I wish I never existed

@ayatjn335

2 жыл бұрын

im very sorry, i know how amazing you are and how hard life is but neve give up you are enough and important

@jaydenuniverse9151

2 жыл бұрын

Same…

@Dani-ji4um

2 жыл бұрын

@@jaydenuniverse9151 you will feel better in due time whether it takes weeks, years, decades..

@user-hi6tp1od2i

Жыл бұрын

Same

@Moonlitnightsea

Жыл бұрын

yeah same by the way.

“They'll never know how i'd stared at the dark in that room” omg, hit me so hard.

"Carefully, i was going to live" makes me think of how i felt after failing my suicide attempt

@fwsh_sprite

2 жыл бұрын

Im happy you're alive man

@maggiesouza7

2 жыл бұрын

I'm so proud of you love

@ethanaether8305

2 жыл бұрын

@@fwsh_sprite you dont even understand how much your reply means to me, i've been called a loser and an idiot for how i failed my suicide attempt. Thank you. ♡︎

@ethanaether8305

2 жыл бұрын

@@maggiesouza7 omg you're making me cry, thank you 😭💗

@fwsh_sprite

2 жыл бұрын

@@ethanaether8305 Hey man its no problem and you're not a loser nor are you an idiot whoever told you that is fucking wrong and they need to sort out their own issues you being here at all is a damn miracle and should be celebrated im not gonna say i understand how you feel cause i may not but what i will say is that back in 2017 i failed my own suicide attempt and no one took it seriously when i eventually did come out to my family about it and that hurt more than anything i can ever put into words so trust me when i say i can at least empathize with how you feel and i am so sorry that ever happened to you i will say it again you being here is a fucking miracle and should be celebrated pat yourself on the back for coming out on the other end of whatever drove you to that point may it be your own demons or conflicts outside of your control you may not even be out of it completely and thats more than okay but you're here you're here and you can say you survived this long which makes you so strong and im so proud and happy to say that

When you’re depressed and delusional you already feel like a burden. Even the act of killing yourself feels like a burden to those around you, so she’s relieved this is something out of her hands

POV you found this song a week after thinking this exact thing, wishing for an accidental death, while in an airplane. Also the “They’ll never know how long I’d stared at the dark in that room” gets me every time

Something I heard that helped me see the consequences of suicide: suicide doesn’t get rid of your pain, it just passes it on to others who care about you. Someone will find your body, they’ll clean out your room, they’ll see your corpse and break the news to your parents and siblings and friends. It’s messy. It hurts everyone more than it’ll hurt you, because they have to live with the incorrect and assumed guilt of not being able to stop you. They don’t get over it, no one does. They just learn to accept and live without you, dulling the pain little by little. I imagined myself dead in the corner of my bathroom, watching my parents unlock the door and cry, trying to wake me up. My mom screaming and panicking, my dad telling my sister to stay in her room, my brother finding out from wails over the phone. It was the worst and most vivid daydream I ever had, and hurt so much to imagine how they would realistically react. It made me reconsider every thought of suicide that crossed my mind. … sorry ‘bout that, I got a little bit personal about that as well as off topic. Anyway great lyric video, and anyone considering offing themselves, maybe just don’t? Have a good day/night!

@frog3630

Жыл бұрын

why should I care for what other people think of it when no one has ever cared for me

@lee_likes_bees

Жыл бұрын

@@frog3630yeah i feel that, a ton of ppl i have no empathy for at this point

I think that some of the people in the comment section need this reminder: death isn’t the answer. Things may be undeniably hard right now, but you can’t harm yourself or others. Suicide is not something to be idolized or glorified. If you’re having thoughts about harming yourself or others, please reach out to a trusted adult in your life or a suicide/crisis hotline in you region. Please be mindful of your words when you comment. We’re all rooting for you :)

The part about the liberty bell is so inexplicably sad….

@AJSketches

2 жыл бұрын

i never really understood it to be honest lol

@Sinappisoppa482

2 жыл бұрын

What does it even mean

@no.1garlicbreadenthusiast

2 жыл бұрын

It might be the singer trying to point out that there's a weird kind of sadness about something that can't do what it's traditionally designed for because it's not a "real"/"proper" one of it's kind but most people don’t know that or just don't find it important enough to really think about & how the singer of the song relates in a strange way to the bell because they have always secretly felt that they weren't able to do the things they were "supposed" to because they weren't a "real"/"proper" person, as many people with untreated mental health problems secretly feel like they're faking who they are to fit with what they feel the rest of society expects of them or that they can't succeed at even "normal" stuff, like marriage/kids or a job, because there's something inheritantly "broken" or "missing" within them (ie. they can't "ring" like they're supposed to but are still stuck within the walls of society, silent & useless with no one caring or even thinking about them because as long as people like the singer keep thier room tidy, AKA make sure that thier "issues" don't become inconvenient/unpleasant for "regular" people, then thier suffering isn't relevant to anyone else).

@yourheartbeat4301

11 ай бұрын

@@no.1garlicbreadenthusiast Thank you so much for the explanation💗

This song is really calming to me, yet it also makes me cry most of the time. Comforting, would probably listen to it on my last days. Trying my best to tell myself that things get better, but I'm really scared of the future. Let's see how long this meatbag of mine will last, heh. I know it'll never be the answer, I know I'd hurt my friends, my family, so I prefer just playing with the thought. I can never seem to commit to any decicion, and maybe that's the for best :)

@hogsanmele2617

2 жыл бұрын

I understand you so well, i only think about it but can never really do anything, but i hope everything works out well for you and you will feel better soon

@lyricsgambit

2 жыл бұрын

the beautiful thing about the future is that it's up to you to shape it; but you can't shape a future that you don't live to see. ik that's scary, but just being alive is huge. thank you for trying your best & for being here

@skylarbelljirai

2 жыл бұрын

@@lyricsgambit I'll keep on trying my best, not for others, but for the hope of improvement. If I can feel just a bit better about myself, that's already a big step in the right direction! You two are both really sweet, and I hope you're both doing alright. If not, it'll hopefully come at some point

@qualcuno203

Жыл бұрын

@@skylarbelljirai hi from the future! r u okay? /virtual hug/

@skylarbelljirai

Жыл бұрын

@@qualcuno203 Heya, I don't really know about thattbh. A lot of stuff happened recently, both good and bad. I feel like I'm becoming more fragile for every breath that i take, but I'm trying my best to get through things. How are you?

mitskiの声、本当に素晴らしい。中毒性あり。詩も天才的。新しいアルバムLaurel Hellが楽しみすぎる。

@Noratheboss2234

Жыл бұрын

Addictive is such a perfect word for her music

and did you know the liberty bell is a replica silently housed in its original walls

I know death isn't clean or pretty, in reality it's devastating, and a mess, but that doesn't stop some part of me from thinking it might finally be a rest. Not that things are bad right now, and I don't have any plans to discontinue life (i know it would hurt my friends and family a lot), but at the same time, I have big worries about the future, and I'm tired :( I'm not this tired all the time, it's not overwhelming, and I'll live, but it isn't great, and I'd like to rest

@iregretthis

2 жыл бұрын

I’m the same way right now, it really does suck huh? I hope you feel better in the future though, keep on trudging!

The ceiling won’t respond to my tears

The best advice I can give is that when you get that clawing feeling of despair, of anguish, fury, that one you get when you cry, where you want to do everything and nothing, for everyone to leave you alone, do it. Scream, cry, yell, do everything. Dont let it build up. Fuck everything else, you matter more. Dont let your fear of showing emotions due to trauma come to you, nor fear of embarrassment or anything get to you. That feeling is clawing at you for a reason. For once, when its bubbling up, LET IT OUT. I'm begging, please just let it out. Forget everything. I'm only 12, but I've been through so more than I should've and I don't know if I can get help, but please, just go out, let your primal feelings out. If I could, I'd get on my knees and beg for everyone to do this. Do it while you can before you become like me.

@nkbujvytcygvujno6006

Жыл бұрын

But don’t do it where your abusers can hear you and punish you for it. I’ve learned that the hard way.

[Verse 1] All of this turbulence wasn't forecasted Apologies from the intercom And I am relieved that I'd left my room tidy They'll think of me kindly when they come for my things They'll never know how I'd stared at the dark in that room With no thoughts, like a blood-sniffing shark And while my dreams made music in the night, carefully I was going to live [Verse 2] You wouldn't leave 'til we loved in the morning You'd learned from movies how love ought to be And you'd say you love me and look in my eyes But I know through mine, you were looking in yours And did you know the Liberty Bell is a replica Silently housed in its original walls And while its dreams played music in the night, quietly It was told to believe [Verse 3] I always wanted to die clean and pretty But I'd be too busy on working days So I am relieved that the turbulence wasn't forecasted I couldn't have changed anyways I am relieved that I'd left my room tidy Goodbye

am i mentally unwell for being sick of every looped songs except for this one song ? ..... nah, im sure im fine.

this song is more comforting for me than anything, ive experienced my fair share of sadness but rn i know im just tired and i just need a break to wrap my head around things and pick myself back up. i know i couldnt put my family through that but i cant help but think how easy it would be to just let go, how peaceful it would be to just rest. i wouldnt leave a sad note but rather i would leave a happy note for people to remember me by and know that im in a better place.

i was crying in my room in the closet while everyone downstairs were having dinner and chatting crying on how im a absolute waste of space (i used to be a very happy child when i was still living with my dad but he passed sadly) this song came on the tv and that one line "i always wanted to die clean and pretty" (i have been fighting with cutting and other stuff :, ) everyday im just in my bed on my phone or computer looking at people with perfect lives big houses, fancy designer clothes, personal jets.. . ect and then theres me weeping in my room tired

@lyricsgambit

Жыл бұрын

what people post online is always a highlight reel, it's unrealistic to compare yourself to them. things will get better, and if it doesn't feel that way, then that just means that it isn't the end. life has a way of working itself out eventually, please stay safe in the meantime :)

favourite mitski song by far

this song touches my soul

mitski is like a music sylvia plath

i love this song so much and this video is super cute💜

@bridgett7292

2 жыл бұрын

Just like you 😆💕

I AM GOING TO CRY WHY IS MITSKI SO EMOTIONAL GRRRR

This is such a bop.. But it’s also mad depressing 😟😟🤞

as I’m singing this trying not to cry the lights in my room shut off immediately after I said goodbye and I- 🥲

1:54 god fucking damnit

This song is a familiar feeling. i used to listen to it when my health first started declining, and I could barely think on a good day. the pain was so overwhelming, all I could do was move and try to feel, but everything was a blur, like all I could see was smoke, but the alarm was blaring in my ears. I got help eventually, but I still think about the year I lost. now things have gotten bad again, and every step i take hurts, my legs ache constantly, and nothing fixes it. I feel faint and nauseous most days, even walking downstairs hurts, and after going out to the movies yesterday my hands are still shaking. Im in so much pain, and i can't bring myself to say anything. I don't want to go through that again, nobody believing me, acting as if im the reason that im in pain, saying it's all in my head. chronic illness is awful, and i feel like im dying slowly, so slowly that nobody notices. I remember that this song used to comfort me, because it gave me an escape, told me that I didn't have to live like this, that it all ends eventually. I can't change anything, not about my health, but I hope my end is quiet, and peaceful.

Don't know if I'm going the right direction or wrong one all I know is that I love her so much

♡

Thsi could be about suicide if the turbulence wasnt mentioned or the name of the song wasnt what it is

This song is one of my reasons to live but I relate to it 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

The song is beautiful but i really gotta stop listening to sad songs man. I've got wonderful people who love me and I never want to become a burden to them. I'll try my best to be happy so they don't need to worry.

Y say that you have so much to live for

I really relate to this song.

i think people kind of overinterpret this song it has themes of suicide obviously but i don't think suicide itself is what it's actually about edit: it’s just about being on a (literal) plane that’s about to crash. she is thinking about her life and how she’s “relieved she left her room tidy” cause of what people will think of her when she’s gone. in the end, she comes to a realization that she’s happy that the plane is crashing because her death will be seen as a tragic accident, not a suicide. i.e. “i always wanted to die clean and pretty but i’d be too busy on working days” death is happening for her, she doesn’t have to do it herself and that is relieving. obviously mitski was not actually on a crashing plane but it’s a beautiful song, beautiful symbolism and these are actual thoughts i have thought about even on a normal plane. “what if this plane crashes? have i done enough in life yet?” and i’m sure many others can relate

@fetnw

2 жыл бұрын

then what do you think it's about?

@alena8933

2 жыл бұрын

Mitski's stated it's about suicide and depression

@fetnw

2 жыл бұрын

@@alena8933 Thanks, I know, I was asking their opinion though

@alena8933

2 жыл бұрын

@@fetnw i wasnt tallking to u i was talking to the person who made the comment

@fetnw

2 жыл бұрын

@@alena8933 Oh my bad. for some reason it gave me a notif that you replied to me

“i was going to live”

0:10 1:53

i hate that i have people who love me because i want to leave without hurting anyone

@lyricsgambit

4 ай бұрын

they love you for a reason--you deserve to live & find happiness :)

Suicide is horrible for the loved ones but they need to know that that's probably what set the sufferer free. I think it should be celebrated not cried over. They finally didn't hurt anymore

@oiwhathefuck

2 жыл бұрын

@@Liz_666 it may be a result of suffering but no one did shit about it for them. Now when they've made themselves rest finally, the least we can do is not be a bitch about it. We could be happy for them

@candybun7370

2 жыл бұрын

@@oiwhathefuck that is......a terrible way of thinking. It may sound totally logical, but you're actually forgetting that most people don't see suicide as a "rest" or as is it was something they wanted to do in the first place. Please be kinder, if a person you love dies what can you do but cry? you never saw the signs, you couldn't have helped and now they're gone. Suicide is not a way out of pain, the way out of pain is to seek help and make changes to achieve the life you want, if it doesn't work or it's too hard, keep trying, life is not a race and its supposed to be shared with others, never be afraid to ask for help.

@sunshinemilktea8694

2 жыл бұрын

I'm not necessarily one who should say anything as I am unable to mourn a loss, I feel that the fact that this person lived at some point, should be celebrated, but the fact they are gone should be mourned. The impact they have had on others should not be ignored, be it good while they were alive, and bad after they passed.. Everyone feels everything differently, some do celebrate their life before, and most do mourn... But, I feel that everyone mourning those who have passed should remember that there are many who care for them and the person gone. I apologize if this came off as rude in anyway,,, I don't mean to make anyone upset,,

@Vi1do

2 жыл бұрын

I don’t think we should celebrate the fact that someone was so miserable that they ended their own existence. Thinking it should be a happy thing is just unacceptable honesty.

@Gloomurai_ii

2 жыл бұрын

My best friend committed su1c1d3 and when you lose someone it hurts and you can’t help but cry and feel pain su1c1d3 shouldn’t be celebrated at all it’s not good and it’s offensive losing someone sucks and take a while to get over so you shouldn’t say it should be celebrated