

  • @imadish5356
    @imadish53562 ай бұрын

    Saving this video because I will not be surprised if KZread is forced to take it down. Copy, copy!

  • @cristinarossi7367

    @cristinarossi7367

    2 ай бұрын

    How do I copy it

  • @imadish5356

    @imadish5356

    2 ай бұрын

    @@cristinarossi7367 Depends on your browser so do a search for your browser name and youtube video. They've got add-ons for every browser. There is software you can buy, but I haven't had to. : )

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    2 ай бұрын

    If it's taken down (doubtful), we will put it up elsewhere. Please do not violate our copyright.

  • @imadish5356

    @imadish5356

    2 ай бұрын

    @@MedicatingNormal Thanks! And gotcha! Sorry.

  • @JosedeJezeus

    @JosedeJezeus

    Ай бұрын

    *Copy ! Copy! Copy!*

  • @Solscapes.
    @Solscapes.2 ай бұрын

    I was 8 when they started on me. They stole my entire life. I have barely any medical issues that don't have to do with medication side effects or the abuse that was only enabled by the misdiagnoses, and I have a LOT of medical issues.

  • @Sarahpreecenelsonnz

    @Sarahpreecenelsonnz

    2 ай бұрын

    so sorry this has happened to you. Wishing you all the more strength and endurance than that you will have already needed to get to this point, and most of all wishing you well with recovery

  • @rdallas81

    @rdallas81

    2 ай бұрын

    Everyone has problems. I am 75% disabled, migraines, been on it all. Sometimes you have to take your own life into your own hands and stop blaming, relying, attending to, and affiliating with the for profit system. I wasted 15 years of my life being decieved by the industry thinking they had some magical cure- they don't, but God does. We live in a fallen world. Seek faith in the Lord. He can cure you.

  • @rdallas81

    @rdallas81

    2 ай бұрын

    Sorry.

  • @rdallas81

    @rdallas81

    2 ай бұрын

    As long as you think they have the answers, you will only decieve yourself.

  • @Solscapes.

    @Solscapes.

    2 ай бұрын

    @@rdallas81 don't narcissistically enable ped0 priests.

  • @ajax700
    @ajax7002 ай бұрын

    I wish I had watched this and many other documentaries before being medicated and developing PSSD which ruins your life. These cause persistent damage for which there is no treatment and no cure.

  • @Sarahpreecenelsonnz

    @Sarahpreecenelsonnz

    2 ай бұрын

    It is so truly terrible. I am sorry for the iatrogenic harm that has been caused to you.

  • @minepolz320

    @minepolz320

    2 ай бұрын

    I have this live is hell

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    There is hope. You got out unlike a lot of other people. We suffered but there is a better life a head. Like me I just have to pick up the pieces and move on. Life is a one way street. You can't keep looking back.

  • @stealthysaucepan2016

    @stealthysaucepan2016

    25 күн бұрын

    I have pssd too, severe case

  • @missokieamy

    @missokieamy

    15 күн бұрын

    I too was injured by benzodiazepines and experienced PSSD. I received 15 sessions of heavy metal IV chelation and continued holistic heavy metal detox protocols on my own and saw an improvement in the PSSD.

  • @adamblackman6660
    @adamblackman66602 ай бұрын

    I went to see a psychiatrist in my teens in the mid 90’s. He didn’t bother to get to know me, but did send me home with 2 boxes of Prozac samples… Boxes! I never took any of them, and worked in myself throughout my life. Now, I’m one of the friends that gets calls when others are having a crisis. I wonder who I would be if I had started down that road…

  • @HorseSaddleRider
    @HorseSaddleRider2 ай бұрын

    It seems there are drug pushers both on and off the streets.

  • @joseenoel8093

    @joseenoel8093

    2 ай бұрын

    Awesome!

  • @68orangecrate26
    @68orangecrate262 ай бұрын

    That’s right! Going through pain is NORMAL. To try to escape it is a huge mistake. But, it’s very lucrative for big pharma 😉

  • @elizabethmcleod246

    @elizabethmcleod246

    2 ай бұрын

    There are different levels of physical pain. Having a pinched nerve in my rectum really hurts and meds are needed to help with sleep and control of muscle spasms. It’s sad that in my case correctly done nerve blocks and stat decompression surgery would have helped me to heal fully but doctors in Vancouver, Canada wouldn’t help me. I was misdiagnosed from day one with having cyclothymia and vulvodynia. Is losing whole bowel movements without feeling it a symptom of either of the above conditions? NO Doctors aren’t doing differential diagnosis anymore. They don’t listen to the patient. They provide ‘ medication management’ because it’s cheaper. I was poly drugged on 6 meds at one point when I should have had surgery. If you dare to advocate for yourself you are labeled aggressive. Excuse me? What is a person supposed to do when no doctors are taking their symptoms seriously?

  • @newkingdom6750
    @newkingdom67502 ай бұрын

    Been waiting for this to hit YT! 🙌❤

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    I am surprised it did.

  • @jewman303
    @jewman303Ай бұрын

    I’m 3 year years off a Xanax/klonopin/ half a dozen other pills cold turkey and I’m still in absolute hell. Why this video was triggering it did overall make me feel better that I’m not a lone. Idk if I’ll ever fully heal but I hold on to some hope that I will.

  • @blanchelong2252
    @blanchelong22522 ай бұрын

    I was first diagnosed with Severe Chronic depression at the age of 19... Was in and out of psychiatric wards through out my young adult life. I was referred to as treatment resistant. My last medication prescribed was quetiapine. I was put on 100mg at bedtime. This medication is the ONLY one that has ever benefitted me because it gave me a good 10 hour sleep. For someone that suffers with any CHRONIC and SEVERE disorder... SLEEP is a God-send. I have been on this medication for the last 15 years and although I understand that I now need it to sleep... I am 100% ok with this. I have not had to ever increase the dosage of this medication. It remains faithful and reliable to give me a good night sleep. Suffering is part of life. I have learned to embrace this truth. I have mixed opinions about medication. I was one of those cases that truly had a mental disorder in that I struggled and suffered with extreme sadness throughout my entire life. Medication has it's place and cannot be thrown out like the baby and the bathwater. I am grateful that at 61 years of age... I have had a primary care doctor who was invested in seeing me through my struggles.

  • @matejbednarik8736

    @matejbednarik8736

    3 күн бұрын

    First heavy drugs is not a baby. And second, what you are calling sleep is just partial unconsciousness, which quetiapine cause (it is opioid, way stronger than opium). This substance caused heavy severe disorders, or deaths millions of people around the world. It is nice that you have this opinion, and it is great you could said it. But fact is, zyprexa is neurotoxic poison that maim central nerve system of person. Is it worth to use it despite harms that it causing? Well this every person should answer for himself, but with all information about it.

  • @rebeccachambers419
    @rebeccachambers4192 ай бұрын

    Great video!!! I’ve been saying this for at least 25 years.

  • @laveraparato258
    @laveraparato2582 ай бұрын

    Fantastic documentary. Everyone needs to watch.

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    Ай бұрын

    Thank you!

  • @normul5984
    @normul5984Ай бұрын

    I can't tell you how this breaks my heart, to see the damage done by our "medical" system and the drug companies. We are expendable, all hail the mighty dollar. And zero accountability. The callousness of the dr on the hidden camera made me furious, and the "taper" the Bri was put on was WAY too fast and I wonder if he knew it, offering her a different drug if things didn't go well. :(

  • @Atheist-Pinar
    @Atheist-Pinar2 ай бұрын

    🌿🌷Greetings from the Netherlands🌷🌿

  • @APPB738
    @APPB7382 ай бұрын

    Crimes against humanity!

  • @JosedeJezeus

    @JosedeJezeus

    Ай бұрын

    💯

  • @minepolz320
    @minepolz3202 ай бұрын

    I got PSSD - cognitive decline memory decline no emotions total anhedonia more depression , weakness tired all the time and anhedonia the worst you can live with that and absolutely castrated just from week on SSRI's, already 3 year's almost no improvement Only MAOI keeping me here, i didn't know it will last

  • @uoftdrone
    @uoftdrone2 күн бұрын

    Invaluable. Thank you!

  • @user-li1kw1ux3e
    @user-li1kw1ux3e2 ай бұрын

    Who's that military psychologist? She seems very smart

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    2 ай бұрын

    Dr. Mary Vieten! www.warfighteradvance.org/mary-vieten.html

  • @user-li1kw1ux3e

    @user-li1kw1ux3e

    2 ай бұрын

    Danke :) this documentary is amazing

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    I wish I was luckly enough to have had her as my therapist. Those people seeing her don't know how lucky they are until you meet the typical therapist.,

  • @Rend2be
    @Rend2be2 ай бұрын

    Extremely informative. I think 80% of the reason my husband killed himself was these drugs ! He had some mental issues BUT if he had kept stress low & life simple I think he would have done fine, but a small company fell into his hands and the stress accelerated his weakness and medication took him down a very dark road.

  • @matejbednarik8736

    @matejbednarik8736

    3 күн бұрын

    It was 99% at least (i have experiences with these substances so i can tell you this). 👍

  • @catmando268
    @catmando2682 ай бұрын

    Really good documentary.

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    Ай бұрын

    Thank you!

  • @thepresentmoment369
    @thepresentmoment3692 ай бұрын

    Unfortunately once your body's dependant on a SSRI or any medication for that matter, it's extremely hard to get off and impossible if working a job to support oneself. A person would really need to not have any obligations and if possible go into a detox clinic.

  • @aprilhassell1747

    @aprilhassell1747

    2 ай бұрын

    I became dependent on concerta. Adhd meds. 8 months off. Im not able to work yet. My bf is supporting me. Its terrible, but Im going to heal. I never hear of others stopping adhd meds.

  • @aprilhassell1747

    @aprilhassell1747

    2 ай бұрын

    I wonder how her taper is going off vayvanse? I cold turkey and made a huge huge mistake. Made my withdrawal worse. Spent first year just figuring out I can't go months off and go back on. Which I did 3 times. On the second year now and haven't done that.

  • @kmkeenan

    @kmkeenan

    2 ай бұрын

    Some people are able to work and taper if they do it very slowly and carefully. Detox centers are dangerous. They take people off way too quickly and sometimes add new drugs creating additional dependencies and continuing the cycle.

  • @ministryofpeacekmk

    @ministryofpeacekmk

    2 ай бұрын

    You absolutely need to slow taper benzos. If you are dependent on benzos, you aren't going to want to go to detox, bc they will take you off of the drug way too quickly. Micro tapering takes time to do it correctly...1+ years.

  • @visionvixxen

    @visionvixxen

    2 ай бұрын

    I tried this during Covid, but in the end, even the six month paper is not slow enough even I end up never going back to work cause I’m not on the same high doses and I’m actually not doing anything. I don’t know whether to go back on the same high or my problem is not working or what’s going on anymore butit’s crazy. I mean you really need a lot of understanding because this is so things to life sometimes are helpful. They just mismanage with a lot of self-awareness. It’s a lot of community awareness. It is basically this crap requires an intervention then don’t the system at all and you don’t trust the clinics that offer the interventions and you don’t trust yourself because you’ve tried things so many times and they haven’t worked.

  • @x.y.7385
    @x.y.73852 ай бұрын

    I was in the hospital a few years ago for something unrelated to depression. But i was depressed. Had a less than 5 min discussion with the doc and he gave me a script for drugs and said id feel much better in a few weeks. No discussion of why i was depressed, diet, exercise, etc, etc. Never finished the first container, because why ? Take it cite life? No thanks

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    When I was sad I was labeled depressed. It never got pass why I was sad but they tried to fixed my labed depression with pills and it turn out nasty for me. You are luckly.

  • @visionvixxen
    @visionvixxen2 ай бұрын

    Just know guys- this same type of greed is still gonna be happening w naturopathsand Holistic stuff now- people are greedy. That will be no different

  • @YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial

    @YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial

    2 ай бұрын

    True, it's a human problem, but at least natural treatments come with less risk of overuse.

  • @MrSidReal

    @MrSidReal

    2 ай бұрын

    I think you'll find it's actually a completely different worldview. Carrying on oozing out your unnecessary negativity if you wish

  • @capresti3537
    @capresti35372 ай бұрын

    Psychiatrists are criminals. They know the harm they do and the crimes they are committing. They should be in prison.

  • @matejbednarik8736

    @matejbednarik8736

    3 күн бұрын

    ❤️👌👍 i hundred percent agree, and there is whole army of people with same opinion. 👍

  • @tonifeeley1159
    @tonifeeley11592 ай бұрын

    Thank you so so much for this! The people presented here are so incredibly strong for sharing their stories/struggles and it means so much to bring light to this. Everything about this struggle is life changing. The industry is polluted with manipulation and greed. Not everything will change overnight but this helps to bring understanding and grace to those it boils down to which are the ones that suffer and are changed forever. Society needs a firm grasp on realistic health measures RIGHT NOW!

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    People would only belive it if it happens to them or someone they care for. It's hard for a typical person who never been through this consider this as a problem. To them it is just another side show. To us is real life.

  • @OurResistance
    @OurResistance2 ай бұрын

    I don't think I was really depressed, but when I was in grade school they put me on a strong antidepressant for ADHD. Over the next few years, I became socially withdrawn and friendless, but I did do much better in school. Fast forward to after I graduated from high school, society suddenly said that knowledge taught in school was totally worthless to them! Unfortunately by then, I started becoming a basket case from the effects of the meds! Finally, more than 20 years after I graduated, I am tapering off the meds very very slowly! I am doing well but I think the taper will take several more years to complete.

  • @Jay_Segoviano_WC
    @Jay_Segoviano_WC2 ай бұрын

    6 years of this nonsense for me as well. I got off antidepressants. Now it’s Valium that I’m fighting off. It’s hard to even describe what I’m going through to anyone without being labeled as crazy, or even weak & spoiled.

  • @dotpeat1372
    @dotpeat13722 ай бұрын

    A must see for all. Very informative, thank you for uploading!

  • @deivithify
    @deivithifyАй бұрын

    It took seven years for me to be free of drugs. I never want to return to them again.

  • @lollorosso4323
    @lollorosso43232 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much

  • @marilynroper5739
    @marilynroper57392 ай бұрын

    Dr Chris Palmer- Brain Energy Dr Georgia Ede - Change your Diet Change your Mind 2 Excellent books for desperate people on psychiatric meds.

  • @lisareiter5368

    @lisareiter5368

    2 ай бұрын

    Here, here! Very caring, knowledgeable psychiatrists who got tired of the meds not working. They both guide their patients to change their diets to help fuel their brains differently. They are on KZread. Dr. Jordan Peterson benefits from a carnivore diet, but many improve with keto or low-carb.

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    2 ай бұрын

    We love them both! (and have interviewed them here on our KZread Channel)

  • @felipearbustopotd
    @felipearbustopotdАй бұрын

    Depression is a way for the brain to shut down and deal with what I would call, a system/s overload. The overload could be a single catastrophic event or mini events that eventually leads to being over whelmed. The saddest part is that, the person not only withdraws from LIFE, but also from themselves. My heart goes out to all that suffer from this horrible disease and those that are left to pick up the pieces. ❤ to you all.

  • @Juxtapose76
    @Juxtapose762 ай бұрын

    This is Powerful.💥 Thank you..🙏💖🕊️

  • @hartpa
    @hartpa2 ай бұрын

    Having been there... This was a difficult watch but appreciate this video.

  • @KittyT-wz7wm
    @KittyT-wz7wm2 ай бұрын

    Anytime you go to any doctor. I had a mental breakdown and I was prescribed probably 45 plus pills a day and I'd wake up and my husband said I was normal and he said I got to take I'd say I have to take my meds and a half hour later I was like blah I couldn't do nothing I slept. 12 to 18 hours a day and that wasn't enough and I still had kids at home it was not fair to them. I gained weight I was over 300 pounds as soon as I went off that medication I dropped weight just instantly it was amazing that's all they do is they fatten me up so they can tell you got diet pills or they can do this and that stay away from doctors unless you have a broken arm or leg we don't need doctors.

  • @elizabethannegrey6285
    @elizabethannegrey62852 ай бұрын

    I have for a number of years wondered at the possible connection between psych drugs and the disordered violent state of our society. Now I have the answer.

  • @ronniegrey4445
    @ronniegrey44452 ай бұрын

    Stay strong beautiful people.

  • @lconfort
    @lconfort2 ай бұрын

    Great documentary ! I loved it. It is incredibly well informative and accurate. 😀👋

  • @YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial
    @YourCapyBra_3Dpipesa90sspecial2 ай бұрын

    Even as a lay person I can see the increase in ads for prescription medication of all types, including psychiatric medications, over these past 20 years. I'm sure in some cases they save lives and they are desperately needed but in other cases I do believe they caused a lot of harm. We can't just medicate all our problems away, we have to work through our grief and our pain and are suffering and anything else that might be holding us back. For schizophrenics and those with diagnosis I do believe prescriptions can be a lifesaver, but for others who are going through normal negative emotional states that are a normal response to traumatic events, I don't think automatically grabbing a pill is the right way to do with that. Those kinds of feelings need treatment, they need attention and therapy in some cases. Unless someone has crippling depression that hasn't been able to be treated any other way I think it's very dangerous for our first response to always be a pharmaceutical. Deep emotional trauma is not a chemical imbalance, it is normal under traumatic circumstances and it shouldn't be medicated away.

  • @capresti3537

    @capresti3537

    2 ай бұрын

    Psychiatric drugs save no ones lives and are not needed. These are mind altering drugs not drugs that help cure a stroke or heart attack. Should never be used.

  • @vgames9207
    @vgames92072 ай бұрын

    nice. glad that this film finally came out.

  • @Rafi_Sevghenian
    @Rafi_Sevghenian2 ай бұрын

    Esse documentário é muito bom e muito esclarecedor. Precisamos divulgar esse documentário. Sou da cidade de São Paulo, no Brasil.

  • @bettyjaneantanavicius9800
    @bettyjaneantanavicius98002 ай бұрын

    Excellent expose.

  • @SonofWolf22
    @SonofWolf223 күн бұрын

    Wow this hits so hard. My heart goes out to all of the people going through this.

  • @HorseSaddleRider
    @HorseSaddleRider2 ай бұрын

    These substances are working on the brain and nervous system. It's logical that there is the potential for nerve damage.

  • @scarred10

    @scarred10

    2 ай бұрын

    Theres no potential for nerve damage,they dont work on the nerves themselves,its the brain only but yes they have many adverse effects and some permanent like tardive dyskinesia

  • @janetdouglas1272

    @janetdouglas1272

    2 ай бұрын

    ​@@scarred10. The majority of Serotonin receptors are in the gut, so these psych medicines (SSRI)have powerful effects in other parts of the body.

  • @capresti3537

    @capresti3537

    2 ай бұрын

    @@scarred10 The brain is the central nervous system therefore work on nerve cells all over the brain spinal cord and body. They do cause nerve damage, and tardive dyskinesia dystonia akithesia and all neurological symptoms is neurological damage.

  • @lizarosa156
    @lizarosa1562 ай бұрын

    Shocked you tube has this real journalism .

  • @tomwong917
    @tomwong9172 ай бұрын

    Relationships is one of the casualty of this mess created and I am glad Dave and his wife are working things out with a happy ending.

  • @markrich4036
    @markrich40362 ай бұрын

    Excellent.

  • @yoyomon19
    @yoyomon19Ай бұрын

    Thank ya'll for making this. I have been talking about what ya'll are talking about for years. These drugs and false diagnoses played a large factor in my divorce and the steady downfall and Death of my Wife. Xanax and Zoloft also whacked out my Brother for years. He still ain't right. I am not making excuses for tragedy but I witnessed the Terrible side effects of the drugs and false medical disorders that destroy self-worth and the Will to Live. All I can say when I think of these drug makers and pushers is "DOGS" Yet, it is comforting to know we will all be held accountable in the End.

  • @lhodge1000
    @lhodge100022 күн бұрын

    I’m nearing the end of a two year klonopin taper after 20 years of taking as directed. It’s been brutal at times. My doc will not know about my taper until I’m fully off for at least six months…I’ve had to figure this out on my own 😢

  • @peacelove5329

    @peacelove5329

    Күн бұрын

    How are you

  • @randomchannelonyt9125
    @randomchannelonyt91252 ай бұрын

    Will the documentary remain on youtube after the live stream?

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    2 ай бұрын

    Yes! Forever!

  • @Gabesvault

    @Gabesvault

    2 ай бұрын

    ​@@MedicatingNormal This is wonderful news!!! We shall share it EVERYWHERE!

  • @orangesnowflake3769

    @orangesnowflake3769

    2 ай бұрын

    Thank you very much for posting !

  • @SEaudiofan

    @SEaudiofan

    2 ай бұрын

    Shared on MeWe, the social media noone knows about.😉❤no ads, no tracking. My heart goes out to all these people who are brave enough to share their journey. I have only minor experiences with psych meds, but have many loved ones who endure severe challenges daily

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    2 ай бұрын

    @@SEaudiofan Thank you for sharing!

  • @laveraparato258
    @laveraparato2582 ай бұрын

    This is so important

  • @JJJJ-mr2mw
    @JJJJ-mr2mw2 ай бұрын

    Maybe class action lawsuit would end this nightmare?

  • @Muritaipet

    @Muritaipet

    2 ай бұрын

    A "not for profit" health system would work even better. Like the majority of the world does.

  • @MizzyLQ

    @MizzyLQ

    2 ай бұрын

    When multi-billion dollar profits are involved, lawsuits are considered part of the cost of doing business. @Muritaipet is right but good luck with that in the USA.

  • @AJLangford

    @AJLangford

    2 ай бұрын

    There was a class action against Ely-Lily for Cymbalta. They settled out of court and kept trading as normal.

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    2 ай бұрын

    They tried in the UK, for benzos: www.benzoinfo.com/class-action-lawsuits/#class-actions-in-the-united-kingdom

  • @StJane
    @StJane2 ай бұрын

    This video gets a rating of 1000 stars and 150 👍 ❤️❤️❤️🙏❤️❤️❤️

  • @smellymala3103
    @smellymala31032 ай бұрын

    Damn I have a sickening feeling that this is going to be a summary of the letter half of my life un diagnosed cptsd ADHD, maybe the tism whatever, child of workaholic children of workaholics. Ssris, lost motor skills, lost memories, don't remember my wedding, amazing! I bet this ones going to be a doozy.

  • @a.randomjack6661
    @a.randomjack66612 ай бұрын

    Excellent documentary 👍 We are ran by junkies, “profit junkies” 1996. One of my friends committed suicide. A few days later, I sat down at puter and started to remember and write down names/nicknames of people I had at least met down to childhood friends. I got 16 names on the list. I never worked in any healthcare related job. Photography, sales and mechanics is what I worked in. Our society is deeply sick 'We did not evolve to live in the societies we have erected.' For lets say the million years Sapiens existed, we lived un small cooperative tribes. The children were everyone's children.

  • @radicalcartoons2766
    @radicalcartoons27662 ай бұрын

    I've ordered Anna Lembke's book, Dopamine Nation, when I got only half way through this documentary.

  • @dorothyhealey9761
    @dorothyhealey97612 ай бұрын

    Some information on dietary solutions to detox and heal would have been very helpful here, as well as mentioning plant medicines to heal your mind.

  • @zalaynaanderson4051
    @zalaynaanderson40512 ай бұрын

    we hear your pain!😓

  • @user-gv1zi2vn1k
    @user-gv1zi2vn1kАй бұрын

    I related very much to this, thank you

  • @Yahushaisthedoor
    @YahushaisthedoorАй бұрын

    After watching this documentary I just got inspired to write this poem. Normal is missing Call on the search, Put up the missing persons posters, Paste them on plain sight where secrets are hiding, Light up the torches even during the day, Naivety is a dark cloth that covers up the sun, Call on the search, Normal is missing, In the morning of one fateful day, After a night of unsuspecting darkness, She was gone, nowhere to be found, She woke up from the bed and touched her feet to the ground, The floor spiraled her into a place of obscurity, Normal is missing and nothing feels normal anymore, Feelings have become diseasified for the purpose of generating profit, Humanity's most basic need has been processed and packaged and commercialized and sold as a disease, Pills have been manufactured in order to regulate this commodity to keep the profits flowing, Flowing into currents that sweep away the sense of humanity from the hearts of those who are kept captive by greed, It is a magnificent prison, The steel bars and everything that form part of the prison is plastered in luxury, The penny will drop when the realization of being trapped sets in, The penny will not cover the cost of bail, The blood of Jesus Christ will cover the cost of release, Call on the search, Normal is missing, When did she go missing, In the morning of one fateful day, After a night of unsuspecting darkness, She was gone, nowhere to be found, Hope fosters an idea that she'll come around, With shoes on and hands unbound, Anxiety grips us and leaves bleeding nail marks on our skin, Heads turn to every direction with eyes scanning for normal, She is out of sight, And if we call off the search, she'll be out of mind, A society with normal out of mind is a society drenched with madness in a pharmaceutical pool, There were early warning signs, Flashing with red flushes on the face of normal, But we were cought up in the mesmerizing touches of synthetic for us to notice, Until she slowly but surely drifted away, Where is normal, Perhaps she felt betrayed and walked out, Perhaps it's time we put away the harlotry with synthetics, Perhaps we need to return to the state of harmony with nature, An environment that is conjusive to maintain fidelity to this beloved called normal.

  • @johnmitchell8925
    @johnmitchell89252 ай бұрын

    You need to follow up on this one with people in chronic pain 24/7

  • @davidinwashington
    @davidinwashington2 ай бұрын

    I was prescribed Valium (a single pill) before a dental appointment. I took it one hour before the appointment. Within 30 minutes, nothing else in the world mattered. I can see how it would be highly addictive if you had regular access to the drug. I can't imagine what getting off Xanax must be like.

  • @elizabethmcleod246

    @elizabethmcleod246

    2 ай бұрын

    I had a pinched nerve deep in my right groin AND metal clips from a previous surgery that had migrated in my pelvis. One clip was on my rectum and another bore through small intestine ending up under the neck of my bladder. The pain was severe, electrocuting and I couldn’t sleep. Doctors wouldn’t remove the clips. I required Compounded Valium and Lidocaine suppositories in order to sleep and calm the muscle spasms. Way too many years later I had the nerve decompressed AND the clips removed. I successfully weaned of the Valium but it took months! I couldn’t stop sweating, shaking, and feeling out of it. I will say though, it saved my life. I was not an addict. I am a mal practise victim. I needed surgery that no doctor I saw in B.C. Canada would help me to have it. Doctors are lazy. They no longer do a proper differential diagnosis anymore. They don’t listen to patients. They hand out anti depressants like candy. I’ll never trust them again.

  • @MedicatingNormal

    @MedicatingNormal

    2 ай бұрын

    There's a difference between addiction and physical dependence. Everyone in our film had prescribed physical dependence. Drug addiction is a cluster of behavioral, cognitive, and physiological phenomena that may include a strong desire to take the drug, difficulties in controlling drug use (e.g., continuing drug use despite harmful consequences, giving a higher priority to drug use than other activities and obligations), and possible tolerance or physical dependence. Note: some clients may use the term “addicted” to describe themselves and their experience but with further exploration, they do not meet criteria for SUD and/or abuse and are actually just experiencing prescribed physical dependence. Physical dependence is a state that develops as a result of physiological adaptation in response to repeated drug use, manifested by withdrawal signs and symptoms after abrupt discontinuation or a significant dose reduction of a drug. The appearance of a withdrawal syndrome when administration of the drug is terminated or when an antagonist is administered is the only actual evidence of physical dependence. In a person who is physically dependent on a drug, a withdrawal syndrome is normally anticipated when the drug is abruptly withdrawn, when the dose is reduced, or when the patient is administered an antagonist. Note: Physical dependence is associated not only with the repeated use of known drugs of abuse, but with drugs with no abuse potential as well. For example, physical dependence to propranolol (a beta-blocker used for the management of hypertension) is known to occur, and abrupt discontinuation may be followed by a “propranolol withdrawal syndrome” resulting in increased blood pressure (temporarily higher than before starting propranolol), headache, chest pain, palpitations, and sweating.

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    @@MedicatingNormal Thank You for your explanation. I did not enjoy the drugs I was put on and at best they are a form of sedation. I hated those drugs.Not once was I ever told what type of drugs I was taking.

  • @visionvixxen
    @visionvixxen2 ай бұрын

    By the way- these studies are never continued long enough or they don’t report this

  • @chantalryan9875
    @chantalryan98752 ай бұрын

    Exelent… thank you..those drugs destroy life I have the example with my daughter.. it is so sad..

  • @tomwong917

    @tomwong917

    2 ай бұрын

    You are not alone.

  • @mlkirkl09
    @mlkirkl092 ай бұрын

    I rely on meds for my bipolar mood changes. Seroquel and Cymbalta have been life changers. I sleep better and can think more clearly.

  • @AJLangford

    @AJLangford

    2 ай бұрын

    Please be very careful and taper slowly if you decide to come off. Im tapering off Cymbalta. I went cold turkey 6 years ago (for 54 days) and have never been the same. It has ruined my life.

  • @Sarahpreecenelsonnz

    @Sarahpreecenelsonnz

    13 күн бұрын

    @@AJLangford so sorry this happened to you. I so hope your caution is well heeded.

  • @AJLangford

    @AJLangford

    11 күн бұрын

    @@Sarahpreecenelsonnz Thank you. I hope so too. Not worth it.

  • @andig5761
    @andig57612 ай бұрын

    I have speaking out against antidepressants since the 1990’s and everyone scoffed at me and told me I didn’t understand depression….

  • @FronteirWolf

    @FronteirWolf

    2 ай бұрын

    Some people will lie in bed all day with depression, even though ,physically, it would be more comfortable to get up. Depression can be really debilitating. It's definitely no joke. But anti depressants are the bare minimum of help. You need tolerance, human connection, lots of patience from the people you live with. You need some moments where you're happy, to be kept safe if you could hurt yourself. You need time and a change of attitude from believing there is absolutely no hope. I'm not sure how anti depressants help. I know they numb you out so you can't overthink which can help you. But I don't love the sound of being chemically restrained to not be depressed. I'm sure if they advertised it like that it wouldn't be selling out. I'm on low doses and I feel that the way it's helped me is to chemically restrain my brain function. I would love to feel grief. A couple of people important to my life died recently and I'm yet to feel anything. I would love to burst into tears and wail in response, but I can't. It like I don't care. That's on low doses. It's livable with and with the ups and downs I have with my mood, I'd get a "no way" to coming off any medication. So I have no choice really. I can't imagine what it's like on higher doses. Overall I have been helped by getting professional help, as I got really mentally ill. Some of the medications side effects are annoying though.

  • @andig5761

    @andig5761

    2 ай бұрын

    @@FronteirWolf antidepressants cause emotional blunting so you’re not feeling everything. Not feeling things harms us physically and emotionally. I have had depression so I know it all too well. I also have OCD and Asperger’s and have remained drug free. I rested and found safe people, began exercising no matter how I felt and eat a Whole Foods diet. I did inner child trauma work and morning pages. I did all the work and was able to rebound into health and remain drug free. It’s possible, but it takes will power and trauma work.

  • @FronteirWolf

    @FronteirWolf

    2 ай бұрын

    @@andig5761 Yeah. My first bout of depression I came through with out psychiatric help. The second time I tried to, but I also developed an ED, and you need professional help with that. I was persuaded to start meds to reduce my anxiety around food, so that's how I started with medication. Recovery put me into crisis, I ended up in hospital and I was put on meds, which seemed to help, but I think a lot of that was just being on the ward as it was a helpful environment. I don't think I have any choice now I'm on them. But that comes with seeking psychiatric help, and I would be in a much worse state now if I hadn't. I'll take the compulsory bluntiing if that's the cost of being almost symptom free of an ED and having survived several attempts and being grateful I didn't succeed.

  • @dv_vid
    @dv_vid2 ай бұрын

    Ending my dependence on Zoloft was hard won. The threats to my doctor to OD on it resulted in blemishes on my police record with the welfare checks, and being reported as a missing person, but that was the price I paid to ensure I will never want to take it again.

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